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Are you okay?
What's goin' on?

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How long
have you been married?

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-Six years.
-We're separated.

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♪♪

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[Tara] It's not easy,

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remembering that
you won't grow old together.

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I've been getting
tons of compliments on this.

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It's not a big deal.

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[Taylor] You signed
Tristan Ashgrove when he was 18?

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[Kris] You are what people
will connect to.

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♪

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Oh, no!
Come on, no, no!

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[Nate VO] This city kind of
conditions you to toughen up.

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-Aah!
-Geez!

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Four minutes ago,
this expired!

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Four minutes ago!

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And you're down here
like a loser

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with your little tickets!

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Does that make you feel
powerful, huh?!

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♪♪

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Sorry, kid.

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[Nate VO] No matter
what you're struggling with,

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the world keeps
going on around you,

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like everything's normal.

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♪

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Can I get, uh…
one pretzel?

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-Yeah.
-Thank you.

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[Nate VO] When
things get bleak,

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you just have to focus on
the things that bring you joy.

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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Sorry, I didn't know
that you were in here.

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That's okay.
We can both be in here.

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Uh, that's okay.
I'm heading out, actually.

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Oh, but it's your day off.

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I thought you like staying home.

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Uh, I did, when it…

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it was home.

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[coughing]

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So, uh…
where you off to?

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Uh, just-- just some errands.

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Uh, when's your next
appointment with Dr. Ross?

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Okay, uh…

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I know that you're
just crashing here,

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but we're also
co-parenting a child

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while you're seriously ill,
so, like it or not,

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I need to be aware
of some of these things, okay?

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Right.
No, you're right.

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Um, uh…

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Chemo starts Wednesday,
to shrink the tumor.

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And then they'll operate
sometime in the future.

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That's really
all I know so far.

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Okay, so I'll get
a sitter for Wednesday.

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Nope.
It's all good.

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It's okay. I'm good.
Thank you.

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Nate, please don't be
a martyr, okay?

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That would imply
that I want you there,

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and I don't.

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Okay, yeah.

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I can be your punching bag,
if that's what you need.

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You know what I need, Claire?

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Honesty.

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[subtle, tense music]

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[Nate] Is this the reason
the school payment

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didn't go through?

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Yeah?

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Okay, so I signed up
for this…

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before we found out
that you were sick.

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Okay?

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It's just
a little side hustle.

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Kim sold her lotions
at the hospital last year,

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and all the nurses went nuts.

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Well, what is it?

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It's like an MLM,
a pyramid scheme?

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She was able to make an extra
couple thousand a month,

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which we really need--

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It's not about
the money, Claire!

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It's about the fact
that I don't feel like

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I've got, like, ground
beneath my feet right now.

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I have no solid place
to stand, anywhere, alright?

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Not at the-- not at the bar,

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where I have to keep on
this cool boss face

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to make everybody
feel secure in their jobs,

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when I don't think that
I can afford to pay them

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through the end of the year!

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And then here,
I have to pretend to be strong

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for a six-year-old,

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when I don't think I'm--
I'm even gonna be…

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Shh.

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I'm really sorry.

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I think after all of the
financial stress that I caused,

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I thought this would
help make up for it.

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It was stupid.

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No.
It's alright.

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It's okay.
What's done is done.

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I just want to move on.
Please.

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[soft, poignant music]

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-[door opens and closes]
-[sighs]

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[traffic noise]

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[intriguing music]

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Ooh…

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[wind gusts]

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♪

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[items clatter]

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[sighs]

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-Here, let me give you a hand.
-Thank you, sir--

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Tristan Ashgrove!

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Wow, it's, uh…

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it's been forever.

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Yes.

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And here I am, crawling
around the dirty street.

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I just spotted a 20.

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It's human nature
to grab at money.

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I swear I'm not destitute.

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I will be soon, though,
if I don't get another gig.

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What, you're not with
Vesey Street anymore?

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Uh, no.

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They canned me.

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-No, you're not serious.
-Mm-hm.

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I'm telling you,
that's their loss, okay?

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Hm, that's what I said
when you left me.

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I owe my entire career
to you, Kris Aldridge.

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Aw, I'll replay that compliment
in my head all day.

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It's good to see you.
Don't be a stranger.

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Same.

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Let me know
where you end up, okay?

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Yeah, it might be a minute.

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I'm an acquired taste.

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All right, so start
your own label.

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All right?

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[intriguing music]

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[phone buzzing]

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Please remove me
from your list.

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[laughs]

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[in funny voice] But wait, your
car warranty is about to expire!

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[chuckles]
How are you?

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Ah, that's a complex question.

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You maybe wanna discuss it
over takeout tonight?

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Sure do.
Your place or mine?

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Wait, where do you even live?

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And… another
complex question.

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Why don't you
meet me at the bar?

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We're closing early
for inventory.

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-Look here, um…
-Mm-hm?

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Forgive my ignorance, but…
Ellis?

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Oh, um, Ellis is non-binary.

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And you just
know that because…

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you're a lesbian, right?

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Yeah, it was
in the queer newsletter.

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Oh.

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I know because I asked.

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[chuckles]

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And in my opinion,
everyone should wear nametags.

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Pronouns, orientation,
emotional availability.

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It's a jungle out there.

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-That so?
-Mm-hm.

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Mm-hm.

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I'm always the oldest one
at all the gay bars,

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looking for my person.

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Mm-hm.

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And I already found
my person once.

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Whatever game I had
is out the window.

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Maybe it's just time
to get a bunch 'a cats.

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Look here.
Wait a minute.

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There's something I forgot
to give you the other day.

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You know that person
at the computer store?

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Sylvie.

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You remember her name?

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Nametag, helpful.
See?

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Well, anyway,

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they asked me to give you this.

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Mm-hm.

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Get outta here.
Is this a joke?

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No joke, yeah.

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Hah!

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Well, look at that.

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Yeah.

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[both chuckle]

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The exact confidence boost
I needed right in this moment.

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Yeah, all right.

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Now, if a chiropractor
were to drop out of the sky

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and help me
with these damn back spasms…

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Don't go to a chiropractor.

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My girlfriend Rebecca
is a physical therapist.

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She makes house calls.
Tell her I sent you.

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-Excellent.
-[Ellis] Mm-hm.

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-Well, thank you.
-[Ellis] Thank you .

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For eavesdroppin'.

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[Tara] [chuckles]
We are on a roll, Walter!

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-Nah.
-Damn.

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-[chuckles]
-What should we ask for next?

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[Aria] More coffee?

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I'm glad you called out sick.

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Well, I am sick.

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Of working.

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[chuckles]

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It's nice to see you like this.

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You've been glowing ever since
you stepped off that stage.

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I know.

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I like this me.

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[chuckles]

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So do I.

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Hey, guess what?

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I'm late.

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Okay…

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How late?

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Like a week.

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Did you take a test?

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Nope.

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Because I don't need
a mental spiral right now.

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So… no more testing.

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I'm just gonna wait and see.

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I can't live in dread anymore.

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I need to be Zen.

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[chuckles]
Yes.

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What will happen
will happen.

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Exactly.

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But I hope it's happening.

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[both chuckle]

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[warm, sentimental music]

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[phone buzzes]

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Hey… you're sick.

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Don't answer that.

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♪

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[Kris] Are you a sociopath?

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[Nate] Uh, would a sociopath
actually know

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if they were a sociopath?

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Good point.

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Or a genius diversion
by a sociopath.

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We can table that one.

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Are you…

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a father?

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Yes.

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Got one.

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Uh, boy or girl?

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Girl. Anna.
And she's six.

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Aw, sweet.

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Uh, so you're divorced, then?

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No.

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Mother's not in the picture?

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Uh…

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She is, but you
were never married?

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So, technically….

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[Kris] Here we go.

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Technically still married,
but getting a divorce.

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We were about to file
when things got…

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complicated.

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Okay, you can stop with
the "complicated," "complex,"

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blah, blah, blah.
Just spit it out.

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You know you don't
owe me anything, right?

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We just met.

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I know, I know, but…

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I want to be honest with you
because I like you.

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Even though
you're kind of mean.

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[chuckles]

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Ah, I like you, too.

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Even though you are throwing
out a lot of red flags,

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oddly, they're not
scaring me off.

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That's the quote that will be
at the start of the podcast

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about my murder, isn't it?

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Uh, probably.

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Probably.

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So, there's one more thing.

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Well, I'm not really a fan of
the announcing before saying--

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I have lung cancer.

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Okay…

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How bad are we talking?

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Enough for chemo,
and then surgery.

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So that brings me
to my living situation.

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Um, I was in
the process of moving out

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when I was diagnosed.

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I see.

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So you're still
living with your wife?

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Future ex-wife.

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Technical wife.

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[both laugh]

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What?

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I'm not allowed to be an ass
just because you have…

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cancer?

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I'm…

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I'm very sorry
to dump all of this on you.

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It's just that I start
treatment on Wednesday,

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and I, um…

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Um…

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Uh, yes, so I have--
I have a choice,

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which is that I could…

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I could tell you now.

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It feels very early
to be this intense.

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Or, uh--

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[breathes in]

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I'm sorry.

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I'm having a little trouble
breathing right now.

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Okay.

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Yeah, my, my…

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hands are a little…
little sweaty…

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-Can you just breathe?
-Oh…

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-Breathe.
-Okay…

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Oh… okay…

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[laughs]
That's great.

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Oh my God!

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-Help!
-Pull, pull, pull!

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-Oh, mm-hm!
-Oh my lord.

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[laughs]

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That's good.

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Oh, shoot.
I need to use the bathroom.

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Okay.

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I feel like I'm gonna
pee my pants.

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That's a good sign, right?

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[tap turns off]

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[warm, sentimental music]

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♪

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[door opens and closes]

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[people talking and laughing]

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[John] Our Lyft will be here
in one minute.

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Black Lexus.

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Cool.

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What are you smiling at?

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It's…

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Tell me.

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Okay.

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Those women over there…

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-Mm-hm?
-Smiling, laughing?

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[John] Mm-hm?

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[Aria] This sounds terrible,
but…

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I'd normally be
really annoyed at them

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for being happy when I can't.

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And then I get angry at myself
for being annoyed, and--

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Oh my.

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Your mind sounds like
an exhausting place.

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Most of the time, yeah.

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But right now…

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I don't feel any of that.

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-[phone buzzes]
-Is our car here?

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[Aria] Is that a 20?

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[wind gusts]

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♪

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Damn.

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It was a good try, baby.

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-Hah.
-[car honks]

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This is our car.
Let's go.

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Oh. Thanks.

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♪

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♪

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[chuckles]

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How you doin' down there?

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Mmm…
Better.

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You were right.
The floor…

13:47.868 --> 13:50.162
Floor helps a lot.

13:50.246 --> 13:52.373
Why don't I lie on the floor
more often?

13:52.456 --> 13:55.459
Because it's socially
unacceptable for adults.

13:55.543 --> 13:58.045
It shouldn't be, if you ask me.

13:58.128 --> 13:59.797
It's really grounding.

13:59.880 --> 14:03.175
Literally.

14:03.259 --> 14:07.846
Okay, now I want
to get on the floor.

14:07.930 --> 14:09.974
[exhales]

14:11.517 --> 14:13.185
I have to say,
I'm a little embarrassed.

14:13.269 --> 14:16.730
I haven't really had
a panic attack in years.

14:16.814 --> 14:18.274
It makes sense.

14:18.357 --> 14:20.651
You were talking about
starting chemotherapy.

14:20.734 --> 14:23.654
It'd make anyone panic.

14:23.737 --> 14:26.866
I think it just… hit me.

14:26.949 --> 14:28.951
I'm about to start this
really extensive process,

14:29.034 --> 14:32.121
and it's either
going to work, or…

14:32.204 --> 14:34.707
not work.

14:34.790 --> 14:36.041
It's a lot.

14:36.125 --> 14:38.085
Especially as a dad, I imagine.

14:40.087 --> 14:41.213
Yeah.

14:41.297 --> 14:43.257
Having a kid makes
you think a lot more

14:43.340 --> 14:44.550
about your own mortality.

14:44.633 --> 14:47.303
Sounds magical.

14:47.386 --> 14:51.098
♪

14:51.181 --> 14:56.520
I think I've been
keeping a lot bottled up.

14:56.604 --> 14:58.522
You could talk to someone.

14:58.606 --> 14:59.690
I am.

14:59.773 --> 15:01.525
You know what I mean.

15:03.235 --> 15:05.696
I don't know…

15:05.779 --> 15:08.824
I think this city just kind of
conditions you to toughen up.

15:08.908 --> 15:11.076
No matter
what you're struggling with,

15:11.160 --> 15:13.078
the world keeps
going on around you

15:13.162 --> 15:16.999
like everything's normal.

15:17.082 --> 15:19.084
When things get bleak,

15:19.168 --> 15:20.794
you just have to focus
on the things

15:20.878 --> 15:22.880
that bring you joy.

15:22.963 --> 15:24.506
Like Anna.

15:24.590 --> 15:26.133
She's a daddy's girl,
isn't she?

15:26.216 --> 15:28.010
Mm-hm, yes.

15:28.093 --> 15:30.721
I was, too, growing up.

15:30.804 --> 15:33.599
And then my dad and I
started butting heads.

15:34.892 --> 15:36.352
How are things now?

15:37.728 --> 15:39.104
Unresolved.

15:40.481 --> 15:42.650
We haven't spoken in…

15:42.733 --> 15:45.027
in way too long,

15:45.110 --> 15:47.237
but I intend to fix that.

15:47.321 --> 15:49.740
I'm just not sure when.

15:55.537 --> 15:57.247
How was school today?

15:57.331 --> 15:58.624
Uh, it was pretty good,

15:58.707 --> 16:01.043
but I think I'm gonna
have to retake my Spanish exam.

16:01.126 --> 16:03.796
You must have got that from me.
I was terrible at Spanish.

16:03.879 --> 16:06.131
But I did score
two goals in soccer.

16:06.215 --> 16:09.510
You did not get that from me.
Way to go.

16:09.593 --> 16:10.761
What should we have
for dinner?

16:10.844 --> 16:11.804
I get to pick?

16:11.887 --> 16:12.805
Yeah, why not?

16:12.888 --> 16:13.847
Okay…

16:13.931 --> 16:15.683
How about… tacos?

16:15.766 --> 16:17.017
Okay.

16:18.018 --> 16:19.061
[Finn] Hi, Mom.

16:19.144 --> 16:20.688
Hi, angel girl.

16:20.771 --> 16:23.065
I'm starving.

16:23.148 --> 16:24.400
You are?

16:24.483 --> 16:28.445
First time she's said that
since beginning her treatment.

16:28.529 --> 16:31.532
Can we have spaghetti?

16:31.615 --> 16:34.076
You got it, kiddo.

16:34.159 --> 16:36.370
[Dad] Pasta.
What a good idea.

16:36.453 --> 16:39.540
[indistinct announcement on PA]

16:41.291 --> 16:42.751
[Rebecca] Any pain
when I touch here?

16:42.835 --> 16:44.837
[winces]
Ah, yup.

16:44.920 --> 16:47.464
Okay.
I'll spend some time on that.

16:47.548 --> 16:49.967
But I recommend
you roll your feet out at home.

16:50.050 --> 16:51.343
You can use the golf ball.

16:51.427 --> 16:52.886
A golf ball, eh?

16:52.970 --> 16:54.638
-Yeah.
-Ah, all righty, then.

16:54.722 --> 16:56.265
Okay…

16:56.348 --> 16:57.850
All right, how about here?

16:57.933 --> 16:59.143
Any tenderness?

16:59.226 --> 17:00.686
I'll save you some time.

17:00.769 --> 17:03.564
-You name it, it probably hurts.
-[laughs]

17:03.647 --> 17:06.066
Ah, the worst
is in my lower back.

17:06.150 --> 17:09.236
It feels like I can't
stand up straight.

17:09.319 --> 17:10.988
How long has that pain
been going on?

17:11.071 --> 17:13.574
A while.
But it's manageable.

17:13.657 --> 17:18.203
It got worse
after I lost my wife.

17:18.287 --> 17:20.998
Nobody to drag me
out of the house,

17:21.081 --> 17:23.542
make me walk every day.

17:23.625 --> 17:26.420
What was your wife's name,
if I may ask?

17:26.503 --> 17:28.672
Brenda.

17:28.756 --> 17:33.052
You know, grief can often
manifest as physical pain.

17:33.135 --> 17:36.263
The emotional,
the physical,

17:36.346 --> 17:40.017
it's all connected.

17:40.100 --> 17:41.643
And breathe in.

17:41.727 --> 17:43.937
[inhales]

17:44.021 --> 17:46.065
And breathe out.

17:46.148 --> 17:47.775
[exhales]

17:47.858 --> 17:51.904
♪

17:51.987 --> 17:55.699
I actually ran into
one of my old artists today.

17:55.783 --> 17:58.160
He said I should
start my own record label.

17:58.243 --> 17:59.953
Isn't that ridiculous?

18:00.037 --> 18:01.663
Why is that ridiculous?

18:01.747 --> 18:04.208
Because it's a massive risk.

18:04.291 --> 18:05.417
Yeah.

18:05.501 --> 18:07.252
You know what else
is a massive risk?

18:07.336 --> 18:08.253
What?

18:08.337 --> 18:09.505
Chemo.

18:10.672 --> 18:11.965
[laughs]

18:12.049 --> 18:13.175
I'm the worst!

18:13.258 --> 18:14.176
No, you're not.

18:14.259 --> 18:15.260
I'm messing with you.

18:15.344 --> 18:17.179
Wow!

18:17.262 --> 18:18.263
Do I hate you now?

18:18.347 --> 18:19.389
I don't think you do.

18:19.473 --> 18:21.308
Mm-hm…

18:21.391 --> 18:23.018
You should do it.

18:23.101 --> 18:24.812
Start your own label.

18:24.895 --> 18:28.273
Life's short, right?

18:28.357 --> 18:30.192
Okay…

18:30.275 --> 18:34.488
Cancer guru.

18:34.571 --> 18:36.824
Isn't it crazy how…

18:36.907 --> 18:39.868
something like this
makes you look back

18:39.952 --> 18:42.371
on your life?

18:42.454 --> 18:46.375
Everything that led you here.

18:46.458 --> 18:50.003
What could have changed it.

18:50.087 --> 18:54.258
And I dunno, maybe
nothing could have, but…

18:54.341 --> 18:57.469
who knows?

18:58.470 --> 19:01.431
Okay, this is
a dark question…

19:01.515 --> 19:02.850
If you had the ability

19:02.933 --> 19:07.271
to know
how your life would end,

19:07.354 --> 19:09.731
would you want to?

19:09.815 --> 19:15.404
[soft, peaceful music]

19:15.487 --> 19:20.534
♪

19:20.617 --> 19:25.539
♪

19:25.622 --> 19:30.586
♪

19:30.669 --> 19:35.424
♪

19:35.507 --> 19:40.762
♪

19:40.846 --> 19:42.014
♪

19:43.015 --> 19:43.974
[Walter] Huh!

19:44.057 --> 19:45.517
[laughing]

19:45.601 --> 19:48.187
Ah, do I look taller?

19:48.270 --> 19:50.606
I feel like I grew a couple
of inches after that.

19:50.689 --> 19:51.607
[Ellis] Yeah.

19:51.690 --> 19:53.108
Wow!
You are good.

19:53.192 --> 19:54.568
-Well, thank you.
-Mm-hm!

19:54.651 --> 19:57.070
I'm glad I was able to help
Ellis's favorite customer.

19:57.154 --> 19:59.615
Don't say that.
He'll get cocky.

19:59.698 --> 20:02.659
Oh, someone
is fishing for tips.

20:02.743 --> 20:04.494
How long have you been
seeing each other?

20:04.578 --> 20:05.704
Three months.

20:05.787 --> 20:07.789
Ah, the honeymoon phase!
[chuckles]

20:07.873 --> 20:10.626
It is something else.

20:10.709 --> 20:13.962
You know, lucky for me,
it never ended with my Brenda.

20:14.046 --> 20:16.006
Oh, she was
a big romantic, huh?

20:16.089 --> 20:19.635
-Oh, no, no, no, I was.
-Oh!

20:19.718 --> 20:22.137
She always knew
she was too good for me,

20:22.221 --> 20:24.348
and I had to keep earning her.

20:24.431 --> 20:25.641
Yeah.

20:25.724 --> 20:29.686
Anyway, those days are over.

20:29.770 --> 20:31.396
-I don't believe that.
-Mm.

20:31.480 --> 20:32.773
Not for one second.

20:32.856 --> 20:35.150
I bet you that romantic guy
is still in you.

20:35.234 --> 20:39.321
♪

20:39.404 --> 20:41.365
♪

20:44.076 --> 20:44.993
Oh!
Oh, I--

20:45.077 --> 20:46.620
-[both] Oh!
-[Ellis] I didn't see anything!

20:46.703 --> 20:48.121
I'm sorry!
It's fine!

20:48.205 --> 20:49.414
[Nate] No,
there's nothing to see.

20:49.498 --> 20:50.540
[Ellis] Yeah.
Cool.

20:50.624 --> 20:52.793
We're decent.
We just fell asleep talking.

20:52.876 --> 20:54.378
[Ellis] Right.
Good look for you both.

20:54.461 --> 20:55.420
It's great.
I love it.

20:55.504 --> 20:56.421
Really, though.

20:56.505 --> 20:57.422
[Ellis] Okay, boss!

20:57.506 --> 20:58.715
[footsteps receding]

20:58.799 --> 21:00.717
[exhales]
Hey.

21:00.801 --> 21:02.302
Hello.

21:02.386 --> 21:04.012
[laughs]

21:04.096 --> 21:05.347
[phone buzzes]

21:05.430 --> 21:08.350
[clears throat]

21:08.433 --> 21:09.601
Oh, right.

21:09.685 --> 21:11.353
I told Aria that
I would meet her

21:11.436 --> 21:13.480
to talk about "my label."

21:13.563 --> 21:15.983
Mm, no air quotes needed.
Don't do that.

21:16.066 --> 21:18.110
Oh, I'm doubting myself now.

21:18.193 --> 21:20.153
Don't.

21:20.237 --> 21:22.364
Why don't you have her
meet you here?

21:22.447 --> 21:23.949
Lunch hour's pretty quiet.

21:24.032 --> 21:27.577
Well, if you really
need the business.

21:29.705 --> 21:32.207
I haven't told Ellis yet.

21:32.291 --> 21:33.709
Who else knows?

21:33.792 --> 21:37.254
Well, my technical wife…

21:37.337 --> 21:39.965
and now you.

21:42.009 --> 21:43.552
[John] It's okay, baby,
it's gone.

21:43.635 --> 21:46.304
No, I know I left it
somewhere in here.

21:46.388 --> 21:48.807
I can see it in my mind.

21:48.890 --> 21:49.808
Where?

21:49.891 --> 21:50.851
I don't know!

21:50.934 --> 21:53.312
I-I can literally
picture it everywhere!

21:56.148 --> 21:57.607
Babe, what time
are you meeting Kris?

21:57.691 --> 21:58.650
Noon.

21:58.734 --> 21:59.776
-It's 11:48.
-I know!

21:59.860 --> 22:00.944
[drawer slams]

22:02.279 --> 22:03.864
[Aria] Um… okay.

22:03.947 --> 22:06.033
I will-- I will
look more when I get home.

22:06.116 --> 22:07.034
I-I'm so sorry.

22:07.117 --> 22:08.035
It's just a ring.

22:08.118 --> 22:10.579
It's not…
it's not just a ring.

22:10.662 --> 22:12.873
It's me and you.

22:12.956 --> 22:15.792
Look, these last few years
have been so hard on us.

22:15.876 --> 22:17.544
This feels like
a bad sign or something.

22:17.627 --> 22:20.339
Aria, please look at this
for what it is.

22:20.422 --> 22:21.882
It's not a sign.

22:21.965 --> 22:25.635
It doesn't mean anything bad
about the future.

22:25.719 --> 22:28.096
People lose things.
That's all.

22:28.180 --> 22:29.514
It happens.

22:29.598 --> 22:33.268
Okay?

22:33.351 --> 22:34.644
[sighs]

22:34.728 --> 22:37.773
Why are you so good to me?

22:37.856 --> 22:39.608
[sighs]
Okay.

22:39.691 --> 22:41.443
Okay, I gotta go.

22:42.486 --> 22:44.279
Love you.

22:44.362 --> 22:46.490
♪

22:46.573 --> 22:48.533
[door opens and closes]

22:51.828 --> 22:53.246
[Nate] Walter, what you, uh…

22:53.330 --> 22:54.456
what you doing?

22:54.539 --> 22:56.208
Oh…
[chuckles]

22:56.291 --> 22:57.793
Fingerprints
all over the window.

22:57.876 --> 23:00.420
I thought I'd give it
a little attention.

23:00.504 --> 23:03.632
Okay, well… well, thank you
very much for doing that.

23:03.715 --> 23:06.468
Don't expect a discount, though.

23:06.551 --> 23:09.012
[laughs]
Right.

23:09.096 --> 23:10.472
Ah.

23:13.975 --> 23:15.685
Oh, hi, Kris.

23:15.769 --> 23:17.687
Hi.

23:17.771 --> 23:20.649
I'm so sorry.
I'm great with faces

23:20.732 --> 23:22.234
and song lyrics

23:22.317 --> 23:24.111
and personal injury
attorney jingles,

23:24.194 --> 23:25.445
but I'm terrible with names.

23:25.529 --> 23:26.696
Could you just remind me?

23:26.780 --> 23:27.697
Walter.

23:27.781 --> 23:29.074
Walter!
Yes.

23:29.157 --> 23:30.200
Thank you.

23:30.283 --> 23:31.660
It's so nice to see you again.

23:31.743 --> 23:33.537
You come here a lot, then, huh?

23:33.620 --> 23:35.872
Oh, yeah.
This is like my "Cheers."

23:35.956 --> 23:38.291
Everybody knows my name.

23:38.375 --> 23:39.543
Except you.

23:39.626 --> 23:42.379
-Right.
-[chuckles]

23:42.462 --> 23:44.214
Um, I was…

23:44.297 --> 23:46.007
I was supposed
to meet a friend here,

23:46.091 --> 23:48.885
but, uh, she's getting ready
for a first date.

23:48.969 --> 23:50.762
-Hmm.
-[door opens]

23:50.846 --> 23:53.056
[Aria] Sorry I'm so late.

23:53.140 --> 23:55.142
She must think
I'm the biggest flake.

23:55.225 --> 23:57.144
Walter, this is
my friend Aria.

23:57.227 --> 23:59.437
She has the most
endearing anxiety.

23:59.521 --> 24:00.438
Oh, hi.

24:00.522 --> 24:02.649
Wait, hold on.
You… you…

24:02.732 --> 24:04.568
you were the one
who was singing here

24:04.651 --> 24:06.153
the other night, right?

24:06.236 --> 24:07.654
Uh… that depends.

24:07.737 --> 24:09.114
Uh, did you like it?

24:09.197 --> 24:11.867
Oh, you're a very
talented young lady.

24:11.950 --> 24:12.868
Pleasure.

24:12.951 --> 24:14.286
-Yes, it was me.
-Wow.

24:14.369 --> 24:17.122
-Thank you.
-[both laugh]

24:17.205 --> 24:18.707
Wow.

24:18.790 --> 24:20.792
Thank you for meeting me.

24:20.876 --> 24:21.960
Yeah.

24:22.043 --> 24:25.839
I, uh, had this
crazy idea last night,

24:25.922 --> 24:28.508
and I wanted to
share it with you.

24:32.762 --> 24:36.099
I'm starting
my own record label.

24:36.183 --> 24:37.559
That's amazing.

24:37.642 --> 24:38.852
Congratulations.

24:38.935 --> 24:40.687
Oh, don't congratulate me
just yet.

24:40.770 --> 24:44.149
I still have to sign
my first artist.

24:44.232 --> 24:49.196
Uh, and I was hoping
it could be you.

24:49.279 --> 24:50.530
I put you on the spot.

24:50.614 --> 24:52.199
You can just--
you can think about it.

24:52.282 --> 24:54.326
No, no, no.
Sorry. I would be honored!

24:54.409 --> 24:55.952
Really?
Well, that's great!

24:56.036 --> 24:58.413
-[laughing]
-It's gonna be great.

24:59.539 --> 25:01.958
[Nate] I really do need
to keep an eye on Walter.

25:02.042 --> 25:03.460
Don't want any
of those insurance claims,

25:03.543 --> 25:04.502
you know what I mean?

25:04.586 --> 25:05.587
Yeah.

25:05.670 --> 25:07.214
He feels close
to his wife here,

25:07.297 --> 25:08.548
so I like to indulge him.

25:08.632 --> 25:09.883
Plus, we are
short-staffed, so…

25:09.966 --> 25:13.595
Yeah.
Uh…

25:13.678 --> 25:15.889
Actually, uh,
I wanted to talk to you

25:15.972 --> 25:17.557
about a few…

25:17.641 --> 25:19.017
managerial things.

25:19.100 --> 25:20.852
Do you want me
to call Walter, or…

25:20.936 --> 25:25.482
Um…

25:25.565 --> 25:28.526
Um… I'd like
to ask you a favor.

25:28.610 --> 25:30.487
Yeah.
What's up?

25:30.570 --> 25:33.531
Uh, so I'm not gonna
be around as much

25:33.615 --> 25:35.283
over the next couple of months,

25:35.367 --> 25:37.410
and I really need
somebody that I can trust

25:37.494 --> 25:39.871
to be in charge.

25:39.955 --> 25:42.249
So could you… cover for me?

25:42.332 --> 25:44.334
Yeah.
Of course.

25:44.417 --> 25:46.044
Great.
Well, meeting done!

25:46.127 --> 25:47.212
No, dude.

25:47.295 --> 25:49.214
What-- what is
going on with you?

25:49.297 --> 25:51.341
No, nothing's going on--

25:51.424 --> 25:54.344
I feel like your voice
just got really high.

25:54.427 --> 25:57.055
Everything is fine.

25:57.138 --> 25:59.474
I call bull.

26:02.060 --> 26:05.146
Do you promise
not to make a big deal?

26:06.147 --> 26:07.357
Yeah.

26:07.440 --> 26:10.944
♪

26:11.027 --> 26:15.907
♪

26:15.991 --> 26:17.325
You can say something.

26:17.409 --> 26:18.535
Yeah.

26:18.618 --> 26:20.787
Well, there's a lot of things
that I want to say,

26:20.870 --> 26:23.873
but I'm trying to not
make it a big deal, so…

26:23.957 --> 26:26.584
Well, I mean, your silence
is kind of making it a big deal.

26:26.668 --> 26:27.585
Right.

26:27.669 --> 26:29.462
Uh, thank you for telling me
you have cancer.

26:29.546 --> 26:30.505
Oof.

26:30.588 --> 26:32.382
What a weird thing to say.

26:32.465 --> 26:37.887
Yeah, it's…
[laughs]

26:37.971 --> 26:39.597
Yeah. You…

26:39.681 --> 26:41.933
have always had my back
when nobody else did, so…

26:42.017 --> 26:44.394
um, just…

26:44.477 --> 26:46.021
know I have yours.

26:46.104 --> 26:47.397
No matter what.

26:47.480 --> 26:50.900
This place is my home, so…

26:50.984 --> 26:53.403
Yeah.
Mine too.

26:53.486 --> 26:59.242
♪

26:59.326 --> 27:03.079
♪

27:03.163 --> 27:04.748
[laughs]

27:06.458 --> 27:07.375
Oh, hello.

27:07.459 --> 27:08.376
[Nate] Hello.

27:08.460 --> 27:10.378
Meet my new artist.

27:10.462 --> 27:12.756
Oh, hey!
Congratulations.

27:12.839 --> 27:14.507
Make sure to tell
all the media outlets

27:14.591 --> 27:16.634
that the signing meeting
actually happened here.

27:16.718 --> 27:18.136
It'd be great for me.

27:18.219 --> 27:19.846
And also, if you have
any new material

27:19.929 --> 27:21.514
that you want to test out,

27:21.598 --> 27:23.725
you will always have
an empty stage.

27:23.808 --> 27:25.310
Oh, wow.
Thank you.

27:25.393 --> 27:28.063
Oh, all offers have to come
through the label, sir.

27:28.146 --> 27:29.939
Okay, so it's gonna be--
Wow.

27:30.023 --> 27:33.902
Well, how does the label feel
about a weekly gig?

27:33.985 --> 27:36.196
-Oh, we'll take it.
-Weekly, I don't know.

27:36.279 --> 27:38.490
Just say yes.
Don't think about it.

27:38.573 --> 27:39.949
Okay. Yes.

27:40.033 --> 27:41.701
Can't promise about
the thinking part, though.

27:41.785 --> 27:43.578
We need to get you
out of your head.

27:43.661 --> 27:44.621
Maybe go for a run?

27:44.704 --> 27:45.705
No.

27:45.789 --> 27:47.832
Why does everybody always
seem to go for a run?

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What is so magical
about running?

27:49.209 --> 27:51.961
-I mean…
-Have you tried it?

27:52.045 --> 27:53.004
No.

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Okay, just…

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start writing.

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It doesn't have to be
anything good.

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Just write
and then send it to me.

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Even if it's just
a few seconds of something.

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Really?

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That would be so helpful to
get some encouragement as I go.

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That's what I'm here for.

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And the beauty of
you being my only client

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is that I can be available
to you all the time.

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Oh, my.
Okay. Okay!

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Off you go.

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-Are you good?
-Yes.

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Yeah, I got Ellis
to cover the bar tomorrow.

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Who's covering you
at the hospital?

28:25.745 --> 28:28.248
Aren't-- you know,
I'm fine, really.

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All right, well,
if it's not too much

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of a threat to your masculinity,

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I would like
to be there for you.

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I would really like that.

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[warm, sentimental music]

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Just text me when and where.

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Yeah. Will do.

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Okay.

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Great.

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See ya.

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♪

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[train rattling]

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[door opens]

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-Hey.
-Hi.

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I got your Slack.

28:59.654 --> 29:02.282
Why didn't you just text me?

29:02.365 --> 29:04.951
Uh…

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About that.

29:08.413 --> 29:10.498
Desi, we've been seeing
too much of each other

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outside of work
and texting all the time, and…

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we can't do that anymore.

29:16.546 --> 29:18.548
It's crossing a line.

29:18.631 --> 29:20.675
You crossed a line.

29:20.759 --> 29:23.720
You were the one who told me
all these personal details

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about your marriage,
asking me if you should leave.

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Yes, you're right.

29:28.099 --> 29:32.604
And I… I regret
putting you in that position.

29:32.687 --> 29:35.565
But whatever this is,
I have to draw a boundary.

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A boundary?

29:36.941 --> 29:39.569
Wow, John.

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What a mature approach.

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I'm sorry.

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It's not your fault.

29:46.159 --> 29:47.702
Yeah.

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I know that.

29:54.000 --> 29:55.710
[knock at door]

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And… Gram is here!

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Wow!
Hi, Millie.

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What are you doing in town?

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I just popped into the city
to get a necklace reset.

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I've got a black-tie gala
this weekend,

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and there's no diamond
district in Connecticut,

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so I thought I'd just
surprise everybody.

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Where is everyone?

30:20.026 --> 30:22.320
Uh, Anna's at ballet,
and, uh…

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and Nate's working at the bar.

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Yeah, I could use a glass
of Pinot, by the way.

30:27.534 --> 30:28.910
Nope.

30:28.993 --> 30:31.538
He's in Long Island.
He's visiting a winery today.

30:31.621 --> 30:35.333
Well, that's a waste on
someone who doesn't even drink.

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When's he coming back?
I'll give him a call.

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No, don't.

30:39.420 --> 30:40.630
Why not?

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[breathes in and out]

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Okay, Millie,
I was, uh…

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I dunno, I was waiting
for Nate to tell you this,

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but, um…

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we're separated.

30:52.141 --> 30:54.852
What?

30:54.936 --> 30:55.937
[sighs]

30:56.020 --> 30:58.189
Why?

31:00.483 --> 31:01.776
It's not exactly my decision.

31:01.860 --> 31:03.528
I was hoping
we could work on things.

31:03.611 --> 31:05.405
[quietly]
Oh, here come the tears.

31:05.488 --> 31:07.866
So, where's he staying?

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Here.
He hasn't moved out yet.

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We haven't even
filed the papers.

31:11.786 --> 31:14.414
Oh, okay.

31:14.497 --> 31:17.375
Do you know how many times
Luis and I almost divorced,

31:17.458 --> 31:19.919
till he realized he
couldn't live without me?

31:20.003 --> 31:20.962
Really?

31:21.045 --> 31:24.257
I know my son.

31:24.340 --> 31:27.176
He's gonna realize
this is a big mistake

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and he can't be alone.

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It's just a bump
in the road, sweetheart.

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That's all this is.

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Okay.

31:35.310 --> 31:37.478
Thank you.

31:37.562 --> 31:39.522
That's a beautiful ring,
by the way.

31:39.606 --> 31:40.607
Oh, yeah.

31:40.690 --> 31:42.442
Yeah, isn't it?

31:42.525 --> 31:44.152
Someone just sold it
to the store,

31:44.235 --> 31:46.237
and I can't imagine why,
'cause it's stunning, right?

31:46.321 --> 31:47.864
Yeah.

31:50.033 --> 31:51.326
You know what?

31:51.409 --> 31:52.994
You take it.

31:53.077 --> 31:54.037
Oh--

31:54.120 --> 31:55.413
Yeah.

31:55.496 --> 31:59.125
You and I got off
to a rocky start.

31:59.208 --> 32:01.085
But we are family.

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No matter what.

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♪

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["I'll Be There For You" by
Phillip LaRue and the Wildwoods]

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♪

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♪

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♪

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♪

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♪ When the rain is pouring

32:28.780 --> 32:31.157
♪ It's flooding in ♪

32:31.240 --> 32:33.076
♪ Eyes are blurry ♪

32:33.159 --> 32:34.702
♪ From all of it ♪

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♪ I'll be there for you ♪

32:38.956 --> 32:41.709
♪ I'll be there for you… ♪

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How does it feel?

32:48.549 --> 32:49.759
Mm…

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It doesn't really
feel like anything yet,

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although my mouth's
a little dry.

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Checking in.

32:55.264 --> 32:56.307
No pinching or burning?

32:56.391 --> 32:58.393
No.
So far, so good.

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I'm Angela.

32:59.477 --> 33:00.770
Are you Nate's wife?

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You have a wife ?

33:03.982 --> 33:06.609
[laughs]
I'm just messing with him.

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He does have a wife, though.

33:07.985 --> 33:09.153
No, right.

33:09.237 --> 33:10.697
We're sep--
we're very separated.

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I'll mind my own business.

33:12.532 --> 33:13.449
Please ignore her.

33:13.533 --> 33:14.951
She doesn't have a filter.

33:15.034 --> 33:16.744
This room can use
entertainment.

33:18.246 --> 33:20.581
Oh my.

33:20.665 --> 33:22.458
Regret inviting me yet?

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I don't believe I invited you.

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I think you invited
yourself, actually.

33:31.009 --> 33:32.635
Hey, Finn.

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Hey.
Your first day?

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Yup.
Any advice?

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Get ready for
a long nap tomorrow.

33:39.892 --> 33:40.935
Hi, Nate's friend.

33:41.019 --> 33:42.020
This is Kris.

33:42.103 --> 33:43.271
Hello, Finn.

33:43.354 --> 33:46.858
My God,
you sound like Hermione!

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Hermione is from--

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-I know about Hermione!
-You paused, and…

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You're from England.

33:52.280 --> 33:53.281
[Kris] I am.

33:53.364 --> 33:55.450
I've been in the States
a long time now, though.

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"The States."

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So, Finn has, um,
lung cancer like me.

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Never even had a cigarette.

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[Dad] She loves that joke.

34:06.794 --> 34:08.379
-Kris?
-[Kris] Yes?

34:08.463 --> 34:10.006
Do you say "spot of tea"?

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Actually, I say "cuppa."

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Cool.

34:14.093 --> 34:16.095
I love tea.

34:16.179 --> 34:18.264
Wait, can you say…

34:20.183 --> 34:21.559
-Okay…
-Uh-oh.

34:24.645 --> 34:26.731
Ooh, you're cheeky!

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"Sod off."

34:28.399 --> 34:30.693
[Finn and nurses laughing]

34:30.777 --> 34:33.821
♪

34:33.905 --> 34:37.283
This could be a whole novel
that she's just written.

34:37.366 --> 34:39.619
"Don't get your knickers
in a twist!"

34:39.702 --> 34:41.037
[giggles]

34:41.120 --> 34:42.371
Feel free to tell her "no,"

34:42.455 --> 34:44.165
or else she will
do this all day.

34:44.248 --> 34:45.333
I don't mind.

34:45.416 --> 34:48.544
♪

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"Stop being a knob, Davide."

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Ooh.
Oh…

34:52.965 --> 34:54.509
Is Davide you?

34:54.592 --> 34:55.551
Indeed I am.

34:55.635 --> 34:59.639
[all laughing]

35:02.767 --> 35:07.105
[soft Motown music playing]

35:07.188 --> 35:08.564
Ow! Ow!

35:08.648 --> 35:11.150
Ooh…
[wincing and laughing]

35:11.234 --> 35:13.027
Damn, baby.
Are you okay?

35:13.111 --> 35:15.196
No, I am not okay.

35:15.279 --> 35:18.032
I just stubbed my toe
on this stupid bucket of coins

35:18.116 --> 35:20.701
-you have here collecting dust.
-Oh!

35:20.785 --> 35:23.704
Why didn't you just, uh,
move it?

35:23.788 --> 35:25.873
Well, if I was strong
enough to pick it up,

35:25.957 --> 35:27.667
I would have dumped it
on your head.

35:27.750 --> 35:30.169
Ooh!

35:30.253 --> 35:33.422
-Kiss it.
-[chuckles]

35:33.506 --> 35:34.674
Muah!

35:36.592 --> 35:38.177
[distant traffic noise]

35:38.261 --> 35:39.762
[phone ringing]

35:39.846 --> 35:40.763
Whoa.

35:40.847 --> 35:42.140
Oh, gee…

35:42.223 --> 35:47.520
-[phone continues ringing]
-[sighs]

35:47.603 --> 35:49.856
Oh.
[chuckles]

35:49.939 --> 35:52.233
Hi, Tara.
What do you need?

35:52.316 --> 35:53.317
What do I need ?

35:53.401 --> 35:55.570
I need to need somethin'
to call my friend?

35:55.653 --> 35:59.323
Okay, then, no need to need.

35:59.407 --> 36:01.033
How was your date?

36:01.117 --> 36:02.451
Oh.

36:02.535 --> 36:04.203
It went really well.

36:04.287 --> 36:05.746
Glad to hear that.

36:05.830 --> 36:07.290
I'm surprised you called.

36:07.373 --> 36:09.208
I didn't know
when I would hear from you.

36:09.292 --> 36:11.794
What are you talkin' about?
Because I went on a date?

36:11.878 --> 36:13.087
Well…

36:13.171 --> 36:15.673
[Tara] Oh, come on, now,
stop with all that, Walter.

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You should know
that I always make room

36:17.925 --> 36:20.761
for all the special people
in my life.

36:20.845 --> 36:22.972
Ah, you free for lunch tomorrow?

36:23.055 --> 36:26.684
Well, let me check
my thriving social calendar.

36:26.767 --> 36:28.144
Yep!

36:29.187 --> 36:30.188
Uh…

36:30.271 --> 36:32.064
"Prop"?

36:32.148 --> 36:33.441
Mm, got that already.

36:33.524 --> 36:35.776
Oh, we do, yeah.

36:35.860 --> 36:38.070
What about "droopy"?

36:38.154 --> 36:41.157
"Droopy"?
Good one.

36:41.240 --> 36:42.909
[Finn] "Poopy."

36:42.992 --> 36:45.578
Sorry, did you say "poopy"?
Okay.

36:45.661 --> 36:47.371
[typing on tablet]

36:47.455 --> 36:49.790
"Poopy," not a word
according to this,

36:49.874 --> 36:52.335
but…
[typing on tablet]

36:52.418 --> 36:54.170
"poop" is.

36:54.253 --> 36:55.922
Thank--
sorry.

36:56.005 --> 36:57.465
Thank you very much, Finn.

36:57.548 --> 36:59.300
You're welcome.

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[indistinct announcement on PA]

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[somber, poignant music]

37:11.938 --> 37:17.026
♪

37:17.109 --> 37:21.572
♪

37:24.700 --> 37:29.664
♪

37:29.747 --> 37:33.626
♪

37:33.709 --> 37:37.088
♪

37:37.171 --> 37:38.673
Oh, yeah.
[chuckles]

37:50.643 --> 37:52.895
[Aria] Um…

37:52.979 --> 37:54.188
what is that?

37:54.272 --> 37:58.067
[exhales]
Um…

37:58.150 --> 38:00.528
It was supposed
to be a surprise.

38:00.611 --> 38:04.532
I know you were upset
about the ring.

38:04.615 --> 38:06.492
John…

38:06.575 --> 38:11.580
♪

38:11.664 --> 38:13.165
♪

38:13.249 --> 38:16.002
I love it.

38:16.085 --> 38:20.548
Oh my gosh…

38:20.631 --> 38:22.591
♪

38:22.675 --> 38:24.677
[John sighs]

38:28.514 --> 38:30.975
[Walter] Can I get a new one?

38:31.058 --> 38:32.393
[cash register beeps
and slides open]

38:32.476 --> 38:34.562
Oh, sorry.
I don't have any 20s.

38:34.645 --> 38:36.856
That's fine.
It's not that important.

38:36.939 --> 38:39.358
I do have two rolls of coins.

38:39.442 --> 38:42.403
["Look Up" by Joy Oladokun
playing]

38:42.486 --> 38:44.697
Sir?

38:44.780 --> 38:46.741
Sure.

38:46.824 --> 38:49.201
That'll be just fine.

38:49.285 --> 38:50.786
Thank you.

38:50.870 --> 38:55.750
♪ Sometimes your life feels
like a broken roller coaster ♪

38:55.833 --> 38:59.211
♪ A thousand useless
moving parts… ♪

39:01.380 --> 39:02.840
-Hey, Nate?
-Yeah?

39:02.923 --> 39:05.301
Ever play "Gotcha Last"?

39:05.384 --> 39:08.137
Next time, sweetie, okay?
It's time to go.

39:08.220 --> 39:09.138
It's okay.

39:09.221 --> 39:10.514
It's something
to look forward to.

39:10.598 --> 39:11.599
[Finn] Fine.

39:11.682 --> 39:12.600
♪

39:12.683 --> 39:14.810
Gotcha last!
[giggles]

39:15.811 --> 39:16.854
She loves to win.

39:16.937 --> 39:19.482
Yeah. So do I.
This isn't over yet.

39:19.565 --> 39:21.484
It was bloody good
to meet ya, Kris!

39:21.567 --> 39:23.903
Cheerio, Finn.

39:23.986 --> 39:25.112
Kid is a riot.

39:25.196 --> 39:26.364
Isn't she?

39:26.447 --> 39:29.241
-[phone ringing]
-Oh, yeah.

39:29.325 --> 39:30.868
I'll meet you
in the waiting room.

39:30.951 --> 39:32.411
-Yeah.
-[phone ringing]

39:32.495 --> 39:33.746
♪ Look up! ♪

39:33.829 --> 39:37.124
♪ Do you see the sunlight? ♪

39:37.208 --> 39:38.125
Hey, Mom.

39:38.209 --> 39:39.126
♪ Look up! ♪

39:39.210 --> 39:43.089
♪ There's flowers
in your hair ♪

39:43.172 --> 39:45.508
♪ Hold on,
'cause somebody… ♪

39:45.591 --> 39:47.968
Fine, give me a ticket.
I don't care.

39:48.052 --> 39:49.011
That's okay.

39:49.095 --> 39:50.179
I'm gonna fight it.

39:50.262 --> 39:51.889
I'm gonna make you go to court.

39:51.972 --> 39:53.349
♪

39:53.432 --> 39:55.351
You're in the city?

39:55.434 --> 39:56.936
Why didn't you tell me?

39:57.019 --> 39:58.813
Mom, Mom, Mom…

39:58.896 --> 40:01.440
That's not exactly
the whole story, okay?

40:01.524 --> 40:03.818
[muttering indistinctly]

40:03.901 --> 40:08.989
♪ Life can be beautiful
if you let it be ♪

40:09.073 --> 40:13.869
♪ Tomorrow keeps taunting you
with all kinds of mystery ♪

40:13.953 --> 40:16.330
♪ It's a blank page
for your poetry

40:16.413 --> 40:19.083
if you let it be ♪

40:19.166 --> 40:24.338
♪ So, don't tell yourself
it's raining ♪

40:24.422 --> 40:28.843
♪ The clouds are in your head ♪

40:28.926 --> 40:30.719
A-ha!

40:30.803 --> 40:33.013
No, I can't talk
about this right now.

40:33.097 --> 40:34.014
I…

40:34.098 --> 40:35.015
I have to go.

40:35.099 --> 40:36.684
I have to go.
Bye.

40:36.767 --> 40:38.227
♪ …before you fall again ♪

40:38.310 --> 40:40.146
♪ Before you lose it
all again ♪

40:40.229 --> 40:41.480
♪ Look up! ♪

40:41.564 --> 40:45.484
♪ Do you see the sunlight? ♪

40:45.568 --> 40:46.944
♪ Look up! ♪

40:47.027 --> 40:50.823
♪ There's flowers
in your hair ♪

40:50.906 --> 40:56.245
♪ Hold on,
'cause somebody loves you ♪

40:56.328 --> 40:59.123
♪ You know trouble's
always gonna be there ♪

40:59.206 --> 41:01.625
♪ Don't let it bring
you to your knees, yeah ♪

41:01.709 --> 41:03.461
♪ Look up! ♪

41:03.544 --> 41:06.964
♪

41:07.047 --> 41:09.383
♪ Look up! ♪

41:09.467 --> 41:12.595
♪

41:12.678 --> 41:14.763
♪ Trouble's always
gonna be there ♪

41:14.847 --> 41:17.683
♪ Look up! ♪

41:17.766 --> 41:20.186
♪ Don't let it bring you
to your knees ♪

41:20.269 --> 41:21.270
♪ Look up ♪

41:24.690 --> 41:28.486
♪♪

41:28.569 --> 41:33.491
♪♪

41:33.574 --> 41:38.496
♪♪

41:38.579 --> 41:43.500
♪♪

41:43.584 --> 41:47.505
♪♪

41:47.588 --> 41:50.174
♪♪
k up ♪