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I'm a beloved professor.

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I know you feel that way…

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Have you ever looked at my evaluations?

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Hey, wait, hey. Let… let's take a walk.
Can we just take a walk?

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I have always felt
the origin of anger in my vagina,

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and I'm surprised
it is not mentioned more in literature.

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Many students are uncomfortable
that you haven't spoken out against John.

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-Spoken out?
-You've been seen with him in public.

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He's my husband.

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That association is becoming difficult
for the students.

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-What?!
-And the faculty.

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Who?

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-You make them feel uncomfortable.
-In what way?

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Your behavior has been erratic.

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Well, you can't just fire me.
There's a process. I have tenure.

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We are asking you to voluntarily step down
by the end of the week.

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Well, I won't.

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If you don't,
we can put you on administrative leave

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till the end of the year,
starting next week.

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We'd prefer it not come to that.

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Who would take over my classes?
We're in the middle of a semester.

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Cynthia is well versed
in your subject matter.

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-Is this about the file?
-What file?

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-This is not about the file, but…
-But what?

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It will be better for you
if you voluntarily step down.

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Why?

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Because if we put you
on administrative leave,

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we will have to formalize the complaints.

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-Really?
-Yes.

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Well, if you do that, David,

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I will absolutely never even conceptualize
fucking you ever again.

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What?

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That is perfectly fine.

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-It is?
-Yes.

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I… I have no interest in doing that.

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You don't?

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No.

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Well, thank you, David.

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Thanks a whole fucking lot.

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I'm sorr… what?

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I don't… I don't know.

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She's erratic.

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I mean, spoken out?
Of course I could've spoken out.

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Excuse me, ma'am.
Smoking is prohibited on campus.

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Don't they understand?

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I could've been a feminist hero
if I wanted to be.

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Since when?

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Three years.

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I could've spoken out all over campus.

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Big swaths of adoring, dewy young people

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just drooling over me
as I lusciously spoke out.

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-Ma'am?
-But it is against my principles.

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I do not have to answer
for my husband's behavior.

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-Are you gonna put your cigarette out?
-I mean, I am my own person.

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I have done nothing wrong.

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May I see your ID?

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Oh, well, thank you for the compliment,
but I'm not a student. I'm a professor.

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Yeah, I figured. Are you resisting?

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Oh, okay. All right. I put it out, okay?

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Now, may I find a trash can?
Because I don't litter.

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I need your ID.

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Why? What are you gonna do?
Suspend me from teaching?

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No, ma'am. I'm writing you a summons.

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What?

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Come in!

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Hey there.

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Oh, hi.

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Is this a bad time?

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Uh… Sorry. Sorry. You heard.

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Heard what?

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Oh, nothing. No, nothing.

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You just, uh… you came to speak to me.

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Yeah, yeah, no.
I was on my way to class, and

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I had to ask you,
have you ever read Susie Boyt?

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-Loved and Missed? Oh my God.
-Yes, I just started that book!

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I haven't encountered a voice like hers
in a very long time.

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When I read it, I just kept thinking,
how could it be so emotional, so funny,

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and so good all at once?

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Yes, exactly.

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It's the best book I've read in a while.

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Of course he thinks it's better than mine.
It is better than mine.

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I believe in admiration,
generosity, being a fan.

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That and yours.

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What?

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That and yours.

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I bet you say that to all the writers.

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You okay?

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What?

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Uh, well, you just…
you seem… I don't know.

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You look a little forlorn.

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Oh, God,
and I thought I was hiding it so well.

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-Mm, you can't hide anything.
-No?

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You're translucent.

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It's… it's beautiful.

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Oh.

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-Can I put my arm around you?
-Of course.

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Thank you.

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Oh, I appreciate the kindness.

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I'll take you away.

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-Professor Vladinski?
-Oh.

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-I'll see you later.
-Yeah.

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I mean, they can't just ordain
that I go on administrative leave.

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Hey, I'm as angry as you are,
but look at it as an opportunity.

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You'll still get paid.

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Not right.

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No? Brown suit, brown tie?

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Give me a pair of Aviators,
keep me 500 feet from a playground?

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-Ugh, don't joke like that.
-I have to joke.

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It's the only thing I can do that's
keeping me from losing my fucking mind.

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They're not allowed to keep me
from my position when I did nothing wrong.

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We'll handle it after the hearing.

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No, no, I'm not gonna sit here
and take it like a… like a lump.

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Okay.

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Is this Lila's writing?

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I have scans. Don't think you can burn it.

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Hmm.

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May I take it?

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Mm.

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-Alexis is gonna be here in an hour.
-She is?

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-We're bringing in the big guns.
-Are you and Alexis back together?

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Um… we were never really broken up.

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Well… well, do you think
you might've told me that she was coming?

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I mean, I'm not in the mood
for entertaining right now.

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Mom, I think one of the reasons
you and Alexis never clicked is because--

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We have too clicked.

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…put on this big show like
some 1950s housewife whenever she comes.

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You don't have to entertain.

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-What do you think?
-Mm, can you try a different tie?

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I wanna dress like myself.

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-What are you wearing?
-I'm not a 1950s housewife.

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Sorry.

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-What are you wearing?
-I don't know.

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Mom, optics are important.

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If the complaints get dismissed,
I bet a lot of your problems go away.

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What if they don't get dismissed?

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We sell the house, move to Mexico,
and everyone can fuck off.

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Everyone else can fuck off.

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I'm needed here.

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Not if you're not teaching.

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I'm going to be teaching, John.

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I need to talk to somebody about this.

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Mom, no, don't do anything.
Please. Please!

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Every year, the president
of the college holds an event

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for business school alumni.

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Lynn likes to say
that they are "properly endowed."

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Thank you.

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Lynn!

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Hi.

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What are you doing here?

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This event is for business majors,

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real people who help the college
in a… real way.

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-Hear about the administrative leave?
-I can't talk about that right now.

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-Well, can't you ask Steve to intervene?
-No.

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Do you think it's right
that I get punished for John's actions?

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Steve has to look out
for the college in general.

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Lynn, this is your chance to take a stand.

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You have a… a PhD in medieval philosophy,

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and yet all you do is entertain
like some 1950s housewife.

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'Cause the only thing
that's mattered to you in your whole life

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is being approved of by men.

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Well, if I'm such a bone job,
then why are you asking for my help?

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Lynn?

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-Ma'am.
-No, Lynn said I could use her bathroom.

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Hmm.

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I'm of a mind that if you come across
a controlled substance,

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you should always take at least one…

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for the apocalypse.

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Sid made this for me when she was ten.

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Sid?

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What's up?

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Nothing.

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Run away with me.

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Babe, have you ever held a knife before?

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-These are beautifully chopped peppers.
-Good morning.

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Good morning.

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-Good morning, Sidney.
-Good morning.

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Did anyone, uh… feed you last night?

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Oh, yeah. Yeah. We ordered in.

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I know I just kinda sprang this…
"Sprang, sprung?" Help.

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Oh, you can say either.

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…visit on you,
and, um… my mother would've been furious.

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No, no, well, I mean,
thank you for saying that, but no.

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-Babe, these have to be tiny.
-That's what I'm doing.

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-No, smaller.
-I hear you've come to save us.

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I'm just offering some advice
and some moral support.

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Did you hear they asked me
to step down from my tenured position?

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Yes.

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And she told me to do nothing
until after the hearing.

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That's good.

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She's very right.

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You should listen to your daughter.
She's a very good lawyer.

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And don't worry,
we won't be in your hair too much longer.

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-Nobody's in my hair.
-We're gonna head back.

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-Right after the hearing wraps up.
-Together?

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Yes.

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-Are you moving back in with her?
-Why are you saying "her" like that?

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I don't think you've proven you're ready
for the relationship she's asking for.

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Stop talking like Alexis
is not standing here.

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It's fine.
I think Sid knows what she's ready for.

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Listen, I know how it feels
to be a 35-year-old woman.

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-What?
-Do you think she's ready to co-parent?

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I mean, she can barely look after herself.

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-Babe, what did you tell her?
-I…

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I… No. I just told her we were
maybe getting ready to start the process.

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-Mom, you have to stop.
-Babe, that's our business.

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You're gonna be counting your eggs.
She hasn't even got a job.

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Uh, I have five interviews lined up.

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In the city?

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Yes. That's where my life is.

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You haven't been telling me anything.

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Because I don't need to ask
for your permission for everything.

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I'm a fully grown adult.

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-Well, you do not behave like one.
-Why are you being so mean?

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You need to speak
to your daughter more respectfully.

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-No, thank you. Uh-uh-uh, no, thank you.
-Guys, what's going on?

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Don't call me "guys." I'm her mother.
Where were you last night?

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-Seeing a friend.
-You don't want me to be an adult.

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You want me to depend on you
so you can feel like you still matter.

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You're the one who's mean.

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Why are you so agitated?

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I don't wanna talk about it.

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I wouldn't be in this position
if it weren't for you.

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What position?

224
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They are asking me to give up my career.

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Wow, you are gone. You know what?
You're right. Let's not talk about it.

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-No, let's not.
-Yeah. Jesus Christ.

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You know, first of all,
you could've spoken out against me

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or whatever you wanted,
and you chose not to.

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-Excuse me?
-You have free will.

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-Make your own choices.
-I… I… I can't believe--

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Second of all, we only came
to an agreement because of you.

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You're the one who let the door open
for all this shit to happen.

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You mean so if I'd been
more of a strict little wife, then--

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-I'm saying it was your idea.
-No, no.

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We came to this agreement together.
We did not want a conventional marriage.

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We were being
good, antiestablishment radicals.

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We didn't want to accept the status quo.

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-Maybe that's what you wanted.
-I'm gone?

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You're gone.
No, that is the most delusional thing

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I've ever heard in my life.
You didn't wanna fuck around?

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You were fucking around
before we came to the agreement.

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That's why I suggested the agreement
in the first fucking place!

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Listen.

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I am not moving to Mexico.

245
00:14:49,972 --> 00:14:52,516
You've always been
the most important person in my life.

246
00:14:53,767 --> 00:14:54,685
What a lie.

247
00:14:54,768 --> 00:14:56,562
-No, I'm serious.
-John.

248
00:14:56,645 --> 00:14:59,273
I'm serious,
and I'm not conflicted with myself.

249
00:14:59,356 --> 00:15:01,442
I'm with you because I wanna be with you.

250
00:15:03,611 --> 00:15:05,404
I wish you could say the same.

251
00:15:08,532 --> 00:15:11,577
This manipulative motherfucker.

252
00:15:32,306 --> 00:15:36,727
As T.S. Eliot wrote,
"This is how the world ends."

253
00:15:36,810 --> 00:15:39,897
"Not with a bang, but with an NP."

254
00:16:08,467 --> 00:16:09,927
If I can't have my job

255
00:16:10,427 --> 00:16:12,221
and I can't have my daughter

256
00:16:12,304 --> 00:16:15,641
and I can't have… the man I love,

257
00:16:16,517 --> 00:16:18,769
then at least I can do something decent.

258
00:16:20,437 --> 00:16:21,397
Hey.

259
00:16:21,480 --> 00:16:22,773
Are you kidding me?

260
00:16:22,856 --> 00:16:23,983
More space.

261
00:16:24,066 --> 00:16:27,528
-I wanna tell you something.
-No, we're past that. Back up.

262
00:16:27,611 --> 00:16:30,030
Honey, I just wanna tell you
that I thought that this story

263
00:16:30,114 --> 00:16:31,991
was really rather brilliant.

264
00:16:32,074 --> 00:16:33,075
What is that?

265
00:16:33,158 --> 00:16:34,743
It's from your Substack.

266
00:16:34,827 --> 00:16:38,080
-The one you're gonna use to defame me.
-I'm serious, Lila.

267
00:16:38,163 --> 00:16:39,748
It really touched me.

268
00:16:39,832 --> 00:16:42,626
There's an honesty there that I admire.

269
00:16:43,210 --> 00:16:46,213
Very, very good. I mean it.

270
00:16:46,296 --> 00:16:50,092
-I'm not going to drop out of the case.
-No, that's not why I'm saying this.

271
00:16:50,175 --> 00:16:52,886
-And you kept me from the scholarship.
-I don't think I did.

272
00:16:52,970 --> 00:16:55,514
-You promised I would get it.
-No, I didn't.

273
00:16:55,597 --> 00:16:57,474
You told me I was the strongest candidate.

274
00:16:57,558 --> 00:17:00,019
Well, you were,
but then you got cocky and lazy,

275
00:17:00,102 --> 00:17:02,312
and you didn't put enough work
into your application.

276
00:17:02,896 --> 00:17:04,815
-I'm not lazy.
-Well, you can be.

277
00:17:04,898 --> 00:17:08,610
The work was not strong enough,
and you didn't try hard enough.

278
00:17:10,029 --> 00:17:13,115
Listen to me, Lila.
I mean, who fucking cares?

279
00:17:13,699 --> 00:17:16,493
You know those people
who are so good at things early on?

280
00:17:16,577 --> 00:17:18,495
Well, they usually turn into boring people

281
00:17:18,579 --> 00:17:22,583
whose biggest accomplishments
are behind them by the time they're 25.

282
00:17:23,167 --> 00:17:26,462
You have your whole life in front of you.

283
00:17:27,296 --> 00:17:31,550
You didn't have to be great in high school
or college or in your twenties.

284
00:17:32,051 --> 00:17:34,887
You can make mistakes.
You can fuck a professor.

285
00:17:34,970 --> 00:17:37,056
Life is not about nailing it
when you're young.

286
00:17:37,139 --> 00:17:39,475
It's about clinging
to the fucking rock face

287
00:17:39,558 --> 00:17:42,269
no matter who or what
tries to push you off.

288
00:17:44,813 --> 00:17:47,649
Don't make yourself irrelevant
before you're done living your life.

289
00:17:47,733 --> 00:17:50,694
You will be irrelevant soon enough.
Believe me.

290
00:17:59,119 --> 00:18:01,205
Okay, guys. Okay. Okay, folks.

291
00:18:01,288 --> 00:18:03,874
Folks, folks, I appreciate
your dedication to this committee,

292
00:18:03,957 --> 00:18:06,710
but how much time
do we wanna waste on this, okay?

293
00:18:06,794 --> 00:18:09,171
The mother called the dean.
She keeps emailing me.

294
00:18:09,254 --> 00:18:12,549
He wants us to just give the kid honors,
so let's just give it to her.

295
00:18:12,633 --> 00:18:15,552
-He wasn't even close to that.
-Wait. Wait. Who is it?

296
00:18:19,723 --> 00:18:23,519
I have taken your recommendation
into consideration.

297
00:18:24,019 --> 00:18:27,981
I plan to turn my next lecture
into a public forum.

298
00:18:28,065 --> 00:18:32,152
I'll answer all student questions,
including those about my marriage,

299
00:18:32,236 --> 00:18:33,570
tomorrow at three.

300
00:18:34,780 --> 00:18:37,574
I don't know
if that's best for the students.

301
00:18:37,658 --> 00:18:40,661
Well, of course you don't, Florence,
because you're my frenemy.

302
00:18:40,744 --> 00:18:42,329
I'm… not that.

303
00:18:43,038 --> 00:18:45,582
Sweetie, I agree with Flo.
This kind of thing is unpredictable.

304
00:18:45,666 --> 00:18:48,794
They want me to speak out,
so I'm speaking out.

305
00:18:48,877 --> 00:18:50,712
What outcome do you expect?

306
00:18:50,796 --> 00:18:54,341
They'll see I'm an open book,
and they will understand.

307
00:18:54,424 --> 00:18:56,927
Sorry, I don't think the students
are in the right place

308
00:18:57,010 --> 00:18:59,680
to talk to teachers
about this kinda stuff right now.

309
00:18:59,763 --> 00:19:02,558
I know you're coming from a good place,
but it's generational.

310
00:19:02,641 --> 00:19:06,145
They just think about these things
in a really different way.

311
00:19:06,228 --> 00:19:08,230
Well, I can offer up my perspective.

312
00:19:08,313 --> 00:19:09,690
I think it's a good idea.

313
00:19:10,774 --> 00:19:13,277
I do. I think the students want us
to be real with them.

314
00:19:13,360 --> 00:19:15,612
That's… that's what I've found.

315
00:19:15,696 --> 00:19:16,864
What?

316
00:19:16,947 --> 00:19:18,574
They want you to be real.

317
00:19:18,657 --> 00:19:20,242
Mm… all of us.

318
00:19:20,325 --> 00:19:24,872
No. They want a literary celebrity
with a cool jacket to be real with them,

319
00:19:24,955 --> 00:19:27,416
not a middle-aged career professor.

320
00:19:28,041 --> 00:19:29,585
We were all you once.

321
00:19:29,668 --> 00:19:32,004
We know what changes.

322
00:19:34,339 --> 00:19:36,300
That's a little harsh, David.

323
00:19:37,342 --> 00:19:40,679
Well, I am going to be holding this forum,
whether you like it or not,

324
00:19:40,762 --> 00:19:42,973
and you are all invited.

325
00:19:43,056 --> 00:19:45,642
-I have a dermatologist appointment.
-Very good.

326
00:20:09,583 --> 00:20:12,294
You will all have to forgive me
for not speaking up sooner

327
00:20:12,377 --> 00:20:14,171
about the case against my husband.

328
00:20:14,254 --> 00:20:17,841
It was… it was difficult for me
to know how best to proceed.

329
00:20:18,675 --> 00:20:20,844
I wanted to provide you
with the opportunity

330
00:20:20,928 --> 00:20:26,225
to write questions anonymously,
so… thank you very much for these.

331
00:20:26,308 --> 00:20:29,645
But if anyone has the urge
to speak up directly,

332
00:20:29,728 --> 00:20:33,649
then I aim to be in a listening position.

333
00:20:35,525 --> 00:20:36,693
I told her that.

334
00:20:38,320 --> 00:20:39,655
First question is…

335
00:20:41,657 --> 00:20:44,284
"Do you agree
that what your husband did was wrong?"

336
00:20:45,827 --> 00:20:49,581
Well, you have to understand that
I come from a very different generation.

337
00:20:50,082 --> 00:20:51,667
When I was growing up,

338
00:20:51,750 --> 00:20:55,504
I was taught that my virginity
was the most important thing about me.

339
00:20:55,587 --> 00:20:58,882
It was more important
than my brain or my soul.

340
00:20:59,591 --> 00:21:03,720
We stigmatize sex by telling women
that it's going to hurt them.

341
00:21:03,804 --> 00:21:06,682
I mean,
these were consensual relationships.

342
00:21:06,765 --> 00:21:09,476
So if I say that John was wrong,

343
00:21:09,559 --> 00:21:14,064
I'm saying that these women were hurt
by the act of having consensual sex,

344
00:21:14,147 --> 00:21:16,441
and I am not comfortable with that.

345
00:21:24,825 --> 00:21:27,452
Uh, the next question is, um…

346
00:21:30,163 --> 00:21:32,749
"Did you know about the affairs?"

347
00:21:33,250 --> 00:21:34,543
Only vaguely.

348
00:21:36,295 --> 00:21:37,963
But in full disclosure,

349
00:21:39,339 --> 00:21:41,341
we had a marital agreement.

350
00:21:41,883 --> 00:21:45,512
What do you mean "agreement"?
Do you mean an open marriage?

351
00:21:47,389 --> 00:21:49,099
Well, you could call it that.

352
00:21:49,850 --> 00:21:51,310
Like polyamory?

353
00:21:51,393 --> 00:21:52,519
Well…

354
00:21:55,188 --> 00:21:57,399
you could think of it as polyamory.

355
00:21:57,482 --> 00:22:00,652
Uh, we didn't, but… you could.

356
00:22:05,282 --> 00:22:06,199
Yes, Aaron?

357
00:22:07,284 --> 00:22:10,162
-What's your take on compersion?
-What is that?

358
00:22:10,245 --> 00:22:11,997
Like, the well-being you feel

359
00:22:12,080 --> 00:22:15,167
when your partner takes pleasure
in another relationship.

360
00:22:15,250 --> 00:22:16,626
Oh, I don't feel that.

361
00:22:19,296 --> 00:22:21,089
How do you deal with jealousy?

362
00:22:21,840 --> 00:22:22,966
Jealousy?

363
00:22:24,551 --> 00:22:26,428
Jealousy can be an opportunity.

364
00:22:27,471 --> 00:22:31,183
Sorry, your husband's relationships
involve power imbalances,

365
00:22:31,683 --> 00:22:34,686
not relationships between
consenting adults on equal footing.

366
00:22:35,520 --> 00:22:37,939
But who is ever on an equal footing?

367
00:22:38,440 --> 00:22:42,069
I mean, aren't you adults? Aren't you
capable of making your own decisions?

368
00:22:45,280 --> 00:22:49,493
I know it sounds like an old shibboleth,
but it really was a different time.

369
00:22:50,035 --> 00:22:51,703
I mean, I would argue that, in the past,

370
00:22:51,787 --> 00:22:54,664
love affairs
with all different kinds of people,

371
00:22:54,748 --> 00:22:58,293
some who lifted you up,
some who left you a little bruised,

372
00:22:58,377 --> 00:23:00,629
I mean, emotionally, of course,

373
00:23:00,712 --> 00:23:04,216
were considered,
within reason, really kind of

374
00:23:05,258 --> 00:23:06,259
fun.

375
00:23:07,052 --> 00:23:09,346
So a student suffering
because of a teacher is fun?

376
00:23:09,429 --> 00:23:11,765
-That's not what she's saying.
-Then what is she saying?

377
00:23:31,410 --> 00:23:32,786
Just looking for my keys.

378
00:23:32,869 --> 00:23:34,704
I had my forum today.

379
00:23:36,998 --> 00:23:37,833
And?

380
00:23:38,417 --> 00:23:39,459
I don't know.

381
00:23:40,585 --> 00:23:43,547
You'll be fine.
One foot in front of the other.

382
00:23:45,048 --> 00:23:46,049
Where are you going?

383
00:23:46,133 --> 00:23:47,551
A friend.

384
00:23:47,634 --> 00:23:49,010
Who is this friend?

385
00:23:49,928 --> 00:23:51,680
You've been out every night this week.

386
00:23:51,763 --> 00:23:52,889
Nobody.

387
00:23:55,475 --> 00:23:56,476
It's helping.

388
00:23:57,144 --> 00:23:58,019
Mm.

389
00:24:02,107 --> 00:24:03,358
What's helping?

390
00:24:54,826 --> 00:24:56,286
Inspiring.

391
00:25:21,394 --> 00:25:22,395
Hey.

392
00:25:22,479 --> 00:25:23,855
-Hello.
-Come on in.

393
00:25:26,983 --> 00:25:28,818
Oh, uh, this way.

394
00:25:30,278 --> 00:25:31,154
Oh.

395
00:25:32,030 --> 00:25:34,824
I didn't realize this would be
a group endeavor. I…

396
00:25:35,575 --> 00:25:37,160
On a Saturday, no less.

397
00:25:37,244 --> 00:25:40,247
We thought it might be better
to meet not on campus.

398
00:25:40,997 --> 00:25:41,957
Okay.

399
00:25:46,503 --> 00:25:48,421
Want a donut? Maple glazed?

400
00:25:49,506 --> 00:25:50,382
No.

401
00:25:51,049 --> 00:25:54,511
Okay, then let's just get to it
since this is profoundly fucking awkward.

402
00:25:55,095 --> 00:25:55,929
Thank you.

403
00:25:56,429 --> 00:25:59,891
We are happy to say we are not putting you
on administrative leave.

404
00:26:00,517 --> 00:26:01,476
Oh!

405
00:26:03,311 --> 00:26:04,354
Wonderful.

406
00:26:04,980 --> 00:26:06,147
That is great.

407
00:26:06,648 --> 00:26:11,611
But the faculty has decided
that you will be supervised.

408
00:26:12,195 --> 00:26:14,030
Wh… what do you mean by supervised?

409
00:26:14,114 --> 00:26:16,032
Your classes will be monitored.

410
00:26:16,116 --> 00:26:20,120
-Monitored by whom?
-I'll take Women in American Fiction.

411
00:26:20,203 --> 00:26:22,163
-Okay.
-And I'll take your seminar.

412
00:26:22,747 --> 00:26:24,124
And do what with it?

413
00:26:24,207 --> 00:26:25,584
We'll write up notes.

414
00:26:25,667 --> 00:26:27,711
It's administrative. Psh!

415
00:26:27,794 --> 00:26:30,088
It's accountability.

416
00:26:30,589 --> 00:26:33,091
And then we'll meet biweekly to review.

417
00:26:33,675 --> 00:26:35,218
Review what?

418
00:26:35,302 --> 00:26:38,054
To make sure
that you are appropriately in line

419
00:26:38,138 --> 00:26:39,889
with our departmental goals.

420
00:26:39,973 --> 00:26:41,975
So you are gonna be advising me

421
00:26:42,058 --> 00:26:46,062
as to whether or not my instruction
is in line with your departmental goals

422
00:26:46,146 --> 00:26:48,857
in a biweekly meeting?

423
00:26:48,940 --> 00:26:50,525
It's a formality.

424
00:26:50,609 --> 00:26:54,112
It's a safety issue.
We wanna make sure our students feel safe.

425
00:26:54,195 --> 00:26:56,323
Some students requested
that you be removed.

426
00:26:57,574 --> 00:27:02,162
Some advocated that you stay,
so we feel that this is a compromise.

427
00:27:02,746 --> 00:27:04,164
To placate them.

428
00:27:04,873 --> 00:27:05,707
Yeah.

429
00:27:06,708 --> 00:27:08,418
They're in charge.

430
00:27:15,425 --> 00:27:18,428
Well, I appreciate the update.

431
00:27:21,348 --> 00:27:24,976
May I ask that this decision, uh…
please not leave this room?

432
00:27:31,274 --> 00:27:32,108
Sure.

433
00:27:32,609 --> 00:27:33,735
Thank you.

434
00:27:37,572 --> 00:27:38,490
Don't.

435
00:28:02,263 --> 00:28:04,557
-It's the big day.
-Mm, yeah, it is.

436
00:28:04,641 --> 00:28:06,309
-How are you feeling?
-Good.

437
00:28:07,268 --> 00:28:09,354
Um, Alexis and Sid and I are gonna go
get breakfast

438
00:28:09,437 --> 00:28:12,273
and, I don't know, talk over the

439
00:28:13,316 --> 00:28:14,442
bullshit strategy.

440
00:28:14,526 --> 00:28:15,360
Mm-hmm.

441
00:28:15,443 --> 00:28:17,987
If you wanted to come,
or you can just meet us there?

442
00:28:18,071 --> 00:28:19,364
I'll meet you there.

443
00:28:22,158 --> 00:28:24,202
-I do want you there.
-I know.

444
00:28:24,994 --> 00:28:27,622
-I'm coming.
-You sure?

445
00:28:28,123 --> 00:28:31,710
John, I mean, this hearing is the only way
out of this whole mess for you and for me.

446
00:28:31,793 --> 00:28:33,837
I have my own reasons to be there.

447
00:28:33,920 --> 00:28:35,255
Okay.

448
00:28:36,381 --> 00:28:37,590
Cynthia coming?

449
00:28:39,092 --> 00:28:40,343
Which one's Cynthia?

450
00:29:31,227 --> 00:29:33,021
I'm so glad you changed your mind.

451
00:29:35,273 --> 00:29:36,232
Are you ready?

452
00:29:37,192 --> 00:29:38,193
You bet.

453
00:29:38,943 --> 00:29:40,236
My love.

454
00:29:40,320 --> 00:29:42,947
Help me, I think I'm fallin'

455
00:29:43,531 --> 00:29:46,451
In love again

456
00:29:46,534 --> 00:29:48,953
When I get that crazy feelin'

457
00:29:49,037 --> 00:29:51,539
I know I'm in trouble again

458
00:29:51,623 --> 00:29:52,957
I'm in trouble

459
00:29:53,041 --> 00:29:57,212
'Cause you're a rambler and a gambler
And a sweet-taIkin' ladies' man

460
00:29:57,295 --> 00:30:02,467
And you love your lovin'

461
00:30:02,550 --> 00:30:03,468
Lovin'

462
00:30:03,551 --> 00:30:05,470
But not like you love your

463
00:30:05,553 --> 00:30:11,476
Freedom

464
00:30:28,159 --> 00:30:31,371
Help me, I think I'm fallin'

465
00:30:31,454 --> 00:30:33,998
In love too fast

466
00:30:34,082 --> 00:30:36,251
It's got me hoping for the future…