WEBVTT 00:01:09.166 --> 00:01:10.125 align:center Good. 00:03:11.166 --> 00:03:17.708 align:center I can't even taste my own tears 00:03:18.583 --> 00:03:20.458 align:center They fall into 00:03:20.541 --> 00:03:26.583 align:center An even sadder bastard's eyes 00:03:27.500 --> 00:03:34.333 align:center Yeah, I'm… I'm a TV on the road 00:03:36.625 --> 00:03:43.625 align:center Yeah, I'm… I'm getting up to leave 00:03:47.041 --> 00:03:51.125 align:center You don't know what it means to me that you've all welcomed me into your family, 00:03:51.208 --> 00:03:55.708 align:center and I just want to say thank you. 00:03:55.791 --> 00:03:57.166 align:center And, um… 00:03:58.250 --> 00:04:00.916 align:center Nothing. I just… I hope you can forgive me. 00:04:04.958 --> 00:04:07.625 align:center I don't really play with toys like this anymore. 00:04:07.708 --> 00:04:10.666 align:center I want a video camera. A nice one. 00:04:10.750 --> 00:04:15.041 align:center Oh, well, I don't… It was just more of a… a gesture. 00:04:16.583 --> 00:04:18.125 align:center Write it in a card instead. 00:04:19.708 --> 00:04:22.000 align:center That's actually a good idea. 00:04:22.083 --> 00:04:24.541 align:center There's card stock in the junk drawer. 00:04:32.083 --> 00:04:33.000 align:center Thanks. 00:05:13.791 --> 00:05:15.250 align:center Sorry, ma'am. 00:05:15.333 --> 00:05:16.916 align:center Holy fuck! 00:05:26.833 --> 00:05:29.291 align:center Hi. Who are you talking to? 00:05:29.375 --> 00:05:32.541 align:center I'm just on hold with, um, neurosurgery at Johns Hopkins. 00:05:32.625 --> 00:05:34.875 align:center I talked to this guy at UCSF. He was, like, a total dick. 00:05:34.958 --> 00:05:37.708 align:center But there's this world-renowned surgeon in Paris I'm gonna try next. 00:05:37.791 --> 00:05:39.833 align:center -He's done promising new research. -Why? 00:05:41.000 --> 00:05:42.208 align:center To help my mom. 00:05:42.291 --> 00:05:44.125 align:center Honey, I don't think she's looking for help. 00:05:44.208 --> 00:05:46.416 align:center You know what I realized? It's a brain tumor. 00:05:46.500 --> 00:05:50.500 align:center You know, I think the tumor, it's, like, messing with her head. 00:05:50.583 --> 00:05:52.750 align:center It's, uh… it's, like, clouding her judgment. 00:05:53.333 --> 00:05:55.666 align:center You know, I just… It makes total sense. 00:05:55.750 --> 00:05:57.250 align:center You know, she's doing fine. 00:05:57.333 --> 00:05:59.000 align:center She seems like herself, 00:05:59.083 --> 00:06:02.708 align:center except for this one insane decision she's made, and I just… 00:06:06.791 --> 00:06:08.375 align:center She doesn't need to die. 00:06:09.291 --> 00:06:12.208 align:center She needs the best neurosurgeon in the world. 00:06:12.291 --> 00:06:14.791 align:center And I don't know why Jules isn't calling everyone he knows. 00:06:14.875 --> 00:06:17.291 align:center Actually, he might know someone who knows this doctor at Sinai. 00:06:17.375 --> 00:06:19.958 align:center -Take a shower and get dressed. -I'm in the middle of something. 00:06:20.041 --> 00:06:21.333 align:center -This is important! -Nicky. 00:06:21.416 --> 00:06:23.375 align:center This is the most important thing to me. 00:06:26.000 --> 00:06:27.250 align:center Let's postpone the wedding. 00:06:30.458 --> 00:06:31.375 align:center Are you serious? 00:06:31.458 --> 00:06:34.416 align:center No, so you can focus on the most important thing to you. 00:06:35.041 --> 00:06:36.916 align:center I didn't mean it like that. I… 00:06:37.000 --> 00:06:40.750 align:center I don't mean it like that either. I mean that your mom dropped a huge bomb on you, 00:06:40.833 --> 00:06:44.375 align:center and yeah, it is more important than the wedding. And… 00:06:45.875 --> 00:06:50.375 align:center I don't know. Maybe we don't want to get married under these circumstances. 00:06:56.375 --> 00:06:57.500 align:center Come here. 00:07:09.500 --> 00:07:10.500 align:center Who's that? 00:07:11.291 --> 00:07:12.458 align:center Mmm? 00:07:12.541 --> 00:07:14.166 align:center Who's that little guy? 00:07:14.666 --> 00:07:16.416 align:center Oh… 00:07:17.875 --> 00:07:23.250 align:center This is my dumb apology for, like, tactlessly unearthing your family secret. 00:07:26.000 --> 00:07:28.125 align:center We can have the wedding as planned this week. 00:07:28.208 --> 00:07:30.541 align:center This doesn't change anything for us. 00:07:31.041 --> 00:07:31.958 align:center Yeah. 00:07:33.958 --> 00:07:35.458 align:center But it does, like… 00:07:37.583 --> 00:07:39.000 align:center It does change a lot. 00:07:41.250 --> 00:07:43.541 align:center I'm not gonna let it get in the way of our wedding. 00:07:47.416 --> 00:07:48.416 align:center I'm with you. 00:07:50.541 --> 00:07:52.416 align:center -Really? -Mm-hmm. I'm with you. 00:07:52.916 --> 00:07:54.125 align:center 4ever? 00:07:54.208 --> 00:07:55.166 align:center 4ever. 00:07:57.541 --> 00:07:58.625 align:center -What? -Oh! Portia! 00:07:58.708 --> 00:08:00.708 align:center Where's the dress? It needs to be altered. 00:08:00.791 --> 00:08:03.333 align:center I have 500 things I have to do. Nicky, stop touching her! 00:08:03.416 --> 00:08:05.250 align:center The table man delivered eight tables-- 00:08:05.333 --> 00:08:06.541 align:center -Nicky, stop. Ew! -I'm helping. 00:08:06.625 --> 00:08:09.458 align:center -The caterer needs the menu finalized. -Okay, let me help you. 00:08:10.458 --> 00:08:11.291 align:center What? 00:08:11.875 --> 00:08:12.833 align:center Let me help you. 00:08:13.666 --> 00:08:15.083 align:center The dress is in there. 00:08:15.166 --> 00:08:17.333 align:center Nicky's suit is in there. What else do you need? 00:08:19.500 --> 00:08:21.916 align:center By the way, I haven't gotten to say thank you, Portia, for-- 00:08:22.000 --> 00:08:23.666 align:center I saw your cake. 00:08:23.750 --> 00:08:25.416 align:center -Oh, yeah. -And I read your card. 00:08:26.166 --> 00:08:28.375 align:center You know what's weird? I have to ask you something. 00:08:28.458 --> 00:08:30.750 align:center You thought we were gonna kill you? 00:08:31.333 --> 00:08:34.000 align:center No offense, but that's kind of an insane conclusion to draw. 00:08:34.083 --> 00:08:36.125 align:center Did someone try to kill you once or something? 00:08:36.208 --> 00:08:38.875 align:center -No. No. -Then why did you think that? 00:08:38.958 --> 00:08:41.166 align:center It's just how my brain works. 00:08:45.000 --> 00:08:50.125 align:center Like, right now, I… I feel like there's someone standing behind this door. 00:09:01.833 --> 00:09:03.500 align:center I googled you, you know. 00:09:04.250 --> 00:09:05.875 align:center It's like you don't even exist. 00:09:08.750 --> 00:09:12.041 align:center No social media, no LinkedIn, not even, like, high school sports stats. 00:09:12.125 --> 00:09:14.125 align:center Either you didn't play sports, or you weren't good. 00:09:14.208 --> 00:09:15.750 align:center I was homeschooled, actually. 00:09:15.833 --> 00:09:19.958 align:center So I played the sport of, like, trying not to be a total freak. 00:09:20.041 --> 00:09:22.208 align:center But I don't think that it worked. 00:09:22.291 --> 00:09:24.541 align:center Yeah, I'm like the opposite. 00:09:24.625 --> 00:09:26.625 align:center I never thought anyone was trying to kill me. 00:09:33.041 --> 00:09:36.125 align:center -Whoa, when did all this happen? -Hey. Hey. 00:09:36.208 --> 00:09:39.958 align:center What is this? It's supposed to be live-edge cedar. 00:09:40.041 --> 00:09:41.250 align:center These are like sticks. 00:09:41.333 --> 00:09:44.416 align:center This is a tasteful wedding, not the Blair Witch Project. 00:09:44.500 --> 00:09:46.666 align:center This is what you ordered. Rustic beechwood. 00:09:46.750 --> 00:09:48.291 align:center Rustic beechwood. 00:09:48.375 --> 00:09:50.791 align:center Look around you, man. I don't see a fucking beach. Um… 00:09:50.875 --> 00:09:53.791 align:center The wedding theme is forest of love. Could I talk to Dominick? 00:09:53.875 --> 00:09:56.708 align:center He doesn't do consults after his work's been approved. You approved. 00:09:56.791 --> 00:09:59.583 align:center Well, no, I didn't approve this. This is not my vision. 00:09:59.666 --> 00:10:01.708 align:center Hey, Portia. Come here. Look. 00:10:01.791 --> 00:10:05.083 align:center I… I think that this… this is actually gonna look really nice. 00:10:05.166 --> 00:10:06.375 align:center -No. -Yeah, it is. It is. 00:10:06.458 --> 00:10:08.208 align:center They're gonna do that thing here. 00:10:08.291 --> 00:10:10.666 align:center And I think, I mean, they have a plan. You guys have a plan. 00:10:10.750 --> 00:10:11.916 align:center Of course we have a plan. 00:10:12.000 --> 00:10:13.708 align:center This stick goes there, that stick goes there. 00:10:13.791 --> 00:10:15.916 align:center -I'm not tipping him. -It makes an arch. 00:10:16.000 --> 00:10:19.166 align:center Portia, I think the flowers look really nice. 00:10:19.250 --> 00:10:22.833 align:center -I think that's gonna look nice too-- -These aren't the flowers, Rachel. 00:10:24.708 --> 00:10:25.541 align:center Mmm… What? 00:10:26.166 --> 00:10:29.250 align:center Well, they're fake. They're fake. The real ones come day of. 00:10:29.333 --> 00:10:31.625 align:center What? Portia, that's crazy. 00:10:32.375 --> 00:10:34.041 align:center These are… these are perfectly arranged. 00:10:34.125 --> 00:10:36.000 align:center They're ready to go. Why don't we just use these? 00:10:37.750 --> 00:10:40.416 align:center We obviously need real flowers, Rachel. 00:10:40.500 --> 00:10:42.875 align:center Do you want your wedding to look like a hospital waiting room? 00:10:42.958 --> 00:10:46.166 align:center God, I did this arrangement in advance so I could actually see it. 00:10:46.250 --> 00:10:49.166 align:center We've always envisioned a winter wedding at Somerhouse. 00:10:49.250 --> 00:10:50.875 align:center Went back and forth about the color scheme. 00:10:50.958 --> 00:10:52.458 align:center Rust, sage, evergreen, and white. 00:10:52.541 --> 00:10:56.291 align:center But there is just too much rust and not enough sage. Here, take these. 00:10:57.333 --> 00:10:59.041 align:center I think it's… 00:10:59.666 --> 00:11:01.416 align:center They look pretty perfect to me. 00:11:01.500 --> 00:11:03.166 align:center You can't be trusted with flowers. 00:11:03.250 --> 00:11:05.375 align:center You brought white lilies, funeral flowers. 00:11:07.333 --> 00:11:09.750 align:center -Fuck. -Of course you didn't know. 00:11:09.833 --> 00:11:12.958 align:center Apparently you grew up homeschooled in some ditch or something. 00:11:15.458 --> 00:11:16.875 align:center Whoa. 00:11:19.541 --> 00:11:21.958 align:center -Thanks. -You know, I don't understand you at all. 00:11:22.041 --> 00:11:24.166 align:center Who's your maid of honor? What's your walk song? 00:11:24.250 --> 00:11:26.000 align:center Do you have anyone to walk you down the aisle? 00:11:26.083 --> 00:11:27.583 align:center It's okay, Portia. You really… You… 00:11:27.666 --> 00:11:30.791 align:center -You don't have to worry about this. -I do have to worry about it. 00:11:30.875 --> 00:11:33.750 align:center Because you're not worried, and someone has to fucking worry. 00:11:34.333 --> 00:11:35.166 align:center Okay. 00:11:39.500 --> 00:11:41.666 align:center Okay. I will 00:11:43.000 --> 00:11:44.708 align:center walk myself down the aisle. 00:11:44.791 --> 00:11:50.791 align:center I don't know. I don't know what song yet, but I promise you I will… I will pick one. 00:11:52.291 --> 00:11:53.125 align:center Okay? 00:11:54.541 --> 00:11:56.250 align:center Will you be my maid of honor? 00:11:59.000 --> 00:12:00.500 align:center Would you do that for me? 00:12:02.958 --> 00:12:06.291 align:center The caterer called, and they don't have everyone's final meal choice, so… 00:12:06.375 --> 00:12:07.500 align:center Okay. Great. 00:12:07.583 --> 00:12:10.916 align:center Then I will ask everyone here what they want. What are the options? 00:12:11.000 --> 00:12:11.833 align:center Chicken or fish. 00:12:11.916 --> 00:12:14.500 align:center -Okay. And veggie option? -I will light you on fire. 00:12:22.583 --> 00:12:25.416 align:center Come in. You can help me. 00:12:30.083 --> 00:12:32.375 align:center Which do you think best captures… 00:12:32.458 --> 00:12:33.291 align:center Oh my God. 00:12:33.375 --> 00:12:34.416 align:center …his spirit? 00:12:39.708 --> 00:12:41.041 align:center He's so cute. 00:12:43.416 --> 00:12:44.583 align:center This one. 00:12:45.333 --> 00:12:47.833 align:center Oh! Oh, I don't have one of you. 00:12:47.916 --> 00:12:50.541 align:center -Oh, no. Don't worry. That's totally fine. -Mm-mm, mm-mm. 00:12:50.625 --> 00:12:52.041 align:center Oh, no, no, no, no. Please. I don't… 00:12:52.125 --> 00:12:55.000 align:center I don't want to disturb you. I just wanted to ask you if… 00:12:55.500 --> 00:12:56.625 align:center if you wanted 00:12:58.166 --> 00:12:59.916 align:center chicken or fish for the wedding? 00:13:00.000 --> 00:13:02.875 align:center I want to be buried with my whole family. 00:13:14.833 --> 00:13:15.750 align:center Do you want it? 00:13:16.291 --> 00:13:19.541 align:center I'm… I'm getting rid of my attachment to all things. 00:13:19.625 --> 00:13:21.166 align:center -Thanks. -Mm-hmm. 00:13:24.916 --> 00:13:27.166 align:center Do you know where Dr. Cunningham is? 00:13:27.250 --> 00:13:30.333 align:center He's probably in his dungeon working on the dog. 00:13:31.625 --> 00:13:35.791 align:center Now that he's finished the grave, he needs something else to fixate on. 00:13:36.375 --> 00:13:41.375 align:center Oh, and that's all right if that's how he wants to spend his last days with me. 00:13:49.083 --> 00:13:50.750 align:center Can I ask you something? 00:13:51.791 --> 00:13:53.500 align:center Do you think that everyone 00:13:55.166 --> 00:13:57.958 align:center is dealing okay? I mean, with… 00:14:00.250 --> 00:14:01.250 align:center …with your death? 00:14:02.125 --> 00:14:05.000 align:center Well… …how could they be? I mean… 00:14:06.291 --> 00:14:08.666 align:center Well, you know, they could be talking to each other about it. 00:14:08.750 --> 00:14:11.083 align:center They could be leaning on each other. 00:14:11.166 --> 00:14:13.500 align:center They could be processing it all with you. 00:14:16.291 --> 00:14:19.541 align:center There are doulas for these situations, someone who can help you-- 00:14:19.625 --> 00:14:21.041 align:center Have you dealt with it? 00:14:23.666 --> 00:14:25.208 align:center With what? With your death? 00:14:25.291 --> 00:14:27.625 align:center With yours. Your mother's, I mean. 00:14:30.000 --> 00:14:33.458 align:center My mother died before I knew her. There was nothing left to deal with. 00:14:38.625 --> 00:14:39.875 align:center Well, I know that 00:14:40.958 --> 00:14:42.708 align:center you grew up without a mother. 00:14:43.208 --> 00:14:47.250 align:center But it would be naive to think that just because you didn't know your mother, 00:14:47.333 --> 00:14:48.791 align:center you don't have to deal with all this. 00:14:48.875 --> 00:14:51.333 align:center It doesn't go away if you close your eyes real tight. 00:14:51.416 --> 00:14:56.000 align:center You didn't just suddenly exist. You came from… 00:14:57.750 --> 00:15:03.041 align:center somewhere, and when you die, you will leave somewhere behind. 00:15:04.250 --> 00:15:06.833 align:center "There was nothing left"? 00:15:07.666 --> 00:15:09.083 align:center You are what's left. 00:15:15.458 --> 00:15:16.416 align:center I'll have both. 00:15:17.500 --> 00:15:19.083 align:center Chicken and fish. Why not? 00:15:44.916 --> 00:15:50.083 align:center Baby, why am I missing you 00:15:51.333 --> 00:15:56.083 align:center When I ought to be kissing you? 00:15:57.125 --> 00:16:02.500 align:center Tell me our love has just begun 00:16:03.916 --> 00:16:08.500 align:center You're my only one… 00:16:13.458 --> 00:16:15.583 align:center You shouldn't sleep in the bathtub. 00:16:15.666 --> 00:16:17.125 align:center I wasn't sleeping. 00:16:17.208 --> 00:16:19.458 align:center I had to give a girl CPR once in college. 00:16:19.541 --> 00:16:21.541 align:center I had to give her chest compressions and everything. 00:16:21.625 --> 00:16:23.333 align:center Yeah, that is what CPR is. 00:16:23.416 --> 00:16:25.000 align:center The girl drowned, Jules. 00:16:26.083 --> 00:16:27.000 align:center Guess how. 00:16:27.583 --> 00:16:29.458 align:center She fell asleep in the bathtub. 00:16:29.541 --> 00:16:31.583 align:center I know. You've told me that before. 00:16:31.666 --> 00:16:34.541 align:center I already know everything that's ever happened to you. 00:16:35.250 --> 00:16:38.208 align:center Do you wanna know why Rachel thought we were gonna kill her? 00:16:38.291 --> 00:16:42.666 align:center I don't know. She's got something fucky going on with her. 00:16:42.750 --> 00:16:45.041 align:center I bet you like that, don't you? 00:16:47.375 --> 00:16:48.541 align:center Your Sorry Man. 00:16:53.000 --> 00:16:57.416 align:center Nell, what about me soaking quietly in a bathtub makes you go, 00:16:57.500 --> 00:17:02.208 align:center "Let me come in here and stab Jules over and over again with a toothpick 00:17:02.291 --> 00:17:03.583 align:center till he bleeds to death." 00:17:03.666 --> 00:17:06.083 align:center That's what it's like with you. 00:17:06.583 --> 00:17:09.041 align:center Portia's the one who told her about The Sorry Man. 00:17:09.125 --> 00:17:11.625 align:center Portia always has to be the center of attention. 00:17:11.708 --> 00:17:15.500 align:center Portia's the one who fucked everything up. No one ever blames Portia for anything. 00:17:18.583 --> 00:17:19.541 align:center Whatever. 00:17:20.583 --> 00:17:21.875 align:center Whatever. 00:17:21.958 --> 00:17:23.416 align:center Whatever. 00:17:24.208 --> 00:17:28.625 align:center And it's not my fault Nicky gets off on damaged, self-absorbed girls. 00:17:29.208 --> 00:17:31.916 align:center He's a simp for girls who walk all over him. 00:17:32.000 --> 00:17:33.875 align:center He thinks he's fixing them. 00:17:36.416 --> 00:17:38.583 align:center I'm just trying to be at peace. 00:17:39.291 --> 00:17:43.333 align:center Why are you disturbing my peace? 00:17:44.833 --> 00:17:46.166 align:center It's bath time. 00:18:09.916 --> 00:18:11.500 align:center You used to be nicer. 00:18:12.125 --> 00:18:15.375 align:center Oh, baby, you want nice? You should have married the other one. 00:18:17.833 --> 00:18:20.958 align:center But that's the thing, Nellie. You don't want nice. 00:18:21.583 --> 00:18:23.458 align:center Because I hate to break it to you. 00:18:24.000 --> 00:18:26.416 align:center You're not actually nice either. 00:18:26.500 --> 00:18:29.583 align:center And you couldn't stand to watch Nicky take the punches. 00:18:29.666 --> 00:18:32.875 align:center You want someone who punches back. It's true. 00:18:32.958 --> 00:18:34.708 align:center Sometimes nice is nice. 00:18:34.791 --> 00:18:36.291 align:center Well, I'm sometimes nice. 00:18:41.875 --> 00:18:42.708 align:center What? 00:18:43.583 --> 00:18:44.458 align:center Say it. 00:18:46.250 --> 00:18:49.250 align:center Didn't we say that in our vows? That we'd always be honest no matter what? 00:18:49.333 --> 00:18:52.250 align:center Oh! We've really stuck to our vows, haven't we? 00:18:53.416 --> 00:18:54.250 align:center Say it. 00:19:00.458 --> 00:19:01.833 align:center Say it. 00:19:05.666 --> 00:19:06.583 align:center Say it. 00:19:13.333 --> 00:19:14.250 align:center Say it. 00:19:16.916 --> 00:19:17.875 align:center Or drown me. 00:19:23.166 --> 00:19:24.083 align:center Drown me. 00:19:25.416 --> 00:19:27.666 align:center Yeah. Yeah. 00:19:28.250 --> 00:19:32.208 align:center Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. 00:19:37.791 --> 00:19:40.583 align:center Oh, sorry. Oh my God. Oh my God. Sorry. Sorry. 00:19:40.666 --> 00:19:43.166 align:center No. Don't go. One moment. 00:19:57.375 --> 00:20:00.041 align:center Okay. You want me to say it. 00:20:00.708 --> 00:20:02.916 align:center Your mother will be gone in a month, 00:20:03.625 --> 00:20:05.208 align:center and you haven't dealt with it. 00:20:05.708 --> 00:20:08.166 align:center You've never really dealt with anything, have you? 00:20:08.250 --> 00:20:12.750 align:center Not your last failed marriage, not this jealous brother bullshit, 00:20:12.833 --> 00:20:15.458 align:center and not your maybe fictitious, maybe real serial killer 00:20:15.541 --> 00:20:17.791 align:center who's been haunting you since you were Jude's age, 00:20:17.875 --> 00:20:20.458 align:center which is exactly how old you were when you stopped growing up. 00:20:21.041 --> 00:20:23.875 align:center You need to deal with your shit, yeah? 00:20:24.625 --> 00:20:27.916 align:center Because things will start slipping away all around you. 00:20:29.916 --> 00:20:32.083 align:center Are you who you want your son to be, Julian? 00:20:35.375 --> 00:20:37.125 align:center Yes! What do you want? 00:20:37.208 --> 00:20:40.375 align:center Sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt. I just… Uh, it's… it's really stupid. 00:20:40.458 --> 00:20:41.875 align:center I didn't realize he was in the tub. 00:20:41.958 --> 00:20:44.000 align:center That was really nice, what you did with the cake. 00:20:44.083 --> 00:20:46.166 align:center Really nice. Nellie likes 'em nice. 00:20:46.250 --> 00:20:48.500 align:center Ignore him. It's the key to a healthy marriage. 00:20:48.583 --> 00:20:50.416 align:center It's actually stupid. The caterer needs to know 00:20:50.500 --> 00:20:52.500 align:center if you guys want chicken or fish for the wedding. 00:20:52.583 --> 00:20:53.458 align:center Uh, chicken. 00:20:53.541 --> 00:20:55.875 align:center Rachel, have you written your vows? 00:20:57.041 --> 00:20:59.708 align:center Uh, no, not yet. I… 00:20:59.791 --> 00:21:01.875 align:center -I haven't. -Here's the key to a healthy marriage. 00:21:03.500 --> 00:21:09.125 align:center In our vows, Nellie and I promised to always be honest, so I mean it when I say, 00:21:09.708 --> 00:21:13.041 align:center "Baby, sometimes I fantasize about hiring someone to kill you." 00:21:13.125 --> 00:21:14.666 align:center Oh, babe. 00:21:17.375 --> 00:21:21.041 align:center So even in your fantasies, you don't do anything yourself? 00:21:27.625 --> 00:21:30.125 align:center What's the fish, and how's the chicken prepared? 00:21:30.708 --> 00:21:31.541 align:center I don't know. 00:21:31.625 --> 00:21:34.500 align:center You don't know? 'Cause I can't answer until I have all the information. 00:21:34.583 --> 00:21:36.750 align:center Don't be a dick. He'll have the fish. 00:21:40.250 --> 00:21:42.250 align:center You should really write your vows. 00:21:46.291 --> 00:21:47.416 align:center -Sorry. -Sorry. 00:21:50.000 --> 00:21:52.333 align:center What are you looking at? 00:21:52.416 --> 00:21:53.375 align:center What's in here? 00:21:54.041 --> 00:21:55.083 align:center Jude. 00:21:55.166 --> 00:21:56.458 align:center I got you something. 00:21:56.541 --> 00:21:58.375 align:center I think there's someone in here. 00:21:58.458 --> 00:22:00.500 align:center -Huh? -I think there's someone in there. 00:22:01.458 --> 00:22:03.500 align:center Hey. No, it's okay. 00:22:03.583 --> 00:22:06.708 align:center I… I know the feeling, but there's… there's no one back there. 00:22:07.583 --> 00:22:09.500 align:center Why would it be locked? 00:22:11.291 --> 00:22:12.125 align:center Here. 00:22:12.750 --> 00:22:14.083 align:center See? 00:22:14.958 --> 00:22:18.625 align:center I don't know, but sometimes it's better not to open a locked door, 00:22:18.708 --> 00:22:22.583 align:center because there might be something in there that's not meant for you. Hey, look. 00:22:24.500 --> 00:22:25.541 align:center Hey? 00:22:26.541 --> 00:22:28.250 align:center Yeah? 00:22:28.750 --> 00:22:30.666 align:center I mean, it's not new or nice, 00:22:30.750 --> 00:22:34.000 align:center but it was once considered new and nice. So… 00:22:34.083 --> 00:22:35.583 align:center Let's go, buddy. 00:22:35.666 --> 00:22:36.750 align:center That's something. 00:22:48.166 --> 00:22:51.208 align:center She's not thinking clearly because of the brain tumor. 00:22:51.291 --> 00:22:52.375 align:center You're giving up? That's it? 00:22:52.458 --> 00:22:54.458 align:center -Throw in the towel… -Sorry. 00:22:54.541 --> 00:22:59.541 align:center …on a 40-year marriage, on a human life, on Mom's life, on your family. 00:22:59.625 --> 00:23:01.750 align:center You're just… you're done. You give up. 00:23:01.833 --> 00:23:03.666 align:center I am not giving up, Nicky. 00:23:05.708 --> 00:23:09.000 align:center Uh… in my marriage, we make decisions together. 00:23:09.666 --> 00:23:12.875 align:center I'm not a witness to your mother's decision. I am a part of it. 00:23:12.958 --> 00:23:14.625 align:center I'm standing by my wife. 00:23:17.083 --> 00:23:18.875 align:center I'm embracing my last moments with her, 00:23:18.958 --> 00:23:21.541 align:center continuing a tradition that was established by her father. 00:23:21.625 --> 00:23:22.958 align:center Sorry, by skinning a dog? 00:23:23.041 --> 00:23:23.916 align:center Rachel. 00:23:30.916 --> 00:23:32.250 align:center You got engaged. 00:23:34.958 --> 00:23:35.958 align:center You called us. 00:23:36.833 --> 00:23:38.375 align:center You didn't want to have a big wedding. 00:23:38.458 --> 00:23:41.208 align:center You just wanted to do something here with the family. 00:23:41.791 --> 00:23:43.375 align:center Your mother was happy. 00:23:44.166 --> 00:23:45.750 align:center She didn't want to ruin your wedding, 00:23:45.833 --> 00:23:48.500 align:center so she planned this for after your wedding. 00:23:48.583 --> 00:23:52.708 align:center It is so difficult to get family together, and this is to be her final celebration. 00:23:52.791 --> 00:23:55.583 align:center It is, uh… her dying wish. 00:23:55.666 --> 00:23:58.416 align:center And you two are not gonna ruin it for her. Understood? 00:23:58.500 --> 00:24:01.291 align:center This involves all of us. It's not just her decision. 00:24:01.375 --> 00:24:03.958 align:center -Understood?! -Okay, how do I call a family meeting? 00:24:05.541 --> 00:24:07.875 align:center -A what? -A family meeting. How do I call one? 00:24:07.958 --> 00:24:08.958 align:center Can I do that? 00:24:10.833 --> 00:24:13.458 align:center Again, I'm so sorry for my misunderstanding. 00:24:13.541 --> 00:24:15.583 align:center And maybe I am totally out of line by doing this, 00:24:15.666 --> 00:24:19.041 align:center but I imagine that close families like you 00:24:19.125 --> 00:24:22.250 align:center can talk to each other about your feelings. 00:24:23.000 --> 00:24:26.500 align:center I know that I'm new to the family dynamic, but I've… I've realized that 00:24:26.583 --> 00:24:29.416 align:center it was your plan to use our wedding 00:24:29.500 --> 00:24:33.583 align:center as a surrogate living funeral. 00:24:33.666 --> 00:24:36.041 align:center But because most of you haven't done much processing, 00:24:36.125 --> 00:24:39.375 align:center the wedding has now become a highly pressurized distraction 00:24:39.458 --> 00:24:42.333 align:center from what is really going on. 00:24:42.958 --> 00:24:48.166 align:center And I think that maybe we should do something about it, or else… 00:24:50.083 --> 00:24:52.041 align:center we shouldn't have a wedding at all. 00:24:52.750 --> 00:24:54.125 align:center Um, she can't do that. 00:24:54.208 --> 00:24:56.291 align:center I knew this would happen. 00:24:56.375 --> 00:24:57.541 align:center Just let her talk. 00:24:57.625 --> 00:25:00.375 align:center It doesn't make sense to carry on like it's no big deal. 00:25:00.458 --> 00:25:03.458 align:center Couching your death inside of our wedding without talking about it, 00:25:03.541 --> 00:25:06.125 align:center it's… it's not going to be what you want. 00:25:07.291 --> 00:25:10.916 align:center What do you think? Can we do something to process all of this? Can we… 00:25:11.708 --> 00:25:12.708 align:center Can we try it? 00:25:13.750 --> 00:25:14.583 align:center Yeah. 00:25:14.666 --> 00:25:17.625 align:center Yeah, let's, um… let's try it, guys. 00:25:17.708 --> 00:25:19.500 align:center I don't understand what she's getting at. 00:25:19.583 --> 00:25:23.583 align:center Are you suggesting you cancel the wedding because of our dying mother? 00:25:23.666 --> 00:25:25.666 align:center Because that seems a little unfair. 00:25:25.750 --> 00:25:27.333 align:center Okay, good. 00:25:27.833 --> 00:25:29.833 align:center Uh, no, I'm… I'm not saying that. 00:25:29.916 --> 00:25:33.541 align:center I'm saying that I think that we need a forum for you to say what you feel 00:25:33.625 --> 00:25:35.541 align:center ahead of the wedding so it's not a disaster 00:25:35.625 --> 00:25:38.875 align:center and you can all actually have some peace around it. 00:25:38.958 --> 00:25:40.250 align:center I think that was a good start. 00:25:40.333 --> 00:25:41.583 align:center -Thank you. -You're welcome. 00:25:41.666 --> 00:25:45.833 align:center You want us to do family therapy led by you. 00:25:46.833 --> 00:25:48.750 align:center No offense, but a stranger, basically. 00:25:48.833 --> 00:25:51.583 align:center Well, isn't that what a therapist is? A stranger? 00:25:51.666 --> 00:25:52.958 align:center Are you a therapist? 00:25:53.041 --> 00:25:55.541 align:center -She's getting her doctorate. -Oh, in what? 00:25:55.625 --> 00:25:57.583 align:center -Behavioral psychology. -You're a therapist? 00:25:57.666 --> 00:26:00.166 align:center No, I'm a behavioral psychologist. Uh, almost. 00:26:00.750 --> 00:26:03.250 align:center -Have you studied your own behavior? -Jules… 00:26:04.750 --> 00:26:06.750 align:center -Be respectful. -I am being respectful. 00:26:08.750 --> 00:26:12.666 align:center What… what are we gonna do, Rachel? Sit in a circle and hold hands and cry? 00:26:12.750 --> 00:26:16.291 align:center Well, that… that would be better than nothing. Yeah. 00:26:16.375 --> 00:26:18.666 align:center Where are you getting your doctorate? 00:26:19.875 --> 00:26:20.833 align:center U of I. 00:26:20.916 --> 00:26:24.208 align:center -Oh, I went to Northwestern. -Cool. 00:26:24.291 --> 00:26:26.208 align:center So is there something you wanna say to your mother 00:26:26.291 --> 00:26:28.041 align:center before you no longer have the opportunity to? 00:26:29.583 --> 00:26:31.583 align:center Um… Um… 00:26:36.458 --> 00:26:37.291 align:center Go ahead. 00:26:43.083 --> 00:26:44.208 align:center Uh… 00:26:49.416 --> 00:26:50.250 align:center No. 00:27:00.208 --> 00:27:01.166 align:center Okay. 00:27:07.666 --> 00:27:10.375 align:center So is there anything anyone wants to say to Mrs. Cunningham 00:27:10.458 --> 00:27:11.958 align:center before she's no longer with us? 00:27:30.708 --> 00:27:35.916 align:center Why don't we… why don't we do this? Why don't we all take some time alone? 00:27:37.083 --> 00:27:39.375 align:center Really… really alone. Sit with yourself. 00:27:39.458 --> 00:27:43.583 align:center Think about what you want to say or write it down or be prepared to say it. 00:27:43.666 --> 00:27:45.708 align:center Do what you need to do, and then we can… 00:27:46.375 --> 00:27:48.291 align:center We can all come back together. Yeah? 00:27:53.125 --> 00:27:54.583 align:center That was good. Okay. 00:27:55.541 --> 00:27:57.291 align:center Nell, can you come with me? 00:27:58.125 --> 00:27:59.000 align:center Yeah. 00:28:17.750 --> 00:28:19.750 align:center That was more impressive than you realize. 00:28:19.833 --> 00:28:24.208 align:center It's not. It's just very obvious that they're failing to cope. 00:28:24.291 --> 00:28:26.750 align:center No. I meant stealing the spotlight from Queen V. 00:28:26.833 --> 00:28:27.916 align:center I didn't steal it. 00:28:28.000 --> 00:28:31.625 align:center Yes. You've only been here two days, and everyone's doing everything you ask. 00:28:32.208 --> 00:28:33.041 align:center She's like… 00:28:35.125 --> 00:28:37.666 align:center …sort of a narcissist, isn't she? 00:28:37.750 --> 00:28:40.541 align:center Sort of? Didn't she just turn your wedding into her funeral? 00:28:41.250 --> 00:28:42.916 align:center Right. 00:28:44.166 --> 00:28:45.291 align:center Yeah. 00:28:47.875 --> 00:28:49.375 align:center What? 00:28:50.333 --> 00:28:51.625 align:center You don't take compliments well. 00:28:51.708 --> 00:28:53.583 align:center Sorry, what part of that was a compliment? 00:28:53.666 --> 00:28:55.750 align:center -The funeral wedding? -When I said you were impressive! 00:28:55.833 --> 00:29:00.791 align:center Oh my God, that's… Uh… Who… who does take compliments well? 00:29:00.875 --> 00:29:02.333 align:center I take compliments well. 00:29:04.250 --> 00:29:05.208 align:center Go ahead. 00:29:10.500 --> 00:29:12.291 align:center I don't know, it's, like, kind of a 00:29:13.541 --> 00:29:16.166 align:center bad omen to get married during a death ceremony, so… 00:29:16.666 --> 00:29:20.583 align:center -Good thing you're not superstitious then. -Yeah, good thing, good thing. 00:29:21.291 --> 00:29:23.791 align:center Good thing I haven't had this awful feeling ever since I got here 00:29:23.875 --> 00:29:25.250 align:center that something bad is gonna happen. 00:29:25.333 --> 00:29:28.416 align:center Yeah, but this is a bad thing, isn't it? Victoria's death. 00:29:28.500 --> 00:29:30.625 align:center No, it's… it's something else. 00:29:31.333 --> 00:29:34.166 align:center -Okay. -The feeling hasn't… gone away. 00:29:35.083 --> 00:29:37.291 align:center I'll keep an eye out for other bad things. 00:29:40.375 --> 00:29:41.625 align:center -There's one. -Oh. 00:29:49.416 --> 00:29:50.250 align:center What? 00:29:50.333 --> 00:29:53.125 align:center I was worried that you'd be, like, an evil bitch who hated me 00:29:53.208 --> 00:29:55.333 align:center for marrying your ex, but you're not. So… 00:29:55.416 --> 00:29:57.500 align:center Okay. You don't give compliments well either. 00:29:57.583 --> 00:29:59.833 align:center -Thank you. -You're welcome. 00:30:00.416 --> 00:30:03.416 align:center So what the fuck are we gonna do with this? 00:30:05.958 --> 00:30:09.708 align:center Sometimes it's easier to speak truthfully 00:30:10.541 --> 00:30:13.250 align:center if you don't have to look someone in the eye. 00:30:13.333 --> 00:30:16.583 align:center -So you will talk to that. -Gotta be quiet. They're having a meeting. 00:30:18.583 --> 00:30:20.125 align:center You'll each go around 00:30:21.125 --> 00:30:22.750 align:center and tell it how you feel, 00:30:24.291 --> 00:30:28.416 align:center and it will absorb your pain 00:30:30.083 --> 00:30:31.916 align:center and grief, and 00:30:33.166 --> 00:30:34.666 align:center then we will release it. 00:30:38.125 --> 00:30:38.958 align:center Okay. 00:30:39.583 --> 00:30:40.875 align:center Who wants to go first? 00:30:41.916 --> 00:30:42.750 align:center I can go. 00:30:48.958 --> 00:30:49.875 align:center "Victoria." 00:30:52.291 --> 00:30:53.916 align:center "You're an incredible woman." 00:30:54.791 --> 00:30:56.458 align:center "You are the Cunningham family, 00:30:57.000 --> 00:31:00.958 align:center and you will leave a hole in this family that shouldn't be filled, 00:31:01.500 --> 00:31:05.708 align:center not only because it would be impossible but because this is the end of an era 00:31:06.541 --> 00:31:08.625 align:center and it should be honored as one." 00:31:10.166 --> 00:31:13.166 align:center "Your presence, strength, and unwavering courage 00:31:13.250 --> 00:31:16.250 align:center have shaped us in ways we will carry forever." 00:31:17.125 --> 00:31:18.000 align:center Um… 00:31:20.375 --> 00:31:24.250 align:center I've always, uh, revered you and Dad 00:31:26.041 --> 00:31:31.083 align:center and your life together and your marriage 00:31:31.166 --> 00:31:36.458 align:center and the way you… devote yourselves to each other. 00:31:37.041 --> 00:31:40.083 align:center And I always wanted to follow in your footsteps, 00:31:40.166 --> 00:31:42.250 align:center and I hope I'm doing that, 00:31:42.333 --> 00:31:45.166 align:center because I see the way that you protect each other, 00:31:45.250 --> 00:31:49.875 align:center and you've taught me the value in understanding someone so well 00:31:50.750 --> 00:31:52.708 align:center you know how to shield them from pain. 00:31:53.208 --> 00:31:56.541 align:center I know we haven't always seen eye to eye. Um… 00:31:57.041 --> 00:32:00.041 align:center I hope you love me for my flaws and missteps. 00:32:00.125 --> 00:32:04.666 align:center I, uh… I have found a way to love you for yours. 00:32:06.000 --> 00:32:08.125 align:center I love you, Mom, and… and I'll miss you. 00:32:08.625 --> 00:32:12.333 align:center The time we missed two days in Santorini 00:32:12.416 --> 00:32:16.083 align:center because of my failure to admit that I'd been wrong… 00:32:20.625 --> 00:32:25.333 align:center and missing your 32nd birthday for an inconsequential business trip. 00:32:25.416 --> 00:32:26.541 align:center I am 00:32:27.750 --> 00:32:29.416 align:center terribly, terribly sorry. 00:32:31.166 --> 00:32:34.291 align:center I will make sure that my future children know you. 00:32:35.666 --> 00:32:38.875 align:center I will make sure to keep family traditions alive. 00:32:39.875 --> 00:32:42.041 align:center I will take care of Somerhouse. 00:32:42.125 --> 00:32:45.125 align:center I will make sure you live on forever in our hearts 00:32:46.083 --> 00:32:48.375 align:center and in the hearts of those who knew you. 00:32:49.583 --> 00:32:52.750 align:center I know that we only just met, and… 00:32:53.708 --> 00:32:55.375 align:center …I'm very sorry to lose you. 00:32:57.583 --> 00:33:00.625 align:center You've been such a great mother to Nicky, and, you know, 00:33:00.708 --> 00:33:03.583 align:center I think it's… it's true what you said about 00:33:05.041 --> 00:33:08.750 align:center children absorbing their mothers and vice versa. 00:33:24.750 --> 00:33:26.916 align:center This is the cake Rachel bought to say sorry 00:33:27.000 --> 00:33:29.333 align:center for thinking we're a family of murderers. 00:33:31.875 --> 00:33:35.000 align:center Nicky is so loving because of you. 00:33:35.916 --> 00:33:38.666 align:center And he's so lucky that he had you and Dr. Cunningham 00:33:38.750 --> 00:33:40.916 align:center to show him where he came from 00:33:41.000 --> 00:33:44.291 align:center and how to love and how to be loved. 00:33:46.000 --> 00:33:47.833 align:center Why… why is this door open? 00:34:17.958 --> 00:34:20.500 align:center I'm so glad that Nicky absorbed that from you 00:34:21.083 --> 00:34:24.583 align:center and that he got to grow up with this unconditional love. 00:34:26.333 --> 00:34:28.000 align:center I can't imagine what that's like. 00:34:31.916 --> 00:34:34.666 align:center This is where Papa honors the dead animals. 00:34:35.250 --> 00:34:37.500 align:center He says the dogs can see. the dead animals.