["Dive" by Olivia Dean playing]
♪ It isn't working ♪
♪ I'm a tidal wave of question marks ♪
♪ And you're just surfing ♪
♪ Leaning into me like it's an art ♪
-♪ It's so crazy... ♪ - [fireworks squealing]
♪ Lately ♪
♪ You just understand my feelings ♪
♪ Lately ♪
♪ See, I'm capable and fine ♪
- ♪ And feeling beautified tonight ♪ - [fireworks squealing, banging]
♪ I'm ready to dive ♪
♪ Maybe it's the lovin' in your eyes ♪
♪ I'm here, see through ♪
♪ Maybe it's the magic in the wine ♪
♪ Right into you ♪
♪ I'm ready to dive ♪
♪ Right into you ♪
♪ Maybe it's the fact That every time I fall ♪
♪ I lose it all ♪
♪ But you got me From my head to my feet... ♪
- [breathing heavily] - ♪ And I'm ready to dive ♪
[fireworks whizzing, exploding]
[Charlie] Nick?
Why are you looking at me like that? [chuckles]
- [Tara chuckles] - I told you. Dog cuddles solve everything.
Yeah, this is exactly what I needed. Hello.
You have seemed a bit stressed lately.
I've been a bit stressed all year.
I just have way too much on my plate.
I love my ballet classes,
but I've got to get three buses to get there, and...
I could drive you to ballet.
I'm not doing anything most Saturdays anyway, so...
- Nick, you don't have to. - No, I want to.
All right. Well, maybe.
Anyway, what's going on with you?
I feel like we haven't had a catch-up in ages.
How are you and Charlie?
Good. Yeah.
Charlie's been a lot better these days, so...
- And how's Nick doing these days? - Fine.
Yeah, I'm all good.
Haven't really got much going on, to be honest.
That's because you've been focused on helping Charlie.
I get it.
I've been focused on Darcy and all their stuff with their mum.
You just need to remember to look after yourself too.
I still think journaling is really beneficial.
- [Nick chuckles] - [Henry whines]
[Tara] Yeah, journaling is beneficial.
[school bell ringing]
Okay, class, it is the moment you've all been waiting for.
- Cucumbers and condoms. - [class snickering]
We wanna take things further, but I don't wanna make things awkward,
and, honestly, I don't even know what the hell I'm doing.
I don't want our first time to be bad and embarrassing.
Maybe if I'm this nervous, I'm not actually ready to do anything.
- Calm down. - It's a good thing we're in sex ed.
I mean, maybe you'll get some good advice.
Or maybe not.
You clearly are ready. You literally won't shut up about it.
And it's not exactly rocket science. I mean, how bad can it really be?
I don't know. I feel like I don't know anything.
Just have sex with him, please,
so we can stop hearing about it.
[teacher] Come on. It's only a cucumber. Don't do that. Focus.
[boys snickering]
[Tao] Ugh. So slimy.
[teacher] That is not an appropriate question for this class.
We're here to talk about contraception.
I've got it the wrong way round.
[gentle music playing]
[cell phone vibrates]
[Otis] Aspirations.
[indistinct whispering]
[keypad clicking]
She was proper decent, to be fair. Like, she was just feeling it all night.
You could tell she wanted it,
and it got to a point I just thought, "Why not, really?"
[boys snickering]
- [boy] I don't... - He was boasting about it yesterday.
I just don't think losing your virginity is that big of a deal.
Like, it's probably gonna be bad anyway.
It's a big deal because it's the first time you're having sex.
- [cell phone vibrates] - Like, that is a big deal.
I mean, I know the concept of virginity is bullshit, but, like, I'm still nervous.
- [Sai] Yeah. - [Otis] Just wait till marriage.
- [Christian] Nah. - [Otis] It's only five years.
[Christian] Five?
[cell phone vibrates]
[chuckles]
[indistinct chattering, snickering]
- [teacher] Condoms prevent pregnancy... - The way you guys flirt is so weird.
- Don't read my texts. - [teacher] ...protect against STIs.
We are now going to look at some images of STIs.
[disgusted gasping, groaning]
- [teacher] Students, look and learn. - [giggling]
[teacher] Calm down.
I don't blame you for being nervous. That's normal.
Easy for you to say.
- You were so confident when you and Elle-- - I wasn't.
I just enjoyed making it sound like the most cinematic night of my life.
We were in some random bedroom at a house party.
We had no idea what we were doing,
and even after that, we still had a lot to learn about each other
and what feels good.
Maybe we get things wrong, you know, but...
You know, it's not some perfect, effortless thing.
But it's me and Elle, and we love each other.
And if it's awkward, we can just laugh about it.
I mean, it's supposed to be fun, isn't it?
- Isn't it? - [chuckles]
[Tao clicks tongue]
[teacher] And one last thing to remember, folks.
I should be running this sex-ed lesson.
How was Elle's interview? She didn't really mention it on the chat.
Oh, yeah, it was, um...
I think they decided not to air it, actually.
- That sucks. - Yeah.
- [Felix] God, stop! - [Naomi] Steve.
- Just get it out. - [Felix] Go away.
Literally bullying.
[indistinct chattering]
[puts phone down]
Looks like you've almost finished.
- I don't think I like it anymore. - Why not?
I'm sorry about the interview, Elle. Your mother and I had a chat.
- I should have expected it. - No. No, you shouldn't.
Doesn't matter. I don't wanna talk about it anymore.
[teacher sighs]
[gentle music playing]
- Charlie, come on. - Slow down!
[door creaks open]
- Have you-- - [Nick] Don't come in!
- [David] Christ! Sorry. - Fuck off! [breathing heavily]
Sorry. I... I, uh... I... I didn't know he was here.
[chuckles] It's all right. I'm just glad it wasn't your mum.
[both chuckle]
[Nick] Ooh. [exhales deeply]
[sighs]
[distant drumming]
[cell phone dings]
[whoosh]
[pensive music playing]
[chuckles softly]
[whoosh]
[chuckles softly]
[whoosh]
[chuckling]
[whoosh]
- [Nick chuckles] - [keypad clicking]
[whoosh]
- [keypad clicking] - [whoosh]
[pensive music continues]
I think this is the best drawing I've done so far.
[chuckles softly] Look.
[high-pitched] I'm improving!
[both chuckle]
Reckon I could be the next...
- The next someone. - [Elle chuckles]
Tao Xu, artist of goldfish.
[Elle laughs]
Can I sleep over tonight?
[sighs] You know how my mum is about it.
She loves you.
But, yeah, she'd say no.
We can watch a movie though.
What about Moonrise Kingdom, hmm?
[Elle sighs deeply]
Do you wanna talk about it?
[Elle sighs]
Is there anything I could do to make you feel better?
[Tao sighs]
["Pegasus" by Arlo Parks feat. Phoebe Bridgers playing softly]
- It's been so long since you stayed over. - I know. It's my fault.
[Darcy] No, I get it. You've had extra schoolwork and stuff.
I have. It's been too much.
[Darcy] Yeah. I'm worried about you.
Don't worry.
I've just decided
I'm gonna look after myself and do what I want.
And that includes
doing me?
[Darcy chuckles]
Obviously.
♪ Blue jewels 'round your neck ♪
♪ You cool my distress ♪
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
♪ Loose cherries, hard breath ♪
♪ I'm overwhelmed... ♪
[both giggling]
♪ I spun 'round and screamed "I feel elated when you..." ♪
[Nick] Just move a little bit that way. Yeah.
No, that's perfect. Now everyone knows how much I love you.
[school bell rings]
- And how much you love me. - Mm-hmm.
All right. All right! Pipe down!
Yeah, I know, it's Year 11's last day before study hall, but guess what?
That's still one more day. Do you get it?
Uh, Charlie, can I have a quick word before you go?
I'll see you at rugby.
[indistinct chatter]
You're staying at Truham for sixth form, right?
- Yeah. - [Ajayi] Good.
I wanted to give you this.
Campaigning starts in the autumn. I think you should apply.
Really? Why?
Well, you're smart, you're a strong person,
and I think you could do a lot of good for the kids at this school.
[hesitates] Just something to think about over the summer.
[chuckles softly]
Okay. Thanks.
- [gentle music playing] - Charlie.
There are a lot of, um, younger students
who would find it inspiring to see you as head boy.
That's all.
I'll think about it. I promise.
Shall we, uh, go for lunch?
Yeah.
[Naomi] I think it might be finished.
[Felix] Post it on Instagram. Your followers will love it.
Elle, we know you've been really down since that interview.
[Elle sighs]
It's not like this radio woman was a raging bigot or anything.
She probably thinks of herself as an ally.
But I was there to talk about my art.
Have you spoken to anyone about it?
Tao maybe?
[Elle inhales deeply]
I love Tao... [chuckles]
...and he would fight the world for me, but...
he just can't properly understand.
We're here.
We might understand.
["Heartbreaker" by Birdy playing]
♪ Feel like I've been reading you wrong ♪
♪ And we've tilted from where we started ♪
♪ If someone's gonna let go ♪
♪ It's me that's gotta let go ♪
♪ I'm damned if I do Gonna be damned if I don't, oh ♪
♪ Ay, no ♪
♪ Ay, no, oh ♪
♪ Ay, no ♪
♪ Ay, no, oh ♪
♪ You say, "One more dance..." ♪
You trying to peek?
No.
It's allowed. We're in love.
♪ I'm fallin'... ♪
- Stop. I'm not. I'm not trying to peek. - [Charlie chuckles]
♪ I don't know what I'm doing I don't know what I'm doing ♪
♪ You say, "One more dance" And I always give in ♪
♪ I don't know what I'm doing I don't know what I'm doing ♪
♪ I'm fallin'... ♪
[Singh] Come on, use that ball!
I had an idea.
- Yeah? - Mm-hmm.
Maybe, uh, one night, you could stay round mine? Just us.
Think your parents would let you? I know my mum would be fine with it.
- I'll ask. - [Singh] Nick and Charlie!
Pay attention, please. It's the last practice of the year.
[Charlie chuckles]
Yeah, good luck getting Mum to agree to a boyfriend sleepover.
She will. I'll ask her when she's in a good mood.
That doesn't happen very often.
[Michael] There's not really much point in her banning sleepovers.
If you and Nick want to have sex, you'll have sex.
You don't need a sleepover.
If you don't have any good advice, I'm gonna go upstairs.
My advice is to sneak out.
My advice is that a sleepover is unnecessary
for the activity in question.
Good luck.
I hope you do get to have your sex sleepover.
- [Tori sighs] - Thank you.
Michael, can you stop talking about my brother having sex? Please.
- Sorry. [chuckles] - [door opens]
- [Tori] Ugh. - [door closes]
[pensive music playing]
[chuckles softly]
[music fades]
Me and Darcy wait till we have a free house.
Or until everyone's asleep if they're staying over.
[chuckles] There was one time that we, uh...
[clicks tongue]
What?
I mean,
school is an option.
You had sex at school?
Yeah, it was... it was only once...
[giggling] ...and it was a really bad idea.
[snickering]
Oh. Yeah, I don't... I don't think we're quite there yet.
And also we have a... a history of getting walked in on.
Yeah. You guys have been waiting a long time.
Yeah.
That's not a bad thing.
There's so much pressure to have sex at our age,
but people should just take as long as they need.
Yeah, Charlie's been through a lot.
You've been through a lot too, Nick. Don't forget that.
Yeah, well... [sighs]
...not really though.
It's okay to admit that Charlie being ill was tough for you.
You don't have to be the strong one all the time.
Trust me, I learned that the hard way.
- Why do you have to be so smart? - [chuckles]
So, uh, do you have any advice about that kind of stuff?
Oh, Nick...
[chuckles] ...I'm not really the person to ask about sex between guys.
Yeah... Yeah, yeah, fair enough.
- [clears throat] Yeah. - [giggling]
- Sorry. [chuckles, clears throat]
[man] Here we go.
One, two, three, four.
One, two, three, a four.
- [mouthing] - [man] One, two, three, a four.
One, two, three, a four.
- Did you get the bus all the way here? - Yep. All three of them.
- Why? - I just wanted to see you dancing.
You always look so happy when you're dancing.
You're so ridiculous.
It's nothing compared to what you've done for me this year.
Letting me stay at your house. Helping me move to my gran's.
Taking me clothes shopping.
Convincing me to cut my hair when I kept backing out.
Those are, like, very low-bar things, Darce.
I...
I just don't think I would've had the courage
to... explore being nonbinary if it weren't for you.
I mean, I probably would've got around to it eventually,
but you made it feel so easy and...
and joyful.
Nonbinary?
Yeah.
I know we haven't talked about it properly or anything.
It's just a huge deal, and...
I didn't wanna overload you with that, like, bomb drop.
[sighs] But you've seemed calmer recently.
It's not a huge deal.
It's... Unless you want it to be?
It's just you.
It's just me and you.
[gentle music playing]
[Darcy groans happily]
- I think... Here we are. - I don't even know anymore.
Okay. You choose. It's up to you.
Um...
Let me check.
Okay, are we... I found it.
Okay. I just want to see...
- Is this rosemary? - [laughs]
- Wow. - Just be careful.
- Okay. I wanna tap that would... boiling... - That would do for everything.
This is madness.
Know my way around this kitchen as well.
[Charlie's mum] Thank you.
I really liked that one.
Yeah, me too. We should try it again sometime.
- Mum... - [mum] Mm-hmm?
Me and Nick were wondering if I could stay round his one night?
Oh, uh... Well, yes, at some point. [chuckles softly]
We were thinking soon.
[sighs] Um...
I... I... I'm not sure, Charlie. I'm not saying no.
It's... it's just...
[sighs] ...you have your GCSE exams coming up,
and this is quite a big step.
And I'm mentally ill, so I can't.
- That's not what I said. - [Charlie] That's what you were thinking.
It's what you're always thinking.
You think I'm a child who can't make my own decisions.
That's not fair.
Mr. Ajayi nominated me to be head boy on Friday.
- That... that's great, Charlie. - [scoffs]
I... It's just... you're only 16, and you've been very ill.
Mum, seriously, what are you so worried about?
We all love Nick.
Okay, Tori, I'm not... You know what?
We'll talk about this once your exams are over.
I'm not a child.
If wanna see my boyfriend, I will. You can't stop me.
[mum] Charlie, I... [sighs]
Charlie! [sighs]
[Charlie sighs]
- [dad] Just-- - [mum] Just...
[front door opens, slams]
[sighs]
- You okay? - [inhales deeply]
- [sighs] - Yeah.
- Are your eyes shut as well? - Yes, they're shut.
- Forward. - Tao, what... [chuckles]
- What's going on? - Three, two, one.
Movie night!
[Elle gasps, chuckles]
Tao, you do not have to do all this.
Oh, but I do. It's a special one tonight.
Okay, let's sit down.
Ah. Ooh.
Okay, so before we begin,
I wanna say something.
I know you've been really down lately and uninspired about your art.
It made me think about when Charlie was really ill
and I made him that video.
It was the first time I felt like I could create something
that put joy into the world.
I guess I never really thought of myself as a creative person before that,
but I love making these little videos to cheer up the people I love.
So... I made you one.
["The Most Beautiful thing" by Thomas Headon playing]
♪ She lays her head on me
♪ While she falls asleep ♪
♪ She gently closes her eyes ♪
♪ In the night, she's perfect... ♪
- [inaudible] - ♪ Though I can't even see ♪
♪ I wouldn't change her at all ♪
♪ No matter how much we fight ♪
♪ I think I could stare into her eyes And fall in love again every time ♪
♪ 'Cause she remains to be... ♪
- [chuckles] - ♪ The most beautiful thing ♪
♪ I've ever seen ♪
[inaudible]
- ♪ 'Cause she will always be... ♪ - [sniffles]
♪ The most beautiful thing ♪
♪ I've ever seen ♪
[breathes shakily, sniffles]
[music fades]
I guess...
that's how I see you.
[Elle chuckles, sniffles]
[tranquil music playing]
[fluttering]
[Elle] It feels like the whole world is against me.
You can always talk to me about it.
- Yeah? - [sniffles]
I'm just scared you won't get it. [sniffles]
But I'll try.
- [exhales shakily] - I'll always try.
[Elle sniffles, chuckles]
[music fades]
[pensive music playing]
[sighs]
[Charlie] Nick.
[tinkling]
Need a distraction?
Yeah.
[electricity fizzing]
Please don't leave me behind.
[gasps]
[doorbell rings]
Hi.
I should've texted. Sorry.
It's fine.
Are you okay? What's wrong?
She was like, "You're only 16, and you've been ill."
Okay. What has that got to do with me spending time with my boyfriend?
She never listens to me.
I'm just sick of everyone treading on eggshells around me.
Like, yeah, I've been ill,
but that doesn't mean that I can't do fun things and be a teenager.
I'm not fragile.
And I wanna have sex with you. What's wrong with that?
[tender music playing]
[chuckles]
[fireworks crackling, popping]
[Nick chuckles]
- You don't think I'm fragile, do you? - No! No. I...
Charlie, you're, like, the strongest person I've ever met.
You know exactly who you are and... and what you want.
I think, um...
I think... I think I'm more fragile than you are.
What? Why?
[fireworks squealing, banging]
You give me so much confidence.
But when you're not around, I, um...
I don't know. I guess I feel a bit lost.
- Nick... - It's... it's nothing.
No. What do you mean?
I... [sighs]
I can't talk to anyone else like I talk to you.
I think, when I realized I was bi...
I feel like I woke up.
Because I was repressing so much of myself before then.
You know, not just my sexuality, but my thoughts and feelings.
My personality.
I still hide behind that mask sometimes.
Just laughing and joking with my mates, but never really opening up to anyone,
and now I'm thinking about uni and my future and...
[sighs]
[sighs heavily]
Basically, I'm just freaking out.
[Charlie chuckles softly]
- That didn't make any sense. - [chuckles] It did.
You're allowed to be a mess sometimes.
- Oh, I'm a mess now, am I? - [chuckles]
- I think we're both a bit of a mess. - Hmm.
[tender music intensifies]
[electricity crackling, fizzing]
[fireworks squealing]
[Nick sighs]
You came here all upset, and I made it all about me.
- Oh, shut up. - Yeah, but--
Nick, shut up.
["Ode to a Conversation Stuck in Your Throat" playing]
- Is anyone else home? - Uh... no.
♪ I do not want to fight this anymore ♪
♪ I just want to lay back ♪
♪ And watch you pin me to the bed... ♪
- [fireworks squealing, popping] - ♪ I used to call you my best friend ♪
♪ Way back before You were my everything... ♪
Do you wanna carry on? We don't have to if you don't want to.
Char, this is literally the only thing I've been able to think about.
[chuckles softly]
Me too.
♪ I do not know the words to it yet, oh ♪
♪ And it hits me ♪
♪ I don't want anybody else Touching you like I do... ♪
- Do you want mine off? - Yeah.
[Nick chuckles]
♪ Is it okay ♪
♪ That I don't want anybody else Touching you like I do? ♪
♪ Like I do ♪
♪ Like me, yeah ♪
♪ Tell me that nobody else Touches you like I do... ♪
- Is this okay? - Yeah.
♪ Tell me that nobody else Touches you like me ♪
♪ Oh ♪
♪ And it hits me ♪
- ♪ I don't want anybody else... ♪ - [both chuckling]
♪ Touching you like I do ♪
♪ Like I do ♪
♪ Like me ♪
♪ Is it okay ♪
♪ That I don't want anybody else Touching you like I do? ♪
♪ Like I do ♪
♪ Like me ♪
♪ You're in his living room ♪
♪ And it may not mean much to you ♪
♪ But your plates are in his sink ♪
♪ And your sweater's on his bed ♪
♪ Won't you text me when you're home? ♪
♪ My baby, spare me all the rest ♪
♪ Please just tell me That nobody else touches you like I do ♪
♪ Oh, tell me that nobody else Touches you like me ♪
♪ And it hits me ♪
♪ I don't want anybody else Touching you like I do ♪
♪ Like I do ♪
♪ Like me ♪
[music fades out]