1 00:00:38,017 --> 00:00:39,017 I got it. 2 00:00:39,644 --> 00:00:40,524 Open it! 3 00:00:41,563 --> 00:00:43,403 [Shirley] Mr. Dudley says this is a master key, 4 00:00:43,481 --> 00:00:46,151 so it's supposed to open any door in the house. 5 00:00:46,317 --> 00:00:47,937 What do you think is in there? 6 00:00:48,027 --> 00:00:51,107 -[lock rattles] -What if it's a cotton candy machine? 7 00:00:51,489 --> 00:00:52,569 That'd be something. 8 00:00:52,740 --> 00:00:53,910 Or a pony? 9 00:00:53,992 --> 00:00:55,162 [Shirley] Not a pony. 10 00:00:55,243 --> 00:00:56,953 [squeaks and rattles] 11 00:01:01,124 --> 00:01:02,294 This isn't working. 12 00:01:02,375 --> 00:01:05,245 It could be a pony. Something was moving. 13 00:01:05,753 --> 00:01:07,553 I saw the shadow under the door. 14 00:01:11,092 --> 00:01:11,972 Hello? 15 00:01:13,219 --> 00:01:15,599 If there's a pony in there, it's dead. 16 00:01:19,475 --> 00:01:20,595 [bangs loudly] 17 00:01:24,397 --> 00:01:26,017 Where's the friggin' key? 18 00:01:26,107 --> 00:01:28,067 -Don't say that word. -[Nell] You say it. 19 00:01:35,450 --> 00:01:37,290 I want to see what's in there, too. 20 00:01:41,497 --> 00:01:43,667 Daddy, we need more keys! 21 00:01:43,791 --> 00:01:45,541 It's an emergency! 22 00:01:46,127 --> 00:01:48,127 [footsteps fade] 23 00:01:49,214 --> 00:01:51,224 [floorboards creak] 24 00:01:51,507 --> 00:01:52,797 You're not funny, Luke. 25 00:01:55,011 --> 00:01:56,011 [player clicks] 26 00:02:01,851 --> 00:02:03,731 [theme music playing] 27 00:03:06,207 --> 00:03:07,167 [Steve] I am home. 28 00:03:09,294 --> 00:03:11,304 [birds chirping] 29 00:03:12,839 --> 00:03:14,219 I am home, I thought, 30 00:03:14,924 --> 00:03:16,884 and stopped in wonder at the thought. 31 00:03:17,802 --> 00:03:18,852 I am home. 32 00:03:19,846 --> 00:03:20,756 I am home. 33 00:03:23,349 --> 00:03:24,269 [door closes] 34 00:03:25,018 --> 00:03:26,228 -[Leigh] Hey. -Hey. 35 00:03:27,145 --> 00:03:28,145 How was it? 36 00:03:28,229 --> 00:03:30,399 -It was great. Kelly says hi. -[chuckles] 37 00:03:30,481 --> 00:03:31,901 Her boys are huge. 38 00:03:32,358 --> 00:03:33,608 You were missed. 39 00:03:33,693 --> 00:03:34,693 I was gonna cook. 40 00:03:34,777 --> 00:03:37,447 I know, but she wants fries. 41 00:03:37,572 --> 00:03:40,162 -All the fries. Nothing but fries. -[chuckles softly] 42 00:03:42,452 --> 00:03:43,372 How's writing? 43 00:03:44,329 --> 00:03:46,659 Slow. It's... really slow. 44 00:03:47,165 --> 00:03:50,335 -How much since I left? -[sighs] Two... 45 00:03:50,501 --> 00:03:51,381 pages. 46 00:03:51,627 --> 00:03:52,497 Ouch. 47 00:03:52,712 --> 00:03:55,802 I always said, I'm never gonna do a follow-up to Hill House, 48 00:03:55,882 --> 00:03:58,182 and I think this is why. I-- It's just-- 49 00:03:58,343 --> 00:03:59,263 Eat. 50 00:03:59,344 --> 00:04:02,974 -It's the best cure for writer's block. -[scoffs] Don't use those words. 51 00:04:03,056 --> 00:04:04,886 Fries, nothing but fries. 52 00:04:06,809 --> 00:04:07,769 Read me something. 53 00:04:15,693 --> 00:04:18,953 "Certainly, there are places which attach to themselves 54 00:04:19,030 --> 00:04:22,160 an atmosphere of holiness and goodness. 55 00:04:23,242 --> 00:04:25,582 It might also be said that some houses 56 00:04:26,204 --> 00:04:27,334 are born bad." 57 00:04:28,414 --> 00:04:29,294 "Born bad"? 58 00:04:29,624 --> 00:04:30,464 Too much? 59 00:04:30,875 --> 00:04:32,835 Hmm. It depends. Where are you? 60 00:04:35,046 --> 00:04:36,796 Dad and I just got to the house, 61 00:04:36,881 --> 00:04:37,721 and, um, 62 00:04:38,091 --> 00:04:40,801 we know Luke bought the gasoline, and... 63 00:04:40,885 --> 00:04:41,885 Oh, honey... 64 00:04:41,969 --> 00:04:43,389 We're about to go inside. 65 00:04:44,555 --> 00:04:47,555 You don't have to do this, you know? You said yourself, 66 00:04:47,642 --> 00:04:50,852 -you're never gonna publish it. -I do, though. [sighs] 67 00:04:50,937 --> 00:04:53,307 To... see it, to really see it. 68 00:04:54,899 --> 00:04:56,229 -[sighs] -Here. 69 00:04:59,904 --> 00:05:01,824 [chuckling] You feel that? 70 00:05:03,449 --> 00:05:05,329 -Mm-hmm. -That little girl in there, 71 00:05:06,160 --> 00:05:08,200 who's getting ready to join this family, 72 00:05:08,454 --> 00:05:10,964 one day, she's gonna ask about her grandfather 73 00:05:11,040 --> 00:05:12,460 and about her Uncle Luke, 74 00:05:13,418 --> 00:05:15,088 and what happened in that house. 75 00:05:16,129 --> 00:05:19,089 She's gonna hear all sorts of stories and speculation, 76 00:05:19,173 --> 00:05:21,263 like you did when you were little, but... 77 00:05:22,218 --> 00:05:23,588 Whose voice did you need? 78 00:05:25,346 --> 00:05:28,306 Whose story did you need to hear the most? 79 00:05:29,600 --> 00:05:31,520 She needs to hear this from you. 80 00:05:34,021 --> 00:05:35,691 This is for little Eleanor. 81 00:05:37,442 --> 00:05:39,442 [crickets chirping] 82 00:05:46,451 --> 00:05:47,621 [sighs] 83 00:05:49,745 --> 00:05:53,165 [Steve] This house, which seemed somehow to have formed itself, 84 00:05:53,416 --> 00:05:55,836 flying together in its own powerful pattern 85 00:05:55,918 --> 00:05:57,708 under the hands of its builders... 86 00:05:59,547 --> 00:06:04,467 reared its great head back against the sky without concession to humanity. 87 00:06:06,053 --> 00:06:08,103 It was a house without kindness, 88 00:06:09,432 --> 00:06:10,982 never meant to be lived in, 89 00:06:12,435 --> 00:06:15,395 not a fit place for people, or for love, 90 00:06:15,688 --> 00:06:16,728 or for hope. 91 00:06:34,874 --> 00:06:36,584 -You smell that? -Yeah. 92 00:06:37,418 --> 00:06:38,288 Gasoline. 93 00:06:41,047 --> 00:06:41,957 All right. 94 00:06:42,632 --> 00:06:43,552 If he's here, 95 00:06:44,634 --> 00:06:46,304 I think I know where to find him. 96 00:06:46,761 --> 00:06:47,761 [loud banging] 97 00:06:48,638 --> 00:06:49,468 Dad... 98 00:06:50,640 --> 00:06:53,180 -[Hugh] It's okay. Come on. -[banging continues] 99 00:07:06,447 --> 00:07:09,827 Uh... [panting] 100 00:07:28,928 --> 00:07:29,758 Look at me. 101 00:07:29,845 --> 00:07:30,925 [gasps] 102 00:07:38,271 --> 00:07:39,111 [Steve] Fear. 103 00:07:41,357 --> 00:07:42,227 Look at me. 104 00:07:43,859 --> 00:07:45,779 [Steve] Fear is the relinquishment of logic, 105 00:07:46,904 --> 00:07:49,874 the willing relinquishing of reasonable patterns. 106 00:07:51,117 --> 00:07:53,287 We yield to it or we fight it. 107 00:07:54,370 --> 00:07:56,040 But we cannot meet it halfway. 108 00:07:58,124 --> 00:08:01,634 [cane tapping] 109 00:08:15,016 --> 00:08:15,846 Okay. 110 00:08:18,477 --> 00:08:19,597 [Steve] I am home. 111 00:08:21,147 --> 00:08:22,727 "I am home," I thought, 112 00:08:23,482 --> 00:08:25,442 and stopped in wonder at the thought. 113 00:08:26,444 --> 00:08:27,404 I am home. 114 00:08:28,487 --> 00:08:29,447 I am home. 115 00:08:30,948 --> 00:08:31,988 Now, to climb. 116 00:08:32,575 --> 00:08:34,575 Luke! Luke! 117 00:08:34,952 --> 00:08:35,912 [Steve] Dad. 118 00:08:36,162 --> 00:08:38,582 -That-- That door has always been locked. -[Hugh] Yeah. 119 00:08:38,664 --> 00:08:40,044 Only when it wants to be. 120 00:08:40,124 --> 00:08:42,174 Take off the hinges. How hard can it be? 121 00:08:42,251 --> 00:08:43,961 [Hugh] But I tried everything. 122 00:08:46,005 --> 00:08:47,505 Maybe with the two of us... 123 00:08:48,424 --> 00:08:49,304 Dad! 124 00:08:50,134 --> 00:08:51,434 Ah, Steve, wait! 125 00:08:55,181 --> 00:08:56,101 [exhales deeply] 126 00:08:56,557 --> 00:08:57,477 You okay? 127 00:08:58,059 --> 00:08:59,769 Yeah, I just need a break. 128 00:09:00,811 --> 00:09:02,231 Why don't you come to bed? 129 00:09:02,647 --> 00:09:05,397 Get some sleep. Hill House will be there in the morning. 130 00:09:07,026 --> 00:09:09,446 I know it's-- it's hard. It's too much right now. 131 00:09:09,528 --> 00:09:11,738 -[exhales] -Why don't you put this down, 132 00:09:12,156 --> 00:09:15,116 come to bed, and leave the ghosts where they belong? 133 00:09:15,201 --> 00:09:17,541 That's-- That's not the problem. 134 00:09:20,414 --> 00:09:21,544 Where are you now? 135 00:09:23,042 --> 00:09:25,592 Well, we... we went into the house. 136 00:09:27,338 --> 00:09:29,008 And then we went to the Red Room. 137 00:09:30,591 --> 00:09:31,471 And then the-- 138 00:09:31,550 --> 00:09:33,800 the door opened and I saw Luke, and then-- 139 00:09:33,969 --> 00:09:34,929 Luke died. 140 00:09:39,517 --> 00:09:40,597 [stammering] No. 141 00:09:40,726 --> 00:09:42,806 He-- He was alive on the floor. 142 00:09:42,978 --> 00:09:45,228 And-- And then, the door closed, 143 00:09:45,439 --> 00:09:46,649 and... 144 00:09:49,527 --> 00:09:50,567 And then, he died. 145 00:09:53,155 --> 00:09:54,365 You have to say it. 146 00:09:54,949 --> 00:09:56,989 You gotta finally say it, Steve. 147 00:09:57,201 --> 00:09:59,451 -[sighs] That's the problem. -I know. 148 00:09:59,537 --> 00:10:02,037 The door closed, and then I... 149 00:10:03,332 --> 00:10:05,882 I-- I, uh-- I can't say what happened. 150 00:10:06,711 --> 00:10:09,051 It's still too soon. Why don't you come to bed? 151 00:10:09,130 --> 00:10:11,550 -Get some sleep-- -No, Leigh-- Leigh, I mean, I-- I-- 152 00:10:11,632 --> 00:10:15,302 I can't say what happened after the door closed. 153 00:10:18,347 --> 00:10:20,057 I-- I don't remember. 154 00:10:22,226 --> 00:10:24,186 I mean, how I got out of the house. 155 00:10:27,231 --> 00:10:29,901 I-- I-- I don't remember coming back to California. 156 00:10:31,193 --> 00:10:32,573 I-- I don't remember us... 157 00:10:34,363 --> 00:10:35,453 reconciling. 158 00:10:37,616 --> 00:10:39,826 Or finding out you were pregnant. 159 00:10:43,873 --> 00:10:45,833 [sighs] Well, of course you don't. 160 00:10:46,959 --> 00:10:48,749 Because you haven't written it yet. 161 00:10:50,629 --> 00:10:53,299 I mean, is anything real before you write it, Steve? 162 00:10:53,758 --> 00:10:56,088 The things you write about are real. Those people are real, 163 00:10:56,177 --> 00:10:58,177 their feelings are real, their pain is real, 164 00:10:58,262 --> 00:11:00,102 but... not to you, is it? 165 00:11:00,848 --> 00:11:03,428 Not until you chew it up and you digest it 166 00:11:03,517 --> 00:11:05,767 and you shit it out on a piece of paper. 167 00:11:05,853 --> 00:11:09,023 And even then, it's a pale imitation at best. 168 00:11:09,106 --> 00:11:13,106 You take other people's lives and love and loss and pain, 169 00:11:13,611 --> 00:11:14,991 and you eat it, Steve. 170 00:11:15,946 --> 00:11:17,356 You are an eater. 171 00:11:17,948 --> 00:11:19,778 You eat it and you shit it out, 172 00:11:19,950 --> 00:11:22,200 and then, and only then, is it real for you. 173 00:11:23,287 --> 00:11:26,577 Normal people's lives are flesh and blood and muscle and bone, 174 00:11:26,665 --> 00:11:28,745 but not yours, darling. Oh, no. 175 00:11:28,834 --> 00:11:30,754 Your life is plastic. 176 00:11:30,836 --> 00:11:33,666 You are a plastic parasite. 177 00:11:33,923 --> 00:11:36,513 [gasps] A plastic hack, aren't you, honey? 178 00:11:36,926 --> 00:11:39,506 So, of course you don't remember how you healed our marriage 179 00:11:39,595 --> 00:11:42,425 or made our baby, because you haven't really seen it, 180 00:11:42,515 --> 00:11:45,475 have you? You haven't shat it out in prose. 181 00:11:46,519 --> 00:11:49,769 I-- I was always a supporting player in your story, if we're honest. 182 00:11:49,855 --> 00:11:52,265 I would feed you and fuck you and pay the bills 183 00:11:52,358 --> 00:11:56,108 while you squinted over some novel that nobody was gonna read or publish, 184 00:11:56,195 --> 00:11:58,905 but I paid you to write them, didn't I? 185 00:11:59,323 --> 00:12:01,243 I picked up the check for your dreams, 186 00:12:01,325 --> 00:12:04,035 and I said goodbye to mine, and not even that was enough. 187 00:12:04,119 --> 00:12:06,209 Don't lie to me, honey. I wasn't real. 188 00:12:06,705 --> 00:12:09,995 If I was real, you never would have walked out that door, 189 00:12:10,084 --> 00:12:13,304 but I wasn't, and you did, and now this one... 190 00:12:15,005 --> 00:12:15,835 this... 191 00:12:16,882 --> 00:12:18,052 little one... 192 00:12:20,135 --> 00:12:21,795 she won't be real, either. 193 00:12:22,721 --> 00:12:24,431 -[pulse beats] -[Leigh] Oh. 194 00:12:24,723 --> 00:12:25,773 She's kicking. 195 00:12:25,850 --> 00:12:27,180 Oh, she's hungry. 196 00:12:27,852 --> 00:12:29,732 She must be an eater like her dad. 197 00:12:31,480 --> 00:12:33,570 If she is, my love, 198 00:12:33,649 --> 00:12:36,279 if she eats me from the inside, 199 00:12:36,610 --> 00:12:38,780 and I burst like a blister, 200 00:12:40,072 --> 00:12:41,322 will you lose your mind... 201 00:12:44,535 --> 00:12:45,485 like your mother? 202 00:12:47,037 --> 00:12:47,957 [Nell] Steve. 203 00:12:50,708 --> 00:12:52,788 [gasping] 204 00:13:00,926 --> 00:13:01,796 Luke. 205 00:13:03,095 --> 00:13:05,005 Luke. Oh, God. 206 00:13:05,097 --> 00:13:06,097 Oh, my God. 207 00:13:06,640 --> 00:13:08,310 No, no, no. 208 00:13:08,976 --> 00:13:09,886 Luke. 209 00:13:17,234 --> 00:13:18,194 Come on. 210 00:13:21,739 --> 00:13:23,739 [breathing heavily] 211 00:13:27,369 --> 00:13:29,249 [whooshes] 212 00:13:29,914 --> 00:13:31,044 [gasps] 213 00:13:52,311 --> 00:13:53,191 Mom. 214 00:13:55,189 --> 00:13:56,189 [grunts] 215 00:14:20,547 --> 00:14:22,877 [Luke] I-- I couldn't help her. 216 00:14:24,301 --> 00:14:27,641 -Look, listen, I know I fucked up, okay? -[indistinct chatter] 217 00:14:27,721 --> 00:14:30,311 But I-- I didn't-- I didn't use, I didn't, 218 00:14:30,391 --> 00:14:32,481 and-- and I'm so fucking cold, 219 00:14:32,559 --> 00:14:36,309 and my... [shivers] ...my arms and legs are so stiff, I just-- I... 220 00:14:37,940 --> 00:14:39,650 I-- I need-- I need a bed. 221 00:14:39,733 --> 00:14:42,073 Like a couch. I'll sleep on the goddamn floor. 222 00:14:42,152 --> 00:14:44,032 Just... please. 223 00:14:45,572 --> 00:14:48,782 Please, please, please, let me come back, please. 224 00:14:49,910 --> 00:14:53,250 -[shivering] -[police siren blaring in distance] 225 00:14:59,169 --> 00:15:00,089 Hey. 226 00:15:06,260 --> 00:15:07,260 What do you think? 227 00:15:08,554 --> 00:15:11,064 It's the perfect place to get clean for a few days. 228 00:15:12,433 --> 00:15:15,643 We're already paid up, and they even have room service, Luke. 229 00:15:19,231 --> 00:15:22,151 You know, everybody's always given up on me my whole life. 230 00:15:23,027 --> 00:15:25,107 But not you, Luke. Not you. 231 00:15:25,988 --> 00:15:27,028 You saved me. 232 00:15:27,448 --> 00:15:29,368 [chuckles] But I, um, I didn't. 233 00:15:31,785 --> 00:15:32,865 I mean, you... 234 00:15:34,246 --> 00:15:36,616 You, uh... You took the money and you ran away. 235 00:15:36,874 --> 00:15:39,134 -[chuckles] I never found you. -No. 236 00:15:39,835 --> 00:15:40,955 No, I came here. 237 00:15:41,754 --> 00:15:43,134 I got us this hotel room. 238 00:15:43,464 --> 00:15:45,594 And I found you at the pay phone, remember? 239 00:15:47,259 --> 00:15:48,089 Right. 240 00:15:55,684 --> 00:15:57,484 -[laughs] -Why did you follow me? 241 00:15:58,437 --> 00:16:00,437 You never did tell me the real truth. 242 00:16:03,984 --> 00:16:05,994 I think it's 'cause you're sweet on me. 243 00:16:06,070 --> 00:16:07,030 A little bit. 244 00:16:09,865 --> 00:16:11,195 I have something for us. 245 00:16:17,831 --> 00:16:20,541 One last time, just to get well before we get clean. 246 00:16:20,626 --> 00:16:22,916 No, um, I'm 90 days clean. 247 00:16:23,003 --> 00:16:24,383 Ninety-two, actually. 248 00:16:24,463 --> 00:16:25,923 Yeah, but that's not clean. 249 00:16:28,217 --> 00:16:30,757 You can 12-step it and collect your chips, 250 00:16:30,844 --> 00:16:32,224 but you're never clean, 251 00:16:32,304 --> 00:16:33,564 never really clean, 252 00:16:33,972 --> 00:16:36,602 because one day that needle's going back in your arm. 253 00:16:37,017 --> 00:16:38,977 You have an appointment with that needle. 254 00:16:39,686 --> 00:16:40,726 You're expected. 255 00:16:42,064 --> 00:16:44,074 [stammers] No, that's-- No, that's not true. 256 00:16:44,149 --> 00:16:45,609 I know what you're thinking. 257 00:16:46,527 --> 00:16:49,107 You're thinking this is what I did with your money. 258 00:16:50,197 --> 00:16:51,907 I mean, Steve's money. Let's be real. 259 00:16:52,366 --> 00:16:55,576 You're thinking that I put it in my arm in some alley, 260 00:16:55,661 --> 00:16:57,001 and maybe I died there. 261 00:16:58,205 --> 00:16:59,955 In the puke and the piss. 262 00:17:00,499 --> 00:17:04,039 And the alley rats are chewing on me right now. 263 00:17:04,670 --> 00:17:06,090 Little yellow teeth... 264 00:17:07,381 --> 00:17:08,971 punching through the jelly... 265 00:17:11,093 --> 00:17:12,973 of my pretty eyes, right? 266 00:17:14,054 --> 00:17:15,764 [Joey sighs] 267 00:17:16,807 --> 00:17:17,887 God, that's good. 268 00:17:22,229 --> 00:17:23,439 Come with me, Luke. 269 00:17:25,190 --> 00:17:26,020 No. 270 00:17:29,278 --> 00:17:30,358 No, I won't. 271 00:17:31,488 --> 00:17:33,118 Baby, you already did. 272 00:17:39,413 --> 00:17:41,873 [gasping] 273 00:17:42,541 --> 00:17:43,711 Oh, Gordon was right. 274 00:17:47,129 --> 00:17:49,339 If you look long enough at the wallpaper, 275 00:17:50,507 --> 00:17:52,047 you can see that little girl. 276 00:17:53,969 --> 00:17:57,759 It's the little girl with the runny-egg eyes. 277 00:17:59,558 --> 00:18:01,478 [gasps, grunts] 278 00:18:01,560 --> 00:18:03,600 [panting] 279 00:18:04,271 --> 00:18:07,731 -[banging on door] -[Steve] Luke! Luke! 280 00:18:09,484 --> 00:18:11,654 [Hugh] But I've tried everything. 281 00:18:12,863 --> 00:18:14,703 -Maybe with the two of us... -Dad! 282 00:18:14,781 --> 00:18:15,951 [Luke groans] 283 00:18:16,241 --> 00:18:18,041 -[Hugh] Ah, Steve, wait! -[door slams] 284 00:18:20,412 --> 00:18:21,502 [Luke grunts] 285 00:18:29,671 --> 00:18:30,801 [gasps] 286 00:18:37,346 --> 00:18:39,846 -[pounding in distance] -[footsteps approaching] 287 00:18:44,686 --> 00:18:45,516 [Shirley] Luke. 288 00:18:49,024 --> 00:18:49,864 Dad? 289 00:18:55,280 --> 00:18:56,160 [Hugh] Up here! 290 00:19:01,203 --> 00:19:02,043 [Theo] Dad! 291 00:19:02,412 --> 00:19:03,622 [Hugh] Up here! Hurry! 292 00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:07,830 [Theo] Dad! 293 00:19:23,558 --> 00:19:24,428 Dad. 294 00:19:25,185 --> 00:19:26,015 Dad! 295 00:19:26,937 --> 00:19:28,767 Oh, my God. Shirley! 296 00:19:28,855 --> 00:19:30,855 [panting] 297 00:19:32,651 --> 00:19:33,491 [gasps] 298 00:19:39,074 --> 00:19:41,084 -[indistinct chatter] -[piano playing] 299 00:19:42,869 --> 00:19:44,249 [bartender] This is for you. 300 00:19:48,625 --> 00:19:49,835 I didn't order that. 301 00:19:55,257 --> 00:19:56,427 Oh, um... 302 00:19:59,136 --> 00:20:01,176 Tell him thanks, but I-- I'm... 303 00:20:06,435 --> 00:20:07,845 Do you want me to pour it out? 304 00:20:09,938 --> 00:20:10,768 Tell you what, 305 00:20:10,856 --> 00:20:14,686 what's the weirdest thing you guys have on the happy hour menu? 306 00:20:14,776 --> 00:20:16,696 Like, the thing no one ever orders. 307 00:20:27,122 --> 00:20:28,292 [chuckles] 308 00:20:42,971 --> 00:20:46,771 So I'm minding my own business over there, and, uh, all of a sudden... 309 00:20:46,850 --> 00:20:48,770 I had to repay you for the drink. 310 00:20:49,519 --> 00:20:51,519 [man] So you sent me a plate of, uh... 311 00:20:51,605 --> 00:20:54,395 Boneless Caribbean jerk wings. 312 00:20:54,483 --> 00:20:58,033 Serves me right for not being able to spot a ring at ten yards. 313 00:20:58,612 --> 00:21:00,242 No way that's ten yards. 314 00:21:00,322 --> 00:21:01,622 I never really thought about it, 315 00:21:01,698 --> 00:21:03,698 but you send someone a drink-- 316 00:21:03,784 --> 00:21:06,414 -Without their consent. -And it's socially acceptable. 317 00:21:06,495 --> 00:21:09,405 -But you send someone an appetizer-- -Without their consent. 318 00:21:09,498 --> 00:21:11,828 [man] And yeah, it's really, really weird. 319 00:21:12,209 --> 00:21:13,039 [laughing] 320 00:21:13,126 --> 00:21:15,416 I'm sorry, I'm just trying to be funny. 321 00:21:15,837 --> 00:21:17,547 It's been a minute, I guess. 322 00:21:17,756 --> 00:21:20,086 Can I sit here while I eat these? 323 00:21:20,842 --> 00:21:22,722 -You don't have to eat them. -[man] Oh, I do. 324 00:21:22,803 --> 00:21:24,933 I will keep it professional. Hand to God. 325 00:21:25,013 --> 00:21:27,473 We can chat, um, embalming technique. 326 00:21:27,724 --> 00:21:31,104 -That's what these things are for, right? -No funny stuff. 327 00:21:31,937 --> 00:21:33,807 -Embalming only. -[man chuckles] 328 00:21:36,316 --> 00:21:38,526 [Shirley] That's the thing about starting your own home, 329 00:21:38,610 --> 00:21:39,860 they just never tell you. 330 00:21:40,153 --> 00:21:42,913 It's not like buying a house, not even a little. 331 00:21:42,989 --> 00:21:44,869 I didn't sleep for... two years. 332 00:21:45,325 --> 00:21:46,945 And mine was pre-owned, too. 333 00:21:47,285 --> 00:21:48,285 For real? 334 00:21:48,495 --> 00:21:50,245 I didn't hear last call. 335 00:21:50,330 --> 00:21:51,210 Oh, me neither. 336 00:21:54,668 --> 00:21:55,918 Well, I guess that's it. 337 00:21:56,711 --> 00:21:58,261 You were true to your word. 338 00:21:58,839 --> 00:21:59,969 [man] I always am. 339 00:22:00,340 --> 00:22:01,880 -[chuckles] -Very well behaved. 340 00:22:01,967 --> 00:22:03,887 I seldom am. 341 00:22:03,969 --> 00:22:06,509 -Um, on that note-- -Oh, no. 342 00:22:06,596 --> 00:22:08,516 -Don't do it. -[man] I'm not. I'm just saying, 343 00:22:08,598 --> 00:22:10,518 -since we missed last call-- -You're gonna do it. 344 00:22:10,600 --> 00:22:14,770 I've got all the makings of a mean martini in my room if you want a nightcap. 345 00:22:18,400 --> 00:22:19,230 [sighs] 346 00:22:22,654 --> 00:22:24,994 I did really good right up until the end there. 347 00:22:25,073 --> 00:22:27,203 You did. The one-yard line. 348 00:22:28,118 --> 00:22:29,788 -Such a guy. -[man] I can't help it. 349 00:22:29,870 --> 00:22:33,870 It's taken 60 million years to develop the carnivorous biped you see before you. 350 00:22:35,625 --> 00:22:36,535 Thank you, anyway. 351 00:22:36,626 --> 00:22:39,916 It was nice to meet you, and I enjoyed the conversation, 352 00:22:40,005 --> 00:22:41,505 but I'm gonna say goodnight. 353 00:22:42,215 --> 00:22:43,585 [sighs] 354 00:22:46,511 --> 00:22:47,511 [clears throat] 355 00:22:47,596 --> 00:22:49,006 [footsteps retreating] 356 00:22:56,188 --> 00:22:58,188 [footsteps approaching] 357 00:23:00,525 --> 00:23:02,525 [man] That's not what you said, though. 358 00:23:02,944 --> 00:23:04,154 You looked at my ring, 359 00:23:04,237 --> 00:23:06,777 and then I said the thing about the carnivorous biped, 360 00:23:06,865 --> 00:23:07,815 and you said... 361 00:23:08,533 --> 00:23:10,703 "Let's see what kind of martini it makes." 362 00:23:10,785 --> 00:23:13,865 We walked out of the bar, crossed the lobby, into the elevator, 363 00:23:13,955 --> 00:23:15,825 and you had that martini, didn't you? 364 00:23:17,250 --> 00:23:19,380 How old was Jayden then? Six? 365 00:23:20,337 --> 00:23:21,877 And Allie was... 366 00:23:21,963 --> 00:23:22,803 Two. 367 00:23:22,881 --> 00:23:23,721 Two. 368 00:23:25,133 --> 00:23:27,093 It had been diapers and bills for years, 369 00:23:27,177 --> 00:23:29,797 and you had just bought the business, and it was in the red 370 00:23:29,888 --> 00:23:31,098 and life was... 371 00:23:31,181 --> 00:23:32,931 -Loud. -It was hungry, too. 372 00:23:33,642 --> 00:23:36,232 The bills were screaming and the children were screaming 373 00:23:36,311 --> 00:23:39,401 and your husband just... drifted out of focus, didn't he? 374 00:23:39,481 --> 00:23:42,861 And you were so far away from home for the first time in so long. 375 00:23:42,943 --> 00:23:43,903 Stop it. 376 00:23:44,611 --> 00:23:47,361 You looked at my wedding ring right before you answered. 377 00:23:47,447 --> 00:23:49,987 It was gross. You were married and you were pushy-- 378 00:23:50,075 --> 00:23:51,195 Don't lie. 379 00:23:52,202 --> 00:23:53,542 That ring closed the deal. 380 00:23:53,620 --> 00:23:55,500 You went upstairs with me because of the ring, 381 00:23:55,580 --> 00:23:56,960 because the ring meant... 382 00:23:57,624 --> 00:23:59,794 You had as much to lose as I did. 383 00:24:00,210 --> 00:24:03,090 And that was a calculation, Mrs. Harris. 384 00:24:03,838 --> 00:24:04,918 You don't know me. 385 00:24:05,006 --> 00:24:07,216 Well, that was the whole point. Just a fling. 386 00:24:07,300 --> 00:24:09,470 People have them all the time, but not you. 387 00:24:09,553 --> 00:24:12,103 I mean, the whole thing was so not you. 388 00:24:12,722 --> 00:24:15,982 But God, who would have guessed how good at it you were. 389 00:24:16,059 --> 00:24:19,399 You got dressed and you flew home, and it was like nothing happened. 390 00:24:19,479 --> 00:24:20,559 You got away with it. 391 00:24:20,647 --> 00:24:21,897 [crying] I'm a good wife. 392 00:24:23,233 --> 00:24:25,243 I'm a good... mother. 393 00:24:26,069 --> 00:24:27,069 I'm a good person. 394 00:24:27,737 --> 00:24:29,197 Well, you never did it again. 395 00:24:29,739 --> 00:24:30,569 Never. 396 00:24:30,782 --> 00:24:32,832 But you never told him, did you? 397 00:24:33,326 --> 00:24:34,196 Fuck you. 398 00:24:34,286 --> 00:24:37,036 And even then, your anger at Theo and Kevin-- 399 00:24:37,122 --> 00:24:38,162 Fuck you. 400 00:24:38,248 --> 00:24:40,038 So righteous. 401 00:24:40,625 --> 00:24:42,495 You don't want to look at it, do you? 402 00:24:44,045 --> 00:24:45,335 You did this thing. 403 00:24:45,422 --> 00:24:48,932 You did it, and you liked it, and you just decided not to look at it. 404 00:24:49,009 --> 00:24:50,839 Now, that's you all over. 405 00:24:53,096 --> 00:24:54,756 Shirley never wants to look. 406 00:24:56,349 --> 00:24:57,809 But Shirley has to look. 407 00:24:59,728 --> 00:25:01,728 [organ music playing] 408 00:25:09,654 --> 00:25:10,914 Is everything all right? 409 00:25:12,741 --> 00:25:15,201 I think she's just a little overwhelmed. 410 00:25:17,454 --> 00:25:19,214 She knows something most people don't. 411 00:25:21,124 --> 00:25:22,634 The instant someone dies, 412 00:25:22,959 --> 00:25:24,459 they learn everything. 413 00:25:25,754 --> 00:25:28,594 Every secret thing. 414 00:25:30,675 --> 00:25:31,675 And when I die, 415 00:25:32,469 --> 00:25:34,469 I'm gonna wake up in that hotel room 416 00:25:34,554 --> 00:25:37,394 and have to watch every single thing she did. 417 00:25:38,850 --> 00:25:40,310 And that scares her so bad, 418 00:25:40,935 --> 00:25:42,595 she hopes she'll die first. 419 00:25:46,232 --> 00:25:47,322 Oh, that's all right. 420 00:25:48,860 --> 00:25:49,690 Here. 421 00:25:50,862 --> 00:25:51,862 Come with me. 422 00:25:53,948 --> 00:25:54,818 It's okay. 423 00:25:56,201 --> 00:25:57,121 I fixed her. 424 00:25:58,870 --> 00:26:01,290 I ripped out her organs and eyeballs, 425 00:26:01,373 --> 00:26:04,333 and I sucked out the blood and the shit, 426 00:26:04,417 --> 00:26:06,537 and plugged her holes so she wouldn't leak. 427 00:26:07,420 --> 00:26:09,840 And wired her jaw so she couldn't scream. 428 00:26:10,840 --> 00:26:13,970 And I painted her face and her hands, and... 429 00:26:15,428 --> 00:26:17,888 set her eyelids on spikes so they wouldn't stare. 430 00:26:18,640 --> 00:26:22,310 And I hung flowers full of smell and posed her like a dreamer, 431 00:26:22,394 --> 00:26:23,274 and now, 432 00:26:23,853 --> 00:26:26,273 she is fixed and pretty. 433 00:26:29,150 --> 00:26:30,190 But underneath, 434 00:26:30,527 --> 00:26:32,947 she is a horror. 435 00:26:33,530 --> 00:26:36,620 Yeah, we pickle it and paint it, but it's still death. 436 00:26:37,450 --> 00:26:38,330 And rot. 437 00:26:38,702 --> 00:26:39,872 And ruin. 438 00:26:41,621 --> 00:26:43,251 But she is pretty. 439 00:26:45,583 --> 00:26:46,503 Isn't she? 440 00:27:11,985 --> 00:27:13,945 [strangled screaming] 441 00:27:14,154 --> 00:27:14,994 [Nell] Shirley. 442 00:27:17,198 --> 00:27:18,118 [gasping] 443 00:27:19,993 --> 00:27:21,083 [Steve grunts] 444 00:27:21,953 --> 00:27:23,003 What the hell? 445 00:27:23,580 --> 00:27:24,540 We need help. 446 00:27:24,956 --> 00:27:26,116 This isn't real. 447 00:27:26,499 --> 00:27:28,169 -It's a dream. -It's real. 448 00:27:29,377 --> 00:27:30,207 He's dying. 449 00:27:32,213 --> 00:27:33,263 Come on, Luke! 450 00:27:34,507 --> 00:27:35,427 [Shirley] Luke... 451 00:27:36,092 --> 00:27:36,932 [Steve] Come on. 452 00:27:45,059 --> 00:27:47,439 [Trish] Tell me something only I will ever know. 453 00:27:47,520 --> 00:27:48,350 [Steve] Luke! 454 00:27:48,438 --> 00:27:49,768 [Theo] When I was a child... 455 00:27:51,649 --> 00:27:53,609 When I was a child, my mother spanked me 456 00:27:53,693 --> 00:27:56,073 for throwing a rock through a greenhouse roof. 457 00:27:58,531 --> 00:28:00,161 It was the only time she ever. 458 00:28:01,701 --> 00:28:02,831 She had designed it, you see, 459 00:28:02,911 --> 00:28:04,951 and she was getting ready to show it to a client, 460 00:28:05,038 --> 00:28:06,918 and because I threw the rock... 461 00:28:09,417 --> 00:28:11,497 for the only time in my life, she hit me. 462 00:28:13,254 --> 00:28:14,094 Just once. 463 00:28:14,172 --> 00:28:16,632 That was all she could take, and then never again. 464 00:28:18,635 --> 00:28:21,885 But a simple rock through some glass taught me so much 465 00:28:21,971 --> 00:28:22,971 about my mother. 466 00:28:24,724 --> 00:28:25,774 It taught her, too. 467 00:28:27,143 --> 00:28:30,153 I thought about it for a long time, remembering the spanking. 468 00:28:31,022 --> 00:28:34,782 But remembering also the lovely crash... 469 00:28:38,279 --> 00:28:40,489 And after thinking about it very seriously, 470 00:28:41,866 --> 00:28:43,276 I went out and did it again. 471 00:28:49,958 --> 00:28:50,918 [sighs] 472 00:28:53,837 --> 00:28:55,257 [Trish] What's that about? 473 00:28:59,884 --> 00:29:03,854 I... can't... recall. 474 00:29:03,930 --> 00:29:05,810 There was a reason for this, and... 475 00:29:07,725 --> 00:29:08,725 I don't remember. 476 00:29:20,947 --> 00:29:22,157 I don't feel anything. 477 00:29:23,408 --> 00:29:25,448 -That's okay, none taken. -No, I don't... 478 00:29:26,703 --> 00:29:28,663 I don't feel anything else. 479 00:29:29,330 --> 00:29:30,710 Because you're normal. 480 00:29:33,001 --> 00:29:34,461 What were you feeling before? 481 00:29:35,378 --> 00:29:36,628 I was feeling... 482 00:29:37,297 --> 00:29:38,127 fear... 483 00:29:39,716 --> 00:29:40,546 and... 484 00:29:41,426 --> 00:29:42,336 and guilt. 485 00:29:44,596 --> 00:29:47,216 Fear and guilt are sisters. 486 00:29:51,394 --> 00:29:52,814 I knew a man once 487 00:29:53,229 --> 00:29:54,729 who knew those sisters well. 488 00:29:55,940 --> 00:29:58,150 They kissed his eyelids as he slept, 489 00:29:58,234 --> 00:30:01,284 and every morning, he went just a little more mad. 490 00:30:02,655 --> 00:30:05,195 So he built a wall to keep it all outside, 491 00:30:05,950 --> 00:30:07,790 but those two sisters, 492 00:30:08,411 --> 00:30:09,831 they were in there with him. 493 00:30:10,872 --> 00:30:11,832 Even there. 494 00:30:12,832 --> 00:30:15,002 That silly man thought his wall would keep them out, 495 00:30:15,084 --> 00:30:18,004 but there was just enough room for him... 496 00:30:19,964 --> 00:30:20,924 and them. 497 00:30:24,677 --> 00:30:26,797 So he was trapped behind that wall. 498 00:30:27,847 --> 00:30:29,677 Afraid and guilty. 499 00:30:30,516 --> 00:30:31,936 And his voice left him, 500 00:30:32,018 --> 00:30:34,438 and he scratched and whimpered, 501 00:30:34,979 --> 00:30:37,649 and his fingers were shredded on his own bricks 502 00:30:37,732 --> 00:30:40,402 until his scratches just sounded like... 503 00:30:41,319 --> 00:30:42,739 rats in a wall. 504 00:30:46,324 --> 00:30:47,954 He felt small. 505 00:30:49,911 --> 00:30:51,331 So small. 506 00:30:54,040 --> 00:30:55,210 But that was his dream. 507 00:30:56,209 --> 00:30:58,669 And when he woke up, he was tall. 508 00:31:00,546 --> 00:31:01,756 So tall. 509 00:31:04,467 --> 00:31:05,757 -For always. -[sighs] 510 00:31:09,681 --> 00:31:10,851 [sighs] Wait. 511 00:31:12,225 --> 00:31:14,185 Fear and guilt are sisters, Theodora. 512 00:31:15,019 --> 00:31:17,269 But when you wake up, they'll leave you be. 513 00:31:18,356 --> 00:31:19,266 For always. 514 00:31:21,359 --> 00:31:23,109 -Wait. -Shh. 515 00:31:25,697 --> 00:31:26,657 Just enjoy me. 516 00:31:28,199 --> 00:31:29,239 I'm loving you. 517 00:31:32,078 --> 00:31:33,708 [voices whispering indistinctly] 518 00:31:33,830 --> 00:31:34,710 No. 519 00:31:35,039 --> 00:31:36,959 No, no-- [gasps] 520 00:31:37,041 --> 00:31:37,881 No. 521 00:31:37,959 --> 00:31:38,789 [Nell] Theo. 522 00:31:40,003 --> 00:31:41,423 [Theo gasps] 523 00:31:46,592 --> 00:31:47,642 [gasping] 524 00:31:53,725 --> 00:31:55,175 He's not breathing. 525 00:31:57,729 --> 00:31:59,109 Oh, my God. 526 00:31:59,188 --> 00:32:00,728 Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop. 527 00:32:02,358 --> 00:32:03,318 Come on. 528 00:32:06,863 --> 00:32:08,203 -Go. -[Shirley] Check his pulse. 529 00:32:08,281 --> 00:32:10,241 No, no. No, no, no. 530 00:32:11,075 --> 00:32:12,655 I-- I can't feel it. 531 00:32:12,744 --> 00:32:14,414 [Shirley] Don't you fucking dare, Luke! 532 00:32:14,495 --> 00:32:16,285 -Don't you fucking dare! -Okay. 533 00:32:16,372 --> 00:32:18,372 [Shirley panting] 534 00:33:02,001 --> 00:33:03,501 [sighs] 535 00:33:08,091 --> 00:33:11,341 [gasps] Sweetheart. 536 00:33:13,429 --> 00:33:14,349 You're awake. 537 00:33:15,098 --> 00:33:17,558 Oh, I've missed you so, so much. 538 00:33:24,023 --> 00:33:25,783 Um, where are we? 539 00:33:26,442 --> 00:33:29,572 We're home, my love. [chuckles softly] 540 00:33:29,987 --> 00:33:30,987 You know, 541 00:33:31,322 --> 00:33:33,492 when I was a little girl about your age, 542 00:33:34,242 --> 00:33:36,582 I was driving in the car with your grandmother, 543 00:33:37,745 --> 00:33:43,285 and we passed a house adorned with a forest of red roses. 544 00:33:44,127 --> 00:33:46,297 And I fell in love with that house, 545 00:33:46,963 --> 00:33:49,593 and with houses, all at once. 546 00:33:50,383 --> 00:33:52,393 I can live there forever, I thought. 547 00:33:52,844 --> 00:33:55,224 No one will ever find me there, either. 548 00:33:55,805 --> 00:33:58,055 I will light a fire in the cool evenings 549 00:33:58,141 --> 00:34:01,141 and toast apples in my own hearth. 550 00:34:02,228 --> 00:34:05,188 People will come to me to have their fortunes told, 551 00:34:05,815 --> 00:34:08,815 and I will brew love potions for sad maidens. 552 00:34:09,777 --> 00:34:10,737 I will have a... 553 00:34:12,071 --> 00:34:12,991 robin. 554 00:34:14,240 --> 00:34:15,410 I will have a robin. 555 00:34:17,034 --> 00:34:19,624 I almost named you Robin. 556 00:34:21,455 --> 00:34:23,035 Your dad even agreed. 557 00:34:23,541 --> 00:34:24,961 Robin Crain. 558 00:34:27,170 --> 00:34:29,420 But when I looked at you for the first time... 559 00:34:31,090 --> 00:34:32,550 you were Luke. 560 00:34:33,009 --> 00:34:34,339 You just were. 561 00:34:36,012 --> 00:34:36,852 Oh. 562 00:34:37,597 --> 00:34:39,427 [chuckles softly] I almost forgot. 563 00:34:47,190 --> 00:34:48,610 Your big boy hat. 564 00:34:51,444 --> 00:34:52,494 [Luke] No, I, um... 565 00:34:53,279 --> 00:34:54,199 No, no. 566 00:34:54,906 --> 00:34:56,736 We were going to have a tea party, 567 00:34:56,824 --> 00:35:00,244 with-- with big boy hats and cups of stars, and we're... 568 00:35:01,245 --> 00:35:03,705 we're so glad you're finally here. 569 00:35:03,998 --> 00:35:04,828 Go. 570 00:35:07,376 --> 00:35:09,336 [Olivia] Why would you want your brother to go? 571 00:35:09,420 --> 00:35:10,800 He just got here. 572 00:35:12,298 --> 00:35:13,128 Have a seat. 573 00:35:13,591 --> 00:35:14,511 Don't. 574 00:35:15,551 --> 00:35:16,511 Am I dead? 575 00:35:17,428 --> 00:35:18,548 No. 576 00:35:19,764 --> 00:35:20,894 You're awake. 577 00:35:21,182 --> 00:35:22,892 And I'm so sorry, honey. 578 00:35:23,726 --> 00:35:25,436 You were having such a nightmare. 579 00:35:26,187 --> 00:35:28,807 I'm-- I'm sorry, Mom, but I... 580 00:35:29,232 --> 00:35:31,532 No, don't you apologize to me. 581 00:35:32,401 --> 00:35:35,071 It wasn't your fault, never once. 582 00:35:35,613 --> 00:35:37,533 You were perfect. 583 00:35:37,615 --> 00:35:39,405 But I-- I wasn't. 584 00:35:39,492 --> 00:35:41,742 -I'm-- I'm not. -[Olivia] You were. 585 00:35:42,203 --> 00:35:43,163 And you are. 586 00:35:43,621 --> 00:35:44,831 It's the world, my love. 587 00:35:44,914 --> 00:35:48,084 It isn't and it wasn't, and you never should have been fed to it 588 00:35:48,167 --> 00:35:49,377 like you were. 589 00:35:52,630 --> 00:35:54,130 Yes, have a seat. 590 00:35:54,423 --> 00:35:55,263 Don't. 591 00:35:56,759 --> 00:35:57,589 Go. 592 00:35:57,677 --> 00:35:59,507 Why-- Why does she keep saying that? 593 00:35:59,595 --> 00:36:01,095 Honey. Honey... 594 00:36:01,681 --> 00:36:03,851 Just-- Just look at me. Look at me. 595 00:36:05,142 --> 00:36:06,312 This is a gift. 596 00:36:06,852 --> 00:36:07,902 For us all. 597 00:36:08,437 --> 00:36:11,397 Not if I'm dead. I-- I-- I don't want to be dead. 598 00:36:11,482 --> 00:36:12,982 But you want to be in here. 599 00:36:13,067 --> 00:36:15,107 -No, I-- I don't. -[Olivia] Yeah, you do. 600 00:36:16,153 --> 00:36:18,703 You-- You've been knocking on that door 601 00:36:19,407 --> 00:36:21,487 for years and years and years. 602 00:36:21,575 --> 00:36:22,785 We could hear you. 603 00:36:23,035 --> 00:36:25,195 Knocking louder all the time. 604 00:36:25,288 --> 00:36:26,908 And finally, here you are. 605 00:36:27,832 --> 00:36:29,132 -Please. -Don't. 606 00:36:29,208 --> 00:36:31,248 -No, I have to get-- I have to get... -[gasps] 607 00:36:31,794 --> 00:36:32,714 Please! 608 00:36:33,337 --> 00:36:36,417 [gasping, coughing] 609 00:36:38,884 --> 00:36:39,844 [Shirley] Oh, God. 610 00:36:41,387 --> 00:36:43,217 Luke! Hey, can you hear me? 611 00:36:43,306 --> 00:36:45,926 -[Shirley] His pulse is weak. -[Theo] We gotta get him to a hospital. 612 00:36:46,017 --> 00:36:48,307 I thought you were gone, man. I thought you were gone. 613 00:36:48,394 --> 00:36:49,444 She saved me. 614 00:36:51,063 --> 00:36:52,863 [Shirley] You-- You just woke up. 615 00:36:53,274 --> 00:36:54,404 -No. -[Shirley] You were gone. 616 00:36:54,483 --> 00:36:56,653 She saved me. 617 00:37:01,532 --> 00:37:03,202 I feel a little clearer just now. 618 00:37:06,120 --> 00:37:07,000 We have. 619 00:37:07,830 --> 00:37:09,670 -Nell? -[Nell] All of us have. 620 00:37:10,207 --> 00:37:13,287 -[Luke groans] -It wouldn't have changed anything. 621 00:37:14,086 --> 00:37:15,296 I need you to know that. 622 00:37:16,505 --> 00:37:18,375 -Nell-- -[Nell] The rest is confetti. 623 00:37:18,466 --> 00:37:19,336 Hey. 624 00:37:19,425 --> 00:37:21,585 So many times, and we didn't know it. 625 00:37:22,720 --> 00:37:23,640 All of us. 626 00:37:23,929 --> 00:37:24,809 Nellie? 627 00:37:25,097 --> 00:37:27,557 No, not a heart. 628 00:37:28,017 --> 00:37:29,347 -Nell? -A stomach. 629 00:37:30,311 --> 00:37:31,231 Nell? 630 00:37:31,645 --> 00:37:32,475 We have. 631 00:37:33,356 --> 00:37:36,186 -All of us have. -I-- I don't think she can hear us. 632 00:37:37,443 --> 00:37:39,613 [Nell] So many times, and we didn't know it. 633 00:37:40,780 --> 00:37:43,320 All right, we need to get Luke out of here. 634 00:37:43,407 --> 00:37:46,327 -We need to get him to a hospital. -[coughing] 635 00:37:46,410 --> 00:37:47,790 I don't get it. 636 00:37:48,245 --> 00:37:50,155 All this time, we tried to get into this room, 637 00:37:50,247 --> 00:37:52,037 and now we can't get the fuck out. 638 00:37:52,625 --> 00:37:54,455 I feel like I've been here before. 639 00:37:54,919 --> 00:37:55,839 We have. 640 00:37:58,089 --> 00:37:59,049 All of us have. 641 00:38:00,841 --> 00:38:02,801 So many times, and we didn't know it. 642 00:38:04,678 --> 00:38:05,548 All of us. 643 00:38:07,181 --> 00:38:08,141 [sighs] 644 00:38:09,850 --> 00:38:11,230 I feel a bit clearer now. 645 00:38:13,229 --> 00:38:14,809 Everything's been out of order. 646 00:38:15,439 --> 00:38:16,269 Time, I mean. 647 00:38:18,734 --> 00:38:22,914 I thought for so long that time was like a line, that... 648 00:38:24,365 --> 00:38:26,575 that our moments were laid out like dominoes, 649 00:38:26,659 --> 00:38:27,699 and that they... 650 00:38:28,828 --> 00:38:31,458 fell, one into another. 651 00:38:31,539 --> 00:38:32,919 And on it went, 652 00:38:32,998 --> 00:38:36,538 just days tipping, one into the next, into the next, 653 00:38:37,086 --> 00:38:39,376 in a long line between the beginning... 654 00:38:41,715 --> 00:38:42,585 and the end. 655 00:38:44,844 --> 00:38:46,644 But I was wrong. [chuckles] 656 00:38:48,222 --> 00:38:49,602 It's not like that at all. 657 00:38:51,225 --> 00:38:55,055 Our moments fall around us like rain. [laughs] 658 00:38:55,646 --> 00:38:57,726 Or... the snow. 659 00:39:00,609 --> 00:39:02,489 Or confetti. [chuckles] 660 00:39:05,239 --> 00:39:06,409 You were right. 661 00:39:07,533 --> 00:39:08,953 We have been in this room. 662 00:39:09,952 --> 00:39:11,752 So many times, and we didn't know. 663 00:39:13,247 --> 00:39:14,117 All of us. 664 00:39:16,834 --> 00:39:17,924 Mom says... 665 00:39:20,754 --> 00:39:23,174 that a-- that a house is like a body... 666 00:39:24,508 --> 00:39:25,758 and that every house... 667 00:39:27,553 --> 00:39:28,683 has eyes. 668 00:39:30,639 --> 00:39:31,599 And bones. 669 00:39:33,058 --> 00:39:34,098 And skin. 670 00:39:37,396 --> 00:39:38,516 And a face. 671 00:39:41,775 --> 00:39:42,895 [sighs] 672 00:39:44,528 --> 00:39:46,738 This room is like the heart of the house. 673 00:39:49,533 --> 00:39:51,163 No, not a heart, a stomach. 674 00:39:56,415 --> 00:39:58,245 It was your dance studio, Theo. 675 00:40:01,086 --> 00:40:02,246 It was my toy room. 676 00:40:03,547 --> 00:40:05,667 It was a reading room for Mom. 677 00:40:07,218 --> 00:40:08,838 A game room for Steve. 678 00:40:09,261 --> 00:40:11,101 A family room for Shirley. 679 00:40:11,722 --> 00:40:12,602 A tree house. 680 00:40:12,681 --> 00:40:14,891 How do you spell "No Girls Allowed"? 681 00:40:15,643 --> 00:40:17,813 [Nell] But it was always the Red Room. 682 00:40:18,145 --> 00:40:19,475 How do you take your tea? 683 00:40:19,563 --> 00:40:23,573 [Nell] It put on different faces so that we'd be still and quiet. 684 00:40:25,528 --> 00:40:27,028 While it digested. 685 00:40:29,823 --> 00:40:33,203 I'm like a small creature swallowed whole by a monster. 686 00:40:34,328 --> 00:40:37,748 And the monster feels my tiny little movements inside. 687 00:40:47,007 --> 00:40:48,337 You have to live. 688 00:40:51,387 --> 00:40:54,927 [sighs] I don't-- I don't know how to do this without you. 689 00:40:55,099 --> 00:40:56,519 I learned a secret. 690 00:40:58,310 --> 00:40:59,600 There's no without. 691 00:41:00,896 --> 00:41:02,226 I am not gone. 692 00:41:04,441 --> 00:41:07,441 I'm scattered into so many pieces, 693 00:41:08,362 --> 00:41:10,362 sprinkled on your life like... 694 00:41:11,240 --> 00:41:12,410 new snow. 695 00:41:16,036 --> 00:41:18,286 There's so much I want to say to you all. 696 00:41:19,873 --> 00:41:21,833 I'm so sorry our last words were in anger. 697 00:41:22,418 --> 00:41:23,588 They weren't our last. 698 00:41:25,462 --> 00:41:26,592 [Shirley] I'm sorry. 699 00:41:27,381 --> 00:41:28,721 I'm sorry that I didn't... 700 00:41:29,883 --> 00:41:30,883 answer the phone. 701 00:41:31,927 --> 00:41:32,847 But you did. 702 00:41:34,221 --> 00:41:35,561 So many times. 703 00:41:37,057 --> 00:41:39,847 I'm sorry if I didn't listen, and I'm sorry-- 704 00:41:39,935 --> 00:41:42,095 [Nell] It wouldn't have changed anything. 705 00:41:42,438 --> 00:41:43,688 I need you to know that. 706 00:41:45,858 --> 00:41:47,778 Forgiveness is warm. 707 00:41:48,944 --> 00:41:50,454 Like a tear on a cheek. 708 00:41:52,448 --> 00:41:54,158 Think of that and of me 709 00:41:55,034 --> 00:41:56,584 when you stand in the rain. 710 00:41:57,369 --> 00:41:58,409 Hmm? 711 00:41:59,413 --> 00:42:01,003 I loved you completely. 712 00:42:03,125 --> 00:42:04,665 And you loved me the same. 713 00:42:05,461 --> 00:42:06,381 That's all. 714 00:42:08,714 --> 00:42:10,174 The rest is confetti. 715 00:42:13,719 --> 00:42:14,799 [Nell chuckles] 716 00:42:34,365 --> 00:42:36,365 [gasps] 717 00:42:36,659 --> 00:42:37,619 [exhales] 718 00:42:51,799 --> 00:42:54,179 [sighs, swallows] 719 00:43:04,603 --> 00:43:06,693 The first was young Miss Grattan 720 00:43:07,147 --> 00:43:08,817 She tried not to let him in 721 00:43:09,441 --> 00:43:11,321 He stabbed her with a corn knife 722 00:43:11,860 --> 00:43:13,450 That's how his crimes begin 723 00:43:13,987 --> 00:43:15,737 The next was Grandma Grattan 724 00:43:16,031 --> 00:43:18,081 So old and tired and gray 725 00:43:18,659 --> 00:43:20,289 She f'it off her attacker 726 00:43:21,245 --> 00:43:22,955 Until his strength gave way 727 00:43:23,622 --> 00:43:25,582 The next was Grandpa Grattan 728 00:43:26,166 --> 00:43:27,836 A-settin' by the fire 729 00:43:28,335 --> 00:43:30,495 He came up close behind him 730 00:43:31,338 --> 00:43:33,588 And strangled him with wire 731 00:43:35,008 --> 00:43:36,968 The last was Baby Grattan 732 00:43:37,344 --> 00:43:38,974 All in his trundle bed 733 00:43:39,555 --> 00:43:41,885 He stove him in the short ribs 734 00:43:42,057 --> 00:43:44,017 Until that child was dead 735 00:43:44,560 --> 00:43:46,560 And then he spit tobacco juice 736 00:43:47,187 --> 00:43:49,767 All on his golden head 737 00:43:50,023 --> 00:43:51,113 [Olivia] Stay away. 738 00:44:02,161 --> 00:44:04,751 He's just too cute, Liv. 739 00:44:05,122 --> 00:44:06,122 Away. 740 00:44:06,832 --> 00:44:09,002 Forgive a girl for being lonely. 741 00:44:11,170 --> 00:44:13,510 Nothing's sadder than a cold bed. 742 00:44:14,339 --> 00:44:17,089 But all those wedding beds go cold. 743 00:44:20,846 --> 00:44:22,176 Don't they, loves? 744 00:44:33,442 --> 00:44:36,202 [chuckling softly] 745 00:44:37,029 --> 00:44:40,869 Journeys end in lovers' meeting. 746 00:44:43,160 --> 00:44:44,200 [sighs happily] 747 00:44:45,704 --> 00:44:48,624 I have spent an all but sleepless night. 748 00:44:50,125 --> 00:44:53,295 I have told lies and made a fool of myself. 749 00:44:54,296 --> 00:44:57,216 And the very air tastes like wine. 750 00:44:59,092 --> 00:45:00,722 Everyone is home. 751 00:45:02,471 --> 00:45:04,101 You've changed so much. 752 00:45:11,647 --> 00:45:13,357 For my heart. 753 00:45:14,233 --> 00:45:16,323 How long has it been since you were here? 754 00:45:16,401 --> 00:45:18,201 Longer than I intended. 755 00:45:18,779 --> 00:45:21,819 It was too hard to see you here, this way. 756 00:45:22,157 --> 00:45:24,157 But I still... 757 00:45:25,953 --> 00:45:27,963 -had you with me. -[Olivia] Oh, love. 758 00:45:28,539 --> 00:45:30,999 That wasn't me, that was just you. 759 00:45:32,417 --> 00:45:33,667 What were you doing... 760 00:45:34,503 --> 00:45:35,753 all this time away? 761 00:45:40,425 --> 00:45:41,255 [Hugh] I was... 762 00:45:42,386 --> 00:45:43,676 holding a door. 763 00:45:47,933 --> 00:45:50,643 Holding a door closed. 764 00:45:52,437 --> 00:45:55,267 I had my back against it 765 00:45:55,649 --> 00:45:58,109 and my arms out wide, 766 00:45:58,193 --> 00:46:00,453 because I knew there were monsters on the other side, 767 00:46:00,529 --> 00:46:02,359 and they wanted what was left of our family. 768 00:46:02,656 --> 00:46:04,906 And I held it so hard, 769 00:46:04,992 --> 00:46:08,372 I-- I didn't have arms left for the kids. 770 00:46:08,829 --> 00:46:10,539 The monsters got through anyway. 771 00:46:10,622 --> 00:46:12,212 That's what monsters do. 772 00:46:13,333 --> 00:46:14,843 -But not here. -[Hugh] No. 773 00:46:14,918 --> 00:46:16,298 Especially here. 774 00:46:17,129 --> 00:46:19,009 They're-- They're out there, 775 00:46:19,089 --> 00:46:20,419 in-- in the woods. 776 00:46:20,507 --> 00:46:24,257 They're out there, and we're in here, and the children are finally safe. 777 00:46:24,720 --> 00:46:26,180 But, no. No. They're... 778 00:46:27,556 --> 00:46:28,676 They're-- They're not. 779 00:46:29,641 --> 00:46:30,681 They're dying. 780 00:46:30,809 --> 00:46:31,809 They're waking. 781 00:46:32,686 --> 00:46:35,016 -No. -[sniffles] You kept them from me. 782 00:46:35,856 --> 00:46:37,226 To keep them safe. 783 00:46:37,900 --> 00:46:39,690 You kept them from the truth. 784 00:46:40,736 --> 00:46:41,946 To keep you safe. 785 00:46:42,529 --> 00:46:44,279 Their-- Their image of you. 786 00:46:47,284 --> 00:46:48,294 I woke up... 787 00:46:49,620 --> 00:46:51,160 at the foot of these stairs, 788 00:46:52,331 --> 00:46:53,831 and I started walking. 789 00:46:55,626 --> 00:46:56,786 No more headaches. 790 00:46:57,252 --> 00:46:59,422 No pain, no day, no night, 791 00:46:59,504 --> 00:47:00,844 no now, no then. 792 00:47:02,382 --> 00:47:04,592 And I would dream while I walked. 793 00:47:06,470 --> 00:47:07,600 I dreamed of you. 794 00:47:08,013 --> 00:47:10,473 I dreamed of you and the children's laughter. 795 00:47:11,016 --> 00:47:12,346 And then I'd remember... 796 00:47:13,560 --> 00:47:15,350 that you took them from me. 797 00:47:15,854 --> 00:47:16,944 You took them 798 00:47:17,439 --> 00:47:19,399 and you hurt them, Hugh. 799 00:47:19,900 --> 00:47:21,900 -And they suffered. -[Hugh] They did. 800 00:47:22,361 --> 00:47:23,361 They all do. 801 00:47:24,696 --> 00:47:27,196 And even if they're-- they're broken or addicted 802 00:47:27,282 --> 00:47:29,912 or joyless or, yes, even if they die, 803 00:47:30,285 --> 00:47:32,575 we have to watch it all because we're parents. 804 00:47:33,455 --> 00:47:35,915 And that's the deal we make. 805 00:47:36,291 --> 00:47:38,881 Whatever that life is, we bear witness. 806 00:47:39,002 --> 00:47:41,382 -It's a horror. -[Hugh] It doesn't have to be. 807 00:47:41,546 --> 00:47:44,296 I saw our daughter dance at her wedding. 808 00:47:44,383 --> 00:47:46,553 Her smile was like a light, 809 00:47:46,635 --> 00:47:48,715 and it was reflected in everyone's faces. 810 00:47:48,804 --> 00:47:50,604 And I recognized that light. 811 00:47:51,640 --> 00:47:53,980 Because it was ours. We did that. 812 00:47:54,101 --> 00:47:56,231 We loved each other so well 813 00:47:56,311 --> 00:47:58,731 that it spread out into the universe 814 00:47:58,814 --> 00:48:01,614 and it created a new star. [chuckles softly] 815 00:48:02,818 --> 00:48:05,778 [sighs] Stars die. 816 00:48:06,947 --> 00:48:09,277 The night sky is full of dead stars. 817 00:48:09,908 --> 00:48:11,788 They explode to death. 818 00:48:12,035 --> 00:48:14,745 And if you could reach up with some great hand 819 00:48:14,830 --> 00:48:16,040 and pull them down 820 00:48:16,123 --> 00:48:17,873 just before they burst, 821 00:48:18,166 --> 00:48:19,036 you would. 822 00:48:19,126 --> 00:48:20,126 Yes, I would. 823 00:48:20,210 --> 00:48:21,340 We're all safe now. 824 00:48:22,421 --> 00:48:25,591 This is our forever house. 825 00:48:25,674 --> 00:48:27,134 It always was. 826 00:48:27,426 --> 00:48:30,506 Nothing bad will ever touch them ever again. 827 00:48:30,595 --> 00:48:32,175 Nothing good will, either. 828 00:48:34,266 --> 00:48:35,426 Open that door. 829 00:48:35,851 --> 00:48:37,691 I know you can open that door. 830 00:48:38,687 --> 00:48:40,807 I know you love the people in that room 831 00:48:41,231 --> 00:48:42,361 more than anything. 832 00:48:42,441 --> 00:48:44,401 I won't let you take them away again. 833 00:48:45,360 --> 00:48:46,320 They'll die. 834 00:48:46,403 --> 00:48:48,613 Liv, they will die if they stay. They're dying now. 835 00:48:48,697 --> 00:48:49,987 Our babies are dying. 836 00:48:51,616 --> 00:48:52,486 Let them go. 837 00:48:52,951 --> 00:48:55,621 You have always said that our job was to send them sailing. 838 00:48:55,704 --> 00:48:57,254 -That was a dream. -Out into the world. 839 00:48:57,330 --> 00:48:59,120 -[Olivia] A dream. -Into the world. 840 00:48:59,541 --> 00:49:00,421 Let them go. 841 00:49:00,500 --> 00:49:02,750 I'll be alone again! [sobs] 842 00:49:07,632 --> 00:49:09,892 [Hugh] If it wasn't for the kids in that room, 843 00:49:09,968 --> 00:49:12,548 I would've laid down with you. 844 00:49:12,971 --> 00:49:14,391 I would have followed you... 845 00:49:16,516 --> 00:49:18,136 right into the darkness. 846 00:49:19,603 --> 00:49:20,943 But those kids, Liv... 847 00:49:24,441 --> 00:49:27,241 -But those kids in that room... -[Olivia whimpers] 848 00:49:28,236 --> 00:49:30,816 If you open that door right now... 849 00:49:32,783 --> 00:49:36,413 I will make a promise to you that I will keep forever. 850 00:49:38,038 --> 00:49:39,158 Open the door. 851 00:49:40,749 --> 00:49:41,579 Please. 852 00:49:41,958 --> 00:49:43,788 Let me fix this. [sighs] 853 00:49:48,423 --> 00:49:49,383 Journeys end... 854 00:49:50,342 --> 00:49:52,592 ...in lovers' meeting. [chuckles] 855 00:49:55,305 --> 00:49:58,515 You had that engraved on my watch, 856 00:49:58,600 --> 00:49:59,600 do you remember? 857 00:49:59,893 --> 00:50:01,103 But I was wrong. 858 00:50:02,270 --> 00:50:03,730 That's the secret, isn't it? 859 00:50:03,814 --> 00:50:06,574 [chuckles] Journeys don't end. 860 00:50:07,901 --> 00:50:09,191 Not if you love someone. 861 00:50:09,778 --> 00:50:10,898 They don't end at all. 862 00:50:12,614 --> 00:50:14,074 Isn't that wonderful? 863 00:50:17,035 --> 00:50:18,365 [Luke] Once upon a time, 864 00:50:19,246 --> 00:50:21,826 the world was just play. 865 00:50:21,915 --> 00:50:23,625 [jagged breathing] 866 00:50:23,708 --> 00:50:24,748 And all... 867 00:50:25,710 --> 00:50:27,170 All we had... 868 00:50:28,296 --> 00:50:30,506 -The five of us-- -No, no, no, no, no, stay with me. 869 00:50:30,590 --> 00:50:33,260 All we had was... play. 870 00:50:33,844 --> 00:50:35,474 Luke. Luke. Luke. 871 00:50:35,554 --> 00:50:37,684 Stay with me. Stay awake! Stay-- 872 00:50:45,605 --> 00:50:46,725 I'll start the car. 873 00:50:46,815 --> 00:50:48,565 -Is he breathing? -Yeah. 874 00:50:49,234 --> 00:50:50,114 Come on. 875 00:50:52,028 --> 00:50:52,858 [grunts] 876 00:51:03,081 --> 00:51:04,171 [seat belt clicks] 877 00:51:04,791 --> 00:51:07,001 -[Shirley] Sacred Heart's closest. -[Theo] I can navigate. 878 00:51:07,085 --> 00:51:08,625 Are you guys coming with us or--? 879 00:51:08,712 --> 00:51:09,672 Go ahead. 880 00:51:10,213 --> 00:51:12,473 There's one more thing your brother and I have to do. 881 00:51:12,549 --> 00:51:13,969 -We'll see you there. -[Theo] What? 882 00:51:14,050 --> 00:51:15,890 We'll meet you at the hospital. 883 00:51:17,762 --> 00:51:19,222 [engine starts] 884 00:51:34,154 --> 00:51:35,284 [sighs] 885 00:51:37,032 --> 00:51:39,332 Probably best you didn't say anything to them. 886 00:51:43,455 --> 00:51:46,705 Dad... what did I see? 887 00:52:00,931 --> 00:52:02,931 [car approaching] 888 00:52:25,497 --> 00:52:26,457 Olivia? 889 00:52:30,919 --> 00:52:31,749 Liv? 890 00:52:42,222 --> 00:52:44,222 [Younger Hugh screams] 891 00:53:00,490 --> 00:53:01,700 [crying] 892 00:53:07,289 --> 00:53:09,289 [sobbing] 893 00:53:14,587 --> 00:53:17,547 What... What happened? 894 00:53:20,760 --> 00:53:21,720 Why are you here? 895 00:53:21,845 --> 00:53:22,925 Did you see? 896 00:53:24,639 --> 00:53:25,719 What happened? 897 00:53:26,266 --> 00:53:29,976 I-- I... I don't know. 898 00:53:31,563 --> 00:53:34,733 We were looking for... [sighs] 899 00:53:43,325 --> 00:53:46,445 -Oh, my God. -[Younger Hugh] I can fix this. 900 00:53:49,331 --> 00:53:50,251 I can fix it. 901 00:53:58,256 --> 00:53:59,086 Hugh... 902 00:53:59,174 --> 00:54:02,144 -I can fix it. -[Mr. Dudley] Put her down. 903 00:54:02,761 --> 00:54:04,551 No, I can fix this. 904 00:54:05,638 --> 00:54:06,808 You-- You can't. 905 00:54:15,523 --> 00:54:16,863 Why is this happening? 906 00:54:19,194 --> 00:54:20,824 Why are you even here? 907 00:54:20,904 --> 00:54:23,954 We need to get you help. We need to get the police. 908 00:54:24,032 --> 00:54:25,282 Why are you here? 909 00:54:26,326 --> 00:54:30,496 Our-- Our daughter snuck out of a vent tonight, and we thought maybe... 910 00:54:34,376 --> 00:54:35,456 Oh... 911 00:54:38,213 --> 00:54:39,213 [Mrs. Dudley] No. 912 00:54:39,297 --> 00:54:42,087 [gasps] No. No, no, no... 913 00:54:42,175 --> 00:54:45,635 [sobbing] No. No. Oh, no. 914 00:54:47,097 --> 00:54:48,257 No... 915 00:54:49,057 --> 00:54:50,387 Both of their children. 916 00:54:51,393 --> 00:54:52,643 All of their children. 917 00:54:54,479 --> 00:54:56,309 [sobbing continues] 918 00:54:56,731 --> 00:54:58,271 She wasn't in her bed. 919 00:55:00,276 --> 00:55:01,316 I didn't know. 920 00:55:02,695 --> 00:55:03,735 I didn't know. 921 00:55:04,114 --> 00:55:05,034 [Abigail] Mommy? 922 00:55:09,702 --> 00:55:11,702 [Mrs. Dudley gasps] 923 00:55:13,081 --> 00:55:14,001 Abby? 924 00:55:15,625 --> 00:55:16,455 Abby? 925 00:55:16,543 --> 00:55:18,093 [panting] 926 00:55:21,131 --> 00:55:22,801 Abby! Abby! 927 00:55:23,466 --> 00:55:24,466 What happened? 928 00:55:25,051 --> 00:55:26,341 Who hurt you, baby girl? 929 00:55:44,487 --> 00:55:45,357 Honey? 930 00:55:48,241 --> 00:55:50,491 I'm having the strangest dream. 931 00:56:08,052 --> 00:56:09,802 [Younger Hugh] I'm gonna burn it. 932 00:56:13,516 --> 00:56:15,556 I'm gonna burn this house to the ground. 933 00:56:19,898 --> 00:56:20,978 Stand over it. 934 00:56:22,442 --> 00:56:26,282 Make sure that every room, every wall, every splinter is immolated. 935 00:56:27,822 --> 00:56:30,072 Burn this house and its hills to the dirt. 936 00:56:32,243 --> 00:56:33,543 Then I'll salt the earth. 937 00:56:35,246 --> 00:56:36,156 You won't. 938 00:56:38,041 --> 00:56:39,631 [sighs] Horace, he can't. 939 00:56:41,794 --> 00:56:43,094 She's still here. 940 00:56:48,259 --> 00:56:51,009 I'll... carry her body back to the woods. 941 00:56:51,095 --> 00:56:51,925 I'll... 942 00:56:53,139 --> 00:56:55,849 bury her by the cottage in the garden that she loved. 943 00:56:59,521 --> 00:57:00,561 And when she's buried 944 00:57:01,648 --> 00:57:04,068 and it's done, we'll-- we'll say nothing. 945 00:57:05,777 --> 00:57:08,607 You understand, Hugh? We'll say nothing. 946 00:57:09,948 --> 00:57:12,368 She barely left our house her whole life. 947 00:57:13,243 --> 00:57:15,623 We kept her out of the world to keep her safe. 948 00:57:17,622 --> 00:57:20,292 And we're the only ones who would even know to... 949 00:57:21,793 --> 00:57:22,883 to mourn her. 950 00:57:26,422 --> 00:57:28,512 We won't say anything about Olivia. 951 00:57:30,760 --> 00:57:32,300 We won't. [sighs] 952 00:57:34,806 --> 00:57:35,886 That wasn't her. 953 00:57:36,474 --> 00:57:37,314 We know that. 954 00:57:37,559 --> 00:57:41,399 No, we know what really happened here tonight. 955 00:57:42,564 --> 00:57:43,694 And your kids, 956 00:57:44,649 --> 00:57:47,149 they don't need to hear anything else. 957 00:57:47,735 --> 00:57:50,735 Or remember their mother in any way 958 00:57:50,822 --> 00:57:52,622 but the way that she truly was. 959 00:57:54,826 --> 00:57:56,576 And we can protect that for you. 960 00:57:58,997 --> 00:57:59,827 If... 961 00:58:02,125 --> 00:58:02,995 If what? 962 00:58:04,711 --> 00:58:06,381 [Mrs. Dudley] If you keep this house. 963 00:58:06,963 --> 00:58:07,923 Keep us on. 964 00:58:09,549 --> 00:58:11,009 Keep everyone else away. 965 00:58:11,926 --> 00:58:14,796 Don't let it take anyone else, never again. 966 00:58:15,471 --> 00:58:16,511 Let it starve. 967 00:58:18,891 --> 00:58:20,101 But leave it here. 968 00:58:22,145 --> 00:58:23,345 So I can see her. 969 00:58:25,773 --> 00:58:26,983 [Mr. Dudley] This house, 970 00:58:27,400 --> 00:58:30,990 it's full of precious, precious things, 971 00:58:31,654 --> 00:58:33,534 and they don't all belong to you. 972 00:58:34,991 --> 00:58:36,241 It's dangerous. 973 00:58:38,536 --> 00:58:39,446 For both of you. 974 00:58:39,537 --> 00:58:42,167 [Mrs. Dudley] I don't care. This is where she is now. 975 00:58:42,832 --> 00:58:43,962 I'm her mother. 976 00:58:44,250 --> 00:58:45,880 I won't leave her here alone. 977 00:58:48,254 --> 00:58:50,214 I will not. [crying] 978 00:58:52,842 --> 00:58:53,762 Please, Hugh. 979 00:59:00,558 --> 00:59:01,428 Please. 980 00:59:17,492 --> 00:59:18,452 [sighs] 981 00:59:33,049 --> 00:59:34,339 [sighs] 982 00:59:49,607 --> 00:59:50,777 [Steve sighs] 983 00:59:52,235 --> 00:59:53,895 I wish you would have told me. 984 00:59:57,949 --> 01:00:00,119 You didn't tell your sisters what you saw. 985 01:00:00,952 --> 01:00:01,792 Why not? 986 01:00:04,122 --> 01:00:06,792 Some things... can't be told. 987 01:00:07,917 --> 01:00:08,997 You live them... 988 01:00:09,919 --> 01:00:10,879 or you don't. 989 01:00:11,546 --> 01:00:13,006 But they can't be told. 990 01:00:16,050 --> 01:00:16,970 I'm sorry. 991 01:00:17,969 --> 01:00:18,889 No. 992 01:00:20,930 --> 01:00:22,010 I'm sorry, Dad. 993 01:00:24,016 --> 01:00:25,766 [Hugh] This is all yours now. 994 01:00:28,479 --> 01:00:29,439 The house. 995 01:00:31,524 --> 01:00:32,484 And the promise. 996 01:00:36,571 --> 01:00:37,741 I want you to know... 997 01:00:38,740 --> 01:00:39,570 you... 998 01:00:40,324 --> 01:00:41,624 and your sisters... 999 01:00:42,452 --> 01:00:43,452 and your brother... 1000 01:00:45,037 --> 01:00:46,657 were the best part of my... 1001 01:00:47,749 --> 01:00:48,579 my... 1002 01:00:51,169 --> 01:00:54,549 [inhales deeply] Never been prouder of anything. 1003 01:00:56,799 --> 01:00:58,379 Anything, ever. 1004 01:01:03,931 --> 01:01:05,141 Take care of each other. 1005 01:01:06,017 --> 01:01:08,977 -[sighs] Dad? -[Younger Hugh] And be kind to each other. 1006 01:01:11,355 --> 01:01:12,395 If nothing else... 1007 01:01:13,775 --> 01:01:14,645 be kind. 1008 01:01:17,779 --> 01:01:19,069 I was so lucky... 1009 01:01:19,947 --> 01:01:21,027 to be your dad. 1010 01:01:44,806 --> 01:01:45,846 [sighs] 1011 01:02:38,943 --> 01:02:40,953 [indistinct chatter over PA] 1012 01:02:43,447 --> 01:02:45,367 [monitor beeping] 1013 01:02:50,162 --> 01:02:51,162 [Steve] Home. 1014 01:02:54,333 --> 01:02:55,793 "I am home," I thought... 1015 01:02:57,461 --> 01:02:59,421 and stopped in wonder at the thought. 1016 01:03:01,465 --> 01:03:02,335 I am home. 1017 01:03:03,593 --> 01:03:04,803 I am home. 1018 01:03:06,721 --> 01:03:07,681 Now, to climb. 1019 01:03:11,851 --> 01:03:13,391 I've been so wrong 1020 01:03:13,936 --> 01:03:15,226 about so much. 1021 01:03:18,482 --> 01:03:21,032 I've lived with ghosts since I was a kid. 1022 01:03:22,778 --> 01:03:25,068 Since before I knew they were even there. 1023 01:03:26,032 --> 01:03:28,742 Ghosts are guilt, ghosts are secrets, 1024 01:03:28,826 --> 01:03:30,996 ghosts are regrets and failings. 1025 01:03:34,165 --> 01:03:35,205 But most times... 1026 01:03:37,043 --> 01:03:39,133 most times, a ghost is a wish. 1027 01:03:43,215 --> 01:03:45,375 Like a marriage is a wish. 1028 01:03:49,764 --> 01:03:53,484 A marriage can be like a house, and a marriage can be haunted, 1029 01:03:53,559 --> 01:03:55,099 and I let that happen to us. 1030 01:03:55,227 --> 01:03:57,607 And I'm so sorry, Leigh. 1031 01:03:57,939 --> 01:03:58,899 You're scaring me. 1032 01:04:00,900 --> 01:04:03,030 I have something that I have to tell you. 1033 01:04:05,321 --> 01:04:06,531 And I'm going to. 1034 01:04:07,740 --> 01:04:11,240 But I need you to remember, while I do, that I love you, 1035 01:04:12,244 --> 01:04:13,084 my sweet... 1036 01:04:13,871 --> 01:04:14,711 friend. 1037 01:04:16,040 --> 01:04:17,080 My best friend. 1038 01:04:18,459 --> 01:04:20,999 I'm asking you to love me 1039 01:04:22,380 --> 01:04:24,670 hard for the next few minutes, 1040 01:04:24,757 --> 01:04:26,507 and it might be the hardest 1041 01:04:27,301 --> 01:04:28,761 that you've ever had to love me, 1042 01:04:29,345 --> 01:04:30,715 but I know it'll be okay, 1043 01:04:31,055 --> 01:04:32,135 because it's us. 1044 01:04:33,516 --> 01:04:34,346 So... 1045 01:04:35,851 --> 01:04:39,231 I'm gonna jump. And I'm asking you to hold my hand... 1046 01:04:40,731 --> 01:04:41,821 while I'm falling. 1047 01:04:45,861 --> 01:04:46,821 Okay? 1048 01:04:51,117 --> 01:04:51,947 Okay. 1049 01:04:54,662 --> 01:04:56,662 ["If I Go, I'm Goin'" playing] 1050 01:04:58,916 --> 01:04:59,826 Years ago... 1051 01:05:01,252 --> 01:05:03,212 six years ago... 1052 01:05:04,380 --> 01:05:06,630 I went to that conference in Chicago. 1053 01:05:08,342 --> 01:05:10,392 -[Shirley continues inaudibly] -[Steve] I wish... 1054 01:05:10,469 --> 01:05:11,849 I'd loved you better. 1055 01:05:13,472 --> 01:05:16,102 And let you see me clearly, without disguise. 1056 01:05:17,226 --> 01:05:18,976 I wish I'd been a better husband. 1057 01:05:20,938 --> 01:05:22,648 I wish I'd been a better son. 1058 01:05:23,399 --> 01:05:27,279 -[sighs] I wish I'd been a better brother. -♪ This house ♪ 1059 01:05:27,361 --> 01:05:30,451 -What are you saying, Steve? -♪ She's holding secrets ♪ 1060 01:05:30,531 --> 01:05:33,031 I'm saying, I built a wall around a big part of my life, 1061 01:05:33,117 --> 01:05:34,787 and I hid behind that wall, 1062 01:05:34,869 --> 01:05:38,369 and I thought that wall kept us both safe. But walls don't work that way. 1063 01:05:39,623 --> 01:05:41,963 Walls never work that way. 1064 01:05:42,043 --> 01:05:43,173 What about these? 1065 01:05:43,961 --> 01:05:44,921 Oh, trash. 1066 01:05:47,715 --> 01:05:50,255 ♪ Just in case ♪ 1067 01:05:51,510 --> 01:05:53,600 ♪ I have to leave ♪ 1068 01:05:55,806 --> 01:06:01,846 ♪ I will go if you ask me to ♪ 1069 01:06:03,481 --> 01:06:06,321 ♪ I will stay... ♪ 1070 01:06:06,442 --> 01:06:08,652 I think the truck's full. Is that everything? 1071 01:06:09,028 --> 01:06:10,108 Yeah, I'm ready. 1072 01:06:11,238 --> 01:06:16,368 ♪ If I go, I'm going shameless ♪ 1073 01:06:16,952 --> 01:06:20,622 -♪ Let my hunger take me there ♪ -[Steve] And all of that, 1074 01:06:20,915 --> 01:06:22,575 the guilt and the grief 1075 01:06:22,666 --> 01:06:25,246 and the secrets and the walls and the ghosts, 1076 01:06:25,336 --> 01:06:26,246 right now, 1077 01:06:27,046 --> 01:06:28,416 my only wish... 1078 01:06:31,634 --> 01:06:34,014 my only wish is to come home. 1079 01:06:34,887 --> 01:06:36,757 ♪ This house ♪ 1080 01:06:37,515 --> 01:06:38,465 Please. 1081 01:06:38,599 --> 01:06:40,599 ♪ She's quite the talker ♪ 1082 01:06:41,727 --> 01:06:44,357 ♪ She creaks and moans ♪ 1083 01:06:44,438 --> 01:06:47,398 -[sighs] I just want to fix this. -♪ Keeps me up ♪ 1084 01:06:49,860 --> 01:06:52,910 ♪ And the photographs ♪ 1085 01:06:53,322 --> 01:06:56,032 ♪ Know I'm a liar ♪ 1086 01:06:57,368 --> 01:06:59,198 ♪ They just laugh ♪ 1087 01:06:59,370 --> 01:07:00,200 [Steve] Fear. 1088 01:07:00,871 --> 01:07:02,711 ♪ As I burn her down ♪ 1089 01:07:02,832 --> 01:07:05,582 [Steve] Fear is the relinquishment of logic, 1090 01:07:05,668 --> 01:07:08,708 the willing relinquishing of reasonable patterns. 1091 01:07:08,879 --> 01:07:11,629 ♪ I will go if you if you ask me to ♪ 1092 01:07:13,134 --> 01:07:15,514 -♪ I will stay... ♪ -[Mr. Dudley, crying] We're here. 1093 01:07:17,138 --> 01:07:20,018 We're here, Clara. 1094 01:07:21,642 --> 01:07:24,982 -We made it. [sobs] -♪ If I go, I'm going on fire ♪ 1095 01:07:26,647 --> 01:07:29,357 ♪ Let my anger take me there ♪ 1096 01:07:29,441 --> 01:07:31,991 [Steven] But so, it seems, is love. 1097 01:07:32,570 --> 01:07:33,990 [gasps] 1098 01:07:36,323 --> 01:07:42,413 ♪ And the shingles, man, they're shaking ♪ 1099 01:07:44,623 --> 01:07:49,343 ♪ The back door's burning through ♪ 1100 01:07:49,420 --> 01:07:52,050 [Steve] Love is the relinquishment of logic... 1101 01:07:52,173 --> 01:07:54,723 ♪ This old house She's quite the keeper ♪ 1102 01:07:54,800 --> 01:07:57,680 [Steve] The willing relinquishing of reasonable patterns. 1103 01:07:57,803 --> 01:08:00,473 ♪ Quite the keeper of you ♪ 1104 01:08:00,639 --> 01:08:03,019 [Steve] We yield to it or we fight it. 1105 01:08:04,101 --> 01:08:05,731 But we cannot meet it halfway. 1106 01:08:09,273 --> 01:08:10,233 Without it, 1107 01:08:10,733 --> 01:08:13,283 we cannot continue for long to exist sanely 1108 01:08:13,360 --> 01:08:16,110 under conditions of absolute reality. 1109 01:08:18,407 --> 01:08:19,407 Hill House, 1110 01:08:19,909 --> 01:08:20,869 not sane, 1111 01:08:21,493 --> 01:08:24,293 stands against its hills, holding darkness within. 1112 01:08:26,332 --> 01:08:28,332 It has stood so for a hundred years 1113 01:08:28,417 --> 01:08:30,167 and might stand a hundred more. 1114 01:08:30,586 --> 01:08:36,126 ♪ I will go if you ask me to ♪ 1115 01:08:36,258 --> 01:08:37,338 [Steve] Within... 1116 01:08:37,968 --> 01:08:39,678 walls continue upright... 1117 01:08:40,888 --> 01:08:42,178 bricks meet neatly... 1118 01:08:43,265 --> 01:08:44,475 floors are firm... 1119 01:08:46,477 --> 01:08:48,227 and doors are sensibly shut. 1120 01:08:51,857 --> 01:08:53,397 Silence lay steadily 1121 01:08:53,484 --> 01:08:56,534 against the wood and stone of Hill House. 1122 01:08:57,613 --> 01:09:01,913 ♪ If I go, I'm going crazy ♪ 1123 01:09:01,992 --> 01:09:03,832 [Steve] And those who walk there... 1124 01:09:06,205 --> 01:09:07,155 walk together. 1125 01:09:18,634 --> 01:09:20,554 [peaceful instrumental music playing]