1 00:00:09,920 --> 00:00:12,036 That'll be true or false. 2 00:00:12,120 --> 00:00:15,720 The "Ali" of the title is the Welsh football manager? 3 00:00:16,240 --> 00:00:18,276 - False. - Yes. Two points scored. 4 00:00:18,360 --> 00:00:19,516 And finally, to Carl... 5 00:00:19,600 --> 00:00:22,160 Last night, in the middle of the night, I got up. 6 00:00:22,760 --> 00:00:25,076 Yes, two points. A total of six to the reds! 7 00:00:26,440 --> 00:00:28,156 I'd been awake all night. 8 00:00:28,240 --> 00:00:31,400 Great! Now over to the yellows to do the spinning. 9 00:00:32,240 --> 00:00:35,720 When it comes time to sleep, my body goes, "We're not!" 10 00:00:36,600 --> 00:00:37,596 "We're not." 11 00:00:39,440 --> 00:00:41,920 Four hours of just tossing and turnin' and... 12 00:00:42,840 --> 00:00:47,200 dealing with an amorphous blob of stuff. 13 00:00:48,200 --> 00:00:49,720 Fancy doing a bit of singing? 14 00:00:50,800 --> 00:00:51,636 Fear. 15 00:00:53,920 --> 00:00:54,760 Shame. 16 00:00:57,960 --> 00:00:59,000 Pain. 17 00:01:01,640 --> 00:01:04,240 The whole gamut of 18 00:01:04,760 --> 00:01:05,960 human emotions. 19 00:01:09,840 --> 00:01:11,120 I'm nearly 50. 20 00:01:12,000 --> 00:01:15,720 I'm a dad, dad of four, with a loving wife. 21 00:01:16,640 --> 00:01:19,840 It's astounding what's happened in my life. 22 00:01:21,640 --> 00:01:27,956 But it feels as though the past has me in a headlock. 23 00:01:28,040 --> 00:01:30,636 - Robbie! Robbie! - Something has to give. 24 00:01:50,880 --> 00:01:52,720 Go on, buddy! You can do it! 25 00:01:54,480 --> 00:01:55,516 Come on! 26 00:01:58,520 --> 00:02:00,756 - You good? - I'm fuckin' good at this! 27 00:02:02,080 --> 00:02:05,476 One of the biggest-selling solo artists of all time. 28 00:02:05,560 --> 00:02:07,116 One of the greatest showmen. 29 00:02:07,200 --> 00:02:08,836 ...platinum albums, sell-out gigs... 30 00:02:08,920 --> 00:02:11,000 Keep telling me I'm fuckin' great. 31 00:02:12,320 --> 00:02:15,240 Off me fucking tits. 32 00:02:18,480 --> 00:02:21,080 Would anybody like to see me fight Liam? 33 00:02:21,680 --> 00:02:23,636 See if you can do your best with that! 34 00:02:23,720 --> 00:02:26,156 ♪ You're my rock of empathy, my dear ♪ 35 00:02:31,760 --> 00:02:37,000 ♪ Come on, let me entertain you ♪ 36 00:02:39,800 --> 00:02:44,396 ♪ Let me entertain you ♪ 37 00:02:44,480 --> 00:02:45,796 I'm fucking Robbie Williams. 38 00:03:04,040 --> 00:03:07,040 I am trying to sort out the wreckage of the past. 39 00:03:08,960 --> 00:03:14,080 And I'm picking a rather particular way to exorcise these demons right now. 40 00:03:18,600 --> 00:03:20,280 Why are we doing it here? 41 00:03:21,040 --> 00:03:24,156 I'm a hermit. If I'm not on stage, I'm in bed. 42 00:03:24,240 --> 00:03:26,156 - That's why we're here. - Yeah. 43 00:03:26,240 --> 00:03:27,800 Yeah. 44 00:03:30,920 --> 00:03:32,236 Can we just... Can we start? 45 00:03:44,640 --> 00:03:48,440 When I was a kid, I was kinda like thick. 46 00:03:49,640 --> 00:03:50,520 Can't spell. 47 00:03:51,160 --> 00:03:52,760 I can't add up or subtract. 48 00:03:54,120 --> 00:03:55,560 Tape is rolling. 49 00:03:56,920 --> 00:04:00,316 I left school at 16 with no qualifications whatsoever 50 00:04:00,400 --> 00:04:02,436 and joined a boy band 51 00:04:02,520 --> 00:04:06,080 that's gonna be the English version of New Kids on the Block. 52 00:04:06,560 --> 00:04:09,316 Four, three, two, one. 53 00:04:09,400 --> 00:04:12,876 ♪ Come on, come on, come on, come on Take that and party ♪ 54 00:04:12,960 --> 00:04:15,200 ♪ Come on, come on, come on, come on Take that ♪ 55 00:04:31,400 --> 00:04:32,520 Fantastic! 56 00:04:33,280 --> 00:04:36,356 Wow, the crowd loved you! How long have you been together? 57 00:04:36,440 --> 00:04:38,476 - About two months. - Two months. 58 00:04:38,560 --> 00:04:40,276 Did you all dance beforehand? 59 00:04:40,360 --> 00:04:44,156 Well, I didn't do much dancin'. Just, like, local discos and everythin'. 60 00:04:44,240 --> 00:04:46,716 But I did enough to keep up with these lot. 61 00:04:48,400 --> 00:04:50,040 Fuckin' 'ell. 62 00:04:50,840 --> 00:04:51,680 Look at me! 63 00:04:52,480 --> 00:04:54,040 I look very young. 64 00:04:55,600 --> 00:04:58,120 You know, I was the baby of the band. 65 00:04:59,320 --> 00:05:02,876 ♪ Come on, come on, come on, come on Take that and party... ♪ 66 00:05:02,960 --> 00:05:04,840 I enjoyed everybody's company. 67 00:05:05,400 --> 00:05:10,640 In my head, I'm looking up to these older brothers that are, like, 20, 21, 22. 68 00:05:12,080 --> 00:05:14,676 When you're 16, that's... that gap's huge. 69 00:05:17,200 --> 00:05:20,276 I couldn't help but be in awe of Gaz. 70 00:05:20,360 --> 00:05:22,636 He was the captain of the ship. 71 00:05:22,720 --> 00:05:25,640 How many songs have you actually got together now? 72 00:05:26,240 --> 00:05:28,596 We've got probably about 30 tracks in all. 73 00:05:28,680 --> 00:05:31,076 Every week, Gary's coming in with new material. 74 00:05:31,160 --> 00:05:32,556 We're doin' new dances all the time. 75 00:05:32,640 --> 00:05:34,556 ♪ Do what you like ♪ 76 00:05:34,640 --> 00:05:36,756 ♪ No need to ask me ♪ 77 00:05:36,840 --> 00:05:38,796 ♪ Do what you want... ♪ 78 00:05:38,880 --> 00:05:41,876 In the early days of Take That, it was fun. 79 00:05:41,960 --> 00:05:44,636 - ♪ ...what you like ♪ - ♪ No need to tell me ♪ 80 00:05:44,720 --> 00:05:46,676 ♪ Do what you want... ♪ 81 00:05:46,760 --> 00:05:49,520 The joy and the excitement, the exhilaration. 82 00:05:50,600 --> 00:05:53,636 - ♪ Ice ♪ - ♪ Could never be as cold... ♪ 83 00:05:53,720 --> 00:05:56,436 It felt like this was all going somewhere. 84 00:05:56,520 --> 00:05:58,236 ♪ You stir me up inside... ♪ 85 00:05:58,320 --> 00:05:59,200 It felt big! 86 00:05:59,720 --> 00:06:01,320 And then it became massive. 87 00:06:02,880 --> 00:06:04,676 Okay, so it's pretty quiet now, 88 00:06:04,760 --> 00:06:06,716 but you should've been here 20 minutes ago. 89 00:06:09,640 --> 00:06:12,516 They are the hottest young band anywhere in the UK. 90 00:06:12,600 --> 00:06:15,116 ...most popular British group since the Beatles. 91 00:06:15,200 --> 00:06:16,840 Take That! 92 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:20,276 ♪ Every time I'm near you ♪ 93 00:06:22,040 --> 00:06:27,596 ♪ Whirling like a cyclone in my mind... ♪ 94 00:06:27,680 --> 00:06:30,596 These girls say they've had the best night of their lives. 95 00:06:30,680 --> 00:06:33,236 - ♪ You're my lifeline ♪ - ♪ Whoa, whoa... ♪ 96 00:06:33,320 --> 00:06:36,116 Our success did give some sort of sense of... 97 00:06:36,200 --> 00:06:37,036 "Hey!" 98 00:06:37,120 --> 00:06:41,920 ♪ Answer to all answers I can't find... ♪ 99 00:06:42,520 --> 00:06:44,196 But it was always intercut with... 100 00:06:44,280 --> 00:06:46,316 "Whoa." 101 00:06:48,320 --> 00:06:50,956 ♪ Come into my arms... ♪ 102 00:06:51,040 --> 00:06:53,076 You're on bedroom walls across Britain, 103 00:06:53,160 --> 00:06:54,836 and you get mobbed wherever you go. 104 00:06:54,920 --> 00:06:56,436 Do you still enjoy it? 105 00:06:56,520 --> 00:06:57,956 It's still enjoyable, 106 00:06:58,040 --> 00:07:01,396 and it's like, um, I wake up in the morning pinchin' meself. 107 00:07:01,480 --> 00:07:03,236 "Is this really happening?" and 108 00:07:03,320 --> 00:07:04,236 it isn't. 109 00:07:05,360 --> 00:07:07,436 - We're not 'ere really, are we? - No, we're not. 110 00:07:07,520 --> 00:07:08,836 ♪ Baby, I want you ♪ 111 00:07:08,920 --> 00:07:09,800 ♪ Come ♪ 112 00:07:11,000 --> 00:07:12,556 ♪ Come ♪ 113 00:07:12,640 --> 00:07:13,836 ♪ Come into... ♪ 114 00:07:13,920 --> 00:07:17,836 Externally, I'm sure that I would've been full of bravado 115 00:07:17,920 --> 00:07:20,396 and trying to look as though I think I'm the man. 116 00:07:20,480 --> 00:07:22,236 ♪ ...of all of you ♪ 117 00:07:22,320 --> 00:07:24,636 ♪ Could it be magic now... ♪ 118 00:07:24,720 --> 00:07:26,600 It was a complete 119 00:07:28,360 --> 00:07:29,640 dunking 120 00:07:30,640 --> 00:07:35,920 into the grown-up... world 121 00:07:37,120 --> 00:07:38,360 that I wasn't ready for. 122 00:07:42,680 --> 00:07:44,720 Thank you and good night! 123 00:07:59,120 --> 00:08:00,520 The workload was 124 00:08:01,240 --> 00:08:02,476 relentless. 125 00:08:05,480 --> 00:08:06,320 We do this. 126 00:08:07,800 --> 00:08:09,040 Then we get to there. 127 00:08:10,440 --> 00:08:12,916 There was no five minutes in front of us. 128 00:08:20,280 --> 00:08:22,760 Reason they're screaming is 'cause Elvis is 'ere as well. 129 00:08:23,880 --> 00:08:26,840 Got to go and do an interview now for Radio 1. 130 00:08:27,440 --> 00:08:29,280 We'll hopefully have lots of fun. 131 00:08:30,320 --> 00:08:32,436 It is a very special Rockland this afternoon. 132 00:08:32,520 --> 00:08:34,156 As we promised a few weeks ago, 133 00:08:34,240 --> 00:08:37,036 we have the members, all five members, of Take That in the studio. 134 00:08:37,120 --> 00:08:39,316 Gary and Howard and Jason and Robbie and Mark. 135 00:08:39,400 --> 00:08:43,116 It's been going very well. Congratulations for the chart success you've had. 136 00:08:43,200 --> 00:08:46,156 How does it affect your everyday life when you get up in the morning? 137 00:08:46,240 --> 00:08:49,836 To speak the truth, and this is honest, I wake up some mornings and think, 138 00:08:49,920 --> 00:08:52,036 "Where am I, what do we do, and what's me name?" 139 00:08:52,120 --> 00:08:54,516 Who are you, what do you do, and what is yer name? 140 00:08:54,600 --> 00:08:55,676 I'm Robbie. 141 00:08:55,760 --> 00:08:58,240 I am in Take That, and I sing and dance. 142 00:08:58,760 --> 00:09:01,920 It was an unusual scenario to be in. 143 00:09:02,760 --> 00:09:04,680 In a very intense 144 00:09:05,680 --> 00:09:08,440 background atmosphere and surrounding. 145 00:09:09,560 --> 00:09:11,560 That is a pressure cooker. 146 00:09:15,040 --> 00:09:18,116 Without meaning to brag, it's been... it's been going good for us, 147 00:09:18,200 --> 00:09:22,076 so it could end for us, like, at anytime, and then all the people we laugh at-- 148 00:09:22,160 --> 00:09:23,956 I'm still down to earth and humble. 149 00:09:24,040 --> 00:09:24,956 No, you're not! You're... 150 00:09:25,040 --> 00:09:27,636 You're downright arrogant and... and blasé and... 151 00:09:27,720 --> 00:09:29,796 - Downright arrogant, yeah. - I'm not. 152 00:09:29,880 --> 00:09:30,720 You are. 153 00:09:36,960 --> 00:09:38,676 When I turned about 19, 154 00:09:38,760 --> 00:09:42,000 I started to have a long, hard think about what was happenin'. 155 00:09:47,520 --> 00:09:50,436 Too many interviews, too many performances, 156 00:09:50,520 --> 00:09:53,716 so many countries to visit, and then repeat it. 157 00:09:53,800 --> 00:09:56,636 Mark's been up since half past five, 158 00:09:56,720 --> 00:10:00,120 and I've been up since about quarter to six, six o'clock. 159 00:10:00,760 --> 00:10:05,200 And we can't go to sleep. Jet lag. Who needs it? D'you know what I mean? 160 00:10:07,040 --> 00:10:08,876 Take That's fandom was obsessive. 161 00:10:13,480 --> 00:10:16,160 It was intense! 162 00:10:24,320 --> 00:10:25,556 Step! 163 00:10:25,640 --> 00:10:26,796 On top of that, 164 00:10:26,880 --> 00:10:30,760 there was an assurancy about Gaz and his ability 165 00:10:31,800 --> 00:10:33,360 mixed with 166 00:10:34,320 --> 00:10:35,400 a coldness. 167 00:10:36,360 --> 00:10:40,356 This is me prize lyric book, this is, and it's really strange to look through. 168 00:10:40,440 --> 00:10:42,836 It's got all the songs I've ever written. 169 00:10:42,920 --> 00:10:45,236 Every now and again, you'll find a little star next to it, 170 00:10:45,320 --> 00:10:47,000 which means it's gone on an album. 171 00:10:47,560 --> 00:10:48,480 That'll do me! 172 00:10:49,560 --> 00:10:51,356 And it seemed like 173 00:10:51,440 --> 00:10:54,840 there was one person being managed in Take That, and it was Gary Barlow. 174 00:10:56,160 --> 00:10:57,636 It was all geared around him. 175 00:11:00,280 --> 00:11:03,560 And as a young person, I would've been jealous of that. 176 00:11:04,960 --> 00:11:07,316 I suppose a lot of me resented him. 177 00:11:11,320 --> 00:11:14,396 One, two, three. "Hi, we're Take That." Okay? 178 00:11:14,480 --> 00:11:16,000 - You're gonna do it. - Okay. 179 00:11:16,520 --> 00:11:19,556 Hi, I'm Rob. I'm good. Watch this space for more of the same. 180 00:11:20,920 --> 00:11:21,996 Ready. I'll do it. 181 00:11:22,080 --> 00:11:24,320 - It's good. - Gaz, do you wanna sit at the front? 182 00:11:27,680 --> 00:11:31,120 I was goin' home from these days thinkin', "This is weird." 183 00:11:31,640 --> 00:11:32,760 "Uncomfortable." 184 00:11:34,640 --> 00:11:36,600 It's Lord of the Flies stuff. 185 00:11:37,640 --> 00:11:39,040 Rock and roll. 186 00:11:40,000 --> 00:11:42,196 I wasn't adept 187 00:11:42,280 --> 00:11:47,440 at dealing with the dynamics in the band at such an early age. 188 00:11:49,120 --> 00:11:52,720 And that's when the wheels came off 189 00:11:53,400 --> 00:11:54,240 for me. 190 00:11:55,920 --> 00:11:59,556 People do tend to see us as the boys next door, 191 00:11:59,640 --> 00:12:02,796 and we still are, funnily enough. 192 00:12:02,880 --> 00:12:06,356 We just happen to be the boys next door for the Lord Lichfield. 193 00:12:07,680 --> 00:12:10,116 Jacuzzis and outside ser-- 194 00:12:10,200 --> 00:12:11,476 Boy? Boy! 195 00:12:11,560 --> 00:12:12,996 Oh, thank you very much. 196 00:12:13,080 --> 00:12:16,076 Went out last night. Didn't get in until six o'clock. 197 00:12:16,160 --> 00:12:18,476 But, you know, do it while you're young, don't ya? 198 00:12:18,560 --> 00:12:21,596 Uh, as I say, really enjoying ourselves, so... 199 00:12:21,680 --> 00:12:23,476 - I've gotta get some booze! - Obsessed. 200 00:12:23,560 --> 00:12:25,960 Aw, don't. You've started this bastard now! 201 00:12:28,360 --> 00:12:31,360 Adding petrol to the fire, 202 00:12:32,800 --> 00:12:35,916 I was ingestin' everything that I could get my hands on. 203 00:12:36,000 --> 00:12:38,396 Ecstasy, cocaine, drinking. 204 00:12:38,480 --> 00:12:40,636 Couldn't eat a whole one! Wahey! 205 00:12:40,720 --> 00:12:44,316 I'm literally drinking, like, a bottle of vodka bef... a night 206 00:12:44,400 --> 00:12:46,596 before going into rehearsals. 207 00:12:46,680 --> 00:12:47,840 Um... 208 00:12:48,680 --> 00:12:49,880 So that's happenin'. 209 00:12:50,720 --> 00:12:53,116 That's happenin' every night. 210 00:12:56,840 --> 00:13:00,400 There was meetings that were had with me 211 00:13:01,000 --> 00:13:03,440 where... "we need you to behave" meetings. 212 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:05,996 What's the best thing about being here? 213 00:13:06,080 --> 00:13:09,276 Um... People not expecting me to be 'ere, 214 00:13:09,360 --> 00:13:11,476 and the reaction on their faces when they see me. 215 00:13:11,560 --> 00:13:13,916 Go behind him like a Glastonbury nutter. 216 00:13:14,000 --> 00:13:15,796 It's a Glastonbury nutter. 217 00:13:15,880 --> 00:13:18,196 It's one of them people that get on It'll be Alright... 218 00:13:18,280 --> 00:13:19,716 It's Alright on the Night thing. 219 00:13:19,800 --> 00:13:21,796 It may have been seen by management 220 00:13:21,880 --> 00:13:23,320 that I was letting the side down. 221 00:13:23,840 --> 00:13:26,076 Especially when I went to Glastonbury. 222 00:13:26,160 --> 00:13:27,196 Anarchy. 223 00:13:32,880 --> 00:13:37,440 I was told, "This is not how you behave in a boy band." 224 00:13:38,720 --> 00:13:41,876 Actually got nothing interesting whatsoever to say. 225 00:13:41,960 --> 00:13:43,480 Which is quite un... uh... 226 00:13:44,640 --> 00:13:46,000 quite a bit disturbin'. 227 00:13:47,360 --> 00:13:49,160 The sense that, um, 228 00:13:50,080 --> 00:13:53,520 I wasn't ready or capable to fulfill the role 229 00:13:54,600 --> 00:13:57,040 that was being asked of me was palpable. 230 00:14:03,200 --> 00:14:04,916 One day, I went in for rehearsals, 231 00:14:05,000 --> 00:14:08,560 and then at lunchtime, they said, "Rob, we need to have a band meeting." 232 00:14:10,760 --> 00:14:14,080 I said to the boys I just couldn't be there anymore. 233 00:14:15,400 --> 00:14:19,436 Then they said, "Look, we wanna see if we can do this tour as a four-piece." 234 00:14:19,520 --> 00:14:20,760 "What do you think?" 235 00:14:22,360 --> 00:14:23,640 And in the end, 236 00:14:24,640 --> 00:14:27,760 you know, "What do you think?" was me deciding to 237 00:14:29,160 --> 00:14:30,400 leave Take That. 238 00:14:36,040 --> 00:14:38,996 Finally, tonight, the band minus one. 239 00:14:39,080 --> 00:14:43,276 Take That are arguably Britain's most successful group since the Beatles, 240 00:14:43,360 --> 00:14:47,236 but when they arrived today to record for the BBC's Top of the Pops, 241 00:14:47,320 --> 00:14:48,876 there were just four of them. 242 00:14:52,960 --> 00:14:54,836 Is anybody angry with Robbie? 243 00:14:54,920 --> 00:14:56,316 Yes! 244 00:14:56,400 --> 00:14:59,796 Would you listen to his music if he does a solo career? 245 00:14:59,880 --> 00:15:03,076 - No. - ♪ Got a head of shattered dreams ♪ 246 00:15:03,160 --> 00:15:04,440 ♪ Gotta leave it... ♪ 247 00:15:05,120 --> 00:15:06,640 Did you have a plan? 248 00:15:07,600 --> 00:15:10,320 I think the... the plan was 249 00:15:11,520 --> 00:15:12,720 "Let's get wrecked." 250 00:15:15,000 --> 00:15:18,876 ♪ Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it ♪ 251 00:15:18,960 --> 00:15:21,236 ♪ I just want ya back for good ♪ 252 00:15:21,320 --> 00:15:23,316 ♪ I want you back, I want you back... ♪ 253 00:15:23,400 --> 00:15:26,316 I moved to London as a famous 21-year-old, 254 00:15:26,400 --> 00:15:28,796 and I'm just going to parties all the time. 255 00:15:28,880 --> 00:15:31,680 ♪ I'll sing it... ♪ 256 00:15:32,840 --> 00:15:34,120 I had no direction. 257 00:15:34,840 --> 00:15:36,080 No reason to be. 258 00:15:38,160 --> 00:15:41,760 I'm losing a lot of days to hangovers. 259 00:15:46,720 --> 00:15:48,760 Losing a sense of self. 260 00:15:50,880 --> 00:15:53,236 Turnin' into something that you don't recognize. 261 00:15:58,000 --> 00:16:00,200 Wanted to make somethin' of myself. 262 00:16:01,240 --> 00:16:03,120 Achieve somethin'. Be someone. 263 00:16:06,120 --> 00:16:08,200 But there's nothing that I'm doing. 264 00:16:09,120 --> 00:16:10,960 I was just in Groucho doin' a lotta coke. 265 00:16:11,920 --> 00:16:14,356 What would you do if you weren't a musician? 266 00:16:14,440 --> 00:16:15,760 - Uh... - Be a footballer? 267 00:16:17,560 --> 00:16:20,120 I dunno, actually. Probably be a pig farmer. 268 00:16:21,080 --> 00:16:24,476 I needed somebody to help me with the thoughts and melodies 269 00:16:24,560 --> 00:16:26,080 that I have in my head. 270 00:16:30,600 --> 00:16:35,200 ♪ Ooh ♪ 271 00:16:36,280 --> 00:16:41,360 ♪ Ooh ♪ 272 00:16:41,880 --> 00:16:46,120 ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪ 273 00:16:48,400 --> 00:16:49,796 So, who are you? 274 00:16:49,880 --> 00:16:51,720 Who am I? I'm Guy. And I'm, uh... 275 00:16:52,600 --> 00:16:55,800 uh, Rob's MD and producer. 276 00:16:56,800 --> 00:16:58,436 So what does that involve? 277 00:16:58,520 --> 00:17:01,196 Mm. You haven't got... How much film have you got? 278 00:17:06,480 --> 00:17:09,920 - No rest for the wicked. - No rest for the wicked! 279 00:17:13,560 --> 00:17:15,916 ♪ Freaky young lady Name of Cocaine Katie ♪ 280 00:17:16,000 --> 00:17:18,396 ♪ She makes my temperature freeze... ♪ 281 00:17:18,480 --> 00:17:20,356 I set out to make an album, 282 00:17:20,440 --> 00:17:22,116 but I didn't know how I was gonna do it. 283 00:17:22,200 --> 00:17:24,400 ♪ She'll bring you to your knees ♪ 284 00:17:25,360 --> 00:17:28,236 There was a list of people that was sent to me, 285 00:17:28,320 --> 00:17:30,800 and one was Guy Chambers, and I went, "Him." 286 00:17:31,680 --> 00:17:34,276 He was a jobbin' musician 287 00:17:34,360 --> 00:17:39,116 considering becomin' a teacher 'cause things were drying up. 288 00:17:39,200 --> 00:17:44,080 Apart from the leak in his roof, which he had and couldn't pay to be fixed. 289 00:17:45,600 --> 00:17:47,516 So, we really needed each other. 290 00:17:47,600 --> 00:17:49,076 ♪ I think you oughta ♪ 291 00:17:49,160 --> 00:17:53,880 ♪ 'Cause you know you're gonna have to leave ♪ 292 00:17:55,080 --> 00:18:00,480 ♪ To a place where you can breathe ♪ 293 00:18:01,520 --> 00:18:08,476 ♪ And you know there's no reprieve... ♪ 294 00:18:17,880 --> 00:18:19,236 - Good t... Good takes? - Yeah. 295 00:18:19,320 --> 00:18:20,876 - Good takes? - Yeah. Very good. 296 00:18:20,960 --> 00:18:23,440 - You should have a little break now. - Great. Tell 'em. 297 00:18:24,520 --> 00:18:27,236 Have a little break. A walk up the street or something. 298 00:18:27,320 --> 00:18:28,600 Might want a coat. 299 00:18:29,760 --> 00:18:31,996 I think I'll have a sit down, actually. 300 00:18:32,080 --> 00:18:32,996 Okay. 301 00:18:33,080 --> 00:18:35,800 On account of standing up has made me sick. 302 00:18:36,600 --> 00:18:38,480 Sitting down has made me great. 303 00:18:39,680 --> 00:18:42,276 Life thru a Lens, which was the first album, 304 00:18:42,360 --> 00:18:44,800 was written in 12 days, when I found Guy. 305 00:18:45,560 --> 00:18:50,200 And... I thought we had created something of worth. 306 00:18:55,480 --> 00:19:01,040 But we are looking at somebody in free fall. 307 00:19:05,040 --> 00:19:07,800 Addicted to cocaine and alcohol. 308 00:19:12,680 --> 00:19:16,160 It's impossible to help myself. 309 00:19:17,840 --> 00:19:19,320 It's impossible to stop. 310 00:19:21,040 --> 00:19:22,040 You all right? 311 00:19:24,680 --> 00:19:27,120 Fine. 312 00:19:30,360 --> 00:19:34,680 I don't think there's a chance to feel anythin' other than hungover. 313 00:19:35,880 --> 00:19:36,920 And then 314 00:19:37,840 --> 00:19:40,080 not hungover because you are 315 00:19:41,720 --> 00:19:44,720 yet again in the process of, um, 316 00:19:45,240 --> 00:19:46,836 creating a future hangover. 317 00:19:46,920 --> 00:19:49,476 I'm drunk as a skunk. 318 00:19:50,600 --> 00:19:54,196 I sound... I sound brilliant after that many glasses. 319 00:19:54,280 --> 00:19:57,516 - We've done well. Hurrah! - Hurrah! 320 00:19:57,600 --> 00:19:58,800 More pineapple! 321 00:19:59,480 --> 00:20:01,756 I mean, I knew when I met him, 322 00:20:01,840 --> 00:20:04,796 he was drinking, and he had the shakes. 323 00:20:04,880 --> 00:20:07,720 He was so on the edge and, um, 324 00:20:08,320 --> 00:20:09,156 you know... 325 00:20:09,240 --> 00:20:10,236 Challenging? 326 00:20:10,320 --> 00:20:11,756 Yeah. Of course. 327 00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:14,040 It's really... It's really challenging. 328 00:20:18,360 --> 00:20:19,200 Fuck. 329 00:20:19,800 --> 00:20:20,640 Fuck. 330 00:20:21,960 --> 00:20:26,960 I think this is the most difficult bit to watch. 331 00:20:28,600 --> 00:20:31,156 Because of... 332 00:20:31,240 --> 00:20:33,160 ...what I'm putting myself through. 333 00:20:36,920 --> 00:20:39,356 The last 12 months, I've just sort of 334 00:20:39,440 --> 00:20:42,316 lost meself into oblivion of I don't know what. 335 00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:46,556 And, uh, finding it difficult doing interviews at the minute. 336 00:20:46,640 --> 00:20:50,480 Only 'cause I'm not sure of what I should and shouldn't be saying about things. 337 00:20:52,240 --> 00:20:55,800 And I'm just havin'... I'm having so many... so many doubts about meself. 338 00:20:57,960 --> 00:21:00,640 I completely don't like my own company at the minute. 339 00:21:02,200 --> 00:21:04,076 Robbie Williams in the studio! 340 00:21:04,160 --> 00:21:06,956 Did I mention my new single's out? 341 00:21:07,040 --> 00:21:08,636 - How are you? - Did I mention my new... 342 00:21:08,720 --> 00:21:10,876 Yes, I'm very well. Let's put this here. 343 00:21:10,960 --> 00:21:12,596 - I'm very well, and how are you? - Yeah? 344 00:21:12,680 --> 00:21:14,516 Everybody knows I'm in trouble. 345 00:21:14,600 --> 00:21:15,760 And how are you? 346 00:21:16,480 --> 00:21:18,640 But, um... I didn't care. 347 00:21:22,200 --> 00:21:24,400 I'd gone past the point of no return. 348 00:21:29,600 --> 00:21:30,520 And, um... 349 00:21:31,920 --> 00:21:33,320 I needed grown-ups. 350 00:21:41,120 --> 00:21:44,440 My life had spiraled out of control so severely. 351 00:21:46,920 --> 00:21:50,800 But my manager understood what needed to happen. 352 00:21:52,400 --> 00:21:55,316 I needed to be carted off and taken away to rehab. 353 00:21:55,400 --> 00:21:57,036 Robbie, how you feeling today? 354 00:21:57,120 --> 00:22:00,236 New single out 14th July. It's called "Lazy Days." It's fantastic. 355 00:22:00,320 --> 00:22:02,876 Any message for fans who might be a bit worried about you? 356 00:22:02,960 --> 00:22:04,756 Uh, no, don't be worried about me. I'm fine. 357 00:22:04,840 --> 00:22:07,476 But a bit... a bit, um... I'm appalled at the turnout. 358 00:22:07,560 --> 00:22:11,076 When Michael Barrymore had a problem, there was thousands outside his house. 359 00:22:11,160 --> 00:22:12,000 See ya! 360 00:22:21,160 --> 00:22:22,560 It's a tough watch. 361 00:22:24,480 --> 00:22:25,720 Reliving that again. 362 00:22:32,400 --> 00:22:35,080 I think the root of that darkness was 363 00:22:36,200 --> 00:22:37,760 the perfect storm 364 00:22:38,840 --> 00:22:40,560 of too much too soon. 365 00:22:48,160 --> 00:22:52,836 But just because, in this moment, I couldn't figure out how to live... 366 00:22:55,360 --> 00:22:57,960 ...I knew that it didn't mean that I couldn't. 367 00:23:06,680 --> 00:23:10,360 You know, you don't wanna be a has-been at 23. 368 00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:12,680 You can have lots of treats. 369 00:23:15,280 --> 00:23:18,000 And this has to go somewhere because 370 00:23:19,240 --> 00:23:20,320 there's nothin' else. 371 00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:31,920 "Clean and serene for sixty days"? 372 00:23:33,640 --> 00:23:34,520 Good, innit? 373 00:23:35,680 --> 00:23:36,996 Dead serene. 374 00:23:37,080 --> 00:23:41,436 ♪ 'Cause you know you're gonna have to leave... ♪ 375 00:23:41,520 --> 00:23:44,396 I think for me, it became like a weight-loss camp. 376 00:23:44,480 --> 00:23:47,240 Nobody noticed that I was just eatin' a banana a day. 377 00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:50,920 Towards the end of 30 days, gettin' up towards my 60-day one, 378 00:23:51,880 --> 00:23:53,680 I started to get very nervous. 379 00:23:54,880 --> 00:23:56,840 Gimme a line. Gimme a line. 380 00:23:58,920 --> 00:24:00,396 Is that my car?! 381 00:24:00,480 --> 00:24:02,596 It's amazing how alive I am instantly. 382 00:24:02,680 --> 00:24:04,200 - Action. - Robbie! 383 00:24:04,720 --> 00:24:07,160 And all it's taken is 60 days. 384 00:24:13,520 --> 00:24:15,880 - Do it in Spanish. - Do it in Spanish? 385 00:24:19,760 --> 00:24:20,836 ...court case. 386 00:24:22,760 --> 00:24:23,796 ...Robbie Williams... 387 00:24:26,160 --> 00:24:28,880 ...for la meaty goodness. But also... 388 00:24:29,600 --> 00:24:30,960 There's life there. 389 00:24:31,680 --> 00:24:34,476 Robbie is back. Whoa, whoa. 390 00:24:34,560 --> 00:24:37,880 Robbie is back. Robbie is back. Whoa, whoa. 391 00:24:39,320 --> 00:24:42,200 It had been two years since Take That. 392 00:24:43,760 --> 00:24:46,560 I'd waited a long time. I needed to get goin'. 393 00:25:01,880 --> 00:25:05,240 Here you join us backstage tonight and, um, 394 00:25:06,440 --> 00:25:07,480 gettin' nervous. 395 00:25:08,200 --> 00:25:10,640 "Am I big enough? Am I enough?" All that sorta gig. 396 00:25:21,280 --> 00:25:22,996 Don't call it a comeback! 397 00:25:30,640 --> 00:25:34,156 ♪ Hell is gone and heaven's here There's nothing left for you to fear ♪ 398 00:25:34,240 --> 00:25:36,916 ♪ Shake your ass, come over here Now scream ♪ 399 00:25:38,480 --> 00:25:41,916 ♪ I'm a burnin' effigy Of everythin' I used to be ♪ 400 00:25:42,000 --> 00:25:44,760 ♪ You're my rock of empathy, my dear ♪ 401 00:25:45,280 --> 00:25:50,840 ♪ So come on, let me entertain you ♪ 402 00:25:53,800 --> 00:25:58,156 ♪ Let me entertain you ♪ 403 00:25:58,240 --> 00:25:59,200 Come on, then! 404 00:26:01,200 --> 00:26:02,996 Robbie! 405 00:26:03,080 --> 00:26:04,196 Robbie! 406 00:26:04,280 --> 00:26:08,556 I spent two years forgettin' why I was doin' this job. 407 00:26:08,640 --> 00:26:10,076 What I was doin' it for. 408 00:26:10,160 --> 00:26:13,076 It's not for the money. It's not for the critical acclaim. 409 00:26:13,160 --> 00:26:16,036 I want to entertain. That's what I wanna do. 410 00:26:16,120 --> 00:26:18,236 ♪ So come on, let me... ♪ 411 00:26:18,320 --> 00:26:20,596 Somethin' very excitin' is happenin'. 412 00:26:20,680 --> 00:26:23,276 I was learning how to be an entertainer. 413 00:26:23,360 --> 00:26:25,680 Something that people could come and watch. 414 00:26:26,920 --> 00:26:30,600 But the record company needed me to return on their investment. 415 00:26:35,400 --> 00:26:41,120 The album comes out, and it sells in total 33,000 copies. 416 00:26:42,480 --> 00:26:44,996 You know, there's a lot of jeopardy ridin' on this 417 00:26:45,080 --> 00:26:47,960 because it was all on me. 418 00:26:48,480 --> 00:26:50,080 Thank you very much. 419 00:26:54,520 --> 00:26:56,196 - Was it bad last night? - Yeah. 420 00:26:56,280 --> 00:26:57,956 - Is it bad every night? - No... 421 00:26:58,040 --> 00:27:00,556 Well, it's just one of the problem songs. 422 00:27:00,640 --> 00:27:03,760 Just trying to find a way of helping you so you can get that pitch. 423 00:27:04,360 --> 00:27:06,316 - Thank you very much. - It's just that song, innit? 424 00:27:06,400 --> 00:27:10,596 "Old Before I Die" has sometimes been a little bit hit and miss as well. 425 00:27:10,680 --> 00:27:14,236 I think that's 'cause at that point in the set, you're really hyped up. 426 00:27:14,320 --> 00:27:18,160 You've got to listen more, that's all. Listen to what everyone's doing. 427 00:27:18,680 --> 00:27:20,920 'Cause everyone's doing great stuff. 428 00:27:21,560 --> 00:27:25,036 You've gotta like, "Ah, right! I'm part of this great band." 429 00:27:25,120 --> 00:27:28,440 - No, I... That's not the case at all. - Just in terms of listening. 430 00:27:28,960 --> 00:27:30,840 - Okay. - Sometimes you just... 431 00:27:31,880 --> 00:27:34,000 It doesn't always... I dunno, it just... 432 00:27:35,800 --> 00:27:38,636 You're just thinking of how you can put this now, aren't you? 433 00:27:38,720 --> 00:27:40,276 No, no, no! 434 00:27:40,360 --> 00:27:43,116 - Go on, put it in any way you like. - No, I mean, I just... 435 00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:45,920 I just think you're giving 100% to the crowd, 436 00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:47,996 not necessarily holding back, going, 437 00:27:48,080 --> 00:27:49,756 "I should concentrate on being the singer--" 438 00:27:49,840 --> 00:27:52,360 This is five minutes before I'm goin' on to do a gig. 439 00:27:53,040 --> 00:27:53,956 D'you know what I mean? 440 00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:56,516 - What's the matter-- - What do you want now? 441 00:27:56,600 --> 00:27:58,076 - Piss off. - You wearing that? 442 00:27:58,160 --> 00:27:59,636 - Yeah. - You look a cunt. 443 00:28:03,440 --> 00:28:05,800 Go out there and be confident, Rob. 444 00:28:13,920 --> 00:28:17,440 Figuratively speaking, my career was falling off a cliff. 445 00:28:21,720 --> 00:28:24,636 And I'd had quite a few goes with singles 446 00:28:24,720 --> 00:28:27,040 that wouldn't be allowed to happen now. 447 00:28:29,000 --> 00:28:31,240 And a memo goes round the record company. 448 00:28:34,200 --> 00:28:36,200 I am about to be dropped. 449 00:28:40,760 --> 00:28:43,396 When you find yourself starin' into an abyss, 450 00:28:43,480 --> 00:28:46,076 you just might find yourself staring back. 451 00:28:46,160 --> 00:28:49,160 I think I know what you mean. 452 00:28:50,040 --> 00:28:50,880 Right, stop. 453 00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:57,960 It looks as though that's it for the Williams boy. 454 00:29:03,240 --> 00:29:05,000 What a lovely day for it. 455 00:29:06,840 --> 00:29:10,920 But in my back pocket, I had somethin' special. 456 00:29:18,160 --> 00:29:19,040 "Angels." 457 00:29:19,640 --> 00:29:21,836 Two, three, four. 458 00:29:23,760 --> 00:29:29,720 ♪ And I know I'll always Be blessed with love ♪ 459 00:29:33,560 --> 00:29:36,356 ♪ And as the feeling grows ... ♪ 460 00:29:36,440 --> 00:29:40,040 "Angels" comes out, and then thank God for that because 461 00:29:40,920 --> 00:29:42,080 everything changed. 462 00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:46,240 ♪ I'm loving angels instead ♪ 463 00:29:46,880 --> 00:29:50,196 ♪ And through it all ♪ 464 00:29:50,280 --> 00:29:52,920 ♪ She offers me protection ♪ 465 00:29:53,440 --> 00:29:56,320 ♪ A lot of love and affection ♪ 466 00:29:56,920 --> 00:29:59,280 ♪ Whether I'm right or wrong... ♪ 467 00:30:00,200 --> 00:30:01,436 He's back. He's live. 468 00:30:01,520 --> 00:30:03,556 He's better than ever. He's Robbie Williams. 469 00:30:03,640 --> 00:30:05,076 ♪ Wherever it may take... ♪ 470 00:30:05,160 --> 00:30:07,636 ...Robbie Williams, with a chart climber. 471 00:30:07,720 --> 00:30:09,200 ♪ ...won't break me ♪ 472 00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:11,156 ♪ When I come to call... ♪ 473 00:30:11,240 --> 00:30:13,356 Something was connecting... 474 00:30:13,440 --> 00:30:16,560 - ♪ She won't foresake me... ♪ - ... and you could just feel this momentum. 475 00:30:18,080 --> 00:30:20,876 ♪ I'm lovin' angels instead ♪ 476 00:30:20,960 --> 00:30:24,076 It was the rocket taking off. With a... 477 00:30:24,160 --> 00:30:26,236 ♪ When I'm feelin' weak ♪ 478 00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:32,560 ♪ And my pain walks down A one-way street ♪ 479 00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:40,316 Currently, 'avin' an 'it in Shveden. 480 00:30:41,880 --> 00:30:45,036 So we may go to Shveden, as we are 'avin' an 'it. 481 00:30:49,480 --> 00:30:51,796 ♪ And as the feeling grows... ♪ 482 00:30:51,880 --> 00:30:53,916 The album sales are gettin' bigger. 483 00:30:54,000 --> 00:30:55,400 The audiences are gettin' bigger. 484 00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:57,880 ♪ And when love is dead... ♪ 485 00:30:58,480 --> 00:31:00,956 From the jaws of defeat, 486 00:31:01,040 --> 00:31:04,116 we seem to be making headway into the world. 487 00:31:19,280 --> 00:31:21,156 Open the window. Let the sound in. 488 00:31:23,120 --> 00:31:24,080 Moon! Moon! 489 00:31:26,320 --> 00:31:32,396 ♪ And through it all She offers me protection ♪ 490 00:31:32,480 --> 00:31:35,916 Is it always like that when we open the window in a radio station, 491 00:31:36,000 --> 00:31:38,196 and all the girls stood outside scream and shout? 492 00:31:38,280 --> 00:31:41,396 - It's like that outside me launderette! - What's it like back home? 493 00:31:41,480 --> 00:31:44,116 Do you wish sometimes to have a normal life? 494 00:31:44,200 --> 00:31:45,676 This is a normal life. 495 00:31:45,760 --> 00:31:48,240 ♪ I know that life won't break me... ♪ 496 00:31:49,080 --> 00:31:52,116 I don't know what it is that's so special about that song. 497 00:31:52,200 --> 00:31:55,360 But whatever it is, it had it. 498 00:31:57,240 --> 00:32:01,476 ♪ I'm loving angels instead ♪ 499 00:32:01,560 --> 00:32:04,200 Thank you! 500 00:32:07,360 --> 00:32:08,236 Hello, Rob. 501 00:32:08,320 --> 00:32:10,556 It's not a silver surprise. 502 00:32:10,640 --> 00:32:12,156 It's not a gold surprise. 503 00:32:12,240 --> 00:32:13,796 It's a platinum surprise! 504 00:32:17,840 --> 00:32:20,800 He's gone platinum, everybody! 505 00:32:22,120 --> 00:32:23,920 Um, I'm gobsmacked with this. 506 00:32:24,880 --> 00:32:25,996 Fantastic. 507 00:32:28,600 --> 00:32:30,036 I've got a career! 508 00:32:35,120 --> 00:32:36,360 Thank you very much. 509 00:32:37,480 --> 00:32:38,600 Robbie? 510 00:32:39,400 --> 00:32:40,320 It was good! 511 00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:48,516 Rock-and-roll capital of Surrey. 512 00:32:48,600 --> 00:32:50,000 Right. Bloody 'ell. 513 00:32:50,680 --> 00:32:52,156 - Right? - Yeah. 514 00:32:54,760 --> 00:32:56,036 He was fab, wasn't he? 515 00:32:56,120 --> 00:32:59,316 Success definitely, subconsciously, 516 00:32:59,400 --> 00:33:01,040 did equal happiness. 517 00:33:03,200 --> 00:33:04,876 - I'm speechless. - Did you enjoy that? 518 00:33:04,960 --> 00:33:06,440 Absolutely brilliant. 519 00:33:07,880 --> 00:33:10,320 This is my second go at biting the apple. 520 00:33:11,200 --> 00:33:12,640 Take That was the first. 521 00:33:13,160 --> 00:33:14,400 This is the second. 522 00:33:17,000 --> 00:33:18,160 Well done. 523 00:33:20,320 --> 00:33:21,836 - Brilliant. - Thank you. 524 00:33:21,920 --> 00:33:23,640 I'm a pop star now. 525 00:33:25,000 --> 00:33:28,520 I'm the fully thinged... I'm the fully thing thinged. 526 00:33:35,760 --> 00:33:38,760 Peter Snow getting Robbie's autograph. 527 00:33:39,720 --> 00:33:42,240 - I think it's a swing to the left. - Left? 528 00:33:43,160 --> 00:33:44,516 Oh right. All Saints. 529 00:33:50,040 --> 00:33:53,240 Fame, in and of of itself, is a playground. 530 00:33:55,320 --> 00:33:59,396 And I didn't know who I was gonna be in that playground, 531 00:33:59,480 --> 00:34:00,956 but I wanted to be in it. 532 00:34:03,480 --> 00:34:05,080 - Sh! - Name and age. 533 00:34:05,560 --> 00:34:08,120 Um, Nicole Appleton, and I'm 23. 534 00:34:08,640 --> 00:34:11,676 If you had one night with Robbie Williams, what would you do? 535 00:34:11,760 --> 00:34:12,720 I've done it! 536 00:34:17,320 --> 00:34:21,280 Nicole Appleton is in a band called All Saints. 537 00:34:22,560 --> 00:34:25,200 The less smiley version of the Spice Girls. 538 00:34:28,240 --> 00:34:31,360 - I could change it with mine. - That'd be really funny. 539 00:34:32,400 --> 00:34:33,840 - I should do that? - Yeah! 540 00:34:35,680 --> 00:34:38,960 So, at some point, our paths were bound to cross, 541 00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:42,916 and we struck up a relationship together. 542 00:34:49,960 --> 00:34:55,680 She was kind and fun and sweet. You know, she was just a good soul. 543 00:34:58,280 --> 00:35:00,196 With my relationship with Nic, 544 00:35:00,280 --> 00:35:02,320 it was very important to me 545 00:35:02,920 --> 00:35:05,636 to learn to become the man that I was supposed to be. 546 00:35:10,320 --> 00:35:14,636 You know, these are miracles that are happening in my life. 547 00:35:21,120 --> 00:35:23,156 You know when something's right? 548 00:35:23,240 --> 00:35:25,640 Tonight's right! 549 00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:30,036 And I'm so 'appy! 550 00:35:41,560 --> 00:35:43,796 There was no left. There was no right. 551 00:35:43,880 --> 00:35:45,436 There was only forward. 552 00:36:03,720 --> 00:36:05,280 Hi, mate. What's the date? 553 00:36:05,800 --> 00:36:07,756 - It's 19th January. - 19th January. 554 00:36:07,840 --> 00:36:10,320 The new year. 1998. 555 00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:15,116 - Here at Jake's place in Jamaica. - Wahey. 556 00:36:15,200 --> 00:36:17,196 We came from Gatwick yesterday, me and Guy. 557 00:36:17,280 --> 00:36:18,796 - Say hello, Guy. - Hello, Rob. 558 00:36:18,880 --> 00:36:20,560 Hello, mate. Come with me. 559 00:36:26,160 --> 00:36:28,276 We brought our own studio with us. 560 00:36:28,360 --> 00:36:31,160 A little 8-track. So we can record while we're out here. 561 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:39,440 That's safe, innit? Keep it under lock and key. 562 00:36:46,160 --> 00:36:47,240 Move up a bit. 563 00:36:47,880 --> 00:36:50,356 Don't want your ugly mug on my video diary. 564 00:36:50,440 --> 00:36:51,760 I look really white. 565 00:36:52,280 --> 00:36:53,476 That's 'cause you are. 566 00:36:55,840 --> 00:36:57,680 He's from Surrey, you know. 567 00:37:04,400 --> 00:37:08,840 Traditionally, there is the "difficult second album" syndrome. 568 00:37:09,600 --> 00:37:11,760 I didn't feel that way with Guy. 569 00:37:15,240 --> 00:37:19,200 I think that what we were doing together also excited him . 570 00:37:20,360 --> 00:37:24,036 ♪ I've come to remind you That we'll come and find you ♪ 571 00:37:24,120 --> 00:37:26,120 ♪ This is a happy song ♪ 572 00:37:27,480 --> 00:37:29,716 ♪ Do-do do-do-do, do-do... ♪ 573 00:37:29,800 --> 00:37:32,080 He was a older brother, 574 00:37:33,120 --> 00:37:35,836 mentor, musical mentor... 575 00:37:37,720 --> 00:37:39,716 ...and I was a student. 576 00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:42,836 ♪ Do-do do-do-do, do-do do-do-do ♪ 577 00:37:42,920 --> 00:37:44,476 ♪ Do-do do-do-do... ♪ 578 00:37:44,560 --> 00:37:46,956 - It's okay there. - ♪ Do-do do-do-do ♪ 579 00:37:47,040 --> 00:37:48,676 - ♪ Do-do-do ♪ - ♪ Do-do-do ♪ 580 00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:49,756 - ♪Do-do ♪ - ♪ Do ♪ 581 00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:55,400 As you can see, it is now pouring down with rain. 582 00:37:56,560 --> 00:37:59,476 Quick. Quick, Rob. Because it mustn't get wet. The stuff. 583 00:38:02,440 --> 00:38:04,996 ♪ Send you our love 'cause we care... ♪ 584 00:38:05,080 --> 00:38:08,636 There was so much love between me and Guy in those moments. 585 00:38:08,720 --> 00:38:11,760 ♪ ...news from Jamaica ♪ 586 00:38:13,760 --> 00:38:15,800 Day seven. 587 00:38:18,840 --> 00:38:24,600 And this was a beautiful way to spend your life. 588 00:38:32,600 --> 00:38:35,196 - It's rather nice, isn't it? - It's fantastic. 589 00:38:35,280 --> 00:38:37,516 Sure we're gonna get a lot of inspiration here. 590 00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:39,156 - It's amazing. - This is amazing. 591 00:38:39,240 --> 00:38:43,316 This is just... I think it's one of the most amazing places I've ever been. 592 00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:45,756 - Yeah. - Actually. It's up there. 593 00:38:45,840 --> 00:38:47,036 Have you been to Rhyl? 594 00:38:48,920 --> 00:38:50,520 - It's very like-- - In Wales. 595 00:38:51,600 --> 00:38:52,800 It's just like this. 596 00:38:58,720 --> 00:39:01,120 Oh dear, where's the phone? 597 00:39:04,320 --> 00:39:05,160 Hello? 598 00:39:07,280 --> 00:39:08,280 Is that Nicky? 599 00:39:09,520 --> 00:39:10,800 It's Guy. 600 00:39:11,520 --> 00:39:12,876 She's on the telephone. 601 00:39:12,960 --> 00:39:14,320 - Is she? - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 602 00:39:15,240 --> 00:39:17,276 - Can I just leave it here? - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 603 00:39:17,360 --> 00:39:19,440 Guy's gonna leave the video camera here. 604 00:39:20,640 --> 00:39:27,240 So, I am possibly looking at the most amazing view that, um, 605 00:39:27,880 --> 00:39:29,520 I've ever seen in my life. 606 00:39:31,360 --> 00:39:34,956 Yeah, honestly, babe, I'm not kiddin' you, I walked into this place... 607 00:39:35,040 --> 00:39:37,840 I'm about 3,000 feet up in the mountains. 608 00:39:38,520 --> 00:39:41,160 There's... There's just forests everywhere. 609 00:39:41,680 --> 00:39:44,516 I can see Kingston... I'm not kidding you, right, 610 00:39:44,600 --> 00:39:48,120 as I walked in and I was shown around the place, 611 00:39:48,720 --> 00:39:51,360 um, I got onto the balcony and just cried. 612 00:39:53,600 --> 00:39:55,036 Yeah. Yeah. 613 00:39:55,120 --> 00:39:56,400 - Wow! - Just like... 614 00:39:57,000 --> 00:39:59,600 Just so... proud. 615 00:40:02,640 --> 00:40:05,120 It's... You know, it's like, I'm like a child there. 616 00:40:06,520 --> 00:40:07,880 Talkin' to a mum. 617 00:40:09,080 --> 00:40:11,000 About what I'm experiencing and... 618 00:40:12,480 --> 00:40:14,200 The truth is, um... 619 00:40:16,800 --> 00:40:18,360 I was still... still a baby. 620 00:40:25,680 --> 00:40:28,720 You know, I was 16 when I joined Take That. 621 00:40:30,080 --> 00:40:34,396 And I guess that there is some sort of broken teenager in there 622 00:40:34,480 --> 00:40:35,800 that will be, um, 623 00:40:36,720 --> 00:40:39,280 tryin' to sort out the wreckage of the past. 624 00:40:43,600 --> 00:40:44,440 But... 625 00:40:45,560 --> 00:40:47,396 I couldn't let it go. 626 00:40:55,000 --> 00:40:56,800 "Do you feel cut up?" 627 00:40:58,560 --> 00:40:59,720 "Do you feel cut up 628 00:41:00,440 --> 00:41:02,956 by the people... duh-duh-duh... you've met?" 629 00:41:03,040 --> 00:41:04,476 Hm. 630 00:41:04,560 --> 00:41:07,916 - "That you've left by the wayside." - No, it's gotta rhyme with "et." 631 00:41:08,000 --> 00:41:09,036 Mm. 632 00:41:09,120 --> 00:41:10,880 - "Have you popped your clogs yet?" - Mm. 633 00:41:12,560 --> 00:41:16,076 I suppose, at this point, my memories of being in that band 634 00:41:16,160 --> 00:41:19,200 are sullied with how I felt during the process. 635 00:41:19,840 --> 00:41:21,840 So, you can imagine what this... 636 00:41:23,920 --> 00:41:25,240 young man is feelin'. 637 00:41:25,840 --> 00:41:28,396 ♪ I guess you know I hate you ♪ 638 00:41:28,480 --> 00:41:31,040 ♪ Needless to say ♪ 639 00:41:32,400 --> 00:41:35,440 ♪ I guess you know I hate you ♪ 640 00:41:36,080 --> 00:41:37,680 ♪ Are you still around? ♪ 641 00:41:39,320 --> 00:41:41,680 ♪ Why haven't you managed to die yet? ♪ 642 00:41:42,720 --> 00:41:44,720 ♪ How can you sleep? ♪ 643 00:41:46,200 --> 00:41:47,556 - D'you know what, though? - What? 644 00:41:47,640 --> 00:41:49,196 Don't like the chorus. 645 00:41:49,280 --> 00:41:51,196 The fact that it's so... jolly? 646 00:41:51,280 --> 00:41:53,396 So j... I don't want it to be jolly. I don't... 647 00:41:53,480 --> 00:41:55,716 It... It doesn't feel right when I'm singing it. 648 00:41:55,800 --> 00:41:58,716 I want it to be nasty. I want it to be as nasty as the verse. 649 00:41:58,800 --> 00:41:59,716 I'm not being... 650 00:42:00,880 --> 00:42:01,916 ...ironic or... 651 00:42:02,000 --> 00:42:02,836 Hm. Mm. 652 00:42:02,920 --> 00:42:05,436 I'm being fuckin' serious. Fuckin' hate these cunts. 653 00:42:05,520 --> 00:42:06,836 Mm. 654 00:42:06,920 --> 00:42:12,760 ♪ You could prop up a bar in hell ♪ 655 00:42:13,600 --> 00:42:16,916 ♪ How do you sleep? How do you laugh? ♪ 656 00:42:17,000 --> 00:42:20,116 ♪ How do you cry? How do you lie? ♪ 657 00:42:20,200 --> 00:42:23,800 - ♪ Na na na na ♪ - ♪Na na na na na ♪ 658 00:42:26,840 --> 00:42:30,116 ♪ How do you touch? How do you feel? ♪ 659 00:42:30,200 --> 00:42:32,200 ♪ How do you keep me from... ♪ 660 00:42:34,880 --> 00:42:36,876 Angry. Venom. Venom. 661 00:42:36,960 --> 00:42:37,796 Spittle. 662 00:42:37,880 --> 00:42:38,716 Spittle! 663 00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:39,960 That's good, that. 664 00:42:41,000 --> 00:42:42,600 Yeah, I can see that. Yeah. 665 00:42:44,240 --> 00:42:45,596 Teddy bear! 666 00:42:45,680 --> 00:42:47,000 Come, come get in bed. 667 00:42:49,440 --> 00:42:53,360 Put your drink down, and just come and get behind me. Gimme a cuddle. 668 00:42:55,520 --> 00:42:56,796 Hi, Daddy. 669 00:42:56,880 --> 00:42:59,356 Talkin' about the... the band I used to be in. 670 00:42:59,440 --> 00:43:01,440 - Yes. Question? - Yes. 671 00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:04,320 Who did you hate the most and why? 672 00:43:05,080 --> 00:43:06,196 Who did I hate the most? 673 00:43:06,280 --> 00:43:09,240 I disliked Gary 674 00:43:09,920 --> 00:43:11,000 the most 675 00:43:11,640 --> 00:43:13,040 because 676 00:43:14,120 --> 00:43:17,680 he... was the one that was supposed to 'ave 677 00:43:18,720 --> 00:43:20,596 the everythin' and the career. 678 00:43:20,680 --> 00:43:22,840 And I wanted to make him pay. 679 00:43:24,040 --> 00:43:25,036 I was... 680 00:43:25,120 --> 00:43:26,800 - How? - I was vengeful. 681 00:43:27,800 --> 00:43:31,080 By havin' the career 682 00:43:32,240 --> 00:43:35,760 that he was supposed to have. 683 00:43:40,480 --> 00:43:43,316 Here's a song about a group of people 684 00:43:43,400 --> 00:43:45,516 that I used to be with an awful lot. 685 00:43:47,960 --> 00:43:49,996 Those people are called Take That. 686 00:43:54,800 --> 00:43:58,436 You know, there was five of us. There was one very small one. 687 00:44:02,080 --> 00:44:05,796 And, uh... one had like a mop on his head. 688 00:44:08,240 --> 00:44:09,960 The other one had a mohican, 689 00:44:10,800 --> 00:44:11,960 and he was a twat. 690 00:44:12,480 --> 00:44:14,956 And the other one looked a bit like this. 691 00:44:20,920 --> 00:44:22,760 Listen. 692 00:44:23,320 --> 00:44:25,560 There's somebody booing me down here 693 00:44:26,080 --> 00:44:28,236 that actually likes Gary Barlow. 694 00:44:33,440 --> 00:44:36,280 He's not selling any more records now, girls! 695 00:44:38,720 --> 00:44:40,836 Let's face it, he's dead! 696 00:44:46,880 --> 00:44:49,240 I'm sorry that I treated Gary like that. 697 00:44:59,320 --> 00:45:01,800 Nobody graduates from childhood fame 698 00:45:03,280 --> 00:45:04,480 well balanced. 699 00:45:08,360 --> 00:45:11,760 The years of finding yourself, maturing, and growin' up... 700 00:45:14,600 --> 00:45:16,520 that everybody has is taken away from you. 701 00:45:20,040 --> 00:45:21,400 Um, Nicky? 702 00:45:22,880 --> 00:45:23,960 Will you marry me? 703 00:45:25,120 --> 00:45:25,960 "Yes"? 704 00:45:27,600 --> 00:45:28,556 Good. 705 00:45:28,640 --> 00:45:30,200 All right, then. Bye! 706 00:45:34,040 --> 00:45:37,476 I guess that I'm tryin' to convince myself 707 00:45:37,560 --> 00:45:41,120 that I'm the kind of person that is ready for that kind of commitment. 708 00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:43,840 I know I'm not. 709 00:45:50,040 --> 00:45:51,760 I couldn't look after myself. 710 00:45:52,520 --> 00:45:54,120 I was in no fit state 711 00:45:54,840 --> 00:45:57,636 to offer myself as a partner. 712 00:45:57,720 --> 00:46:00,320 - Are you gonna sit on the sound thing? - Yeah. 713 00:46:01,560 --> 00:46:05,116 And, um, the relationship with Nic ended 714 00:46:05,200 --> 00:46:06,520 a few months after this. 715 00:46:07,040 --> 00:46:08,200 Stop filmin' now. 716 00:46:14,440 --> 00:46:15,796 Just a bit of traffic, then. 717 00:46:19,280 --> 00:46:21,040 Probably why he's goin'. 718 00:46:22,200 --> 00:46:25,436 - I can't believe that happened. - Look at that! 719 00:46:25,520 --> 00:46:27,880 - Wow! Fuck! - It's like a sea of... 720 00:46:28,680 --> 00:46:29,800 It's all mud. 721 00:46:31,240 --> 00:46:33,716 I felt like I was an infant 722 00:46:33,800 --> 00:46:35,840 in the grown-up world. 723 00:46:37,800 --> 00:46:40,396 So, I'm just about to go on at Glastonbury, 724 00:46:40,480 --> 00:46:42,560 and I don't know what's gonna 'appen. 725 00:46:45,280 --> 00:46:48,116 It's, uh... 88,000 people. 726 00:46:49,960 --> 00:46:52,320 It's the epoch of credibility. 727 00:46:54,360 --> 00:46:58,600 And it's the biggest gig of my career so far. 728 00:46:59,960 --> 00:47:01,476 Come on! 729 00:47:01,560 --> 00:47:03,040 Let's fuckin' 'ave it! 730 00:47:05,160 --> 00:47:06,276 I'm terrified. 731 00:47:06,360 --> 00:47:07,960 Absolutely terrified. 732 00:47:16,520 --> 00:47:20,596 This had the opportunity to go very badly. 733 00:47:24,920 --> 00:47:28,956 There's still a bit of me goin', "I'm still Rob from Stoke-on-Trent." 734 00:47:29,040 --> 00:47:30,236 "I'm still 16." 735 00:47:32,200 --> 00:47:35,440 That's one of those moments where I think I'm gonna be found out. 736 00:47:58,040 --> 00:47:59,640 ♪ I sit and wait ♪ 737 00:48:01,280 --> 00:48:07,556 ♪ Does an angel contemplate my fate ♪ 738 00:48:07,640 --> 00:48:08,600 If you must! 739 00:48:11,120 --> 00:48:13,000 ♪ And do they know ♪ 740 00:48:13,600 --> 00:48:15,760 ♪ The places where we go ♪ 741 00:48:16,400 --> 00:48:19,960 ♪ When you're gray and old ♪ 742 00:48:22,800 --> 00:48:25,560 ♪ 'Cause I've been told ♪ 743 00:48:26,840 --> 00:48:33,720 ♪ That salvation lets their wings unfold ♪ 744 00:48:36,560 --> 00:48:39,360 ♪ So when I'm lyin' in my bed ♪ 745 00:48:40,520 --> 00:48:42,600 ♪ Thoughts runnin' through my head ♪ 746 00:48:43,760 --> 00:48:46,520 ♪ And I feel that love is dead ♪ 747 00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:48,476 ♪ I'm lovin'... ♪ 748 00:48:48,560 --> 00:48:50,796 - Lo and behold ... - ♪ ...angels instead ♪ 749 00:48:50,880 --> 00:48:52,280 ...they embraced me! 750 00:48:52,800 --> 00:48:58,000 ♪ Through it all She offers me protection... ♪ 751 00:48:58,520 --> 00:48:59,360 Me. 752 00:48:59,880 --> 00:49:02,556 Bobbins from Take That. 753 00:49:02,640 --> 00:49:04,676 ♪ ...whether I'm right or wrong ♪ 754 00:49:04,760 --> 00:49:07,716 ♪ And down the waterfall... ♪ 755 00:49:07,800 --> 00:49:10,876 How does it feel to have thousands of people 756 00:49:10,960 --> 00:49:13,760 sing the words that you've written back to you? 757 00:49:14,560 --> 00:49:16,396 ♪ When I come to call... ♪ 758 00:49:16,480 --> 00:49:18,356 It is intoxicatin'. 759 00:49:18,440 --> 00:49:20,516 ♪ She won't forsake me ♪ 760 00:49:22,800 --> 00:49:26,000 ♪ I'm loving angels instead ♪ 761 00:49:36,000 --> 00:49:39,636 It felt like this is what I'm supposed to be doin'! 762 00:49:50,800 --> 00:49:55,200 But then you realize, subconsciously or consciously, that 763 00:49:57,080 --> 00:49:58,160 "I can't go back." 764 00:50:09,680 --> 00:50:11,320 I'm on a runaway train. 765 00:50:12,840 --> 00:50:15,516 And this was gonna grow bigger and bigger and bigger. 766 00:50:29,480 --> 00:50:31,960 I'm not looking forward to watching what's next. 767 00:50:35,360 --> 00:50:37,640 I didn't have the tools to deal with 768 00:50:39,480 --> 00:50:40,440 what's to come. 769 00:50:44,360 --> 00:50:46,080 Robbie! Robbie! 770 00:51:43,400 --> 00:51:45,956 ♪ My breath smells of a thousand fags ♪ 771 00:51:46,040 --> 00:51:48,876 ♪ And when I'm drunk I dance like me dad ♪ 772 00:51:48,960 --> 00:51:52,520 ♪ I've started to dress a bit like him ♪ 773 00:51:54,480 --> 00:51:57,196 ♪ And early morning when I wake up ♪ 774 00:51:57,280 --> 00:51:59,996 ♪ I look like KISS But without the makeup ♪ 775 00:52:00,080 --> 00:52:03,640 ♪ And that's a good line To take it to the bridge ♪ 776 00:52:05,760 --> 00:52:07,796 ♪ And you know, and you know ♪ 777 00:52:07,880 --> 00:52:11,000 ♪ 'Cause my life's a mess ♪ 778 00:52:11,560 --> 00:52:16,836 ♪ And I'm trying to grow So before I'm old I'll confess ♪ 779 00:52:16,920 --> 00:52:21,040 ♪ You think that I'm strong ♪ 780 00:52:21,640 --> 00:52:27,040 ♪ You're wrong, you're wrong ♪ 781 00:52:28,040 --> 00:52:32,320 ♪ I sing my song ♪ 782 00:52:32,840 --> 00:52:38,160 ♪ My song, my song ♪ 783 00:52:39,120 --> 00:52:41,676 ♪ My bed's full of takeaways ♪ 784 00:52:41,760 --> 00:52:44,516 ♪ And fantasies of easy lays ♪ 785 00:52:44,600 --> 00:52:48,000 ♪ The pause button's broke on my video ... ♪