That'll be true or false.
The "Ali" of the title is the Welsh football manager?
- False. - Yes. Two points scored.
And finally, to Carl...
Last night, in the middle of the night, I got up.
Yes, two points. A total of six to the reds!
I'd been awake all night.
Great! Now over to the yellows to do the spinning.
When it comes time to sleep, my body goes, "We're not!"
"We're not."
Four hours of just tossing and turnin' and...
dealing with an amorphous blob of stuff.
Fancy doing a bit of singing?
Fear.
Shame.
Pain.
The whole gamut of
human emotions.
I'm nearly 50.
I'm a dad, dad of four, with a loving wife.
It's astounding what's happened in my life.
But it feels as though the past has me in a headlock.
- Robbie! Robbie! - Something has to give.
Go on, buddy! You can do it!
Come on!
- You good? - I'm fuckin' good at this!
One of the biggest-selling solo artists of all time.
One of the greatest showmen.
...platinum albums, sell-out gigs...
Keep telling me I'm fuckin' great.
Off me fucking tits.
Would anybody like to see me fight Liam?
See if you can do your best with that!
♪ You're my rock of empathy, my dear ♪
♪ Come on, let me entertain you ♪
♪ Let me entertain you ♪
I'm fucking Robbie Williams.
I am trying to sort out the wreckage of the past.
And I'm picking a rather particular way to exorcise these demons right now.
Why are we doing it here?
I'm a hermit. If I'm not on stage, I'm in bed.
- That's why we're here. - Yeah.
Yeah.
Can we just... Can we start?
When I was a kid, I was kinda like thick.
Can't spell.
I can't add up or subtract.
Tape is rolling.
I left school at 16 with no qualifications whatsoever
and joined a boy band
that's gonna be the English version of New Kids on the Block.
Four, three, two, one.
♪ Come on, come on, come on, come on Take that and party ♪
♪ Come on, come on, come on, come on Take that ♪
Fantastic!
Wow, the crowd loved you! How long have you been together?
- About two months. - Two months.
Did you all dance beforehand?
Well, I didn't do much dancin'. Just, like, local discos and everythin'.
But I did enough to keep up with these lot.
Fuckin' 'ell.
Look at me!
I look very young.
You know, I was the baby of the band.
♪ Come on, come on, come on, come on Take that and party... ♪
I enjoyed everybody's company.
In my head, I'm looking up to these older brothers that are, like, 20, 21, 22.
When you're 16, that's... that gap's huge.
I couldn't help but be in awe of Gaz.
He was the captain of the ship.
How many songs have you actually got together now?
We've got probably about 30 tracks in all.
Every week, Gary's coming in with new material.
We're doin' new dances all the time.
♪ Do what you like ♪
♪ No need to ask me ♪
♪ Do what you want... ♪
In the early days of Take That, it was fun.
- ♪ ...what you like ♪ - ♪ No need to tell me ♪
♪ Do what you want... ♪
The joy and the excitement, the exhilaration.
- ♪ Ice ♪ - ♪ Could never be as cold... ♪
It felt like this was all going somewhere.
♪ You stir me up inside... ♪
It felt big!
And then it became massive.
Okay, so it's pretty quiet now,
but you should've been here 20 minutes ago.
They are the hottest young band anywhere in the UK.
...most popular British group since the Beatles.
Take That!
♪ Every time I'm near you ♪
♪ Whirling like a cyclone in my mind... ♪
These girls say they've had the best night of their lives.
- ♪ You're my lifeline ♪ - ♪ Whoa, whoa... ♪
Our success did give some sort of sense of...
"Hey!"
♪ Answer to all answers I can't find... ♪
But it was always intercut with...
"Whoa."
♪ Come into my arms... ♪
You're on bedroom walls across Britain,
and you get mobbed wherever you go.
Do you still enjoy it?
It's still enjoyable,
and it's like, um, I wake up in the morning pinchin' meself.
"Is this really happening?" and
it isn't.
- We're not 'ere really, are we? - No, we're not.
♪ Baby, I want you ♪
♪ Come ♪
♪ Come into... ♪
Externally, I'm sure that I would've been full of bravado
and trying to look as though I think I'm the man.
♪ ...of all of you ♪
♪ Could it be magic now... ♪
It was a complete
dunking
into the grown-up... world
that I wasn't ready for.
Thank you and good night!
The workload was
relentless.
We do this.
Then we get to there.
There was no five minutes in front of us.
Reason they're screaming is 'cause Elvis is 'ere as well.
Got to go and do an interview now for Radio 1.
We'll hopefully have lots of fun.
It is a very special Rockland this afternoon.
As we promised a few weeks ago,
we have the members, all five members, of Take That in the studio.
Gary and Howard and Jason and Robbie and Mark.
It's been going very well. Congratulations for the chart success you've had.
How does it affect your everyday life when you get up in the morning?
To speak the truth, and this is honest, I wake up some mornings and think,
"Where am I, what do we do, and what's me name?"
Who are you, what do you do, and what is yer name?
I'm Robbie.
I am in Take That, and I sing and dance.
It was an unusual scenario to be in.
In a very intense
background atmosphere and surrounding.
That is a pressure cooker.
Without meaning to brag, it's been... it's been going good for us,
so it could end for us, like, at anytime, and then all the people we laugh at--
I'm still down to earth and humble.
No, you're not! You're...
You're downright arrogant and... and blasé and...
- Downright arrogant, yeah. - I'm not.
You are.
When I turned about 19,
I started to have a long, hard think about what was happenin'.
Too many interviews, too many performances,
so many countries to visit, and then repeat it.
Mark's been up since half past five,
and I've been up since about quarter to six, six o'clock.
And we can't go to sleep. Jet lag. Who needs it? D'you know what I mean?
Take That's fandom was obsessive.
It was intense!
Step!
On top of that,
there was an assurancy about Gaz and his ability
mixed with
a coldness.
This is me prize lyric book, this is, and it's really strange to look through.
It's got all the songs I've ever written.
Every now and again, you'll find a little star next to it,
which means it's gone on an album.
That'll do me!
And it seemed like
there was one person being managed in Take That, and it was Gary Barlow.
It was all geared around him.
And as a young person, I would've been jealous of that.
I suppose a lot of me resented him.
One, two, three. "Hi, we're Take That." Okay?
- You're gonna do it. - Okay.
Hi, I'm Rob. I'm good. Watch this space for more of the same.
Ready. I'll do it.
- It's good. - Gaz, do you wanna sit at the front?
I was goin' home from these days thinkin', "This is weird."
"Uncomfortable."
It's Lord of the Flies stuff.
Rock and roll.
I wasn't adept
at dealing with the dynamics in the band at such an early age.
And that's when the wheels came off
for me.
People do tend to see us as the boys next door,
and we still are, funnily enough.
We just happen to be the boys next door for the Lord Lichfield.
Jacuzzis and outside ser--
Boy? Boy!
Oh, thank you very much.
Went out last night. Didn't get in until six o'clock.
But, you know, do it while you're young, don't ya?
Uh, as I say, really enjoying ourselves, so...
- I've gotta get some booze! - Obsessed.
Aw, don't. You've started this bastard now!
Adding petrol to the fire,
I was ingestin' everything that I could get my hands on.
Ecstasy, cocaine, drinking.
Couldn't eat a whole one! Wahey!
I'm literally drinking, like, a bottle of vodka bef... a night
before going into rehearsals.
Um...
So that's happenin'.
That's happenin' every night.
There was meetings that were had with me
where... "we need you to behave" meetings.
What's the best thing about being here?
Um... People not expecting me to be 'ere,
and the reaction on their faces when they see me.
Go behind him like a Glastonbury nutter.
It's a Glastonbury nutter.
It's one of them people that get on It'll be Alright...
It's Alright on the Night thing.
It may have been seen by management
that I was letting the side down.
Especially when I went to Glastonbury.
Anarchy.
I was told, "This is not how you behave in a boy band."
Actually got nothing interesting whatsoever to say.
Which is quite un... uh...
quite a bit disturbin'.
The sense that, um,
I wasn't ready or capable to fulfill the role
that was being asked of me was palpable.
One day, I went in for rehearsals,
and then at lunchtime, they said, "Rob, we need to have a band meeting."
I said to the boys I just couldn't be there anymore.
Then they said, "Look, we wanna see if we can do this tour as a four-piece."
"What do you think?"
And in the end,
you know, "What do you think?" was me deciding to
leave Take That.
Finally, tonight, the band minus one.
Take That are arguably Britain's most successful group since the Beatles,
but when they arrived today to record for the BBC's Top of the Pops,
there were just four of them.
Is anybody angry with Robbie?
Yes!
Would you listen to his music if he does a solo career?
- No. - ♪ Got a head of shattered dreams ♪
♪ Gotta leave it... ♪
Did you have a plan?
I think the... the plan was
"Let's get wrecked."
♪ Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it ♪
♪ I just want ya back for good ♪
♪ I want you back, I want you back... ♪
I moved to London as a famous 21-year-old,
and I'm just going to parties all the time.
♪ I'll sing it... ♪
I had no direction.
No reason to be.
I'm losing a lot of days to hangovers.
Losing a sense of self.
Turnin' into something that you don't recognize.
Wanted to make somethin' of myself.
Achieve somethin'. Be someone.
But there's nothing that I'm doing.
I was just in Groucho doin' a lotta coke.
What would you do if you weren't a musician?
- Uh... - Be a footballer?
I dunno, actually. Probably be a pig farmer.
I needed somebody to help me with the thoughts and melodies
that I have in my head.
♪ Ooh ♪
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
So, who are you?
Who am I? I'm Guy. And I'm, uh...
uh, Rob's MD and producer.
So what does that involve?
Mm. You haven't got... How much film have you got?
- No rest for the wicked. - No rest for the wicked!
♪ Freaky young lady Name of Cocaine Katie ♪
♪ She makes my temperature freeze... ♪
I set out to make an album,
but I didn't know how I was gonna do it.
♪ She'll bring you to your knees ♪
There was a list of people that was sent to me,
and one was Guy Chambers, and I went, "Him."
He was a jobbin' musician
considering becomin' a teacher 'cause things were drying up.
Apart from the leak in his roof, which he had and couldn't pay to be fixed.
So, we really needed each other.
♪ I think you oughta ♪
♪ 'Cause you know you're gonna have to leave ♪
♪ To a place where you can breathe ♪
♪ And you know there's no reprieve... ♪
- Good t... Good takes? - Yeah.
- Good takes? - Yeah. Very good.
- You should have a little break now. - Great. Tell 'em.
Have a little break. A walk up the street or something.
Might want a coat.
I think I'll have a sit down, actually.
Okay.
On account of standing up has made me sick.
Sitting down has made me great.
Life thru a Lens, which was the first album,
was written in 12 days, when I found Guy.
And... I thought we had created something of worth.
But we are looking at somebody in free fall.
Addicted to cocaine and alcohol.
It's impossible to help myself.
It's impossible to stop.
You all right?
Fine.
I don't think there's a chance to feel anythin' other than hungover.
And then
not hungover because you are
yet again in the process of, um,
creating a future hangover.
I'm drunk as a skunk.
I sound... I sound brilliant after that many glasses.
- We've done well. Hurrah! - Hurrah!
More pineapple!
I mean, I knew when I met him,
he was drinking, and he had the shakes.
He was so on the edge and, um,
you know...
Challenging?
Yeah. Of course.
It's really... It's really challenging.
Fuck.
I think this is the most difficult bit to watch.
Because of...
...what I'm putting myself through.
The last 12 months, I've just sort of
lost meself into oblivion of I don't know what.
And, uh, finding it difficult doing interviews at the minute.
Only 'cause I'm not sure of what I should and shouldn't be saying about things.
And I'm just havin'... I'm having so many... so many doubts about meself.
I completely don't like my own company at the minute.
Robbie Williams in the studio!
Did I mention my new single's out?
- How are you? - Did I mention my new...
Yes, I'm very well. Let's put this here.
- I'm very well, and how are you? - Yeah?
Everybody knows I'm in trouble.
And how are you?
But, um... I didn't care.
I'd gone past the point of no return.
And, um...
I needed grown-ups.
My life had spiraled out of control so severely.
But my manager understood what needed to happen.
I needed to be carted off and taken away to rehab.
Robbie, how you feeling today?
New single out 14th July. It's called "Lazy Days." It's fantastic.
Any message for fans who might be a bit worried about you?
Uh, no, don't be worried about me. I'm fine.
But a bit... a bit, um... I'm appalled at the turnout.
When Michael Barrymore had a problem, there was thousands outside his house.
See ya!
It's a tough watch.
Reliving that again.
I think the root of that darkness was
the perfect storm
of too much too soon.
But just because, in this moment, I couldn't figure out how to live...
...I knew that it didn't mean that I couldn't.
You know, you don't wanna be a has-been at 23.
You can have lots of treats.
And this has to go somewhere because
there's nothin' else.
"Clean and serene for sixty days"?
Good, innit?
Dead serene.
♪ 'Cause you know you're gonna have to leave... ♪
I think for me, it became like a weight-loss camp.
Nobody noticed that I was just eatin' a banana a day.
Towards the end of 30 days, gettin' up towards my 60-day one,
I started to get very nervous.
Gimme a line. Gimme a line.
Is that my car?!
It's amazing how alive I am instantly.
- Action. - Robbie!
And all it's taken is 60 days.
- Do it in Spanish. - Do it in Spanish?
...court case.
...Robbie Williams...
...for la meaty goodness. But also...
There's life there.
Robbie is back. Whoa, whoa.
Robbie is back. Robbie is back. Whoa, whoa.
It had been two years since Take That.
I'd waited a long time. I needed to get goin'.
Here you join us backstage tonight and, um,
gettin' nervous.
"Am I big enough? Am I enough?" All that sorta gig.
Don't call it a comeback!
♪ Hell is gone and heaven's here There's nothing left for you to fear ♪
♪ Shake your ass, come over here Now scream ♪
♪ I'm a burnin' effigy Of everythin' I used to be ♪
♪ You're my rock of empathy, my dear ♪
♪ So come on, let me entertain you ♪
♪ Let me entertain you ♪
Come on, then!
Robbie!
I spent two years forgettin' why I was doin' this job.
What I was doin' it for.
It's not for the money. It's not for the critical acclaim.
I want to entertain. That's what I wanna do.
♪ So come on, let me... ♪
Somethin' very excitin' is happenin'.
I was learning how to be an entertainer.
Something that people could come and watch.
But the record company needed me to return on their investment.
The album comes out, and it sells in total 33,000 copies.
You know, there's a lot of jeopardy ridin' on this
because it was all on me.
Thank you very much.
- Was it bad last night? - Yeah.
- Is it bad every night? - No...
Well, it's just one of the problem songs.
Just trying to find a way of helping you so you can get that pitch.
- Thank you very much. - It's just that song, innit?
"Old Before I Die" has sometimes been a little bit hit and miss as well.
I think that's 'cause at that point in the set, you're really hyped up.
You've got to listen more, that's all. Listen to what everyone's doing.
'Cause everyone's doing great stuff.
You've gotta like, "Ah, right! I'm part of this great band."
- No, I... That's not the case at all. - Just in terms of listening.
- Okay. - Sometimes you just...
It doesn't always... I dunno, it just...
You're just thinking of how you can put this now, aren't you?
No, no, no!
- Go on, put it in any way you like. - No, I mean, I just...
I just think you're giving 100% to the crowd,
not necessarily holding back, going,
"I should concentrate on being the singer--"
This is five minutes before I'm goin' on to do a gig.
D'you know what I mean?
- What's the matter-- - What do you want now?
- Piss off. - You wearing that?
- Yeah. - You look a cunt.
Go out there and be confident, Rob.
Figuratively speaking, my career was falling off a cliff.
And I'd had quite a few goes with singles
that wouldn't be allowed to happen now.
And a memo goes round the record company.
I am about to be dropped.
When you find yourself starin' into an abyss,
you just might find yourself staring back.
I think I know what you mean.
Right, stop.
It looks as though that's it for the Williams boy.
What a lovely day for it.
But in my back pocket, I had somethin' special.
"Angels."
Two, three, four.
♪ And I know I'll always Be blessed with love ♪
♪ And as the feeling grows ... ♪
"Angels" comes out, and then thank God for that because
everything changed.
♪ I'm loving angels instead ♪
♪ And through it all ♪
♪ She offers me protection ♪
♪ A lot of love and affection ♪
♪ Whether I'm right or wrong... ♪
He's back. He's live.
He's better than ever. He's Robbie Williams.
♪ Wherever it may take... ♪
...Robbie Williams, with a chart climber.
♪ ...won't break me ♪
♪ When I come to call... ♪
Something was connecting...
- ♪ She won't foresake me... ♪ - ... and you could just feel this momentum.
♪ I'm lovin' angels instead ♪
It was the rocket taking off. With a...
♪ When I'm feelin' weak ♪
♪ And my pain walks down A one-way street ♪
Currently, 'avin' an 'it in Shveden.
So we may go to Shveden, as we are 'avin' an 'it.
♪ And as the feeling grows... ♪
The album sales are gettin' bigger.
The audiences are gettin' bigger.
♪ And when love is dead... ♪
From the jaws of defeat,
we seem to be making headway into the world.
Open the window. Let the sound in.
Moon! Moon!
♪ And through it all She offers me protection ♪
Is it always like that when we open the window in a radio station,
and all the girls stood outside scream and shout?
- It's like that outside me launderette! - What's it like back home?
Do you wish sometimes to have a normal life?
This is a normal life.
♪ I know that life won't break me... ♪
I don't know what it is that's so special about that song.
But whatever it is, it had it.
♪ I'm loving angels instead ♪
Thank you!
Hello, Rob.
It's not a silver surprise.
It's not a gold surprise.
It's a platinum surprise!
He's gone platinum, everybody!
Um, I'm gobsmacked with this.
Fantastic.
I've got a career!
Thank you very much.
Robbie?
It was good!
Rock-and-roll capital of Surrey.
Right. Bloody 'ell.
- Right? - Yeah.
He was fab, wasn't he?
Success definitely, subconsciously,
did equal happiness.
- I'm speechless. - Did you enjoy that?
Absolutely brilliant.
This is my second go at biting the apple.
Take That was the first.
This is the second.
Well done.
- Brilliant. - Thank you.
I'm a pop star now.
I'm the fully thinged... I'm the fully thing thinged.
Peter Snow getting Robbie's autograph.
- I think it's a swing to the left. - Left?
Oh right. All Saints.
Fame, in and of of itself, is a playground.
And I didn't know who I was gonna be in that playground,
but I wanted to be in it.
- Sh! - Name and age.
Um, Nicole Appleton, and I'm 23.
If you had one night with Robbie Williams, what would you do?
I've done it!
Nicole Appleton is in a band called All Saints.
The less smiley version of the Spice Girls.
- I could change it with mine. - That'd be really funny.
- I should do that? - Yeah!
So, at some point, our paths were bound to cross,
and we struck up a relationship together.
She was kind and fun and sweet. You know, she was just a good soul.
With my relationship with Nic,
it was very important to me
to learn to become the man that I was supposed to be.
You know, these are miracles that are happening in my life.
You know when something's right?
Tonight's right!
And I'm so 'appy!
There was no left. There was no right.
There was only forward.
Hi, mate. What's the date?
- It's 19th January. - 19th January.
The new year. 1998.
- Here at Jake's place in Jamaica. - Wahey.
We came from Gatwick yesterday, me and Guy.
- Say hello, Guy. - Hello, Rob.
Hello, mate. Come with me.
We brought our own studio with us.
A little 8-track. So we can record while we're out here.
That's safe, innit? Keep it under lock and key.
Move up a bit.
Don't want your ugly mug on my video diary.
I look really white.
That's 'cause you are.
He's from Surrey, you know.
Traditionally, there is the "difficult second album" syndrome.
I didn't feel that way with Guy.
I think that what we were doing together also excited him .
♪ I've come to remind you That we'll come and find you ♪
♪ This is a happy song ♪
♪ Do-do do-do-do, do-do... ♪
He was a older brother,
mentor, musical mentor...
...and I was a student.
♪ Do-do do-do-do, do-do do-do-do ♪
♪ Do-do do-do-do... ♪
- It's okay there. - ♪ Do-do do-do-do ♪
- ♪ Do-do-do ♪ - ♪ Do-do-do ♪
- ♪Do-do ♪ - ♪ Do ♪
As you can see, it is now pouring down with rain.
Quick. Quick, Rob. Because it mustn't get wet. The stuff.
♪ Send you our love 'cause we care... ♪
There was so much love between me and Guy in those moments.
♪ ...news from Jamaica ♪
Day seven.
And this was a beautiful way to spend your life.
- It's rather nice, isn't it? - It's fantastic.
Sure we're gonna get a lot of inspiration here.
- It's amazing. - This is amazing.
This is just... I think it's one of the most amazing places I've ever been.
- Yeah. - Actually. It's up there.
Have you been to Rhyl?
- It's very like-- - In Wales.
It's just like this.
Oh dear, where's the phone?
Hello?
Is that Nicky?
It's Guy.
She's on the telephone.
- Is she? - Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Can I just leave it here? - Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Guy's gonna leave the video camera here.
So, I am possibly looking at the most amazing view that, um,
I've ever seen in my life.
Yeah, honestly, babe, I'm not kiddin' you, I walked into this place...
I'm about 3,000 feet up in the mountains.
There's... There's just forests everywhere.
I can see Kingston... I'm not kidding you, right,
as I walked in and I was shown around the place,
um, I got onto the balcony and just cried.
Yeah. Yeah.
- Wow! - Just like...
Just so... proud.
It's... You know, it's like, I'm like a child there.
Talkin' to a mum.
About what I'm experiencing and...
The truth is, um...
I was still... still a baby.
You know, I was 16 when I joined Take That.
And I guess that there is some sort of broken teenager in there
that will be, um,
tryin' to sort out the wreckage of the past.
But...
I couldn't let it go.
"Do you feel cut up?"
"Do you feel cut up
by the people... duh-duh-duh... you've met?"
Hm.
- "That you've left by the wayside." - No, it's gotta rhyme with "et."
Mm.
- "Have you popped your clogs yet?" - Mm.
I suppose, at this point, my memories of being in that band
are sullied with how I felt during the process.
So, you can imagine what this...
young man is feelin'.
♪ I guess you know I hate you ♪
♪ Needless to say ♪
♪ I guess you know I hate you ♪
♪ Are you still around? ♪
♪ Why haven't you managed to die yet? ♪
♪ How can you sleep? ♪
- D'you know what, though? - What?
Don't like the chorus.
The fact that it's so... jolly?
So j... I don't want it to be jolly. I don't...
It... It doesn't feel right when I'm singing it.
I want it to be nasty. I want it to be as nasty as the verse.
I'm not being...
...ironic or...
Hm. Mm.
I'm being fuckin' serious. Fuckin' hate these cunts.
Mm.
♪ You could prop up a bar in hell ♪
♪ How do you sleep? How do you laugh? ♪
♪ How do you cry? How do you lie? ♪
- ♪ Na na na na ♪ - ♪Na na na na na ♪
♪ How do you touch? How do you feel? ♪
♪ How do you keep me from... ♪
Angry. Venom. Venom.
Spittle.
Spittle!
That's good, that.
Yeah, I can see that. Yeah.
Teddy bear!
Come, come get in bed.
Put your drink down, and just come and get behind me. Gimme a cuddle.
Hi, Daddy.
Talkin' about the... the band I used to be in.
- Yes. Question? - Yes.
Who did you hate the most and why?
Who did I hate the most?
I disliked Gary
the most
because
he... was the one that was supposed to 'ave
the everythin' and the career.
And I wanted to make him pay.
I was...
- How? - I was vengeful.
By havin' the career
that he was supposed to have.
Here's a song about a group of people
that I used to be with an awful lot.
Those people are called Take That.
You know, there was five of us. There was one very small one.
And, uh... one had like a mop on his head.
The other one had a mohican,
and he was a twat.
And the other one looked a bit like this.
Listen.
There's somebody booing me down here
that actually likes Gary Barlow.
He's not selling any more records now, girls!
Let's face it, he's dead!
I'm sorry that I treated Gary like that.
Nobody graduates from childhood fame
well balanced.
The years of finding yourself, maturing, and growin' up...
that everybody has is taken away from you.
Um, Nicky?
Will you marry me?
"Yes"?
Good.
All right, then. Bye!
I guess that I'm tryin' to convince myself
that I'm the kind of person that is ready for that kind of commitment.
I know I'm not.
I couldn't look after myself.
I was in no fit state
to offer myself as a partner.
- Are you gonna sit on the sound thing? - Yeah.
And, um, the relationship with Nic ended
a few months after this.
Stop filmin' now.
Just a bit of traffic, then.
Probably why he's goin'.
- I can't believe that happened. - Look at that!
- Wow! Fuck! - It's like a sea of...
It's all mud.
I felt like I was an infant
in the grown-up world.
So, I'm just about to go on at Glastonbury,
and I don't know what's gonna 'appen.
It's, uh... 88,000 people.
It's the epoch of credibility.
And it's the biggest gig of my career so far.
Come on!
Let's fuckin' 'ave it!
I'm terrified.
Absolutely terrified.
This had the opportunity to go very badly.
There's still a bit of me goin', "I'm still Rob from Stoke-on-Trent."
"I'm still 16."
That's one of those moments where I think I'm gonna be found out.
♪ I sit and wait ♪
♪ Does an angel contemplate my fate ♪
If you must!
♪ And do they know ♪
♪ The places where we go ♪
♪ When you're gray and old ♪
♪ 'Cause I've been told ♪
♪ That salvation lets their wings unfold ♪
♪ So when I'm lyin' in my bed ♪
♪ Thoughts runnin' through my head ♪
♪ And I feel that love is dead ♪
♪ I'm lovin'... ♪
- Lo and behold ... - ♪ ...angels instead ♪
...they embraced me!
♪ Through it all She offers me protection... ♪
Me.
Bobbins from Take That.
♪ ...whether I'm right or wrong ♪
♪ And down the waterfall... ♪
How does it feel to have thousands of people
sing the words that you've written back to you?
♪ When I come to call... ♪
It is intoxicatin'.
♪ She won't forsake me ♪
♪ I'm loving angels instead ♪
It felt like this is what I'm supposed to be doin'!
But then you realize, subconsciously or consciously, that
"I can't go back."
I'm on a runaway train.
And this was gonna grow bigger and bigger and bigger.
I'm not looking forward to watching what's next.
I didn't have the tools to deal with
what's to come.
Robbie! Robbie!
♪ My breath smells of a thousand fags ♪
♪ And when I'm drunk I dance like me dad ♪
♪ I've started to dress a bit like him ♪
♪ And early morning when I wake up ♪
♪ I look like KISS But without the makeup ♪
♪ And that's a good line To take it to the bridge ♪
♪ And you know, and you know ♪
♪ 'Cause my life's a mess ♪
♪ And I'm trying to grow So before I'm old I'll confess ♪
♪ You think that I'm strong ♪
♪ You're wrong, you're wrong ♪
♪ I sing my song ♪
♪ My song, my song ♪
♪ My bed's full of takeaways ♪
♪ And fantasies of easy lays ♪
♪ The pause button's broke on my video ... ♪