1 00:00:21,480 --> 00:00:26,596 365,000 fans heading for Britain's biggest-ever pop concert. 2 00:00:26,680 --> 00:00:30,000 The reason? This man was going to entertain them. 3 00:00:35,400 --> 00:00:38,556 No doubt who the biggest name in British music is this weekend. 4 00:00:38,640 --> 00:00:40,116 It is his weekend. 5 00:00:40,200 --> 00:00:43,760 Robbie Williams is playing three nights at Knebworth back to back. 6 00:00:47,920 --> 00:00:49,916 Robbie-mania has taken hold. 7 00:00:50,000 --> 00:00:53,080 But if you're not a Robbie fan, just stay away. 8 00:01:31,040 --> 00:01:33,236 It was the biggest experience of my life, 9 00:01:33,320 --> 00:01:34,400 doing Knebworth. 10 00:01:35,040 --> 00:01:37,480 Just a blanket people of people en masse. 11 00:01:40,560 --> 00:01:42,516 And it was seismic. 12 00:01:42,600 --> 00:01:44,196 ♪ Hell is gone and heaven's here ♪ 13 00:01:44,280 --> 00:01:46,156 ♪ There's nothin' left for you to fear ♪ 14 00:01:46,240 --> 00:01:47,756 ♪ Shake your ass, come over here ♪ 15 00:01:47,840 --> 00:01:49,396 ♪ Now scream ♪ 16 00:01:50,440 --> 00:01:53,916 ♪ I'm a burnin' effigy Of everythin' I used to be ♪ 17 00:01:54,000 --> 00:01:56,600 ♪ You're my rock of empathy, my dear ♪ 18 00:01:57,160 --> 00:02:02,720 ♪ So come on, let me entertain you... ♪ 19 00:02:06,160 --> 00:02:08,396 This is the height of my career. 20 00:02:08,480 --> 00:02:11,636 It's all rampin' up to this. 21 00:02:11,720 --> 00:02:13,436 ♪ And through it... ♪ 22 00:02:13,520 --> 00:02:15,156 ♪ All ♪ 23 00:02:15,240 --> 00:02:18,196 ♪ She offers me protection ♪ 24 00:02:18,280 --> 00:02:21,080 ♪ A lot of love And affection ♪ 25 00:02:21,760 --> 00:02:24,836 ♪ Whether I'm right or wro-o-ong ♪ 26 00:02:24,920 --> 00:02:27,996 ♪ And down the waterfall ♪ 27 00:02:28,080 --> 00:02:31,196 ♪ Wherever it may take me ♪ 28 00:02:31,280 --> 00:02:34,636 ♪ I know that life won't break me ♪ 29 00:02:34,720 --> 00:02:36,880 ♪ When I come to call... ♪ 30 00:02:38,280 --> 00:02:41,836 I feel like I am the center of the pop-culture world 31 00:02:41,920 --> 00:02:43,076 at the moment. 32 00:02:43,160 --> 00:02:47,156 ♪ I'm lovin' angels instead ♪ 33 00:02:48,800 --> 00:02:51,760 Thank you for makin' my dream come true, Knebworth! 34 00:03:02,240 --> 00:03:03,840 Robbie! 35 00:03:07,520 --> 00:03:10,276 There's an awful lot of shit that's written about me, 36 00:03:10,360 --> 00:03:11,796 uh, almost every week. 37 00:03:11,880 --> 00:03:15,640 And, um, I want you to remember something for me. 38 00:03:16,160 --> 00:03:17,596 This is Robbie Williams. 39 00:03:17,680 --> 00:03:19,516 This is what I do for a livin'. 40 00:03:19,600 --> 00:03:20,596 Right here. 41 00:03:20,680 --> 00:03:23,356 I'm a singer. I'm a songwriter. 42 00:03:23,440 --> 00:03:25,196 And I'm a born entertainer. 43 00:03:27,200 --> 00:03:29,476 This is what I do. 44 00:03:31,600 --> 00:03:32,600 Thank you! 45 00:03:36,600 --> 00:03:39,596 I'd just had the biggest experience of my life 46 00:03:39,680 --> 00:03:40,836 doin' Knebworth. 47 00:03:40,920 --> 00:03:44,596 And I think the first line in the NME review was, 48 00:03:44,680 --> 00:03:47,276 "Here it is. Naff Britain in microcosm." 49 00:03:53,760 --> 00:03:58,236 I'm trying to derive self-worth from doing my job, 50 00:03:58,320 --> 00:04:01,036 whilst I'm being told and reading about myself that... 51 00:04:01,120 --> 00:04:04,120 or hearing about myself from radio and TV that I'm 52 00:04:04,800 --> 00:04:06,036 a piece of shit. 53 00:04:06,120 --> 00:04:10,716 ♪ I just wanna feel real love ♪ 54 00:04:10,800 --> 00:04:14,280 ♪ Feel the home that I live in ♪ 55 00:04:15,800 --> 00:04:17,996 You know, I believed my press. 56 00:04:18,080 --> 00:04:20,756 Unfortunately, my press was the British press. 57 00:04:53,120 --> 00:04:55,676 ♪ I know That life won't break me ♪ 58 00:04:55,760 --> 00:04:57,556 ♪ When I come to call ♪ 59 00:04:57,640 --> 00:04:59,836 ♪ She won't forsake me ♪ 60 00:05:01,520 --> 00:05:04,276 ♪ I'm loving angels instead ♪ 61 00:05:04,360 --> 00:05:05,196 Yeah! 62 00:05:05,280 --> 00:05:07,916 Give it up for Teddy! 63 00:05:08,000 --> 00:05:10,080 - We got more cake, guys. - Come 'ere, Ted. 64 00:05:11,840 --> 00:05:14,036 You guys wanna see the cake you made? 65 00:05:23,640 --> 00:05:26,160 I'm late today 'cause I didn't wanna come. 66 00:05:26,920 --> 00:05:28,040 There was, um... 67 00:05:29,800 --> 00:05:32,400 more of me that I didn't wanna face, I think. 68 00:05:33,920 --> 00:05:36,036 Can you tell me what lies ahead of you? 69 00:05:36,120 --> 00:05:38,080 I'm about to watch somebody 70 00:05:39,520 --> 00:05:41,080 having a nervous 71 00:05:41,960 --> 00:05:43,240 mental breakdown. 72 00:05:46,760 --> 00:05:49,520 - You rollin'? - Uh, yes, we are. 73 00:05:50,040 --> 00:05:52,600 Hello and you're welc... and you're welcome. 74 00:05:53,360 --> 00:05:57,196 Hiya. I'm Robbie Williams, and, uh, this is my studio, 75 00:05:57,280 --> 00:06:02,760 where we've been recording an album whose working title is Intensive Care. 76 00:06:03,840 --> 00:06:07,156 With Guy, I wasn't master of my own ship musically. 77 00:06:07,240 --> 00:06:08,280 This is Stephen. 78 00:06:09,520 --> 00:06:12,036 He's a pseudo-intellectual Noddy Holder. 79 00:06:12,120 --> 00:06:14,556 But Stephen's a musical mentor 80 00:06:14,640 --> 00:06:19,880 that's allowing me to find whatever it is completely that's inside of me. 81 00:06:20,760 --> 00:06:25,440 ♪ I know it's comin' There's gonna be violence... ♪ 82 00:06:26,840 --> 00:06:29,956 It did feel new, and it did feel liberating. 83 00:06:30,040 --> 00:06:32,916 ♪ ...as much as I'm willing to take ♪ 84 00:06:33,000 --> 00:06:36,920 Yeah, I was tryin' to find a different way to 85 00:06:38,280 --> 00:06:39,240 do it all again. 86 00:06:40,040 --> 00:06:43,196 The new stuff that I've got comin' out is very different and... 87 00:06:43,280 --> 00:06:46,556 It's gonna sound really disrespectful to the people I worked with before, 88 00:06:46,640 --> 00:06:47,756 but it actually feels... 89 00:06:47,840 --> 00:06:50,800 - It feels better? - It feels like my first solo record. 90 00:06:52,440 --> 00:06:55,880 With Intensive Care, I decide to do a tour. 91 00:06:57,360 --> 00:07:00,880 And the tour that I'm doing is off-the-charts massive. 92 00:07:07,320 --> 00:07:08,160 You filmin'? 93 00:07:11,200 --> 00:07:12,440 Wow. 94 00:07:14,240 --> 00:07:15,560 Close Encounters, innit? 95 00:07:16,160 --> 00:07:17,920 That's what we're callin' the tour. 96 00:07:19,840 --> 00:07:21,760 What are your first impressions? 97 00:07:22,520 --> 00:07:25,836 Uh, well, I used to do a good one of Margaret Thatcher when I was a kid. 98 00:07:25,920 --> 00:07:28,920 And then Frank Spencer, obviously, but they're all the classics. 99 00:07:29,440 --> 00:07:30,796 Boom-boom! 100 00:07:30,880 --> 00:07:33,676 Looks amazin', dunnit? Looks like my very own spaceship. 101 00:07:33,760 --> 00:07:36,320 - I'll get rid of it, all right. - All right, lads? 102 00:07:37,240 --> 00:07:39,116 - How solid are they? - Very solid. 103 00:07:39,200 --> 00:07:41,560 Well, I can fuckin' stand on 'em, and I'm a fat cunt. 104 00:07:42,440 --> 00:07:45,560 - Right. That's that one loosened. - That's that one... 105 00:07:46,080 --> 00:07:50,280 Off the top of your head, old ones, "Let Me Entertain You", 106 00:07:51,360 --> 00:07:52,636 "Angels..." Stephen? 107 00:07:52,720 --> 00:07:56,316 Knebworth is the most famous and most celebrated moment 108 00:07:56,400 --> 00:08:00,000 of my professional life, but this tour was bigger than that. 109 00:08:00,680 --> 00:08:02,356 - "Feel." - "Feel." Of course. 110 00:08:02,440 --> 00:08:03,396 Oh, yeah, yeah. 111 00:08:03,480 --> 00:08:05,320 I had 93 trucks for this. 112 00:08:06,120 --> 00:08:09,120 Ninety-three trucks for my stage. 113 00:08:10,320 --> 00:08:13,840 And at the time, I was like... "I've got 93 trucks." 114 00:08:16,800 --> 00:08:20,876 It's the zenith of my success, 115 00:08:20,960 --> 00:08:21,840 that tour. 116 00:08:25,720 --> 00:08:29,356 I had my own jet with my own "RW" symbol on the back. 117 00:08:29,440 --> 00:08:32,076 Some housewares there. 118 00:08:35,520 --> 00:08:37,876 Oh! Ah! 119 00:08:37,960 --> 00:08:39,916 Made some sandwiches as well. 120 00:08:40,000 --> 00:08:43,120 This is Elton John's plane, isn't it? I know, yeah. 121 00:08:45,440 --> 00:08:46,360 Fuckin' ell. 122 00:08:47,080 --> 00:08:48,236 Happy with it? 123 00:08:49,560 --> 00:08:50,960 I'm still giggly. 124 00:08:55,280 --> 00:08:56,120 Oh yeah! 125 00:08:57,000 --> 00:08:58,480 Wait till you see this. 126 00:08:59,040 --> 00:09:01,600 Jonny is my best friend. 127 00:09:02,120 --> 00:09:04,996 He's a movin', walkin', talkin' part of Stoke-on-Trent 128 00:09:05,080 --> 00:09:06,436 that came with me everywhere, 129 00:09:06,520 --> 00:09:09,796 that made me laugh and made me feel safe and made me feel 130 00:09:09,880 --> 00:09:14,076 that the part of me that existed before I joined Take That was still there. 131 00:09:14,160 --> 00:09:15,476 - Thank you. - Well done, youth. 132 00:09:15,560 --> 00:09:18,080 - Thank you. - Well done. Well done, Jose. 133 00:09:18,960 --> 00:09:20,636 - Wow! - Isn't it great? 134 00:09:20,720 --> 00:09:23,476 - A bit amazin', innit? - This is a bit amazin'. 135 00:09:23,560 --> 00:09:25,560 It's so good. He's mega rich. 136 00:09:32,320 --> 00:09:34,316 The thing is, with tourin', 137 00:09:34,400 --> 00:09:36,556 people think that you get to Rome, 138 00:09:36,640 --> 00:09:38,516 have your picture taken on the Spanish Steps, 139 00:09:38,600 --> 00:09:39,996 or go to the Louvre. 140 00:09:40,080 --> 00:09:41,320 Like, no. 141 00:09:43,280 --> 00:09:45,516 It's not what you would imagine it to be. 142 00:09:45,600 --> 00:09:47,160 There's no normality. 143 00:09:49,680 --> 00:09:52,716 It's weird when little ol' Rob gets up in front of all these people, 144 00:09:52,800 --> 00:09:53,920 and they just adore 'im. 145 00:09:54,680 --> 00:09:57,556 - It's quite mad. Yeah. But... - It's his job. 146 00:09:57,640 --> 00:10:00,076 It's his job, and, um, he's the best at it. 147 00:10:00,160 --> 00:10:02,716 This is what David needs to get through the show. 148 00:10:02,800 --> 00:10:05,316 - This is Rob's manager. - He's already had four. 149 00:10:05,400 --> 00:10:07,836 Where he gets his addictions from, I'll never know. 150 00:10:09,680 --> 00:10:12,156 I had a great support system around me. 151 00:10:12,240 --> 00:10:14,636 I'd got David, my manager, 152 00:10:14,720 --> 00:10:15,916 and I'd got Josie, 153 00:10:16,000 --> 00:10:17,636 and I'd got me mate, Jonny. 154 00:10:17,720 --> 00:10:19,236 Good and honest people. 155 00:10:19,320 --> 00:10:21,276 Honest as much as they could be. 156 00:10:21,360 --> 00:10:23,920 There is still a relationship where I'm the boss. 157 00:10:24,960 --> 00:10:27,596 - You ready, Rob? - Nah. 158 00:10:27,680 --> 00:10:30,040 I really wish I did somethin' else for a livin'. 159 00:10:30,560 --> 00:10:32,636 - Uh... - Right, he's ready! 160 00:10:32,720 --> 00:10:34,556 Think this is the most nervous I've ever been. 161 00:10:34,640 --> 00:10:36,996 - Is this the most nervous I've ever been? - Absolutely. 162 00:10:37,080 --> 00:10:38,360 - Okay. - I like it. 163 00:10:39,760 --> 00:10:40,600 It's good. 164 00:10:42,720 --> 00:10:44,840 Is this the most handsome I've ever been? 165 00:10:45,640 --> 00:10:46,480 Youth? 166 00:10:47,320 --> 00:10:49,080 Yeah. 167 00:10:52,400 --> 00:10:54,840 Hey! Two lads from Stoke-on-Trent. 168 00:10:55,560 --> 00:10:56,836 Who'd 'ave thunk? 169 00:10:56,920 --> 00:10:58,916 Let's get the gig out the fucking way 170 00:10:59,000 --> 00:11:01,516 and get on a really nice plane and go 'ome. 171 00:11:01,600 --> 00:11:03,236 - What d'ya think about that? - Yes! 172 00:11:03,320 --> 00:11:05,996 Let's do this. Let's go and fucking give 'em a good show. 173 00:11:06,080 --> 00:11:08,716 Elvis, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. 174 00:11:08,800 --> 00:11:11,036 - Uh-huh. - The courage to change the things I can. 175 00:11:11,120 --> 00:11:13,436 - And the wisdom to know the difference. - Thank you very much! 176 00:11:13,520 --> 00:11:14,440 Right, gang! 177 00:11:20,200 --> 00:11:22,120 This is not a drill. 178 00:11:23,400 --> 00:11:25,400 Open for mission, please. 179 00:11:36,120 --> 00:11:38,240 Robbie! Robbie! 180 00:11:58,520 --> 00:12:00,720 Have you seen the size of this place? 181 00:12:02,600 --> 00:12:05,716 Why couldn't we have just done the village hall or something 182 00:12:05,800 --> 00:12:07,600 to start the fuckin' tour off? 183 00:12:08,880 --> 00:12:11,316 You're lookin' beautiful tonight, Dublin! 184 00:12:16,720 --> 00:12:22,316 How many people can do that in the world? Right, go onstage in a stadium 185 00:12:22,400 --> 00:12:24,680 and have 80,000 people just go, 186 00:12:25,240 --> 00:12:26,596 "You're ace!" 187 00:12:26,680 --> 00:12:29,720 You know, that's... that is... unnatural. 188 00:12:30,440 --> 00:12:32,756 You've gotta... The reaction to that's gotta be... 189 00:12:35,040 --> 00:12:38,400 That... That's why so many fuckin' famous people are mad. 190 00:12:48,520 --> 00:12:50,396 Where are you all from? Holland? 191 00:12:50,480 --> 00:12:51,556 - Holland! - Robbie! 192 00:12:51,640 --> 00:12:53,916 - Yeah, hello! - We've, um... 193 00:12:54,000 --> 00:12:55,316 We've done a new song. 194 00:12:55,400 --> 00:12:59,200 There's a new album comin' out very soon. And, um... 195 00:13:00,080 --> 00:13:02,516 we're rehearsing this for the very first time, 196 00:13:02,600 --> 00:13:04,756 so nobody's heard this song yet. 197 00:13:04,840 --> 00:13:07,316 Not even I. I wrote it. That's weird. 198 00:13:07,400 --> 00:13:11,440 Um, it's a song called "Rudebox," and I think 199 00:13:12,520 --> 00:13:16,120 it's gonna be my biggest song. 200 00:13:17,440 --> 00:13:19,560 You might not get it on the first listen. 201 00:13:20,080 --> 00:13:23,316 But believe me. I reckon it's gonna be my biggest song, don't you, Dave? 202 00:13:23,400 --> 00:13:25,636 - Yeah. - Bigger than "Angels." 203 00:13:25,720 --> 00:13:27,476 Yeah? Bigger than "Angels." 204 00:13:27,560 --> 00:13:30,476 At the same time as the Close Encounters tour, 205 00:13:30,560 --> 00:13:32,196 I was doin' another album. 206 00:13:32,280 --> 00:13:35,716 Seeing where this Guy Chamber-less ship could sail. 207 00:13:35,800 --> 00:13:39,120 Anyway, this is called "Rudebox," and I hope you like it. 208 00:13:40,720 --> 00:13:42,636 With Intensive Care, 209 00:13:42,720 --> 00:13:46,800 I'd been allowed to do what I deemed to be interesting. 210 00:13:47,360 --> 00:13:50,596 And then, because of that, I got excited and went to another place. 211 00:13:50,680 --> 00:13:52,396 ♪ Okay then, back to basics ♪ 212 00:13:52,480 --> 00:13:54,396 ♪ Grab your shell toes And your fat laces ♪ 213 00:13:54,480 --> 00:13:56,876 ♪ A little hand clap for some funk faces ♪ 214 00:13:56,960 --> 00:13:59,156 ♪ Make your body move In the following place, it goes... ♪ 215 00:13:59,240 --> 00:14:01,036 ♪ Up your back and then down your spine ♪ 216 00:14:01,120 --> 00:14:02,680 ♪ And when it hits your head... ♪ 217 00:14:04,080 --> 00:14:06,476 I'm making music with my mates from Stoke-on-Trent, 218 00:14:06,560 --> 00:14:07,800 and there's a kinship. 219 00:14:08,520 --> 00:14:12,676 It was everythin' 13-year-old me would've wanted to make. 220 00:14:12,760 --> 00:14:16,116 Boom-bap beats and a bit of rappin'. 221 00:14:16,200 --> 00:14:18,116 ♪ Sing a song o' Semtex ♪ 222 00:14:18,200 --> 00:14:19,796 ♪ Pocket full of Durex ♪ 223 00:14:19,880 --> 00:14:21,716 ♪ Body full of Mandrax Are we gonna have sex... ♪ 224 00:14:21,800 --> 00:14:23,916 I loved doing the Rudebox album. 225 00:14:24,000 --> 00:14:25,676 It was such a joy to make, 226 00:14:25,760 --> 00:14:28,596 and it felt like it was me me. 227 00:14:28,680 --> 00:14:31,716 And I just presumed that because I was lovin' it, 228 00:14:31,800 --> 00:14:34,716 there would be an audience that loves it too. 229 00:14:34,800 --> 00:14:36,920 - You really believed in it. - Oh yeah. 230 00:14:38,320 --> 00:14:39,160 Yeah. 231 00:14:42,240 --> 00:14:44,480 Yeah, I really believed in it. Yeah. 232 00:14:48,520 --> 00:14:50,156 How you feelin' today? 233 00:14:50,240 --> 00:14:51,560 Really good, actually. 234 00:14:52,360 --> 00:14:53,400 Um... 235 00:14:54,760 --> 00:14:57,280 We did a great gig last night. 236 00:14:58,320 --> 00:14:59,680 Went back to the hotel. 237 00:15:01,200 --> 00:15:02,640 Uh, got an early night. 238 00:15:03,600 --> 00:15:06,240 But didn't sleep much 'cause I kept wakin' up every hour. 239 00:15:06,760 --> 00:15:10,196 Tried a bit of three-on-three football with the lads, which was good. 240 00:15:10,280 --> 00:15:12,640 I thought I was gonna be knackered after that. 241 00:15:13,160 --> 00:15:15,480 But, uh, I must be gettin' fit. 242 00:15:16,000 --> 00:15:17,480 - Can I try that on? - Yeah. 243 00:15:18,280 --> 00:15:20,240 So I think I'm in gig-shape now. 244 00:15:21,320 --> 00:15:23,716 - How long is the tour? - Long time. 245 00:15:24,960 --> 00:15:26,996 We don't think about that. 246 00:15:27,080 --> 00:15:30,280 - A day at a time. - A day at a time. A show at a time. 247 00:15:32,360 --> 00:15:34,636 If you think about the end of the tour, you never get there... 248 00:15:34,720 --> 00:15:35,920 Breathe in. 249 00:15:37,000 --> 00:15:38,916 ...Charlie Lightening. 250 00:15:39,000 --> 00:15:42,076 Is that a s... No, no. Is that a wise man speaking? 251 00:15:42,160 --> 00:15:44,396 No, no, it's true. It's the truth. 252 00:15:44,480 --> 00:15:48,356 If you start thinking about the end of it, you'll never get through it. 253 00:15:48,440 --> 00:15:52,196 If he's just thinking, "I'll just enjoy each day as it comes," it works. 254 00:15:52,280 --> 00:15:54,476 - You get into a routine. - Except when I'm wrong. 255 00:15:54,560 --> 00:15:56,356 - Seriously. - I believe you. 256 00:15:56,440 --> 00:15:57,520 I did, didn't I? 257 00:15:58,480 --> 00:16:00,040 - It's good to know. - Hm. 258 00:16:16,760 --> 00:16:19,116 It feels like, outside of the UK, 259 00:16:19,200 --> 00:16:21,880 I'm allowed to be a pop star. 260 00:16:23,720 --> 00:16:25,680 I'm allowed to inhabit 261 00:16:26,280 --> 00:16:28,440 some form of greatness, I suppose. 262 00:16:30,080 --> 00:16:31,960 Oh, fuckin' phenomenal. 263 00:16:35,520 --> 00:16:37,436 Whereas, in the UK, 264 00:16:37,520 --> 00:16:42,516 it was a very different story with a different energy. 265 00:16:42,600 --> 00:16:44,996 Now to Robbie Williams. Sophie? 266 00:16:45,080 --> 00:16:46,996 I mean, he's like... to me, I just think he's... 267 00:16:47,080 --> 00:16:49,036 It hasn't got any charm about it whatsoever. 268 00:16:49,120 --> 00:16:51,236 The way people embrace him, I find it baffling. 269 00:16:51,320 --> 00:16:54,316 - It just makes me sad, really. - His voice is not fantastic. 270 00:16:54,400 --> 00:16:56,596 - You can't say he's got a brilliant voice. - It's horrible. 271 00:16:56,680 --> 00:16:58,276 It's fairly thin and fairly hard. 272 00:16:58,360 --> 00:17:01,516 Last week, I wanted to berate you , the Great British public, 273 00:17:01,600 --> 00:17:04,476 for voting "Angels" the best single of the last 25 years. 274 00:17:04,560 --> 00:17:08,156 I've done a quick list of other songs that maybe should've been considered. 275 00:17:08,240 --> 00:17:12,076 Uh, number one, every single other song recorded in the last 25 years... 276 00:17:14,040 --> 00:17:16,356 ...including karaoke versions of "Angels." 277 00:17:22,320 --> 00:17:24,956 It felt like, every day, 278 00:17:25,040 --> 00:17:28,320 I would read in print what an abhorrent person I was. 279 00:17:29,000 --> 00:17:33,876 The leading protagonists in that particular problem for me 280 00:17:33,960 --> 00:17:36,000 were the Star, the Mirror, 281 00:17:36,560 --> 00:17:38,636 and the biggest one, The Sun , 282 00:17:38,720 --> 00:17:42,120 where Victoria Newton had the Bizarre column, 283 00:17:42,960 --> 00:17:45,720 which was hugely influential. 284 00:17:50,760 --> 00:17:52,756 She fuckin' hates me, Victoria Newton. 285 00:17:52,840 --> 00:17:54,996 - She finds the worst pictures of me... - Yep. 286 00:17:55,080 --> 00:17:57,116 "We'll put that one in. He looks horrendous." 287 00:17:57,200 --> 00:17:59,116 I reckon she secretly loves you. 288 00:17:59,200 --> 00:18:02,276 - Absolutely. She does. - I like her. 289 00:18:02,360 --> 00:18:04,556 'Ey, listen, I'm not sayin' I dislike her. 290 00:18:04,640 --> 00:18:06,996 - I'm just sayin'... - I like you, Victoria. 291 00:18:07,080 --> 00:18:10,036 Jonny likes you. 'Cause he has to. 292 00:18:10,120 --> 00:18:13,596 Jonny likes you 'cause you've got some kinda hold over these celebrities, 293 00:18:13,680 --> 00:18:18,476 but with me... I'm just about to go on stage in front of 75,000 people 294 00:18:18,560 --> 00:18:20,956 in a country that isn't England. 295 00:18:21,040 --> 00:18:25,116 I've just been, right, to Dresden, did two nights on the trot. 296 00:18:25,200 --> 00:18:27,916 Sixty thousand. Coulda sold out four nights. 297 00:18:28,000 --> 00:18:31,956 I was in Amsterdam. I did the "X," uh... Stadium. 298 00:18:32,040 --> 00:18:35,720 Seventy thousand people there. I did four nights. I coulda done eight. 299 00:18:36,320 --> 00:18:39,916 If I did another tour now, I'd sell another 2.5 million tickets. 300 00:18:40,000 --> 00:18:42,996 You can't do anything about it. Fifty million albums sold. 301 00:18:45,960 --> 00:18:48,960 I like her though. She's never done anything wrong to me. 302 00:18:55,080 --> 00:18:58,516 It feels like the industry is ready to pounce 303 00:18:58,600 --> 00:19:00,116 on any wrong move. 304 00:19:00,200 --> 00:19:02,476 Releasing "Rudebox" as the first single, 305 00:19:02,560 --> 00:19:05,360 which was so different to anything that I'd done before, 306 00:19:06,200 --> 00:19:07,440 now was the chance. 307 00:19:11,720 --> 00:19:17,276 The Sun's decided to launch a hate fest against me and my song. 308 00:19:17,360 --> 00:19:19,596 You know, "It's the worst single ever written." 309 00:19:19,680 --> 00:19:22,756 "The rapping was shit," and, "It sounds like it's been made on a Casio keyboard," 310 00:19:22,840 --> 00:19:25,280 and this, that and the other. 311 00:19:26,080 --> 00:19:28,156 - I fuckin' hate cunts. - Do you want anything? 312 00:19:28,240 --> 00:19:31,076 - Forty-five! - Hate cunts. Fuckin' hate 'em. 313 00:19:31,160 --> 00:19:32,436 - What? - Forty-five. 314 00:19:32,520 --> 00:19:34,876 - You're in a good mood, aren't you? - Horrendous mood. 315 00:19:34,960 --> 00:19:38,276 I know. Let it go. Life's good. Why you in a mood? 316 00:19:38,360 --> 00:19:39,840 - Thank you. - Have mercy. 317 00:19:40,880 --> 00:19:43,356 - You haven't been this cross for ages. - No. 318 00:19:43,440 --> 00:19:45,156 You gonna do "Rudebox" tonight? 319 00:19:45,240 --> 00:19:46,280 Might do. 320 00:19:47,120 --> 00:19:48,840 - Might not. - Ready to blow. 321 00:19:50,800 --> 00:19:53,676 Why is this... thing on that area so annoying? 322 00:19:53,760 --> 00:19:55,640 See you in a bit. 323 00:19:56,400 --> 00:19:58,276 Well, this is gonna be a classic. 324 00:19:59,960 --> 00:20:02,640 Tonight, on this very stage, 325 00:20:03,320 --> 00:20:05,840 because you've been so nice to us, 326 00:20:06,360 --> 00:20:09,996 I wanna perform a brand-new song. 327 00:20:15,200 --> 00:20:16,796 It's called "Rudebox." 328 00:20:19,080 --> 00:20:20,480 Are you ready to dance? 329 00:20:26,360 --> 00:20:28,360 ♪ Whoa! Whoa! ♪ 330 00:20:29,760 --> 00:20:30,796 ♪ Whoa! ♪ 331 00:20:30,880 --> 00:20:32,356 ♪ Whoa! Whoa! ♪ 332 00:20:35,200 --> 00:20:36,840 I... I wanna fast-forward this. 333 00:20:43,320 --> 00:20:45,240 Why did you wanna fast-forward that? 334 00:20:46,720 --> 00:20:47,836 Uh... 335 00:20:47,920 --> 00:20:50,436 It's just uncomfortable. It's uncomfortable. Whatever. 336 00:20:50,520 --> 00:20:52,596 ♪ A-D-I-D-A-S ♪ 337 00:20:52,680 --> 00:20:54,876 - ♪ Old school 'cause it's the best ♪ - ♪ Yes ♪ 338 00:20:54,960 --> 00:20:56,916 - ♪ TK Maxx costs less ♪ - ♪ Yes ♪ 339 00:20:57,000 --> 00:20:58,800 ♪ Jackson looks a mess... ♪ 340 00:21:11,800 --> 00:21:13,716 It's my... It's my baby. 341 00:21:13,800 --> 00:21:17,756 You know, and I've never been more proud of a song than "Rudebox." 342 00:21:17,840 --> 00:21:21,880 I'm so excited about this album, and I have been for so long. 343 00:21:22,480 --> 00:21:25,560 And, uh... I really feel as though I found meself, and then... 344 00:21:26,760 --> 00:21:30,156 and then, you know, it's just, I sort of read somethin' really cruel 345 00:21:30,240 --> 00:21:31,160 written about it. 346 00:21:31,680 --> 00:21:33,316 I was all right with it for ages, 347 00:21:33,400 --> 00:21:36,080 but then just before I went on stage, it was just like that. 348 00:21:36,600 --> 00:21:38,036 " Why are people so cruel?" 349 00:21:38,120 --> 00:21:41,876 And I just... I think it was less the review, more of a... 350 00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:44,596 "Fuck, no matter what I do, no matter what I write, 351 00:21:44,680 --> 00:21:47,320 no matter how I sing it, no matter what I say, 352 00:21:48,040 --> 00:21:49,520 in my home country, 353 00:21:50,040 --> 00:21:53,640 the press are gonna fuckin' just hate me and hate it." 354 00:21:54,440 --> 00:21:56,760 "No matter how good it is or what it is." 355 00:22:14,520 --> 00:22:17,276 - Straighten that a little bit more. - You what, babe? 356 00:22:17,360 --> 00:22:18,396 I'd say that's fine. 357 00:22:18,480 --> 00:22:19,956 What have you done to your knee? 358 00:22:20,040 --> 00:22:21,116 Um... 359 00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:22,480 Become 32. 360 00:22:23,560 --> 00:22:25,520 That's what I've done to my knee. 361 00:22:26,160 --> 00:22:29,120 I think it's wear and tear from the Take That days. 362 00:22:30,320 --> 00:22:32,880 We used to give our knees some punishment. 363 00:22:33,600 --> 00:22:38,200 I used to think in the back of me mind, "I'll pay for that when I'm older." 364 00:22:38,720 --> 00:22:41,956 I used to think at the same time, "I'll never be older." 365 00:22:42,040 --> 00:22:45,120 But now I'm older, and me knee's fucked, me groin's gone. 366 00:22:46,720 --> 00:22:49,156 Me back occasionally flares up. 367 00:22:49,240 --> 00:22:50,956 Uh, anythin' else? 368 00:22:51,040 --> 00:22:53,960 My Achilles tendons are bruised. 369 00:22:54,760 --> 00:22:56,796 Uh... Et cetera, et cetera. 370 00:22:58,040 --> 00:23:00,196 Pretty quick into a tour, you're fucked, 371 00:23:00,280 --> 00:23:02,276 but a lot of things that happen in the body 372 00:23:02,360 --> 00:23:05,316 are a result of what's happening in the mind. 373 00:23:05,400 --> 00:23:09,240 I think that it's all stoppin' workin' just because of how I'm thinking. 374 00:23:11,680 --> 00:23:15,356 Jose, doctor's gonna give me a bit of a shot for energy. Yes. 375 00:23:15,440 --> 00:23:16,876 - Rob, no! - Yes. 376 00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:19,316 - Yes. Yes! - No! You don't need it. 377 00:23:19,400 --> 00:23:20,916 - Yes, I do. - You're just tired. 378 00:23:21,000 --> 00:23:21,916 - I am. - No. 379 00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:24,876 - Last time it was terrible. - It wasn't. It wasn't. 380 00:23:24,960 --> 00:23:26,076 - No, Rob. - No... Yes. 381 00:23:26,160 --> 00:23:27,076 - No. No. - Yes. 382 00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:28,916 - No, Josie, don't. - No. No. 383 00:23:29,000 --> 00:23:30,760 Don't. Honestly, don't. 384 00:23:32,080 --> 00:23:34,156 It makes you feel rubbish for days after. 385 00:23:34,240 --> 00:23:35,636 - It doesn't. - It does! 386 00:23:35,720 --> 00:23:39,280 It doesn't. Only 'cause I was ill. Doctor? It's okay. 387 00:23:40,560 --> 00:23:43,160 I murdered... I will murder him. 388 00:23:44,560 --> 00:23:46,556 That's what I'm worried about, quite frankly. 389 00:23:46,640 --> 00:23:47,756 C'mon, doctor. 390 00:23:47,840 --> 00:23:49,480 Josie, away! 391 00:23:50,840 --> 00:23:53,116 Come 'ere! I love drugs, c'mon! 392 00:23:53,200 --> 00:23:55,640 C'mon, kidder! Yeah! High-fives! Ten! 393 00:23:57,000 --> 00:24:00,480 If I were not holding Mickey, I would be with Josie on this. 394 00:24:01,560 --> 00:24:03,836 - I love drugs. - Here we are. Look! 395 00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:05,160 Emergen-C! 396 00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:07,520 Hm? That, in some water. 397 00:24:08,040 --> 00:24:10,196 For me, how far I've gone, 398 00:24:10,280 --> 00:24:11,996 with my intake of stuff, 399 00:24:12,080 --> 00:24:14,556 that's like putting a Band-Aid on a... 400 00:24:14,640 --> 00:24:16,516 on me losing me... me leg. 401 00:24:16,600 --> 00:24:19,240 You want a little bit "sterine"... steroid? 402 00:24:19,760 --> 00:24:22,156 The steroids are the ones, just so you know, 403 00:24:22,240 --> 00:24:24,836 that make you feel absolutely terrible for two days after. 404 00:24:24,920 --> 00:24:26,196 - Love the stuff. - Fine. 405 00:24:26,280 --> 00:24:27,120 Okay. 406 00:24:29,280 --> 00:24:30,520 Don't look, Jonny. 407 00:24:38,040 --> 00:24:39,440 Voilà, monsieur. 408 00:24:40,120 --> 00:24:41,476 All of that?! 409 00:24:41,560 --> 00:24:43,716 - Yeah. - Jeez Louise. 410 00:24:43,800 --> 00:24:45,996 Look, there's coming your blood. 411 00:24:46,080 --> 00:24:48,516 - Oh! - Dr. Frankenstein. 412 00:24:48,600 --> 00:24:51,596 Don't laugh while you're doing it. It's really off-putting. 413 00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:53,560 - Okay. - Be serious. 414 00:24:54,080 --> 00:24:55,080 Here we go. 415 00:24:58,880 --> 00:24:59,760 It's okay. 416 00:25:06,120 --> 00:25:08,836 Uncle Rob is a knob. 417 00:25:22,280 --> 00:25:24,960 ♪ I'm on steroids For this gig ♪ 418 00:25:25,560 --> 00:25:28,036 ♪ Steroids for this gig ♪ 419 00:25:28,120 --> 00:25:30,676 ♪ I like to take them often ♪ 420 00:25:30,760 --> 00:25:33,560 ♪ But they turn you into a fat pig ♪ 421 00:25:34,240 --> 00:25:36,636 ♪ On steroids for this gig ♪ 422 00:25:36,720 --> 00:25:39,916 ♪ 'Cause the gig is really big Let's go! ♪ 423 00:25:44,560 --> 00:25:46,000 ♪ I'm on steroids ♪ 424 00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:49,520 ♪ The doctor gave me steroids ♪ 425 00:25:50,280 --> 00:25:51,200 Whoa! 426 00:25:52,480 --> 00:25:53,556 Stop! 427 00:25:53,640 --> 00:25:56,116 I think the drugs are startin' to work. 428 00:26:00,800 --> 00:26:03,796 Tonight, I instantly felt like it was a party. 429 00:26:03,880 --> 00:26:07,716 The least I'd done... on the whole... on any tour, on any show, 430 00:26:07,800 --> 00:26:09,840 least I've ever done was tonight, 431 00:26:10,360 --> 00:26:13,080 and they still went mental. It was really cool. 432 00:26:13,880 --> 00:26:17,316 And did you feel the effects of, you know, the shots? 433 00:26:17,400 --> 00:26:18,400 - "Steroidos"? - Yes. 434 00:26:19,440 --> 00:26:20,480 I am now. 435 00:26:21,600 --> 00:26:22,960 Yeah, I am now. 436 00:26:23,960 --> 00:26:25,520 But it's kind of like a... 437 00:26:28,680 --> 00:26:30,960 ...more than a... 438 00:26:31,920 --> 00:26:33,280 It's kinda like that. 439 00:26:34,600 --> 00:26:36,280 You know. Which is nice. 440 00:26:36,800 --> 00:26:40,356 Is that... But surely there must be an adrenaline buzz anyway. 441 00:26:40,440 --> 00:26:42,800 So is it just mixed with that that just sort of... 442 00:26:43,400 --> 00:26:45,480 I dunno. I dunno which is which. 443 00:26:46,600 --> 00:26:50,520 Dunno which is which anymore. Where I stop and chemicals begin. 444 00:26:58,160 --> 00:26:59,636 How are you feeling today? 445 00:26:59,720 --> 00:27:01,756 Fucking terrible. 446 00:27:01,840 --> 00:27:04,400 Terrible. Absolutely terrible. 447 00:27:07,720 --> 00:27:08,840 Feel tired. 448 00:27:09,400 --> 00:27:10,920 Uh, I feel 449 00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:13,040 horrible. 450 00:27:20,560 --> 00:27:22,156 ♪ So unimpressed ♪ 451 00:27:22,240 --> 00:27:24,360 ♪ But so in awe ♪ 452 00:27:26,560 --> 00:27:28,156 ♪ Such a saint... ♪ 453 00:27:28,240 --> 00:27:30,276 I remember I had doubts 454 00:27:30,360 --> 00:27:32,596 that I was gonna get through this leg of this tour. 455 00:27:32,680 --> 00:27:33,680 I was like, 456 00:27:34,920 --> 00:27:36,000 "This is bad." 457 00:27:37,920 --> 00:27:39,240 It's too big for me. 458 00:27:39,760 --> 00:27:40,636 It's too big. 459 00:27:40,720 --> 00:27:42,996 ♪ Watch me come undone ♪ 460 00:27:43,080 --> 00:27:46,920 ♪ They're selling razor blades And mirrors in the street... ♪ 461 00:27:47,520 --> 00:27:49,436 I've had some steroids today. 462 00:27:49,520 --> 00:27:52,676 ♪ ...that when I'm coming down You'll be asleep ♪ 463 00:27:52,760 --> 00:27:54,156 They're good. 464 00:27:54,240 --> 00:27:56,236 ♪ If I ever hurt you ♪ 465 00:27:56,320 --> 00:27:59,316 ♪ Your revenge would be so sweet Because I'm... ♪ 466 00:27:59,400 --> 00:28:00,676 I come up through the stage, 467 00:28:00,760 --> 00:28:03,436 and I've gotta do grinnin' monkey boy for two hours. 468 00:28:03,520 --> 00:28:05,960 ♪ I come undone ♪ 469 00:28:08,720 --> 00:28:10,556 Ah! Fuck! 470 00:28:10,640 --> 00:28:12,440 ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ 471 00:28:13,040 --> 00:28:14,356 Very, very brave. 472 00:28:14,440 --> 00:28:16,516 Got a lollipop for him? 473 00:28:25,320 --> 00:28:26,836 Danke schoen, goodnight! 474 00:28:48,000 --> 00:28:51,076 We've nearly finished Europe. It's been amazin'. 475 00:28:51,160 --> 00:28:52,720 It's only halfway though. 476 00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:56,236 But the European tour's been brilliant. Ain't it? 477 00:28:56,320 --> 00:28:59,036 He's full of good news, in't he? Jesus! 478 00:28:59,120 --> 00:29:01,636 - Are you looking forward-- - You asked me this mornin'! 479 00:29:01,720 --> 00:29:04,396 - What did I say this mornin'? - "How long we got in England?" 480 00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:07,236 "How long we got in England?" Not, "Are we halfway through the tour?" 481 00:29:07,320 --> 00:29:09,356 We're not, actually. We're two-quarters... 482 00:29:10,720 --> 00:29:13,436 - "Two-quarters"? - What do two-quarters make? 483 00:29:13,520 --> 00:29:16,156 That's half, innit? "We're not halfway through the tour..." 484 00:29:16,240 --> 00:29:18,476 - We're kinda two-thirds. - You coulda confused me. 485 00:29:18,560 --> 00:29:19,440 Three-fifths. 486 00:29:20,040 --> 00:29:21,280 Three-fifths. Wow. 487 00:29:22,160 --> 00:29:23,240 That's 60%. 488 00:29:44,520 --> 00:29:49,636 Being on a tour that is huge in scale and length 489 00:29:49,720 --> 00:29:54,516 and then having a campaign in the press 490 00:29:54,600 --> 00:29:57,076 that affirms my feelings and thoughts 491 00:29:57,160 --> 00:30:00,160 about what, I guess, people think about me, 492 00:30:01,520 --> 00:30:06,400 it's another one of those perfect storms for poor mental health. 493 00:30:29,680 --> 00:30:32,200 I'm terrified to return to the UK. 494 00:30:33,480 --> 00:30:35,436 It represents 495 00:30:35,520 --> 00:30:38,840 hatred and a lack of safety. 496 00:30:44,120 --> 00:30:48,000 I am divorced from the land that was once mine, 497 00:30:48,840 --> 00:30:50,480 physically and mentally. 498 00:30:52,800 --> 00:30:55,600 And I'm deeply, deeply affected by it. 499 00:31:02,280 --> 00:31:03,556 How you doin', Rob? 500 00:31:03,640 --> 00:31:05,276 I'm doin' all right. 501 00:31:05,360 --> 00:31:06,400 Uh... 502 00:31:08,880 --> 00:31:11,480 I dunno. I just get scared when I come to the UK. 503 00:31:12,120 --> 00:31:13,040 The UK. 504 00:31:15,760 --> 00:31:16,680 Home crowd. 505 00:31:17,680 --> 00:31:20,040 You know, I've already done 30-odd shows. 506 00:31:20,560 --> 00:31:21,440 A bit... 507 00:31:22,200 --> 00:31:24,120 Dunno, I always shit it at home. 508 00:31:25,320 --> 00:31:26,920 And I'm just a bit panicky. 509 00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:29,676 ♪ Sometimes I feel like ♪ 510 00:31:29,760 --> 00:31:31,760 ♪ Throwing my hands up in the air ♪ 511 00:31:33,080 --> 00:31:35,480 ♪ I know I can count on you ♪ 512 00:31:36,920 --> 00:31:41,156 ♪ Sometimes I feel like saying Lord, I just don't care ♪ 513 00:31:41,240 --> 00:31:44,080 ♪ You got the love I need To see me through ♪ 514 00:31:45,280 --> 00:31:47,396 ♪ Sometimes it seems that the road... ♪ 515 00:31:53,040 --> 00:31:55,636 We've known each other a long time, old chap, haven't we? 516 00:31:55,720 --> 00:31:57,756 - That's right. - You all right tonight? 517 00:31:57,840 --> 00:31:59,240 I'm fuckin' shittin' it. 518 00:31:59,800 --> 00:32:03,476 When you're out the hole, give us a wink, let me know you're all right, will you? 519 00:32:03,560 --> 00:32:05,200 - I will. I will. - Yeah? 520 00:32:08,600 --> 00:32:11,280 - Is it gonna rain tonight, d'you think? - Yeah. 521 00:32:11,800 --> 00:32:13,356 - D'you think so? - Yeah. 522 00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:14,516 Seriously? 523 00:32:14,600 --> 00:32:17,316 I don't know! What do you think I am? The weather girl? 524 00:32:19,040 --> 00:32:20,676 ♪ Okay then, check the tan line ♪ 525 00:32:20,760 --> 00:32:23,036 ♪ Make your body shake Like you're stood on a landmine ♪ 526 00:32:23,120 --> 00:32:25,116 ♪ Call me on my mobile, not the landline ♪ 527 00:32:25,200 --> 00:32:26,836 ♪ Jack the mainline at the same time... ♪ 528 00:32:26,920 --> 00:32:30,920 Unfortunately, The Sun' s piece about "Rudebox" 529 00:32:31,480 --> 00:32:34,240 has had an adverse effect in Great Britain 530 00:32:34,920 --> 00:32:39,636 on the song "Rudebox," which, um... I've noticed dramatically. 531 00:32:39,720 --> 00:32:43,476 You know, from the crowds in Europe when I perform it, really gettin' into it, 532 00:32:43,560 --> 00:32:45,916 to, actually, the crowds over 'ere 533 00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:48,996 sort of takin' one step back, doin' that. 534 00:32:49,080 --> 00:32:50,640 Lookin' at me quizzical. 535 00:32:51,320 --> 00:32:54,956 And, uh, I stand by the record, a hundred percent. 536 00:32:55,040 --> 00:32:56,556 It's a fucking great record. 537 00:32:56,640 --> 00:32:57,636 Um... 538 00:32:57,720 --> 00:32:58,600 It's me. 539 00:32:59,840 --> 00:33:01,560 And, unfortunately... 540 00:33:03,640 --> 00:33:06,400 press does affect record sales. 541 00:33:07,240 --> 00:33:08,240 Um... 542 00:33:09,200 --> 00:33:12,040 And it's affected, uh, "Rudebox." 543 00:33:12,560 --> 00:33:15,436 And it fuckin' devastated me last week. 544 00:33:15,520 --> 00:33:20,400 Most people get indifference, and that's its own... problem. 545 00:33:20,920 --> 00:33:24,360 Where you just throw some shit at the wall, and none of it sticks. 546 00:33:25,200 --> 00:33:28,796 This time, I threw some shit at the wall, and everybody went, 547 00:33:28,880 --> 00:33:30,556 "Look at the shit on the wall!" 548 00:33:34,480 --> 00:33:37,156 And it... it deeply affected me. 549 00:33:37,240 --> 00:33:38,920 Yeah, it deeply affected me. 550 00:33:40,520 --> 00:33:43,240 Because I'd never had to... 551 00:33:44,200 --> 00:33:46,000 Everythin' was just intuition. 552 00:33:47,280 --> 00:33:50,280 And then what the whole "Rudebox" thing did was 553 00:33:51,320 --> 00:33:53,840 fuck up my intuition then for... 554 00:33:55,640 --> 00:33:56,720 up until now. 555 00:34:25,680 --> 00:34:27,520 I'm not lookin' forward to seein' this. 556 00:34:28,560 --> 00:34:30,160 What are we about to watch? 557 00:34:30,760 --> 00:34:34,080 Um, Leeds is two nights at Roundhay Park. 558 00:34:34,840 --> 00:34:40,276 Being filmed and beamed live into cinemas and homes and... 559 00:34:40,360 --> 00:34:43,680 There's 42 million people watchin' or somethin' like that. 560 00:34:44,320 --> 00:34:48,120 There's more than one person watching at home. Let's put it that way. 561 00:34:49,360 --> 00:34:50,680 Lotta responsibility. 562 00:34:53,520 --> 00:34:56,000 I've gotta be superhuman quite soon. 563 00:34:57,520 --> 00:35:01,476 There's a lot of people there. I know they're not there to see me fail, 564 00:35:01,560 --> 00:35:05,156 and I know that, innately, who I am as a human being 565 00:35:05,240 --> 00:35:09,160 and what I do for a livin' is to entertain, and that will come out. 566 00:35:09,680 --> 00:35:12,800 But, um... there's something about, 567 00:35:14,560 --> 00:35:16,800 you know, constantly havin' to deliver 568 00:35:18,360 --> 00:35:20,400 that just... just makes you feel queasy. 569 00:35:21,080 --> 00:35:22,676 I mean, sometimes... 570 00:35:22,760 --> 00:35:25,396 "There's, like, 90,000 people there!" 571 00:35:25,480 --> 00:35:26,356 And then other times... 572 00:35:26,440 --> 00:35:28,720 "There's fuckin' 90,000 people there." 573 00:35:29,240 --> 00:35:30,680 You know, it's fuckin'... 574 00:35:31,280 --> 00:35:33,516 It's the weirdest, um, 575 00:35:33,600 --> 00:35:35,596 thing to put yourself through. 576 00:35:35,680 --> 00:35:39,516 Plus, you know, I mean, look at that. This Volvo truck, right? 577 00:35:39,600 --> 00:35:42,520 That Volvo truck's there because of me, right? 578 00:35:43,160 --> 00:35:46,120 This piece of wood's here because of me, you know? 579 00:35:46,680 --> 00:35:48,036 Have a look behind you. 580 00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:51,276 You know, all that, the wooden structure that's there 581 00:35:51,360 --> 00:35:54,040 in our backstage area is there because of me. 582 00:35:55,080 --> 00:35:58,556 It's a fuckin' responsibility. You know, when I was at sch... 583 00:35:58,640 --> 00:36:01,436 "There's a Volvo truck gonna turn up because of you." 584 00:36:01,520 --> 00:36:02,800 "Oh, shit." 585 00:36:04,200 --> 00:36:06,676 What you do with that? Look, it's got that on. 586 00:36:06,760 --> 00:36:09,520 It's got one of these things that goes all the way up there. 587 00:36:10,040 --> 00:36:10,880 Fuck that. 588 00:36:12,120 --> 00:36:13,520 Every... Every bolt, 589 00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:16,680 every nook, every cranny, 590 00:36:17,840 --> 00:36:18,960 every person... 591 00:36:22,160 --> 00:36:24,440 You know, you just wanna run away sometimes. 592 00:36:25,040 --> 00:36:26,276 Maybe that's why-- 593 00:36:26,360 --> 00:36:29,956 Do you know what I... I... you know, I am enjoyin' about this 594 00:36:30,040 --> 00:36:31,600 is that I'm authentic. 595 00:36:32,120 --> 00:36:33,560 There's an authenticity. 596 00:36:34,240 --> 00:36:36,240 And that has changed from the... 597 00:36:37,360 --> 00:36:39,800 Hi, baby! That has changed from the 598 00:36:41,320 --> 00:36:45,360 earlier episodes of this Robbie Williams documentary. 599 00:36:46,400 --> 00:36:47,916 Hi, baby. Um... 600 00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:49,436 Those people are people. 601 00:36:49,520 --> 00:36:51,996 - Yeah, what you eatin'? - I was about to ask you. 602 00:36:52,080 --> 00:36:54,076 Did you come and ask me because you know 603 00:36:54,160 --> 00:36:56,436 that I'm more likely to say yes than your mum? 604 00:36:56,520 --> 00:36:57,520 Mm... 605 00:36:58,680 --> 00:36:59,520 Mom's... 606 00:37:00,480 --> 00:37:01,676 No. 607 00:37:01,760 --> 00:37:03,316 That's a yes. Listen. 608 00:37:03,400 --> 00:37:07,956 I've just reached a part that is probably the most traumatic moment of my life. 609 00:37:08,040 --> 00:37:08,880 What happened? 610 00:37:09,920 --> 00:37:12,036 A lot. You'll be able to watch it... 611 00:37:12,120 --> 00:37:14,916 You'll be able to watch the documentary when you're much older. 612 00:37:15,000 --> 00:37:17,920 - Fine. I'll put those back. - It's all right. I'll put 'em back. 613 00:37:18,440 --> 00:37:19,840 I'll put them back. 614 00:37:20,880 --> 00:37:23,720 Bye! All the very best. Love you loads. 615 00:37:24,520 --> 00:37:26,316 - Bye, darlin'. - When you gonna be done? 616 00:37:26,400 --> 00:37:28,276 - Bye. Bye, darlin'. - When are you gonna-- 617 00:37:28,360 --> 00:37:30,760 Dunno! Bye, darlin'. See you in a bit. Love you. 618 00:37:37,920 --> 00:37:39,316 - Happy? - Huh? 619 00:37:39,400 --> 00:37:41,156 - You all right? - Yeah, I'm-- 620 00:37:41,240 --> 00:37:43,520 From the sublime to the ridiculous. 621 00:37:47,240 --> 00:37:50,276 I've been more tired before I've been on stage, haven't I? 622 00:37:50,360 --> 00:37:51,480 - You have. - Yeah. 623 00:37:52,120 --> 00:37:53,680 Yeah. I 'ave, 'aven't I? 624 00:37:54,320 --> 00:37:55,160 Yeah. 625 00:37:57,720 --> 00:38:01,120 Take all this nervous energy, and I turn it into just 626 00:38:02,680 --> 00:38:04,200 entertainment gold. 627 00:38:09,000 --> 00:38:10,480 ♪ Look at this face! ♪ 628 00:38:23,200 --> 00:38:26,116 These next two gigs are gonna be the gigs everybody remembers 629 00:38:26,200 --> 00:38:27,676 'cause they're gonna go on tape. 630 00:38:27,760 --> 00:38:29,516 Let's go out there, fuckin' 'ave it, 631 00:38:29,600 --> 00:38:32,756 do what we've done every fuckin' night, and deliver the goods. 632 00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:35,596 Elvis, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. 633 00:38:35,680 --> 00:38:37,556 - Uh-huh. - Courage to change things I can... 634 00:38:38,800 --> 00:38:40,076 Thank you very much! 635 00:38:43,720 --> 00:38:46,720 ♪ Sometimes I feel like Throwing my hands up in the air ♪ 636 00:38:48,200 --> 00:38:49,996 ♪ I know I can count on you ♪ 637 00:38:51,880 --> 00:38:55,440 ♪ Sometimes I feel like saying Lord, I just don't care... ♪ 638 00:39:00,680 --> 00:39:01,916 ♪ Sometimes it seems... ♪ 639 00:39:11,000 --> 00:39:13,040 Look at the eyes. 640 00:39:13,640 --> 00:39:15,320 You can see the eyes, right? 641 00:39:16,480 --> 00:39:17,640 What am I seeing? 642 00:39:19,720 --> 00:39:20,996 Trauma. 643 00:39:25,720 --> 00:39:26,556 Trauma. 644 00:39:26,640 --> 00:39:29,836 Robbie! Robbie! Robbie! Robbie! 645 00:40:06,520 --> 00:40:08,676 So here's the situation. 646 00:40:08,760 --> 00:40:12,240 Last night was an absolute disaster for me. 647 00:40:13,040 --> 00:40:15,596 I developed a panic attack before I went on 648 00:40:15,680 --> 00:40:16,800 that didn't finish, 649 00:40:17,640 --> 00:40:18,716 uh, 650 00:40:18,800 --> 00:40:20,920 all the way through the performance. 651 00:40:22,680 --> 00:40:25,280 Uh... I could swear that people could read my mind. 652 00:40:26,240 --> 00:40:28,756 And, you know, there's 90,000 people there. 653 00:40:28,840 --> 00:40:32,240 I don't know if you've ever had one of those dreams where you're on stage, 654 00:40:32,840 --> 00:40:35,956 uh, and you don't know the script, or you don't know what you're doin'. 655 00:40:36,040 --> 00:40:40,236 I don't know if you've had one of them, but how real and how terrifyin' that is, 656 00:40:40,320 --> 00:40:42,240 well, it came true for me 657 00:40:42,840 --> 00:40:44,076 on stage in Leeds. 658 00:40:44,160 --> 00:40:46,160 Fuckin' hell! 659 00:40:46,800 --> 00:40:48,320 Fuckin' hell! 660 00:40:50,640 --> 00:40:52,000 Thank you, Leeds! 661 00:40:56,600 --> 00:40:58,640 I came off for the encore, 662 00:40:59,200 --> 00:41:02,040 and I never wanted to go back onstage ever again. 663 00:41:17,720 --> 00:41:22,880 I couldn't speak, and I kept shaking, and I went... I was going through trauma. 664 00:41:27,200 --> 00:41:29,356 We got back to the hotel last night, 665 00:41:29,440 --> 00:41:32,276 and everybody's world ended, 666 00:41:32,360 --> 00:41:34,680 I just couldn't feel anythin' other than guilt. 667 00:41:36,040 --> 00:41:38,356 I had some sleepin' tablets just to get to sleep 668 00:41:38,440 --> 00:41:42,356 'cause I was never gonna go to sleep thinkin' about a gig tomorrow. 669 00:41:53,280 --> 00:41:54,320 I woke up. 670 00:41:54,960 --> 00:41:58,196 And then Josie came in, and I said, "Jose, I can't go on stage tonight." 671 00:41:58,280 --> 00:42:00,556 She said, "You can. You just need to get through..." 672 00:42:00,640 --> 00:42:03,600 I said, "You're fuckin' kidding me. I'm not gettin' on." 673 00:42:05,560 --> 00:42:07,400 Jonny came in. He said, "Look." 674 00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:10,360 He said, "I've had Dave and Tim..." 675 00:42:10,880 --> 00:42:12,360 Uh, "I've had Tim cryin'." 676 00:42:14,480 --> 00:42:17,840 Tim, me manager, who's the most stoic fuckin' 677 00:42:19,240 --> 00:42:22,680 man ever, you know, cryin'. 678 00:42:26,440 --> 00:42:28,196 This is the bottom line. 679 00:42:28,280 --> 00:42:31,196 If I didn't perform tonight in Leeds, 680 00:42:31,280 --> 00:42:33,600 it'll cost me more money than I've got 681 00:42:34,400 --> 00:42:36,436 to, um, cancel it. 682 00:42:36,520 --> 00:42:40,356 And everybody else's livelihood around me would be devastated. 683 00:42:40,440 --> 00:42:42,036 And that'd be the end of me career. 684 00:42:51,600 --> 00:42:55,480 I got in the helicopter and got there, and I saw the crowd, and I was okay. 685 00:42:56,000 --> 00:42:59,400 And then I went into a pit of absolute 686 00:43:00,320 --> 00:43:01,960 self-annihilation. 687 00:43:04,120 --> 00:43:05,756 "You don't deserve it." 688 00:43:05,840 --> 00:43:07,280 "You can't do it." 689 00:43:07,800 --> 00:43:08,920 "You wanker." 690 00:43:10,240 --> 00:43:14,400 "All this end-of-the-pier nonsense is just fuckin' rubbish." 691 00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:19,920 I was absolutely petrified. 692 00:43:24,040 --> 00:43:25,156 I'm proud of you, buddy. 693 00:43:25,240 --> 00:43:26,240 Thanks, bud. 694 00:43:27,320 --> 00:43:28,680 Let's get through this. 695 00:43:29,200 --> 00:43:31,800 Now, you might all think this is absolutely mad. 696 00:43:32,920 --> 00:43:34,120 And, yeah, it is. 697 00:43:36,480 --> 00:43:40,160 But I'm in a situation that's completely unnatural and unreal. 698 00:43:42,160 --> 00:43:45,240 People are just waitin', and always have been, for me to fuck up. 699 00:43:45,760 --> 00:43:46,760 And this was it. 700 00:43:49,000 --> 00:43:50,640 I am now performin' 701 00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:53,160 for my life. 702 00:43:54,040 --> 00:43:56,996 I do the huddle, and I start to walk. 703 00:43:57,080 --> 00:43:59,800 And as I start to walk, the legs start to go. 704 00:44:03,200 --> 00:44:04,400 And I get backstage, 705 00:44:06,040 --> 00:44:07,836 and it's gonna go either way. 706 00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:10,160 Either this tiny thread 707 00:44:10,960 --> 00:44:13,796 of confidence that I'm finding will stay with me, 708 00:44:13,880 --> 00:44:16,036 or I'll just fucking go to pieces. 709 00:44:32,600 --> 00:44:33,996 One-two, one-two, thank you. 710 00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:00,680 ♪ I sit and wait ♪ 711 00:45:02,120 --> 00:45:04,600 ♪ Does an angel ♪ 712 00:45:05,200 --> 00:45:08,760 ♪ Contemplate my fate? ♪ 713 00:45:12,040 --> 00:45:13,400 ♪ And do they know ♪ 714 00:45:14,440 --> 00:45:16,680 ♪ The places where we go ♪ 715 00:45:17,280 --> 00:45:20,280 ♪ When we're gray and old? ♪ 716 00:45:23,720 --> 00:45:26,680 ♪ 'Cause I've been told ♪ 717 00:45:27,560 --> 00:45:29,720 ♪ That salvation ♪ 718 00:45:30,720 --> 00:45:34,840 ♪ Lets their wings unfold... ♪ 719 00:45:37,080 --> 00:45:40,316 The fact of the matter is about being in this position, 720 00:45:40,400 --> 00:45:44,880 I know that half the people don't care, and half the people think I deserve it. 721 00:45:45,520 --> 00:45:46,356 Um... 722 00:45:46,440 --> 00:45:48,680 But I'm lettin' you know I'm in pain. 723 00:45:49,400 --> 00:45:50,600 I'm in real pain. 724 00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:54,116 'Cause I'm fuckin'... I'm shit scared again. 725 00:45:55,960 --> 00:45:58,836 ♪ She offers me protection ♪ 726 00:45:58,920 --> 00:46:01,960 ♪ A lot of love and affection ♪ 727 00:46:02,560 --> 00:46:04,880 ♪ Whether I'm right or wrong ♪ 728 00:46:05,520 --> 00:46:08,876 ♪ And down the waterfall ♪ 729 00:46:08,960 --> 00:46:10,556 ♪ Wherever it may... ♪ 730 00:46:10,640 --> 00:46:11,916 Fuck me. 731 00:46:12,000 --> 00:46:14,560 ♪ I know that life Won't break me ♪ 732 00:46:15,080 --> 00:46:16,396 ♪ When I come to call... ♪ 733 00:46:16,480 --> 00:46:18,916 Tonight in Leeds, I pulled it off. 734 00:46:19,000 --> 00:46:20,680 But we're not out the woods. 735 00:46:21,720 --> 00:46:22,760 I'm fuckin'... 736 00:46:24,680 --> 00:46:25,880 I'm relaxed now, 737 00:46:26,680 --> 00:46:28,840 but I'm pretty much crippled inside. 738 00:46:29,400 --> 00:46:31,280 ♪ Through it all ♪ 739 00:46:31,800 --> 00:46:34,996 ♪ She offers me protection ♪ 740 00:46:35,080 --> 00:46:38,040 ♪ A lot of love and affection ♪ 741 00:46:38,520 --> 00:46:41,636 ♪ Whether I'm right or wro-o-ong ♪ 742 00:46:41,720 --> 00:46:43,720 ♪ And down the waterfall ♪ 743 00:46:44,600 --> 00:46:47,836 ♪ Wherever it may take me ♪ 744 00:46:47,920 --> 00:46:51,400 ♪ I know that life won't break me ♪ 745 00:46:52,000 --> 00:46:53,720 ♪ When I come to call ♪ 746 00:46:54,960 --> 00:46:56,680 ♪ She won't forsake me ♪ 747 00:46:57,400 --> 00:46:58,840 Everything all right? 748 00:46:59,680 --> 00:47:05,196 ♪ I'm lovin' angels instead ♪ 749 00:47:42,040 --> 00:47:45,320 That tour, it... it broke somethin'. 750 00:47:58,880 --> 00:48:00,120 What happens next? 751 00:48:00,760 --> 00:48:03,400 I don't get any less tired. 752 00:48:03,920 --> 00:48:05,680 I don't get any less panicky. 753 00:48:06,320 --> 00:48:08,320 And my psyche eats itself. 754 00:48:09,400 --> 00:48:11,000 And, um... 755 00:48:15,840 --> 00:48:17,600 the worst is yet to come. 756 00:48:19,120 --> 00:48:21,080 ♪ Do the rudebox, shake your... ♪ 757 00:48:25,720 --> 00:48:27,356 ♪ Okay then, back to basics ♪ 758 00:48:27,440 --> 00:48:29,636 ♪ Grab your shell toes And your fat laces ♪ 759 00:48:29,720 --> 00:48:31,516 ♪ A little hand clap for some funk faces ♪ 760 00:48:31,600 --> 00:48:33,996 ♪ And make your body move In the following places ♪ 761 00:48:34,080 --> 00:48:35,836 ♪ Goes up your back And then down your spine ♪ 762 00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:37,240 ♪ And when it hits your head ♪ 763 00:48:38,800 --> 00:48:40,476 ♪ Okay then, back to bass heads ♪ 764 00:48:40,560 --> 00:48:42,596 ♪ Dance like you just won At the Special Olympics ♪ 765 00:48:42,680 --> 00:48:44,916 ♪ They got the rudebox Off the back of a spaceship ♪ 766 00:48:45,000 --> 00:48:47,076 ♪ So sick I just had to take it ♪ 767 00:48:47,160 --> 00:48:49,476 ♪ The R-U-D-E-B-O-X ♪ 768 00:48:49,560 --> 00:48:51,356 ♪ Up your jacksy, split your kecks ♪ 769 00:48:51,440 --> 00:48:53,156 ♪ Sing a song of Semtex ♪ 770 00:48:53,240 --> 00:48:54,716 ♪ Pocket full of Durex ♪ 771 00:48:54,800 --> 00:48:55,916 ♪ Body full of Mandrax ♪ 772 00:48:56,000 --> 00:48:57,596 - ♪ Are we gonna have sex? ♪ - ♪ Yes ♪ 773 00:48:57,680 --> 00:49:00,316 ♪ Do you wear your knee socks? Back to the rudebox ♪ 774 00:49:00,400 --> 00:49:04,000 ♪ Got this double fantasy Where we just never stop ♪ 775 00:49:04,520 --> 00:49:08,440 ♪ I've got one design And that's to funk you to the top ♪ 776 00:49:08,960 --> 00:49:12,800 ♪ Know what's on my mind It's only one thing you will find ♪ 777 00:49:13,320 --> 00:49:17,200 ♪ I got one design And that's to bump you till you drop ♪ 778 00:49:17,840 --> 00:49:18,956 ♪ Rudebox ♪ 779 00:49:19,040 --> 00:49:20,116 ♪ Do the rudebox ♪ 780 00:49:20,200 --> 00:49:21,560 ♪ 'Cause you so nasty ♪ 781 00:49:22,120 --> 00:49:23,196 ♪ Rudebox ♪ 782 00:49:23,280 --> 00:49:24,436 ♪ Shake your rudebox ♪ 783 00:49:24,520 --> 00:49:25,960 ♪ Why you so nasty? ♪ 784 00:49:26,520 --> 00:49:27,716 ♪ Rudebox ♪ 785 00:49:27,800 --> 00:49:28,796 ♪ Do the rudebox ♪ 786 00:49:28,880 --> 00:49:30,320 ♪ 'Cause you so nasty ♪ 787 00:49:30,840 --> 00:49:31,956 ♪ Rudebox ♪ 788 00:49:32,040 --> 00:49:33,156 ♪ Shake your rudebox ♪ 789 00:49:33,240 --> 00:49:35,040 ♪ Why you so nasty? ♪ 790 00:49:35,560 --> 00:49:37,396 ♪ Okay then, back to spaceship ♪ 791 00:49:37,480 --> 00:49:39,516 ♪ Take both pills, fuck the Matrix ♪ 792 00:49:39,600 --> 00:49:41,596 ♪ Jack those Jills, shake your Playtex ♪ 793 00:49:41,680 --> 00:49:44,156 ♪ Rock three stripes, not the Asics ♪ 794 00:49:44,240 --> 00:49:45,956 ♪ A-D-I-D-A-S ♪ 795 00:49:46,040 --> 00:49:48,236 - ♪ Old school, 'cause it's the best ♪ - ♪ Yes ♪ 796 00:49:48,320 --> 00:49:50,396 - ♪ TK Maxx cost less ♪ - ♪ Yes ♪ 797 00:49:50,480 --> 00:49:52,876 - ♪ Jackson looks a mess ♪ - ♪ Bless ♪ 798 00:49:52,960 --> 00:49:54,516 ♪ Okay then, what to do ♪ 799 00:49:54,600 --> 00:49:56,676 ♪ If you try to jack me I'll rudebox you ♪ 800 00:49:56,760 --> 00:49:58,836 ♪ If you rudebox me I'll rudebox your whole crew ♪ 801 00:49:58,920 --> 00:50:01,236 ♪ 'Cause it's what I do Ain't that right, boo? ♪ 802 00:50:01,320 --> 00:50:03,196 ♪ I'll ride with you If you can get me to the border ♪ 803 00:50:03,280 --> 00:50:05,716 ♪ 'Cause the sheriff's after me For what I did to his daughter ♪ 804 00:50:05,800 --> 00:50:07,716 - ♪ I did it like this ♪ - ♪ You did it like that ♪ 805 00:50:07,800 --> 00:50:09,600 ♪ I love it when you double clap-clap ♪ 806 00:50:10,120 --> 00:50:13,880 ♪ Got this double fantasy Where we just never stop ♪ 807 00:50:14,440 --> 00:50:18,876 ♪ I've got one design And that's to funk you to the top... ♪