Paper thin
The walls are crumblin'
-You want to just walk away now? -I'm walking away.
This might be too much for me. I can't handle it right now.
But, Magan, you're just going to leave me?
You don't want to give it a chance though?
I don't want to.
I just feel like we're throwing so much at ourselves.
Yeah.
You want to stay here?
This is a commitment that you have with me.
The fact that you're, like, so willing to just back out is, like, concerning to me.
Just try to be strong.
The fact that you just are giving up now, it's like…
I can't. You committed to this. You committed to me.
You said things. You said you would do things.
I want you to try.
Time slowly seems to fade
Okay.
I love you.
I love you too.
'Cause I can't breathe Without your love
You can do it. I know you can. You're strong. Okay?
Can't breathe without your love
I can't breathe without your love
Being young Sneak out once it gets dark
Then party till we're done
Fall in love like you're the one You're the one
Just being young
Marita!
Well, hello.
Good to see you.
You too. I got this for you.
-You did? -I picked it for you. Yeah.
Two days ago, I was in a committed relationship.
Britney issued me an ultimatum, and now I'm single.
This week, I'm continuing to date ten other women to find out
which one of these ten I can see myself with in a trial marriage,
somebody that has the qualities of what I would want in a spouse.
I'm getting really deep with a lot of amazing, beautiful people here.
So far, the odds look like they're really in my favor right now.
Clearly, we are very much a match.
And clearly, like, there is a lot of intimacy there.
I feel like, do you want to hold hands now?
I think Marie is just so great.
But, oh my God, Bridget, she's gorgeous.
She makes me feel a lot of things.
-There's a lot of chemistry… -Yeah, I agree.
You want to, like, keep focusing on connecting, and that's super important.
-Super important. -That's why you'd be a great trial wife.
But Marita, she's like fire.
You know, your mom tells you don't touch the stove.
I think it's dangerous, to be honest with you.
And I think dangerous is fun.
It's unreal how quick these connections are, like,
-kind of happening. -Mm-hmm.
But you are somebody I really want to, like, dive deep. What is it?
I know.
And I want to, like, kind of seduce your mind a bit
and see what quirks you have.
Do you sing in the shower? I don't think it's a quirk, but…
-Yeah, well, I used to be a singer. So… -Really?
Yeah. That's honestly why my tattoo, "This Is the Life…"
-"This Is the Life." -Yeah.
So when I was eight years old, I sang this on stage at a thing called iPOP.
-Mm-hmm. -And this is what got me a record deal.
And this was the start to my music career.
I used to be super creative, and now I'm in sales.
Is that something you think in the back of your mind,
like, "Damn, I still wish I was doing this"?
I still do, but I feel like…
I don't know, like, I'm afraid of that.
Because when I did try in the past, there was so much hate.
You know Rebecca Black?
-Everybody hated her. -Yeah.
I'm not saying I would sing about "Friday,"
but I am saying…
I don't know, like, I was a wannabe pop star.
If the passion's there, go for it.
And I want to support you in that. Like, how can we get you back on stage?
Like, I'll hand you a mic. I'll beatbox in the back.
-Yeah. -Like, don't be scared.
There's gonna be hate from everywhere. Someone'll always hate you for something.
-Yeah. -But as long as you're secure in yourself…
-And you have that self-love, clearly. -Yeah.
I feel like I learned self-love, like, really young.
Because I don't know if you noticed, but I have scars on my chest.
And these are genetic, they're called keloids.
And my dad had them. And I used to try to hide them.
I used to wear, like, scarves.
I mean, everyone made fun of me.
And I started realizing, these are not going to go away, they're a part of me.
And I just, like, learned self-love through that,
-when I was super young. -Love that.
You still have such a great personality. You're still sexy as fuck.
Like, at the end of the day, like, that doesn't matter to me.
Yeah.
I promise you, us together would be dangerous.
We'd have a good time all the time.
I know! That's what I was thinking.
I haven't been able to say yes to a marriage,
because Ashley is not romantic to me.
But the sparks are flying with AJ.
She is a hopeless romantic.
And I think that's pretty hot. Yeah.
Go on and say Go on and say "Go"
I'm always, always keeping cold
Go on and say Go on and say so
Take a look into the unknown
Go on and say Go on and say "Go"
May your days always Keep on being warm
I'm very intrigued by our connection.
-Yeah? How so? -Yeah. For sure.
-I wasn't expecting it. -Me too. Yeah.
I'm very, like, drawn to you, and, like, attracted to you.
-Same. -Yeah.
-You gave the Ultimatum. -Mm-hmm.
And I received the Ultimatum.
You know, I had this idealism of what a perfect relationship would be.
And, like, in my head, like, you don't fight.
Any time there was a fight with Haley, I'd be like, this isn't working.
I broke up with her at the four-year mark.
I was like, "I can never bring you to my family."
You know, it would be easier if I brought home a guy.
Then I went back. I was like, I'm going to be myself.
Good.
I regret not… telling my parents sooner.
You know? It took me eight years to tell them.
And I hid that part of my life.
I lived, like, a big double life. You know, everything.
But every time I would go home, my parents would go out of their way
to, like, make me know that it wasn't okay.
And then, you know, so…
That would be so hard. I could never. I mean, I struggled to tell mine.
And I, like, knew that they would be okay. So… yeah.
Yeah? Were they super accepting? Super…
Yeah, but I had to email them.
-And I was… I didn't… -Yeah, I wrote a letter. Yeah.
I was like, "I have a girlfriend, but this doesn't mean…"
I still haven't come out to them fully.
Yeah.
-I had every intention of telling them. -Mm-hmm.
And I couldn't. I left the letter on my bed and left.
-And did you ever hear anything? -Oh yeah.
-You did. Okay. -Oh yeah. They let me know.
Yeah.
And I just want to stop.
Crying?
Yeah.
-Well, we can have fun. -Yeah.
-Sorry. -It's okay.
-I think you're really amazing for… Yeah. -Thank you.
Yeah.
All of our conversations have only made me more sure
we could really learn a lot from each other.
-Yeah. -And it's scary because
I am attracted to you.
-Yeah. -So that kind of adds another thing to it.
I'm looking for similar things to what, I'm hoping,
my ex, Bridget, she gets out of it, which is,
is this actually what I want?
Marriage with this person…
forever?
I feel like I've been playing it safe for a long time.
Where it's like, I'm now ready to not play it safe,
because that's not why we're here.
Don't step into a silence
I really like the connection that I have with Pilar.
She seems really smart, but also, like, very fun.
I just like her energy.
But it feels really confusing, honestly.
It's just a lot.
To be in some sort of strange
love triangle with my ex…
I'm trying to figure out what would be the best choice for me.
Do you feel weird that you feel friendly with my ex
if you were to choose me?
Full transparency, like, you and Bridget
-are, like, at the top for me. -Mm.
And I'm feeling really torn
-being in between you guys. -Mm-hmm.
Having a strong connection with both of you,
I'm like, "Oh God, this is weird."
Wow.
I'm so confused. What is going on?
I'll see you later.
We're rising up
My ex has been my first and only ever girlfriend.
But now I'm in this, like, love triangle.
Kyle and I are so opposite,
but then with Bridget, we are so similar on so many things.
I just don't know who's more a fit for me.
It screws with your head.
Red Bull.
-I used to work for Red Bull. -Really?
-I was a Red Bull girl. -You were?
The girls that had a thing… Like, went around campus?
A "Wings Team" member. That's what it's called.
-Okay. -Yeah.
So I'm stuck between you and Kyle.
Okay. That was my, like, main question.
Coming in here, I really wanted Kyle to be with somebody similar to me,
because I want the security to know that Kyle is choosing me because of me.
But it's like, selfishly, I love spending time with you.
-Because we obviously get on really well. -Yeah.
And would just, like, have a lot of similar interests…
-Right. -…and tons of fun together.
I feel like marriage isn't something that I'm completely closed off to.
I definitely want to be with somebody in a marriage that I admire,
and that has qualities that I don't have.
As much as values should be aligned…
-Yeah. -…it's okay if some of them are different.
I think I need a balance of my best friend and also still feeling giddy.
-Someone who makes me excited. -Yeah, exactly.
If it's two best friends, you're roommates.
-Exactly. -Then it's…
It's easy to fall into that, especially in queer relationships.
Totally. Have you ever been with someone really similar to yourself?
I don't think so.
-I'm the same way. -Yeah.
Everyone I've been with has been slightly more neurotic than I am.
Like, a little bit more routine.
I've been told that my head can be, like, stuck in the clouds.
That I'm, like, curious of, like, well, what is it like
to be with someone who's just like me?
So I go back and forth too. I totally understand.
It'd be more like looking in a mirror
-and trying to see my own… struggles. -Yes.
Yeah. And I feel like that's my personality.
To just, like, fully dive in and to see if I can have
an emotionally deep… connection with someone else.
-Yeah. -And then almost forget everything.
-Do you feel like that's a possibility? -I'm not closed off to it.
Baby, tell me that you need me
I think Pilar is someone who would be
a fantastic trial wife.
She is really caring. She's authentic.
And we have a lot of similar interests.
-Bridget. -Hi, AJ. How are you?
Good.
-What's going on? -You look good.
But with AJ, the, like, chemistry is more of, like, a romantic vibe.
There's something about you, in general, that I'm just, like… drawn to.
-Thanks. You too. -And…
It's you I seek
I feel like I'm too far from you.
I have to figure a lot of things out.
This is someone I'll be living with and in a marriage together.
It's a really big decision.
It's coming down to the wire. I don't know what I'll do.
-I love fragrance and smells and scents. -Interesting. Okay.
-And I'm, like, really big on, like… -I've been trying different ones.
To figure out what I like.
When I smell them, I'm like, "Ooh, I like that one."
-Really? I combine some stuff sometimes. -Yeah.
I don't know what I'm doing.
If I feel like you smell good to me,
-that's like, "Yeah. That's her smell." -Yeah.
So, like, you telling me, like, "Hey, babe, you smell so good."
I don't know what it is, that turns me on.
-Like, I think that's, like, a… -Okay.
No, I'm big on smell.
Yeah.
What do you… Do you sleep naked? Clothed?
I like to sleep usually in, like, boxers and a t-shirt.
-Same. -Okay.
Yeah. What are your turn-ons?
-What are your turn-offs? -Yeah, I mean,
feeling my partner's eyes across the room.
-You know? And just knowing. -Yeah.
I like those little looks.
Someone who wants to try new things. I like that. You know?
-I think it keeps things alive. -Good.
How often do you like to have sex?
Obviously, if it's something new, then it's a lot.
But sometimes it can dwindle to, like, once to twice a week.
-Yeah, I think that's normal. -Thank God.
I, like… ideally, every day would be great, but, like…
-I'm totally happy with, like, less. -Bridget!
Every day?
Oh my God.
It's important to be able to talk around sex and not feel awkward.
-Yeah. -Or… like, shy about it.
I definitely didn't grow up that way. My parents didn't talk to me about that.
-I don't know about yours. -My parents definitely did.
My mom is that type of person… She'll ask some weird, hard questions.
Oh… Oh boy.
Yeah, like, "When you eat my daughter's pussy, does she enjoy it?"
"Do you make her cum?"
-"That's important." -She would not ask that.
I swear to God, she would.
I feel like we're vibing.
I'm gonna be honest with you. Like, you're a strong contender for me.
-Like, the one person that… -You are too. You make me a bit nervous.
Why?
I think, like, we've had a lot of intense…
-Moments? Yeah. -Yeah.
You were issued the Ultimatum.
Do you feel like you could get to a place, through this experience,
that would make you ready to get married?
I think with the right person.
I've been making, like, a lot of great bonds here,
including… especially you.
When I wake up I get a feeling
I got that love Livin' deep inside of me
I've got that love, woo
Livin' by my own rules
Tomorrow's The Choice.
-I am freaking out. -Ahh!
But you're an Ultimatum-giver.
I know. And you're an Ultimatum-getter.
Yeah.
I gave AJ an ultimatum because I'm so sure
of what I want out of this life.
And Mel's the type of person that makes me feel like she understands my value
and my worth, especially because she is an entrepreneur,
and she understands how demanding our career is.
That's where I do have a few issues with my ex.
Marriage is scary.
So remind me why you're hesitant to marry Marie?
I want to touch… We talked about that…
-"I want to bring that up again." -I just want to, like, yeah, let's just…
I know I have these fears
about, like, all the things that marriage entails, right?
For sickness, for health, for richer, for poorer.
What if I got sick on her and, like, left her before she left me?
I mean, anyone can get sick. And even if that happened, then…
You'll figure it out, I guess.
Ugh, this is a whole deep thing that I don't know if I want to get into.
When I was born, I almost died.
And so, with that, I face a lot of health issues today
that I know you may not be able to tell because I'm very much under control,
but I deal with chronic pain.
Sometimes I wake up and I'm in so much pain that I don't even want to get up.
And it's things that are out of my control and can't be cured.
So it's, like, the older I get, what does that look like?
Do I want to bring a partner with me?
I cannot live as long as them.
-Ah! Sorry. I'm trying to soak it all in. -I know. I'm sorry. That was a bomb.
-No. -I haven't told anybody that here.
I feel honored that you felt comfortable to share that with me,
and I feel like that helps put things in perspective. Um…
But just know, like, you are worthy of love.
You're worthy of marriage.
And you shouldn't feel afraid to, like, make that ultimate commitment
just because you feel like you'd have… medical issues that could flare up.
I feel like I offer something different than…
your exes.
-And I feel like… -Okay, confidence. Who's confident now?
Maybe I just bring it out of you. That's it.
Hmm. That could be it too.
Thought I knew love before
It's human nature. I'm always going to think about my ex.
But today's our last day to figure out who we want to potentially be married to.
Britney checked all the boxes, but then Dayna's definitely a little spicy.
I think we would challenge each other for sure.
So, I don't know which I want right now.
I feel like we have a tension between us.
Like sexual tension?
Um, okay. We'll start with this. Are you a top or are you a bottom?
-I'm not a top or a bottom. Yeah. -You're verse.
-Okay. -Whatever I'm in the mood for.
The only reason I asked is because your nails suggest you may be a bottom.
So, the funny thing is I literally haven't had nails for, probably,
I don't know, like, two years.
And my ex talked me into getting them.
-So I wouldn't-- I know, right? -Sabotage your ass.
-Yeah. -Yeah.
You don't struggle with the fact that you're an Ultimatum-giver
and I'm a receiver? At all?
No. Because I think that you want to be married.
What makes you think that?
Because you want the same things that I want.
-You do want security. -I do.
You do want to feel like someone's gonna choose you every time,
no matter what, always.
Most people would probably be into it with the right person.
You don't feel like you lose independence once you're married?
No.
I'm big on independence. I don't want to feel like your mom.
I don't want to feel like you're going to fall apart
-if I'm not there. -Without you.
And it's really hard because sometimes I feel like
my ex wouldn't be okay without, like, me.
-You need to be selfish a little bit. -I'm trying.
-That's what I'm trying to do. -You need to think about you.
You're just so far from my ex. I don't know.
-You're not learning from your ex. -I know, that's the thing. You're right.
You are going to really challenge me.
And honestly, I don't get challenged a lot.
I feel like we're going to laugh a lot.
We are going to laugh a lot, and then we're going to, like, wrestle.
There's fire in me
-Hey. How are you? -Hello.
-Good. How are you? -Good.
I'm really nervous dating as a single woman again.
I feel very resistant to the process.
Dayna seems more open to this process than me.
I wanted to leave,
but she was encouraging me to just give it a chance.
I have my walls up.
I'm just waiting for something to open me up.
It scares me that I've been given the Ultimatum.
I am worried about losing Dayna.
If I do have moments of jealousy, I tend to, like, spiral.
I feel the feelings. I do definitely feel the feelings.
The first date that we had, I was so freaking nervous.
-Yeah. -Like, I had a really hard time letting go
-Mm-hmm. -…and just being present.
-Way less nervous today, thankfully. Yeah. -Yeah.
-Still nervous, but… -Yeah, me too.
But I feel like if you were completely not nervous,
that would be a little bit weird too.
-You know, like, do you do this often? -I do this all the time. Yeah.
I'm a serial dater for the last ten years.
In high school and college, I didn't have a ton of big dating experience.
I was always the single person. Always like, "I'm going to do my own thing."
-I feel the same exact way. Like to a T. -Yeah?
-Yeah. -I was a late bloomer,
and I think part of it was coming to terms
with who I like and what I like to wear and stuff.
When I was in high school, there weren't a lot of gay people.
-None. -So it was… Yeah.
How I would dress up was, like,
-athletic wear. -Mm-hmm.
What do you do for work?
-So, I'm a personal trainer. -Oh, cool.
And I'm going to take the MCAT and then see where I'm at.
-Ooh. Good for you. That's awesome. -I know.
-How about you? -Uh…
I work as a food scientist.
-Oh wow. -So I do food product development.
I've done a lot of protein bars.
So, yeah, I go to the grocery stores, and I'm like, "I made that."
-Wow. That is freaking sweet. -It's cool. Yeah. I really like it.
Two of the food-nerd things that I needed to bring with me as I was packing my bag…
I need my food scale, and I need my meat thermometer.
Damn.
I think the majority of my life, I'm very go with the flow,
but there are some things that I'm just like, I want done a certain way.
I'm, like, the same way.
Okay.
-Big question. -Okay.
Do you want kids?
So, I do want kids.
For me, I think at least two.
-Yeah. -How about you?
I feel like we have found a difference.
-Oh, okay. Ooh. -I do not want kids.
The thought of birthing a child is so scary to me.
I'm already, like, an anxious, nervous person that I couldn't imagine
if I had nine months to think about…
-Damn. -…the fact that I was going to have to…
I'll do it.
That might sweeten the deal.
Like, that's one of my biggest concerns.
By the way, this, like, exceeded my expectation by, like, a million.
-Totally. -I'm so much having fun.
Me too.
I think I can help you with a lot of things.
-Yeah. -I think you can help me with a lot.
Definitely. One thing that matters a lot to me
is that my partner and I have a very united front.
Even if I think you're a little bit wrong, you'll always have me on your side.
I love that. Amen.
That's exactly how I feel. Same.
It's… But it's true!
Uh-huh
Yeah
I've been looking all week for this I've been looking for this
So, tonight for the cocktail party, I will be stepping out in this.
I can wear these all day. I feel like I'm wearing slippers.
Yeah, I'm feeling so hot, hot
One of my creams, it kind of burns a little bit.
Like the kid from Home Alone.
It burns.
Can't stop the heat right now
Can't stop the beat right now
We got the cologne. Men only.
One, two, three, four, five, six. You're ready for anything.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
We are arriving
-Hi. -Hello.
Hi, guys.
Hi!
Who is this stunning angel who just walked in?
For real! Who is she?
Oh my God. Is it me?
-Hello. Hi. I am good. How are you? -How are you, baby?
I love the shirt.
-I love this. -Thank you.
I love your whole fit. It's sick.
How are you?
It's the silk for me.
-You like it? Thank you. -She's a silky daddy.
Are you guys nervous for The Choice?
Yes. Who have your dates been with?
Mine have been with Kyle and Bridget.
Ooh.
That's interesting.
I know. I don't know how it happened this way,
but here I am right in the middle.
Lesbians, you know?
-Cheers, queers. -Yeah.
Cheers.
-How are you? -I'm good. How are you feeling?
Ah, you know.
Overwhelmed?
Yeah.
Damn.
I came in here very concerned for my ex, and I wanted them to miss me.
But the grass is only green where you water it.
Exactly. That's beautiful.
And I'm like a very big people pleaser,
and I need to back out of that very quickly,
because that won't get me anywhere.
And where did that get me? Here.
Mm-hmm.
This entire time with you, I've always felt so comfortable.
-Putting all physical stuff aside, like… -Right.
There's definitely something you can offer me,
and I feel like there's something I can offer you.
And whatever the capacity that is, it's something I would hope to explore.
With you, it's just different. I can really just be just AJ.
I'm Caribbean, so we do Carnival. I don't know if--
Yeah. I've heard of. I've never been.
Yeah, it's amazing.
You wear pretty much nothing, and I won the twerk contest.
-No! Damn, I'm jealous. -Mmm.
I'm so jealous that I missed it.
-'Cause I would've went. -Yeah. It was crazy.
And I made like $100 with people putting money in my bikini.
-We could just replay it. -Reenact?
"This is what happened. I'mma show you."
I can totally imagine a life with you.
I can see it. It's not far, and it's not like…
A dream.
Right, because it could happen.
We have conversations all the time that literally, like…
-Spiral and go everywhere? -…can go anywhere.
And we lose track of time, and I think that's such a wonderful thing.
That really scares me, that…
-That is a possibility. -Yeah.
To be vulnerable in that aspect, because I haven't with my ex.
But it's like, we're there.
AJ is my top choice.
I feel we have this connection.
AJ makes me feel very desired,
and that's just a feeling that I haven't really felt in a while.
No matter what happens, you have me for life.
Because I can't lose someone like you.
Are there any other conversations
you want or need to have tonight with anybody else?
Not necessarily. I'm tired of stressing, though.
I know. I feel better sitting with you.
-If that means anything. -Me too.
Yeah.
I feel a lot better already.
-Get another drink? -Yeah.
All right, cool. Come on. Let's go.
-You okay? -Yeah. I'm okay.
-Yeah, I'm good. -Okay.
You smell nice.
Thanks, Mama.
Okay. You look so much better.
I do. I feel better, actually.
Yeah? Okay. I'm going to leave you alone, because I feel like I should.
-Okay. -But I love you.
Wow.
Let's talk real quick.
Come. Come, come. Come, come.
Let's start with, we've been here for hours.
How can you not talk to me?
When we're in these settings,
you definitely behave differently than when we're alone.
You act like you don't know me.
I've been wanting to talk to you. It's just…
I want to believe you, but I need to see you work for me.
I still haven't seen it.
-That freaks me out a bit. -I get it.
-I don't know if it's 'cause of Britney… -Has nothing to do with her.
-You piss me off. Like… -I don't mean it. I apologize.
I feel like whenever I see you with Britney,
it really seems like you guys are very into it.
Seeing you guys together makes me think that it's more than you lead on.
You give me, like, trust issues. And I don't know what to do with it.
This isn't intentional.
-I feel like you're playing games. -It's not that.
How do I know that, though?
That's just something that you need to decide for yourself.
I'm here now, and I'm telling you what it is.
-I swear to God. -Tell me.
Don't waste my time.
Bro…
I will run your food truck into the river.
Okay…
You good?
How do you feel… about Mel?
I don't know. It seems off.
Me too.
I just get nervous.
About?
Like her and Dayna.
Okay. What makes you nervous?
I just don't think she has good intentions.
The way that she carries herself is, like, she's just so quick to, like,
hold someone's hand or put their arm around them.
I just don't like to see, like, how close they look together.
I don't like to see that. It rubs me the wrong way.
It's not easy.
Because I saw it with Britney earlier, to be honest with you.
And I was just kind of like, you know…
-Mm-hmm. -…this bitch in me had to pull back
and be like, "AJ, you ain't gotta snatch nobody tonight, it's fine."
Exactly. Mel, being that kind of person, she would, like, initiate physical stuff.
And, personally, I don't know if I can come back
if they did something physical.
-Mm. -I know, like, what we signed up for,
but that's just, like, where my mind's at.
That'd be hard.
And it's just, like, the fact that, you know, she's with my ex.
Or might be with my ex.
-Yeah, concerns. -Yeah.
-I'm so sorry. -Yeah, no, it's good.
Like…
Try. I know it's hard.
Try to not let your emotions get the best,
because you're making connections too.
Yeah.
Do you want to go talk?
You smell really good.
Thank you. Thank you. It's this new scent that I have.
-I just don't wear it often. -It's good.
So tomorrow is The Choice.
How'd your other dates go?
I realized, like, how good I felt like the date went with us.
-Yes! -I feel like we're, like, on a vibe.
I realized, as I was leaving,
I wanted to be like, "I hope your dates suck."
I'm glad I didn't say that
because I don't hope your dates suck.
I just hope that they're not as good as this one.
-It could not have gone better. -I agree.
I'm just scared of, like, the non-genuine stuff from people.
It's because you're probably very loyal.
That's how I feel.
That's where I feel like I've really connected with you on that.
I'm like, there are so many different things to get out of this experience.
I see us making a lot of growth in that way
without having to muddy any other boundaries.
-I agree. -And no expectation in any other way.
After one date, I was like,
-yeah, like, I can see this. -Me too.
-I love that. -Yeah, we're doing it.
Good.
I think my connection with Haley is evolving and growing.
She's so different than Dayna.
We have a lot in common, and we have a lot that we can help each other with.
There's so much that she understands about me.
Haley would be a fantastic trial marriage partner.
Cheers.
How are you feeling after today?
I'm feeling… good.
I had so much fun talking to you, and you're so cute.
I was excited and nervous to talk to you.
You've, like, surprised me a lot.
I feel like we connect on, like, on a soul level too.
Where I can see us being complementary,
but, like, also, like, very individual.
Yeah, you make me, like, excited. It's, like, fun.
Yeah, yeah.
-I love your outfit. -Oh my God, thank you.
-It's so sparkly. -You look great too.
-Thank you. -I love these dresses.
Do you feel weird being so close to your ex?
-Or do you want to… Okay, all right. -No.
-Ah! Okay. -How are you feeling?
I'm okay. How are you?
Yeah. My head's all over the place.
I thought I'd be more decided by this point.
And I'm just like, "What am I doing?"
-I know. -I don't know how I'm gonna decide.
I feel that. I feel like I'm, like, actually feeling feelings.
Okay.
There's someone here that, like, I have chemistry with.
Okay.
I think it would be really intense,
and I don't know about…
-Like, controlling myself. -Okay.
If I went into a trial marriage with this person--
-You would end up exploring intimacy? -Yeah.
Intimacy, like, emotion.
Like, I just didn't expect someone to… to be exactly what I'm looking for.
Okay. You don't have to name names,
but I'm also all ears, if you want.
I've been, like, dating AJ.
Marita seems to feel there was this deep emotional
and physical connection with AJ,
and I'm like, how many people is AJ having this with?
Because I've been going on a lot of dates with AJ…
It's pretty crazy.
And I've kept getting this validation of, like, "You're at the top of my list."
And I was feeling the same thing.
Now I feel really anxious about tomorrow.
Like, I don't, at this point, know if anybody's gonna choose me tomorrow.
-Do you want to talk? -We can. Yeah. Let's go.
Where do you want to go?
Do you want to stand?
Sure. I know. I feel like I've been sitting for hours, so…
I wanted to talk to you again
because I felt like we only had that one opportunity.
-I know. -With you, I was like,
it was like a happy surprise.
I don't know, there was just something about you that I kept picking up on.
Keep leaving our conversations wanting to, like--
-Talk more? -Yeah.
What do you want to get out of your trial marriage?
I'm, like, trying to find someone I'll get, like, the most out of it.
-Yeah. -For myself.
I don't know, I want someone that is accepting
of how I process things emotionally.
Like, I'm a big baby sometimes.
I just want to, like, lay on you.
-I love cuddling and stuff, so… -Me too.
It's just the best.
I don't know how you're feeling about The Choice,
but you're still open to me?
-Yeah. I'm still open to everybody. -Okay. Me too.
-I don't know. -Yeah, I know. I'm like… I can't gage.
-I don't know what anyone's thinking. -Yeah, you just ask me straight up.
-I'll tell you. I'm an honest lady. -Yeah, okay. Thanks. Me too.
Yeah.
Bridget kind of came out of left field for me.
I really appreciate the effort she's making into getting to know me
and wants to keep talking to me and ask me questions.
But I'm the one who came here issuing Marita the Ultimatum.
And I can see that Marita and AJ, like, have a connection.
So, I don't know. I have a really bad, like, gut feeling that it's just… Ugh.
I knew for a fact I did want to talk to you today,
so I'm happy you actually pulled me first.
I was just eager.
I don't know what's going on up there.
I don't think you want to know.
Oh my God.
So, how are you feeling about The Choice?
I think having a trial marriage with you would be bananas.
Ahh…
This is so weird.
It's so weird.
It is interesting to see how everyone acts when their ex is watching.
I'm getting closer.
Yeah, that's fine. 'Cause I'll get there too.
-Okay. -Um…
I think that together,
I think that we can bring some type of harmony to each other's life
where you show me what life's about, and I'll show you what love's about.
It's like some "take over the world" type shit, you know?
Yeah. I actually love that.
Like, I don't know. With you, it's different.
What do you feel with me?
-A lot. -A lot?
Does that scare you?
Yeah. Because it's, in a way, dangerous.
Like, I want to touch you right now, but I don't know if I can or should.
Well, okay, but, why not?
Because our exes are here.
But they're exes, right?
Yeah.
Our exes have brought us here.
-Yeah. -They knew the risk.
I know, but it's scary.
-Well, hello. -Hello.
-Am I interrupting? Should I go away? -No.
So, not to put you on the spot, but how are you feeling between us?
Just kidding.
-I'm just kidding. -You're so funny.
Let's make it awkward.
I think it's interesting that Pilar is torn
between myself and my ex, Kyle.
I've been on dates with Pilar, and we just get along really well.
But then, I also was going on dates with AJ,
and it seems like she's seriously dating several people.
So, I don't know how to feel about it right now.
I am very confused.
Do you want to talk?
In our little threesome?
-You guys can separate. -No hard feelings. No, yeah.
Sure.
Goodbye, Kyle. Enjoy your alone time.
How are you feeling?
I'm feeling weird.
Yeah? What happened?
Literally, what's going on right over your shoulder
makes me feel like I don't know what was a performance or what's real.
So…
-Did you know my finger's broken? -No.
-Was your dates today with AJ and me? -Yeah.
-Aw. -It's curved.
-It's curved? -Which works.
Yeah, I guess in some settings.
You did tell me you're good at using fingers.
-Uh-huh. -Uh-huh.
I've been saying this since day… day two.
-About the person we're talking about? -Yeah.
That's now, like, three people I know of
that have had like all of this intense chemistry with AJ.
We would have too much fun.
I feel like I would turn your world upside down.
Yeah. No, I know.
And that's scary.
-Mm-hmm. -Mm-hmm.
I mean, she literally told me,
"My fear with you is that I would get real feelings and that scares me."
And I'm like, how many people are you saying this to?
No, it's with everyone.
What are your intentions here? You're not here to do the work.
You're just here to fuck around. Then why are you here?
-Ugh! I feel like I wasted so much time. -I'm sorry.
Like, that sucks. She kind of took from your experience.
Yeah.
-You gonna to address that? -Yeah, I am.
Fuck yeah.
I don't have any problem with confrontation.
I love that. So hot.
Gotta do what feels right
Going into The Choice tonight
and thinking about three people in the number one spot,
I feel like I'm DMX. I can go down the list of women.
Three, two, one Here it comes
Britney has issued me an ultimatum.
And I love this woman to death.
But at the same time, her making this ultimatum towards me comes with risk.
I'm digging everybody, to be honest with you,
so I could fall in love with someone else. Yeah, I do think it's possible.
Absolutely.
No fear I got a good, good feeling
I can't say yes to a marriage right now
until I know that, like, the person I do marry
is going to show me that romantic side of them.
And I think what's really been hard for me is I've wanted Ashley to be that person,
but it's just not in her nature.
With AJ, when we're together, it feels like there's nobody else here.
She's exactly what I'm looking for.
So I'm really excited. I am ready to choose my happiness.
There is so many love triangles.
Britney and Mel and Dayna.
And AJ and Marie and Marita.
And then me.
I'm in deep with Kyle and Bridget.
They both have qualities in a wife that I want.
Haley gave me an ultimatum after being together for ten years.
And there's so much on the line.
This decision is the second most important decision
aside from getting married.
Ready or not Got a good feeling
Oh, it's so good to see you all.
Oh!
I thought about you a lot.
Did you have a good week?
Yes.
Wow, okay. Did I miss a lot?
A little bit.
You came here as six couples.
One of you was ready to be married, and the other was not.
You chose to accept an ultimatum and you ended your previous relationships.
Did you come here with the person
you'll spend the rest of your life with?
Or… is there someone else who may be a better fit?
You're about to choose your new partner.
Someone that you can build a relationship with.
Someone that you can truly see yourself marrying.
And tonight, if you choose someone who also chooses you,
you will move in together in a trial marriage.
This is one of the biggest decisions that you will ever make.
It's time to make… The Choice.
Bridget, how was your week?
Can I pass?
No passing.
It's been… a somewhat rocky week for me
and has had a lot of ups and downs and a lot of uncertainty.
And I still feel a lot of uncertainty,
and that's been… obviously a little bit hard.
It's been an emotional whirlwind week, hasn't it?
-Yeah. -Yeah.
Okay, AJ…
It's your turn.
I feel like one of the people I bonded with immediately was Bridget.
Bridget, you are literally the grooviest person here.
Like, the term that I used was "the most feminine prince I've ever seen."
I instantly caught fire with you from the first date.
No matter where this goes, I feel like you have something to offer.
I'm not here to be the authenticity police,
but it was just a little bit frustrating
to spend all this time and energy in our dates,
trying to put aside that manufactured confidence
and put-on chemistry.
I just wish I could have gotten more of the real AJ.
That's surprising for me.
I was growing frustrated hearing from other people
that you were having the same conversation,
doing similar things on dates.
Some of the things that you did
to make it seem like there was a deeper connection
were things you were doing with a lot of people.
We all are compatible in some shape or form.
And if I have actual formed connections with others,
that proves the process of this.
It's not about you having other bonds.
It was more just a conversation that I had with Pilar
where we were talking about
some of the things that happened during dates.
And then we're also watching it happen in front of us with other people,
so I don't want it to be me villainizing you.
That's not how I feel.
To say out loud, "Hey, I'm hearing similar conversations."
-Everyone's having a similar conversation. -Okay, I can be, like, very frank.
Everyone who's connected with you has talked about this intensity
and this attraction and this chemistry.
And it felt like a lot of your ways of connecting were kind of physical.
And I… noticed that because I wasn't quite ready for that.
It's so weird to kind of hear you say, "Hey, I didn't feel like we got there."
Because I feel like on our third date, we got really close
and talked about deep issues
and talked about what it is AJ is searching for
in a marriage in general.
Okay. Everyone that she meets, they get so captivated by her charisma,
her, like, just, like, the way she carries herself.
So I'm very much not surprised that she has a lot of people…
-I understand that. -…intrigued. I'm absolutely not surprised.
When I walked away from last week,
I said, "Ooh, this is going to be a tough week,"
because I saw so much love and so much respect
that you had for each other.
And I also saw so many people that were so here for this experience.
Because it definitely is challenging.
And it's really terrifying. But it also can be incredibly rewarding.
AJ, let's talk about your other connections.
Marie, your heart is so big.
Your appetite for the world is so big.
And I love that you carry so much on your shoulders
and you don't let anyone see you break.
Like, you make me laugh, like, all the time.
Like, you are, to me, the funniest person.
And you give me all the kikis, all the ha-has.
And this week has just been so easy with you.
You
give me reassurance.
You give me those words of affirmation. It literally makes me smile ear to ear.
Thank you.
How does that make you feel?
Super giddy. Very light.
I'm honored that you think all of those things
and see all of… that potential.
You became very vulnerable.
I'm so proud that you actually trusted me enough to really dig deep.
And it's incredibly forthcoming and very, just, easy.
But yet also uncomfortable at the same time.
AJ, who else did you connect with?
Marita.
-Hey. -Hi.
I'm scared to death of you, to be honest.
And how romantic you are.
I don't typically get that in my other relationship.
And I feel like you as a partner would be exhilarating and fun and wild
all at the same time.
In a marriage, I could see how you'd show up romantically.
It just was comfortable with you.
You just asked me what I needed.
And I felt like that was something that, like, I don't always get.
But I'm second-guessing it now because of everything I'm hearing.
But I want to follow my heart and how I feel.
What we built is special.
It could go somewhere.
-Yeah, I felt the same way, so… -Yeah.
Okay.
Marita, are you ready to make a choice?
Oh boy.
-I guess so. -Okay.
Marita, who do you choose?
I choose…
AJ.
I really do feel like our connection is special.
I want to explore who you are beneath the surface.
It's terrifying because I don't know what's going to happen, but I choose you.
Thank you.
AJ…
I feel very relaxed when talking to you.
It was just very easy to be honest and open up to you.
Marie, are you ready to make a choice?
Yes.
Lord have mercy.
Marie, who do you choose?
I choose AJ.
I can picture marrying you,
because I think we show love and affection in the same mannerisms.
And I think you can complete the ends that I stop at.
This is honestly the most stressful thing.
I could lose Marie at the end of this.
AJ, are you ready to make your choice?
I am.
AJ, who do you choose?
Save me
do you choose?