[woman] Why didn't you tell me about that job in Montana?
Look, I just want a quieter life.
But we are family no matter what.
Maybe also talk to your parents.
Let them know that you have cancer.
You got into the trial.
Did Nate get in too?
The doctor mentioned this experimental treatment option.
We are a family going through an extremely difficult time,
and I don't think that Nate can handle
anything more on his plate.
Maybe we should take some space.
Signing with Bessie Street could catapult your career.
I really wanted to build something special
and you're willing to throw it all away
because some big record label is flashing dollar signs
in front of your eyes.
[gentle music]
[narrator] Tell me,
what do you think is the meaning of life?
It's not what you've done.
It's who you are.
It's your heart.
That's the whole point of living, isn't it?
To have your heart connect with other hearts.
[gentle music]
[gentle music continues]
[Walter] You do have a storage unit, right?
Well, if it doesn't fit, it has to go.
Well, you gettin' ready to say goodbye
'cause you got a whole lot of stuff here.
Well, I used to have the space,
but no income and my astronomical rent.
I'd be on the streets in six months.
How much are they charging
for apartments these days anyway?
It's exorbitant.
Tell me a number.
It's ridiculous.
I'm too embarrassed.
See, now you just bragging.
Really wanna know?
You really wanna know, okay.
[Walter chuckles]
Wow, you really are a sucker.
Walter.
-That's a lot. -I know.
It was my dream apartment though.
Views from every window and now my view is a brick wall
or if I look at it at just the right angle, a dumpster.
I'm laughing so I don't cry.
Oh, come on.
Things are gonna turn around for you.
-I hope so. -Yeah.
I keep telling myself that I am not taking a step back.
Right?
I'm investing in my future.
It's not the end of the world
that the fridge is in the same room as the bed.
Right?
Don't say something fake to make me feel better.
-Okay. -Say something though.
Starting over at age 40.
Now wait a minute.
I was 41 when I met Brenda.
You never know what's gonna be coming next.
At least I try to tell myself that.
Yeah.
Have you seen Nate recently?
Here and there.
He's not at the bar much these days.
What about you?
No, not in a month or so.
I thought you two were dating or something.
No, our timing's always been
sort of horribly wrong.
Hope he's okay.
I gotta go by the bar.
Maybe wanna stop by
Uh, I probably shouldn't.
It's his turf.
I really want to be in his life,
but I just have to figure out when and how.
Just don't hold yourself up alone here in this shoebox.
Don't worry,
that fridge is a surprisingly good conversationalist.
Maybe I'll make myself go for a run
in this freezing cold weather.
Look, I got to jet, I got basketball plans
with the guys before I head over to Lumi later.
You take care, huh?
Be strong.
-See? -Yeah.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, okay, bye, bye.
Bye.
I remember being busy.
-Oh. -It's fine, it's fine.
-Okay, you got that? -Yeah.
It's just so weird.
What?
This new normal.
Still getting used to you being busier than me.
Ha.
So what's on the agenda today, rockstar?
Producer session
and then Carrie wants me to meet with some stylist
to go over my performance look.
That sounds pretty glam.
You don't look that excited.
No, I am.
I'm just adjusting
to this new commercial direction they want me to go in.
-It's exciting for sure. -[phone dings]
Oh my God.
-Oh my God. -What?
Whoa, everything okay?
Okay, I didn't mention anything to you
because I didn't think it was actually gonna happen,
but Vesey Street pitched me to open
for Brandi Carlisle on her winter tour
and I guess it's happening.
-What? -It's happening.
-That's amazing. -I opened the door.
Oh my god.
How long is this tour?
Uh, two months, I think.
That's a long time.
Not really for a tour.
Yeah, no, I know, I meant for you to be away.
Now you'll finally learn what it feels like to miss me.
[gentle music]
And you're gonna have the support you need
while you're away?
I'll have a whole entourage.
That's musical support.
I mean like mental.
Don't think I can handle being on the road?
-I didn't say that. -You kind of did.
I've just seen you at some pretty low lows.
You can't blame me for worrying.
I doubt myself enough as it is.
Okay?
I really don't need you doing it too.
[gentle music continues]
I feel like you're having doubts.
Uh, I doubt that.
Babe, I'm being serious.
I'm leaving for Montana in three weeks
and you still haven't made up your mind.
I know, I know.
I'm sorry, it's just like a lot to think about right now.
Well, the more you think about it, the more I feel like.
Like what?
Well, like I'm not enough.
Babe, you know that's not true.
That's how it feels.
I could say the same thing, couldn't I,
that I'm not enough to keep you in the city.
Yeah.
I guess.
I just love you.
I love you too so much,
so much just like, feels like one of us has to lose
and I don't want either of us to lose.
I know, I don't want that either,
but this in-between thing is torture.
Yeah, that's my fault.
I'm sorry, just gimme like one more night to think on it.
One.
Just one.
Thanks.
-Okay, it's settled. -That you gonna lose?
No, Brenda's estate
and I'm gonna charge you an extra hour for that.
Go ahead, it's worth it
not to have to deal with all that stuff.
You know, why don't somebody tell you
about all the business things
you gotta go through when someone passes?
Well, they do actually.
That's why she had a will.
Wills are so savage.
They let you know exactly where you really stand
and the worst part is they're not around
to see you get pissed.
I hope to God there's an afterlife
so my pops can explain some things.
Hey.
Well we know where Walt stood with Brenda
'cause she left him everything.
I would rather have her.
Yeah, of course, man.
Look, but I advise you to invest some of that money
or taxes will come and bite you.
No man, I don't know what to do with all that money.
Wanna invest in some college education?
It's not his fault that you had so many kids.
-So what? -Oh, come on man.
Look, I live a very modest life.
You know, I never thought about making any big purchases.
Well give it a think.
We got a little time.
-Yeah, we do. -Yeah.
Right, okay, look, hey, look,
maybe I'll take a little trip or something,
but for right now,
I am going to tear you apart on the court.
Bring it.
[all cheering]
-There it is, baby. -Watch yourself now.
Look at that, look at that.
-Who got the ball now? -[upbeat music]
-Kris, Kris. -Oh.
Sorry, I'm so sorry.
I've been here for an hour hoping this is still your route.
I'm sorry for everything.
I need you to know that I know that I messed up.
You saved me.
I will never forgive myself for hurting you.
Uh, thanks.
Is that all?
What can I do?
How can I make this better, please?
Please, we can't not be friends.
I don't even like that many people
and I know you don't either.
Oh, bloody hell just come here.
Still mad at you, by the way.
Come on, let's go get a coffee.
-Hey, you. -Hi.
Are those for sharing
or did you bring them just for you?
Oh, I just got this for me, but I can go get you some.
No, no, no, no, it's fine.
I was just asking.
Okay, that's it.
What's up?
I have noticed you getting annoyed with me a lot lately.
Really?
I haven't felt annoyed.
What?
-I haven't. -Okay.
But it would be okay if you were.
I'm sure you had a way of doing things with your wife
and living with someone else
must be a big adjustment for you.
I mean, sure,
but I have been managing it well.
Of course you have.
I just, I know that we wouldn't be spending every night
together so soon if my building
hadn't become a mold factory.
Anyway, they said that I can move back into my place
in the next couple of days.
I am happy for you to stay as long as you need.
Thank you.
Okay.
-I would say the lip. -Same.
[woman on TV] Not for me.
For a long time.
[man on TV] I simply thought this.
-Yet those who survived now. -I swear I'm gonna lose it.
These expenses just keep climbing.
I know I'm doing my part, hmm.
I should have my face on the wall, really.
-Mhmm. -You should.
I'm working on that, Walter.
It doesn't matter how business is doing.
I feel like we packed this place most nights
and we're still in the red.
Is this a bad time to tell you
that my paycheck still hasn't arrived yet?
-Of course. -It's fine.
-I'm free right now. -It's okay.
I will cut one for you right now.
-No worries, brother. -Let me help you.
You already did.
No, I mean, financially.
I just settled Brenda's estate
and my buddy, Al, he advised me to invest in something.
Let me invest in Lumi.
-No. -Dude.
I'm sorry, no, I, I meant no thank you.
Come on, Nate.
I'm here all the time anyway.
Let's make it official, hmm?
That is a very kind offer, but I got it.
I'll figure it out.
I'm not being kind.
I believe in your business.
You know, I wouldn't even need a title.
We're definitely gonna need free wine,
so if that's a deal breaker.
Nate, are you all right?
[dramatic music]
[dramatic music continues]
I feel bad even talking to you about this.
Oh, what's done is done.
I'm sad we're not working together,
but I would be highly annoyed
if you didn't tell me what's going on.
Okay.
Mhmm.
I'm going on tour opening for Brandi Carlisle.
It's too soon, right, yeah.
What do you mean too soon?
It's incredible.
Yeah, I'm out of my mind excited.
You know, do you think
that it would be too much for me to handle?
Oh God, I'm so bored of telling you how talented you are.
Oh, you know where I was a few months ago mentally.
I could barely leave the house.
I see you now and you're ready.
You really think so?
-It's a no brainer. -[phones dinging]
[dramatic music]
Oh my God.
He has a serious infection.
Now it's obviously very dangerous
since his immune system is so compromised from the chemo
and they're gonna admit him so we can monitor him
and administer some antibiotics.
Now, these next 24 hours will be crucial
to know what we're dealing with,
but for right now, all we can do is wait.
-Yeah. -Yeah.
He'll be all right.
Thanks for being here, guys.
Yeah.
Okay, I'll be back.
[gentle music]
Hey.
Claire, can I have a blanket?
Can I have a blanket?
I'm sorry, but you actually can't, okay,
because your fever's really high,
so warming you up anymore would be a little too risky.
Oh, you're doing so good.
[gentle music]
Hey, why don't you come and sit down, Kris.
Ah, it's okay.
I'm honestly not sure I belong here anyway.
Well, let me be clear about something.
Please, come.
Sit.
You do belong here
and I have no question in my mind that Nate would agree.
Absolutely.
There's no way we're letting you leave.
It is quite remarkable, you know.
What?
Well, how important you all have become to me
knowing you for just a few short months.
[gentle music]
I'm here to talk if you need.
Yeah, I do need to talk.
I need to talk to Rebecca.
There's no way I can go to Montana.
It seems like a pretty big oversight
for you not to tell us.
But it was Nate's decision and he's an adult
and I had to respect his wishes.
Not when it's life and death.
We have some connections in the medical community.
We need to get him out of here right now.
Call Bernard.
Maybe we can get a transfer today.
No, he's staying here.
Claire, we're not asking.
Frankly, I don't care, Lewis.
You might have medical connections.
I'm a medical professional, so I'm going to tell you
that it would be a death sentence
to relocate him in the condition that he's in.
He's staying here.
Fine, he can stay here until he's stable.
With respect, this isn't your lane, it's mine
With respect, he's our son and you two are separated.
Do you know that this is the last thing
that Nate needs right now,
but if you wanna do something to be supportive and helpful,
then why don't you go
and be grandparents for a change and watch Anna.
You're telling us to leave?
I am.
I'll keep you posted.
[gentle music]
It's a bit of a fixer upper,
but the architecture is just prototypical historic New York.
Absolutely, it's just marvelous.
It's just like an old Roth building.
Mom used to be in real estate,
which is why she wanted to tag along.
Of course, take a look around.
What I wanna do is I wanna make combination music venue
and wine bar
and I think this place is very well suited for it.
I could, I could, yeah,
I could put built-in booths along the windows there,
do diner style booths here
all the way down to this area,
which leads to the stage right there.
Yeah, that's the stage.
And then I really wanna honor the history of the building,
so the brick that's already here, just leave that exposed,
bar would be here,
and then behind that I could do the library ladders,
you know, and do maybe one of those
so that we'd have access to the wine bottles,
which will line the walls because I think, sorry, yes.
I think what I'm trying to say is that it's kind of perfect.
We will need an inspection at your expense, of course.
-Hey, Dad, I got it. -Yeah.
I'm glad you're responding so positively.
It really is a special space.
Yeah, it is.
So in terms of budget, what are we looking at?
Yeah, here you go.
[gentle music continues]
I'm sorry, this is out of my price range.
Huh, says the boy who spent half his trust
backpacking around Europe.
Well, it wasn't like I was on vacation.
I was about to start a business
and I was doing this sommelier programme.
Right, right, so drinking.
Or getting menu concepts, gathering antiques to-
So eating and shopping.
[woman laughing]
Yeah, so very inspirational place,
but unfortunately can't swing in right now.
[gentle music continues]
Hey, you're awake.
Were my parents here?
They were, actually,
but they left to go watch Anna.
-I feel very strained. -Yeah.
-Yeah, feel very. -Hey, look at me, look at me.
It's just the infection.
Okay, your body's just fighting really, really hard.
You're doing so good.
All right.
All you gotta do is rest, okay?
We'll take care of everything else.
♪ People find faith ♪
♪ So now I pray to Jesus ♪
♪ Ooo, yeah, soon you'll get better ♪
♪ Ooo, ah, you'll get better soon ♪
♪ Because you have to ♪
[gentle music continues]
-I can leave. -It's fine.
This doesn't feel real,
but it is
and I think I'm suffocating.
I keep telling Nate he's gonna beat this,
but I don't know that.
So what am I supposed to do?
Tell him the truth?
And when do I tell Anna?
She doesn't even know that he's here
because I don't wanna traumatize her for no reason,
but things happen so fast.
What if she doesn't get to say goodbye to her dad?
And who am I to be making these calls?
I have to figure out
when my daughter's last moment with her dad is gonna be.
There's this part of me
that wishes I could somehow have warned
my younger self about this.
I was so naive when Nate and I got together
and for years at my job,
I watched people grieve their loved ones.
I just never imagined that would be me.
[gentle music continues]
Ugh, that's so good.
Cried through all my tissues.
[gentle music continues]
Thanks.
[gentle music continues]
He can have visitors now if you wanna see him.
[gentle music continues]
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♪ We'll go back where we started from ♪
♪ To a field by sea ♪
♪ Watching waves without a care ♪
♪ Where the time might be going ♪
[gentle music]
[gentle music continues]
I've missed you.
[gentle music continues]
[Tara] You got Kris' order, right?
Two turkeys, two Italian, and one vegan.
Okay, who's the vegan?
I'm a sometimes vegan.
I'm a Beyonce vegan.
Oh, I thought it might be Alice.
Hey, did I tell you
that they decided to stay in New York?
Yeah, you know, it's a hard call, but I think it's mature.
Those two can't be abandoning their dreams
for each other when they're still so young.
Excuse me.
-Really? -Mhmm.
I was gonna tell 'em that it wasn't too late
for them to change their mind
'cause when you find love, you should follow it
wherever it takes you.
Well, that's easy for you to say.
You met the love of your life in your 40s.
-Look. -Look at this.
One, thank you.
I would've followed Brenda even if we met at 19, okay?
Well, of course, as a straight man, it's an easy move,
but some of us don't have the freedom
to move just anywhere.
Montana is not New York.
-Okay. -Sorry to interrupt,
but were you just gonna keep talking
about my life without my input?
I apologize for caring.
That's okay.
You can talk about my love life
as long as I can talk about yours.
Oh boy.
Well go on.
What do you have to say about it?
-Sylvie's amazing. -I agree.
So why do you keep trying
to find something wrong with her?
Are you guys serious?
Yeah, well, I'm sorry for caring.
Oh, come on.
I don't know, I think you guys
have something really special going on
and you should hold onto it.
-You heard that, right? -Okay, I'm listening.
-Great. -Enough.
-Good. -Onwards and forwards.
Poke, poke into my relationship.
-Okay, open 'em. -Surprise.
Oh, oh, wait a minute.
I'm so sorry, I don't really,
I don't get it.
It's yours.
We made the down payment.
Well, you're welcome.
No, it's, sorry.
Yes, thank you, thank you so much.
I'm a little shocked.
I was actually trying to save up
for something a little bit more modest than this.
He was just already in the process
of looking for investors.
Well, now he doesn't have to.
Come on, son, take the gift.
It's what you really wanted, isn't it?
So it, I mean, it is.
Well then congratulations, you are now a business owner.
Yeah, thank you.
This means a lot.
I'm gonna test out your new wine bar's bathroom.
Okay, it's back.
-It's actually this direction. -I got it.
Are are you gonna be long?
She's great, right?
She is.
Very, very sweet.
And did she tell you she's studying to be a nurse?
She's not marriage material,
but there's plenty of time for that.
You're still very young.
-[keys rattling] -Oh.
Claire.
Hey.
You okay?
Yeah, yeah.
I'm sorry.
Oh, what are you sorry about?
I'm sorry for how things ended between us.
It wasn't entirely your fault.
I think it was actually a lot my fault.
I wasn't exactly marriage material.
I never told you I heard that, huh?
-No, you didn't. -Yeah, I did.
-Loud and clear. -I'm sorry.
Hey, I want you to know,
I don't regret us at all.
Yeah. I mean, we wouldn't have Anna.
She's the most.
Oh, Claire,
you have always been here for me when you didn't have to,
okay, and I will always be there for you.
[gentle music]
[machine beeping]
Hi, sweetie.
Hi.
Huh, where's Anna?
Where's Anna right now?
Oh, she's with your father.
-Okay. -I wanted to come
and visit you in spite of Claire.
She told us to leave.
I mean.
Then why don't you leave?
I know you think you're helping, but you can leave.
Okay?
I have all the help that I need.
Well.
If that's what you really want.
I won't stand in your way.
Mom.
Thank you.
[gentle music]
[Ellis] Nate really needs me right now.
So do I.
No, you don't.
You need me to let you go.
I always thought love was enough,
but when you want two different things, it's not,
I just don't ever want to
stop you from pursuing what makes you happy.
You make me happy.
I know, I know, but New York doesn't
and that's where I want to be.
This is,
this is my home.
But are you sure?
[Ellis] Yes.
Because you would look so cute in a snowsuit.
Oh, girl, girl I know.
-A little fur. -Excuse me.
I'm still waiting on my Malbec.
-It's just we. -Yeah, don't worry about it.
-Okay. -Yeah.
-Yeah, you. -Continue.
Yeah.
Uh, got it.
You really like pushing this thing to its limits?
What can I say, I like to reach maximum capacity.
Okay, well, I guess this is goodbye,
not like goodbye forever,
just bye to me being all up in your business.
Yeah.
I was thinking about what you said
and there's some truth to it.
Maybe I do have some unfair reactions
to the way you do things
just because it's different
from the routine I had with my wife.
That's not fair to you.
I appreciate you saying that.
I can only imagine what it's like for you
and I know that it's tough,
but I just want you to know
that I'm not trying to be some replacement for Dana.
I'm not threatened by your love for her.
I honestly think it's beautiful.
I actually think you two would've gotten along.
Even though I don't bring your strawberries?
Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay.
I gotta ask, now that I'm getting outta your hair,
what else did I do that bothered you?
Oh, no, no, no, no, not doing that.
Come on, I can take it.
It's like I'm gonna stop doing any of it for the record.
I'm just curious.
-Come on. -For one, this.
You won't drop anything until you get your way.
That's true, I won't.
Go on.
You ask so many questions when we watch TV.
I can't tell what's going on because you never stop talking.
I get confused.
Yeah because you're always on your phone.
You can't watch two screens at once.
There, we survived.
By the skin of our teeth.
Okay, oh, and you can go ahead
and flip the toilet roll back the wrong way.
Yep, I noticed.
It's the right way, you know.
-It's the right way. -Wrong way.
[dramatic music]
Oh no, nurse, intruder, intruder in my room.
-Very funny. -I thought so.
Is it chemo day?
-Not today. -Were you sick too?
Yeah, but I'm better than you.
Better than I feel crappy than you.
When you get out of here, I have something for you.
Why are you so sad?
It's all right.
I don't want to get into it, you're just a kid.
No, come on.
I'm scared I won't get well again.
And that if this is the end,
there's a lot that I'm gonna miss.
There's so much that I didn't do
and I,
I wish I had accomplished a lot more.
Is that too deep?
No, it's just pretty bold to tell a 9-year-old with cancer
that you haven't accomplished much.
Mhmm.
Tell me, what do you think is the meaning of life?
Okay, now that's deep.
Let me explain it this way.
What do you want people to say at your funeral?
I was charming and hilarious.
I want them to say that I was a good dad,
yeah,
and then I was a good friend.
I hope they use a pre-cancer photo on the programme.
-See? -What?
It's not what you've done, it's who you are.
It's your heart.
That's the whole point of living, isn't it?
To have your heart connect with other hearts.
Yeah, you're right.
What's that?
I said you're right.
Sorry, one more time.
I said you are right.
Thank you, Finn.
You're welcome.
Oh, and you know what else?
What?
Got you last.
-[Finn giggles] -[gentle music]
-Oh my god, solid food. -I know.
That's my big boy.
Oh yeah, I understand I was on my deathbed,
but I will crush you after I crush this bagel.
I know you're not that strong,
even when you're well, my sir.
-Uh oh. -Oh no.
Uh oh, why uh oh?
Usually whenever you walk into a room that I'm in,
it's to deliver crushingly bad news, so bet on me.
I am sorry to disappoint,
but today I have something good to share.
Spot opened up in the clinical trial.
You're in.
-Really? -Yes.
That is, that's good news.
You said good news to me that.
But you're still neutropenic.
Ah, there's Dr. Ross that I know and love.
It's a white blood cell thing.
So let's get those numbers up to a better spot
before we travel you.
Then we'll get you to Houston
as soon as you're stable enough.
Thank you.
-That's crazy. -Okay.
-I guess I'm. -Oh my god.
I guess I'm going to Texas.
I just wanted to pop by before you left town.
Yeah, sure.
I don't have a lot of time, though.
I figured.
You've been so busy these days.
I got you some things.
When your dad would go on tour,
he always wanted his own blanket and pillow.
I love that.
Yeah, so I bought you a little travel size set.
I also threw in some accessories
I thought might be cool on stage.
There's like no pressure to wear them.
Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom.
This is really thoughtful.
-Thank you. -You're welcome.
You know I was at the Lumi show.
Yes, I know, John told me.
You were so weird for not saying hi,
but I am really glad you came.
I was worried it would throw you off.
You were incredible.
-Yeah, -Yeah.
Oh, don't act like you don't know that.
[both laughing]
I will say it did feel pretty great.
I know I'm a big part of why you ran away from music
and I'm so glad music caught back up to you.
Thank you, Mom.
-I love you. -I love you, too.
[gentle music]
You're too quiet.
Are you broken now?
Interesting.
-Aw. -[gentle music]
♪ But it doesn't matter ♪
♪ I'm here with you now ♪
♪ And I'll hold your hand ♪
♪ through all the darkness 'til your sun comes out ♪
Chateau Simone.
Something rouge and it's on me.
Pale.
Merci.
[gentle music]
Oh, that's nice.
♪ Don't let your dust get in your eyes ♪
♪ I know we can only go up from here ♪
Hey.
Sorry I'm late.
Oh my God.
Oh.
We've been waiting months to see you.
What's another 10 minutes?
♪ Same old day, same old cry ♪
♪ Same old heartbeat on the inside ♪
♪ I know we can only go up from here ♪
How are you feeling?
Forget me, how are you now?
I'm doing all right, man.
♪ I know we can only go up from here ♪
Come in.
Angela, I really hope you're not crying for me.
I'm very much kicking and feeling.
What's going on?
It's Finn.
Is she okay?
Her health took a turn and
she didn't make it.
She didn't make.
I'm sorry, Angela, I don't really understand right now
because she was here last night.
Angela, I held her hand.
She was here.
No, she passed yesterday morning.
♪ Rising water line ♪
Uh.
I don't,
♪ While the sky is finally open ♪
I don't think so.
Dr. Ross came in earlier
and said that I got a spot.
The one that opened up in the clinical trial,
was that her spot?
♪ That there's always been a rainbow ♪
♪ Hanging over your head ♪
[Angela] Her parents knew you two had a special bond.
Oh God.
[Angela] They just wanted to make sure you heard.
♪ Over ♪
Okay, um.
Could you get Dr. Ross, please?
Can you get me out of this, please?
-♪ It'll all be all right ♪ -[gentle music]
[gentle music]
[gentle music continues]
ht ♪ -[gentle music]