1 00:00:07,625 --> 00:00:09,625 [woman crying] 2 00:00:12,265 --> 00:00:13,905 [woman] It's… it's… 3 00:00:13,985 --> 00:00:18,145 It's like a stabbing pain in my temples, but also in the back of my scalp. 4 00:00:18,225 --> 00:00:20,785 It's like… it's like fire ants. 5 00:00:22,185 --> 00:00:24,625 And now my vision's starting to blur. 6 00:00:25,345 --> 00:00:26,865 [sobbing] 7 00:00:26,945 --> 00:00:28,425 My mum has MS. 8 00:00:28,505 --> 00:00:30,385 But this pain feels more like… 9 00:00:31,425 --> 00:00:34,905 like structural than neurological, like… 10 00:00:36,305 --> 00:00:37,985 Like there's something in there. 11 00:00:38,065 --> 00:00:40,065 [machine beeping] 12 00:00:41,545 --> 00:00:43,185 My doctors say, 13 00:00:43,265 --> 00:00:45,665 "We don't know how to categorize you anymore." 14 00:00:45,745 --> 00:00:47,985 "You keep defying our predictions." 15 00:00:51,225 --> 00:00:54,185 I was given six weeks to live. 16 00:00:54,785 --> 00:00:56,185 Four months tops. 17 00:00:57,705 --> 00:00:59,265 That was four years ago. 18 00:01:00,705 --> 00:01:03,105 Human beings are capable of anything. 19 00:01:07,185 --> 00:01:08,745 [female host] Belle Gibson. 20 00:01:10,785 --> 00:01:12,385 She's a mother. 21 00:01:12,945 --> 00:01:14,785 She's a cancer survivor. 22 00:01:14,865 --> 00:01:16,905 [crowd cheering] 23 00:01:17,945 --> 00:01:19,385 She is an entrepreneur, 24 00:01:19,465 --> 00:01:21,665 and now she's an author. 25 00:01:22,065 --> 00:01:24,305 Belle, how do you do it? 26 00:01:24,905 --> 00:01:27,785 [Belle] I don't know. I guess once you choose hope, 27 00:01:27,865 --> 00:01:29,185 anything is possible. 28 00:01:33,185 --> 00:01:35,145 ["Toxic" by Britney Spears playing] 29 00:01:35,225 --> 00:01:37,705 [reporter 1] This young mum just conquered Silicon Valley 30 00:01:37,785 --> 00:01:39,225 from her kitchen table. 31 00:01:39,305 --> 00:01:42,385 [man 1] Belle Gibson's The Whole Pantry signs a major deal with Apple. 32 00:01:42,465 --> 00:01:44,745 -[reporter 1] What a triumph! -[woman] How's your health? 33 00:01:44,825 --> 00:01:46,665 It's a good day. Let's just say that. 34 00:01:46,745 --> 00:01:50,265 ♪ Baby, can't you see I'm calling? ♪ 35 00:01:50,345 --> 00:01:53,585 ♪ A guy like you should wear a warning ♪ 36 00:01:53,665 --> 00:01:55,145 ♪ It's dangerous… ♪ 37 00:01:55,225 --> 00:01:58,065 [reporter 2] She defied medical advice and healed herself naturally, 38 00:01:58,145 --> 00:01:59,705 amassing millions of followers. 39 00:01:59,785 --> 00:02:01,225 [reporter 3] Belle Gibson! 40 00:02:01,305 --> 00:02:03,425 It's a truly remarkable story. 41 00:02:03,505 --> 00:02:07,585 It's love, that powers me, sustains me. 42 00:02:07,665 --> 00:02:10,185 I wanna thank my besties and my fans. 43 00:02:10,265 --> 00:02:13,945 I am your fan and we've built a beautiful community together. 44 00:02:14,024 --> 00:02:16,625 ♪ Too high, can't come down ♪ 45 00:02:16,705 --> 00:02:18,385 ♪ Losing my head, spinnin'… ♪ 46 00:02:18,465 --> 00:02:22,105 Belle's fans describe feeling let down by the medical profession 47 00:02:22,185 --> 00:02:23,825 and follow every step of her journey, 48 00:02:23,905 --> 00:02:26,905 as thousands of young women flock to alternative medicine. 49 00:02:26,985 --> 00:02:29,625 [Belle] I wanted to live, and I wanted to live well. 50 00:02:29,705 --> 00:02:33,305 ♪ With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride ♪ 51 00:02:33,385 --> 00:02:36,625 ♪ You're toxic, I'm slippin' under ♪ 52 00:02:36,705 --> 00:02:39,625 ♪ With a taste of a poison paradise ♪ 53 00:02:39,705 --> 00:02:42,945 ♪ I'm addicted to you Don't you know that you're toxic? ♪ 54 00:02:43,025 --> 00:02:44,985 [reporter 4] Questions raised over healing Belle. 55 00:02:45,065 --> 00:02:47,145 Was none of it real? Did she ever have cancer? 56 00:02:47,225 --> 00:02:48,945 [reporter 5] Her life in ruins. 57 00:02:49,025 --> 00:02:50,705 [reporter 6] Desperate and gone to ground. 58 00:02:50,785 --> 00:02:52,705 [reporter 7] Followers outraged and abandoned. 59 00:02:52,785 --> 00:02:55,385 [reporter 8] It begs the question, what sort of person pretends 60 00:02:55,465 --> 00:02:56,545 to have brain cancer? 61 00:02:57,345 --> 00:02:59,345 [humming] 62 00:03:00,025 --> 00:03:01,345 ♪ And I love what you do ♪ 63 00:03:01,425 --> 00:03:04,345 ♪ Don't you know that you're toxic? ♪ 64 00:03:06,825 --> 00:03:08,905 This is a true story based on a lie. 65 00:03:09,785 --> 00:03:12,425 Some names have been changed to protect the innocent. 66 00:03:13,145 --> 00:03:16,785 Belle Gibson has not been paid for the recreation of her story. 67 00:03:18,545 --> 00:03:19,465 Fuckers. 68 00:03:23,025 --> 00:03:24,025 Thank you. 69 00:03:31,265 --> 00:03:32,425 Filtered. 70 00:03:32,505 --> 00:03:34,825 Yeah, we get it delivered. 71 00:03:35,665 --> 00:03:37,025 Is it Belle or Annabelle? 72 00:03:37,105 --> 00:03:38,745 Ah, Belle's fine. 73 00:03:38,825 --> 00:03:41,065 I hear you're like a real life Olivia Pope. 74 00:03:41,145 --> 00:03:42,225 Ah. [chuckles] 75 00:03:43,025 --> 00:03:44,305 She's got better suits. 76 00:03:44,385 --> 00:03:45,465 Do you love it… 77 00:03:46,145 --> 00:03:47,065 saving people? 78 00:03:48,065 --> 00:03:49,225 People in crisis? 79 00:03:50,385 --> 00:03:53,465 Do you wanna tell me how this all started? 80 00:03:53,545 --> 00:03:55,305 How much do you think you know about me? 81 00:03:55,385 --> 00:03:56,505 Not enough. 82 00:03:56,585 --> 00:03:59,305 -Correct. -You're a complicated person. 83 00:03:59,385 --> 00:04:01,305 Mmm. We all are. 84 00:04:01,945 --> 00:04:03,225 I'm not special. 85 00:04:03,305 --> 00:04:04,905 Two million followers, come on. 86 00:04:05,545 --> 00:04:06,785 2.3. 87 00:04:07,265 --> 00:04:08,105 Nah. 88 00:04:09,065 --> 00:04:10,585 They know… 89 00:04:10,665 --> 00:04:12,705 My followers know that I don't judge. 90 00:04:13,305 --> 00:04:14,465 People like that. 91 00:04:15,585 --> 00:04:17,865 So they like me instinctively. 92 00:04:18,545 --> 00:04:20,305 You've been getting some death threats. 93 00:04:22,265 --> 00:04:24,265 "I hope she dies from cancer." 94 00:04:25,624 --> 00:04:27,865 People have gotten confused. 95 00:04:28,945 --> 00:04:30,425 That's why I'm here to… 96 00:04:31,265 --> 00:04:33,865 clean up those misconceptions. 97 00:04:33,945 --> 00:04:35,865 Confused, right. 98 00:04:35,945 --> 00:04:38,185 So you didn't lie or invent anything? 99 00:04:38,265 --> 00:04:39,505 [Belle] No, no, I… 100 00:04:40,265 --> 00:04:41,425 I wouldn't want to label, 101 00:04:41,505 --> 00:04:44,585 but you'd have to be an actual sociopath to do that. 102 00:04:44,665 --> 00:04:45,905 And I am not. 103 00:04:45,985 --> 00:04:50,345 I mean, I could do like, 50 personality quizzes right now, 104 00:04:50,425 --> 00:04:52,345 and I am an empath. 105 00:04:53,105 --> 00:04:54,105 Every time. 106 00:04:54,825 --> 00:04:58,545 I feel everything. 107 00:04:59,345 --> 00:05:01,705 Wow, that must be exhausting. 108 00:05:02,545 --> 00:05:03,625 [Belle] Sometimes… 109 00:05:05,785 --> 00:05:07,505 You save people for a living. 110 00:05:08,825 --> 00:05:11,105 I've tried to help them as best I can. 111 00:05:12,505 --> 00:05:13,505 Bottom line… 112 00:05:16,825 --> 00:05:18,105 I helped. 113 00:05:18,625 --> 00:05:20,625 [soft music playing] 114 00:05:22,985 --> 00:05:23,985 Hi, guys. 115 00:05:24,065 --> 00:05:26,425 So, I'm so excited. I couldn't wait to tell you. 116 00:05:26,505 --> 00:05:28,625 When I was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer, 117 00:05:28,705 --> 00:05:31,145 I didn't know where to turn or who to trust. 118 00:05:31,225 --> 00:05:35,985 I felt unsupported, unmotivated and uninspired. 119 00:05:36,625 --> 00:05:39,425 You may not have cancer, but maybe you feel that way too. 120 00:05:39,505 --> 00:05:41,185 And you know what? It's not okay. 121 00:05:41,825 --> 00:05:46,065 Download my brand new app, The Whole Pantry, today. 122 00:05:46,625 --> 00:05:50,025 And change your life one meal at a time. 123 00:05:55,345 --> 00:05:57,865 [Lucy] Now, did she change my life? 124 00:05:58,385 --> 00:05:59,545 Yes. 125 00:06:00,105 --> 00:06:01,425 Did she help? 126 00:06:01,985 --> 00:06:02,985 [squeals] 127 00:06:03,065 --> 00:06:05,345 I look back on the time before Belle. 128 00:06:05,425 --> 00:06:07,665 Before everything that happened. 129 00:06:08,665 --> 00:06:12,185 And I was so lucky. 130 00:06:12,705 --> 00:06:13,625 Justin. 131 00:06:16,105 --> 00:06:17,025 Lucy. 132 00:06:17,545 --> 00:06:19,825 [Lucy] This… Him… 133 00:06:21,025 --> 00:06:23,105 My own proper love story. 134 00:06:24,905 --> 00:06:26,625 And all the plans… 135 00:06:26,705 --> 00:06:29,385 -Silly plans and grand plans. -[crowd cheering] 136 00:06:29,465 --> 00:06:30,825 I couldn't stop making plans. 137 00:06:32,705 --> 00:06:34,665 Until one day… [scoffs] 138 00:06:34,745 --> 00:06:35,945 Yeah… 139 00:06:36,025 --> 00:06:37,145 [giggles] 140 00:06:37,225 --> 00:06:39,745 …that all turned into a big, stinking pile of shit. 141 00:06:41,905 --> 00:06:42,905 What's that? 142 00:06:44,505 --> 00:06:45,585 What? 143 00:06:46,505 --> 00:06:47,705 [Justin] You got a lump. 144 00:06:49,145 --> 00:06:50,745 It's always been lumpy. 145 00:06:51,625 --> 00:06:53,305 -It's Marvin. -Oh. 146 00:06:53,865 --> 00:06:55,945 -I'm sorry. -Marvin and Frank. 147 00:06:56,025 --> 00:06:58,265 Marvin and Frank, sorry, guys. 148 00:07:08,465 --> 00:07:10,545 [doctor] You'll want to go on the forums. 149 00:07:11,265 --> 00:07:13,265 Do some doctor-Google. 150 00:07:13,345 --> 00:07:14,785 Resist the impulse. 151 00:07:17,105 --> 00:07:19,185 You can email me anytime with questions. 152 00:07:19,985 --> 00:07:22,145 I'll get back to you within 48 hours. 153 00:07:23,145 --> 00:07:25,705 ["Dirty Paws" by Of Monsters and Men playing] 154 00:07:26,265 --> 00:07:28,305 [sobbing] 155 00:07:28,385 --> 00:07:30,545 ♪ Jumping up and down the floor… ♪ 156 00:07:30,625 --> 00:07:32,625 [doctor] All right, get some gas on. 157 00:07:32,705 --> 00:07:34,185 [ECG beeping] 158 00:07:34,265 --> 00:07:36,105 ♪ My head is an animal ♪ 159 00:07:37,105 --> 00:07:39,425 ♪ And once there was an animal ♪ 160 00:07:40,505 --> 00:07:43,825 ♪ It had a son that mowed the lawn ♪ 161 00:07:45,465 --> 00:07:48,785 ♪ The son was an okay guy ♪ 162 00:07:48,865 --> 00:07:52,825 ♪ They had a pet dragonfly ♪ 163 00:07:54,025 --> 00:07:57,465 ♪ The dragonfly it ran away ♪ 164 00:07:57,545 --> 00:08:01,585 ♪ But it came back With a story to say… ♪ 165 00:08:12,985 --> 00:08:13,985 [retching] 166 00:08:19,465 --> 00:08:20,465 You okay? 167 00:08:21,985 --> 00:08:24,665 ♪ Her dirty paws and furry coat ♪ 168 00:08:25,705 --> 00:08:27,425 ♪ She ran down… ♪ 169 00:08:27,505 --> 00:08:28,505 [Lucy] Justin. 170 00:08:29,745 --> 00:08:31,465 [clears throat] What do you think? 171 00:08:32,625 --> 00:08:33,665 [laughs] 172 00:08:34,945 --> 00:08:36,865 [both laughing] 173 00:08:36,945 --> 00:08:39,825 Don't get me wet! 174 00:08:39,904 --> 00:08:42,465 ♪ The bees had declared a war ♪ 175 00:08:42,545 --> 00:08:46,904 ♪ The sky wasn't big enough for them all ♪ 176 00:08:47,904 --> 00:08:50,865 ♪ The birds, they got help from below… ♪ 177 00:08:51,425 --> 00:08:52,545 I know her. 178 00:08:53,105 --> 00:08:54,745 She comes into the cafe. 179 00:08:55,665 --> 00:08:57,025 Says she has a brain tumor. 180 00:08:57,105 --> 00:08:59,785 [Lucy] Stage Four, glioblastoma, 181 00:08:59,865 --> 00:09:01,825 except she was glowing. 182 00:09:02,385 --> 00:09:04,025 Just full of life. 183 00:09:04,105 --> 00:09:05,985 Positive and shiny. 184 00:09:06,065 --> 00:09:09,265 She'd obviously done the chemo thing, but had found another way. 185 00:09:10,185 --> 00:09:11,785 -[Lucy] Two Buddha bowls. -Thank you. 186 00:09:11,865 --> 00:09:13,985 You have the best shiitake, is it foraged? 187 00:09:14,065 --> 00:09:15,465 I wish. 188 00:09:16,225 --> 00:09:19,825 [Lucy] She'd created this incredible app that actually helped people 189 00:09:19,905 --> 00:09:22,785 and was out there telling the truth about what she'd been through 190 00:09:22,865 --> 00:09:24,305 and was going through. 191 00:09:24,945 --> 00:09:27,945 I mean, you couldn't not be inspired. 192 00:09:28,025 --> 00:09:29,345 [Belle] You're so good at that. 193 00:09:30,625 --> 00:09:31,785 Aw! 194 00:09:32,625 --> 00:09:34,025 Look, she's a fan. 195 00:09:36,105 --> 00:09:37,105 Hi. 196 00:09:37,945 --> 00:09:39,345 Is this from you? 197 00:09:39,425 --> 00:09:41,745 Uh, yeah. I follow you on Instagram. 198 00:09:41,825 --> 00:09:43,465 -[Lucy chuckles] -[Belle] Oh. 199 00:09:45,825 --> 00:09:46,745 You too? 200 00:09:47,945 --> 00:09:49,745 Breast, Stage Three. 201 00:09:52,225 --> 00:09:53,545 I used to do that. 202 00:09:54,305 --> 00:09:56,505 Merge my identity with my diagnosis. 203 00:09:57,305 --> 00:09:59,585 -I hate when my partner does that to me. -Ugh! 204 00:09:59,665 --> 00:10:01,145 [both chuckle] 205 00:10:01,225 --> 00:10:03,745 So, what are you… Any big plans for today? 206 00:10:03,825 --> 00:10:05,985 I'm just… I'm just writing my book. 207 00:10:06,905 --> 00:10:07,905 A book. 208 00:10:07,985 --> 00:10:09,625 -Yeah. -Wow, that's amazing. 209 00:10:09,705 --> 00:10:11,265 [Belle] I'm a bit excited. 210 00:10:11,345 --> 00:10:13,025 It's mostly just recipes, 211 00:10:13,105 --> 00:10:14,945 what I've learned along my, um… 212 00:10:15,025 --> 00:10:16,665 Ugh, I was about to say "journey." 213 00:10:16,745 --> 00:10:17,785 [both laugh] 214 00:10:17,865 --> 00:10:19,465 I asked my oncologist about diet, 215 00:10:19,545 --> 00:10:20,745 her eyes glazed over. 216 00:10:20,825 --> 00:10:24,385 How can they have so little education when it comes to nutrition, right? 217 00:10:24,465 --> 00:10:26,585 I mean, the arrogance, it's… 218 00:10:26,665 --> 00:10:28,745 it's criminal when you think about it. 219 00:10:29,865 --> 00:10:31,505 Well, I can't wait to read your book. 220 00:10:32,625 --> 00:10:34,585 Hey, you should come to the launch. 221 00:10:35,065 --> 00:10:36,625 -Really? -Yeah. 222 00:10:36,705 --> 00:10:38,305 I'd love that. That's… 223 00:10:38,985 --> 00:10:39,825 Thanks. 224 00:10:41,705 --> 00:10:42,705 I love you. 225 00:10:45,625 --> 00:10:47,105 [both chuckle softly] 226 00:10:48,025 --> 00:10:48,985 -Oh. -Oh. 227 00:10:49,065 --> 00:10:50,265 [chuckles softly] 228 00:10:52,625 --> 00:10:53,945 It's gonna be okay. 229 00:10:54,745 --> 00:10:55,745 Thank you. 230 00:10:59,225 --> 00:11:00,625 [Belle] This is so cool. 231 00:11:00,705 --> 00:11:02,945 Oh! Thanks. Yeah, it's a wig. 232 00:11:03,025 --> 00:11:04,225 I know. 233 00:11:04,305 --> 00:11:05,745 Okay, bye. 234 00:11:05,825 --> 00:11:06,705 [Lucy] Bye. 235 00:11:08,785 --> 00:11:10,785 [Lucy] Belle never dropped in an invite, 236 00:11:10,865 --> 00:11:15,785 but I preordered a copy of her book anyway and started to follow her recipes. 237 00:11:15,865 --> 00:11:18,385 [indistinct chatter] 238 00:11:19,025 --> 00:11:21,465 I said publicly right from the start 239 00:11:21,545 --> 00:11:25,305 that I was a brain cancer patient on a quest to heal myself naturally. 240 00:11:25,865 --> 00:11:28,425 I was totally overwhelmed by the response. 241 00:11:28,505 --> 00:11:30,425 Didn't expect all of this. 242 00:11:30,505 --> 00:11:33,465 Never. It amazes me that my story resonated. 243 00:11:33,545 --> 00:11:37,145 Belle, what do you think it is that attracted such a following? 244 00:11:37,665 --> 00:11:42,385 Um, I would say my commitment to authenticity. 245 00:11:43,105 --> 00:11:44,985 Too many people overedit themselves. 246 00:11:45,065 --> 00:11:47,745 -[woman] I bet we're all guilty of that. -[faint laughter] 247 00:11:47,825 --> 00:11:49,465 [Belle] I definitely was. 248 00:11:49,545 --> 00:11:51,905 I wasn't always confident in my own skin. 249 00:11:52,865 --> 00:11:55,065 I was the shy kid, I… 250 00:11:55,145 --> 00:11:56,985 I didn't think I fit. 251 00:11:57,065 --> 00:11:59,465 But going through what I have, 252 00:11:59,545 --> 00:12:03,425 I've learned to seek out and value what's raw and what's honest. 253 00:12:05,305 --> 00:12:08,865 One of the worst things that could happen to a person, 254 00:12:08,945 --> 00:12:10,225 happened to me. 255 00:12:11,105 --> 00:12:12,225 And you know what? 256 00:12:12,305 --> 00:12:14,665 I am so grateful for it. [chuckles softly] 257 00:12:15,505 --> 00:12:17,945 -Well, let's-- -On that note, 258 00:12:18,985 --> 00:12:20,905 I couldn't let this moment pass 259 00:12:22,105 --> 00:12:27,025 without paying respect to my friend and mentor, 260 00:12:27,105 --> 00:12:28,145 Milla. 261 00:12:30,625 --> 00:12:32,505 Unfortunately, she couldn't be here tonight 262 00:12:32,585 --> 00:12:34,905 for reasons I'm sure you all understand, 263 00:12:34,985 --> 00:12:36,785 but I know this has brought her comfort. 264 00:12:38,225 --> 00:12:39,345 Hey, did you get it? 265 00:12:39,425 --> 00:12:40,625 Yep. 266 00:12:41,185 --> 00:12:43,545 Saw your shout-out? Super thoughtful, right? 267 00:12:44,305 --> 00:12:45,345 Fuckin' sweet as. 268 00:12:46,865 --> 00:12:48,185 What about the book? 269 00:12:50,225 --> 00:12:52,305 And the recipes, are they any good? 270 00:12:57,305 --> 00:12:58,705 Yeah, they're pretty good. 271 00:13:00,345 --> 00:13:03,905 Hey, Mills… what do you want me to do? 272 00:13:05,065 --> 00:13:07,345 Just… just tell me whatever you want me to do, 273 00:13:07,425 --> 00:13:08,785 I will do it. 274 00:13:08,865 --> 00:13:10,505 I wanna destroy her. 275 00:13:13,105 --> 00:13:15,745 I'm only hypothesizing, but it must have affected her 276 00:13:15,825 --> 00:13:18,225 that my book was reviewed as better than hers. 277 00:13:18,305 --> 00:13:21,745 It's not her fault, but my advance was so much bigger. 278 00:13:21,825 --> 00:13:23,265 [Hek] I'm sorry, I'm lost. 279 00:13:23,825 --> 00:13:25,985 Who was hurt? Whose book? 280 00:13:26,065 --> 00:13:28,145 I mean, I have to think that's why. 281 00:13:28,225 --> 00:13:31,625 Ultimately, she did what she did. 282 00:13:32,385 --> 00:13:34,505 ["Suddenly I See" by KT Tunstall playing] 283 00:13:35,545 --> 00:13:37,745 [Milla] You know The Devil Wears Prada, post-makeover, 284 00:13:37,825 --> 00:13:40,265 where Andy's living her best life ever? 285 00:13:40,825 --> 00:13:42,185 That's what mine felt like. 286 00:13:42,265 --> 00:13:45,625 ♪ You can see she's a beautiful girl She's a beautiful girl ♪ 287 00:13:45,705 --> 00:13:49,385 ♪ And everything around her is A silver pool of light… ♪ 288 00:13:49,465 --> 00:13:52,265 [Milla] I got top marks at university and had just moved to Sydney, 289 00:13:52,345 --> 00:13:53,865 away from home for the first time, 290 00:13:53,945 --> 00:13:55,865 but Mum and I speak three times a day. 291 00:13:55,945 --> 00:13:57,025 I'm not even kidding. 292 00:13:57,905 --> 00:13:59,825 I had landed my dream job in journalism. 293 00:13:59,905 --> 00:14:02,025 Girlfriend magazine, please do you mind holding? 294 00:14:02,785 --> 00:14:05,145 I had a gang of incredible friends. 295 00:14:05,225 --> 00:14:07,945 Enough romance to keep things interesting. 296 00:14:09,065 --> 00:14:11,545 And while I definitely could've been, 297 00:14:11,625 --> 00:14:14,825 should've been, really wish I'd been looking after myself better, 298 00:14:15,785 --> 00:14:17,185 I was 22! 299 00:14:17,785 --> 00:14:19,905 I mean, what were you doing at 22? 300 00:14:21,025 --> 00:14:23,825 I'm sorry. I don't know how to pronounce… 301 00:14:23,905 --> 00:14:26,785 Pleomorphic sarcoma undifferentiated. 302 00:14:30,745 --> 00:14:32,105 I'll write it down for you. 303 00:14:33,105 --> 00:14:33,945 Thank you. 304 00:14:34,025 --> 00:14:36,985 Joe has the basal cell sarcomas. 305 00:14:37,065 --> 00:14:39,265 That's the Queensland sun. 306 00:14:39,345 --> 00:14:40,265 [Tamara] Yeah. 307 00:14:40,825 --> 00:14:41,825 This is different. 308 00:14:42,505 --> 00:14:45,185 The lumps on Milla's arm are aggressive tumors. 309 00:14:45,265 --> 00:14:46,985 It's a rare soft tissue sarcoma. 310 00:14:47,065 --> 00:14:49,825 Okay, so… what does that mean? 311 00:14:49,905 --> 00:14:52,385 Does that mean chemotherapy-- 312 00:14:52,465 --> 00:14:53,545 No. 313 00:14:53,625 --> 00:14:54,825 -Sweetheart… -No. 314 00:14:54,905 --> 00:14:56,785 No. I saw with Nana. 315 00:14:58,545 --> 00:15:02,105 My mum went through chemotherapy for bowel cancer. 316 00:15:02,185 --> 00:15:05,185 Actually, chemotherapy is not my first port of call. 317 00:15:05,265 --> 00:15:09,385 Later certainly, but right now, surgery is our best option. 318 00:15:12,425 --> 00:15:14,145 So you can just cut out the lumps? 319 00:15:14,905 --> 00:15:18,545 Yes and will that be under a general anesthetic? 320 00:15:20,185 --> 00:15:23,305 You can see there are a lot of sarcomas, 321 00:15:23,385 --> 00:15:25,545 which means it's metastasized in the arm. 322 00:15:26,425 --> 00:15:29,825 Which means there's no point in taking out the tumors individually. 323 00:15:29,905 --> 00:15:33,665 A wide resection would increase the chance it doesn't spread beyond the arm. 324 00:15:34,465 --> 00:15:36,185 So it hasn't spread? 325 00:15:36,265 --> 00:15:38,625 Well, that's good news, yes? 326 00:15:42,305 --> 00:15:46,505 So, how wide would that resection be? 327 00:15:49,585 --> 00:15:51,585 [synth music playing] 328 00:16:10,425 --> 00:16:12,505 [telephone ringing] 329 00:16:31,505 --> 00:16:33,385 [telephone ringing] 330 00:16:38,305 --> 00:16:41,705 Choose positivity, 'cause I tried negativity 331 00:16:41,785 --> 00:16:43,665 and it didn't work out too well for me. 332 00:16:44,265 --> 00:16:46,345 We have a voice inside us. 333 00:16:46,425 --> 00:16:48,865 It gets drowned out by all the noise… 334 00:16:48,945 --> 00:16:51,985 -But if we stop and listen… -[telephone ringing] 335 00:16:52,065 --> 00:16:55,425 …that voice will guide us into the sublime. 336 00:16:57,985 --> 00:17:00,625 Girlfriend magazine. How may I direct you? 337 00:17:03,145 --> 00:17:06,865 I think it would be helpful to go around the table and introduce ourselves. 338 00:17:06,945 --> 00:17:08,185 I am Dr. Xiu. 339 00:17:08,265 --> 00:17:09,865 I am Camilla's oncologist. 340 00:17:10,385 --> 00:17:12,145 Dr. Roland. Radiology. 341 00:17:12,224 --> 00:17:14,985 Simon Smith-Jones. I'll be performing the surgery. 342 00:17:15,545 --> 00:17:17,625 I'm Mike. I'll be your prosthetist. 343 00:17:17,704 --> 00:17:19,065 Sally. Psychology. 344 00:17:19,145 --> 00:17:20,745 Emma. Occupational therapy. 345 00:17:21,505 --> 00:17:22,505 I'm Milla. 346 00:17:23,385 --> 00:17:26,224 And I'm not convinced this is the right course of action. 347 00:17:28,785 --> 00:17:31,985 We discussed on Wednesday the risk of further metastasis. 348 00:17:32,065 --> 00:17:33,145 I found a case study. 349 00:17:34,425 --> 00:17:36,225 A girl from Manchester. 350 00:17:36,305 --> 00:17:38,745 She had an osteosarcoma of the tibia. 351 00:17:38,825 --> 00:17:40,385 Her team advised amputation, 352 00:17:40,465 --> 00:17:42,185 but her psych said it would cause 353 00:17:42,265 --> 00:17:44,745 an identity crisis beyond the patient's emotional resources. 354 00:17:45,745 --> 00:17:48,425 She elected to go to Berlin, and began mistletoe therapy. 355 00:17:48,505 --> 00:17:49,785 That was three years ago. 356 00:17:50,385 --> 00:17:51,945 I can make copies for everyone. 357 00:17:52,025 --> 00:17:54,505 Did you say "mistletoe therapy"? 358 00:17:54,585 --> 00:17:55,745 Rudolf Steiner. 359 00:17:56,785 --> 00:18:00,265 High doses of mistletoe extract have cytotoxic power. 360 00:18:00,345 --> 00:18:02,025 No, they don't. 361 00:18:02,105 --> 00:18:03,985 My name is Rudolf Steiner. 362 00:18:04,585 --> 00:18:07,625 And my intuition is based on the observation that, 363 00:18:07,705 --> 00:18:11,745 like cancer, mistletoe is a parasitic growth 364 00:18:11,825 --> 00:18:13,985 which eventually kills its hosts. 365 00:18:14,905 --> 00:18:16,985 In following Hahnemann's theories, 366 00:18:17,065 --> 00:18:18,585 that, "like kills like." 367 00:18:18,665 --> 00:18:19,945 Total quackery. 368 00:18:20,025 --> 00:18:22,825 [Milla] It's used clinically in Sweden, the Netherlands and Germany. 369 00:18:22,905 --> 00:18:26,145 Over 1,000 in vitro studies have shown it promotes anticancer activity. 370 00:18:26,705 --> 00:18:29,465 With adverse reactions recorded such as anaphylaxis, 371 00:18:29,545 --> 00:18:31,425 fever, joint pain, kidney failure-- 372 00:18:31,505 --> 00:18:33,825 Please look at me when you're talking about me. 373 00:18:40,185 --> 00:18:41,785 It's my arm. 374 00:18:48,185 --> 00:18:50,145 You say there are cancers inside of it. 375 00:18:51,025 --> 00:18:52,865 There are cancers inside it. 376 00:18:52,945 --> 00:18:54,065 Dr. Roland… 377 00:18:54,145 --> 00:18:56,625 I have your scans, which I'm afraid do show 378 00:18:56,705 --> 00:18:58,185 multiple aggressive tumors-- 379 00:18:58,265 --> 00:18:59,705 I want another option. 380 00:18:59,785 --> 00:19:03,105 Milla, I'd like to tell you about some of the advances being made. 381 00:19:03,185 --> 00:19:04,505 I want another option. 382 00:19:04,585 --> 00:19:06,905 Death, that's another option. 383 00:19:07,785 --> 00:19:10,345 -Okay, everyone just hang on. -Do you want to die? 384 00:19:10,425 --> 00:19:12,305 [Sally] All right. We should reconvene. 385 00:19:12,385 --> 00:19:14,585 That is the reality that we are facing. 386 00:19:15,785 --> 00:19:18,345 Do you understand what I am trying to say to you? 387 00:19:18,425 --> 00:19:21,985 It is very important that you understand what I am saying, young lady. 388 00:19:24,545 --> 00:19:26,505 [Tamara crying] 389 00:19:26,585 --> 00:19:27,745 [Milla] Mum, I'm sorry. 390 00:19:28,705 --> 00:19:31,025 Oh, sweetheart, no. 391 00:19:33,025 --> 00:19:34,505 [Milla] I'll cut it off. 392 00:19:34,585 --> 00:19:35,545 [Tamara] It's okay. 393 00:19:35,625 --> 00:19:37,705 [Milla cries] 394 00:19:42,625 --> 00:19:45,105 Look, if you think I should hack it off, I will. 395 00:19:49,385 --> 00:19:51,425 It's wrong. I know it's wrong. 396 00:19:51,505 --> 00:19:52,705 I can feel it. 397 00:19:54,105 --> 00:19:55,105 It's all right. 398 00:19:59,785 --> 00:20:02,585 I just don't see why we can't… 399 00:20:04,305 --> 00:20:07,145 just explore some different options. 400 00:20:07,225 --> 00:20:08,745 It's just that… 401 00:20:09,425 --> 00:20:10,425 [Tamara sighs] 402 00:20:11,545 --> 00:20:13,505 [sighs] It's just so extreme. 403 00:20:14,905 --> 00:20:17,465 What are the other options? I mean, you tell us. 404 00:20:18,025 --> 00:20:20,985 Amputation would be my strong recommendation. 405 00:20:22,865 --> 00:20:27,505 -[Joe] And what about the experimental… -Like drug trials. Please. 406 00:20:29,985 --> 00:20:32,105 [Dr. Xiu] After considerable pressure from the family 407 00:20:32,185 --> 00:20:36,825 and with notable misgivings, I performed an isolated limb infusion. 408 00:20:36,905 --> 00:20:40,025 It's an experimental procedure which delivers one dose of chemotherapy 409 00:20:40,105 --> 00:20:44,185 at ten times the usual potency directly into the tumor site. 410 00:20:45,505 --> 00:20:50,345 We found the overall three month response rate to ILI was 58%, 411 00:20:50,425 --> 00:20:54,025 which dropped to 37% for those with upper extremity disease 412 00:20:54,105 --> 00:20:55,105 like Milla. 413 00:20:56,385 --> 00:20:57,465 For context, 414 00:20:57,545 --> 00:21:01,465 if we had amputated, her survival rate would be 89.9%… 415 00:21:02,505 --> 00:21:05,825 but I'm not an attractive young woman and it's not my arm. 416 00:21:11,865 --> 00:21:14,585 To think they were gonna cut off her arm. 417 00:21:16,825 --> 00:21:18,145 Thank God we pushed. 418 00:21:19,145 --> 00:21:19,985 No. 419 00:21:22,705 --> 00:21:24,625 Next time we listen to the doctors 420 00:21:26,025 --> 00:21:28,185 and we do exactly what they tell us. 421 00:21:28,265 --> 00:21:29,345 [Tamara] Ah, no. 422 00:21:30,465 --> 00:21:32,225 There won't be a next time, Joe. 423 00:21:45,985 --> 00:21:50,745 So, you were saying something about 424 00:21:52,065 --> 00:21:54,265 -the patriarchy, right? -That's right. 425 00:21:55,145 --> 00:21:56,545 Pits us against each other. 426 00:21:56,625 --> 00:21:59,105 There should've been enough room for both of us in the market. 427 00:21:59,665 --> 00:22:01,545 -Except this Camilla-- -[Bella] Milla. 428 00:22:01,625 --> 00:22:05,145 -Everyone calls her Milla. -Milla, she was diagnosed with cancer. 429 00:22:05,225 --> 00:22:06,905 So she's consistently maintained. 430 00:22:06,985 --> 00:22:08,425 I have no reason to doubt her. 431 00:22:08,505 --> 00:22:10,385 Because in her case, it's true. 432 00:22:13,825 --> 00:22:15,225 -Hek. -[Hek] Yeah. 433 00:22:15,305 --> 00:22:17,305 -I can call you Hek? -Sure. 434 00:22:18,105 --> 00:22:22,385 I was diagnosed with a Stage Four brain tumor. 435 00:22:22,465 --> 00:22:23,745 Really? 436 00:22:23,825 --> 00:22:24,945 Yes. 437 00:22:25,825 --> 00:22:26,665 Really? 438 00:22:27,665 --> 00:22:29,585 [scoffs] Yes. 439 00:22:29,665 --> 00:22:33,905 You have medical records that prove that you have terminal brain cancer. 440 00:22:33,985 --> 00:22:35,505 I'll have them sent to you. 441 00:22:35,585 --> 00:22:36,945 Okay. Good. 442 00:22:39,105 --> 00:22:40,585 If you were lying, 443 00:22:40,665 --> 00:22:42,905 if you'd gotten confused along the way, 444 00:22:42,985 --> 00:22:47,385 you're here asking for my professional advice and guidance. 445 00:22:47,465 --> 00:22:49,305 This is a no-judgment space. 446 00:22:49,865 --> 00:22:50,745 [Belle] Hmm. 447 00:22:51,425 --> 00:22:53,425 Go on, then. Guide me. 448 00:22:53,505 --> 00:22:56,465 Best case, on what I got to go on… 449 00:22:56,545 --> 00:22:58,665 You go dark, you change your name, 450 00:22:58,745 --> 00:23:00,665 get a good lawyer. You should have one already. 451 00:23:00,745 --> 00:23:02,785 I can't abandon my company, Hek. 452 00:23:02,865 --> 00:23:04,225 You know what it's like. 453 00:23:04,305 --> 00:23:06,945 I have staff and backers. 454 00:23:07,025 --> 00:23:10,265 Not to mention momentum that is… unquantifiable. 455 00:23:10,345 --> 00:23:11,305 It's gone. 456 00:23:11,825 --> 00:23:13,705 -Forget about it. -Okay, look. 457 00:23:13,785 --> 00:23:17,385 I'm not here for your legal advice or your business help. 458 00:23:17,465 --> 00:23:18,665 Then why are you here? 459 00:23:18,745 --> 00:23:21,665 I've come to you specifically… 460 00:23:23,065 --> 00:23:25,865 because I want my reputation back. 461 00:23:26,785 --> 00:23:30,745 And to do that, I need interviews where I tell my side of the story. 462 00:23:31,665 --> 00:23:34,825 Print, TV… maybe a reality show. 463 00:23:35,985 --> 00:23:38,065 I'm worth seven figures. 464 00:23:38,985 --> 00:23:40,145 It's a good commission. 465 00:23:40,865 --> 00:23:44,625 All you have to do is make a couple of phone calls. 466 00:23:44,705 --> 00:23:47,225 I throw a shoe out that window, 467 00:23:47,305 --> 00:23:49,945 I hit ten liars… Twenty. 468 00:23:53,265 --> 00:23:56,665 I'm not lying, okay? I told you. 469 00:24:04,945 --> 00:24:05,825 [Hek] All right. 470 00:24:08,825 --> 00:24:10,785 You want me to soften up the ground? 471 00:24:10,865 --> 00:24:13,185 I'm gonna need stuff to work with. 472 00:24:13,265 --> 00:24:14,345 Troubled childhood? 473 00:24:15,745 --> 00:24:17,065 That's off-limits. 474 00:24:17,145 --> 00:24:20,025 You've already spoke in interviews about your mother's MS. 475 00:24:20,105 --> 00:24:22,105 She's to be given a wide berth. 476 00:24:22,185 --> 00:24:24,145 Okay, what about mental health? 477 00:24:25,385 --> 00:24:28,265 Multiple sclerosis is physically degenerative, not mental. 478 00:24:28,345 --> 00:24:29,745 No, I mean you. 479 00:24:31,145 --> 00:24:32,945 It's nothing to be ashamed of. 480 00:24:33,025 --> 00:24:34,665 I know I get anxiety sometimes. 481 00:24:35,945 --> 00:24:38,385 Have you heard of Munchausen disease? 482 00:24:39,105 --> 00:24:43,745 It's when a person fakes an illness to gain sympathy or even attention. 483 00:24:43,825 --> 00:24:47,425 I know what it is, and it's Munchausen syndrome. 484 00:24:47,505 --> 00:24:48,545 It's not a disease. 485 00:24:48,625 --> 00:24:51,305 It's on the DSM-5 factitious disorder. 486 00:24:51,385 --> 00:24:52,665 You've read up on it? 487 00:24:53,985 --> 00:24:56,465 Ugh! I am not medically illiterate. 488 00:24:56,545 --> 00:24:59,425 I've spent a lot of time in a lot of hospitals 489 00:24:59,505 --> 00:25:02,545 because I was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor. 490 00:25:02,625 --> 00:25:04,625 I was given six weeks to live. 491 00:25:04,705 --> 00:25:06,025 Four months tops. 492 00:25:06,105 --> 00:25:07,825 By whom? What doctors? 493 00:25:07,905 --> 00:25:10,025 -What hospital? -I'm getting you that information. 494 00:25:10,105 --> 00:25:11,905 -[Hek] Okay, then when? When? -I… 495 00:25:12,825 --> 00:25:15,145 I can't speak to the international post system. 496 00:25:15,225 --> 00:25:17,065 [Hek] No, no, no. When were you diagnosed? 497 00:25:17,145 --> 00:25:18,025 Belle! 498 00:25:18,105 --> 00:25:19,905 I'm trying real hard here. 499 00:25:21,025 --> 00:25:23,305 Can you at least answer that? 500 00:25:34,505 --> 00:25:35,785 [Belle] Was it glioblastoma? 501 00:25:35,865 --> 00:25:38,025 Ah, oligodendroglioma… 502 00:25:38,105 --> 00:25:39,665 How long was she in hospital? 503 00:25:39,745 --> 00:25:41,985 I bet you couldn't work during that time. 504 00:25:42,065 --> 00:25:44,825 I'm not supposed to do this, but I'll fast track your claim. 505 00:25:44,905 --> 00:25:47,785 Uh-huh. Yeah, I'll just have to fix up the paper. 506 00:25:47,865 --> 00:25:49,505 No, no, no. Of course. 507 00:25:49,585 --> 00:25:51,585 Your family's been through so much. 508 00:25:51,665 --> 00:25:53,345 It's genuinely my pleasure. Yeah. 509 00:25:53,425 --> 00:25:54,825 [telephone ringing] 510 00:25:57,225 --> 00:25:59,465 [Belle] Aw! Did you all go in? 511 00:26:00,305 --> 00:26:01,705 I love it. 512 00:26:02,665 --> 00:26:04,585 Wow. Thank you. 513 00:26:04,665 --> 00:26:07,385 You know, it's not easy moving to a new city. 514 00:26:09,065 --> 00:26:11,665 You've all welcomed me with such generosity. 515 00:26:13,785 --> 00:26:16,025 [exhales] Anyway, um… 516 00:26:17,105 --> 00:26:19,105 I'm pumped for this next adventure. 517 00:26:20,545 --> 00:26:21,785 A bit scared. 518 00:26:23,025 --> 00:26:25,825 But we're both gonna be back to visit as soon as we can. 519 00:26:27,065 --> 00:26:29,745 [Belle] Can you drive me tomorrow to my baby shower? 520 00:26:29,825 --> 00:26:32,465 -Uh, actually, I'm-- -There's only a few of us going. 521 00:26:32,545 --> 00:26:34,705 I wanted to keep to really close friends, 522 00:26:34,785 --> 00:26:36,505 so if you can try not to post. 523 00:26:37,705 --> 00:26:39,305 -Yeah, of course. -[Belle] Great. 524 00:26:39,385 --> 00:26:40,545 Do you think you'd drink? 525 00:26:40,625 --> 00:26:42,665 'Cause you can pick me and I can drive. 526 00:26:42,745 --> 00:26:43,665 It's no problem. 527 00:27:21,185 --> 00:27:24,785 Hi. I was gifted this, so I don't have a receipt. 528 00:27:24,865 --> 00:27:27,785 I love it, but I'm allergic to synthetic fibers. 529 00:27:28,425 --> 00:27:31,305 We can't offer a refund without a receipt, unfortunately. 530 00:27:31,385 --> 00:27:34,305 Ah, it has its tag on. See? 531 00:27:34,385 --> 00:27:36,025 You could just put it back on the shelf. 532 00:27:36,105 --> 00:27:37,905 [cashier] Uh, what about an exchange? 533 00:27:37,985 --> 00:27:39,465 Do you want to take a peek around? 534 00:27:40,785 --> 00:27:41,985 Um… 535 00:27:44,225 --> 00:27:48,985 Well, it's just that, um… I don't know if I'll still need, um… 536 00:27:49,865 --> 00:27:50,705 [smacks lips] 537 00:27:52,385 --> 00:27:54,825 Well, there's a chance that… [sniffles] 538 00:27:56,105 --> 00:27:58,105 they're not sure she's gonna make it. 539 00:27:59,665 --> 00:28:00,665 Oh, sweetheart. 540 00:28:01,585 --> 00:28:03,865 I'm so sorry. Oh, yeah. 541 00:28:05,265 --> 00:28:07,025 -Oh, really? -Yeah. 542 00:28:07,105 --> 00:28:09,225 -I don't want you to get in trouble. -Ugh. 543 00:28:09,305 --> 00:28:10,945 Stupid rule, anyway. 544 00:28:12,065 --> 00:28:13,465 [cash register whirring] 545 00:28:19,745 --> 00:28:22,065 -$25? -[cashier] $24.95. 546 00:28:22,145 --> 00:28:23,185 It was on sale. 547 00:28:28,105 --> 00:28:29,225 Cheap fucking bitches. 548 00:28:36,785 --> 00:28:39,505 [telephone ringing] 549 00:28:41,825 --> 00:28:45,025 I'm getting you from the SkyBus. It's all in my email, Mum. 550 00:28:45,105 --> 00:28:47,705 I don't remember seeing any email. 551 00:28:47,785 --> 00:28:48,785 I'll resend. 552 00:28:49,505 --> 00:28:51,305 I'm worried about Mothpuss. 553 00:28:52,145 --> 00:28:55,025 -He's not been eating his food. -[Belle] Really? 554 00:28:55,905 --> 00:28:57,185 That's no good. 555 00:28:57,265 --> 00:29:00,625 I'm thinking it might be his kidneys. 556 00:29:01,345 --> 00:29:06,585 You know, totally missed the kitty litter. Piss all over the bathroom floor. 557 00:29:07,305 --> 00:29:09,105 I mean, I'm coming regardless. 558 00:29:09,185 --> 00:29:12,305 Great. I paid for the luggage, but it has to be under 15 kilos. 559 00:29:12,385 --> 00:29:15,225 Maybe you put your bag on the scale before you leave for the airport? 560 00:29:15,305 --> 00:29:17,025 I do have to come, don't I? 561 00:29:17,705 --> 00:29:21,145 I mean, I have to meet your baby's father. 562 00:29:21,225 --> 00:29:22,705 He will be there, won't he? 563 00:29:23,505 --> 00:29:26,305 [Belle] No, I told you already. Nathan's working. 564 00:29:27,625 --> 00:29:30,105 I don't see why he can't just work from Melbourne. 565 00:29:30,585 --> 00:29:32,025 Because he's FIFO. 566 00:29:32,105 --> 00:29:35,185 -[chuckles] Fear of missing out. -[Belle] No. 567 00:29:35,265 --> 00:29:39,385 -FIFO, fly in, fly out. -Oh, fly out, yes. 568 00:29:39,465 --> 00:29:40,865 Better him than me. 569 00:29:41,905 --> 00:29:43,985 Aw, poor Puss. 570 00:29:44,705 --> 00:29:47,465 What if something happens while I'm away? 571 00:29:48,065 --> 00:29:49,745 Can't bear to think about it. 572 00:29:50,345 --> 00:29:52,905 We're a pair, aren't we, Puss? 573 00:29:53,985 --> 00:29:58,865 My kidney pain's no good either. Dr. Patrick wants me to get another scan. 574 00:29:59,425 --> 00:30:02,705 [gasps] Oh, God, I'm gonna have to cancel that appointment. 575 00:30:02,785 --> 00:30:04,865 He won't be happy with me. 576 00:30:07,385 --> 00:30:08,905 Maybe you shouldn't come, Mum. 577 00:30:09,705 --> 00:30:11,785 No, I have to come. 578 00:30:12,625 --> 00:30:15,305 All right, I'll see you tomorrow. 10:15. 579 00:30:16,385 --> 00:30:17,665 SkyBus. It's the red one. 580 00:30:19,705 --> 00:30:23,705 If you don't want me to come, you just let me know. 581 00:30:23,785 --> 00:30:25,505 It's your big party. 582 00:30:25,585 --> 00:30:26,425 Hmm? 583 00:30:27,585 --> 00:30:30,385 You just… You just tell me what you want. 584 00:30:33,145 --> 00:30:34,225 She's not coming. 585 00:30:37,545 --> 00:30:38,585 [sighs] 586 00:31:48,825 --> 00:31:50,145 [woman] Milla! 587 00:31:50,225 --> 00:31:53,545 Oh, I want you to meet Darcy. I've told her all about you. 588 00:31:53,625 --> 00:31:54,945 Darcy, darling! 589 00:31:56,465 --> 00:31:57,625 Hey, how's it going? 590 00:31:58,425 --> 00:32:00,585 -Good, yeah. Good place. -Yeah. 591 00:32:01,785 --> 00:32:04,265 -I'm gonna get the oils going. -Sure. 592 00:32:07,225 --> 00:32:10,825 Chondrosarcoma, 23 months ago. You? 593 00:32:11,545 --> 00:32:13,185 Undifferentiated pleomorphic. 594 00:32:13,745 --> 00:32:15,625 And it's pretty recent, I guess? 595 00:32:17,825 --> 00:32:22,425 Yeah, they tried limb-sparing for me first, but, um, it spread. 596 00:32:22,505 --> 00:32:24,985 -I'm so sorry. -It's okay. 597 00:32:26,505 --> 00:32:30,025 Well, Amy told me that you did the ILI trial. 598 00:32:30,625 --> 00:32:33,625 Are you gonna do limb-sparing this time, or… 599 00:32:34,425 --> 00:32:36,625 No. I'm in remission, actually. 600 00:32:38,065 --> 00:32:39,545 Well, good for you. 601 00:32:40,985 --> 00:32:45,585 But if you ever do want to talk to anyone, I can add you on Facebook. 602 00:32:48,425 --> 00:32:49,425 [sighs] 603 00:32:51,025 --> 00:32:53,705 [yoga instructor] Now lying down on your back, 604 00:32:54,865 --> 00:32:57,545 relaxing through your shoulders. 605 00:32:57,625 --> 00:33:02,905 And softening through your eyes, relaxing through your jaw, 606 00:33:02,985 --> 00:33:06,105 relax through your fingers and through your toes, 607 00:33:06,985 --> 00:33:10,065 take a deep breath in through your nose 608 00:33:10,145 --> 00:33:14,985 and with your final breath in shavasana, let everything go. 609 00:33:16,505 --> 00:33:19,105 [inhales, exhales deeply] 610 00:33:22,985 --> 00:33:24,825 -[instructor] Namaste. -[whispers] Fuck. 611 00:33:24,905 --> 00:33:27,385 [instructor] Thank you so much for coming to class today. 612 00:33:27,465 --> 00:33:29,225 Please take your time to come up. 613 00:33:34,145 --> 00:33:35,145 [man clears throat] 614 00:33:36,745 --> 00:33:37,705 Milla, hi. 615 00:33:38,305 --> 00:33:40,785 Arlo, Currumbin Primary, Miss Histed. I… 616 00:33:41,665 --> 00:33:44,265 -Arlo, hi. How are you? -Hi. 617 00:33:46,065 --> 00:33:49,665 So, hey, also, didn't we… Didn't we pash once at schoolies? 618 00:33:51,705 --> 00:33:55,465 [upbeat music playing] 619 00:33:55,545 --> 00:33:56,825 I don't think so. 620 00:33:58,145 --> 00:34:00,025 Hey, so what course are you doing here? 621 00:34:00,105 --> 00:34:02,305 Uh, I'm… in… 622 00:34:02,385 --> 00:34:03,945 You… yeah, I'm… 623 00:34:04,025 --> 00:34:08,305 I just… I'm so… I… yeah. I heard. 624 00:34:10,025 --> 00:34:13,145 -It wasn't gossip. People were worried. -I know. 625 00:34:14,025 --> 00:34:16,065 I heard you kicked its ugly butt. 626 00:34:16,145 --> 00:34:16,985 Mmm-hmm. 627 00:34:17,784 --> 00:34:20,625 Just doing the Outsmart Cancer Weekend to make sure it's fully kicked. 628 00:34:20,705 --> 00:34:21,945 That's amazing. 629 00:34:22,025 --> 00:34:22,905 And you… 630 00:34:23,945 --> 00:34:25,945 I… uh, meditation teacher training. 631 00:34:26,025 --> 00:34:27,585 It sounded fun. [laughs] 632 00:34:29,105 --> 00:34:31,945 Hey, do you want to grab breakfast? I'd love to hear everything. 633 00:34:32,025 --> 00:34:35,025 Oh, I have to go to my next workshop, but I'll see you later. 634 00:34:35,105 --> 00:34:36,665 Yeah, okay. 635 00:34:36,744 --> 00:34:38,545 -Thank you. -Thank you. 636 00:35:26,145 --> 00:35:28,065 [cell phone ringing] 637 00:35:30,265 --> 00:35:31,105 Hey. 638 00:35:31,585 --> 00:35:32,585 What a day. 639 00:35:33,585 --> 00:35:35,825 Oh, don't even worry, babe. I just got here. 640 00:35:35,905 --> 00:35:36,745 Um… 641 00:35:39,105 --> 00:35:40,105 Oh, no. 642 00:35:41,185 --> 00:35:43,305 Oh, I used to get the worst periods. 643 00:35:43,385 --> 00:35:45,425 It's a good thing about being pregnant, hey? 644 00:35:45,505 --> 00:35:46,825 Um… 645 00:35:48,705 --> 00:35:51,025 Yeah, maybe try magnesium supplement? 646 00:35:52,265 --> 00:35:55,465 If you want to just come for an hour, I can still drive you back. 647 00:35:58,065 --> 00:36:01,825 Right. Yeah, right, right. No, I get it. 648 00:36:01,905 --> 00:36:02,785 Um… 649 00:36:03,705 --> 00:36:06,745 Yeah. I've actually got a shocking headache. 650 00:36:06,825 --> 00:36:07,745 Um… 651 00:36:08,385 --> 00:36:10,745 But listen, I'm gonna do you up a care package. 652 00:36:11,785 --> 00:36:13,065 Primrose and turmeric. 653 00:36:14,105 --> 00:36:15,105 No, I will. 654 00:36:16,625 --> 00:36:17,945 Okay, um… 655 00:36:19,985 --> 00:36:21,425 Yeah. All right. Bye. 656 00:37:05,305 --> 00:37:07,905 [Belle crying] And now my vision's starting to blur. 657 00:37:10,225 --> 00:37:11,585 My mum has MS, 658 00:37:11,665 --> 00:37:13,745 but this pain feels more like… 659 00:37:14,625 --> 00:37:17,625 like structural than neurological. 660 00:37:17,705 --> 00:37:21,265 Like, there's something in there. 661 00:37:22,145 --> 00:37:25,585 [doctor] Just to keep you nice and still. 662 00:37:28,625 --> 00:37:30,225 [machine beeping] 663 00:37:56,225 --> 00:37:57,265 -Hey! -What's this? 664 00:37:57,345 --> 00:38:01,025 -Hey, can you-- -"Sweet Valley is stunned by the news." 665 00:38:01,105 --> 00:38:04,465 "Beautiful young Elizabeth Wakefield lies in a coma, on the brink of death." 666 00:38:04,545 --> 00:38:06,425 It's just comfort food. 667 00:38:07,505 --> 00:38:09,625 What happens in the end? Does she make it? 668 00:38:10,545 --> 00:38:12,825 There's like 150 books in this series. 669 00:38:12,905 --> 00:38:13,905 [chuckles] 670 00:38:15,105 --> 00:38:18,505 Hey, I've got something for you. I found this. 671 00:38:19,505 --> 00:38:23,345 In the river, I don't usually take them. But this one, I wanted you to see. 672 00:38:23,425 --> 00:38:26,625 The other's black and grey, but this one… 673 00:38:28,505 --> 00:38:29,465 It's all by itself. 674 00:38:35,145 --> 00:38:36,225 Pretty. 675 00:38:37,385 --> 00:38:39,105 -Keep it. -I don't need to keep it. 676 00:38:39,185 --> 00:38:40,825 No, it's okay. I got it for you. 677 00:38:42,385 --> 00:38:46,025 Do you know, I remember in primary school, green was your favorite color. 678 00:38:46,705 --> 00:38:49,705 And you used to pick four-leaf clovers every little lunch. 679 00:38:50,905 --> 00:38:52,825 It's a weird thing to remember. 680 00:38:55,745 --> 00:38:56,825 Hey, Milla. 681 00:38:57,945 --> 00:38:58,825 Hey. 682 00:39:00,665 --> 00:39:01,825 Must be inspiring. 683 00:39:02,505 --> 00:39:03,625 The energy in the group? 684 00:39:04,985 --> 00:39:05,985 You think? 685 00:39:06,065 --> 00:39:08,705 Yeah, the survivors' energy. It's nothing more powerful. 686 00:39:08,785 --> 00:39:09,785 It's toxic. 687 00:39:10,625 --> 00:39:11,865 Sick energy. 688 00:39:17,545 --> 00:39:19,665 You know they did it to themselves, right? 689 00:39:21,425 --> 00:39:22,345 I did. I knew. 690 00:39:22,425 --> 00:39:24,865 I knew I was putting all this shit in my body. 691 00:39:24,945 --> 00:39:27,945 -The chemo… -No, not the chemo, before. 692 00:39:29,265 --> 00:39:32,385 School, uni, I just worked so hard and I thought, I don't know, 693 00:39:32,905 --> 00:39:36,225 it was my right to get fucked up on a Wednesday if I felt like it. 694 00:39:38,145 --> 00:39:39,105 But I knew. 695 00:39:43,705 --> 00:39:45,985 I'm so sick of being good, you know? 696 00:39:47,905 --> 00:39:48,905 But I knew. 697 00:39:52,625 --> 00:39:56,065 -You beat it. Milla, you did it. -No, I didn't beat it. 698 00:40:02,025 --> 00:40:04,585 No, I'm getting my arm cut off next week. 699 00:40:13,025 --> 00:40:16,665 The doctors, they're in charge now because it's back and it's worse. 700 00:40:16,745 --> 00:40:17,865 A lot worse. 701 00:40:20,385 --> 00:40:23,185 I can feel it inside me. I hate it. 702 00:40:25,505 --> 00:40:26,985 And I have no choice. 703 00:40:27,625 --> 00:40:30,705 -Hey, you have heaps of choices. -No, I have no choices. 704 00:40:37,185 --> 00:40:38,185 ♪ Lumine de… ♪ 705 00:40:38,265 --> 00:40:39,505 What are you doing? 706 00:40:40,385 --> 00:40:43,225 Stay with me. Stay with me. I know… 707 00:40:44,545 --> 00:40:48,025 -♪ Lumen de Lumine ♪ -My God. 708 00:40:50,105 --> 00:40:53,065 ♪ Lumen de Lumine ♪ 709 00:40:54,665 --> 00:40:56,305 ♪ Deum de Deo ♪ 710 00:41:00,065 --> 00:41:03,265 ♪ Lumen de Lumine ♪ 711 00:41:06,225 --> 00:41:08,105 ♪ Deum de Deo ♪ 712 00:41:11,065 --> 00:41:12,225 ♪ Lumen ♪ 713 00:41:14,025 --> 00:41:15,745 ♪ Deum de Deo ♪ 714 00:41:20,745 --> 00:41:23,785 ♪ Lumen de Lumine ♪ 715 00:41:25,705 --> 00:41:27,345 ♪ Deum de Deo ♪ 716 00:41:32,145 --> 00:41:33,825 ♪ Deum de Deo ♪ 717 00:41:41,265 --> 00:41:42,585 [Milla] Good girl. 718 00:41:43,305 --> 00:41:45,225 She's brave and she's kind. 719 00:41:45,305 --> 00:41:48,065 Never a downer, never angry. 720 00:41:49,145 --> 00:41:50,105 Good girl. 721 00:41:50,625 --> 00:41:51,985 It's how we're conditioned. 722 00:41:52,745 --> 00:41:55,665 And so I didn't know the words to describe the rage I felt 723 00:41:55,745 --> 00:41:59,065 when the doctors looked at my body and only saw disease. 724 00:42:00,105 --> 00:42:04,185 But then this beautiful man, who wasn't yet my man, 725 00:42:04,825 --> 00:42:08,665 gave me a stone and reminded me that the world is more magical 726 00:42:08,745 --> 00:42:10,065 than we give it credit. 727 00:42:10,145 --> 00:42:11,865 [yoga instructor] …into your lion's breath. 728 00:42:11,945 --> 00:42:15,745 Pressing your chest forwards as you inhale… [inhales] 729 00:42:15,825 --> 00:42:17,025 [exhales] 730 00:42:18,145 --> 00:42:20,225 Hear yourself set free-- 731 00:42:20,305 --> 00:42:22,305 [yells] 732 00:42:22,985 --> 00:42:23,985 Good, Milla. 733 00:42:27,105 --> 00:42:32,185 [Milla] So, no more lying and pretending and pleasing everyone. 734 00:42:33,505 --> 00:42:36,505 From now on, I'm gonna stop thinking with my head 735 00:42:36,585 --> 00:42:39,105 and start feeling with my body. 736 00:42:39,185 --> 00:42:42,145 Because I know that cutting off my arm is wrong. 737 00:42:43,825 --> 00:42:46,345 Like I know that chemotherapy is wrong. 738 00:42:48,745 --> 00:42:53,145 I have to find the right way. For me. 739 00:42:55,785 --> 00:42:56,985 [greets in Indonesian] 740 00:42:57,065 --> 00:42:59,505 [in English] Good morning from Ubud in Bali. 741 00:42:59,585 --> 00:43:00,665 Oh, gosh, it's… 742 00:43:01,225 --> 00:43:04,505 been such an amazing few days talking and sharing 743 00:43:04,585 --> 00:43:09,145 with so many inspirational women from all over the world. 744 00:43:09,225 --> 00:43:11,545 -Luce? -If you are feeling ground down 745 00:43:11,625 --> 00:43:13,745 or pushed and pulled apart… 746 00:43:13,825 --> 00:43:15,465 Can you try to get some sleep? 747 00:43:16,665 --> 00:43:18,265 I'll turn the sound down. 748 00:43:18,345 --> 00:43:21,145 …places like the Hirsch Institute in Mexico 749 00:43:21,225 --> 00:43:23,145 and they treat the whole person, 750 00:43:23,225 --> 00:43:26,665 the cause of our toxicity and not just the symptoms. 751 00:43:27,345 --> 00:43:29,505 [doctor] Okay, so I am… 752 00:43:31,065 --> 00:43:33,065 seeing you on Thursday. 753 00:43:34,785 --> 00:43:36,665 Sorry, just quickly. 754 00:43:37,785 --> 00:43:39,625 I wanted to ask about… 755 00:43:39,705 --> 00:43:42,905 There's this treatment place in Mexico that a friend recommended. 756 00:43:42,985 --> 00:43:44,065 Who? Which friend? 757 00:43:44,145 --> 00:43:46,345 It's called the Hirsch Institute. 758 00:43:46,425 --> 00:43:47,705 Belle Gibson? 759 00:43:47,785 --> 00:43:50,385 -A friend of hers. -You're 3C. 760 00:43:50,465 --> 00:43:52,185 We don't mess around with 3C. 761 00:43:52,785 --> 00:43:55,305 There is no 3D. There's Stage Four. 762 00:43:56,065 --> 00:43:58,425 And you know what happens at Stage Four. 763 00:43:58,505 --> 00:43:59,785 Yes. 764 00:43:59,865 --> 00:44:00,905 Thank you. 765 00:44:08,185 --> 00:44:09,785 Thank you for your time, Doctor. 766 00:44:09,865 --> 00:44:12,185 Just make sure she's here on Thursday. 767 00:44:13,785 --> 00:44:15,625 [Lucy] She is so fucking arrogant. 768 00:44:15,705 --> 00:44:17,905 I want that. I want to hear it straight from her. 769 00:44:17,985 --> 00:44:20,465 Why can't she just admit that it's not working? 770 00:44:20,545 --> 00:44:22,985 -I don't know, Luce… -This idea that one size fits all, 771 00:44:23,065 --> 00:44:25,625 -it's insane. -…we're not qualified to make those kind… 772 00:44:25,705 --> 00:44:28,305 -What's wrong? You're breathless? -I'm fine. 773 00:44:28,385 --> 00:44:29,705 You're not my carer. 774 00:44:33,225 --> 00:44:35,105 -You're meant to be. -Come here. 775 00:44:35,185 --> 00:44:36,185 Hey, hey. 776 00:44:36,825 --> 00:44:39,785 [sniffles, sighs] This is not sexy. 777 00:44:41,345 --> 00:44:42,425 I disagree. 778 00:44:43,985 --> 00:44:45,905 It's gross. [sighs] 779 00:44:46,665 --> 00:44:49,745 I'm gross. I don't want to keep feeling like this. 780 00:44:50,985 --> 00:44:51,825 Okay. 781 00:44:52,425 --> 00:44:54,025 What's your alternative, Luce? 782 00:44:54,105 --> 00:44:55,385 This Mexico thing? 783 00:44:55,465 --> 00:44:58,385 Because I'm not letting some influencer with a fucking nose ring 784 00:44:58,465 --> 00:45:00,585 undercut years of actual medical research. 785 00:45:00,665 --> 00:45:03,185 You're not letting? That's great. 786 00:45:03,265 --> 00:45:04,265 [Lucy gasps] 787 00:45:05,425 --> 00:45:08,065 [grunts] I can do it myself. 788 00:45:13,225 --> 00:45:14,625 I'm sorry. 789 00:45:14,705 --> 00:45:17,025 -[sobs] -It's okay. 790 00:45:17,105 --> 00:45:18,745 [sobs] I'm sorry. 791 00:45:20,385 --> 00:45:22,545 -[sniffles] -We're fine, thank you. 792 00:45:25,945 --> 00:45:27,265 [sighs] 793 00:45:30,825 --> 00:45:31,785 We're fine. 794 00:45:31,865 --> 00:45:33,425 [laughs] 795 00:45:50,865 --> 00:45:52,505 [typing] 796 00:45:54,105 --> 00:45:56,785 [Belle] As a first-time young mum-to-be, I would have hoped for 797 00:45:56,865 --> 00:46:00,625 a little more consideration and support from the people I call friends. 798 00:46:00,705 --> 00:46:02,945 I know everyone is busy with their own lives, 799 00:46:03,025 --> 00:46:06,265 and I try not to complain, but with all the scary medical dramas 800 00:46:06,345 --> 00:46:08,545 I've been facing, it feels pretty tough right now. 801 00:46:08,625 --> 00:46:12,425 And damn it, I was looking forward to my baby shower so much. 802 00:46:12,505 --> 00:46:13,385 [laptop chimes] 803 00:46:14,345 --> 00:46:16,145 [woman 1] Aw, honey. Hugs. 804 00:46:16,905 --> 00:46:17,985 What medical dramas? 805 00:46:34,025 --> 00:46:36,225 I think I've mentioned I've been battling migraines. 806 00:46:37,185 --> 00:46:40,585 What I haven't shared is that I had an episode at work recently 807 00:46:40,665 --> 00:46:41,665 where I collapsed. 808 00:46:42,305 --> 00:46:44,265 I'd just got home from the hospital. 809 00:46:44,345 --> 00:46:45,825 My doctor said… 810 00:46:47,945 --> 00:46:49,745 "You have brain cancer." 811 00:46:56,705 --> 00:46:57,545 Belle… 812 00:47:00,225 --> 00:47:03,225 "You have a malignant brain cancer." 813 00:47:03,305 --> 00:47:04,505 "You're dying." 814 00:47:05,225 --> 00:47:06,985 "You have six weeks to live." 815 00:47:07,585 --> 00:47:09,225 "Four months tops." 816 00:47:09,945 --> 00:47:11,465 But I'm gonna prove him wrong. 817 00:47:12,425 --> 00:47:17,665 For myself and for my bubba, I'm going to live. 818 00:47:20,785 --> 00:47:23,265 [woman 2] Oh, my gosh, that is so unfair. 819 00:47:23,345 --> 00:47:25,225 [woman 3] Oh, you poor darling. 820 00:47:25,305 --> 00:47:27,345 [woman 4] You poor thing. 821 00:47:27,425 --> 00:47:30,305 [women voices overlapping] 822 00:47:38,305 --> 00:47:40,185 [woman 5] Seriously, we're all here. 823 00:47:43,865 --> 00:47:45,865 [woman 6] Here's a blog you might like. 824 00:47:45,945 --> 00:47:47,265 She's just like you. 825 00:47:55,025 --> 00:47:58,545 [Milla] Every day on this, I really hate the word journey, 826 00:47:58,625 --> 00:48:02,785 I do feel like my voice is becoming stronger and louder than it's ever been. 827 00:48:03,465 --> 00:48:05,785 I'm not alone and I'm not broken. 828 00:48:06,625 --> 00:48:09,985 I'm allowed to be loud. I'm allowed to take up space. 829 00:48:10,065 --> 00:48:11,785 I am stronger than I know. 830 00:48:13,065 --> 00:48:16,265 So look out world and hear me roar. 831 00:48:19,625 --> 00:48:22,785 Hey, Millie, what do you want me to do? 832 00:48:24,345 --> 00:48:25,865 Whatever you want, I'll do it. 833 00:48:30,745 --> 00:48:32,065 I want to destroy her. 834 00:48:34,865 --> 00:48:36,865 [upbeat music playing] 835 00:48:38,345 --> 00:48:40,745 [Chanelle] Change your body, find your soul. 836 00:48:41,705 --> 00:48:44,665 Oh! Fuck, I love good marketing. 837 00:48:44,745 --> 00:48:45,745 We haven't met yet. 838 00:48:45,825 --> 00:48:47,185 I'm Belle's former manager. 839 00:48:47,265 --> 00:48:50,345 Milla's oldest friend and pretty much the hero of this story. 840 00:48:50,425 --> 00:48:51,425 A little about me. 841 00:48:51,505 --> 00:48:55,665 I graduated high school at 16 and became a banking analyst before I turned 20. 842 00:48:55,745 --> 00:48:58,905 Soul-destroying, I quit that sector four months later 843 00:48:58,985 --> 00:49:02,265 and moved to Berlin to set up an incubator in the social impact space, 844 00:49:02,345 --> 00:49:05,585 which basically became too much fun for my little body to handle. 845 00:49:05,665 --> 00:49:07,265 And so, time to come home. 846 00:49:07,345 --> 00:49:10,065 Well, someone is going to meet with me today in person. 847 00:49:10,785 --> 00:49:11,625 Great. 848 00:49:12,185 --> 00:49:15,025 Yes, that's fantastic. I can be there in, uh, 30 minutes. 849 00:49:17,985 --> 00:49:20,105 So you're in the, uh, investigations team? 850 00:49:20,185 --> 00:49:21,865 Uh, yeah, yeah, what's left of it. 851 00:49:21,945 --> 00:49:23,625 Hey, can I get a soy flat white? 852 00:49:23,705 --> 00:49:25,945 -And are you sure you're… -No, I have my water. Thanks. 853 00:49:26,025 --> 00:49:26,945 Thank you. Cheers. 854 00:49:27,585 --> 00:49:29,145 Are you vegan, Sean? 855 00:49:29,225 --> 00:49:30,185 No. 856 00:49:30,265 --> 00:49:33,185 Oh, so you just… The soy, you just like the taste? 857 00:49:33,265 --> 00:49:35,025 I'm just trying to be healthier. 858 00:49:35,785 --> 00:49:36,785 No, that's not… 859 00:49:37,705 --> 00:49:39,065 necessarily healthier. 860 00:49:39,145 --> 00:49:43,785 It's, uh, the soy, the isoflavones, impersonate estrogen, extra cell growth. 861 00:49:43,865 --> 00:49:46,545 -You should probably do some research. -Okay, I will. 862 00:49:46,625 --> 00:49:47,825 -Yeah. -So, Chanelle? 863 00:49:47,905 --> 00:49:49,665 Mmm-hmm. Two L's and an E at the end. 864 00:49:49,745 --> 00:49:51,985 And you have something for me on Mel Gibson. 865 00:49:52,905 --> 00:49:57,025 My colleague passed me and said you had an urgent tip-off on… 866 00:49:57,105 --> 00:49:58,385 Belle. 867 00:49:59,905 --> 00:50:01,305 It's Belle Gibson. 868 00:50:01,865 --> 00:50:03,065 Okay, who's that? 869 00:50:03,145 --> 00:50:04,505 That's a good question. 870 00:50:04,585 --> 00:50:06,265 Um, how much time do you-- 871 00:50:06,345 --> 00:50:08,705 Just, Just, Just… Are you off to the hearing now? 872 00:50:08,785 --> 00:50:11,785 -[Justin] For my sins, yeah. -Can we catch up in a minute? 873 00:50:11,865 --> 00:50:12,745 Hello? 874 00:50:13,425 --> 00:50:17,705 So sorry, um, Chanelle, this is Justin, also on Investigations. 875 00:50:18,345 --> 00:50:21,065 -Have you heard of Belle Gibson? -Not Mel Gibson. 876 00:50:22,225 --> 00:50:24,305 -Belle, why? -You have? 877 00:50:25,465 --> 00:50:28,465 -Lucy follows her. Why? -What do you think of her? 878 00:50:31,105 --> 00:50:32,225 I haven't met her. 879 00:50:32,305 --> 00:50:33,825 Do you have an instinct? 880 00:50:36,465 --> 00:50:38,185 I think maybe a leech. 881 00:50:39,145 --> 00:50:41,025 Possibly a viper. You? 882 00:50:45,505 --> 00:50:46,745 I think… 883 00:50:50,825 --> 00:50:53,345 -Can I talk to him as well? -What's she done? 884 00:51:08,545 --> 00:51:09,505 Sugar returning. 885 00:51:10,305 --> 00:51:11,145 Hmm. 886 00:51:12,625 --> 00:51:13,905 I'm sorry, I… 887 00:51:16,105 --> 00:51:17,785 I think I lied before… 888 00:51:18,665 --> 00:51:19,705 to you. 889 00:51:23,585 --> 00:51:24,865 That's okay. 890 00:51:26,625 --> 00:51:27,745 Yeah. 891 00:51:27,825 --> 00:51:29,105 Let's take a breath. 892 00:51:30,785 --> 00:51:34,585 Let's start from when you first lied about having brain cancer. 893 00:51:37,545 --> 00:51:39,865 No, I didn't ever lie about that. 894 00:51:53,705 --> 00:51:58,985 When I said people like me instinctively, 895 00:52:02,505 --> 00:52:06,665 that's not totally factually correct. 896 00:52:12,345 --> 00:52:14,025 I try really hard, 897 00:52:15,305 --> 00:52:19,945 like, really, really hard for them to like me. 898 00:52:20,025 --> 00:52:22,025 ["Paint The Town Red" by Doja Cat playing] 899 00:52:23,345 --> 00:52:24,745 And in the end… 900 00:52:27,425 --> 00:52:28,905 they never ever do. 901 00:52:31,185 --> 00:52:36,425 ♪ Walk on by Walk on by ♪ 902 00:52:36,505 --> 00:52:41,865 ♪ Yeah, bitch, I said what I said I'd rather be famous instead ♪ 903 00:52:41,945 --> 00:52:46,745 ♪ I let all that get to my head I don't care I paint the town red ♪ 904 00:52:46,825 --> 00:52:51,345 ♪ Bitch, I said what I said I'd rather be famous instead ♪ 905 00:52:51,425 --> 00:52:56,305 ♪ I let all that get to my head I don't care I paint the town red ♪ 906 00:52:56,385 --> 00:52:59,665 ♪ Mmm, she the devil She a bad little bitch ♪ 907 00:52:59,745 --> 00:53:01,985 ♪ She a rebel… ♪