1 00:00:11,971 --> 00:00:13,681 Previously on The Summer I Turned Pretty... 2 00:00:13,764 --> 00:00:15,891 [Belly] I told everyone that I applied to Finch 3 00:00:15,975 --> 00:00:17,351 because it was a good school, 4 00:00:17,435 --> 00:00:20,229 but truest of all was that I just wanted to be near him. 5 00:00:20,312 --> 00:00:22,106 Now here we are. 6 00:00:22,189 --> 00:00:24,734 We are gonna do this for the rest of our lives. 7 00:00:24,817 --> 00:00:27,111 -I got off the wait list for study abroad. -Paris? 8 00:00:27,194 --> 00:00:28,738 -Have you and Conrad started your speech -[phone buzzing] 9 00:00:28,821 --> 00:00:30,656 for the dedication ceremony? 10 00:00:30,740 --> 00:00:32,783 Half of Cousins is coming to see Susannah's memorial garden. 11 00:00:32,867 --> 00:00:35,286 I went to go get my cap and gown and my name wasn't on the list. 12 00:00:35,369 --> 00:00:36,287 I'm not graduating. 13 00:00:36,370 --> 00:00:37,580 [Steven] We keep coming back to each other. 14 00:00:37,663 --> 00:00:40,207 -It feels like it's never really over. -[Conrad] I got that 15 00:00:40,291 --> 00:00:42,293 -summer clinic job. -Have you ever been in love? 16 00:00:42,376 --> 00:00:44,253 -Once. -So, what was her name? 17 00:00:44,336 --> 00:00:45,254 [Conrad] Belly. 18 00:00:45,337 --> 00:00:46,422 [Agnes] Wait, like, your brother's girlfriend? 19 00:00:46,505 --> 00:00:48,591 [Conrad] Hey, Jere. Look, I am not 20 00:00:48,674 --> 00:00:50,760 gonna be able to make the dedication. 21 00:00:50,843 --> 00:00:53,179 [Lacie] Well, what happens in Cabo stays in Cabo. 22 00:00:53,262 --> 00:00:54,388 [Belly] Did you hook up 23 00:00:54,472 --> 00:00:56,307 -with Lacie Barone during spring break? -Oh, shit. 24 00:00:56,390 --> 00:00:59,018 It happened when we were on a break. It didn't mean anything to me. 25 00:00:59,101 --> 00:01:00,561 -It means something to me. -I swear to you-- 26 00:01:00,644 --> 00:01:02,021 You ruined everything. 27 00:01:04,064 --> 00:01:06,066 [gentle music playing] 28 00:01:12,448 --> 00:01:14,366 [♪ Olivia Rodrigo sings "lacy"] 29 00:01:14,450 --> 00:01:15,701 [sniffles] 30 00:01:15,785 --> 00:01:18,788 ♪ Lacy, oh, Lacy ♪ 31 00:01:18,871 --> 00:01:20,164 ♪ Skin like... 32 00:01:20,247 --> 00:01:22,792 [Jeremiah] Bells, can we go on a coffee run? 33 00:01:22,875 --> 00:01:25,419 I thought you said you had to get at least a B 34 00:01:25,503 --> 00:01:27,505 on your Media Ethics midterm 35 00:01:27,588 --> 00:01:30,591 or you were so screwed. 36 00:01:30,674 --> 00:01:32,927 Fine. You are no fun. 37 00:01:33,010 --> 00:01:35,638 -Mm. -Mm. 38 00:01:35,721 --> 00:01:37,181 ♪ Ever tell you that... 39 00:01:37,264 --> 00:01:39,183 Wait, what's this? 40 00:01:39,266 --> 00:01:42,269 Important flight update for Cabo? 41 00:01:42,353 --> 00:01:44,021 Since when are you going to Cabo? 42 00:01:44,104 --> 00:01:47,316 Yeah, I-I told you about the last-minute flight I booked. 43 00:01:47,399 --> 00:01:50,528 Uh, I think I would have remembered you going to Mexico. 44 00:01:50,611 --> 00:01:52,446 Oh, well, Bells, this is my last spring break, 45 00:01:52,530 --> 00:01:54,281 and you're gonna be in Philly, so... 46 00:01:54,365 --> 00:01:57,034 Yeah, but we said we might meet up in Cousins. 47 00:01:57,117 --> 00:01:59,078 And I thought you were trying to spend more time with your dad. 48 00:01:59,161 --> 00:02:01,914 Okay, don't try to guilt-trip me about my dad. 49 00:02:01,997 --> 00:02:04,124 I just saw him last weekend. 50 00:02:04,208 --> 00:02:06,043 Did something happen with you guys? 51 00:02:06,126 --> 00:02:08,462 You've been kind of moody since then. 52 00:02:09,505 --> 00:02:11,799 Something worse than visiting my dead mom's grave? 53 00:02:11,882 --> 00:02:14,009 -No. -Hey, okay, that's... 54 00:02:14,093 --> 00:02:18,639 That' not fair. I just... I think you're being a little bit selfish. 55 00:02:18,722 --> 00:02:21,600 Okay, sorry. Can you just stop riding me? 56 00:02:21,684 --> 00:02:23,352 If you want to come to Cabo, then just come. 57 00:02:23,435 --> 00:02:25,855 No, I don't want to crash your boys' trip. 58 00:02:25,938 --> 00:02:27,815 It's not just boys. The sororities are going, too. 59 00:02:27,898 --> 00:02:31,151 Oh, so, girls were invited, just not girlfriends? Cool. 60 00:02:31,235 --> 00:02:34,321 Look, I promise I'm not interested in whatever wet T-shirt contest 61 00:02:34,405 --> 00:02:35,906 or whatever it is that you're picturing. 62 00:02:35,990 --> 00:02:37,950 -It's not that. -Then what is it? 63 00:02:38,033 --> 00:02:39,451 What is wrong with you right now? 64 00:02:39,535 --> 00:02:41,620 You're the one who didn't even tell me that you're leaving the country. 65 00:02:41,704 --> 00:02:43,497 Yeah, because you hate anything having to do with frats. 66 00:02:43,581 --> 00:02:44,999 When did I ever say that? 67 00:02:45,082 --> 00:02:47,293 You don't have to. I can feel you judging us. 68 00:02:47,376 --> 00:02:49,587 Sorry if I'm a dumbass who's probably gonna bomb his midterm. 69 00:02:49,670 --> 00:02:52,089 Sorry if I want to have a little fun at spring break and I'm sorry 70 00:02:52,172 --> 00:02:54,925 that I'm not some straight-A overachiever going to med school 71 00:02:55,009 --> 00:02:56,844 -like Conrad. -[laughs] Oh, my God, what? 72 00:02:56,927 --> 00:02:59,430 Please-- please don't put your inferiority complex 73 00:02:59,513 --> 00:03:02,057 -on me. -[scoffs] I wonder where that came from. 74 00:03:02,141 --> 00:03:04,268 Well, didn't start with me, so maybe 75 00:03:04,351 --> 00:03:06,520 -look at your dad. -Wow. 76 00:03:06,604 --> 00:03:09,189 Well, if you think I'm so stupid and selfish, then why are you even with me? 77 00:03:09,273 --> 00:03:11,525 Fuck it. I won't waste your time. 78 00:03:11,609 --> 00:03:13,319 You're being ridiculous right now. 79 00:03:13,402 --> 00:03:15,613 You think everything I do is ridiculous and I'm sick of it, 80 00:03:15,696 --> 00:03:16,989 so let's just end it. 81 00:03:17,072 --> 00:03:18,616 -Are you serious? -Yes. 82 00:03:18,699 --> 00:03:21,035 -I'm serious. -Okay, fine, if that's how you feel. 83 00:03:21,118 --> 00:03:22,828 -It is. -Great, okay, awesome. Bye. 84 00:03:22,912 --> 00:03:24,121 Bye. 85 00:03:24,204 --> 00:03:25,748 [door opens] 86 00:03:25,831 --> 00:03:27,958 -[door closes] -[Belly] I went home for spring break 87 00:03:28,042 --> 00:03:30,294 and we still hadn't talked. 88 00:03:30,377 --> 00:03:32,630 [birdsong] 89 00:03:32,713 --> 00:03:35,549 I can't believe it's been five days and he still hasn't texted me. 90 00:03:35,633 --> 00:03:38,677 Haven't you also not texted him? 91 00:03:38,761 --> 00:03:41,764 Yeah, but he's the one who picked the fight out of nowhere. 92 00:03:41,847 --> 00:03:45,059 Why don't you just come with me to New York for a couple of days? 93 00:03:45,142 --> 00:03:48,437 We can, like, run around the city after I crush my interview. 94 00:03:48,520 --> 00:03:51,649 -I'm too depressed. -Stop looking at Instagram. 95 00:03:51,732 --> 00:03:53,859 I just still don't even know what the hell happened. 96 00:03:53,943 --> 00:03:55,694 Let's see. 97 00:03:55,778 --> 00:03:57,780 [Lucinda in distance] Okay, I'm heading out. 98 00:03:57,863 --> 00:03:59,198 -[Taylor] Bye, Mom. -[door closes] 99 00:03:59,281 --> 00:04:01,909 Well, the good news is he looks emotionally destroyed. 100 00:04:01,992 --> 00:04:04,954 [sighs] I mean, I knew he was down about his grades, but I-- 101 00:04:05,037 --> 00:04:06,622 Just stop obsessing. 102 00:04:06,705 --> 00:04:08,916 You want to know what's going on, why don't you ask him? 103 00:04:08,999 --> 00:04:11,585 -Yeah, but he's the one-- -Just talk to him when he gets back. 104 00:04:11,669 --> 00:04:14,838 Guys are like dogs. They hide when they've screwed up. 105 00:04:14,922 --> 00:04:18,133 And even the world's best boyfriend is gonna fuck up sometimes. 106 00:04:18,217 --> 00:04:20,970 You know he feels bad about it. Like, it's Jere. 107 00:04:21,053 --> 00:04:24,181 You're his oxygen. He can't breathe without you. 108 00:04:29,561 --> 00:04:31,855 [Belly] I really thought Taylor was right. 109 00:04:31,939 --> 00:04:34,483 So when we got back to school, 110 00:04:34,566 --> 00:04:36,110 I went to see him. 111 00:04:36,193 --> 00:04:39,780 Were you really not gonna come find me? I mean, you pick a fight, 112 00:04:39,863 --> 00:04:41,991 walk out the door and I don't hear from you for a week? 113 00:04:42,074 --> 00:04:43,283 I'm a total asshole, Belly. 114 00:04:43,367 --> 00:04:46,286 I fucked up and I fucked up really bad. 115 00:04:46,370 --> 00:04:47,663 Hey. No, it's-it's okay. 116 00:04:50,290 --> 00:04:52,042 No. 117 00:04:52,126 --> 00:04:54,378 No, it's not. I have... I had a shitty week 118 00:04:54,461 --> 00:04:56,380 and I took it out on you. 119 00:04:56,463 --> 00:04:58,757 I'm just sorry-- I'm sorry, Belly. 120 00:04:58,841 --> 00:05:00,843 Look, I mean... 121 00:05:00,926 --> 00:05:02,761 we had a fight. 122 00:05:02,845 --> 00:05:04,596 It's not the end of the world. 123 00:05:04,680 --> 00:05:06,807 [somber music playing] 124 00:05:06,890 --> 00:05:08,767 Does this mean... 125 00:05:08,851 --> 00:05:10,853 does this mean you want to get back together? 126 00:05:10,936 --> 00:05:12,104 [laughs softly] 127 00:05:12,187 --> 00:05:15,024 We never stopped being together. 128 00:05:19,069 --> 00:05:20,612 Belly, 129 00:05:20,696 --> 00:05:22,698 when I was in Cabo... 130 00:05:23,991 --> 00:05:25,242 I-I thought... 131 00:05:25,325 --> 00:05:26,827 -Hey. -I wish I would've... 132 00:05:33,667 --> 00:05:36,920 I just can't believe I almost lost you over something so stupid. 133 00:05:39,423 --> 00:05:41,216 You could never lose me. 134 00:05:46,430 --> 00:05:47,639 Uh... 135 00:05:49,516 --> 00:05:50,642 Uh... 136 00:05:50,726 --> 00:05:52,644 I got you this. 137 00:05:52,728 --> 00:05:54,980 I was just on the beach and I was just thinking about you. 138 00:05:55,064 --> 00:05:57,733 I didn't even know if we would ever talk again, but... [chuckles] 139 00:05:57,816 --> 00:05:58,859 But it's really stupid 140 00:05:58,942 --> 00:06:00,360 -and you don't have to wear it, but-- -No. 141 00:06:01,403 --> 00:06:02,905 I love it. 142 00:06:05,157 --> 00:06:06,784 I love you. 143 00:06:22,841 --> 00:06:24,843 Fucking worthless. 144 00:06:27,805 --> 00:06:29,807 [phone buzzing] 145 00:06:35,270 --> 00:06:37,106 [scoffs] 146 00:06:46,323 --> 00:06:47,950 [knocking] 147 00:06:50,536 --> 00:06:51,912 Taylor's here. 148 00:06:51,995 --> 00:06:54,373 -I'm asleep. -Got it. 149 00:06:57,251 --> 00:06:59,128 [door closes] 150 00:06:59,211 --> 00:07:01,964 -She's asleep. -Okay, I just want to talk to her. 151 00:07:02,047 --> 00:07:03,465 I think she should rest right now. 152 00:07:03,549 --> 00:07:06,009 Okay, fine. 153 00:07:06,093 --> 00:07:09,680 This is a breakfast burrito. Extra crispy bacon, the way she likes it. 154 00:07:09,763 --> 00:07:12,558 -Just make sure she eats something. -Okay. 155 00:07:13,600 --> 00:07:14,893 Bye. 156 00:07:17,896 --> 00:07:20,065 [indistinct chatter] 157 00:07:20,149 --> 00:07:24,486 Belly, I-I swear, I-I obviously had no idea about Lacie. 158 00:07:24,570 --> 00:07:26,029 You know I would have killed them both for you. 159 00:07:26,113 --> 00:07:27,906 Okay? Please, just call me back. 160 00:07:27,990 --> 00:07:29,616 Like, just call me back. 161 00:07:30,617 --> 00:07:31,994 -Oh, no. I wouldn't -Taylor-- 162 00:07:32,077 --> 00:07:33,745 get any closer unless you want your balls cut off. 163 00:07:33,829 --> 00:07:35,455 -Please, just tell me how she is. -I don't know. 164 00:07:35,539 --> 00:07:39,042 She won't talk to me, either. Your side chick is in my sorority, 165 00:07:39,126 --> 00:07:41,420 so now I'm just, like, guilty by association. 166 00:07:41,503 --> 00:07:42,504 Taylor, please hear me out. 167 00:07:42,588 --> 00:07:43,839 No, I have always been on your side. 168 00:07:43,922 --> 00:07:45,591 I was the freaking CEO of Team Jeremiah. 169 00:07:45,674 --> 00:07:48,177 Now to find out that you're this scummy little fucking hot tub cheater-- 170 00:07:48,260 --> 00:07:50,554 -it-it's insane. -I didn't cheat, we were on a break. 171 00:07:50,637 --> 00:07:52,431 No, that's bullshit. 172 00:07:52,514 --> 00:07:55,142 You're not getting off on this, like, technicality. 173 00:07:55,225 --> 00:07:58,061 You were broken up for all of two seconds, Jeremiah. 174 00:07:58,145 --> 00:08:01,064 And then you got her this, like, cheap-ass puka shell bracelet to make it up to her. 175 00:08:01,148 --> 00:08:03,817 Like, what are you doing? What are you thinking? 176 00:08:03,901 --> 00:08:05,903 [scoffs] What, you're the expert on cheating now, huh? 177 00:08:05,986 --> 00:08:08,155 -Excuse me? -You heard me. 178 00:08:08,238 --> 00:08:09,239 How are Davis and Mia? 179 00:08:09,323 --> 00:08:11,783 Don't turn it around on me. 180 00:08:11,867 --> 00:08:15,329 You were supposed to be the ideal. You were supposed to deserve her. 181 00:08:15,412 --> 00:08:18,707 But you don't, and th... you probably never did. 182 00:08:18,790 --> 00:08:20,584 [mournful music playing] 183 00:08:20,667 --> 00:08:22,252 Can you get out of here? 184 00:08:26,506 --> 00:08:28,508 [phone buzzing] 185 00:08:33,013 --> 00:08:35,265 [Taylor] Hey, this is Taylor. Leave a message. 186 00:08:35,349 --> 00:08:36,683 [beep] 187 00:08:37,684 --> 00:08:40,771 [Denise] Adam called you in for this meeting, too, huh? 188 00:08:40,854 --> 00:08:42,314 Yep. Yeah. 189 00:08:42,397 --> 00:08:44,524 Fun way to spend a Sunday. Hmm? 190 00:08:44,608 --> 00:08:46,610 Sitting in the background while the grown-ups talk. 191 00:08:46,693 --> 00:08:49,988 Did you, uh, get to the dossier I sent you on Friday? 192 00:08:50,072 --> 00:08:53,325 Yep. Yep, yep, yeah, yeah. 193 00:08:53,408 --> 00:08:55,285 So, you saw it's StarcadeX? 194 00:08:56,328 --> 00:08:57,454 StarcadeX... 195 00:08:57,537 --> 00:08:59,414 -Like-like, the gaming start-up? -Oh, my God, 196 00:08:59,498 --> 00:09:02,459 I knew you were a gamer. Jesus, be a bigger nerd cliché, please. 197 00:09:02,542 --> 00:09:04,253 Okay, no, no. Relax. 198 00:09:04,336 --> 00:09:05,921 All right? I used to program that shit. 199 00:09:06,004 --> 00:09:07,673 Computer engineering at Princeton. 200 00:09:07,756 --> 00:09:08,882 -Right. -Remember? 201 00:09:08,966 --> 00:09:10,300 Yes, how could I forget? 202 00:09:10,384 --> 00:09:12,678 It is in your email signature. 203 00:09:12,761 --> 00:09:15,180 -Mm. -Look, just do me a favor, all right? 204 00:09:15,264 --> 00:09:16,765 Read the dossier, 205 00:09:16,848 --> 00:09:19,142 then call your girlfriend. 206 00:09:19,226 --> 00:09:22,729 -Okay? -Yeah. Well, I actually, um... 207 00:09:22,813 --> 00:09:24,481 I actually broke up with my girlfriend. 208 00:09:24,564 --> 00:09:27,192 That was, uh, that was my-my ex. 209 00:09:27,276 --> 00:09:28,527 Well, ex-ex? 210 00:09:28,610 --> 00:09:30,362 -Um... -Oh, my God. No, no, no. Stop immediately. 211 00:09:30,445 --> 00:09:32,614 No. I'm n... No personal stuff. 212 00:09:32,698 --> 00:09:36,827 All right? I'm not the coworker who's gonna be invested in your little dramas. 213 00:09:36,910 --> 00:09:38,578 I don't care. 214 00:09:38,662 --> 00:09:40,956 Yeah. 215 00:09:41,039 --> 00:09:43,250 All right, um... 216 00:09:43,333 --> 00:09:44,793 -StarcadeX? -Every VC shop 217 00:09:44,876 --> 00:09:46,336 is gonna try to move on this company, all right? 218 00:09:46,420 --> 00:09:48,171 So we really need to be on the ball with this. 219 00:09:48,255 --> 00:09:50,048 Copy. Copy. Got you. 220 00:09:50,132 --> 00:09:51,675 Thank you. 221 00:09:52,676 --> 00:09:54,678 [quirky music playing] 222 00:10:16,950 --> 00:10:18,910 [mouse clicking] 223 00:10:26,793 --> 00:10:28,503 [indistinct chatter] 224 00:10:32,257 --> 00:10:34,176 You just have to make it to the library. 225 00:10:34,259 --> 00:10:36,803 One thing at a time. 226 00:10:36,887 --> 00:10:39,014 Yeah, but every "thing..." 227 00:10:39,097 --> 00:10:41,224 leads to him. 228 00:10:41,308 --> 00:10:43,894 Like, I-I can't just study, 229 00:10:43,977 --> 00:10:47,397 I also have to call and quit my summer job, 230 00:10:47,481 --> 00:10:50,650 because, obviously, I'm not gonna be in Cousins, 231 00:10:50,734 --> 00:10:53,362 because Jeremiah. 232 00:10:53,445 --> 00:10:55,280 And then I have to figure out how to tell my mom 233 00:10:55,364 --> 00:10:58,742 that I can't bring myself to go to Susannah's memorial 234 00:10:58,825 --> 00:11:00,660 because, again, Jeremiah. 235 00:11:02,287 --> 00:11:04,289 And I might never even go to the summer house again 236 00:11:04,373 --> 00:11:05,916 -because of fucking Jeremiah. -So, 237 00:11:05,999 --> 00:11:07,709 okay, one thing at a time's not gonna work for you. 238 00:11:07,793 --> 00:11:10,545 No. No, nothing's gonna work, because everything is-- 239 00:11:10,629 --> 00:11:12,381 [girls laughing in distance] 240 00:11:12,464 --> 00:11:14,091 [Belly] Oh, my God. 241 00:11:17,260 --> 00:11:19,846 Hey, you're gonna be okay. 242 00:11:20,889 --> 00:11:22,599 I'll meet you after study group. 243 00:11:22,682 --> 00:11:25,102 [Belly] It's not just Lacie I can't avoid. 244 00:11:25,185 --> 00:11:27,312 -I see Jeremiah everywhere. -[♪ Ariana Grande sings "i wish i hated you"] 245 00:11:27,396 --> 00:11:31,024 ♪ Hung all my clothes in the closet you made... 246 00:11:31,108 --> 00:11:33,652 Even when he isn't really there. 247 00:11:33,735 --> 00:11:35,779 ♪ I send them your way ♪ 248 00:11:35,862 --> 00:11:37,823 ♪ Hoping life brings you no ♪ 249 00:11:37,906 --> 00:11:40,200 ♪ new pain ♪ 250 00:11:40,283 --> 00:11:44,246 ♪ I rearrange my memories ♪ 251 00:11:44,329 --> 00:11:47,541 ♪ I try to rewrite our life ♪ 252 00:11:47,624 --> 00:11:49,334 ♪ But no matter ♪ 253 00:11:49,418 --> 00:11:52,087 ♪ how I ♪ 254 00:11:52,170 --> 00:11:54,714 ♪ try to ♪ 255 00:11:54,798 --> 00:11:57,092 ♪ and no matter ♪ 256 00:11:57,175 --> 00:11:59,010 ♪ how I ♪ 257 00:11:59,094 --> 00:12:02,264 ♪ want to ♪ 258 00:12:02,347 --> 00:12:05,600 ♪ and no matter how easy ♪ 259 00:12:05,684 --> 00:12:09,771 ♪ things could be if I did ♪ 260 00:12:09,855 --> 00:12:12,357 ♪ and no matter how guilty ♪ 261 00:12:12,441 --> 00:12:15,944 -♪ I still feel saying it ♪ -[shrieks, laughs] 262 00:12:16,027 --> 00:12:18,613 ♪ I wish I hated you ♪ 263 00:12:18,697 --> 00:12:22,576 ♪ Our shadows dance in a parallel plane ♪ 264 00:12:22,659 --> 00:12:24,661 ♪ Just two different endings ♪ 265 00:12:24,744 --> 00:12:26,913 ♪ You learn to repair ♪ 266 00:12:26,997 --> 00:12:30,375 ♪ and I learn to keep me in one place... 267 00:12:30,459 --> 00:12:33,211 [Belly] Everywhere I go, there's a memory of us 268 00:12:33,295 --> 00:12:35,839 from when we were golden. 269 00:12:35,922 --> 00:12:37,632 I'm ready. Yeah. 270 00:12:37,716 --> 00:12:38,884 [gasps] 271 00:12:38,967 --> 00:12:42,220 ♪ And no matter how guilty ♪ 272 00:12:42,304 --> 00:12:45,348 ♪ I still feel saying it... 273 00:12:45,432 --> 00:12:47,809 -[Belly] So... -♪ I wish I hated you... 274 00:12:47,893 --> 00:12:49,728 I just need to not be here. 275 00:12:53,231 --> 00:12:55,233 [phone ringing] 276 00:12:58,820 --> 00:12:59,821 Hi. 277 00:12:59,905 --> 00:13:02,157 Mom, hi. Um, quick question. 278 00:13:02,240 --> 00:13:04,284 Can you send me my birth certificate? 279 00:13:04,367 --> 00:13:05,744 Overnight, if possible? 280 00:13:05,827 --> 00:13:09,080 Hello to you, too, my loving daughter. I'm fine, thanks for asking. 281 00:13:09,164 --> 00:13:12,459 -How are you? -Sorry. How are you, Mom? 282 00:13:12,542 --> 00:13:14,461 At an extremely dull conference. 283 00:13:14,544 --> 00:13:17,297 Which means I am nowhere near your birth certificate. 284 00:13:17,380 --> 00:13:18,798 What do you need it for anyway? 285 00:13:18,882 --> 00:13:20,133 A passport. 286 00:13:20,217 --> 00:13:23,178 I found out I got off the waitlist for Paris. 287 00:13:25,096 --> 00:13:28,558 That's fantastic! Honey, congratulations. 288 00:13:29,851 --> 00:13:31,061 How is Jere taking it? 289 00:13:31,144 --> 00:13:33,939 I know he'll miss you, but he must be so proud. 290 00:13:34,022 --> 00:13:36,816 Yeah. Um... 291 00:13:36,900 --> 00:13:39,819 -Mom, I got to go. -Okay. Love you. 292 00:13:40,820 --> 00:13:42,822 [gunfire over video game] 293 00:13:44,199 --> 00:13:45,283 [Redbird deep-pitch] Bro. 294 00:13:45,367 --> 00:13:47,953 You're tweaking. You need to... 295 00:13:48,036 --> 00:13:49,246 [normal] level out. 296 00:13:49,329 --> 00:13:53,166 Try some of this new indica I got. It may help ease the pain. 297 00:13:53,250 --> 00:13:55,710 I just lost the most important person in my life. 298 00:13:55,794 --> 00:13:57,837 Sorry if I don't have the energy to be alive. 299 00:13:57,921 --> 00:13:59,464 Oh, you don't think I know about break ups? 300 00:13:59,548 --> 00:14:01,758 I know about break ups. You saw me after Sean. 301 00:14:01,841 --> 00:14:04,177 You two were together for two seconds, Redbird. 302 00:14:04,261 --> 00:14:07,347 -Felt like something to me. -I can't believe I fucked it up this bad. 303 00:14:08,431 --> 00:14:10,225 Dude, I-I-I dig your girl-- 304 00:14:10,308 --> 00:14:13,353 I really do-- and I say this with love, but... 305 00:14:13,436 --> 00:14:15,438 you two were broken up, right? 306 00:14:15,522 --> 00:14:18,858 And you were wasted as hell and Lacie was all over your shit-- 307 00:14:18,942 --> 00:14:20,485 Bro, it is not an excuse! 308 00:14:20,569 --> 00:14:22,529 I should have told her as soon as I got back. 309 00:14:22,612 --> 00:14:25,198 Yeah. Yeah, probably. 310 00:14:27,951 --> 00:14:30,287 [gunfire over video game] 311 00:14:31,413 --> 00:14:33,039 [sighs] 312 00:14:34,207 --> 00:14:38,837 Belly's been the center of my world 313 00:14:38,920 --> 00:14:40,297 since I lost my mom. 314 00:14:42,966 --> 00:14:44,801 She's everything to me. 315 00:14:47,137 --> 00:14:48,763 And losing her feels like... 316 00:14:51,224 --> 00:14:55,770 It feels like I'm-I'm losing the best part of myself. 317 00:14:55,854 --> 00:14:58,189 That's beautiful, man. 318 00:15:02,277 --> 00:15:03,486 So fight for her. 319 00:15:03,570 --> 00:15:05,572 Stop saying you're sorry. 320 00:15:05,655 --> 00:15:06,823 Find a way to show her. 321 00:15:09,451 --> 00:15:10,869 You make it sound so easy. 322 00:15:10,952 --> 00:15:13,163 I don't think it's supposed to be. 323 00:15:13,246 --> 00:15:15,248 [pensive music playing] 324 00:15:16,833 --> 00:15:19,169 [Anika] I just can't believe it. 325 00:15:19,252 --> 00:15:22,505 He acts so devoted, but he is just as shady as the rest. 326 00:15:22,589 --> 00:15:24,007 I swear, if he comes to our dorm, 327 00:15:24,090 --> 00:15:26,926 -it's on sight. -Don't smile, please. 328 00:15:27,010 --> 00:15:28,595 That won't be a problem. 329 00:15:28,678 --> 00:15:31,181 Kind of sucks you're not leaving for Paris tomorrow. 330 00:15:32,307 --> 00:15:34,726 -Do you think I'm being too hard on him? -[Anika] Look. 331 00:15:34,809 --> 00:15:36,478 [sighs] 332 00:15:36,561 --> 00:15:39,481 If he really thought you were broken up, 333 00:15:39,564 --> 00:15:41,650 technically, it's not cheating. 334 00:15:41,733 --> 00:15:43,818 But to keep it a secret? 335 00:15:43,902 --> 00:15:45,862 That tells me he knew what he did was wrong 336 00:15:45,945 --> 00:15:48,698 and he chose to keep it from you. 337 00:15:48,782 --> 00:15:51,618 That's the part I can't get over. 338 00:15:51,701 --> 00:15:56,122 [Belly] What Anika didn't know was that I had a secret, too. 339 00:15:56,206 --> 00:15:57,707 [♪ Brenda Lee sings "Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree" over laptop] 340 00:15:57,791 --> 00:16:00,043 It was the day after Christmas, last year. 341 00:16:00,126 --> 00:16:02,921 My mom was at a writer's retreat, Steven was visiting friends, 342 00:16:03,004 --> 00:16:06,549 Jere was going skiing with his dad and Conrad. 343 00:16:06,633 --> 00:16:11,471 I figured, why be home alone when I could be at my favorite place in the world? 344 00:16:11,554 --> 00:16:13,473 So I drove up in Steven's car and went to Cousins. 345 00:16:13,556 --> 00:16:15,058 [clattering outside] 346 00:16:15,141 --> 00:16:16,726 [music stops] 347 00:16:17,644 --> 00:16:19,562 [doorknob rattling] 348 00:16:20,355 --> 00:16:22,023 [quietly] Ah, shit. 349 00:16:22,107 --> 00:16:23,983 Shit, shit, shit. 350 00:16:24,067 --> 00:16:26,361 Oh, my God. Okay, what would Kevin do? 351 00:16:26,444 --> 00:16:28,488 What would Kevin do? 352 00:16:28,571 --> 00:16:29,781 Okay... 353 00:16:29,864 --> 00:16:32,367 [suspenseful music playing] 354 00:16:43,253 --> 00:16:45,004 [Conrad] Steven, open up, it's me. 355 00:16:49,926 --> 00:16:51,219 Belly. 356 00:16:51,302 --> 00:16:53,471 [Anika] You okay? 357 00:16:53,555 --> 00:16:55,181 Yeah, yeah. Sorry. 358 00:16:55,265 --> 00:16:57,267 Just the flash got to me. 359 00:16:57,350 --> 00:16:59,352 -Okay. -Next. 360 00:17:10,613 --> 00:17:11,614 Belly... 361 00:17:11,698 --> 00:17:13,199 No. P-Please, don't leave. 362 00:17:13,283 --> 00:17:15,785 I-I made the biggest mistake of my life. 363 00:17:15,869 --> 00:17:17,912 Please, just talk to me. 364 00:17:17,996 --> 00:17:19,998 I'll tell you anything. 365 00:17:20,081 --> 00:17:23,126 I'll tell you any... I just don't want any more secrets between us. 366 00:17:24,711 --> 00:17:26,129 Okay. 367 00:17:29,299 --> 00:17:30,508 How did it happen? 368 00:17:31,843 --> 00:17:34,929 I-I was really sad. I was drunk. 369 00:17:36,514 --> 00:17:38,141 She was just there. 370 00:17:40,018 --> 00:17:41,394 How many times? 371 00:17:42,395 --> 00:17:44,397 [gentle music playing] 372 00:17:46,232 --> 00:17:47,442 Twice. 373 00:17:49,444 --> 00:17:52,697 -Jere, how could you do this to me? -Belly, please. 374 00:17:52,781 --> 00:17:56,201 I know I don't deserve you, but I love you more than anyone else in the world. 375 00:17:56,284 --> 00:17:58,578 And it kills me to see you hurting, and I would do anything to take it back. 376 00:17:58,661 --> 00:18:01,706 Just stop. You can't undo what you did. 377 00:18:01,790 --> 00:18:02,791 -[sniffles] -Belly... 378 00:18:02,874 --> 00:18:04,793 Please. I'm sorry. 379 00:18:04,876 --> 00:18:07,879 I'm so sor... I've never loved anyone but you. 380 00:18:07,962 --> 00:18:09,964 [Belly] I love him, too. 381 00:18:10,048 --> 00:18:14,719 And I want to forgive him, I just don't know how. 382 00:18:16,221 --> 00:18:19,557 You were supposed to be the one person who would never hurt me. 383 00:18:19,641 --> 00:18:21,935 [sniffles] 384 00:18:22,018 --> 00:18:24,187 And now you're the person who hurt me the most. 385 00:18:33,154 --> 00:18:34,656 [Eliot] Laurel. 386 00:18:34,739 --> 00:18:36,407 -Eliot. -Hey. 387 00:18:36,491 --> 00:18:38,535 [chuckles] Hey. Wow. 388 00:18:38,618 --> 00:18:39,994 Fancy books you got there. 389 00:18:40,078 --> 00:18:42,455 Oh, yeah, you know, well, I've already read the Moncrieff translation 390 00:18:42,539 --> 00:18:44,332 -twice, so... -As one does. 391 00:18:44,415 --> 00:18:45,583 Yeah. 392 00:18:45,667 --> 00:18:47,794 Yeah, I've decided it's the year that I finally read 393 00:18:47,877 --> 00:18:49,879 À la Recherche du Temps Perdu 394 00:18:49,963 --> 00:18:51,840 in the original French. 395 00:18:51,923 --> 00:18:54,759 Go for it. Live on the edge. 396 00:18:54,843 --> 00:18:59,806 You know, um, you and I, we could start our own book group if, uh, 397 00:18:59,889 --> 00:19:01,474 -If you're interested. -[John] Uh, unfortunately, 398 00:19:01,558 --> 00:19:04,269 Professor Park dropped out of French her first year of college. 399 00:19:04,352 --> 00:19:07,188 John, what are you doing here? 400 00:19:07,272 --> 00:19:11,234 Hoping to have a word with you, in private, Professor. 401 00:19:11,317 --> 00:19:12,819 -Uh... -[Laurel] Okay. 402 00:19:12,902 --> 00:19:14,946 See you later, Eliot? 403 00:19:15,029 --> 00:19:16,656 Uh, sure. Yeah, um... 404 00:19:16,739 --> 00:19:20,535 I'll be at the, uh, Flaubert symposium if you want to drop by. 405 00:19:20,618 --> 00:19:21,911 Okay. Sounds great. 406 00:19:21,995 --> 00:19:23,121 Okay. 407 00:19:25,748 --> 00:19:27,375 -What was that? -So, 408 00:19:27,458 --> 00:19:29,502 TAs are allowed to flirt with professors now? 409 00:19:29,586 --> 00:19:30,753 He's an adjunct. 410 00:19:30,837 --> 00:19:32,547 And maybe I was flirting back. 411 00:19:32,630 --> 00:19:33,965 Well, then I was doing him a favor. 412 00:19:34,048 --> 00:19:36,050 You would have eaten him alive in about five minutes. 413 00:19:36,134 --> 00:19:38,720 What's a history professor doing at a lit conference anyway? 414 00:19:38,803 --> 00:19:40,930 Researching potential crossover courses. 415 00:19:41,014 --> 00:19:44,142 Our provost is looking for ways to make history sexy again. 416 00:19:44,225 --> 00:19:47,687 [chuckles] And a lit conference is definitely the way to do that. 417 00:19:47,770 --> 00:19:49,606 -Shoot me dead. -[laughs] 418 00:19:49,689 --> 00:19:51,816 Please make your way into Ballroom B 419 00:19:51,900 --> 00:19:55,528 -for Tropes of Old English Epic Poetry. -Thank you. 420 00:19:58,281 --> 00:19:59,282 That sounds... 421 00:19:59,365 --> 00:20:01,993 -Boring as shit. -Yeah. 422 00:20:02,076 --> 00:20:03,494 Okay. 423 00:20:05,830 --> 00:20:07,665 [quietly] New plan. We find somewhere to drink this. 424 00:20:07,749 --> 00:20:09,709 -Steal a wine opener. -I can't do that. 425 00:20:09,792 --> 00:20:11,419 Pull your weight. 426 00:20:16,841 --> 00:20:18,801 [optimistic music playing] 427 00:20:24,390 --> 00:20:26,476 [indistinct announcement over P.A.] 428 00:20:26,559 --> 00:20:29,604 Okay. Welcome to day one. 429 00:20:29,687 --> 00:20:31,606 By the end of the summer, I expect 430 00:20:31,689 --> 00:20:33,358 half of you will still be here. 431 00:20:33,441 --> 00:20:35,485 Don't piss me off and we'll be fine. 432 00:20:37,612 --> 00:20:41,074 Okay, first patient. We have a 15-year-old boy, 433 00:20:41,157 --> 00:20:43,117 came in following a seizure. 434 00:20:43,201 --> 00:20:44,827 Any thoughts on what might be going on? 435 00:20:46,329 --> 00:20:48,164 I want to start off with our first years. 436 00:20:48,247 --> 00:20:49,290 What do you say? 437 00:20:49,374 --> 00:20:51,125 -Well, it could-- -Well-- 438 00:20:51,209 --> 00:20:54,629 Uh, could be puberty hormones. He's 15. 439 00:20:54,712 --> 00:20:57,215 -Uh, could also-- -He's also recovering from the flu, 440 00:20:57,298 --> 00:20:59,217 and fevers are the most common cause of seizures 441 00:20:59,300 --> 00:21:00,802 -at his age. -Very good. 442 00:21:00,885 --> 00:21:02,762 They also gave him nausea meds at the ER 443 00:21:02,845 --> 00:21:05,223 -and that does increase risk. -[Namazy] Good catch. 444 00:21:05,306 --> 00:21:08,142 Sometimes it's just the obvious answer. 445 00:21:08,226 --> 00:21:10,269 Absolutely. Thank you, Dr. Namazy. 446 00:21:10,353 --> 00:21:12,105 -I'll keep that in mind. -Okay. 447 00:21:12,188 --> 00:21:14,107 Next patient. 448 00:21:14,190 --> 00:21:16,901 Are you trying to make me the med student that gets cut on day one? 449 00:21:16,985 --> 00:21:18,361 I'm sure that's just a myth. 450 00:21:18,444 --> 00:21:21,030 It's fine, I'll take the L. Make it up on the next one. 451 00:21:21,114 --> 00:21:23,950 Look, I know that climbing up Namazy's ass is just a coping mechanism 452 00:21:24,033 --> 00:21:25,868 for your all-consuming love for your brother's girlfriend. 453 00:21:25,952 --> 00:21:29,580 -Why did I tell you that? -Because you were, like, yearning to. 454 00:21:29,664 --> 00:21:31,374 Whatever. 455 00:21:31,457 --> 00:21:36,004 Safest place to hang out at an academic conference is in the hotel gym. 456 00:21:36,087 --> 00:21:38,256 -Nice! -Give me your phone. 457 00:21:38,339 --> 00:21:40,550 -Mine's dead and I want to call the kids. -It's in my room. 458 00:21:40,633 --> 00:21:42,844 Also, the kids are fine. Also... 459 00:21:42,927 --> 00:21:46,806 -you're upside down. -Yes. Yes, I am. [laughs] 460 00:21:46,889 --> 00:21:48,224 [groans] 461 00:21:49,559 --> 00:21:50,768 What are you doing? 462 00:21:50,852 --> 00:21:53,730 Getting some things off my chest. 463 00:21:53,813 --> 00:21:55,690 -Oh, why did I ask? -[chuckles] 464 00:21:55,773 --> 00:21:58,651 You know, even though our marriage went to shit, 465 00:21:58,735 --> 00:22:02,238 we ended up being pretty good co-parents. 466 00:22:02,321 --> 00:22:03,489 Yes, we did. 467 00:22:03,573 --> 00:22:05,199 [♪ Fleetwood Mac plays "Never Going Back Again"] 468 00:22:05,283 --> 00:22:07,326 ♪ I've been down one time... 469 00:22:07,410 --> 00:22:09,328 Oh, my God! I just remembered. 470 00:22:09,412 --> 00:22:14,167 Belly called me today to say she's studying abroad next semester 471 00:22:14,250 --> 00:22:15,334 in Paris! 472 00:22:15,418 --> 00:22:17,503 Oh! Do you know 473 00:22:17,587 --> 00:22:19,547 how the Parisian police found Quasimodo? 474 00:22:20,631 --> 00:22:21,883 They followed a hunch. 475 00:22:22,967 --> 00:22:25,094 Please, never tell that joke again. 476 00:22:25,178 --> 00:22:26,596 You used to love my jokes. 477 00:22:26,679 --> 00:22:29,390 You used to laugh so hard, beer would come out your nose. 478 00:22:29,474 --> 00:22:31,726 In fact, wasn't that why you slept with me on our first date? 479 00:22:31,809 --> 00:22:33,811 I was fake laughing. 480 00:22:33,895 --> 00:22:36,814 And I planned to sleep with you all along. 481 00:22:37,899 --> 00:22:39,776 You did? 482 00:22:39,859 --> 00:22:41,152 [man] Mind if I work in? 483 00:22:41,235 --> 00:22:42,987 Uh, no, it's all yours. 484 00:22:43,071 --> 00:22:44,072 Uh, nope, we're done here. 485 00:22:44,155 --> 00:22:46,032 Appreciate it. 486 00:23:00,046 --> 00:23:01,089 Why are you here? 487 00:23:01,172 --> 00:23:03,591 What do you-- You haven't responded to my texts all day. 488 00:23:03,674 --> 00:23:05,718 It's... finals. 489 00:23:05,802 --> 00:23:06,969 It's a stressful time. 490 00:23:07,053 --> 00:23:08,971 Tay, are you okay? What's wrong? 491 00:23:10,056 --> 00:23:11,849 Uh, I'm... I'm hungry. 492 00:23:11,933 --> 00:23:15,061 Okay, then let's... let's just grab some food. 493 00:23:15,144 --> 00:23:16,437 Come on, get in. 494 00:23:19,732 --> 00:23:21,109 Okay. 495 00:23:36,707 --> 00:23:38,626 So, uh... 496 00:23:40,044 --> 00:23:42,505 ...uh, where do you want to go eat? 497 00:23:42,588 --> 00:23:44,340 I don't know. 498 00:23:47,301 --> 00:23:48,761 [sighs] 499 00:23:48,845 --> 00:23:50,429 What? 500 00:23:53,432 --> 00:23:54,433 Uh, 501 00:23:54,517 --> 00:23:56,018 I broke up with Mia. 502 00:24:02,066 --> 00:24:03,442 I hope you didn't do that for me. 503 00:24:03,526 --> 00:24:04,777 What? 504 00:24:07,196 --> 00:24:08,489 Well, uh... 505 00:24:08,573 --> 00:24:10,408 Sorry. 506 00:24:10,491 --> 00:24:13,786 I just, I thought you'd be happy that I just wanted to be with you. 507 00:24:13,870 --> 00:24:16,080 After-after the other night, sleeping over. 508 00:24:16,164 --> 00:24:18,040 Steven, I-- You're wrong, 509 00:24:18,124 --> 00:24:20,877 and I've told you before, I just want this to be casual. 510 00:24:20,960 --> 00:24:23,671 Okay. It's never casual with you and me, Taylor. You know that. 511 00:24:23,754 --> 00:24:26,257 -Oh, my God. -Let's just stop fucking around, you know, 512 00:24:26,340 --> 00:24:27,508 and do it for real so we don't keep hurting other people. 513 00:24:27,592 --> 00:24:28,968 They don't even know about us. 514 00:24:29,051 --> 00:24:30,553 That doesn't matter. It's still messed up. 515 00:24:30,636 --> 00:24:32,054 [sighs] 516 00:24:32,138 --> 00:24:33,973 Taylor, I want you and me to have a fresh start. 517 00:24:34,056 --> 00:24:36,934 You know, free and-and clear and clean. 518 00:24:37,018 --> 00:24:38,728 Steven, we've tried before. 519 00:24:38,811 --> 00:24:39,729 -We've tried a million times. -We were kids then. 520 00:24:39,812 --> 00:24:40,855 -We don't work. It never works. -We were-- 521 00:24:40,938 --> 00:24:42,398 Taylor, you are the only girl 522 00:24:42,481 --> 00:24:44,483 -I want to be with. -Oh, my God. What... 523 00:24:44,567 --> 00:24:46,235 -I'm telling you I-I think I love you. -Stop. 524 00:24:46,319 --> 00:24:48,613 Stop! No, don't-- I-I-I can't do this. 525 00:24:48,696 --> 00:24:49,989 -What are you talk-- -Can you just, 526 00:24:50,072 --> 00:24:51,365 -can you pull over and let me out... -Taylor, pl-- Taylor. 527 00:24:51,449 --> 00:24:52,783 -...of the fucking car? -No, Taylor, I need you to listen to me. 528 00:24:52,867 --> 00:24:54,202 -Please. That's all I'm asking for-- -Steven, please, 529 00:24:54,285 --> 00:24:55,369 just let me out of the car! 530 00:24:55,453 --> 00:24:56,495 We're in the middle of the road, Taylor. 531 00:24:56,579 --> 00:24:57,955 -I'm not doing that. -I don't care! I want to leave! 532 00:24:58,039 --> 00:25:01,626 Pull over and let me out of the fucking car! 533 00:25:01,709 --> 00:25:03,794 Fine! Fine! Fine! Fuck! 534 00:25:03,878 --> 00:25:06,464 Here, I'm pulling over, okay? 535 00:25:11,552 --> 00:25:13,137 Taylor, what the fuck? 536 00:25:14,180 --> 00:25:16,641 -[tires screeching] -[horn blaring] 537 00:25:17,683 --> 00:25:19,018 [cell phone buzzing] 538 00:25:27,693 --> 00:25:30,488 Taylor, I told you I don't want-- 539 00:25:31,739 --> 00:25:33,616 Oh, my God. 540 00:25:33,699 --> 00:25:34,700 [elevator bell dings] 541 00:25:35,993 --> 00:25:37,495 Taylor. 542 00:25:37,578 --> 00:25:39,163 [Belly crying] 543 00:25:40,206 --> 00:25:41,874 I'm really sorry. 544 00:25:41,958 --> 00:25:44,252 What happened? Were you with him? 545 00:25:44,335 --> 00:25:46,170 Are you hurt? 546 00:25:46,254 --> 00:25:47,463 What happened? 547 00:25:47,546 --> 00:25:49,548 I... I wasn't in the car. 548 00:25:49,632 --> 00:25:50,633 Okay. 549 00:25:50,716 --> 00:25:52,551 We were arguing... 550 00:25:53,803 --> 00:25:55,012 ...and I jumped out, 551 00:25:55,096 --> 00:25:56,764 and he was trying to come after me. 552 00:25:56,847 --> 00:25:58,516 Okay. 553 00:26:00,101 --> 00:26:01,269 What? 554 00:26:02,270 --> 00:26:04,105 [sobbing] 555 00:26:04,188 --> 00:26:05,481 What? 556 00:26:06,774 --> 00:26:07,817 Hey, what happened? 557 00:26:07,900 --> 00:26:09,235 It's just my fault. 558 00:26:09,318 --> 00:26:12,280 No, no, no, it's not your fault. 559 00:26:12,363 --> 00:26:13,614 Yes, it is. 560 00:26:13,698 --> 00:26:14,949 [doctor] You're with Steven Conklin? 561 00:26:15,032 --> 00:26:16,826 Yeah, yeah. 562 00:26:16,909 --> 00:26:17,910 Is he okay? 563 00:26:17,994 --> 00:26:19,245 Uh, Initial scans show a cracked rib 564 00:26:19,328 --> 00:26:21,747 and a cerebral contusion. 565 00:26:21,831 --> 00:26:23,374 Cerebral contusion? What? 566 00:26:23,457 --> 00:26:24,709 It's a bruise on the brain. 567 00:26:24,792 --> 00:26:27,003 We won't know how serious it is until the swelling goes down. 568 00:26:27,086 --> 00:26:29,588 Until then, we'll keep him sedated. 569 00:26:29,672 --> 00:26:31,757 So we just wait and see? Is that it? 570 00:26:31,841 --> 00:26:33,467 There's some paperwork to fill out, 571 00:26:33,551 --> 00:26:35,428 and someone will need to make decisions on his behalf. 572 00:26:35,511 --> 00:26:36,512 Can that be one of you? 573 00:26:36,595 --> 00:26:37,847 I'm his sister. 574 00:26:37,930 --> 00:26:39,640 Sister works. 575 00:26:39,724 --> 00:26:42,226 Okay. Um, what kind of decisions do I... 576 00:26:42,310 --> 00:26:44,228 Uh, it's... it's in the paperwork there. 577 00:26:46,314 --> 00:26:47,898 Uh-huh. 578 00:26:47,982 --> 00:26:50,151 I need to... I need to try my parents again. 579 00:26:50,234 --> 00:26:51,360 -I couldn't reach either of them. -Okay. 580 00:26:51,444 --> 00:26:52,945 I-I will try them. I will do it. 581 00:26:53,029 --> 00:26:54,530 [crying] Okay. 582 00:26:54,613 --> 00:26:56,824 I don't know Steven's fucking insurance, 583 00:26:56,907 --> 00:26:58,576 if he's on our parent's insurance or his job. 584 00:26:58,659 --> 00:27:01,078 How am I supposed to know his fucking blood type? 585 00:27:01,162 --> 00:27:05,583 I think... I think I remember Steven bragging about being a universal donor. 586 00:27:05,666 --> 00:27:07,668 Of course, he would brag about anything. 587 00:27:07,752 --> 00:27:09,670 [quiet, emotional music playing] 588 00:27:09,754 --> 00:27:12,340 Okay, uh, he-- O negative. 589 00:27:12,423 --> 00:27:14,091 He's O negative. 590 00:27:14,175 --> 00:27:15,176 Okay. 591 00:27:15,259 --> 00:27:17,428 -I'm gonna try your parents again. -Okay. 592 00:27:17,511 --> 00:27:19,180 I think I should, uh, 593 00:27:19,263 --> 00:27:21,223 let a few other people know, too. 594 00:27:22,308 --> 00:27:23,434 You want me to call Jere? 595 00:27:25,978 --> 00:27:29,482 I don't know. An hour ago, I wanted to throw up thinking about him, 596 00:27:29,565 --> 00:27:32,151 but now I just... 597 00:27:32,234 --> 00:27:34,445 -I just wish he was here. -Hey. 598 00:27:34,528 --> 00:27:38,115 He would know what to say to make me feel better. 599 00:27:38,199 --> 00:27:40,201 ♪ ♪ 600 00:27:41,619 --> 00:27:43,621 I'm gonna be your Jere today. 601 00:27:44,705 --> 00:27:45,873 Okay, we'll track down your parents. 602 00:27:45,956 --> 00:27:48,709 I will call Jere's dumb ass, too. Okay? 603 00:27:48,793 --> 00:27:51,087 Just... just fill out the paperwork 604 00:27:51,170 --> 00:27:52,922 and leave the rest to me. I'm gonna do it. 605 00:27:53,005 --> 00:27:54,298 Okay. Thank you. 606 00:27:54,382 --> 00:27:56,675 Um, can you call, uh, Conrad, too? 607 00:27:56,759 --> 00:27:57,802 'Cause he just might 608 00:27:57,885 --> 00:27:59,220 understand what all this means. 609 00:27:59,303 --> 00:28:02,014 Yeah, I got you. I'm gonna call Conrad. 610 00:28:06,602 --> 00:28:07,853 [Conrad] Well, I-I'll hop on the next flight. 611 00:28:07,937 --> 00:28:09,438 No, it's fine. Laurel and John 612 00:28:09,522 --> 00:28:11,273 -will probably be here by then. -Okay. 613 00:28:11,357 --> 00:28:14,860 Well, tell me what the doctor said, exactly. 614 00:28:14,944 --> 00:28:17,196 He's kind of a dick. He basically blew us off. 615 00:28:17,279 --> 00:28:18,280 We're-we're trying to get updates, 616 00:28:18,364 --> 00:28:19,698 -but-- -Well, maybe I can help. 617 00:28:19,782 --> 00:28:21,367 -Where's he admitted? -[sighs] 618 00:28:21,450 --> 00:28:24,245 We're at, um, Provid... Providence General, but 619 00:28:24,328 --> 00:28:26,622 -how? What are you... -I will figure it out. 620 00:28:28,124 --> 00:28:29,917 I just want to do something. 621 00:28:32,336 --> 00:28:33,921 Hey, how's Belly? 622 00:28:34,004 --> 00:28:35,047 She's fine. 623 00:28:35,131 --> 00:28:36,132 Yeah? Okay. 624 00:28:36,215 --> 00:28:37,216 -Yeah. -Yeah. 625 00:28:37,299 --> 00:28:39,343 -Great. -Okay. 626 00:28:39,427 --> 00:28:41,512 Well, just keep me updated, okay? 627 00:28:41,595 --> 00:28:44,306 -Yep, will do. -All right. 628 00:28:45,558 --> 00:28:46,684 Dr. Namazy? 629 00:28:46,767 --> 00:28:47,768 Excuse me. 630 00:28:47,852 --> 00:28:49,061 What's up? 631 00:28:49,145 --> 00:28:51,605 Uh, a friend of mine was in a car accident. 632 00:28:51,689 --> 00:28:53,482 Uh, very close friend. 633 00:28:53,566 --> 00:28:57,194 More like family, and he's at Providence General. 634 00:28:57,278 --> 00:29:00,197 Is there any chance you know anyone in neurology there? 635 00:29:00,281 --> 00:29:02,241 The head of neurology is a friend of a friend. 636 00:29:02,324 --> 00:29:03,826 Well, his name is Steven Conklin. 637 00:29:03,909 --> 00:29:07,746 Do you think there's any possible way that you could make a call? 638 00:29:09,707 --> 00:29:11,167 I'll see what I can do. 639 00:29:11,250 --> 00:29:12,877 Thank you. 640 00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:14,879 Do you think you need to take the day? 641 00:29:16,922 --> 00:29:18,340 Uh, no. 642 00:29:19,425 --> 00:29:20,801 I'm good. 643 00:29:20,885 --> 00:29:22,344 Okay. 644 00:29:37,151 --> 00:29:38,569 [sighs] 645 00:29:39,695 --> 00:29:41,697 [quiet, dramatic music playing] 646 00:29:46,076 --> 00:29:47,620 [sighs] 647 00:29:50,372 --> 00:29:52,082 Jere's in the lobby. 648 00:29:52,166 --> 00:29:54,126 Yeah, I know, babe. 649 00:29:54,210 --> 00:29:56,003 He just wants to be nearby if we need him. 650 00:29:56,086 --> 00:29:57,588 He's not gonna come try and talk to you, 651 00:29:57,671 --> 00:29:59,381 or anything. 652 00:29:59,465 --> 00:30:01,592 That's so sweet. 653 00:30:01,675 --> 00:30:03,010 Why does he have to be so sweet? 654 00:30:04,803 --> 00:30:06,347 Should I text him? 655 00:30:08,766 --> 00:30:10,809 [Dr. Kwaan] Isabel Conklin? 656 00:30:10,893 --> 00:30:12,353 Yeah. 657 00:30:12,436 --> 00:30:14,605 I'm Dr. Jun Kwaan. I head up the neurology team. 658 00:30:14,688 --> 00:30:16,232 I'm taking over your brother's case. 659 00:30:16,315 --> 00:30:17,650 Does that mean he's gotten worse? 660 00:30:17,733 --> 00:30:20,486 No, it means someone well-connected is looking out for you. 661 00:30:22,279 --> 00:30:24,865 I got a call from a colleague at Stanford. 662 00:30:24,949 --> 00:30:26,617 Steven is sedated and sleeping. 663 00:30:26,700 --> 00:30:28,786 He's stable, and I've ordered a CT scan. 664 00:30:28,869 --> 00:30:30,246 Have you seen him yet? 665 00:30:31,330 --> 00:30:32,456 Well, let's get you back there. 666 00:30:32,540 --> 00:30:35,209 We allow two visitors, immediate family only, 667 00:30:35,292 --> 00:30:37,169 so I'll presume this is 668 00:30:37,253 --> 00:30:39,755 Steven's other sister. Follow me. 669 00:30:46,679 --> 00:30:48,097 Any news on your friend? 670 00:30:48,180 --> 00:30:50,558 No. 671 00:30:50,641 --> 00:30:52,434 Are you sure you shouldn't just go out there? 672 00:30:52,518 --> 00:30:54,228 I don't know even know what I would do if I did. 673 00:30:54,311 --> 00:30:55,437 It's not like I'm a doctor yet. 674 00:30:55,521 --> 00:30:56,564 [beep] 675 00:30:56,647 --> 00:30:59,191 Plus, we've barely talked over the last few years. 676 00:31:00,276 --> 00:31:02,194 No cell phones. 677 00:31:02,278 --> 00:31:03,821 Yeah. 678 00:31:03,904 --> 00:31:05,614 How did everything go with those blood draws? 679 00:31:05,698 --> 00:31:07,324 -Good. -Great. 680 00:31:11,787 --> 00:31:13,747 This is mislabeled. 681 00:31:13,831 --> 00:31:16,458 Oh, that's, uh, that's mine. My mistake. 682 00:31:16,542 --> 00:31:18,752 A mistake that put your patient at risk. 683 00:31:18,836 --> 00:31:20,963 -I'll fix it right now. -You should've gone home 684 00:31:21,046 --> 00:31:22,047 when I gave you the chance. 685 00:31:22,131 --> 00:31:23,799 -It won't happen again. -No, it won't. 686 00:31:23,882 --> 00:31:26,594 You're done here. You're not ready for this. 687 00:31:27,970 --> 00:31:30,264 You're firing me for one mistake? 688 00:31:30,347 --> 00:31:31,974 Dr. Namazy, please, I didn't-- 689 00:31:32,057 --> 00:31:33,684 You may see this as one mistake, 690 00:31:33,767 --> 00:31:36,437 but this is about you not knowing your limits, 691 00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:38,314 which makes you a walking liability. 692 00:31:38,397 --> 00:31:39,356 My liability. 693 00:31:39,440 --> 00:31:40,733 Dr. Namazy, I-- 694 00:31:40,816 --> 00:31:42,109 No. 695 00:31:42,192 --> 00:31:44,403 You can always apply again next year. 696 00:31:46,697 --> 00:31:48,616 [quiet, emotional music playing] 697 00:31:49,867 --> 00:31:51,869 [distant siren wailing] 698 00:32:07,343 --> 00:32:10,220 Steven, can I tell you a secret? 699 00:32:10,304 --> 00:32:12,973 I've never loved anyone like I love you. 700 00:32:16,685 --> 00:32:18,604 Do you know how scary that is? 701 00:32:23,275 --> 00:32:25,611 I know I act like I don't care, 702 00:32:25,694 --> 00:32:29,114 but I just-- I care so, so much. 703 00:32:30,157 --> 00:32:32,159 ♪ ♪ 704 00:32:33,661 --> 00:32:35,579 You know, I'm always afraid that it's just a matter of time 705 00:32:35,663 --> 00:32:38,499 before you come to me and you tell me that I'm not worth it. 706 00:32:38,582 --> 00:32:40,668 [laughs] You're just gonna be like, 707 00:32:40,751 --> 00:32:42,711 "Actually, you're not worth it." 708 00:32:42,795 --> 00:32:43,796 [laughs] 709 00:32:46,465 --> 00:32:48,676 [crying] 710 00:32:52,805 --> 00:32:54,515 [sniffles] 711 00:32:54,598 --> 00:32:57,893 So I figured if I keep pushing you away 712 00:32:57,976 --> 00:32:59,937 and pretend like you don't mean anything to me, 713 00:33:00,020 --> 00:33:01,814 then you can't hurt me. 714 00:33:03,440 --> 00:33:06,443 And I don't know how to stop doing that. 715 00:33:11,740 --> 00:33:13,701 [crying] 716 00:33:17,037 --> 00:33:19,289 You know, the first time we got together, 717 00:33:19,373 --> 00:33:21,834 you remember you told me that you were like-- 718 00:33:21,917 --> 00:33:24,795 you told me that you wouldn't give up on us? 719 00:33:26,922 --> 00:33:31,009 You have no idea how badly I wanted to believe you. 720 00:33:31,093 --> 00:33:32,970 ♪ ♪ 721 00:33:39,601 --> 00:33:40,853 [sniffles] 722 00:33:46,817 --> 00:33:50,279 [Dr. Kwann] I have good news. The CT scan is clear. 723 00:33:50,362 --> 00:33:53,282 The CT scan is clear? What does that mean? 724 00:33:53,365 --> 00:33:55,159 The swelling on Steven's brain has gone down 725 00:33:55,242 --> 00:33:57,828 and we can start weaning him off the sedatives. 726 00:33:57,911 --> 00:33:59,747 It'll be a while until he wakes up. 727 00:33:59,830 --> 00:34:01,081 We'll let you know when he's ready for visitors. 728 00:34:01,165 --> 00:34:02,833 -Thank you. -[Dr. Kwaan] Mm-hmm. 729 00:34:05,127 --> 00:34:08,130 It's okay. He's going to be okay. 730 00:34:08,213 --> 00:34:09,798 [Taylor] I've just been scared. 731 00:34:12,426 --> 00:34:13,844 [sniffles] 732 00:34:17,264 --> 00:34:18,932 I'm really sorry to dump this on you. 733 00:34:19,016 --> 00:34:21,351 I know that-- I know you don't think that Steven and I should get back together. 734 00:34:21,435 --> 00:34:25,105 -No, I never should've judged you-- -You were right. 735 00:34:25,189 --> 00:34:28,192 I've been all over the place. [sobs] 736 00:34:28,275 --> 00:34:31,278 Like, not wanting to let go of Steven, but still keeping Davis around 737 00:34:31,361 --> 00:34:34,490 as this, like, emotional buffer, it's shitty, 738 00:34:34,573 --> 00:34:36,492 and selfish. 739 00:34:36,575 --> 00:34:41,079 [sniffles] And Steven was trying to do the right thing and I just freaked. 740 00:34:41,163 --> 00:34:43,791 But all this, it's like... 741 00:34:47,461 --> 00:34:49,004 [sobbing] I think-- 742 00:34:49,087 --> 00:34:52,674 I think that it made me realize that even though I'm so scared-- 743 00:34:52,758 --> 00:34:55,260 I'm so scared to lose Steven again, 744 00:34:55,344 --> 00:34:58,430 I'm-- I'm more scared not to try. 745 00:35:01,934 --> 00:35:04,812 I'm gonna-- I'm gonna break up with Davis. 746 00:35:07,064 --> 00:35:09,817 Whatever you want to do, I support you. 747 00:35:09,900 --> 00:35:12,277 [sobbing] 748 00:35:16,865 --> 00:35:19,034 [sobs, chuckles] 749 00:35:19,117 --> 00:35:20,869 All right, how rough do I look right now? 750 00:35:20,953 --> 00:35:22,329 Do I look hot? 751 00:35:22,412 --> 00:35:24,665 I'm not gonna lie to you. 752 00:35:24,748 --> 00:35:28,752 -I look that bad? -[laughter] 753 00:35:28,836 --> 00:35:31,588 Just go back to the house, eat something. 754 00:35:31,672 --> 00:35:33,924 -Shower. -[laughter] 755 00:35:34,007 --> 00:35:35,551 Well, you heard the doctor. 756 00:35:35,634 --> 00:35:37,511 He's not gonna be up for a little while anyway. 757 00:35:37,594 --> 00:35:39,429 Thanks, babe. 758 00:35:41,557 --> 00:35:44,142 -[Belly sighs] -[Taylor] Hey... 759 00:35:47,354 --> 00:35:50,399 If you want to get back with Jeremiah, just do it. 760 00:35:50,482 --> 00:35:52,276 I never said that I-- 761 00:35:52,359 --> 00:35:55,195 And make him beg, obviously, but... 762 00:35:55,279 --> 00:35:58,365 don't just throw away everything you guys have had for the past four years. 763 00:36:01,243 --> 00:36:04,496 Like, not if it's still what you want. 764 00:36:04,580 --> 00:36:07,583 [inhales] 765 00:36:09,042 --> 00:36:10,627 Okay. 766 00:36:19,386 --> 00:36:21,054 Laur. 767 00:36:21,138 --> 00:36:23,974 -[grunts] -[chuckles] We got to get up. 768 00:36:26,184 --> 00:36:28,437 -Shut up. -[chuckles] 769 00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:30,647 Still not a morning person, huh? 770 00:36:30,731 --> 00:36:33,191 [groans] 771 00:36:33,275 --> 00:36:36,111 Oh, my eyes are crispy. 772 00:36:36,194 --> 00:36:38,280 Can you bring me some of your contact solution? 773 00:36:38,363 --> 00:36:40,032 Yeah. 774 00:36:41,450 --> 00:36:42,993 [sighs] 775 00:36:46,914 --> 00:36:49,333 [sighs] 776 00:36:49,416 --> 00:36:51,335 [gasps] Oh, my God. 777 00:36:51,418 --> 00:36:52,920 [stammers] 778 00:36:53,003 --> 00:36:55,505 -John, get in here. -[line ringing] 779 00:36:55,589 --> 00:36:58,008 [Belly] Oh, my God, Mom, where were you? 780 00:36:58,091 --> 00:36:59,635 -Belly, I just got your messages. -What is it? 781 00:36:59,718 --> 00:37:02,012 [Laurel] What's going on? Uh, Steven was in an accident? 782 00:37:02,095 --> 00:37:03,221 Is he okay? 783 00:37:03,305 --> 00:37:05,849 He's gonna be fine. [sniffles] 784 00:37:05,933 --> 00:37:08,727 I've been trying to keep it together, but I'm-- 785 00:37:08,810 --> 00:37:10,896 I was so scared. 786 00:37:10,979 --> 00:37:13,148 Oh... Shut up. 787 00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:15,776 I can't imagine how terrified you must've been. 788 00:37:15,859 --> 00:37:18,278 I'm s-so, so sorry. 789 00:37:18,362 --> 00:37:20,530 Have you been there all alone? 790 00:37:20,614 --> 00:37:22,282 [Belly] No, no. Um... 791 00:37:22,366 --> 00:37:26,787 Taylor's here and she's been amazing, and... 792 00:37:26,870 --> 00:37:30,290 And Jere's here. He stayed all night. 793 00:37:30,374 --> 00:37:32,292 Mom, things have been so crazy. 794 00:37:32,376 --> 00:37:36,672 Listen, sweetheart, I'll be there as soon as I can, and, um... 795 00:37:36,755 --> 00:37:39,049 I-I'll track down your dad and let him know. 796 00:37:40,092 --> 00:37:41,843 I love you so much, Belly. 797 00:37:41,927 --> 00:37:44,805 [sobbing] I love you, Mommy. 798 00:37:44,888 --> 00:37:47,182 S-Steven was in a car accident? 799 00:37:47,265 --> 00:37:48,433 -He's okay. -Okay. 800 00:37:48,517 --> 00:37:50,519 -He's gonna be fine. -Fuck. 801 00:37:50,602 --> 00:37:52,229 But Belly couldn't reach either of us last night. 802 00:37:52,312 --> 00:37:55,941 -Oh, it's okay. It's-- -Just meet me in the lobby in five. 803 00:37:56,024 --> 00:37:57,901 [sobbing] 804 00:38:00,487 --> 00:38:01,822 [phone buzzing] 805 00:38:15,544 --> 00:38:19,381 [Belly] We hadn't seen each other much over the years, 806 00:38:19,464 --> 00:38:20,882 and we hadn't been alone together since... 807 00:38:20,966 --> 00:38:22,592 Hey. 808 00:38:22,676 --> 00:38:23,927 ...that day at the motel. 809 00:38:24,011 --> 00:38:26,138 -Hey. [chuckles] -Hey. 810 00:38:26,221 --> 00:38:28,181 [heartfelt music playing] 811 00:38:32,644 --> 00:38:34,187 Why are you holding a poker? 812 00:38:35,397 --> 00:38:38,692 Oh, um, I thought you were a burglar. 813 00:38:38,775 --> 00:38:40,610 Of course you did. 814 00:38:44,698 --> 00:38:46,825 Where's Jere? 815 00:38:46,908 --> 00:38:49,327 He and your dad are on their way to Chamonix. 816 00:38:50,662 --> 00:38:51,663 Right. 817 00:38:53,290 --> 00:38:55,083 Aren't you supposed to be meeting them there? 818 00:38:55,167 --> 00:38:57,753 Yeah, my flight got delayed because of the weather. 819 00:38:57,836 --> 00:39:00,047 They were trying to rebook me for the 28th. 820 00:39:00,130 --> 00:39:01,214 Mm. 821 00:39:01,298 --> 00:39:02,841 What are you doing here? 822 00:39:03,884 --> 00:39:07,262 My mom is on a retreat in the mountains and Steven's in New York. 823 00:39:07,345 --> 00:39:08,930 I was all alone at home. 824 00:39:09,014 --> 00:39:10,766 So... 825 00:39:15,353 --> 00:39:17,439 [Belly sighs] 826 00:39:17,522 --> 00:39:19,608 [poker rattles quietly] 827 00:39:20,942 --> 00:39:22,402 [sighs] 828 00:39:33,580 --> 00:39:35,373 You have chocolate all over your face. 829 00:39:35,457 --> 00:39:36,792 No, I don't. 830 00:39:36,875 --> 00:39:39,211 What did you do? You just stick your whole head in to save time? 831 00:39:39,294 --> 00:39:40,253 Shut it. 832 00:39:41,463 --> 00:39:43,256 Leave me alone. 833 00:39:43,340 --> 00:39:44,508 You cold? I could start a fire. 834 00:39:50,180 --> 00:39:52,766 Actually, I think it's maybe a little late for a fire. 835 00:39:52,849 --> 00:39:54,684 Think I'm just gonna crash. 836 00:39:56,895 --> 00:39:58,313 Merry Christmas, Belly. 837 00:39:59,523 --> 00:40:00,607 It's really good to see you. 838 00:40:00,690 --> 00:40:02,609 [tender music playing] 839 00:40:05,654 --> 00:40:07,447 You, too. 840 00:40:14,871 --> 00:40:18,500 [Belly] The next morning, right when I woke up, 841 00:40:18,583 --> 00:40:21,878 I had this funny feeling that he had already left. 842 00:40:23,380 --> 00:40:24,631 Ow. [grunts] 843 00:40:24,714 --> 00:40:26,258 Ow. 844 00:40:28,426 --> 00:40:30,095 [grunts] 845 00:40:32,347 --> 00:40:33,306 [Conrad] You okay? 846 00:40:33,390 --> 00:40:36,768 Oh, no. Leave me alone. 847 00:40:36,852 --> 00:40:38,353 Are you hurt? Can you move? 848 00:40:39,479 --> 00:40:40,856 I thought you were gone. 849 00:40:40,939 --> 00:40:42,399 Nope. 850 00:40:42,482 --> 00:40:44,442 -Still here. -[Belly groans] 851 00:40:44,526 --> 00:40:45,652 Ow. 852 00:40:46,820 --> 00:40:48,238 Let me help you up. 853 00:40:48,321 --> 00:40:49,948 No, no, no. Ow. Just... 854 00:40:50,031 --> 00:40:52,200 Just... give me a minute. 855 00:40:52,284 --> 00:40:53,535 Okay. 856 00:40:53,618 --> 00:40:55,787 [Belly grunts, sighs] 857 00:41:02,043 --> 00:41:05,130 How bad does it hurt on a scale from one to ten? 858 00:41:05,213 --> 00:41:06,673 Eleven. 859 00:41:06,756 --> 00:41:08,383 You're such a baby when it comes to pain. 860 00:41:08,466 --> 00:41:10,343 No, I'm not. 861 00:41:11,511 --> 00:41:14,014 I mean, that fall you took was no joke. 862 00:41:15,348 --> 00:41:17,100 Seriously, it was like... 863 00:41:17,184 --> 00:41:20,687 when animals slip and fall in cartoons on banana peels. 864 00:41:20,770 --> 00:41:23,398 -[whistles] -Are you calling me an animal? 865 00:41:24,441 --> 00:41:27,402 -[laughter] -Ow. 866 00:41:27,485 --> 00:41:29,070 Ow. 867 00:41:30,197 --> 00:41:32,908 I'm gonna pick you up and I'm gonna carry you to the couch. 868 00:41:32,991 --> 00:41:36,953 No, no, no, just... J-Just-- No, just, I'm too heavy for you. 869 00:41:37,037 --> 00:41:39,122 -Just leave me here. -Okay. 870 00:41:39,206 --> 00:41:40,749 I know I can't bench press my body weight like Jere, 871 00:41:40,832 --> 00:41:42,918 but I can pick you up, Belly. 872 00:41:44,127 --> 00:41:45,170 Ready? 873 00:41:45,253 --> 00:41:46,296 [groaning] 874 00:41:46,379 --> 00:41:47,714 [grunts] Okay, come on. 875 00:41:47,797 --> 00:41:50,008 Okay. Ow. 876 00:41:50,091 --> 00:41:51,760 [Conrad] You're okay. 877 00:41:51,843 --> 00:41:54,888 -Ready? [grunts] -[Belly moans] Ow. 878 00:41:56,681 --> 00:41:58,975 Watch your legs. 879 00:41:59,059 --> 00:42:00,769 [Belly inhales] 880 00:42:00,852 --> 00:42:02,312 Ow. 881 00:42:02,395 --> 00:42:04,940 -You're okay. -Yeah. Ow. 882 00:42:07,150 --> 00:42:09,611 [grunts, sighs] 883 00:42:09,694 --> 00:42:12,113 That's when I had this sudden thought. 884 00:42:12,197 --> 00:42:15,951 A part of me will always love you. 885 00:42:16,034 --> 00:42:17,994 [♪ Sufjan Stevens sings "Mystery of Love"] 886 00:42:18,078 --> 00:42:20,080 ♪ ♪ 887 00:42:26,753 --> 00:42:30,674 We spent the day together, but not "together." 888 00:42:31,883 --> 00:42:34,761 ♪ Oh, to see without my eyes... 889 00:42:34,844 --> 00:42:36,346 [It's a Wonderful Life playing indistinctly over laptop] 890 00:42:36,429 --> 00:42:40,684 ♪ The first time that you kissed me ♪ 891 00:42:40,767 --> 00:42:42,936 ♪ Boundless by the time I cried... 892 00:42:43,019 --> 00:42:47,565 "Entertainingly expressive"? H, blank, blank, blank, Y? 893 00:42:47,649 --> 00:42:49,276 Hmm. 894 00:42:50,527 --> 00:42:52,320 "Hammy." 895 00:42:52,404 --> 00:42:55,448 -"Hammy." -Mm. 896 00:42:55,532 --> 00:42:58,493 ♪ Fumbling by Rogue River ♪ 897 00:42:58,576 --> 00:43:01,496 ♪ Feel my feet above the ground... 898 00:43:01,579 --> 00:43:03,248 [Conrad sighs] 899 00:43:03,331 --> 00:43:06,334 She was better off with Laszlo. 900 00:43:06,418 --> 00:43:09,879 You're insane. Rick and Ilsa are obviously meant for each other. 901 00:43:09,963 --> 00:43:12,215 Their little love story is nothing 902 00:43:12,299 --> 00:43:14,634 compared to the work that Laszlo was doing for the Resistance. 903 00:43:14,718 --> 00:43:16,761 Oh, my God. [laughs] What? 904 00:43:16,845 --> 00:43:20,140 I'm gonna get more firewood. 905 00:43:20,223 --> 00:43:22,309 You're way too young to be this cynical. 906 00:43:22,392 --> 00:43:23,977 [Conrad] Yeah, yeah. 907 00:43:25,437 --> 00:43:27,439 [phone buzzing] 908 00:43:30,984 --> 00:43:32,444 -[Jeremiah] Belly. Belly. -Hey. 909 00:43:32,527 --> 00:43:34,446 Hey, sorry, my reception out here is terrible. 910 00:43:34,529 --> 00:43:36,990 I'm on a mountain freezing my balls off. What are you up to? 911 00:43:37,073 --> 00:43:38,908 I'm actually in Cousins. 912 00:43:38,992 --> 00:43:41,828 I-I got super lonely, so I-I drove up. 913 00:43:41,911 --> 00:43:44,247 Oh, nice. Uh, did you bring Taylor? 914 00:43:44,331 --> 00:43:47,000 No, I came by myself. 915 00:43:47,083 --> 00:43:48,168 Well, I wish you were here with me. 916 00:43:48,251 --> 00:43:50,587 Conrad's flight got messed up because of the weather, 917 00:43:50,670 --> 00:43:52,172 so I'm stuck here with my dad. 918 00:43:52,255 --> 00:43:54,966 -Yeah, he, uh... -What? 919 00:43:55,050 --> 00:43:56,926 -[static crackling] -Hello? 920 00:43:57,010 --> 00:43:57,969 [breaking up] Belly? Can you hear me? 921 00:43:58,053 --> 00:44:00,680 -Jere, I... -I can't hear what you're saying. 922 00:44:00,764 --> 00:44:02,682 Uh, never mind. 923 00:44:02,766 --> 00:44:04,184 What? 924 00:44:04,267 --> 00:44:05,977 Wait, um, I'll try you tomorrow. 925 00:44:06,061 --> 00:44:08,897 -Okay. Bye, Bells. -Okay. Okay, love you. 926 00:44:14,778 --> 00:44:16,946 Hey, I... I would've told Jere that you're here, too, 927 00:44:17,030 --> 00:44:19,366 -it's just-- -Don't worry about it. 928 00:44:19,449 --> 00:44:22,160 [Belly] I never told Jeremiah that Conrad was with me at Cousins. 929 00:44:22,243 --> 00:44:23,787 Because there was nothing to tell. 930 00:44:23,870 --> 00:44:26,414 Nothing happened with Conrad. 931 00:44:26,498 --> 00:44:28,875 Nothing was ever going to happen. 932 00:44:28,958 --> 00:44:32,045 -[door closes] -♪ Now I'm prone to misery ♪ 933 00:44:32,128 --> 00:44:38,176 ♪ The birthmark on your shoulder reminds me... 934 00:44:38,259 --> 00:44:41,721 The next morning, Conrad was gone. 935 00:44:44,182 --> 00:44:47,060 He left just like I thought he would. 936 00:44:49,396 --> 00:44:53,400 No goodbye, just gone like a ghost. 937 00:44:53,483 --> 00:44:55,485 ♪ ♪ 938 00:45:02,659 --> 00:45:04,327 ♪ How much sorrow can I take? ♪ 939 00:45:04,411 --> 00:45:07,288 Conrad Fisher, the Ghost of Christmas Past. 940 00:45:07,372 --> 00:45:11,376 ♪ Blackbird on my shoulder ♪ 941 00:45:11,459 --> 00:45:15,964 ♪ And what difference does it make ♪ 942 00:45:16,047 --> 00:45:17,799 ♪ when this love ♪ 943 00:45:17,882 --> 00:45:20,593 ♪ is over? ♪ 944 00:45:20,677 --> 00:45:23,721 ♪ Shall I sleep within your bed? ♪ 945 00:45:25,223 --> 00:45:29,185 ♪ River of unhappiness ♪ 946 00:45:29,269 --> 00:45:31,479 ♪ Hold your hands upon ♪ 947 00:45:31,563 --> 00:45:33,773 ♪ my head ♪ 948 00:45:33,857 --> 00:45:35,900 ♪ till I breathe ♪ 949 00:45:35,984 --> 00:45:38,153 ♪ my last breath ♪ 950 00:45:38,236 --> 00:45:39,779 ♪ Oh, oh ♪ 951 00:45:39,863 --> 00:45:42,824 ♪ Woe is me ♪ 952 00:45:42,907 --> 00:45:46,369 ♪ The last time that you touched me ♪ 953 00:45:47,412 --> 00:45:49,122 ♪ Oh, will wonders ♪ 954 00:45:49,205 --> 00:45:51,749 ♪ ever cease? ♪ 955 00:45:51,833 --> 00:45:53,084 ♪ Blessed be ♪ 956 00:45:53,168 --> 00:45:56,045 ♪ the mystery ♪ 957 00:45:56,129 --> 00:45:58,131 ♪ of love ♪♪ 958 00:45:59,132 --> 00:46:00,675 [inhales sharply] 959 00:46:05,346 --> 00:46:06,931 [music playing quietly over headphones] 960 00:46:07,015 --> 00:46:08,641 [phone buzzing] 961 00:46:14,105 --> 00:46:16,357 [knocking on door] 962 00:46:16,441 --> 00:46:18,067 Come in. 963 00:46:24,032 --> 00:46:25,617 -[Agnes] Hey-- -Can you take your shoes off? 964 00:46:25,700 --> 00:46:27,660 I'm gonna be here for, like, a sec. 965 00:46:27,744 --> 00:46:29,454 I was just on my way in and-- 966 00:46:29,537 --> 00:46:31,789 Came to rub it my face that I got fired on day one? 967 00:46:31,873 --> 00:46:34,292 No, jerk, I wanted to see how your friend's doing. 968 00:46:34,375 --> 00:46:36,586 Yeah, he's gonna be okay. Thanks. 969 00:46:36,669 --> 00:46:38,213 Good. 970 00:46:38,296 --> 00:46:40,924 -Okay, this is for you. -Thank you. 971 00:46:41,007 --> 00:46:45,303 You're welcome. Um... 972 00:46:45,386 --> 00:46:49,766 So, look, um, about yesterday. 973 00:46:49,849 --> 00:46:52,644 -I mean, we all know Namazy's a hard-ass-- -I'm fine. 974 00:46:53,728 --> 00:46:56,940 C-Cool. Uh, that's, uh... 975 00:46:57,023 --> 00:47:00,652 Actually, I was gonna say, "but she kind of has a point." 976 00:47:01,694 --> 00:47:02,737 Oh. 977 00:47:02,820 --> 00:47:05,448 I mean, look, you know I always tell you the truth, right? 978 00:47:05,532 --> 00:47:09,452 And the truth is that you're smart as hell, obviously, 979 00:47:09,536 --> 00:47:11,913 but you need to pay more attention to your feelings. 980 00:47:11,996 --> 00:47:13,331 Excuse me? 981 00:47:13,414 --> 00:47:16,584 Well, you can deny your emotions all you want, 982 00:47:16,668 --> 00:47:18,294 they're not going anywhere. 983 00:47:19,337 --> 00:47:22,799 And as long as you're afraid to face them, 984 00:47:22,882 --> 00:47:25,552 they'll run you and not the other way around. 985 00:47:29,931 --> 00:47:32,433 "Hello" would've been nice. 986 00:47:32,517 --> 00:47:33,726 Hello. 987 00:47:34,727 --> 00:47:35,979 [knocking on door] 988 00:47:36,062 --> 00:47:38,189 Steven? You ready for a visitor? 989 00:47:38,273 --> 00:47:39,399 -Hi. -Oh, you're awake. 990 00:47:39,482 --> 00:47:41,025 Oh, hey... ow. 991 00:47:41,109 --> 00:47:43,695 -Ow. Ow. Easy. -Careful of his ribs. 992 00:47:43,778 --> 00:47:45,697 No, no, break another one, why don't you? 993 00:47:45,780 --> 00:47:48,074 -It's barely cracked, you baby. -Ow. 994 00:47:48,157 --> 00:47:50,952 How's, uh, how's Mom and Dad? 995 00:47:51,035 --> 00:47:52,412 -Where are they? -They're on their way. 996 00:47:52,495 --> 00:47:54,497 [Taylor] Hey. 997 00:47:57,959 --> 00:47:59,836 Uh, hi. 998 00:47:59,919 --> 00:48:01,963 I'm gonna give you two a minute. 999 00:48:02,046 --> 00:48:04,257 I'm glad you're alive. 1000 00:48:08,303 --> 00:48:10,513 You scared the shit out of everyone. 1001 00:48:10,597 --> 00:48:12,473 You know that? Belly was worried to death. 1002 00:48:12,557 --> 00:48:15,143 I knew you were just being a drama queen, obviously. 1003 00:48:15,226 --> 00:48:17,895 I was in a coma, so... 1004 00:48:17,979 --> 00:48:21,733 Yeah, but medically induced. 1005 00:48:21,816 --> 00:48:23,234 Uh-huh. 1006 00:48:26,154 --> 00:48:27,614 Steven, I'm joking. 1007 00:48:27,697 --> 00:48:29,616 I was worried about you, too, obviously. 1008 00:48:29,699 --> 00:48:31,159 Yeah, yeah, you know, I've been thinking a lot 1009 00:48:31,242 --> 00:48:33,620 about what you said since I woke up. 1010 00:48:33,703 --> 00:48:34,704 You know, before the crash... 1011 00:48:34,787 --> 00:48:36,789 -Me, too. -...and you were right. 1012 00:48:38,791 --> 00:48:41,169 You and me, we don't work. 1013 00:48:42,754 --> 00:48:44,172 What? 1014 00:48:47,383 --> 00:48:51,137 If we, uh, never ran into each other that day in New York, 1015 00:48:51,220 --> 00:48:53,389 we would've just gone about our lives and-and been fine, 1016 00:48:53,473 --> 00:48:55,808 so let's just pretend we didn't. 1017 00:49:00,188 --> 00:49:03,816 I've never been able to think clearly when it comes to you, Tay. 1018 00:49:06,653 --> 00:49:08,071 I couldn't let you go. 1019 00:49:09,155 --> 00:49:12,158 You know I love a challenge, but... 1020 00:49:15,078 --> 00:49:17,413 ...this is a wake-up call. 1021 00:49:17,497 --> 00:49:19,666 You were right. 1022 00:49:19,749 --> 00:49:22,377 You and me, we don't work. 1023 00:49:22,460 --> 00:49:25,755 -Hmm. -[somber music playing] 1024 00:49:25,838 --> 00:49:28,549 Good, then we're on the same page. 1025 00:49:28,633 --> 00:49:31,427 -Yeah, yeah. Finally. -I'm gonna go find Belly. 1026 00:49:38,726 --> 00:49:39,936 [exhales] 1027 00:49:42,021 --> 00:49:44,273 [Belly] First loves are important. 1028 00:49:44,357 --> 00:49:45,900 Conrad was mine. 1029 00:49:45,983 --> 00:49:49,320 For the rest of my life, I would think of him fondly, 1030 00:49:49,404 --> 00:49:53,366 the way you do your first pet, the first car you drove. 1031 00:49:55,159 --> 00:49:58,204 But they're not as important as lasts. 1032 00:50:05,837 --> 00:50:07,255 [inhales sharply] 1033 00:50:09,549 --> 00:50:12,135 Steven's gonna be okay. 1034 00:50:12,218 --> 00:50:14,053 Oh, thank God. 1035 00:50:18,015 --> 00:50:21,185 Do you want to get some air? 1036 00:50:22,937 --> 00:50:24,981 Yeah. Yeah, I would love that. 1037 00:50:29,736 --> 00:50:33,781 [Belly] I was... I am so mad at you. 1038 00:50:33,865 --> 00:50:36,075 And you have every right to be. 1039 00:50:36,159 --> 00:50:39,370 I'm sorry for what I did to you, and I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. 1040 00:50:39,454 --> 00:50:42,498 I'm sorry you found out the worst way possible. 1041 00:50:42,582 --> 00:50:45,626 I know it's-it's gonna take a lot of work for you 1042 00:50:45,710 --> 00:50:47,712 to even begin to trust me again, but I am willing 1043 00:50:47,795 --> 00:50:50,798 to do whatever it takes if you let me. 1044 00:50:54,343 --> 00:50:56,345 I'm sorry, too. 1045 00:50:57,555 --> 00:50:59,307 Sorry for what? 1046 00:51:01,309 --> 00:51:06,189 I'm sorry for everything leading up to that fight. 1047 00:51:06,272 --> 00:51:08,107 And to Cabo. 1048 00:51:10,443 --> 00:51:14,739 I can see how you thought we were broken up. 1049 00:51:14,822 --> 00:51:16,240 You can? 1050 00:51:17,241 --> 00:51:20,411 Yeah, but I-I don't understand how you could just 1051 00:51:20,495 --> 00:51:22,914 move on to somebody else so easily. 1052 00:51:22,997 --> 00:51:25,416 I mean, I could barely function. 1053 00:51:25,500 --> 00:51:28,294 H-How were you okay enough to have sex with someone? 1054 00:51:28,377 --> 00:51:30,880 No, Belly, I was completely numb that whole week. 1055 00:51:30,963 --> 00:51:34,008 I-I didn't even feel like I was there when Lacie and I... 1056 00:51:34,091 --> 00:51:35,510 when we had sex. 1057 00:51:36,928 --> 00:51:39,388 After, I-I just sat in the shower 1058 00:51:39,472 --> 00:51:43,267 and cried for, I don't, I don't even know how long. 1059 00:51:43,351 --> 00:51:47,939 Just thinking, how could I deserve you after that? 1060 00:51:50,149 --> 00:51:52,527 Maybe we... 1061 00:51:52,610 --> 00:51:56,072 shouldn't let one mistake erase all these years. 1062 00:51:58,074 --> 00:52:00,076 I mean, 1063 00:52:00,159 --> 00:52:03,204 if we both believe that what we have 1064 00:52:03,287 --> 00:52:06,958 is bigger than our mistakes, then... 1065 00:52:07,041 --> 00:52:09,794 maybe we can just start over. 1066 00:52:09,877 --> 00:52:12,296 I want that, Bells. 1067 00:52:12,380 --> 00:52:14,340 I-I want that so much. 1068 00:52:15,633 --> 00:52:18,052 You can't ever hurt me like that again. 1069 00:52:18,135 --> 00:52:20,221 I promise. 1070 00:52:20,304 --> 00:52:22,390 [gentle music playing] 1071 00:52:23,432 --> 00:52:25,142 I promise. 1072 00:52:36,070 --> 00:52:38,030 [♪ Benson Boone sings "Forever and a Day"] 1073 00:52:38,114 --> 00:52:41,409 I don't want to mess this up again. 1074 00:52:41,492 --> 00:52:42,827 We won't. 1075 00:52:42,910 --> 00:52:44,954 -♪ I started driving... -After Steven, 1076 00:52:45,037 --> 00:52:46,914 I-I get it now. 1077 00:52:46,998 --> 00:52:48,791 You know, life's too short 1078 00:52:48,875 --> 00:52:50,793 not to spend it with the person that you love. 1079 00:52:50,877 --> 00:52:52,962 ♪ The way it felt for me to finally hold you... 1080 00:52:53,045 --> 00:52:57,049 I want to be with you always, no matter what. 1081 00:52:57,133 --> 00:52:59,385 I just can't imagine my life without you. 1082 00:52:59,468 --> 00:53:01,387 Me, either. 1083 00:53:01,470 --> 00:53:03,431 Belly, it's always been our story. 1084 00:53:03,514 --> 00:53:06,726 Yours and mine. Nobody else's. 1085 00:53:10,479 --> 00:53:12,148 What are you thinking? 1086 00:53:13,774 --> 00:53:16,277 Just, the future is-is crazy-- 1087 00:53:16,360 --> 00:53:17,945 Come on, what? Say it. 1088 00:53:19,447 --> 00:53:20,865 [laughs softly] 1089 00:53:20,948 --> 00:53:23,117 -Would you-- -Yes. 1090 00:53:23,200 --> 00:53:25,620 You don't even know what I'm about to say. 1091 00:53:27,413 --> 00:53:29,790 Try me. 1092 00:53:29,874 --> 00:53:33,586 ♪ These butterflies lived... 1093 00:53:33,669 --> 00:53:34,795 Isabel Conklin... 1094 00:53:36,631 --> 00:53:37,965 ...will you marry me? 1095 00:53:38,049 --> 00:53:39,717 Yes. 1096 00:53:39,800 --> 00:53:42,136 [laughs] Yeah, I'll marry you. 1097 00:53:42,219 --> 00:53:44,513 ♪ I swear I've known you ♪ 1098 00:53:44,597 --> 00:53:47,516 ♪ longer than ♪ 1099 00:53:47,600 --> 00:53:50,686 -♪ forever... -[both laugh] 1100 00:53:51,729 --> 00:53:53,022 I love you. 1101 00:53:53,105 --> 00:53:55,566 I love you, too. [laughs] 1102 00:53:56,609 --> 00:53:59,528 ♪ A day ♪ 1103 00:53:59,612 --> 00:54:02,907 ♪ Forever ♪ 1104 00:54:02,990 --> 00:54:05,368 ♪ and a day ♪ 1105 00:54:05,451 --> 00:54:08,287 ♪ Forever and a day ♪ 1106 00:54:08,371 --> 00:54:09,914 ♪ A day ♪ 1107 00:54:09,997 --> 00:54:12,750 ♪ Forever and a day ♪ 1108 00:54:12,833 --> 00:54:14,835 ♪ ♪ 1109 00:54:18,297 --> 00:54:21,509 ♪ I bet we already knew our names ♪ 1110 00:54:21,592 --> 00:54:24,387 ♪ before we met each other ♪ 1111 00:54:24,470 --> 00:54:27,390 ♪ I bet we've sailed the Milky Way ♪ 1112 00:54:27,473 --> 00:54:30,059 ♪ walked on the sun together ♪ 1113 00:54:30,142 --> 00:54:33,938 ♪ How could I forget ♪ 1114 00:54:34,021 --> 00:54:38,526 ♪ those emerald eyes? ♪ 1115 00:54:38,609 --> 00:54:40,903 ♪ They took me by surprise ♪ 1116 00:54:40,987 --> 00:54:44,031 ♪ But suddenly, I missed your face ♪ 1117 00:54:44,115 --> 00:54:47,493 ♪ I knew that smile from miles away ♪ 1118 00:54:47,576 --> 00:54:50,788 ♪ I knew that I have loved you ♪ 1119 00:54:50,871 --> 00:54:56,544 ♪ forever... ♪ 1120 00:54:56,627 --> 00:54:59,505 ♪ and a day ♪ 1121 00:54:59,588 --> 00:55:02,508 ♪ A day ♪ 1122 00:55:02,591 --> 00:55:05,177 ♪ In all my lives ♪ 1123 00:55:05,261 --> 00:55:07,722 ♪ I've waited every time ♪ 1124 00:55:07,805 --> 00:55:11,392 ♪ to hear you say ♪ 1125 00:55:11,475 --> 00:55:15,646 ♪ "I'm yours forever and a day" ♪ 1126 00:55:15,730 --> 00:55:17,732 ♪ ♪ 1127 00:55:27,825 --> 00:55:30,661 ♪ I don't believe ♪ 1128 00:55:30,745 --> 00:55:33,664 ♪ in destiny ♪ 1129 00:55:33,748 --> 00:55:35,833 ♪ But I might ♪ 1130 00:55:35,916 --> 00:55:39,670 ♪ have to say ♪ 1131 00:55:39,754 --> 00:55:43,174 ♪ your melodies ♪ 1132 00:55:43,257 --> 00:55:45,718 ♪ they're changing me ♪ 1133 00:55:45,801 --> 00:55:47,344 ♪ I'm yours ♪ 1134 00:55:47,428 --> 00:55:52,058 ♪ forever ♪♪ g me ♪