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Two nights in a row.
We should talk to him.
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I just don't like not knowing what he's…
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Rumor is he's been
spending a lot of time with Miss Greene.
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Well, good for him.
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He's an adult. If he can find
just a little comfort in his…
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Good for him.
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[Ed chuckles]
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Late start this morning.
Looks like it'll just be us.
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[Warren] We can handle it.
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[sighs]
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[vibrating]
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[Mildred] Mornin', you.
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Wow, you look…
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Do you like it? I dug it out of that
footlocker in the closet upstairs.
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I mean, most of those
haven't seen the light of day in decades,
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but then again, neither have I.
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Still, I think it fits pretty well,
don't you think?
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Shall we?
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[Joanie] I know he's a troubled boy.
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Always has been.
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His daddy never
did right by him and me, well…
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I did my best.
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I did what I could, but I ain't perfect.
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I work two jobs.
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Mainland jobs, and still that
don't provide enough for his sisters.
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Which is why he does what he does.
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Money's gotta come from somewhere,
and he puts food on the table.
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Not that that much matters
to you, does it, Sheriff? Hmm?
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Law's the law, no matter the circumstance,
ain't that right?
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I'm not judging, Joanie,
I only said it's not unheard of.
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-Bowl takin' off for a few--
-Bill!
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His name is Bill.
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His so-called friends called him Bowl
when he started selling the weed, and…
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[sighs] Well, at least
they didn't call him Bong.
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Look, if you and these folks
here on the island
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don't give two shits about a missing boy,
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well, then, I don't know
why you all keep lining up at church,
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making a big show of how pious you are
because you sure as shit ain't Christians.
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-Ma'am, I'm not Christian.
-You know what I'm getting at.
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[clicks tongue] I've been in touch
with my counterparts on the mainland,
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and they've been in touch with Bowl…
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Bill's employers and known acquaintances.
We'll find him.
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What about these folks here on the island,
you talking to them?
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'Cause mainlanders are one thing,
but islanders know.
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Islanders always know.
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I had a word with Joe Collie.
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Best I can tell, he was
the last person to see him on the island.
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-Was he sober?
-Ma'am?
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When you talked to him, was he sober?
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Well, can't say for certain with Joe.
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-You never can, but he--
-Talk to him again.
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-Look, I don't think Joe--
-You talk to him again!
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You didn't know him!
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These people here really didn't know him,
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and if they did,
they didn't give two shits,
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but that's not supposed to matter.
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When something like this happens,
we are all supposed to be the same.
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Wait, you're saying every night?
No morning masses at all?
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[Sturge] Time bein', yeah.
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Father Paul probably just needs
another morning or two
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to recover from that head cold,
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but he should be up and about tonight.
Isn't that right, Sturge?
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[Sturge] Yes, sir. Um… [clears throat]
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I spoke to him myself in the morning,
and, uh, he's doin' much better.
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That's right, and Dolly spoke to him, too.
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And he's got a few things
to say about Good Friday.
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Isn't that right, honey?
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{\an8}Dolly? You…
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[indistinct chatter]
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Millie. Is that you?
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The last time I checked.
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{\an8}Is there no morning mass today?
I was so looking forward.
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{\an8}No, it's…
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{\an8}Wow! Look at you.
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{\an8}[Leeza] Oh, my God.
Miss Gunning looks so much… Mom?
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[voice breaking] I'm sorry, sweetie.
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It's just, um…
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What a time to be alive.
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[knocks on door]
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[Annie] Oh.
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-[Erin] Hi, Mrs. Flynn.
-[Annie] Oh, darling. Oh.
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Honey, hi. I heard about…
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Riley told us. You aren't alone.
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[Erin] Is he here?
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[Annie] Uh… no. No, he's not.
To be honest, I thought he was with you.
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[knocks on door]
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[Hassan] Joe?
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-[Ed] Got it?
-[Warren] Yep.
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[crate thuds]
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[Erin] Have you seen Riley?
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[inaudible conversation]
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[Ed] Everything okay?
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[Warren] Yeah, Riley's, uh,
just MIA, I guess.
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Huh?
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He's not with Erin Greene then?
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I guess not.
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God damn it, Riley.
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He's just gonna piss it all away?
Even after all the…
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God.
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What the hell's the matter with him?
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Just let him. Let him.
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What the hell can we even do?
If he's not even gonna… God damn it!
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I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Warren.
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Sorry. Here.
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Yeah, C-O-double-L-I-E. Joseph.
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Four, twenty-two, sixty-nine.
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Great. I'd appreciate that.
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All right, thanks. Thanks, Mike.
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Sorry to interrupt.
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Oh. No, no. I was just tracking, uh…
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What can I do for you, Miss Greene?
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-Yeah… It's probably nothing.
-Most things are.
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It could be, I don't know.
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I don't know what this could be.
Um, and it's not an official report,
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because it hasn't been 24 or 48 hours.
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I don't know how long to wait.
And you're gonna laugh at me.
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But I need to report a missing person.
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Who?
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Riley Flynn.
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He was supposed to come to my house
last night, but he didn't.
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And I checked with his family and…
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This morning and this afternoon,
and they haven't seen him.
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Your house… Are you two--
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No. I mean, not really.
We've been spending time together, but…
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He wasn't on the ferry, I checked.
So he's not on the mainland.
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And his phone
just rings and rings and rings.
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Mmm-hmm. Did he say anything?
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Anything that you, uh, look at now
thinking back that's off, or--
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No, nothing.
He said he would come to my house.
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-Well, sure, but maybe he just got--
-He said he would come to my house.
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All right.
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[clears throat]
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-[pen clicks]
-All right, last time you saw him?
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Yesterday morning when we woke up.
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He went to AA
at St. Patrick's with Joe Collie--
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Joe was there? You sure?
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I don't know. I just assume so
because he's going to those meetings.
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And then he went [inhales deeply]
home for dinner.
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His parents said so. And then he said
he was going to meet me, and then nothing.
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All right, and what did you
talk about yesterday morning?
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You know, plans for the day,
a dream that he had last night.
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And what did you talk about
the night before?
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Okay, listen. I believe you.
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All right. I'm not trying to pry.
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I'm hoping he said something,
anything that might tell us where he went.
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All right? It could be something little.
Something he forgot.
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His state of mind is important,
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because when I go shaking trees,
and I will…
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If it turns out he's on
some bender in a mainland hotel,
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he might have hinted. That's all.
All right? So that's all I'm looking for.
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Okay?
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What did you two talk about?
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Death.
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We talked about what happens
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when you die.
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Well, um, see,
that's what I'm talking about.
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Yes, that's why I'm here.
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All right.
Did you bring up the topic or did he?
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I've been asking
myself that all day, I don't…
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I think it was on both of our minds
because I had lost…
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I miscarried.
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I'm sorry, I…
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I am pretty sure
that he brought up the idea,
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and I leaned into it pretty hard.
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-And what did he say about it?
-What do you mean?
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Death.
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Was he afraid of it? Intrigued by it? Or…
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He seemed fine.
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But that's what they say.
People who aren't okay, people who…
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They say that about people
who kill themselves.
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That they seemed fine.
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They do say that sometimes, yeah.
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[choir music playing]
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[inaudible conversation]
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[Ed sighs]
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-[sighs] I don't know what to do.
-He'll be here.
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-Boys.
-[Ooker] Father.
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[Warren] Feelin' better, Father?
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[sighs] Special night, boys.
Eyes up. Ears open.
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You know, I heard about it.
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I did. But seeing is believing, isn't it?
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Mildred Gunning, as I live and breathe.
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Beverly Keane.
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Oh.
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God gave you back to us.
And I am so glad that He did.
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And that you'll be with us
for what comes next.
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Well, thank you.
I'm very happy to be here.
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Not alone. Sarah Gunning.
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I'm so happy that you're here.
I can't possibly tell you.
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Thank you. Mom, let's get you inside
and get you off your feet.
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Of course.
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[Dolly] "They took the body of Jesus,
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and bound it with the burial cloths
along with the spices,
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according to the Jewish burial custom."
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"Now in the place
where he had been crucified,
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there was a garden, and in the garden,
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a new tomb in which
no one had yet been buried."
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"So, they laid Jesus there
because of the Jewish preparation day."
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"For the tomb was close by."
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-The Gospel of the Lord.
-[all] Praise to you, Lord Jesus Christ.
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[Father Paul clears throat]
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Good Friday.
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This is one of my favorite days
of the year. The passion of our Lord.
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Just that word, "passion."
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The word "passion," it means
a strong and barely controllable emotion.
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Barely controllable.
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That's what Jesus felt
when he gave his life for us,
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so that we might have life eternal.
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What a gift,
told so beautifully in the Gospel of John.
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"Gospel" means good news!
Good news on Good Friday.
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And yet, it's a story
of such profound suffering.
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What's so good about that?
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Jesus's suffering in this story,
it isn't simply necessary.
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It is good.
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It is the price of eternal life.
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That suffering, he endures alone.
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At the Resurrection, he is alone.
And then… Well…
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Ah, he has a few allies. And then more.
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A congregation.
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And then more and more people
spread that good news.
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Tell that good story.
And then, God has an army.
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What do they say in that commercial?
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Uh, "Be all that you can be."
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Well, I mean no offense
to the armed services,
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which are necessary
and of course honorable,
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but that's not all that you can be.
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In the Army,
you're fighting for God and country.
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Now, I am going to offend you now,
but it is the truth.
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God does not want you
to fight for this country.
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The arrogance… of that.
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God has no country.
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There is one God for the world.
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And the lines we draw,
and the treaties we draft,
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and the borders we close
mean nothing to Him.
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No, don't fight for a country.
You fight for God's kingdom.
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A kingdom which Jesus tells us
has no flags or borders.
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God's army. Now make no mistake.
It is a war. That's what an army is for.
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So, as a congregation, as God's army,
how do we know how the fight is going?
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We can't see it.
We can't radio HQ for a status report.
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All we have,
all God gives us, is right here.
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How we feel.
That moral compass inside each one of us
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pointing due north to the Holy Spirit.
243
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Conscience. In the army of God,
conscience is standard issue.
244
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There are many like it,
but this one is mine.
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You may think that that's a line
from a war movie, but it isn't.
246
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That's actually the Rifleman's Creed.
247
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And a creed is, by definition,
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not just a belief,
but it is a religious one.
249
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So, it is a war,
and there will be casualties.
250
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And we must be soldiers.
251
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That is what Good Friday is about.
252
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God will ask
horrible things of you. Horrible.
253
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Just look at what He asked of His own son.
254
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Just look at what
Jesus had to endure today.
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We had to call it the "New Covenant,"
256
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because God's will,
while perfect, changes.
257
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God's will dictates morality,
258
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and as God's will changes,
so does morality change.
259
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It changed with the New Covenant.
It changed when Jesus came,
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and we must, as his army,
shed the Old Covenant
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and listen only to that.
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You rely on that compass.
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Good Friday is only good.
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The Gospel of the Lord,
so full of horror, is only good,
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because of where it is headed.
266
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The Resurrection.
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Today is only good because
of what's coming Easter, this Sunday.
268
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When Jesus is risen,
and death itself is lain dead.
269
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What is otherwise horrible is good
because of where it's headed.
270
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Welcome to God's army.
271
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Yeah, we're gonna do great things.
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[Sarah] Mom. Mom, wait.
273
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What's wrong? Mom, stop.
274
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I don't want you
going back there ever again.
275
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What?
276
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That is not my church.
That is not the man I knew.
277
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[knocking at door]
278
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[knocking continues]
279
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Where the hell have you been?
I have been calling you all day.
280
00:19:20,916 --> 00:19:23,791
-I'm sorry.
-Don't do that. Where were you?
281
00:19:24,625 --> 00:19:25,458
Where were you?
282
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Do you remember
a few days before you left town,
283
00:19:31,750 --> 00:19:35,083
you crawled in my window,
woke me up, scared the shit out of me?
284
00:19:36,333 --> 00:19:37,833
You wanted to take a boat out?
285
00:19:37,916 --> 00:19:41,000
You wouldn't take no for an answer,
so we grabbed a rowboat and we rowed out
286
00:19:42,416 --> 00:19:46,166
far, smoked a pack of cigarettes
and watched the sun come up?
287
00:19:49,125 --> 00:19:50,708
Will you do that with me now?
288
00:19:52,583 --> 00:19:53,958
Can we go for a ride?
289
00:20:56,625 --> 00:20:58,875
You know, I'm pretty good about trust.
290
00:21:00,041 --> 00:21:01,875
Which is funny, considering my marriage.
291
00:21:03,333 --> 00:21:05,333
It was important to me
that I came out of that
292
00:21:06,041 --> 00:21:08,208
situation with trust in my heart.
293
00:21:09,291 --> 00:21:12,208
And I haven't pressed
because you never did.
294
00:21:12,875 --> 00:21:14,500
Not once. Not ever.
295
00:21:16,166 --> 00:21:17,708
You let me come to you.
296
00:21:20,500 --> 00:21:21,958
I'm trying to give that back.
297
00:21:23,666 --> 00:21:25,250
But here we are.
298
00:21:27,833 --> 00:21:29,916
And I've got to ask, you know.
299
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What's this about, Riley?
300
00:21:37,875 --> 00:21:39,791
It's where it all
came from in the first place.
301
00:21:40,875 --> 00:21:41,791
Stars.
302
00:21:42,916 --> 00:21:46,541
Primitive man, they were hunting
and gathering and stuff all day long,
303
00:21:46,625 --> 00:21:47,875
but at night they just
304
00:21:49,625 --> 00:21:55,416
sit around campfires tryin' to stay warm,
stay safe from predators.
305
00:21:56,375 --> 00:22:02,000
And they look out across the valleys,
and they see other campfires,
306
00:22:02,083 --> 00:22:07,250
just little spots of light
in the landscape,
307
00:22:07,333 --> 00:22:11,000
and they know that
other people are out there, in the dark.
308
00:22:12,375 --> 00:22:16,291
And then, they see
these spots of light in the sky.
309
00:22:17,500 --> 00:22:18,458
They don't know what they are.
310
00:22:18,541 --> 00:22:21,875
They don't have a clue about space
or stars or light waves.
311
00:22:21,958 --> 00:22:25,625
They just figure they look
a hell of a lot like campfires.
312
00:22:27,041 --> 00:22:29,250
"Who must those people be," they wonder.
313
00:22:31,083 --> 00:22:33,250
"Lightin' their campfires way up there?"
314
00:22:34,083 --> 00:22:36,208
They start telling each other stories.
315
00:22:36,833 --> 00:22:37,916
"Those people?"
316
00:22:39,833 --> 00:22:41,583
"They must be incredible."
317
00:22:42,500 --> 00:22:44,541
"Those campfires, they belong to people
318
00:22:44,625 --> 00:22:47,875
way more powerful
than we ever even imagined, so…"
319
00:22:50,333 --> 00:22:51,250
All of it.
320
00:22:52,916 --> 00:22:53,916
Every god.
321
00:22:55,833 --> 00:22:59,916
Every goddess, every religion,
every holy war. All of it.
322
00:23:02,375 --> 00:23:03,750
Started right up there.
323
00:23:05,458 --> 00:23:08,583
Just wondering who the hell
could've lit those campfires in the sky.
324
00:23:12,916 --> 00:23:15,416
I'm gonna tell you a story,
but you're not gonna believe it.
325
00:23:16,541 --> 00:23:19,333
I just need you to listen.
Can you promise me that?
326
00:23:21,166 --> 00:23:22,416
Yeah. I can.
327
00:23:24,666 --> 00:23:28,291
Okay.
328
00:23:32,458 --> 00:23:33,916
[cell phone vibrating]
329
00:23:50,125 --> 00:23:51,000
[Riley groans]
330
00:23:51,083 --> 00:23:54,375
[softly] Hey, hey.
You're okay. You're okay.
331
00:23:54,458 --> 00:23:59,791
Don't try to talk, you just relax,
here, focus on breathing, okay?
332
00:23:59,875 --> 00:24:01,541
[inhales and exhales sharply]
333
00:24:02,791 --> 00:24:04,000
-You're doing great.
-[Riley gasps]
334
00:24:04,083 --> 00:24:06,375
[Father Paul] No. Okay. Hey. You're fine.
335
00:24:06,458 --> 00:24:12,083
I… I had a sister.
Did I ever tell you that? Named Alice.
336
00:24:12,166 --> 00:24:16,750
She was older than me,
but she was much smaller.
337
00:24:16,833 --> 00:24:21,208
I was eight when she died. It was polio.
338
00:24:21,291 --> 00:24:23,958
It was awful to watch that.
339
00:24:25,208 --> 00:24:26,958
I was scared too, Riley.
340
00:24:27,041 --> 00:24:28,541
I was terrified of death,
341
00:24:28,625 --> 00:24:30,916
and that's actually
what brought me to God.
342
00:24:31,583 --> 00:24:35,166
Trying to understand how death,
343
00:24:35,250 --> 00:24:39,458
um, her death, specifically,
could be part of God's plan.
344
00:24:39,541 --> 00:24:42,958
That question, that brought me
all the way to the priesthood, actually…
345
00:24:43,041 --> 00:24:44,416
-[bones crunch]
-[Riley grunts]
346
00:24:45,625 --> 00:24:48,541
[shushes] Hey. You're okay.
347
00:24:49,666 --> 00:24:52,375
See, God still has a plan,
348
00:24:52,458 --> 00:24:55,666
and death isn't part of it anymore.
349
00:24:55,750 --> 00:24:57,083
Not for all of us.
350
00:24:58,541 --> 00:25:01,833
And we don't have to be afraid ever again.
351
00:25:28,291 --> 00:25:29,500
[Father Paul] How are you feeling?
352
00:25:31,166 --> 00:25:32,458
You look a lot better.
353
00:25:34,291 --> 00:25:35,875
Here, please, have a seat.
354
00:25:40,458 --> 00:25:42,666
No, I wouldn't do that.
355
00:25:45,166 --> 00:25:46,791
[Riley groans]
356
00:25:51,791 --> 00:25:52,833
I can, ah…
357
00:25:53,875 --> 00:25:57,541
Well, I can't exactly explain,
but I can give it a good try.
358
00:25:57,625 --> 00:26:00,541
The important thing is
not to go outside right now.
359
00:26:02,250 --> 00:26:04,583
I'm sorry, I was hoping to
warn you before. Well…
360
00:26:04,666 --> 00:26:08,166
[chuckles] It's not a mistake
you make twice, right?
361
00:26:10,041 --> 00:26:14,208
Don't worry, it took your neck
less than six hours to heal completely.
362
00:26:14,291 --> 00:26:17,375
Those burns will be no problem.
Here. Have a seat.
363
00:26:18,541 --> 00:26:22,250
I promise, I'll explain
everything that I can to you,
364
00:26:22,333 --> 00:26:24,416
and you will feel better when I do.
365
00:26:25,500 --> 00:26:29,458
Sit. Give your skin
a chance to heal, at the very least.
366
00:26:29,541 --> 00:26:30,833
We're having a meeting?
367
00:26:31,541 --> 00:26:32,916
We're having the meeting.
368
00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:38,625
I promise, it's okay.
You've had a long night, long journey.
369
00:26:39,416 --> 00:26:40,333
Sit.
370
00:26:42,083 --> 00:26:43,500
You'll be glad you did.
371
00:26:49,375 --> 00:26:52,916
-[inhales] Let's start with Serenity.
-Are you fucking kidding?
372
00:26:53,541 --> 00:26:55,708
Not at all. I am not.
373
00:26:55,791 --> 00:26:59,291
Today you get complete
and total honesty from me,
374
00:26:59,375 --> 00:27:04,958
and this prayer, today,
it applies to me and you, profoundly.
375
00:27:07,000 --> 00:27:10,666
Lord, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
376
00:27:10,750 --> 00:27:12,916
the courage to change the things I can,
377
00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,291
and the wisdom
to know the difference. Amen.
378
00:27:17,375 --> 00:27:19,875
Let's start in order.
The things we cannot change.
379
00:27:20,916 --> 00:27:24,125
When I was younger,
380
00:27:24,208 --> 00:27:28,666
I was a pastor at a small church
in a very small community.
381
00:27:28,750 --> 00:27:30,666
And one day this altar boy,
382
00:27:30,750 --> 00:27:34,916
he was a brand-new altar boy…
He was maybe nine or ten, smart kid.
383
00:27:35,458 --> 00:27:36,875
It's around Easter,
384
00:27:36,958 --> 00:27:40,375
so I'd been talking about the Resurrection
for a couple of weeks. Anyway.
385
00:27:40,458 --> 00:27:43,208
One day, this altar boy,
he brings me a shoebox.
386
00:27:44,333 --> 00:27:47,958
Inside this box, there's a mouse
that he's caught in a trap.
387
00:27:48,041 --> 00:27:52,000
It's in bad shape, the tail's
clipped off, leg barely attached.
388
00:27:52,083 --> 00:27:56,250
It's suffering.
And the boy hands me this box,
389
00:27:56,333 --> 00:27:58,250
and he asks me, you know,
390
00:27:59,083 --> 00:28:01,833
if God will resurrect it
like he resurrected Jesus.
391
00:28:02,750 --> 00:28:05,333
If he could do that, then he can do this.
392
00:28:05,416 --> 00:28:09,291
So I take this box, and we pray over it,
393
00:28:09,833 --> 00:28:13,458
and I send the boy home
and tell him to come back in three days.
394
00:28:13,541 --> 00:28:16,291
So three days pass,
the boy returns, and…
395
00:28:16,375 --> 00:28:17,958
And it was better.
396
00:28:18,041 --> 00:28:20,875
Yeah. It was runnin' around
that little box as right as rain.
397
00:28:20,958 --> 00:28:25,666
And I help the boy let the mouse go
behind the church before mass.
398
00:28:25,750 --> 00:28:26,750
He's amazed.
399
00:28:27,583 --> 00:28:29,791
His belief is confirmed. He believes.
400
00:28:30,666 --> 00:28:34,541
This moment, it sustained him for what?
401
00:28:35,916 --> 00:28:37,875
Almost a decade?
402
00:28:37,958 --> 00:28:40,208
Faith enough for almost a decade
off that one little mouse?
403
00:28:40,291 --> 00:28:41,875
That wasn't an act of God.
404
00:28:42,625 --> 00:28:43,708
Wasn't it?
405
00:28:44,291 --> 00:28:46,000
True, I had to
put the mouse out of its misery
406
00:28:46,083 --> 00:28:48,375
and true, it took me almost three days
407
00:28:48,458 --> 00:28:50,250
to find another mouse
that looked just like it,
408
00:28:50,333 --> 00:28:54,041
but what it gave this boy,
you think that wasn't an act of God?
409
00:28:54,125 --> 00:28:57,416
That because he's acting through us
at times, he isn't acting at all?
410
00:28:57,500 --> 00:28:58,875
How do you know that story?
411
00:29:01,041 --> 00:29:01,958
Who are you?
412
00:29:04,125 --> 00:29:05,375
You know who I am.
413
00:29:07,500 --> 00:29:08,791
Come on.
414
00:29:09,916 --> 00:29:10,958
Really look.
415
00:29:12,375 --> 00:29:14,708
Listen to yourself, you know who I am.
416
00:29:16,375 --> 00:29:18,541
Really? You need to see
the marks on my hands?
417
00:29:18,625 --> 00:29:21,333
-Put your hands into my side--
-That's not possible.
418
00:29:21,416 --> 00:29:23,083
Come on, we're past that now.
419
00:29:23,166 --> 00:29:25,666
"He said to Thomas,
'Put your fingers here,
420
00:29:25,750 --> 00:29:28,166
see my hands, reach out your hand,
put them into my side.'"
421
00:29:28,250 --> 00:29:31,708
-We're past that now. You're past that.
-Okay, then.
422
00:29:33,958 --> 00:29:34,833
Then how?
423
00:29:35,833 --> 00:29:39,416
Well, same as you, basically.
424
00:29:39,500 --> 00:29:43,416
You've been taken back as well,
taken back to your best self.
425
00:29:44,375 --> 00:29:47,583
Your peak self,
your perfect self as God wanted you.
426
00:29:47,666 --> 00:29:50,333
[chuckling] I just had a lot further
to go than you did.
427
00:29:50,416 --> 00:29:52,166
It was a lot further to go.
428
00:29:52,750 --> 00:29:54,375
Hey, why did you come back here?
429
00:29:56,041 --> 00:29:57,000
Last night.
430
00:29:58,125 --> 00:30:00,750
I've been wondering that
for most of… most of today.
431
00:30:00,833 --> 00:30:03,083
I've known you your whole life,
432
00:30:03,166 --> 00:30:06,541
never once have you
just shown up in the night,
433
00:30:06,625 --> 00:30:10,000
and then last night
at that specific moment, why?
434
00:30:10,916 --> 00:30:14,041
-Did you feel a calling? Vocation?
-[scoffs]
435
00:30:16,083 --> 00:30:17,708
Joe Collie's sister.
436
00:30:22,375 --> 00:30:25,791
I lied to you about that. I apologize.
437
00:30:27,125 --> 00:30:30,125
And I ask you
for your forgiveness for that lie.
438
00:30:32,625 --> 00:30:33,958
That's why you came back.
439
00:30:37,416 --> 00:30:40,958
Complete and total honesty.
That's my vow to you today.
440
00:30:41,041 --> 00:30:44,916
So, okay, Joe was suffering,
and he was suffering for no reason.
441
00:30:45,541 --> 00:30:49,833
The accident, then what the community
put him through, he was beyond repair--
442
00:30:49,916 --> 00:30:50,750
Says who?
443
00:30:50,833 --> 00:30:54,375
Well, it's a cliché to say that the Lord
works in mysterious ways, but he does.
444
00:30:54,458 --> 00:30:58,291
I can testify to that,
and, well, he worked through me.
445
00:30:58,375 --> 00:31:00,666
And Joe Collie was called home.
446
00:31:00,750 --> 00:31:02,583
-You killed him.
-It's not as simple as that.
447
00:31:02,666 --> 00:31:05,500
No. You fucking killed him.
You, and that thing.
448
00:31:05,583 --> 00:31:08,291
It cannot be changed.
It's done and cannot be undone,
449
00:31:08,375 --> 00:31:10,583
just like what's happened to you
cannot be undone.
450
00:31:11,166 --> 00:31:13,375
These are two things
that cannot be changed,
451
00:31:13,458 --> 00:31:16,791
and we must accept them
with serenity together right now.
452
00:31:16,875 --> 00:31:18,500
-What happened to me?!
-Riley--
453
00:31:18,583 --> 00:31:20,375
-What was that fucking thing?
-You have to calm down.
454
00:31:20,458 --> 00:31:23,666
-What the fuck was that thing?!
-An angel.
455
00:31:24,875 --> 00:31:25,916
[door opens]
456
00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:29,166
-Oh, good. He's up.
-[Father Paul] Little worse for wear.
457
00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:32,750
Well, you weren't exactly pink
in the cheeks yourself, Monsignor.
458
00:31:32,833 --> 00:31:34,000
Not at first.
459
00:31:34,625 --> 00:31:37,250
Uh, I just wanted to see
if everything was going to plan,
460
00:31:37,333 --> 00:31:38,875
and if you wanted Sturge to clean up--
461
00:31:38,958 --> 00:31:41,583
No, not yet.
We're still in the weeds of it. But…
462
00:31:43,250 --> 00:31:46,791
Uh, I'm glad you're here, Beverly.
Right when you're needed, God bless.
463
00:31:47,916 --> 00:31:51,291
Come over here. Please stand here. Stand…
464
00:31:51,375 --> 00:31:52,666
Stand right here.
465
00:31:53,291 --> 00:31:55,208
-Are you sure?
-[Father Paul] Yeah.
466
00:31:56,791 --> 00:31:57,958
Good and close.
467
00:31:59,083 --> 00:32:02,083
-Are you certain that's a good idea?
-Yeah. I'll stop him.
468
00:32:02,166 --> 00:32:04,333
-Stop me?
-All right then.
469
00:32:05,375 --> 00:32:08,125
-[Riley] Stop me from what?
-[Father Paul] Yeah. Okay.
470
00:32:08,208 --> 00:32:10,500
Look, just… Let me go.
I just wanna go home.
471
00:32:10,583 --> 00:32:13,875
-I just wanna fucking… go home.
-[Father Paul shushes]
472
00:32:13,958 --> 00:32:15,333
[heart beating faintly]
473
00:32:16,208 --> 00:32:17,583
[Father Paul] Right there, that's…
474
00:32:18,333 --> 00:32:19,583
You feel that, right?
475
00:32:20,500 --> 00:32:23,541
There it is. All right, a little closer.
476
00:32:24,875 --> 00:32:25,875
[heart beating louder]
477
00:32:25,958 --> 00:32:26,875
[Father Paul] Yeah.
478
00:32:28,375 --> 00:32:32,375
Mmm-hmm. Yeah.
Just a little bit closer. Don't worry.
479
00:32:32,916 --> 00:32:34,916
-[Riley] What the--
-It's okay. I got him.
480
00:32:36,875 --> 00:32:37,750
Okay.
481
00:32:37,833 --> 00:32:39,000
[heart beating loudly]
482
00:32:42,333 --> 00:32:43,250
[Father Paul] You feel that?
483
00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:46,916
Yeah.
484
00:32:51,250 --> 00:32:53,250
[Riley grunts]
485
00:32:54,083 --> 00:32:55,125
[Father Paul] That's all right.
486
00:32:55,208 --> 00:32:57,750
God and Heavenly Father,
grant us the serenity
487
00:32:57,833 --> 00:33:00,750
to accept that which we cannot change.
488
00:33:00,833 --> 00:33:02,541
-Thank you, Beverly.
-[Bev] Of course.
489
00:33:03,333 --> 00:33:05,791
Riley, I'm pleased
to see you up and around.
490
00:33:05,875 --> 00:33:06,708
[Father Paul] Okay. Yeah.
491
00:33:06,791 --> 00:33:09,250
Sturge and I will be in the rectory
when you're ready for the next part.
492
00:33:09,333 --> 00:33:11,375
Yeah, I'll draw back the curtain
when we're done.
493
00:33:12,333 --> 00:33:14,541
-[Riley grunts]
-[Father Paul shushes]
494
00:33:15,541 --> 00:33:16,500
Hey.
495
00:33:18,083 --> 00:33:19,708
It's powerful stuff, isn't it?
496
00:33:19,791 --> 00:33:20,875
[Riley groans]
497
00:33:23,791 --> 00:33:25,041
I'm sorry it hurts.
498
00:33:26,791 --> 00:33:27,666
I really am.
499
00:33:28,791 --> 00:33:31,833
But it… it will pass.
500
00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:33,875
It will pass.
501
00:33:33,958 --> 00:33:35,291
[Riley grunts]
502
00:33:37,041 --> 00:33:40,583
So, what did you feel
when she was close to you?
503
00:33:43,458 --> 00:33:45,666
I know the answer,
you don't have to pretend.
504
00:33:48,625 --> 00:33:51,875
You felt hungry. Painfully hungry.
505
00:33:53,708 --> 00:33:55,250
Saw things too.
506
00:33:55,333 --> 00:34:00,916
Saw yourself pull her closer, closer.
And everything went red, didn't it?
507
00:34:01,958 --> 00:34:04,041
Something started to change in you.
508
00:34:05,083 --> 00:34:07,625
It's almost like
you go to sleep, isn't it?
509
00:34:08,875 --> 00:34:11,833
I mean, you were aware of yourself
as you lunged at her.
510
00:34:11,916 --> 00:34:13,041
I don't know what happened.
511
00:34:13,125 --> 00:34:18,291
I do. You were aware of yourself,
but it was involuntary, wasn't it?
512
00:34:18,375 --> 00:34:22,541
It… It's as if your body
were acting under some other will. It was.
513
00:34:22,625 --> 00:34:26,083
It will again, and this is the thing.
This is where we need to listen.
514
00:34:26,166 --> 00:34:29,375
Listen to the Holy Spirit,
listen to our conscience.
515
00:34:29,958 --> 00:34:32,875
Because, you see, I was there, too.
516
00:34:32,958 --> 00:34:33,833
[hesitates]
517
00:34:34,541 --> 00:34:36,958
Well, I had been restored.
518
00:34:37,041 --> 00:34:40,791
I had been made young again.
I had been made pure again.
519
00:34:40,875 --> 00:34:44,041
And then, like Jesus before me, I died.
520
00:34:45,541 --> 00:34:50,833
I died on the floor,
just across the way there.
521
00:34:51,666 --> 00:34:55,666
And then I was resurrected,
but I was scared and confused,
522
00:34:55,750 --> 00:35:00,958
and this drive inside, this powerful will,
523
00:35:01,041 --> 00:35:04,250
and I felt the same way you did.
524
00:35:04,333 --> 00:35:07,750
My will became His will,
and He moved through me,
525
00:35:07,833 --> 00:35:12,416
and Joe was taken,
and I was sustained. I was nourished.
526
00:35:12,500 --> 00:35:15,708
-Murderer.
-Well, I suppose so, but here's the thing.
527
00:35:15,791 --> 00:35:18,500
I had no guilt. None.
528
00:35:19,125 --> 00:35:24,625
And knowing that I should feel guilt,
but accepting that I did not,
529
00:35:24,708 --> 00:35:29,541
finding grace where the guilt should be,
I wrestled with that.
530
00:35:29,625 --> 00:35:34,291
I prayed on it. But then Bev Keane,
actually, she showed me this.
531
00:35:34,375 --> 00:35:36,833
Hebrews 9:14.
532
00:35:36,916 --> 00:35:39,958
"How much more, then,
will the blood of Christ,
533
00:35:40,041 --> 00:35:43,666
who through the eternal spirit
offered himself unblemished to God,
534
00:35:43,750 --> 00:35:47,500
cleanse our consciences
from acts that lead to death
535
00:35:47,583 --> 00:35:50,708
so that we may serve the living God."
536
00:35:50,791 --> 00:35:54,250
"Cleanse our consciences
so that we may serve the living God."
537
00:35:54,333 --> 00:35:59,250
I read this passage and the graces
of the Holy Spirit rained down on me.
538
00:35:59,875 --> 00:36:01,458
He had taken that guilt.
539
00:36:01,541 --> 00:36:05,541
He cleansed my conscience,
for I had simply done His will.
540
00:36:05,625 --> 00:36:10,083
Been His vessel.
A murderer, maybe. So is Moses.
541
00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:13,500
Joseph. Paul, my namesake.
542
00:36:13,583 --> 00:36:15,708
I'm hardly unique
as a soldier of the Lord.
543
00:36:15,791 --> 00:36:21,416
I'm hardly unique in this room either.
Am I? I mean, you've killed someone.
544
00:36:26,958 --> 00:36:28,250
I don't remember it.
545
00:36:29,166 --> 00:36:31,000
You were drunk, and you don't remember.
546
00:36:31,750 --> 00:36:35,791
I was drunk. I was at a party,
it was a party, and I drank too much.
547
00:36:35,875 --> 00:36:38,500
-Yeah, come on. Don't do that.
-That's what happened.
548
00:36:38,583 --> 00:36:40,708
Well, there is meaning here.
549
00:36:40,791 --> 00:36:43,875
There is purpose here
that you are willfully ignoring.
550
00:36:43,958 --> 00:36:47,166
It was fucking ordinary what happened.
551
00:36:50,583 --> 00:36:53,875
There weren't even skid marks
on my side of the road.
552
00:36:53,958 --> 00:36:55,333
I never hit the brakes.
553
00:36:56,708 --> 00:36:57,583
[scoffs]
554
00:36:59,208 --> 00:37:01,041
I didn't even tap the brakes.
555
00:37:01,125 --> 00:37:05,416
I was literally asleep at the wheel.
That is what happened.
556
00:37:07,708 --> 00:37:12,000
So, don't talk to me about God
moving through you, or doing His will.
557
00:37:12,083 --> 00:37:15,583
You don't know a fucking thing about me.
And our stories are not the same.
558
00:37:15,666 --> 00:37:17,458
-The guilt you feel. The remorse--
-Yeah.
559
00:37:17,541 --> 00:37:19,000
-You feel that every day?
-Yes.
560
00:37:19,083 --> 00:37:20,958
-Even though you didn't mean to do it?
-Yes.
561
00:37:21,041 --> 00:37:26,250
See, I killed Joe. I watched myself do it
with my own hands, and I have no guilt.
562
00:37:26,333 --> 00:37:30,875
None. No remorse.
I have been spared all of that.
563
00:37:30,958 --> 00:37:32,916
-How does that make you feel?
-Disgusted.
564
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:34,791
-How does it make you feel?
-Angry.
565
00:37:34,875 --> 00:37:37,041
-Nope. How does that make you feel?
-Fuckin' angry.
566
00:37:37,125 --> 00:37:38,125
No!
567
00:37:39,500 --> 00:37:42,458
I promised you complete honesty
and I'm giving that to you,
568
00:37:42,541 --> 00:37:45,666
and I'm tired of you
lying to me, Riley Flynn!
569
00:37:45,750 --> 00:37:49,291
I've forgiven it time and again,
but today is critical for us,
570
00:37:49,375 --> 00:37:54,166
and I am finished! Complete honesty!
How does it make you feel?!
571
00:38:00,583 --> 00:38:01,583
Jealous.
572
00:38:03,250 --> 00:38:04,958
God and Heavenly Father,
573
00:38:05,041 --> 00:38:08,041
grant us the serenity
to accept that which we cannot change,
574
00:38:08,125 --> 00:38:11,875
and the courage
to change that which we can.
575
00:38:11,958 --> 00:38:16,583
Courage, Riley Flynn. Courage.
Let's find that now. The courage.
576
00:38:17,750 --> 00:38:19,750
To change that, which we can.
577
00:38:20,666 --> 00:38:24,875
God brought you back. Okay? For a reason.
578
00:38:25,666 --> 00:38:27,625
Your accident,
that moment of hell on Earth,
579
00:38:27,708 --> 00:38:30,458
you say it didn't do
anyone any good, but it did, didn't it?
580
00:38:30,541 --> 00:38:32,458
Because it put you here
on this island right now,
581
00:38:32,541 --> 00:38:36,333
at one of the most crucial moments
in the history of our world.
582
00:38:37,208 --> 00:38:40,208
Have some courage. God chose you.
583
00:38:42,375 --> 00:38:45,208
And that guilt that you're clinging to,
you can let it go.
584
00:38:46,833 --> 00:38:52,791
God's changed you already.
Now it's just on you to have courage.
585
00:38:53,500 --> 00:38:56,333
So let's have some courage now. Okay?
586
00:38:58,458 --> 00:38:59,500
Courage.
587
00:39:02,750 --> 00:39:03,708
[exhales sharply]
588
00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:09,000
I am sorry, by the way,
that you were frightened
589
00:39:10,000 --> 00:39:10,875
last night.
590
00:39:10,958 --> 00:39:13,833
I… I was frightened, too,
when it happened to me.
591
00:39:13,916 --> 00:39:15,541
Just about everyone,
592
00:39:15,625 --> 00:39:20,416
when they encounter an angel
in the Bible, they are frightened.
593
00:39:20,500 --> 00:39:26,000
Ah, Mary was afraid of Gabriel,
and he came to bring her great news.
594
00:39:28,541 --> 00:39:31,416
Angels always have to say,
"Be don't afraid, fear not,"
595
00:39:31,500 --> 00:39:34,833
because over and over and over again,
596
00:39:35,500 --> 00:39:37,666
people are terrified.
597
00:39:37,750 --> 00:39:41,791
Right? Moses was frightened
when he beheld the burning bush.
598
00:39:41,875 --> 00:39:44,916
Jesus was frightened of his own fate.
599
00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:48,083
He fell to his knees
in Gethsemane and prayed…
600
00:39:48,166 --> 00:39:50,250
He prayed to be spared.
601
00:39:51,083 --> 00:39:54,750
All the people at the tomb
when they rolled away the rock,
602
00:39:55,625 --> 00:39:56,666
they were all frightened.
603
00:39:56,750 --> 00:40:01,000
All of them. Miracles.
True power of the Lord.
604
00:40:02,416 --> 00:40:03,500
Scary.
605
00:40:04,500 --> 00:40:07,291
But still, I am sorry
that you were afraid.
606
00:40:08,041 --> 00:40:09,083
Did you feed?
607
00:40:11,041 --> 00:40:14,416
When that angel was ripping into my neck
608
00:40:14,500 --> 00:40:16,708
and my blood
was pouring out onto the floor.
609
00:40:16,791 --> 00:40:19,875
Did you… join in?
610
00:40:22,500 --> 00:40:24,125
Complete and total honesty, you said.
611
00:40:24,208 --> 00:40:25,083
Yes.
612
00:40:30,708 --> 00:40:34,583
How are things going in here?
I mean, I can only imagine.
613
00:40:35,458 --> 00:40:39,958
That's not exactly true.
I don't have to imagine, not all of it.
614
00:40:40,833 --> 00:40:41,666
I've seen it.
615
00:40:41,750 --> 00:40:43,916
Let me tell you, Monsignor was scared.
616
00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:50,375
We were all tested, but for some reason,
Riley Flynn, God has chosen you.
617
00:40:52,083 --> 00:40:55,833
You, to receive this blessing,
and we will not question His will.
618
00:40:55,916 --> 00:40:57,750
That's all that's important right now.
619
00:40:57,833 --> 00:41:03,041
You are being tested,
as he was, as we all were.
620
00:41:04,166 --> 00:41:05,458
And we are here for you.
621
00:41:06,333 --> 00:41:09,750
We are here for you,
for just as the body is one,
622
00:41:09,833 --> 00:41:13,083
and has many members
in all of the members of the body,
623
00:41:13,166 --> 00:41:15,958
though many are one. So is it with Christ.
624
00:41:16,666 --> 00:41:21,708
We are here to bless you.
To keep you. As is God's will.
625
00:41:21,791 --> 00:41:23,916
-God's will?
-Yeah.
626
00:41:25,875 --> 00:41:30,083
Yes. And don't mock, Riley.
627
00:41:30,750 --> 00:41:33,541
Do not mock God's will.
628
00:41:34,208 --> 00:41:36,166
We know it from His own word,
don't we, Sturge?
629
00:41:36,958 --> 00:41:38,291
[Sturge clears throat]
630
00:41:38,375 --> 00:41:43,125
"Whoever eats my flesh
and drinks my blood has eternal life."
631
00:41:46,125 --> 00:41:52,125
-And?
-And, um… And "I will…" Um…
632
00:41:52,958 --> 00:41:55,083
"I will raise them up on the last day,
633
00:41:55,166 --> 00:41:58,625
for my flesh is real food,
and my blood is real drink."
634
00:41:58,708 --> 00:42:01,625
"And whomever eats my flesh
and drinks my blood
635
00:42:01,708 --> 00:42:04,416
will remain in me and I in them."
Gospel of John.
636
00:42:04,500 --> 00:42:07,250
And it's pretty specific, isn't it?
637
00:42:08,083 --> 00:42:10,625
I mean, he's not really
mincing words, is he?
638
00:42:10,708 --> 00:42:11,583
And this?
639
00:42:12,666 --> 00:42:13,833
Is this in the Gospel?
640
00:42:14,708 --> 00:42:15,750
[Bev] Why no, dear.
641
00:42:16,750 --> 00:42:18,000
That's Revelation.
642
00:42:18,625 --> 00:42:21,333
"The fourth Angel
poured his bowl upon the sun
643
00:42:21,416 --> 00:42:24,083
and it was allowed
to scorch men with fire."
644
00:42:24,166 --> 00:42:25,541
Chapter 16, verse 8.
645
00:42:25,625 --> 00:42:29,166
That is the thing
about Jesus coming back to us.
646
00:42:29,250 --> 00:42:32,083
They told us from the start
that it wouldn't be pretty.
647
00:42:33,333 --> 00:42:35,000
Monsignor Pruitt was shaken.
648
00:42:35,916 --> 00:42:36,916
Even him.
649
00:42:37,708 --> 00:42:38,833
But it is…
650
00:42:40,041 --> 00:42:42,791
It's all right there in the book, Riley.
651
00:42:42,875 --> 00:42:45,916
The seven bowls of God's wrath
poured out on the second coming.
652
00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:47,083
The end of days.
653
00:42:47,166 --> 00:42:50,458
The fourth bowl upon the sun,
the fifth bowl, since you asked,
654
00:42:50,541 --> 00:42:54,125
the fifth bowl of God's wrath
plunges the world into darkness,
655
00:42:54,208 --> 00:42:58,583
which won't be an issue for you.
Or for Monsignor. Will it?
656
00:42:59,541 --> 00:43:04,375
Why, it is almost as if
He is preparing you for that.
657
00:43:05,625 --> 00:43:10,833
You sit there, blessed among men,
smirking when I say "God's will."
658
00:43:10,916 --> 00:43:12,666
I… [sighs]
659
00:43:15,458 --> 00:43:16,583
I'm frustrated.
660
00:43:17,666 --> 00:43:18,625
I know.
661
00:43:18,708 --> 00:43:23,333
He doesn't even recognize what he
is being given, and I find it offensive.
662
00:43:23,416 --> 00:43:24,625
It's immaterial, Bev.
663
00:43:26,125 --> 00:43:27,250
I know.
664
00:43:28,958 --> 00:43:29,958
I know, okay.
665
00:43:32,125 --> 00:43:34,250
[Father Paul] "When supper was ended,
he took the cup."
666
00:43:34,333 --> 00:43:37,208
"Again, he gave you thanks and praise."
667
00:43:37,291 --> 00:43:39,708
"Gave the cup to his disciples and said,
668
00:43:40,583 --> 00:43:43,208
'Take this, all of you,
and drink from it.'
669
00:43:43,291 --> 00:43:46,833
'This is the cup of my blood, the blood
of the new, and everlasting covenant,
670
00:43:46,916 --> 00:43:51,500
shed for you and for all
so that sins may be forgiven.'
671
00:43:51,583 --> 00:43:54,666
'Do this in remembrance of me.'"
672
00:43:54,750 --> 00:43:55,625
Amen.
673
00:44:00,166 --> 00:44:02,583
-No, no, no.
-Don't be obtuse.
674
00:44:02,666 --> 00:44:05,083
"He who drinks from the cup of the Lord
in an unworthy manner
675
00:44:05,166 --> 00:44:08,166
is guilty of sinning against the body
and the blood of the Lord,
676
00:44:08,250 --> 00:44:11,958
for those who eat and drink
without discerning the body of Christ,
677
00:44:12,041 --> 00:44:14,833
eat and drink judgment upon themselves."
678
00:44:16,250 --> 00:44:18,458
[Father Paul] It's okay, Riley.
It's gonna happen.
679
00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:21,958
This is one of those things
that cannot be changed.
680
00:44:22,541 --> 00:44:26,666
Accept it, with serenity and grace.
681
00:44:33,291 --> 00:44:34,208
Amen.
682
00:44:43,625 --> 00:44:44,750
[Father Paul sighs]
683
00:44:45,958 --> 00:44:46,916
Wisdom.
684
00:44:47,500 --> 00:44:51,833
The wisdom to know the difference
between the things we can change,
685
00:44:51,916 --> 00:44:57,041
the things we can't,
and the things we shouldn't.
686
00:44:58,291 --> 00:45:00,333
How are you feeling?
You feel better, don't you?
687
00:45:03,041 --> 00:45:05,916
Wisdom. You and I,
Riley, we're just the first.
688
00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:08,333
We know, we've seen. We've been blessed.
689
00:45:08,416 --> 00:45:12,833
But so many others
on this island right now,
690
00:45:13,375 --> 00:45:15,000
they're being blessed as well,
691
00:45:15,083 --> 00:45:17,625
but they don't even know.
They don't even know it.
692
00:45:20,041 --> 00:45:24,208
It is good, what we're doing.
What we have to do. It's good.
693
00:45:25,750 --> 00:45:29,166
Even the things we may not
think we want to do. [hesitates]
694
00:45:30,041 --> 00:45:33,041
The hunger, that thirst is good.
695
00:45:33,125 --> 00:45:36,458
And that's why we don't feel guilt
when we surrender to it.
696
00:45:36,541 --> 00:45:43,041
That's why we feel better after.
And that's why we share this gift.
697
00:45:44,333 --> 00:45:45,458
Look at what it's done already.
698
00:45:46,208 --> 00:45:49,583
Just what a little of the blood
of the angel has done for all of us.
699
00:45:49,666 --> 00:45:54,125
For your parents, for Leeza,
for you, for so many in this community,
700
00:45:54,208 --> 00:45:57,458
look at the good it has wrought.
Look on that.
701
00:45:57,541 --> 00:45:59,958
Think on that warm feeling
you have here right now.
702
00:46:00,041 --> 00:46:04,250
Think on that and just answer me this.
Do you feel at peace?
703
00:46:05,500 --> 00:46:06,750
Your stomach full?
704
00:46:07,375 --> 00:46:09,166
Your purpose clear?
705
00:46:09,250 --> 00:46:15,125
Your will given over to a higher power?
Do you feel at peace?
706
00:46:27,125 --> 00:46:28,916
Praise be. Praise be.
707
00:46:29,583 --> 00:46:30,583
"And the peace of God,
708
00:46:30,666 --> 00:46:34,833
which transcends all understanding
will guard your hearts and your minds."
709
00:46:35,583 --> 00:46:37,000
Bless you, my boy.
710
00:46:40,500 --> 00:46:41,875
You always were blessed.
711
00:46:44,125 --> 00:46:47,083
So smart. And you always listened.
712
00:46:47,166 --> 00:46:50,583
Thank you for listening today
when it's never been so important.
713
00:46:51,375 --> 00:46:52,625
[door opens]
714
00:46:54,208 --> 00:46:56,250
-I'm sorry to interrupt.
-[Father Paul] That's quite all right.
715
00:46:56,333 --> 00:46:58,875
[Bev] The sun is down.
People will start arriving soon.
716
00:46:58,958 --> 00:47:01,750
[sighs] Excellent. Well…
717
00:47:03,750 --> 00:47:05,041
I believe that's it.
718
00:47:06,208 --> 00:47:07,083
That's it?
719
00:47:07,875 --> 00:47:12,208
-[Father Paul] Yeah. That's the meeting.
-What happens now?
720
00:47:12,291 --> 00:47:14,958
-Now you can go.
-[Riley] Just like that?
721
00:47:15,041 --> 00:47:16,791
[Father Paul chuckling] Just like that.
722
00:47:18,916 --> 00:47:21,583
The wonders that
you will experience out there,
723
00:47:21,666 --> 00:47:25,166
you'll see things you never saw before.
724
00:47:25,875 --> 00:47:28,916
Colors, lights.
You'll hear things, smell things.
725
00:47:29,500 --> 00:47:32,666
The world, it burns brighter.
726
00:47:33,416 --> 00:47:38,708
It hums, Riley,
with His glory. You'll see.
727
00:47:39,291 --> 00:47:42,375
Monsignor, I thought we agreed,
he should stay inside the rec center--
728
00:47:42,458 --> 00:47:44,375
[Father Paul] It's all right, Beverly.
729
00:47:44,458 --> 00:47:47,125
Not everyone is ready
for the Lord's revelation, Riley.
730
00:47:47,708 --> 00:47:50,541
Jesus took care to show them enough,
but not too much.
731
00:47:50,625 --> 00:47:53,625
-Beverly and Sturge, Wade and Dolly--
-The mayor?
732
00:47:53,708 --> 00:47:57,708
That's right. They've been blessed
as well, chosen as well.
733
00:47:57,791 --> 00:48:00,458
They think you should be
made to stay here, but I think no.
734
00:48:00,541 --> 00:48:06,458
I think free will. That's the ball game,
wasn't it? That is the whole thing.
735
00:48:07,333 --> 00:48:08,708
I have faith in you.
736
00:48:09,541 --> 00:48:14,708
In their hearts, humans plan their course,
but the Lord establishes their steps.
737
00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:21,708
I hope you come to mass tonight.
Please, come to mass.
738
00:48:21,791 --> 00:48:23,125
Come to be with us.
739
00:48:23,208 --> 00:48:25,458
Come be with your family,
of which we all are.
740
00:48:25,541 --> 00:48:29,750
Your redemption, Riley, it's profound.
741
00:48:30,416 --> 00:48:33,458
It'd be an inspiration to all of us,
to so many in those pews
742
00:48:33,541 --> 00:48:37,083
who will struggle with the same fears
that you've struggled with.
743
00:48:37,166 --> 00:48:39,833
Are you certain
it isn't best he just stay here?
744
00:48:39,916 --> 00:48:40,958
You know now, son.
745
00:48:41,041 --> 00:48:42,750
[Bev] Maybe just for another night or two.
746
00:48:43,916 --> 00:48:46,791
You are the bearer of the good news,
and think on this.
747
00:48:47,958 --> 00:48:50,708
That hunger will return when God wills it,
748
00:48:50,791 --> 00:48:54,458
and shortly after,
you will give yourself over to it,
749
00:48:54,541 --> 00:48:57,458
to His will,
and you will hear it in your head,
750
00:48:57,541 --> 00:49:00,791
the voice of His angel,
like your own thoughts at first,
751
00:49:00,875 --> 00:49:03,875
but then louder and louder.
And he will whisper to you of God's plan.
752
00:49:03,958 --> 00:49:08,125
I hear him more clearly every day.
The more I give myself over to God,
753
00:49:08,208 --> 00:49:11,708
the more I hear the voice
of His angel and you will, too.
754
00:49:11,791 --> 00:49:13,541
That's okay, that's good.
755
00:49:13,625 --> 00:49:15,375
Know you will be moved to act
756
00:49:15,458 --> 00:49:17,875
and there will be
things you cannot change.
757
00:49:22,875 --> 00:49:25,666
But whoever you choose
to enter communion with,
758
00:49:25,750 --> 00:49:28,500
whoever serves God's purpose for you,
759
00:49:29,500 --> 00:49:31,666
as you give of yourself for them to drink,
760
00:49:32,375 --> 00:49:35,666
as they eat of your body
and drink of your blood and you of theirs,
761
00:49:36,750 --> 00:49:40,625
and you are
in the communion of saints, remember…
762
00:49:42,958 --> 00:49:44,583
that it's a gift.
763
00:49:46,791 --> 00:49:48,916
And God will tell you
who to share it with.
764
00:50:06,875 --> 00:50:11,375
I worry. I worry about that one.
He's hardly the reliable sort.
765
00:50:12,166 --> 00:50:15,125
[Father Paul] Well, God chooses
his vessels, Beverly.
766
00:50:15,208 --> 00:50:16,625
[Bev] What if he tells people?
767
00:50:16,708 --> 00:50:19,875
What of it? That's what apostles are for.
768
00:50:20,833 --> 00:50:23,791
The doors stay open
as the gates are always open.
769
00:50:25,166 --> 00:50:26,708
How else does gospel spread?
770
00:50:47,916 --> 00:50:49,375
[inaudible conversation]
771
00:51:28,333 --> 00:51:31,916
[Father Paul] What is otherwise horrible
is good because of where it's headed.
772
00:51:32,750 --> 00:51:34,875
Welcome to God's army.
773
00:51:36,125 --> 00:51:37,958
Yeah, we're gonna do great things.
774
00:51:45,625 --> 00:51:48,458
[Sarah] Mom. Mom, wait.
775
00:51:49,125 --> 00:51:51,958
What's wrong? Mom, stop.
776
00:51:53,666 --> 00:51:56,958
[Mildred] I don't want you
going back there ever again.
777
00:51:57,041 --> 00:51:58,208
[Sarah] What?
778
00:51:58,291 --> 00:52:02,666
[Mildred] That is not my church.
That is not the man I knew.
779
00:52:22,750 --> 00:52:24,250
[groans softly]
780
00:52:53,166 --> 00:52:55,166
[hearts beating]
781
00:53:27,666 --> 00:53:28,958
[Erin] That's quite a story.
782
00:53:30,666 --> 00:53:37,375
And let's just say
that any of that is true.
783
00:53:39,541 --> 00:53:40,458
[Riley] Let's.
784
00:53:44,083 --> 00:53:47,125
So, you've told me that story, you…
785
00:53:51,916 --> 00:53:53,708
brought me out here, you…
786
00:53:55,333 --> 00:54:01,916
have brought us out here
where there is nowhere for me to go.
787
00:54:07,041 --> 00:54:07,916
Because?
788
00:54:08,000 --> 00:54:09,125
[heart beating]
789
00:54:10,875 --> 00:54:13,958
I mean, you brought me out here
790
00:54:14,041 --> 00:54:17,541
where there is nowhere
for me to go, to what, exactly?
791
00:54:21,541 --> 00:54:23,208
To tell me you need help?
792
00:54:25,958 --> 00:54:26,958
To scare me?
793
00:54:28,625 --> 00:54:32,083
See, I can't believe… I can't believe
you'd want to scare me.
794
00:54:33,291 --> 00:54:34,458
I don't believe that.
795
00:54:37,166 --> 00:54:39,041
And even if you did, well…
796
00:54:41,333 --> 00:54:45,166
I've been scared much worse
by much worse, and I don't…
797
00:54:47,125 --> 00:54:49,000
I don't let that happen anymore.
798
00:54:52,791 --> 00:54:53,833
I'm not scared.
799
00:54:57,500 --> 00:54:58,416
Not of you.
800
00:55:02,250 --> 00:55:05,125
My dear, dear you.
801
00:55:06,958 --> 00:55:12,083
If you are sick or if you need help,
I'm not scared of that.
802
00:55:14,208 --> 00:55:15,541
I'd get you the help you need.
803
00:55:15,625 --> 00:55:18,833
I'd do that with you,
without judgment and without fear.
804
00:55:23,916 --> 00:55:26,375
Just tell me what you need.
805
00:55:30,041 --> 00:55:32,041
Tell me why we're out here.
806
00:55:34,791 --> 00:55:36,041
Tell me what you want.
807
00:55:40,916 --> 00:55:41,750
You weren't…
808
00:55:44,666 --> 00:55:48,041
quite right, what you said
about why I brought us out here. I didn't…
809
00:55:50,250 --> 00:55:53,000
bring you out here
to scare you or to isolate you.
810
00:56:00,291 --> 00:56:02,541
I brought you out here
so I'd have nowhere to go.
811
00:56:08,708 --> 00:56:10,041
I'm not as strong as you.
812
00:56:12,041 --> 00:56:13,125
I never was.
813
00:56:17,916 --> 00:56:18,958
[inhales]
814
00:56:26,875 --> 00:56:28,000
What do I want?
815
00:56:30,666 --> 00:56:32,958
I want you to take this boat
and row to the mainland
816
00:56:33,041 --> 00:56:35,000
and leave this place and never look back.
817
00:56:37,583 --> 00:56:39,250
But I knew you wouldn't do that.
818
00:56:41,208 --> 00:56:43,708
I knew you wouldn't believe
any of this unless you saw.
819
00:56:46,500 --> 00:56:49,375
I want you… to run.
820
00:56:51,000 --> 00:56:52,916
But I believe you're gonna row back there
821
00:56:53,000 --> 00:56:54,916
and do everything
you can to try and save them.
822
00:56:57,833 --> 00:56:59,833
I'm just so sorry you have to see this.
823
00:57:05,750 --> 00:57:07,000
I love you, Erin Greene.
824
00:57:10,375 --> 00:57:11,833
I've loved you my whole life.
825
00:57:13,041 --> 00:57:14,166
One way or another.
826
00:57:20,625 --> 00:57:21,916
I love you, too.
827
00:57:24,000 --> 00:57:25,083
I did my best.
828
00:57:30,833 --> 00:57:31,750
[sniffles]
829
00:57:35,458 --> 00:57:36,666
I did my best.
830
00:58:12,416 --> 00:58:14,125
[screams]
831
00:58:27,625 --> 00:58:28,958
[sobbing]