WEBVTT 00:00:06.005 --> 00:00:08.007 align:center -To Cauca? -Mm-hmm. 00:00:08.675 --> 00:00:10.427 align:center -They left this morning. -What for? 00:00:10.510 --> 00:00:12.178 align:center Mm, well, they both wanted to go. 00:00:13.513 --> 00:00:16.683 align:center Eva's working on something about Indigenous oral tradition, and… 00:00:16.766 --> 00:00:18.935 align:center and Pabón was interested because of his theater thing. 00:00:19.019 --> 00:00:21.855 align:center -He thought it'd be smart to go. -Don't you do schoolwork together? 00:00:21.938 --> 00:00:24.774 align:center This one's a little different. It's a free essay. Choose your subject. 00:00:24.858 --> 00:00:26.735 align:center Oh. What subject did you choose? 00:00:26.818 --> 00:00:28.611 align:center Mm. It's about identity. 00:00:29.112 --> 00:00:30.947 align:center Oh, identity. Well, that could be interesting. 00:00:31.031 --> 00:00:33.742 align:center -You don't know who you are? Are you lost? -Oh, come on, Dad. No. 00:00:33.825 --> 00:00:36.161 align:center So I'm gonna write about… Or, well, I want to. 00:00:36.244 --> 00:00:38.038 align:center I want to interview a Colombian wrestler 00:00:38.121 --> 00:00:39.914 align:center who has never taken off his mask in public. 00:00:39.998 --> 00:00:42.250 align:center -He calls himself "The Colombian Leopard." -Mm! 00:00:42.333 --> 00:00:44.127 align:center -Do you know him? Good? -Of course. 00:00:44.210 --> 00:00:47.297 align:center You know, after football, my real passion at your age was wrestling. 00:00:47.380 --> 00:00:50.050 align:center -Oh, really? -Yeah. But I had to stop going to matches. 00:00:50.133 --> 00:00:52.010 align:center -Your mom didn't approve. -No. Too much violence. 00:00:52.093 --> 00:00:54.846 align:center I was a big fan of this guy, the Tiger of Colombia. 00:00:54.929 --> 00:00:58.308 align:center He was good. And that Leopard, he was pretty great. Really crafty. 00:00:58.391 --> 00:01:01.770 align:center Oh, wow. All right. Very interesting. I'll let you know if I need help. 00:01:01.853 --> 00:01:04.230 align:center Sure, son. I'd be happy to help however I can. 00:01:04.314 --> 00:01:05.857 align:center -Thanks. -Hey, so Eva and Pabón… 00:01:05.940 --> 00:01:08.068 align:center …they're not riding a motorcycle to Cauca, are they? 00:01:08.151 --> 00:01:10.528 align:center -Oh, wow. -Yeah, they did. Why? 00:01:11.029 --> 00:01:13.531 align:center I don't like it. Super dangerous. 00:01:14.032 --> 00:01:16.034 align:center Have you seen how people drive on the roads here? 00:01:16.117 --> 00:01:17.118 align:center Hmm. 00:01:17.619 --> 00:01:20.205 align:center I have to admit that my mom's words reminded me a lot 00:01:20.288 --> 00:01:21.414 align:center of what Luisa said. 00:01:21.498 --> 00:01:25.085 align:center After that, I started to feel a creeping sense of anxiety that would stick with me 00:01:25.168 --> 00:01:27.420 align:center for the short time I was separated from Eva. 00:02:01.788 --> 00:02:03.915 align:center We took that motorcycle all the way to the coast… 00:02:03.998 --> 00:02:05.291 align:center -Mm. -…out to Cartagena. 00:02:05.375 --> 00:02:08.461 align:center -That trip was incredible. -Who'd you go with, by the way? 00:02:10.171 --> 00:02:11.297 align:center -I went with Alfredo. -No. 00:02:11.381 --> 00:02:12.382 align:center -Yes. -No way. 00:02:12.465 --> 00:02:13.675 align:center -I went with Alfredo. -Oh no. 00:02:13.758 --> 00:02:16.344 align:center Yeah. Thing is, we'd both just made a huge mistake. 00:02:16.427 --> 00:02:19.722 align:center The only thing we could think to do was head to the coast on a motorcycle 00:02:19.806 --> 00:02:21.683 align:center and hide out with some friends. 00:02:21.766 --> 00:02:22.976 align:center What happened? 00:02:23.059 --> 00:02:24.435 align:center -They found us. -Mm! 00:02:24.519 --> 00:02:26.396 align:center And they took us right to Bogotá. 00:02:26.479 --> 00:02:28.648 align:center As a punishment, my dad decided it was a good idea 00:02:28.731 --> 00:02:29.858 align:center to send me to José María. 00:02:29.941 --> 00:02:32.777 align:center That's how I found you guys. Then I was happier than ever. 00:02:32.861 --> 00:02:34.654 align:center It's sort of incredible how 00:02:35.613 --> 00:02:38.241 align:center our parents' greatest mistakes end up doing us a favor. 00:02:38.324 --> 00:02:42.203 align:center Like when my dad found out about me, a similar thing happened, actually. 00:02:43.204 --> 00:02:44.539 align:center A sense of freedom. 00:02:44.622 --> 00:02:47.417 align:center I just felt… liberated when he left. 00:02:47.500 --> 00:02:49.419 align:center And did you ever hear from him again? 00:02:50.461 --> 00:02:54.090 align:center My mom told me he's living with another woman in a small town. 00:02:54.591 --> 00:02:56.301 align:center And that small town is near here. 00:02:57.218 --> 00:02:58.511 align:center So the other reason 00:02:58.595 --> 00:03:01.014 align:center I wanted to come out here was so I would 00:03:02.015 --> 00:03:04.142 align:center be able to face him, and be honest, 00:03:04.225 --> 00:03:06.895 align:center and say everything I wanted to back when he was around. 00:03:25.163 --> 00:03:29.584 align:center EVA LASTING 00:03:39.761 --> 00:03:44.599 align:center "THE THEATRE AND ITS DOUBLE" "EPISODE 6" 00:03:53.816 --> 00:03:54.692 align:center Coming. 00:03:55.234 --> 00:03:57.362 align:center Dad? 00:03:58.279 --> 00:04:00.615 align:center Yeah, all right. Hang on. I'm coming, man. 00:04:01.991 --> 00:04:02.951 align:center What's up? Hi, son. 00:04:03.034 --> 00:04:04.744 align:center -Hey. -So I was doing some research. 00:04:04.827 --> 00:04:05.662 align:center What I heard is, 00:04:05.745 --> 00:04:08.331 align:center the guy hangs out at a bar downtown called The Red Lightbulb. 00:04:08.414 --> 00:04:09.874 align:center -Got that? -What? I don't understand. 00:04:09.958 --> 00:04:12.794 align:center -Who… who are you talking about? -Come on. You know who. 00:04:12.877 --> 00:04:14.003 align:center The Leopard. 00:04:14.087 --> 00:04:15.380 align:center -The Colombian Leopard? -Yeah! 00:04:15.463 --> 00:04:16.714 align:center -You got info? -I'm a cab driver. 00:04:16.798 --> 00:04:18.675 align:center I have the soul of an investigator. 00:04:18.758 --> 00:04:20.218 align:center -You know what my contact said? -What? 00:04:20.301 --> 00:04:22.470 align:center That the Leopard is going through a bit of a rough patch. 00:04:22.553 --> 00:04:23.680 align:center -Oh, why? -Don't know. 00:04:23.763 --> 00:04:26.307 align:center But my contact says the Leopard goes to the bar, 00:04:26.391 --> 00:04:28.893 align:center sits down at the counter, won't talk to anyone, 00:04:28.977 --> 00:04:31.020 align:center gets hammered alone, then heads out. 00:04:31.104 --> 00:04:34.023 align:center Oh, my contact said he was known for being a very friendly person, 00:04:34.107 --> 00:04:35.900 align:center which has to mean he's going through something. 00:04:35.984 --> 00:04:38.820 align:center -Okay, so what… -So I've got good news and bad news. 00:04:38.903 --> 00:04:41.739 align:center The good, we know where he's going. The bad, no one knows when. 00:04:41.823 --> 00:04:43.866 align:center -What do we do? Hmm? -Well, I don't know. I guess-- 00:04:43.950 --> 00:04:46.119 align:center What do you mean, you guess? Hey, you know the saying. 00:04:46.202 --> 00:04:48.538 align:center "If you want something in life, you have to…" 00:04:48.621 --> 00:04:50.999 align:center -Uh… go find it at the bar, I guess? -Exactly! 00:04:51.082 --> 00:04:52.709 align:center So let's go to The Red Lightbulb. 00:04:52.792 --> 00:04:54.335 align:center -The Red Lightbulb? Right now? -Yes! 00:04:54.419 --> 00:04:55.628 align:center And you're going with me? 00:04:56.129 --> 00:04:57.880 align:center -Of course. Let's go. -All right, then. 00:04:57.964 --> 00:04:59.841 align:center -My purse. I've been robbed. I… -Your what? 00:04:59.924 --> 00:05:01.968 align:center -They took the purse. -The purse is right here. 00:05:02.051 --> 00:05:03.177 align:center -Oh, okay. -Shoot. The keys. 00:05:06.014 --> 00:05:07.598 align:center Why are you so quiet, son? 00:05:08.558 --> 00:05:09.475 align:center I don't know. 00:05:10.560 --> 00:05:13.146 align:center Worried about Eva, because of what mom said earlier. 00:05:13.229 --> 00:05:15.648 align:center The driving and motorcycles being so dangerous. 00:05:15.732 --> 00:05:18.359 align:center Don't lose sleep over it. Mom can get really paranoid. 00:05:18.443 --> 00:05:19.736 align:center -I know. -Mm-hmm. 00:05:19.819 --> 00:05:22.322 align:center Guess I should have gone, right? Well… 00:05:22.822 --> 00:05:23.990 align:center Why didn't you? 00:05:24.073 --> 00:05:25.199 align:center I'm a moron. 00:05:25.283 --> 00:05:28.202 align:center I mean, I wanted her to invite me, to say something, but… pff! 00:05:28.286 --> 00:05:29.370 align:center -Mm-hmm? -No. 00:05:30.079 --> 00:05:31.414 align:center Want my opinion, son? 00:05:31.914 --> 00:05:34.625 align:center -No, well-- -No, it's fine that you let her go. 00:05:35.126 --> 00:05:37.545 align:center Spend all your time together, you'll think of her like gum. 00:05:37.628 --> 00:05:38.921 align:center She'll start to lose flavor. 00:05:39.005 --> 00:05:41.424 align:center After a while, you'll be looking for a way to get rid of her. 00:05:41.507 --> 00:05:43.509 align:center No, you have to go off and do your own things 00:05:43.593 --> 00:05:45.344 align:center so you can come home and keep it fresh. 00:05:45.428 --> 00:05:47.263 align:center You'll have all these new stories. 00:05:47.347 --> 00:05:48.639 align:center Take me, for instance. 00:05:49.140 --> 00:05:52.393 align:center Thanks to the taxi, I've spent like… like 20 years with your mom, 00:05:52.477 --> 00:05:56.105 align:center 'cause… I experience new stuff every day that I can share with her. 00:05:56.189 --> 00:05:58.232 align:center -Mm. -That's why we're still together. 00:05:58.316 --> 00:06:00.526 align:center -Mm. -Well, that and because… 00:06:01.152 --> 00:06:03.780 align:center I let your mom have space. I had to learn that the hard way. 00:06:04.781 --> 00:06:06.824 align:center She had to live her own life so she could come home 00:06:06.908 --> 00:06:09.994 align:center and, hopefully, share those experiences and strengthen our connection. 00:06:12.872 --> 00:06:16.167 align:center The thing that really kills couples, Camilo, is silence. 00:06:16.667 --> 00:06:18.836 align:center When there's no conversation, no exchange. 00:06:19.337 --> 00:06:20.213 align:center Hmm? 00:06:26.094 --> 00:06:28.471 align:center What my dad said in the car made me think. 00:06:28.554 --> 00:06:31.474 align:center And although it didn't make my concern for Eva disappear, 00:06:31.557 --> 00:06:33.017 align:center it did free me from guilt. 00:06:33.101 --> 00:06:35.937 align:center And allowing her that freedom felt like an act of love. 00:06:36.020 --> 00:06:36.854 align:center No problem. 00:06:36.938 --> 00:06:39.732 align:center At The Red Lightbulb, we didn't find The Leopard, 00:06:39.816 --> 00:06:43.528 align:center but we did find out some information that brought us closer to him. 00:06:43.611 --> 00:06:44.654 align:center Sorry. 00:06:45.238 --> 00:06:47.740 align:center In the '80s, making a movie in Colombia was tough. 00:06:47.824 --> 00:06:49.700 align:center You had to be scrappy and resourceful. 00:06:49.784 --> 00:06:51.744 align:center But there were stubborn people with strong visions, 00:06:51.828 --> 00:06:53.955 align:center like Lisandro Duque and Ramiro Meléndez, 00:06:54.038 --> 00:06:56.124 align:center who put their faith in stories about athletes. 00:06:56.207 --> 00:06:57.959 align:center The first one was called The Bicycle Racer. 00:06:58.042 --> 00:06:59.168 align:center It was about a cyclist. 00:06:59.252 --> 00:07:01.963 align:center The second was a boxing movie called The Last Round. 00:07:02.046 --> 00:07:06.092 align:center Turned out, there was a third film about a wrestler, The Leopard, 00:07:06.175 --> 00:07:08.469 align:center which we learned about at The Red Lightbulb. 00:07:09.679 --> 00:07:12.098 align:center So someone told you The Leopard just jumped ship 00:07:12.181 --> 00:07:13.933 align:center in the middle of shooting the movie? 00:07:14.433 --> 00:07:16.352 align:center Well, yeah, I guess that's the rumor. 00:07:16.436 --> 00:07:18.604 align:center -Well, that's all it is. -Mm. 00:07:19.605 --> 00:07:22.650 align:center -So he didn't quit? -No, course not. He wouldn't do that. 00:07:22.733 --> 00:07:26.320 align:center The Leopard had a reputation for being serious and very responsible. 00:07:26.988 --> 00:07:29.907 align:center -So what happened? -Well, the movie was shut down. 00:07:30.408 --> 00:07:31.701 align:center Oh, really? Why? 00:07:32.201 --> 00:07:33.244 align:center We ran out of money. 00:07:34.203 --> 00:07:36.873 align:center We tried, but we just couldn't convince any investors 00:07:36.956 --> 00:07:38.666 align:center to throw more cash at the project. 00:07:38.749 --> 00:07:40.042 align:center It was a bummer. 00:07:40.126 --> 00:07:42.879 align:center Fact is, The Leopard's not really what he used to be. 00:07:42.962 --> 00:07:44.881 align:center Everyone's forgetting about him now. 00:07:44.964 --> 00:07:46.382 align:center Don't worry. We won't. 00:07:53.681 --> 00:07:56.350 align:center Any idea where he might be right now? 00:07:56.893 --> 00:07:59.270 align:center Well, the man's always been very predictable. 00:07:59.353 --> 00:08:00.188 align:center Huh. 00:08:00.271 --> 00:08:02.106 align:center I already found out where he spends his time. 00:08:04.984 --> 00:08:07.945 align:center Let's see. Ten. Oh! Whoa! Whoa! Man, where was that hiding? 00:08:09.197 --> 00:08:12.408 align:center Oh, damn, that's good stuff. See? The drunker I get, the better I play. 00:08:12.491 --> 00:08:15.077 align:center Maybe I should give the young guy a chance, though. 00:08:15.161 --> 00:08:16.787 align:center How are you doing there, Henry? 00:08:18.456 --> 00:08:19.415 align:center Afternoon, guys. 00:08:19.498 --> 00:08:21.250 align:center -How's it going? -What's going on? 00:08:22.210 --> 00:08:23.628 align:center Hey, so why'd you come by, huh? 00:08:24.212 --> 00:08:25.713 align:center I've been looking for you. 00:08:25.796 --> 00:08:28.049 align:center You're not gonna introduce me to your buddies? 00:08:29.300 --> 00:08:31.135 align:center This is my son. Uh… he's my oldest. 00:08:31.219 --> 00:08:32.678 align:center Uh… and his girlfriend. 00:08:32.762 --> 00:08:35.515 align:center -Nice to meet you. -No! Oh my God, no. 00:08:35.598 --> 00:08:38.476 align:center Eva's not my girlfriend. Did you forget that your son's a big faggot? 00:08:40.811 --> 00:08:42.688 align:center Remember? I love men. 00:08:42.772 --> 00:08:45.191 align:center -Boy, do I. -Oh, brother. Kids these days, right? 00:08:45.274 --> 00:08:47.443 align:center -Come on. Let's have a talk. -No, don't worry. 00:08:47.526 --> 00:08:49.403 align:center -I don't wanna take up your time. -I'm happy to-- 00:08:49.487 --> 00:08:51.572 align:center No, look. I came here to say thanks, Dad. 00:08:52.073 --> 00:08:54.867 align:center Your son is here… to say "thanks a lot." 00:08:54.951 --> 00:08:58.037 align:center Because you made me realize that I don't wanna repeat the patterns 00:08:58.120 --> 00:09:01.749 align:center of a guy as backward and emotionally underdeveloped as you. 00:09:01.832 --> 00:09:03.793 align:center And your humiliations, 00:09:04.377 --> 00:09:06.545 align:center abuse, and all the bullshit you put us through 00:09:06.629 --> 00:09:08.422 align:center was necessary to form my true identity. 00:09:09.924 --> 00:09:11.676 align:center Of course, now, fortunately, 00:09:12.176 --> 00:09:13.928 align:center I have people that love me. 00:09:14.011 --> 00:09:15.680 align:center And that love is boundless. 00:09:16.180 --> 00:09:19.267 align:center I can be completely and totally myself, as gay as I am. 00:09:19.350 --> 00:09:21.143 align:center By the way, I'm also here to say 00:09:22.103 --> 00:09:23.646 align:center I forgive you, Dad. 00:09:27.066 --> 00:09:29.151 align:center And I hope that, at some point, 00:09:29.652 --> 00:09:33.614 align:center you fill up your empty heart with love and find a new direction for your life. 00:09:36.033 --> 00:09:37.034 align:center I really hope that. 00:09:38.619 --> 00:09:40.246 align:center Come on. 00:09:40.746 --> 00:09:42.790 align:center Enjoy your game, you guys. Have a good day. 00:09:42.873 --> 00:09:43.958 align:center -Thank you. -Take it easy. 00:09:44.041 --> 00:09:45.501 align:center -You too. -Enjoy. 00:09:51.507 --> 00:09:53.259 align:center How do you feel? 00:09:53.342 --> 00:09:54.260 align:center Pretty good. 00:09:55.094 --> 00:09:56.596 align:center Fine. Fine. 00:09:57.847 --> 00:09:59.932 align:center I feel… lighter. 00:10:01.017 --> 00:10:02.685 align:center It took me a long time to… 00:10:03.185 --> 00:10:05.563 align:center to find the courage to be able to… to move on 00:10:05.646 --> 00:10:08.524 align:center and completely erase him from my life. 00:10:10.067 --> 00:10:14.447 align:center And now that I said… my truth, right to his face, I feel really… 00:10:17.408 --> 00:10:18.617 align:center -…healed. -Mm-hmm. 00:10:20.244 --> 00:10:22.747 align:center That's the healing power of voicing your feelings. 00:10:24.498 --> 00:10:28.169 align:center When you… you express your emotional issues by verbalizing them, 00:10:28.252 --> 00:10:29.295 align:center you feel better. 00:10:30.296 --> 00:10:31.922 align:center That's the principle behind everything, 00:10:32.006 --> 00:10:34.300 align:center from Catholic confession to psychoanalysis. 00:10:36.510 --> 00:10:38.512 align:center Sounds pretty similar to theater too. 00:10:38.596 --> 00:10:40.723 align:center Yeah. That's right. 00:10:42.892 --> 00:10:44.769 align:center I'm really happy for you, Gustavo. 00:10:45.436 --> 00:10:46.270 align:center Thanks. 00:10:49.106 --> 00:10:52.610 align:center I would give anything in the world to be… to be able to tell my mom 00:10:52.693 --> 00:10:55.237 align:center some of the stuff I kept to myself as a kid. 00:10:57.865 --> 00:10:58.824 align:center Hmm. 00:11:02.203 --> 00:11:03.162 align:center Thank you so much. 00:11:03.746 --> 00:11:05.748 align:center Of course. That's what friends are for. 00:11:06.248 --> 00:11:07.416 align:center -No. -No? 00:11:07.500 --> 00:11:08.376 align:center No. 00:11:08.459 --> 00:11:10.628 align:center You're definitely not my friend, Eva. 00:11:11.128 --> 00:11:12.380 align:center You're my family. 00:11:14.548 --> 00:11:16.675 align:center -Love you to the moon and back. -You too. 00:11:16.759 --> 00:11:18.219 align:center Thanks for being here for me. 00:11:18.302 --> 00:11:19.178 align:center Mm. 00:11:20.846 --> 00:11:21.680 align:center Wanna go? 00:11:23.099 --> 00:11:24.058 align:center Yep, let's do it. 00:11:24.141 --> 00:11:27.228 align:center But we should make our way to a phone so we can tell everyone we're okay. 00:11:27.311 --> 00:11:28.396 align:center Sounds good. 00:11:33.025 --> 00:11:34.443 align:center They had no information? 00:11:36.070 --> 00:11:38.864 align:center Yes. Yeah, yeah. No, I… I understand. Yeah, right. 00:11:38.948 --> 00:11:41.242 align:center We have to be on the lookout. They might call us back. 00:11:42.243 --> 00:11:43.494 align:center Okay, sounds good. 00:11:43.994 --> 00:11:45.746 align:center All right. Thanks. I'll speak to you later. 00:11:47.915 --> 00:11:50.167 align:center -Dad. -Appreciate it, honey. 00:11:50.251 --> 00:11:52.878 align:center No, no, no, really. Thank you very much. Take care. 00:11:53.379 --> 00:11:55.965 align:center -Poor thing. She's got a lot of problems. -Yeah, I bet. 00:11:56.048 --> 00:11:57.717 align:center Yeah. What'd they say, son? 00:11:57.800 --> 00:11:59.969 align:center They told me to call the 364. It's all right. 00:12:00.052 --> 00:12:01.512 align:center See? What'd I tell you, huh? 00:12:01.595 --> 00:12:03.764 align:center -How about we have a few drinks? -No. 00:12:03.848 --> 00:12:06.517 align:center What if The Leopard shows up here later and can't find us? Huh? 00:12:06.600 --> 00:12:09.437 align:center -But Eva said she'd call tonight. -A couple of beers. We deserve them. 00:12:09.520 --> 00:12:10.646 align:center Fine. I'll buy you a drink. 00:12:10.730 --> 00:12:13.524 align:center 'Cause I feel sorry for you. You're stuck in the cab eight hours a day. 00:12:13.607 --> 00:12:15.901 align:center -Hello there. What can I get you? -Two cold ones, my friend. 00:12:15.985 --> 00:12:16.819 align:center Coming right up. 00:12:16.902 --> 00:12:19.947 align:center -You don't have to work later, right? -No. God, no. Don't worry about that. 00:12:20.531 --> 00:12:22.324 align:center Can I confess something to calm you down? 00:12:22.992 --> 00:12:25.202 align:center I feel guilty for not helping you with your homework 00:12:25.286 --> 00:12:26.704 align:center when you were in elementary school. 00:12:26.787 --> 00:12:29.540 align:center -You didn't help in high school. -That was always up to your mother. 00:12:29.623 --> 00:12:31.751 align:center -Remember that? -Yeah, I remember. Of course. 00:12:32.251 --> 00:12:35.254 align:center I was a bad student. I wasn't built for it. I hated books. 00:12:35.337 --> 00:12:37.298 align:center I've always been a man of action, you know? 00:12:37.381 --> 00:12:38.424 align:center With this university thing, 00:12:38.507 --> 00:12:40.843 align:center I feel like I'm paying a debt I owe to myself and to you. 00:12:40.926 --> 00:12:43.053 align:center -So, Camilo, salud! -Salud! 00:12:43.137 --> 00:12:46.015 align:center -To the opportunities that life gives us. -Thanks, Pop. 00:12:57.693 --> 00:12:58.944 align:center -Whoo! -Whoo! Whoo! 00:12:59.028 --> 00:13:00.738 align:center Oh my God. 00:13:00.821 --> 00:13:01.781 align:center This is incredible. 00:13:07.578 --> 00:13:09.205 align:center I was only five years old or so. 00:13:09.288 --> 00:13:10.456 align:center But, well… 00:13:10.539 --> 00:13:14.126 align:center I remember everything so clearly that it actually kind of freaks me out. 00:13:14.210 --> 00:13:15.085 align:center Mm. 00:13:16.128 --> 00:13:18.881 align:center My mom had just returned home, 'cause some guy, um… 00:13:18.964 --> 00:13:20.674 align:center well, he left her on her own. 00:13:20.758 --> 00:13:23.677 align:center And my prick of a father only let her come home so he could humiliate her. 00:13:24.678 --> 00:13:26.055 align:center Because she wanted to be with me, 00:13:26.138 --> 00:13:28.057 align:center she put up with the situation for a few days. 00:13:28.557 --> 00:13:31.143 align:center She tried to go back to being a painter again. 00:13:32.269 --> 00:13:33.813 align:center She really loved it. 00:13:33.896 --> 00:13:35.481 align:center She was very good too. 00:13:36.148 --> 00:13:39.193 align:center But… then, one morning, she came into my room. 00:13:39.276 --> 00:13:40.236 align:center She was crying. 00:13:42.696 --> 00:13:44.657 align:center She kissed me on my forehead 00:13:45.574 --> 00:13:47.284 align:center and left me with a new book. 00:13:47.368 --> 00:13:49.620 align:center It was a book about Frida's paintings. 00:13:51.372 --> 00:13:53.874 align:center Then I looked out the window in my room, 00:13:53.958 --> 00:13:57.711 align:center and I… saw her leaving the house with all her bags. 00:13:58.212 --> 00:14:00.130 align:center Next day, I found out… 00:14:02.299 --> 00:14:05.469 align:center I found out that she was dead. My mother had shot herself in the head. 00:14:06.720 --> 00:14:10.474 align:center They didn't even take me to the cemetery, so I never got a chance to say goodbye. 00:14:11.934 --> 00:14:14.979 align:center I mean, my dad was determined to convince me I never had a mom, 00:14:15.062 --> 00:14:17.731 align:center but… …it was useless. 00:14:19.984 --> 00:14:21.151 align:center Because, um… 00:14:22.069 --> 00:14:25.114 align:center because there isn't a day I stop thinking about her. 00:14:28.409 --> 00:14:30.286 align:center And what is it you wanna share with her? 00:14:31.829 --> 00:14:32.830 align:center My heart. 00:14:48.053 --> 00:14:50.014 align:center Relieved of my worries about Eva, 00:14:50.097 --> 00:14:52.391 align:center thanks to the call they had made to the 364, 00:14:52.474 --> 00:14:55.811 align:center I knew I couldn't give up further exploring the subject of my essay. 00:14:55.895 --> 00:14:57.855 align:center I was going to leave no stone unturned. 00:14:57.938 --> 00:14:59.773 align:center So he hasn't been back here since then? 00:14:59.857 --> 00:15:01.400 align:center Well, no. No one's seen him around. 00:15:01.483 --> 00:15:04.403 align:center They had to take him off the posters advertising the fights this month. 00:15:04.486 --> 00:15:07.698 align:center So they're not putting him in matches? But the guy's a big name, right? 00:15:07.781 --> 00:15:10.034 align:center Well, now we've got a handful of up-and-comers. 00:15:10.117 --> 00:15:11.118 align:center These two are popular. 00:15:11.201 --> 00:15:13.329 align:center And people pay good money to see these guys. 00:15:13.913 --> 00:15:15.956 align:center And that's what The Leopard doesn't understand. 00:15:16.040 --> 00:15:18.417 align:center I heard that they offered him a hell of a pretty penny 00:15:18.500 --> 00:15:20.127 align:center for a… an exhibition. 00:15:20.210 --> 00:15:21.462 align:center Mask versus mask, you know? 00:15:21.545 --> 00:15:23.714 align:center But on the condition that, if the Leopard lost, 00:15:23.797 --> 00:15:25.799 align:center he'd take off his mask in front of the audience. 00:15:25.883 --> 00:15:27.926 align:center -He didn't want to? -I mean, look, the guy's brave. 00:15:28.010 --> 00:15:31.305 align:center -He's not stupid. He wouldn't do it. -Know where we can find him these days? 00:15:31.388 --> 00:15:33.933 align:center No, but I've heard that he's always spending time at this bar. 00:15:34.016 --> 00:15:37.394 align:center The Red Lightbulb. He's a big beer drinker, apparently. 00:15:37.478 --> 00:15:39.897 align:center -Got it. -Okay, well, thanks. Thank you very much. 00:15:39.980 --> 00:15:42.274 align:center That's it? I was hoping for a little reward. 00:15:43.025 --> 00:15:45.277 align:center -Uh, thank you very much. -It's all right, son. 00:15:45.778 --> 00:15:48.530 align:center Don't worry. We're in the ballpark. That was good progress. 00:15:48.614 --> 00:15:50.991 align:center -No one knows where the guy's gonna be. -We left breadcrumbs. 00:15:51.075 --> 00:15:52.368 align:center He knows we're looking for him. 00:15:52.451 --> 00:15:53.494 align:center -And? -And what? 00:15:53.577 --> 00:15:56.205 align:center With someone like The Leopard, it's better not to go looking for him. 00:15:56.288 --> 00:15:57.873 align:center You want him to look for you. 00:15:57.957 --> 00:16:00.334 align:center Back at The Lightbulb, I decided to plant a little lie. 00:16:00.417 --> 00:16:02.127 align:center I said you're a very prominent reporter. 00:16:02.211 --> 00:16:03.712 align:center -What? No. -You're on your way. 00:16:03.796 --> 00:16:05.589 align:center You'll be famous. I got ahead of myself. 00:16:05.673 --> 00:16:08.425 align:center I said you were looking to put him on some kind of TV show. 00:16:08.509 --> 00:16:10.803 align:center If these people are right about The Leopard being desperate, 00:16:10.886 --> 00:16:12.471 align:center he'll take the bait right away. 00:16:13.055 --> 00:16:15.474 align:center -Well, let's get back to the bar, then. -Yeah. 00:16:15.557 --> 00:16:18.310 align:center Remember, "More flies are caught with honey…" 00:16:19.186 --> 00:16:20.688 align:center -"…than vinegar." -Than vinegar. Right. 00:16:22.398 --> 00:16:23.857 align:center Let's go. 00:16:26.944 --> 00:16:28.112 align:center Hey. Thank you. 00:16:35.619 --> 00:16:37.788 align:center -What can I get you? -Two cold ones. Thanks. 00:16:37.871 --> 00:16:38.997 align:center You got it. 00:16:39.081 --> 00:16:40.749 align:center Oh, a guy left this earlier. 00:16:40.833 --> 00:16:41.834 align:center For me? A guy? 00:16:41.917 --> 00:16:43.794 align:center Yeah, he came in a while ago. 00:16:43.877 --> 00:16:46.714 align:center He said to give this to the man asking about The Leopard. 00:16:46.797 --> 00:16:48.966 align:center Yesterday, you told me a journalist was looking for him. 00:16:49.049 --> 00:16:50.175 align:center Maybe that's who it's for. 00:16:50.259 --> 00:16:52.136 align:center Hello? 00:16:52.970 --> 00:16:56.223 align:center I don't know about this. Dad, there's no one here. 00:16:56.932 --> 00:16:59.143 align:center -Maybe… maybe we should go. -Uh, Leopard? 00:16:59.810 --> 00:17:01.311 align:center -I can't see a thing. -Hello, sir? 00:17:01.395 --> 00:17:02.938 align:center -Let's go. It's empty. -Where are you? 00:17:03.021 --> 00:17:04.773 align:center Come on. I'm done, Dad. Let's get outta here! 00:17:04.857 --> 00:17:05.983 align:center Here I am. 00:17:08.819 --> 00:17:10.487 align:center What do you want from me? 00:17:12.281 --> 00:17:13.657 align:center No, you look way too young 00:17:13.741 --> 00:17:16.034 align:center to be one of the most prominent reporters in Colombia. 00:17:16.118 --> 00:17:16.952 align:center So, no. 00:17:17.036 --> 00:17:20.205 align:center But, uh… uh, Mr. Leopard, trust me, sir, he will be, one day. 00:17:20.289 --> 00:17:23.917 align:center You know, I've broken peoples' necks and severed their spinal columns 00:17:24.001 --> 00:17:25.586 align:center for much less than this. 00:17:25.669 --> 00:17:27.129 align:center No, but… Look, no. 00:17:27.212 --> 00:17:29.548 align:center No, you… you don't have to… I'm sorry. I can explain. 00:17:29.631 --> 00:17:31.967 align:center The thing is, I study literature, okay? 00:17:32.051 --> 00:17:36.472 align:center And… and for this writing assignment, I had to pick a character and a topic. 00:17:36.555 --> 00:17:38.182 align:center And I chose you, and… 00:17:38.265 --> 00:17:40.809 align:center and for the topic I picked… identity. 00:17:40.893 --> 00:17:42.561 align:center Because of the… the mask. Yeah. 00:17:42.644 --> 00:17:45.147 align:center For context, Mr. Leopard, he's number one in his class. 00:17:45.230 --> 00:17:46.398 align:center He's the best. 00:17:46.482 --> 00:17:49.359 align:center So you guys have been looking for me like a couple of lunatics 00:17:49.443 --> 00:17:51.445 align:center just for a college assignment? 00:17:53.822 --> 00:17:54.782 align:center -Yes. Yeah. -No. 00:17:54.865 --> 00:17:56.283 align:center -No? -Yes. 00:17:56.366 --> 00:17:58.494 align:center Pretty much. More or less. I also work for a newspaper. 00:17:58.577 --> 00:18:00.079 align:center -I do the literary periodical. -Right. 00:18:00.162 --> 00:18:01.163 align:center So apart from the essay, 00:18:01.246 --> 00:18:04.208 align:center I was hoping to put together a nice piece for the paper. 00:18:04.291 --> 00:18:06.251 align:center They might publish it, Mr. Leopard. 00:18:06.335 --> 00:18:07.461 align:center Or "Don Leopard." 00:18:07.544 --> 00:18:08.879 align:center Or "His Leopardship"? 00:18:08.962 --> 00:18:10.130 align:center -Or "Leo"? -Or "Pardo"? 00:18:10.214 --> 00:18:11.381 align:center -Or-- -No, no. 00:18:11.465 --> 00:18:12.925 align:center Uh, well, "Leopard" is… That's fine. 00:18:13.634 --> 00:18:16.303 align:center I started when I was very young, back in the mid '40s. 00:18:16.386 --> 00:18:17.638 align:center Those were the days. 00:18:17.721 --> 00:18:19.640 align:center I was raw, at first. 00:18:19.723 --> 00:18:22.643 align:center But I realized, over time, that lots of folks liked my style a lot, 00:18:22.726 --> 00:18:24.978 align:center so I became more… technical. 00:18:25.062 --> 00:18:28.607 align:center And that's how I won everything a wrestler can win. 00:18:29.316 --> 00:18:31.193 align:center You've never taken off your mask. Is that right? 00:18:31.276 --> 00:18:33.570 align:center Yes, that's right. Uh… never. 00:18:33.654 --> 00:18:35.739 align:center Like the famous El Santo. I will never remove this. 00:18:35.823 --> 00:18:38.200 align:center -Neither will anyone else. -That's what I told him. Right? 00:18:38.283 --> 00:18:40.410 align:center -And why exactly? -What do you mean? 00:18:40.494 --> 00:18:42.079 align:center -He won't do it-- -Dad, let him answer. 00:18:42.162 --> 00:18:43.580 align:center Go ahead, Leopard. 00:18:43.664 --> 00:18:45.457 align:center It's pretty obvious, right? 00:18:45.541 --> 00:18:48.377 align:center Because, now, I wanna keep things low-key in my life. 00:18:48.460 --> 00:18:52.214 align:center The fame and… all the adoring fans can be great, 00:18:52.297 --> 00:18:53.173 align:center but… 00:18:54.341 --> 00:18:57.386 align:center they bring… serious problems sometimes. 00:18:57.469 --> 00:18:58.804 align:center And it's a shame. 00:18:58.887 --> 00:19:02.349 align:center It's a shame that television has disregarded wrestling. 00:19:02.850 --> 00:19:04.935 align:center At the moment, there's nowhere to find 00:19:05.018 --> 00:19:07.354 align:center the tremendous matches that I was part of over the years. 00:19:07.437 --> 00:19:09.898 align:center -I took on the Tiger of Colombia… -Yes. 00:19:09.982 --> 00:19:11.149 align:center -…The Silver Fox… -Of course. 00:19:11.233 --> 00:19:12.943 align:center …the Ecuadorian Banshee. 00:19:13.026 --> 00:19:16.113 align:center All of those were brilliant matches! Spectacular! 00:19:16.196 --> 00:19:18.365 align:center I can attest to that. It's true. 00:19:18.866 --> 00:19:20.617 align:center And now… 00:19:20.701 --> 00:19:22.786 align:center …those thrilling fights only live on 00:19:23.745 --> 00:19:26.123 align:center in the recollections of those who were actually there. 00:19:26.206 --> 00:19:27.040 align:center Mm-hmm. 00:19:27.124 --> 00:19:30.419 align:center But, like all memories, in time, they slowly start to lose clarity 00:19:30.502 --> 00:19:32.045 align:center and fade away 00:19:33.046 --> 00:19:34.590 align:center until they disappear. 00:19:38.010 --> 00:19:40.762 align:center You thought about retirement? It might be a good time for it. 00:19:41.930 --> 00:19:43.265 align:center Yeah. 00:19:43.348 --> 00:19:45.809 align:center I've thought about it a lot, actually. Plenty of times. 00:19:45.893 --> 00:19:47.811 align:center -You're still in one piece. -Yeah, that's true. 00:19:47.895 --> 00:19:49.313 align:center -Right. -Still intact. 00:19:49.813 --> 00:19:52.357 align:center In fact, I feel like I have so much to give. 00:19:52.441 --> 00:19:54.151 align:center I may be old, but I feel young. 00:19:54.234 --> 00:19:55.777 align:center I guarantee, if you put me in this ring, 00:19:55.861 --> 00:19:57.905 align:center I'll be able to take down any opponent you think of. 00:19:57.988 --> 00:19:59.489 align:center That's right. That's the attitude. 00:19:59.573 --> 00:20:02.034 align:center Well, one source suggested that… that you disappeared 00:20:02.117 --> 00:20:05.245 align:center because you didn't wanna face a young wrestler, some 20-year-old kid. 00:20:05.329 --> 00:20:06.622 align:center That's what they said? 00:20:06.705 --> 00:20:08.373 align:center -Yeah. -No. 00:20:08.457 --> 00:20:10.626 align:center That asshole learned everything he knows from me. 00:20:10.709 --> 00:20:12.044 align:center I could beat him in my sleep. 00:20:12.127 --> 00:20:14.379 align:center All right, so why not accept the match, then, 00:20:14.463 --> 00:20:16.298 align:center and show everybody that you're still a winner? 00:20:16.381 --> 00:20:19.676 align:center 'Cause they wanna give that little shit top billing over me. Come on. 00:20:19.760 --> 00:20:22.804 align:center Over me! You're looking at a legend. I've been doing this over 25 years. 00:20:22.888 --> 00:20:25.015 align:center That's completely… That's so unfair. So unfair. 00:20:25.098 --> 00:20:26.183 align:center I'll tell you what. 00:20:26.266 --> 00:20:30.437 align:center If I let them use my name that way, "Leopard," but in the second spot, 00:20:30.520 --> 00:20:33.315 align:center I'll be opening up the door for them to program me in fights 00:20:33.398 --> 00:20:34.942 align:center that aren't even the main event. 00:20:35.025 --> 00:20:36.652 align:center And that'll make it much harder 00:20:36.735 --> 00:20:39.238 align:center to return to my glory days when I was on top. 00:20:39.321 --> 00:20:41.990 align:center You know what's ironic is I spent my life 00:20:42.074 --> 00:20:45.786 align:center facing all kinds of wrestlers, and, no matter the odds, I always won out. 00:20:45.869 --> 00:20:48.372 align:center -Hmm. -But now I don't know what to do. 00:20:48.455 --> 00:20:54.169 align:center 'Cause I'm facing a whole new enemy which is silent… invisible. 00:20:56.004 --> 00:20:57.297 align:center It's called "obscurity." 00:20:58.173 --> 00:20:59.049 align:center You're afraid? 00:20:59.132 --> 00:21:02.302 align:center Well, becoming obscure is like dying while you're still alive. 00:21:02.386 --> 00:21:04.554 align:center My dream was to pass away 00:21:05.055 --> 00:21:08.100 align:center and let the reputation of The Leopard survive forever. 00:21:08.183 --> 00:21:11.937 align:center And that… is my passport to immortality. 00:21:12.020 --> 00:21:14.648 align:center And why's it important to achieve immortality? 00:21:14.731 --> 00:21:17.901 align:center 'Cause that's how you defeat death. It's the only way you can. 00:21:17.985 --> 00:21:21.154 align:center I have to win. I have to defeat it. I'm a fighter. That's what I do. 00:21:21.238 --> 00:21:24.157 align:center It was hard to see that idol of the '60s and '70s 00:21:24.241 --> 00:21:27.077 align:center one step away from depression and irrelevance. 00:21:27.160 --> 00:21:27.995 align:center Would you show us… 00:21:28.078 --> 00:21:31.498 align:center He embodied the downfall of celebrity, the twilight of the gods. 00:21:31.581 --> 00:21:33.041 align:center His life was irrefutable proof 00:21:33.125 --> 00:21:35.794 align:center that fame is as fleeting and circumstantial as vapor, 00:21:35.877 --> 00:21:39.756 align:center and that, when it abandons its vessel, all that's left is an unfillable void. 00:21:39.840 --> 00:21:43.468 align:center It also happened to exemplify Nietzsche's idea about loneliness 00:21:43.552 --> 00:21:48.015 align:center as a punishment for those who move away from the masses in search of immortality. 00:21:51.935 --> 00:21:54.312 align:center And while The Leopard was telling me his story, 00:21:54.396 --> 00:21:56.523 align:center Eva and Pabón were invited to the ceremony 00:21:56.606 --> 00:21:59.318 align:center which had brought them to Cauca to begin with. 00:21:59.401 --> 00:22:03.488 align:center After a long journey, it seemed everything was falling into place, 00:22:03.572 --> 00:22:05.699 align:center and they were about to experience revelations 00:22:05.782 --> 00:22:07.451 align:center that would open their minds forever. 00:22:28.347 --> 00:22:29.890 align:center You're here already. 00:22:30.390 --> 00:22:33.185 align:center -Why did you come? -To look for Master Artaud. 00:22:35.228 --> 00:22:36.146 align:center What for? 00:22:36.229 --> 00:22:38.940 align:center There are a lot of things he wrote that I don't understand. 00:22:39.024 --> 00:22:42.903 align:center What is written is written, and it has no explanation. 00:22:43.403 --> 00:22:47.824 align:center The only thing that is understood is the incomprehensible. 00:22:47.908 --> 00:22:49.368 align:center Like you. 00:22:49.451 --> 00:22:53.121 align:center You are looking for the truth in the wrong place. 00:22:53.205 --> 00:22:56.124 align:center The truth is in the fire, 00:22:56.208 --> 00:22:57.709 align:center in your hands. 00:22:57.793 --> 00:22:59.127 align:center Look at the night. 00:22:59.211 --> 00:23:00.879 align:center Look at the fire. 00:23:01.463 --> 00:23:04.591 align:center Look at your reflection in the water. 00:23:04.674 --> 00:23:07.094 align:center There, you will find what you need. 00:23:07.177 --> 00:23:09.137 align:center Kindness and cruelty. 00:23:09.221 --> 00:23:11.932 align:center Cruelty sometimes tells the truth. 00:23:12.015 --> 00:23:15.352 align:center You told the truth and killed your father. 00:23:15.435 --> 00:23:17.312 align:center Running away is weak. 00:23:17.396 --> 00:23:19.439 align:center Running away is for cowards, 00:23:19.523 --> 00:23:24.820 align:center and your world needs brave visionaries to change it. 00:23:25.320 --> 00:23:28.698 align:center And he lost the son he thought you were. 00:23:28.782 --> 00:23:32.577 align:center But the kindness is that the one you really are, 00:23:32.661 --> 00:23:35.789 align:center the one who exists, was born. 00:23:35.872 --> 00:23:36.873 align:center You see? 00:23:36.957 --> 00:23:38.291 align:center The truth is cruel. 00:23:38.375 --> 00:23:40.544 align:center Cry. That's it. Cry. 00:23:40.627 --> 00:23:42.379 align:center Then you will laugh. 00:23:42.462 --> 00:23:46.591 align:center That's what theater, your theater is like. 00:23:46.675 --> 00:23:48.510 align:center Search! Search! 00:23:48.593 --> 00:23:51.972 align:center Theater is in kindness and cruelty. 00:23:58.895 --> 00:24:00.230 align:center Eva? 00:24:16.163 --> 00:24:17.164 align:center Mama? 00:24:20.125 --> 00:24:21.293 align:center Do you like it? 00:24:26.798 --> 00:24:29.426 align:center Yes. It looks like one of Frida's paintings. 00:24:31.553 --> 00:24:35.307 align:center I painted it because I know you're doing a project about her at school, honey. 00:24:36.933 --> 00:24:39.352 align:center It's called Frida Waiting for Diego. 00:24:40.520 --> 00:24:42.022 align:center I never liked him. 00:24:43.106 --> 00:24:45.317 align:center You know that man didn't respect her. 00:24:47.194 --> 00:24:49.696 align:center Diego was sleeping with her sister behind her back. 00:24:51.698 --> 00:24:54.993 align:center Well, at his core… he was an artist. 00:24:57.037 --> 00:24:59.372 align:center Did that entitle him to abuse her? 00:24:59.998 --> 00:25:01.666 align:center It was a two-way street. 00:25:01.750 --> 00:25:04.711 align:center Remember, Frida wasn't exactly a saint. 00:25:05.337 --> 00:25:08.882 align:center There are the stories about her with Chavela, with Trotsky, with Muray, 00:25:08.965 --> 00:25:11.676 align:center with Lamba, and lots of other famous men who passed through her bed. 00:25:12.552 --> 00:25:15.931 align:center They never believed in exclusivity like a traditional couple. 00:25:16.014 --> 00:25:17.641 align:center They were above bourgeois morality. 00:25:18.642 --> 00:25:21.269 align:center Her story with Diego produced her finest work. 00:25:21.770 --> 00:25:24.648 align:center All that intensity and passion and pain. 00:25:24.731 --> 00:25:26.024 align:center What about you? 00:25:26.566 --> 00:25:29.194 align:center I mean, why did you marry a man like my father? 00:25:29.277 --> 00:25:31.613 align:center And why did you have a daughter with him? 00:25:33.281 --> 00:25:34.449 align:center Because, um… 00:25:35.992 --> 00:25:39.829 align:center I needed a source of meaning in my life outside of my own ambitions. 00:25:40.539 --> 00:25:43.416 align:center Eventually, that desire became very urgent. 00:25:44.251 --> 00:25:46.544 align:center And that urgent desire needed a father. 00:25:54.844 --> 00:25:56.221 align:center You were like a… 00:25:57.264 --> 00:25:59.891 align:center a wonderful dream that happened to come true. 00:25:59.975 --> 00:26:02.686 align:center And for the little time I got to hold you, I was so happy. 00:26:03.270 --> 00:26:05.105 align:center Oh. 00:26:06.815 --> 00:26:09.067 align:center A wonderful dream becoming a reality. 00:26:10.610 --> 00:26:12.362 align:center I think you're going to be born, Eva. 00:26:15.782 --> 00:26:18.285 align:center You wanted a goal other than yourself. 00:26:20.495 --> 00:26:25.667 align:center But… why did Frida insist on being a mother after two abortions? 00:26:27.252 --> 00:26:30.046 align:center Probably because painting was no longer enough. 00:26:30.964 --> 00:26:33.258 align:center And she wanted to win at least one battle 00:26:33.341 --> 00:26:36.428 align:center against her own destroyed and defeated body. 00:26:37.095 --> 00:26:38.972 align:center And so she tried. 00:26:39.764 --> 00:26:42.267 align:center Tried to bring a life into the world. 00:26:43.268 --> 00:26:46.021 align:center She wanted a living, breathing work of art. 00:26:46.605 --> 00:26:50.108 align:center And she wanted to conceive it with the man who was her soulmate. 00:26:51.776 --> 00:26:52.944 align:center Maybe… 00:26:54.279 --> 00:26:56.531 align:center maybe someday you'll find a reason 00:26:57.657 --> 00:26:59.034 align:center to be a mother. 00:27:04.956 --> 00:27:08.585 align:center Aren't you the most beautiful thing in the world? 00:27:12.505 --> 00:27:14.174 align:center I was pregnant before, you know. 00:27:15.008 --> 00:27:16.134 align:center I know that. 00:27:17.761 --> 00:27:18.637 align:center But… 00:27:19.888 --> 00:27:21.723 align:center I didn't want to have the baby. 00:27:24.100 --> 00:27:26.478 align:center I didn't feel prepared to be a mother. 00:27:27.103 --> 00:27:29.564 align:center Not to mention that you had no reason to be one either. 00:27:30.982 --> 00:27:34.361 align:center Honestly, sometimes I wonder if needing a reason is a bad excuse. 00:27:35.695 --> 00:27:38.281 align:center I overthink everything. It's exhausting. 00:27:38.865 --> 00:27:41.534 align:center Well, it's true. Sometimes your impulse is good. 00:27:42.494 --> 00:27:44.496 align:center But if you're making the choice to be a new mother, 00:27:44.579 --> 00:27:45.955 align:center you better have a reason. 00:27:46.998 --> 00:27:47.832 align:center Why? 00:27:48.333 --> 00:27:50.210 align:center Because I felt worn out. 00:27:52.170 --> 00:27:54.631 align:center And my reason to live just vanished. 00:27:54.714 --> 00:27:56.383 align:center Wasn't I reason enough? 00:27:58.635 --> 00:28:00.678 align:center I was the meaning that you had been waiting for. 00:28:00.762 --> 00:28:02.222 align:center It doesn't work like that. 00:28:04.224 --> 00:28:05.725 align:center You were my joy. 00:28:06.309 --> 00:28:08.937 align:center And because of you, because you made me so happy, 00:28:09.938 --> 00:28:12.691 align:center I had to put this off for as long as I possibly could. 00:28:13.692 --> 00:28:17.070 align:center But now I'm dry, and even my heart's completely empty. 00:28:18.780 --> 00:28:22.409 align:center And I don't want you to have to carry the weight of my despair. 00:28:23.410 --> 00:28:25.495 align:center Didn't you know that I would miss you? 00:28:26.663 --> 00:28:29.541 align:center That not having you would make my life harder? 00:28:30.208 --> 00:28:32.711 align:center I thought about that all the time. 00:28:32.794 --> 00:28:35.922 align:center But it's better that you suffered a single blow 00:28:36.548 --> 00:28:39.592 align:center than to have to witness a slow decline into pain and agony. 00:28:41.177 --> 00:28:43.596 align:center I grew up feeling so lonely. 00:28:45.014 --> 00:28:47.267 align:center There was a big hole inside me I couldn't fill. 00:28:54.482 --> 00:28:57.026 align:center But you won that battle, Eva. 00:28:58.361 --> 00:28:59.487 align:center Look at you. 00:29:00.363 --> 00:29:02.115 align:center You're an incredible woman. 00:29:02.699 --> 00:29:05.744 align:center Beautiful. Self-possessed. 00:29:06.786 --> 00:29:10.665 align:center It's paradoxical, because you would make a great mom. 00:29:12.459 --> 00:29:14.502 align:center I admire you so much, honey. 00:29:15.670 --> 00:29:16.754 align:center You too. 00:29:21.050 --> 00:29:22.385 align:center It's time, sweetheart. 00:29:35.064 --> 00:29:36.274 align:center Go in peace. 00:29:38.985 --> 00:29:41.029 align:center Don't worry. I'll be fine. I promise. 00:29:43.573 --> 00:29:45.325 align:center Don't forget me, Eva. 00:29:48.453 --> 00:29:49.496 align:center Never. 00:30:13.061 --> 00:30:15.355 align:center It was an intense day for everyone. 00:30:15.438 --> 00:30:17.857 align:center A pivotal time that stirred deep things in us 00:30:17.941 --> 00:30:20.485 align:center and, somehow, changed our perspectives. 00:30:20.568 --> 00:30:24.197 align:center In the desert You can remember your name 00:30:24.280 --> 00:30:28.576 align:center 'Cause there ain't no one For to give you no pain 00:30:28.660 --> 00:30:31.955 align:center La, la, la, la, la, la 00:30:32.038 --> 00:30:35.166 align:center La, la, la, la, la 00:30:36.584 --> 00:30:39.712 align:center La, la, la, la, la, la 00:30:39.796 --> 00:30:42.674 align:center La, la, la, la, la 00:30:43.675 --> 00:30:47.720 align:center After two days in the desert sun 00:30:47.804 --> 00:30:50.890 align:center My skin began to turn red 00:30:51.391 --> 00:30:54.852 align:center After three days in the desert fun 00:30:54.936 --> 00:30:58.356 align:center I was looking at a riverbed 00:30:58.857 --> 00:31:01.067 align:center And the story it told 00:31:01.150 --> 00:31:03.111 align:center Of a river that flowed… 00:31:03.194 --> 00:31:04.696 align:center -How are you doing? -Hey. 00:31:04.779 --> 00:31:06.781 align:center …to think it was dead 00:31:06.865 --> 00:31:10.743 align:center You see, I've been through the desert On a horse with no name 00:31:10.827 --> 00:31:14.205 align:center It felt good to be out of the rain 00:31:14.706 --> 00:31:18.501 align:center In the desert You can remember your name 00:31:18.585 --> 00:31:22.589 align:center 'Cause there ain't no one For to give you no pain 00:31:22.672 --> 00:31:25.216 align:center La, la, la, la, la… 00:31:26.676 --> 00:31:28.845 align:center Wow. Incredible. 00:31:28.928 --> 00:31:29.846 align:center Yeah. 00:31:30.346 --> 00:31:33.349 align:center Seeing Gustavo talk to his dad stirred up a few memories. 00:31:33.433 --> 00:31:34.309 align:center I guess it was… 00:31:34.809 --> 00:31:38.104 align:center I mean, just the fact that he confronted him made me… 00:31:38.187 --> 00:31:41.232 align:center It brought up baggage about my mom I didn't know I had. 00:31:41.983 --> 00:31:44.444 align:center -Mm. -And then, while I was tripping… 00:31:45.653 --> 00:31:47.238 align:center I talked to her. 00:31:47.322 --> 00:31:48.406 align:center Mm. And? 00:31:48.907 --> 00:31:49.741 align:center How was it? 00:31:50.241 --> 00:31:51.868 align:center It was weird. 00:31:51.951 --> 00:31:54.579 align:center But… it was incredible. 00:31:54.662 --> 00:31:59.125 align:center We spoke about the things that… we couldn't have talked about before. 00:31:59.959 --> 00:32:03.755 align:center It put things in perspective, and I think it filled up the void. 00:32:04.380 --> 00:32:05.423 align:center Hmm. 00:32:08.092 --> 00:32:09.302 align:center And how are you feeling? 00:32:11.471 --> 00:32:12.388 align:center Fine. 00:32:13.097 --> 00:32:14.599 align:center At least for now. 00:32:15.475 --> 00:32:17.101 align:center It was really hard. 00:32:17.185 --> 00:32:19.103 align:center But it was very powerful too. 00:32:19.937 --> 00:32:23.107 align:center Like I appreciated her woman-to-woman, 00:32:23.191 --> 00:32:24.317 align:center if that makes sense. 00:32:24.400 --> 00:32:25.401 align:center Mm-hmm. 00:32:27.779 --> 00:32:30.281 align:center So what are you gonna do for the essay? 00:32:31.366 --> 00:32:33.368 align:center Well, so this is gonna sound pretty weird, 00:32:33.451 --> 00:32:35.828 align:center but, um, I talked to my mom, and… I don't know. 00:32:35.912 --> 00:32:39.582 align:center I feel I know more about the real Frida than I ever did before, and… 00:32:39.666 --> 00:32:41.834 align:center and she knew I was writing the essay too. 00:32:41.918 --> 00:32:44.128 align:center It's like she was helping me with my homework. 00:32:44.212 --> 00:32:45.129 align:center Mm. 00:32:46.047 --> 00:32:48.132 align:center This might sound kinda weird too, but… 00:32:49.008 --> 00:32:50.927 align:center I got a bunch of help from my dad on the essay. 00:32:51.511 --> 00:32:53.763 align:center -Guess both our parents pitched in. Yeah. -Really? 00:32:53.846 --> 00:32:58.101 align:center He was the one who found all this information that I didn't have. 00:32:58.601 --> 00:33:02.355 align:center Plus, he, um… he's the reason we actually met The Leopard. 00:33:02.438 --> 00:33:04.399 align:center I… I mean, he helped me track him down. 00:33:04.482 --> 00:33:07.068 align:center He even helped me with the camera. 00:33:08.194 --> 00:33:09.946 align:center It wouldn't have happened without him. 00:33:10.530 --> 00:33:13.950 align:center We talked all night, and I came away with two important truths. 00:33:14.033 --> 00:33:15.868 align:center First, that my dad was right. 00:33:15.952 --> 00:33:19.747 align:center Only by feeding our own lives can we renew love with those around us. 00:33:19.831 --> 00:33:21.666 align:center It's how you learn to approach your partner 00:33:21.749 --> 00:33:23.876 align:center with a sense of wonder and curiosity. 00:33:24.377 --> 00:33:27.130 align:center And second, that something had shifted inside Eva. 00:33:27.213 --> 00:33:30.800 align:center Her initial goal of studying Frida Kahlo had led her somewhere else. 00:33:30.883 --> 00:33:35.430 align:center There was something under the surface, a certainty in her that had been shaken. 00:33:35.513 --> 00:33:37.640 align:center But I didn't wanna ruin that wonderful moment 00:33:37.724 --> 00:33:39.809 align:center with an indiscreet question. 00:33:46.524 --> 00:33:49.861 align:center Later that same night, I sat down and wrote the essay. 00:33:51.195 --> 00:33:53.197 align:center "I began this assignment with the intention 00:33:53.281 --> 00:33:57.034 align:center to explore the nature of identity by researching The Colombian Leopard." 00:33:58.411 --> 00:34:01.289 align:center "But what I found was that not every aspect of personhood 00:34:01.372 --> 00:34:03.499 align:center can be understood through observation." 00:34:03.583 --> 00:34:06.252 align:center "Forming an identity involves introspection." 00:34:06.335 --> 00:34:09.005 align:center "A journey outward implies a journey inward." 00:34:09.088 --> 00:34:10.965 align:center "And when we embark on that journey inward, 00:34:11.049 --> 00:34:13.176 align:center we know exactly where we're starting from, 00:34:13.259 --> 00:34:15.845 align:center but not necessarily where we're gonna end up." 00:34:17.180 --> 00:34:20.349 align:center "Perhaps the best we can hope for in any self-exploration 00:34:20.433 --> 00:34:22.185 align:center is to set out looking for what we want 00:34:22.268 --> 00:34:24.729 align:center and then deviate from the route we expected to travel." 00:34:25.354 --> 00:34:27.356 align:center "Only by embracing the unexpected path 00:34:27.940 --> 00:34:30.026 align:center will we end up finding what we need." 00:34:35.198 --> 00:34:37.700 align:center There was one thing that left me unsettled. 00:34:37.784 --> 00:34:41.871 align:center Something that I didn't feel was clear from what Eva had told me. 00:34:42.747 --> 00:34:46.709 align:center Something that would soon have consequences I could never have imagined, 00:34:46.793 --> 00:34:49.879 align:center that would prove to be a turning point in our lives. 00:34:49.962 --> 00:34:51.172 align:center I come near her 00:34:51.255 --> 00:34:57.094 align:center I just lose my nerve As I've done from the start 00:35:00.014 --> 00:35:02.934 align:center Every little thing she does is magic 00:35:03.017 --> 00:35:05.812 align:center Everything she does just turns me on 00:35:05.895 --> 00:35:08.815 align:center Even though my life before was tragic 00:35:08.898 --> 00:35:12.360 align:center Now I know my love for her goes on 00:35:12.443 --> 00:35:13.778 align:center EVA LASTING 00:35:19.784 --> 00:35:22.286 align:center Do I have to tell the story 00:35:22.370 --> 00:35:27.583 align:center Of a thousand rainy days Since we first met? 00:35:31.254 --> 00:35:33.965 align:center It's a big enough umbrella 00:35:34.048 --> 00:35:36.884 align:center But it's always me that ends up 00:35:36.968 --> 00:35:41.764 align:center Getting wet 00:35:42.598 --> 00:35:45.518 align:center Every little thing she does is magic 00:35:45.601 --> 00:35:48.271 align:center Everything she does just turns me on 00:35:48.354 --> 00:35:51.274 align:center Even though my life before was tragic 00:35:51.357 --> 00:35:57.530 align:center Now I know my love for her goes on 00:35:59.657 --> 00:36:01.951 align:center I resolved to call her up 00:36:02.577 --> 00:36:04.954 align:center A thousand times a day 00:36:05.454 --> 00:36:07.957 align:center And ask her if she'll marry me 00:36:08.457 --> 00:36:10.543 align:center In some old-fashioned way 00:36:10.626 --> 00:36:13.462 align:center But my silent fears have gripped me 00:36:13.546 --> 00:36:16.299 align:center Long before I reach the phone 00:36:16.382 --> 00:36:19.302 align:center Long before my tongue has tripped me 00:36:19.385 --> 00:36:24.473 align:center Must I always be alone? 00:36:25.016 --> 00:36:27.810 align:center Every little thing she does is magic 00:36:27.894 --> 00:36:30.938 align:center Everything she does just turns me on 00:36:31.022 --> 00:36:33.608 align:center Even though my life before was tragic 00:36:33.691 --> 00:36:36.527 align:center Now I know my love for her goes on 00:36:36.611 --> 00:36:39.488 align:center Every little thing she does is magic 00:36:39.572 --> 00:36:42.241 align:center Everything she does just turns me on 00:36:42.325 --> 00:36:45.286 align:center Even though my life before was tragic 00:36:45.369 --> 00:36:52.376 align:center Now I know my love for her goes on 00:36:55.588 --> 00:36:58.966 align:center On and on and on 00:36:59.050 --> 00:37:00.718 align:center And every little thing 00:37:00.801 --> 00:37:02.220 align:center Every little thing 00:37:02.303 --> 00:37:04.889 align:center Every little thing, every little thing 00:37:04.972 --> 00:37:06.557 align:center Every little, every little 00:37:06.641 --> 00:37:09.060 align:center Every little Every little thing she does…