1 00:00:13,096 --> 00:00:15,974 Shoulda seen it coming 2 00:00:16,057 --> 00:00:18,059 Oh, look what you have done 3 00:00:19,477 --> 00:00:21,730 Burned all the ground around you 4 00:00:21,813 --> 00:00:23,898 What's left is done 5 00:00:23,982 --> 00:00:27,318 But that's what happens When you play with fire 6 00:00:28,319 --> 00:00:29,154 Fire 7 00:00:44,586 --> 00:00:45,503 Fire 8 00:00:45,587 --> 00:00:49,591 That's what happens When you play with fire 9 00:00:52,761 --> 00:00:55,180 I wanna be alone with you 10 00:00:57,432 --> 00:00:59,434 I wanna be alone with you 11 00:01:01,603 --> 00:01:03,980 I wanna be alone with you 12 00:01:04,063 --> 00:01:05,774 I just wanna be alone 13 00:01:05,857 --> 00:01:08,026 I wanna be alone with you 14 00:01:08,526 --> 00:01:13,448 I obviously feel terrible about, like, how things happened, 15 00:01:13,531 --> 00:01:15,867 and I'm sorry I made you uncomfortable or like… 16 00:01:17,202 --> 00:01:18,203 -You know? -Mm-hmm. 17 00:01:18,745 --> 00:01:21,581 Where I'm frustrated and hurt is, like, I'm owning up 18 00:01:22,540 --> 00:01:23,750 to my actions, 19 00:01:23,833 --> 00:01:26,586 and you're not taking accountability for, like, any of your actions, 20 00:01:26,669 --> 00:01:28,213 -and that's where I'm just… -Mm-hmm. 21 00:01:28,755 --> 00:01:29,756 -Yeah. -Just hurt. 22 00:01:29,839 --> 00:01:34,260 -I just-- -No, I… I hear you, and I understand, 23 00:01:34,928 --> 00:01:38,723 and I do take accountability for what happened. 24 00:01:38,807 --> 00:01:42,644 Giving mixed signals and stuff, that, like, wasn't you, you know? 25 00:01:42,727 --> 00:01:43,561 That was me. 26 00:01:47,690 --> 00:01:50,235 I thought I was communicating, like, this whole time, 27 00:01:50,318 --> 00:01:53,071 and, like, making sure that we were on the same page, 28 00:01:53,154 --> 00:01:56,074 and I think things were getting misinterpreted along the way. 29 00:01:56,157 --> 00:02:00,203 I'm sorry. I was really hurt that you thought I was playing the game. 30 00:02:00,703 --> 00:02:02,038 I've been with one person. 31 00:02:02,122 --> 00:02:04,124 You feel like I'm some player or something. 32 00:02:05,333 --> 00:02:08,378 This is just me just showing up, like, as a partner. 33 00:02:08,461 --> 00:02:11,381 I fucked up in that way, and I'm sorry. 34 00:02:12,382 --> 00:02:17,637 I, like, see you for who you are, and I think you're a really good person. 35 00:02:17,720 --> 00:02:22,225 I've been, like, a shitty partner in this. 36 00:02:23,184 --> 00:02:26,312 Conflict is, like, I'm realizing, hard for me. 37 00:02:26,980 --> 00:02:28,523 Or, like, healthy conflict. 38 00:02:29,023 --> 00:02:31,025 Yeah, you're very jabby, 39 00:02:31,109 --> 00:02:33,444 -which I didn't expect from you. -I know. I'm sorry. 40 00:02:34,112 --> 00:02:37,699 You're this like docile, gentle giant 41 00:02:37,782 --> 00:02:39,534 that can cut out of nowhere. 42 00:02:39,617 --> 00:02:41,870 -I'm like, what did that come from? -I know. 43 00:02:41,953 --> 00:02:44,581 Growing up with sisters who are really mean, that's like… 44 00:02:44,664 --> 00:02:47,250 In my family, we didn't, like, work things out ever. 45 00:02:47,333 --> 00:02:50,003 Things were either just fine, or we'd get in little fights 46 00:02:50,086 --> 00:02:51,296 and just, like, cut each other… 47 00:02:51,379 --> 00:02:52,881 -and then get over it. -Sure. 48 00:02:52,964 --> 00:02:54,090 Right. Right. 49 00:02:54,173 --> 00:02:56,843 So, I'm learning how to have conversations like this 50 00:02:56,926 --> 00:02:58,136 for the first time. 51 00:02:58,219 --> 00:02:59,679 Yeah. No. This is great. 52 00:02:59,762 --> 00:03:02,682 So… how do we move forward? 53 00:03:04,726 --> 00:03:08,354 I feel like we can… like, start over. 54 00:03:08,438 --> 00:03:11,065 Like, starting over but from, like, a better place, you know? 55 00:03:11,149 --> 00:03:13,526 Yeah. All I've ever wanted was just 56 00:03:14,527 --> 00:03:16,362 to, like, hear how you're really feeling 57 00:03:16,446 --> 00:03:20,158 and open up and be vulnerable, and we're doing that work here, 58 00:03:20,241 --> 00:03:21,701 and feel like I'm closer to you. 59 00:03:21,784 --> 00:03:22,660 Thank you. 60 00:03:26,456 --> 00:03:29,876 I just, like, I really appreciate the way that you're able to, 61 00:03:30,543 --> 00:03:34,172 like, express yourself and also take the higher road. 62 00:03:34,255 --> 00:03:37,425 That's really……inspiring. 63 00:03:37,508 --> 00:03:39,010 -Thank you. -Yeah. 64 00:03:40,136 --> 00:03:41,679 I feel like you still like… 65 00:03:41,763 --> 00:03:43,932 Sorry, I don't know why I'm getting emotional. 66 00:03:48,394 --> 00:03:50,396 I just really appreciate, like… 67 00:03:51,272 --> 00:03:55,610 I know we don't know each other that well, but the fact that you see me 68 00:03:55,693 --> 00:03:57,487 and don't think I'm a bad person. 69 00:03:57,570 --> 00:04:00,823 No, exactly, I keep telling… That's why I keep telling you this. 70 00:04:00,907 --> 00:04:03,368 I mean when I said you're so beautiful inside and out. 71 00:04:03,451 --> 00:04:05,411 You don't know what you have to offer. 72 00:04:05,495 --> 00:04:06,996 I want to bring that out of you 73 00:04:07,080 --> 00:04:09,624 so that it's like you are so sure of, like, who you are 74 00:04:09,707 --> 00:04:12,251 that, whatever you're going through, you can be confident 75 00:04:12,335 --> 00:04:14,629 that your person will always choose you, and you're human. 76 00:04:14,712 --> 00:04:16,923 -That's what love and marriage is about. -Yeah. 77 00:04:17,006 --> 00:04:19,175 Don't be scared of changing something about you 78 00:04:19,259 --> 00:04:22,428 because you're scared that person's gonna leave and think you're bad. 79 00:04:22,512 --> 00:04:24,639 And if they think that, they're not your person! 80 00:04:24,722 --> 00:04:25,556 Yeah. 81 00:04:26,349 --> 00:04:28,643 Pilar made me feel safe 82 00:04:28,726 --> 00:04:30,812 when we were dealing with a conflict like that. 83 00:04:30,895 --> 00:04:33,564 I haven't really had that before. 84 00:04:36,192 --> 00:04:38,152 Yeah. I don't know. It meant a lot to me. 85 00:04:43,157 --> 00:04:44,617 Thank you. 86 00:04:47,078 --> 00:04:47,912 It's okay. 87 00:04:48,663 --> 00:04:54,043 ' Cause I'm always all or nothing 88 00:04:55,211 --> 00:05:00,675 But after all this time I still can't shake you 89 00:05:00,758 --> 00:05:01,718 Okay. 90 00:05:01,801 --> 00:05:05,263 Yeah, it's true 91 00:05:05,346 --> 00:05:10,601 ' Cause I'm always all or nothing 92 00:05:12,103 --> 00:05:17,191 But after all this time I still can't shake you 93 00:05:17,859 --> 00:05:18,735 You nervous? 94 00:05:18,818 --> 00:05:21,195 -I'm nervous. They gonna grill me. -They won't. 95 00:05:21,279 --> 00:05:22,864 I think they're gonna grill me. 96 00:05:23,823 --> 00:05:27,952 Come here! Oh my God! 97 00:05:30,288 --> 00:05:31,581 Hi! 98 00:05:31,664 --> 00:05:33,916 -This is Haley. My trial wife. -Nice to meet you. 99 00:05:34,000 --> 00:05:36,044 -AKA, my Trillie Willie. -Nice to meet you. 100 00:05:36,127 --> 00:05:37,462 -Trillie Willie? -Yeah. 101 00:05:37,545 --> 00:05:40,006 This is, like, the most surreal experience. 102 00:05:40,089 --> 00:05:41,090 It's been insane. 103 00:05:41,174 --> 00:05:43,092 So Dayna gave me an ultimatum. 104 00:05:43,176 --> 00:05:45,053 We had to agree to, like, break up. 105 00:05:45,136 --> 00:05:47,597 We spent the first week dating everybody. 106 00:05:47,680 --> 00:05:49,766 So we went on, like, a date 107 00:05:49,849 --> 00:05:52,685 and we literally had, like, everything in common. 108 00:05:53,394 --> 00:05:55,772 The way that we do things is the same. 109 00:05:55,855 --> 00:05:58,358 Everything we said, we'd be like, "That's how I feel." 110 00:05:58,441 --> 00:06:00,318 The way we live, the way we think. 111 00:06:00,401 --> 00:06:03,196 Our perspective on stuff is just all so similar, 112 00:06:03,279 --> 00:06:06,491 and something in my gut was like, I know that this is what I need, 113 00:06:06,574 --> 00:06:08,201 because I've never had this. 114 00:06:08,701 --> 00:06:10,244 It just was a game-changer. 115 00:06:11,371 --> 00:06:13,081 Holy hell. Okay. 116 00:06:13,164 --> 00:06:15,249 -Do you mind me asking? -Ask whatever you want. 117 00:06:15,333 --> 00:06:16,918 Who gave the Ultimatum on your end? 118 00:06:17,001 --> 00:06:18,836 -I gave the Ultimatum on my end. -Okay. 119 00:06:18,920 --> 00:06:19,754 Yeah. So… 120 00:06:19,837 --> 00:06:21,881 I've been with my ex for ten years. 121 00:06:21,964 --> 00:06:24,467 -Wow. -Ten years? Holy shit! 122 00:06:24,550 --> 00:06:25,468 -Yeah. -Okay. 123 00:06:25,551 --> 00:06:28,596 Me and my ex are total opposites in every way. 124 00:06:28,679 --> 00:06:32,016 We would always just be like, that's the fun, we challenge each other. 125 00:06:32,100 --> 00:06:35,978 Living with Magan, it's been a very different experience to not have 126 00:06:36,062 --> 00:06:38,022 that baseline conflict. 127 00:06:38,106 --> 00:06:41,526 We almost always are agreeing on the same thing right away. 128 00:06:42,110 --> 00:06:44,278 Even things as simple as keeping the house a certain way. 129 00:06:44,362 --> 00:06:45,738 Like, Magan will take the trash out 130 00:06:45,822 --> 00:06:48,950 and I'll have the bag in and the trash put away by the time she's back. 131 00:06:49,033 --> 00:06:51,702 It's just like we bounce off of each other in that way. 132 00:06:51,786 --> 00:06:53,746 It's been so freakin' easy. 133 00:06:53,830 --> 00:06:57,041 Even though we're similar, we're able to pick out the parts that it's like, 134 00:06:57,125 --> 00:07:00,336 "Hey, this is something that I notice in myself that, like, 135 00:07:00,419 --> 00:07:03,297 I think I could work on, and I think you could work on it too." 136 00:07:03,381 --> 00:07:05,591 And we've talked a lot about sitting in the discomfort 137 00:07:05,675 --> 00:07:08,803 of difficult conversations, and just because it's uncomfortable, 138 00:07:08,886 --> 00:07:09,971 doesn't mean it's bad. 139 00:07:10,054 --> 00:07:12,265 -That's been a very new concept for me. -Yeah. 140 00:07:12,765 --> 00:07:13,933 I think she's great. 141 00:07:14,016 --> 00:07:16,936 I'm super grateful to be going through this experience with her. 142 00:07:17,019 --> 00:07:19,230 -She's all right. -She thinks I'm great. 143 00:07:19,313 --> 00:07:22,150 -She's like, "She's fine." -I'm just kidding. That's great. 144 00:07:22,233 --> 00:07:24,986 So, obviously your parents feel some type of way… 145 00:07:25,069 --> 00:07:26,529 -Yeah. -…about your lifestyle. 146 00:07:27,113 --> 00:07:29,907 If this worked out, do you think they'll come around, 147 00:07:29,991 --> 00:07:32,660 or is it just gonna always be like a stick point for them? 148 00:07:32,743 --> 00:07:35,371 Being in this environment with so many queer people, 149 00:07:35,455 --> 00:07:36,956 that's, like, not even talked about. 150 00:07:37,039 --> 00:07:39,125 It's not worth putting myself in a community 151 00:07:39,208 --> 00:07:41,752 where I always feel I'm hiding or living two separate lives. 152 00:07:41,836 --> 00:07:44,255 Once you're, like, starving for something for so long, 153 00:07:44,338 --> 00:07:46,424 and then you feel like you're kinda getting a glimpse, 154 00:07:46,507 --> 00:07:48,301 you just want to protect that. 155 00:07:48,384 --> 00:07:51,804 There's moments where I'll stand up for myself to my parents. 156 00:07:51,888 --> 00:07:55,391 But because I wasn't very secure with myself, 157 00:07:55,474 --> 00:07:57,560 and I just had a lot of, like, uncertainty, 158 00:07:57,643 --> 00:08:00,062 I never really, like, pulled through 100%. 159 00:08:00,146 --> 00:08:03,065 With Haley and I, honestly, it's just so different. 160 00:08:03,149 --> 00:08:05,818 I've always been around people who've been pushing me my whole life. 161 00:08:05,902 --> 00:08:08,154 My exes, my mom, my coaches. 162 00:08:08,237 --> 00:08:11,365 And this is the first time where, like, I don't feel pushed, 163 00:08:11,449 --> 00:08:14,118 so I have the room to push myself. 164 00:08:14,994 --> 00:08:17,246 -You guys don't normally see me like this. -Yeah. 165 00:08:17,330 --> 00:08:20,166 -No, this is a very different Mag. -Yeah. Yeah. 166 00:08:20,249 --> 00:08:21,209 Aw, shit. 167 00:08:26,255 --> 00:08:27,715 -Opa! -Wow. 168 00:08:28,883 --> 00:08:29,842 Thank you. 169 00:08:29,926 --> 00:08:32,970 I want to give you guys the… that, like, Lebanese experience. 170 00:08:33,054 --> 00:08:34,555 You can't eat this without garlic. 171 00:08:34,639 --> 00:08:36,933 You guys are not sleeping next to each other tonight. 172 00:08:38,518 --> 00:08:41,729 The way you guys look at each other, it's just, like, comfort. 173 00:08:41,812 --> 00:08:43,564 -Nikki! Okay. -I'm just saying! 174 00:08:43,648 --> 00:08:46,442 It's… you look comfortable. 175 00:08:46,526 --> 00:08:49,111 You look at ease. And don't get me wrong. 176 00:08:49,195 --> 00:08:51,364 -I've seen that with you and Dayna too. -Yeah. 177 00:08:51,447 --> 00:08:53,908 -Is your ex masc? -Femme. 178 00:08:53,991 --> 00:08:55,159 -Wow. -A femme couple. 179 00:08:55,243 --> 00:08:56,285 Interesting. 180 00:08:56,369 --> 00:08:57,203 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 181 00:08:57,286 --> 00:08:59,789 How is that different now dating a masculine lesbian? 182 00:08:59,872 --> 00:09:03,918 In my relationship, I am the more dominant person. 183 00:09:04,001 --> 00:09:05,628 -Interesting. -I'm the person that's, like, 184 00:09:05,711 --> 00:09:07,129 the leader in holding hands. 185 00:09:07,213 --> 00:09:08,130 We hold hands. 186 00:09:08,214 --> 00:09:10,758 At one point she was like, "You gotta put your hand on the back." 187 00:09:10,841 --> 00:09:12,176 And I was like, oh, okay! 188 00:09:13,594 --> 00:09:17,390 Do you guys feel like, at the end of this, there's potential between you two? 189 00:09:21,936 --> 00:09:24,397 It makes me feel like there could be potential there. 190 00:09:24,480 --> 00:09:27,483 Guaranteed, I can never have Magan out of my life. 191 00:09:27,567 --> 00:09:28,401 Same. 192 00:09:31,654 --> 00:09:33,197 Welcome to the squad. 193 00:09:34,198 --> 00:09:36,450 -Let's go! -I hope you're prepared for all of us. 194 00:09:36,951 --> 00:09:38,369 I know you 195 00:09:39,078 --> 00:09:40,913 I know you want 196 00:09:41,455 --> 00:09:43,666 I know you want me too 197 00:09:46,252 --> 00:09:47,545 I know you 198 00:09:49,839 --> 00:09:51,841 I have never felt more alone. 199 00:09:56,220 --> 00:09:58,139 But it's not your fault. 200 00:10:01,726 --> 00:10:07,607 I didn't realize how much this process would not just rip off Band-Aids, 201 00:10:07,690 --> 00:10:09,900 but… there are things… 202 00:10:11,110 --> 00:10:14,739 …that I really thought that I healed from years ago. 203 00:10:16,073 --> 00:10:17,575 I learned that I did not. 204 00:10:19,118 --> 00:10:20,036 And… 205 00:10:24,081 --> 00:10:27,335 I never had to because the person that I was processing it with 206 00:10:27,418 --> 00:10:29,170 was literally living it with me. 207 00:10:32,882 --> 00:10:35,134 And that person can't even look at me. 208 00:10:38,846 --> 00:10:40,765 Mel's smile would have been enough. 209 00:10:48,606 --> 00:10:51,651 I'm maybe a little resentful 210 00:10:51,734 --> 00:10:54,820 that… you have that ability 211 00:10:55,613 --> 00:10:59,575 to just have two conversations with Britney, 212 00:11:00,159 --> 00:11:02,453 and I can't even walk by my person 213 00:11:03,788 --> 00:11:07,708 who has seen ten years of ups and downs, 214 00:11:09,794 --> 00:11:11,629 and she can pretend like she doesn't know me. 215 00:11:13,589 --> 00:11:15,633 Should things go awry… 216 00:11:15,716 --> 00:11:18,219 -Mm-hmm. -…I literally lose everything. 217 00:11:19,095 --> 00:11:20,137 Mm-hmm. 218 00:11:21,347 --> 00:11:22,348 I'm losing it. 219 00:11:29,980 --> 00:11:32,483 I'm putting aside things with my ex. 220 00:11:33,609 --> 00:11:36,195 I want you to try to do the same because it's more important 221 00:11:36,278 --> 00:11:38,614 that we take this time very carefully now. 222 00:11:39,657 --> 00:11:41,951 My main concern is my wife. 223 00:11:42,034 --> 00:11:43,369 I care about you. 224 00:11:43,452 --> 00:11:45,329 You just have to let me in. 225 00:11:45,413 --> 00:11:47,289 There's a reason why you chose me too. 226 00:11:47,998 --> 00:11:48,999 Yeah. I know. 227 00:11:50,918 --> 00:11:52,461 I'm not here to hurt you. 228 00:11:53,212 --> 00:11:56,173 I know. I never painted you as that. 229 00:11:56,257 --> 00:11:57,967 I don't fault you for any of it. 230 00:11:58,884 --> 00:12:00,636 Just envious, I guess. 231 00:12:00,719 --> 00:12:02,930 We come from very different backgrounds. 232 00:12:03,013 --> 00:12:05,099 -Mm. -I stopped talking to my mother. 233 00:12:05,808 --> 00:12:06,767 And then she died. 234 00:12:07,977 --> 00:12:11,772 People don't look at me and think, she's a victim of suicide, whatever. 235 00:12:11,856 --> 00:12:13,733 People don't look at me and think that shit. 236 00:12:13,816 --> 00:12:14,775 Mm. 237 00:12:16,152 --> 00:12:18,028 "Oh, you only talk about your dad." 238 00:12:18,904 --> 00:12:19,905 Yeah, I do. 239 00:12:20,531 --> 00:12:21,907 "Oh, da-da-da…?" 240 00:12:22,408 --> 00:12:23,451 Do you want to know? 241 00:12:24,660 --> 00:12:27,455 I mean there's so much that comes with that, right? Like… 242 00:12:32,626 --> 00:12:33,878 You never get over it. 243 00:12:35,713 --> 00:12:37,089 It doesn't get easier. 244 00:12:39,800 --> 00:12:41,761 I hid from that for years. 245 00:12:43,095 --> 00:12:45,806 And that shit just creeps up 246 00:12:45,890 --> 00:12:48,767 in all these spare moments that I have. 247 00:12:54,982 --> 00:12:55,983 I'm angry. 248 00:12:57,651 --> 00:13:00,613 I'm very angry. I'm a very angry person, deep down. 249 00:13:02,323 --> 00:13:04,116 I am very angry at the world. 250 00:13:05,159 --> 00:13:06,952 And I can't control that. 251 00:13:09,705 --> 00:13:13,209 I think you're just in a place where you're finally having to deal with things 252 00:13:13,292 --> 00:13:14,960 you haven't dealt with in so long. 253 00:13:15,544 --> 00:13:17,671 You work three jobs. When do you have time to process? 254 00:13:17,755 --> 00:13:18,589 I never had to. 255 00:13:20,299 --> 00:13:22,635 I feel so fucking guarded. 256 00:13:22,718 --> 00:13:23,719 It's okay. 257 00:13:23,803 --> 00:13:25,429 You have every right to be. 258 00:13:25,930 --> 00:13:27,306 I want you to trust me. 259 00:13:28,432 --> 00:13:31,101 Lean on me when you don't feel like it's okay. 260 00:13:32,102 --> 00:13:35,189 Like, if you want a hug, I would always give you a hug. 261 00:13:35,773 --> 00:13:37,691 I want to feel at peace with myself. 262 00:13:38,943 --> 00:13:40,528 And I don't know what that looks like. 263 00:13:41,946 --> 00:13:45,074 Where do we go from here? 264 00:13:46,158 --> 00:13:50,162 Realizing that there's nothing to fear 265 00:13:51,288 --> 00:13:52,248 I'm sorry. 266 00:13:55,501 --> 00:13:58,712 I just want you to trust me enough to lean on me. 267 00:13:59,296 --> 00:14:00,172 We'll see. 268 00:14:02,091 --> 00:14:04,593 Where do we go from here? 269 00:14:06,345 --> 00:14:10,724 Realizing that there's nothing to fear 270 00:14:13,477 --> 00:14:15,771 Let's enjoy this time 271 00:14:15,854 --> 00:14:18,607 On this side of life 272 00:14:19,775 --> 00:14:20,985 I notice you're very 273 00:14:22,069 --> 00:14:22,903 happy. 274 00:14:22,987 --> 00:14:25,281 Even if you vocalize, "I had a shitty day at work, 275 00:14:25,364 --> 00:14:28,492 I'm about to have a mental breakdown." But you're still not sad. 276 00:14:28,576 --> 00:14:32,162 Okay, was it that shitty? I can't tell. 277 00:14:32,246 --> 00:14:34,832 You're like, "How do you actually feel?" 278 00:14:34,915 --> 00:14:39,837 Yeah. I don't want you to feel like since I'm here, now you have to be happier 279 00:14:39,920 --> 00:14:43,173 and not what you would do even if I wasn't here. 280 00:14:44,258 --> 00:14:45,342 Yeah. 281 00:14:45,426 --> 00:14:49,847 I do put on this… happy Marita face. 282 00:14:49,930 --> 00:14:53,934 I just feel extremely selfless, like, almost in a bad way. 283 00:14:54,643 --> 00:14:57,313 I don't pay attention to what I need 284 00:14:58,355 --> 00:15:01,734 or how to make myself happy 285 00:15:01,817 --> 00:15:04,486 because I make everybody else around me happy. 286 00:15:04,570 --> 00:15:05,779 Mm. 287 00:15:06,488 --> 00:15:09,450 I feel like it also kind of goes back to my childhood. 288 00:15:09,533 --> 00:15:11,410 I'm the youngest of my family, 289 00:15:11,493 --> 00:15:14,747 and there was a lot of turmoil in my family. 290 00:15:14,830 --> 00:15:18,542 And I had to be the one with the positivity and the happy face 291 00:15:18,626 --> 00:15:20,669 and make sure that everyone, 292 00:15:21,253 --> 00:15:24,715 if they didn't have good relationships with each other, 293 00:15:24,798 --> 00:15:27,468 they all could have good relationships with me 294 00:15:27,551 --> 00:15:29,136 or I could mend an issue. 295 00:15:30,429 --> 00:15:32,765 I have carried that into my adult life. 296 00:15:33,641 --> 00:15:35,017 It's a weird place to be in. 297 00:15:35,100 --> 00:15:37,645 Because I'm not trying to tell you don't be a people pleaser, 298 00:15:37,728 --> 00:15:39,563 but I want you to put yourself first. 299 00:15:40,356 --> 00:15:42,608 If you need to say no, say no. 300 00:15:42,691 --> 00:15:44,818 Once you do, you're like, "Oh, this feels so good!" 301 00:15:44,902 --> 00:15:48,614 "I actually did something for me and I'm not, like, spreading myself thin!" 302 00:15:48,697 --> 00:15:49,865 -Yeah. -So… 303 00:15:49,949 --> 00:15:53,535 Even with work, I feel like I owe everybody everything. 304 00:15:54,203 --> 00:15:57,623 I'm not getting fulfilled in any type of way. 305 00:15:58,207 --> 00:15:59,792 Economically. 306 00:15:59,875 --> 00:16:01,293 Emotionally. 307 00:16:02,378 --> 00:16:04,755 Physic-- Like, nothing from work. 308 00:16:04,838 --> 00:16:07,883 But I feel like I owe them my best. 309 00:16:09,843 --> 00:16:12,763 That sounds very similar to other things in your life. 310 00:16:14,056 --> 00:16:17,267 -What do you mean? -You know exactly what I'm referring to. 311 00:16:17,977 --> 00:16:20,229 I want you to stand up for yourself. 312 00:16:20,312 --> 00:16:22,481 Know what you want. Demand what you want. 313 00:16:22,564 --> 00:16:25,150 And like, and accept absolutely nothing less. 314 00:16:25,734 --> 00:16:28,612 Don't feel like you have to suppress your feelings 315 00:16:28,696 --> 00:16:30,489 for the comfort of somebody else. 316 00:16:30,572 --> 00:16:31,699 Mm. 317 00:16:32,366 --> 00:16:34,159 'Cause you feel how you feel. 318 00:16:34,743 --> 00:16:36,453 -Yeah. -And you kind of have to develop that. 319 00:16:36,537 --> 00:16:38,497 'Cause if not, your own peace is gonna suffer. 320 00:16:38,580 --> 00:16:39,498 Wow. 321 00:16:40,416 --> 00:16:41,417 I'm growing. 322 00:16:41,500 --> 00:16:42,334 You are. 323 00:16:44,086 --> 00:16:45,629 I'm done with the spiel. 324 00:16:45,713 --> 00:16:48,048 I loved that. I needed to hear that. 325 00:16:49,174 --> 00:16:51,385 -Should we watch Norbit now? -Yes. 326 00:16:51,468 --> 00:16:52,302 Okay. 327 00:16:56,265 --> 00:16:59,226 They know how to stop me and 328 00:16:59,309 --> 00:17:03,355 Well, let's run it anyway Run it anyway 329 00:17:03,439 --> 00:17:06,275 I tried to grow a palm tree in my backyard when I first moved here. 330 00:17:06,358 --> 00:17:07,693 -Really? -Yeah, and it died. 331 00:17:07,776 --> 00:17:10,320 I don't have a green thumb. Like, anything I plant dies. 332 00:17:10,404 --> 00:17:12,448 Even my cactus. How do you kill a cactus? 333 00:17:12,531 --> 00:17:13,907 That's concerning. 334 00:17:13,991 --> 00:17:15,284 Should we take our shoes off? 335 00:17:17,161 --> 00:17:19,329 Only if you want. Do whatever makes you happy. 336 00:17:19,413 --> 00:17:20,664 Whatever makes me happy. 337 00:17:21,165 --> 00:17:23,125 Hmm. That's loaded. 338 00:17:27,671 --> 00:17:28,881 Why are you smiling? 339 00:17:28,964 --> 00:17:30,132 I'm people watching. 340 00:17:32,760 --> 00:17:34,303 I talked to my mom today. 341 00:17:34,386 --> 00:17:35,888 Tell me about her. What should I know? 342 00:17:35,971 --> 00:17:38,348 She's truly my best friend. 343 00:17:38,432 --> 00:17:41,477 I feel like no one understands me as much as her because 344 00:17:41,560 --> 00:17:43,729 I, like, am her in a weird way. 345 00:17:43,812 --> 00:17:44,813 Your mom? 346 00:17:44,897 --> 00:17:48,317 Yeah. But, like, part of saying that is, like, scary, 347 00:17:48,400 --> 00:17:52,821 because I don't want to be dating around at her age. 348 00:17:54,031 --> 00:17:57,785 I want to have love and a family and… 349 00:17:57,868 --> 00:18:01,080 I don't want to devalue relationships the way that she has. 350 00:18:01,163 --> 00:18:04,833 And I feel like if I keep getting let down, I will become like that. 351 00:18:04,917 --> 00:18:07,920 So I don't want to keep putting myself in a position to be let down. 352 00:18:08,003 --> 00:18:09,171 That was deep. 353 00:18:09,922 --> 00:18:11,298 I don't know. Most people are like, 354 00:18:11,381 --> 00:18:13,842 "My parents had a great marriage. I want the same thing." 355 00:18:13,926 --> 00:18:14,760 I never had that. 356 00:18:14,843 --> 00:18:18,889 I had to decide how I wanted to create my vision of marriage on my own. 357 00:18:19,515 --> 00:18:22,309 And I feel like you just don't have the, like… 358 00:18:23,519 --> 00:18:27,231 will to do the same, but I think you want the same things that I want. 359 00:18:27,314 --> 00:18:28,607 Don't bring me into this. 360 00:18:28,690 --> 00:18:31,110 You just haven't sat down and been like, 361 00:18:31,193 --> 00:18:33,821 "How can I have something that I want? In my way, though?" 362 00:18:33,904 --> 00:18:36,156 It's not that at all, actually. 363 00:18:36,240 --> 00:18:37,074 I just… 364 00:18:38,450 --> 00:18:40,244 I don't know, bro. It's… 365 00:18:41,370 --> 00:18:42,204 Okay. 366 00:18:46,166 --> 00:18:50,838 I don't know what you want me to… offer you. 367 00:18:50,921 --> 00:18:53,674 I'm an Ultimatum giver, you're an Ultimatum receiver. 368 00:18:53,757 --> 00:18:55,759 Like, that's just to start it off. 369 00:18:55,843 --> 00:18:59,429 And then, I think, like, family isn't your priority, 370 00:18:59,513 --> 00:19:00,848 nor is, like, children. 371 00:19:00,931 --> 00:19:04,768 I want to know you're open-minded to the things that I want and need 372 00:19:04,852 --> 00:19:08,147 and believe in as much as if I'm willing 373 00:19:08,230 --> 00:19:10,607 to open my mind to the things you believe and want. 374 00:19:10,691 --> 00:19:12,568 -But you're not, at the same time. -I'm not? 375 00:19:12,651 --> 00:19:13,652 Okay. How am I not? 376 00:19:13,735 --> 00:19:15,821 If you're talking kids, you're not. 377 00:19:15,904 --> 00:19:18,157 You're trying to have me come to where you're at. 378 00:19:19,825 --> 00:19:23,912 I think that you don't actually not want the things you say you don't want, 379 00:19:23,996 --> 00:19:25,497 you just are scared. 380 00:19:27,708 --> 00:19:29,293 Makes me sad, though. 381 00:19:33,881 --> 00:19:34,923 Um… 382 00:19:36,925 --> 00:19:42,681 Growing up, let's say like 14, 15, I was always, like, weird around kids. 383 00:19:42,764 --> 00:19:44,141 I didn't like holding babies. 384 00:19:44,224 --> 00:19:47,936 People show me pictures of babies, and I'm just like, eh, you know, whatever. 385 00:19:48,020 --> 00:19:50,314 -Like, "Okay, next." -Oh my God. 386 00:19:50,397 --> 00:19:53,525 And then when I was 16, 387 00:19:53,609 --> 00:19:55,777 and I got diagnosed with everything I got diagnosed with, 388 00:19:55,861 --> 00:19:57,487 they told me I couldn't have kids. 389 00:19:59,364 --> 00:20:04,161 And that… if I tried to carry, 390 00:20:04,244 --> 00:20:08,081 I would die or it would die, like… one of us wouldn't make it out. 391 00:20:08,665 --> 00:20:11,001 And so I kind of thought to myself, 392 00:20:11,084 --> 00:20:15,672 "Well, I didn't really want this anyway, so… what does it really matter to me?" 393 00:20:21,303 --> 00:20:22,679 Does your ex know this? 394 00:20:25,641 --> 00:20:28,352 -Nobody knows it, Dayna. -Oh my God. 395 00:20:28,435 --> 00:20:29,895 Why have you never told her? 396 00:20:32,356 --> 00:20:34,983 She's never hounded me for kids, that's the thing. 397 00:20:35,692 --> 00:20:37,361 I just know she wants it. 398 00:20:37,444 --> 00:20:39,196 She's nurturing, she's caring. 399 00:20:39,279 --> 00:20:41,240 She was one of those people born to be a mother. 400 00:20:41,323 --> 00:20:42,908 -You could just feel it. -Yeah. 401 00:20:42,991 --> 00:20:44,743 So she's never pressed me, 402 00:20:44,826 --> 00:20:48,288 but I know that I would be doing a disservice to her… 403 00:20:48,372 --> 00:20:50,082 -Oh, God. -…if we were together forever 404 00:20:50,165 --> 00:20:52,167 and we didn't have kids. 405 00:20:53,043 --> 00:20:54,878 You're so lucky you're gay. 406 00:20:55,462 --> 00:20:58,924 Because you have another woman to carry! 407 00:20:59,007 --> 00:21:02,010 You got, like, two bodies instead of one like everyone else! 408 00:21:02,970 --> 00:21:04,930 I want you to have optimism, 409 00:21:05,013 --> 00:21:08,058 'cause you deserve to, like, have the things you want. 410 00:21:15,190 --> 00:21:18,360 You might wanna rush But I will take my time 411 00:21:18,443 --> 00:21:20,570 I love how he's already made this place home. 412 00:21:20,654 --> 00:21:24,783 I know. Do you think I love him more than I would love the person I'm dating? 413 00:21:24,866 --> 00:21:26,785 I don't think I should answer that question. 414 00:21:27,744 --> 00:21:29,121 She's jealous of you. 415 00:21:30,956 --> 00:21:34,251 Yeah, I think you know that I think you're also fine 416 00:21:34,334 --> 00:21:36,586 -Let me get your sauces out. -Thanks, wifey. 417 00:21:37,337 --> 00:21:38,588 Careful! 418 00:21:38,672 --> 00:21:40,424 -So-- -Don't make Wendy squirt. 419 00:21:46,179 --> 00:21:49,558 -Okay, that's so… -Not making her… cream. 420 00:21:49,641 --> 00:21:51,518 Stop it! I know. 421 00:21:51,601 --> 00:21:54,354 God, they can't put two lesbians together for five minutes! 422 00:21:54,438 --> 00:21:55,564 No, for real, five minutes! 423 00:21:56,148 --> 00:21:58,317 -Here you go. -Thank you, wifey. 424 00:21:58,400 --> 00:22:00,402 You handed me a fork. 425 00:22:00,485 --> 00:22:02,362 That was so sweet. 426 00:22:02,446 --> 00:22:05,657 You say I think you got the soul in the… 427 00:22:05,741 --> 00:22:09,286 -Did you just break the pasta? -You saw what I did. 428 00:22:09,369 --> 00:22:11,455 Don't bunch your panties in a twist. 429 00:22:11,538 --> 00:22:12,748 Ah! 430 00:22:12,831 --> 00:22:14,458 Relax. 431 00:22:14,541 --> 00:22:16,293 You're not allowed to make dinner anymore! 432 00:22:16,376 --> 00:22:19,629 I'm that good I'm that good 433 00:22:22,424 --> 00:22:24,468 What did I just see? 434 00:22:25,552 --> 00:22:27,637 Dayna, you're naked, bro! 435 00:22:27,721 --> 00:22:30,432 Baby is too fine Keep on running after me 436 00:22:30,515 --> 00:22:32,517 I'mma let you be mine 437 00:22:36,355 --> 00:22:38,857 Maybe I might 438 00:22:38,940 --> 00:22:39,983 You want popcorn? 439 00:22:40,067 --> 00:22:42,069 Let you be mine 440 00:22:45,155 --> 00:22:48,742 Tonight, tonight, tonight 441 00:22:50,660 --> 00:22:53,789 Bet you were the type Who gets it how they like 442 00:22:53,872 --> 00:22:55,707 You sleeping on the couch tonight? 443 00:22:55,791 --> 00:22:58,585 Yeah. I just, like, want to be intentional. 444 00:22:58,668 --> 00:23:01,463 I think we both have our boundaries. 445 00:23:01,546 --> 00:23:04,383 -Yeah. We've been explicit about that. -But… Yeah. 446 00:23:04,466 --> 00:23:05,884 I feel like it's the right choice. 447 00:23:05,967 --> 00:23:08,637 -I agree. I think we're on the same page. -Mm-hmm. 448 00:23:08,720 --> 00:23:10,847 I love that. 449 00:23:13,892 --> 00:23:16,645 You're the one who could be the one 450 00:23:16,728 --> 00:23:21,191 You could, you could, you could Be the one that I'm looking for 451 00:23:23,944 --> 00:23:25,779 -Okay, you gotta make it wet. -Yeah. 452 00:23:26,488 --> 00:23:27,781 You get the mound wet 453 00:23:27,864 --> 00:23:30,242 and then stick your palms in the side. 454 00:23:30,325 --> 00:23:33,078 -Turn it on. Yeah. -That's what she said. 455 00:23:33,161 --> 00:23:36,832 You know, like, at hibachi, the tower of onions that they make, 456 00:23:36,915 --> 00:23:38,667 that's what yours looks like right now. 457 00:23:38,750 --> 00:23:42,170 That's kind of rude. You need to be better at giving compliments. 458 00:23:42,254 --> 00:23:45,382 -That's just… We're not-- -I'm sorry. It's beautiful, sweetheart. 459 00:23:45,465 --> 00:23:46,508 Thank you. 460 00:23:47,092 --> 00:23:50,303 You're the best pot maker I've ever seen. 461 00:23:50,387 --> 00:23:52,848 -Or flower pot maker. -That's right. That's more like it. 462 00:23:52,931 --> 00:23:54,975 -Thank you so much. -You're welcome. 463 00:23:55,058 --> 00:23:57,018 I think that mine's fantastic. 464 00:23:57,102 --> 00:23:59,354 Yours looks incredible. 465 00:23:59,437 --> 00:24:00,939 That's a work of art. 466 00:24:01,022 --> 00:24:02,649 Are you gonna keep it forever? 467 00:24:02,732 --> 00:24:04,025 -You better. -That's for me? 468 00:24:04,109 --> 00:24:06,445 -Yeah! I don't know what I made you. -Wow! Thank you. 469 00:24:07,821 --> 00:24:10,949 It's a little plate that you can use for whatever you want. 470 00:24:11,533 --> 00:24:12,993 You want me to come help you? 471 00:24:13,076 --> 00:24:15,078 Yeah! What do I do? 472 00:24:15,162 --> 00:24:17,497 -Let me show you. -It's our time to shine. 473 00:24:18,582 --> 00:24:20,834 Oh yeah. You're messing up my bowl! 474 00:24:20,917 --> 00:24:22,419 You have to center it a little bit. 475 00:24:22,502 --> 00:24:24,296 You're making it off-centered. 476 00:24:24,379 --> 00:24:26,715 Forward and on top. Yeah. There you go. 477 00:24:26,798 --> 00:24:28,300 There, look at it go! 478 00:24:31,553 --> 00:24:34,097 And push in, and then see how it goes up? 479 00:24:34,181 --> 00:24:37,934 Now you can kinda go like that, and then just smoothly take it up together. 480 00:24:38,018 --> 00:24:40,479 But you want it to just be your hands going like that. 481 00:24:40,562 --> 00:24:42,397 Put your fingers… perfect. 482 00:24:46,860 --> 00:24:48,278 You want some extra clay? 483 00:24:48,862 --> 00:24:49,821 That's so dry. 484 00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:54,534 I don't know how Ashley feels, but I feel like 485 00:24:54,618 --> 00:24:56,661 this is kind of a breakthrough in our relationship 486 00:24:56,745 --> 00:24:59,664 in that it just felt like we were only thinking about each other. 487 00:24:59,748 --> 00:25:01,833 I feel like Bridget is being a little flirty. 488 00:25:01,917 --> 00:25:04,503 I feel like tonight, she's been looking at me different and stuff. 489 00:25:05,086 --> 00:25:09,216 I want to just embrace this relationship and explore it. 490 00:25:10,300 --> 00:25:14,554 I think it's, like, cute, and it makes me feel, like, good inside. 491 00:25:14,638 --> 00:25:16,932 She's doing it more often, like, way more often. 492 00:25:17,015 --> 00:25:19,309 So, I don't know. 493 00:25:19,392 --> 00:25:20,894 We'll see what happens. 494 00:25:21,478 --> 00:25:26,066 I think it's fun for me to just, like, see how when you put your finger somewhere, 495 00:25:26,149 --> 00:25:27,150 it moves it. 496 00:25:34,074 --> 00:25:37,244 I think we both know Where your head's at tonight 497 00:25:37,327 --> 00:25:40,497 She's in your heart But it's me on your mind 498 00:25:40,580 --> 00:25:43,583 Show me what you mean 'Cause I can't hear what you say 499 00:25:43,667 --> 00:25:45,627 But hold on 500 00:25:45,710 --> 00:25:46,670 I got something for you. 501 00:25:46,753 --> 00:25:49,422 I hope you know that it's up to you 502 00:25:50,131 --> 00:25:51,633 Did I hit you? 503 00:25:51,716 --> 00:25:53,468 It just splashed in my face. 504 00:25:53,552 --> 00:25:57,389 Don't need to know my name I could be the perfect stranger 505 00:25:58,265 --> 00:26:00,642 Let's have a night we don't remember 506 00:26:04,104 --> 00:26:09,484 Feel me Want you to need me 507 00:26:11,945 --> 00:26:13,947 Feel me 508 00:26:14,489 --> 00:26:17,993 Need you to see me 509 00:26:18,994 --> 00:26:21,913 But in the morning when you call her 510 00:26:22,497 --> 00:26:25,208 She's gonna know that something's up 511 00:26:25,292 --> 00:26:27,711 -That watermelon salad looks bomb. -Bomb. 512 00:26:27,794 --> 00:26:28,962 -Cheers. -Cheers. 513 00:26:33,883 --> 00:26:35,552 -Actually, I want that one. -You do? 514 00:26:35,635 --> 00:26:38,054 -You like that one better? -Yeah. Sorry. 515 00:26:40,390 --> 00:26:41,474 Anyways. Okay. 516 00:26:43,351 --> 00:26:46,021 I'm just in a silly, goofy mood. 517 00:26:46,104 --> 00:26:47,480 Silly, goofy. 518 00:26:47,564 --> 00:26:49,691 Goofy, silly. I'm joking. 519 00:26:49,774 --> 00:26:50,734 Yes. 520 00:26:50,817 --> 00:26:51,735 Yeah. 521 00:26:55,113 --> 00:26:57,449 It's crazy to think we're halfway done with this. 522 00:26:57,532 --> 00:26:59,826 I couldn't imagine doing it with anybody else. 523 00:27:00,493 --> 00:27:06,041 I feel like we just found so much comfort with each other, 524 00:27:06,124 --> 00:27:10,879 and I think we were so surprised of the depth of our connection. 525 00:27:11,880 --> 00:27:14,299 -Clearly, like, there's something here. -Yeah. 526 00:27:15,133 --> 00:27:17,969 You know, clearly some lines are getting blurry. 527 00:27:18,053 --> 00:27:22,849 Yeah. I do think, like, a door did open of connecting sexually. 528 00:27:22,932 --> 00:27:25,185 When we did connect physically, 529 00:27:25,268 --> 00:27:28,063 I feel like it did help us get, like, deeper… 530 00:27:28,146 --> 00:27:29,356 -Yeah. -…because there is 531 00:27:29,439 --> 00:27:31,483 this aspect of vulnerability, 532 00:27:31,566 --> 00:27:37,280 when it does come to sex, it just opens another part of you that… 533 00:27:38,281 --> 00:27:40,116 we're just learning together. 534 00:27:44,037 --> 00:27:46,706 I do think we could have gone through this experience and not done it. 535 00:27:46,790 --> 00:27:49,292 -Yeah. -I think we would've left with regret. 536 00:27:50,418 --> 00:27:51,544 I think so too. 537 00:27:54,798 --> 00:27:57,842 I'm here to have an authentic relationship with Haley. 538 00:27:57,926 --> 00:28:00,345 I'm here to have an authentic relationship with Dayna. 539 00:28:00,428 --> 00:28:03,264 And I think it's important to be vulnerable. 540 00:28:03,348 --> 00:28:06,226 Haley and I hooking up, it was definitely more than just kissing. 541 00:28:06,309 --> 00:28:08,561 We hooked up, all the way, 542 00:28:08,645 --> 00:28:11,231 and it's something that we don't regret. 543 00:28:11,314 --> 00:28:13,566 -It's a crazy experience. -Yeah. 544 00:28:13,650 --> 00:28:15,610 It's just scary to me 545 00:28:15,694 --> 00:28:18,488 because it's so different than what I have with Dayna. 546 00:28:18,571 --> 00:28:20,240 It's almost, like, incomparable. 547 00:28:20,323 --> 00:28:23,618 They're just two completely… separate things. 548 00:28:30,667 --> 00:28:32,168 I feel like I learned a lot with you. 549 00:28:33,712 --> 00:28:34,546 Me too. 550 00:28:36,172 --> 00:28:37,132 It's kind of sad. 551 00:28:37,632 --> 00:28:40,510 -Don't be sad. You're gonna make me sad. -I know, I'm just kinda sad. 552 00:28:42,137 --> 00:28:44,764 -I just feel like my whole life changed. -Agreed. 553 00:28:44,848 --> 00:28:48,643 This is sparking something new that I've never had. 554 00:28:48,726 --> 00:28:51,062 I feel like I chose myself choosing you. 555 00:28:53,648 --> 00:28:54,482 Sorry. 556 00:28:54,566 --> 00:28:55,400 No. 557 00:29:01,114 --> 00:29:02,741 -What are you doing? -I'm doing… 558 00:29:02,824 --> 00:29:05,493 How to live things Late at night 559 00:29:05,577 --> 00:29:09,664 Everything about you Light up all around you 560 00:29:09,747 --> 00:29:13,793 Show 'em how to shine Just like you know 561 00:29:13,877 --> 00:29:15,879 You looking like gold 562 00:29:16,463 --> 00:29:17,964 Hi. 563 00:29:18,047 --> 00:29:18,965 This is Mel. 564 00:29:19,048 --> 00:29:20,550 -Hi! How are you? -Lovely to meet you. 565 00:29:20,633 --> 00:29:21,760 Good. Good. 566 00:29:21,843 --> 00:29:23,094 It's so lovely to meet you. 567 00:29:23,178 --> 00:29:24,095 Are you having fun? 568 00:29:24,179 --> 00:29:26,222 -Uh, I am now. -Good. Good. 569 00:29:26,306 --> 00:29:28,349 So what's going on? 570 00:29:28,933 --> 00:29:30,852 -We want all the drama. -Um… Yes. 571 00:29:30,935 --> 00:29:33,605 She wants the drama. I just want to know the good stuff. 572 00:29:33,688 --> 00:29:37,734 So Dayna and I are in a trial marriage. 573 00:29:37,817 --> 00:29:39,110 I think it's going pretty well. 574 00:29:39,194 --> 00:29:40,445 -That's really good. -Right? 575 00:29:40,528 --> 00:29:41,905 We're so similar. 576 00:29:43,823 --> 00:29:45,325 Like, she's spicy like me, 577 00:29:45,408 --> 00:29:48,036 and hard-headed like me, and stubborn like me. 578 00:29:48,119 --> 00:29:49,788 Well, at least we didn't have to say it. 579 00:29:49,871 --> 00:29:51,206 You already know. 580 00:29:51,289 --> 00:29:52,582 -Yeah. -Did you know 581 00:29:52,665 --> 00:29:54,125 she beats people up in her sleep? 582 00:29:55,210 --> 00:29:59,005 She'll, like, put her arm around me, and I go to, like, reach for her arm, 583 00:29:59,088 --> 00:30:02,884 and then she'll like hit me away like, uh-uh! And I'm like, "Girl, what?" 584 00:30:02,967 --> 00:30:04,803 -Yeah. -That's her personality. 585 00:30:04,886 --> 00:30:07,347 -You're like that too. -She gets hot and cold, I think. 586 00:30:07,430 --> 00:30:11,017 -She gets colder moods, then she gets hot. -She came to me. I was fine where I was. 587 00:30:11,100 --> 00:30:13,353 So my whole personality is, "Come here, go away"? 588 00:30:13,436 --> 00:30:15,813 -Yeah. -How much longer do you have together? 589 00:30:15,897 --> 00:30:18,107 -This is our two-week anniversary. -Oh! 590 00:30:18,191 --> 00:30:21,694 One more week, and then we literally won't speak. 591 00:30:21,778 --> 00:30:24,531 She's been my whole life and support system for two weeks. 592 00:30:24,614 --> 00:30:26,449 My world revolves around her every day. 593 00:30:26,533 --> 00:30:29,160 You know I've been close to very few people in my life, 594 00:30:29,244 --> 00:30:33,289 and with Mel, the way that I was able to get so close to her so fast 595 00:30:33,373 --> 00:30:34,832 is still mind-blowing to me. 596 00:30:34,916 --> 00:30:37,293 Talking about my emotions, you know I hate that shit. 597 00:30:37,377 --> 00:30:40,922 So scary to think that she's just gonna be gone from me for the rest of this time… 598 00:30:41,005 --> 00:30:43,716 You guys are going to be back with your other safe places. 599 00:30:43,800 --> 00:30:47,053 -What if it's not the same? -You aren't going to be separated then… 600 00:30:47,136 --> 00:30:49,097 It's not going to be the same! 601 00:30:49,180 --> 00:30:50,807 You've learned to need this person. 602 00:30:50,890 --> 00:30:54,978 -We're all different than three weeks ago. -I know. It's not going to be the same. 603 00:30:55,061 --> 00:30:58,189 Dayna became a different person when she started dating Magan. 604 00:30:58,273 --> 00:31:01,234 She was definitely, in her older teens, younger twenties, 605 00:31:01,317 --> 00:31:03,695 like, more aggressive, more just kind of-- 606 00:31:03,778 --> 00:31:04,946 More than this? 607 00:31:05,029 --> 00:31:07,073 Yes. 608 00:31:07,156 --> 00:31:10,159 When she started dating Magan, she got a new vibe to her. 609 00:31:10,243 --> 00:31:12,203 Like, she was just a lot happier. 610 00:31:12,287 --> 00:31:13,162 Yeah. 611 00:31:13,246 --> 00:31:14,080 Softer. 612 00:31:14,163 --> 00:31:16,958 Magan has really made her a better person, I think. 613 00:31:20,837 --> 00:31:22,338 I mean, I love Magan. 614 00:31:22,422 --> 00:31:23,715 I love her too. 615 00:31:25,341 --> 00:31:26,175 Yeah. 616 00:31:27,302 --> 00:31:29,262 If you're ready for the next step, 617 00:31:29,345 --> 00:31:30,972 and I know you guys love each other, 618 00:31:31,055 --> 00:31:33,141 then… I mean, you have to figure that out. 619 00:31:33,725 --> 00:31:34,559 Yeah. 620 00:31:45,194 --> 00:31:48,072 -In the rearview mirror -Mirror 621 00:31:49,240 --> 00:31:51,784 Checking all my nightmares Thinking they're in… 622 00:31:51,868 --> 00:31:53,286 In the rearview mirror 623 00:31:53,369 --> 00:31:55,997 My mom and my sister's opinion is very important to me. 624 00:31:56,581 --> 00:32:00,126 Magan brought so much to my life. I haven't spoken to her in two weeks. 625 00:32:00,209 --> 00:32:02,837 I was like, "My God, what's going on with her? Is she okay?" 626 00:32:02,920 --> 00:32:05,924 I just couldn't take it anymore, and I call her… 627 00:32:06,007 --> 00:32:07,717 In the rearview mirror 628 00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:10,011 How can you talk to me like this? 629 00:32:11,888 --> 00:32:13,348 What did I do? 630 00:32:14,098 --> 00:32:15,850 Magan, please just tell me. 631 00:32:16,851 --> 00:32:18,144 How can you say that? 632 00:32:18,645 --> 00:32:21,356 I don't even know who I'm talking to right now. 633 00:32:24,067 --> 00:32:25,902 How could you do this to me? 634 00:32:25,985 --> 00:32:28,196 You're treating me like I'm nothing. 635 00:32:28,279 --> 00:32:30,823 Who are you? Because you're not the person 636 00:32:30,907 --> 00:32:33,910 that I came here with, and I thought I was going to marry you. 637 00:32:34,827 --> 00:32:36,412 I'm going back to Michigan. 638 00:32:36,496 --> 00:32:40,208 My whole world is upside down right now, and I don't understand. 639 00:32:41,292 --> 00:32:44,379 I just don't understand how like… you're my person! 640 00:32:48,424 --> 00:32:52,053 I would never abandon you, you are so bullshit to even say that. 641 00:32:52,136 --> 00:32:54,472 You're treating me like I'm nothing. 642 00:32:54,555 --> 00:32:57,016 I'm so disappointed in you too. 643 00:32:57,558 --> 00:32:59,602 I still love you. 644 00:33:00,395 --> 00:33:02,689 I don't think I've ever fallen apart like that. 645 00:33:02,772 --> 00:33:05,191 I've never needed anyone like that in my life. 646 00:33:05,274 --> 00:33:06,901 And she just didn't care. 647 00:33:07,819 --> 00:33:10,196 It's the worst feeling I've ever felt in my life. 648 00:33:10,738 --> 00:33:11,864 What happened? 649 00:33:11,948 --> 00:33:14,117 She literally told me to fuck off. 650 00:33:15,201 --> 00:33:16,494 What was her reason? 651 00:33:16,577 --> 00:33:19,372 She said, "I do not care about you. I'm done." 652 00:33:19,455 --> 00:33:21,958 "Go home if that's what you want. I don't give a fuck." 653 00:33:22,041 --> 00:33:24,002 "Stop calling me or you're getting blocked." 654 00:33:24,752 --> 00:33:27,380 I'm telling you, Magan has never spoken to me-- 655 00:33:27,463 --> 00:33:30,133 I literally do not believe that this is her. 656 00:33:32,260 --> 00:33:34,971 Now I can't breathe. I cannot breathe. 657 00:33:35,847 --> 00:33:38,182 I feel like I'm going to die right now. 658 00:33:52,488 --> 00:33:54,490 I'm with my girls 659 00:33:55,074 --> 00:33:58,286 Tonight I'm in my zone I'm with my girls 660 00:33:59,245 --> 00:34:01,164 Yeah, we're here alone 661 00:34:01,247 --> 00:34:02,665 Why do I feel so small? 662 00:34:02,749 --> 00:34:05,960 -You've been shrinking! -You're not small! 663 00:34:06,794 --> 00:34:08,629 -Hi! -Hi, guys. 664 00:34:08,713 --> 00:34:10,173 -Hey! -Hi. 665 00:34:10,256 --> 00:34:13,009 -What's up? -Okay. Whatever. That was awkward. 666 00:34:14,343 --> 00:34:15,636 How's Bentley? 667 00:34:15,720 --> 00:34:17,638 Ah, so good. So cute. 668 00:34:18,139 --> 00:34:21,017 Ashley's mad because he cuddles with me more than he does with her. 669 00:34:21,642 --> 00:34:24,729 -Nuh-uh! Don't tell me that. -Yeah. Oh, sorry. 670 00:34:25,313 --> 00:34:27,231 -Bridget! -Dogs love me. 671 00:34:28,691 --> 00:34:30,985 -Hey! -Ah! 672 00:34:31,069 --> 00:34:33,738 -What's up, guys? How are you? -Hi. 673 00:34:33,821 --> 00:34:34,655 Good. How are you? 674 00:34:34,739 --> 00:34:35,698 Good. Good. 675 00:34:35,782 --> 00:34:38,534 -Hi, Magan. How are you? My God. -How are you? 676 00:34:39,786 --> 00:34:41,120 Cool. Glad you're here. 677 00:34:44,123 --> 00:34:46,501 So we're all brought here by our exes. 678 00:34:46,584 --> 00:34:48,377 Yeah. We were all issued the Ultimatum. 679 00:34:48,461 --> 00:34:51,589 Yeah, I feel like I really just realized this today, 680 00:34:52,381 --> 00:34:54,759 but having a wife as a femme, 681 00:34:55,593 --> 00:35:00,723 which I never considered or thought, because I need to be the femme. 682 00:35:00,807 --> 00:35:05,853 Anyways, um, she'll do my lip liner and I'm like, okay, this is hot. 683 00:35:06,687 --> 00:35:09,440 Do you guys feel like you have like an emotional connection? 684 00:35:09,524 --> 00:35:12,485 I would say for me, I think the emotional connection 685 00:35:12,568 --> 00:35:15,947 comes from, like, what I'm looking for. 686 00:35:16,030 --> 00:35:18,407 She makes me feel like I am her wife. 687 00:35:18,491 --> 00:35:19,826 -Like I'm there. -I love that. 688 00:35:19,909 --> 00:35:23,454 Like, I am always going to be her first priority. 689 00:35:23,538 --> 00:35:27,416 I'm not saying Ashley doesn't do that, but she needs to do more of that. 690 00:35:27,500 --> 00:35:30,545 -Mm-hmm. -Which I don't think should be an issue. 691 00:35:30,628 --> 00:35:33,297 -Mm-hmm. -Britney is more attentive. 692 00:35:33,381 --> 00:35:35,258 I hope whatever she's learned from you, Marita, 693 00:35:35,341 --> 00:35:37,844 that she can put back into, like, us, 694 00:35:37,927 --> 00:35:40,429 because that could be, like, the it factor for me. 695 00:35:40,513 --> 00:35:42,056 Yeah. Yeah. 696 00:35:43,099 --> 00:35:47,145 I like the way You look at me so endlessly 697 00:35:47,228 --> 00:35:49,730 You comfort me 698 00:35:50,606 --> 00:35:51,732 Thank you. 699 00:35:51,816 --> 00:35:52,900 This is wild. 700 00:35:52,984 --> 00:35:54,152 Wild. 701 00:35:54,235 --> 00:35:56,195 How you doing? 702 00:35:56,279 --> 00:35:57,780 I don't even know anymore. 703 00:35:57,864 --> 00:35:59,824 Sometimes I just don't know if I'm losing my shit. 704 00:35:59,907 --> 00:36:02,660 -Oh no. -All of us resonate 705 00:36:02,743 --> 00:36:05,288 -because we're the Ultimatum givers. -Right? We all do. 706 00:36:05,371 --> 00:36:07,623 -Yeah. -Yeah. 707 00:36:07,707 --> 00:36:10,543 It's just like, why am I not good enough? That's how I feel. 708 00:36:10,626 --> 00:36:12,628 It's not that. You're good enough in your own way. 709 00:36:12,712 --> 00:36:14,797 It is, and I know exactly what she expects. 710 00:36:14,881 --> 00:36:17,425 -It is top-freaking-tier. -Top-tier. 711 00:36:17,508 --> 00:36:19,844 No, I'm not even kidding. It really is. 712 00:36:19,927 --> 00:36:22,180 It is a lot, but for some reason, 713 00:36:22,263 --> 00:36:25,850 the way I naturally show up for my partner, like, it's not a lot. 714 00:36:25,933 --> 00:36:28,269 -Because I just genuinely want to do that. -Yeah. 715 00:36:28,352 --> 00:36:30,229 I'm not saying you guys don't belong together, 716 00:36:30,313 --> 00:36:32,398 but either it's going to take a lot of work or just… 717 00:36:33,024 --> 00:36:36,652 They're going to be like, "I'm settling." You have to meet in the middle. 718 00:36:37,820 --> 00:36:38,654 Yeah. 719 00:36:39,572 --> 00:36:41,282 How are you guys? Oh my gosh. 720 00:36:41,365 --> 00:36:43,451 Like, how's your life? How's it going? 721 00:36:43,534 --> 00:36:46,037 It was really hard the first week. 722 00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:50,458 AJ wasn't exactly feeling the same things I was. Right? Like… 723 00:36:50,541 --> 00:36:51,667 How so? 724 00:36:51,751 --> 00:36:54,962 I was not speaking to my ex, Mel. 725 00:36:55,046 --> 00:36:58,174 But… you guys were talking. 726 00:36:58,966 --> 00:37:01,344 And that was really hard. It was a hard pill to swallow. 727 00:37:06,390 --> 00:37:09,227 AJ made a commitment to you in this experience, 728 00:37:09,310 --> 00:37:11,312 like we all did for somebody here, 729 00:37:11,395 --> 00:37:14,106 to be your support system in this with you. 730 00:37:14,190 --> 00:37:16,484 And you were robbed of that. 731 00:37:16,567 --> 00:37:19,153 -She robbed you? -You deserved so much better than that. 732 00:37:19,237 --> 00:37:20,404 Than AJ? 733 00:37:22,573 --> 00:37:26,911 She wasn't supportive even though you were living two different struggles, I guess? 734 00:37:26,994 --> 00:37:29,997 How can you be supportive if we're living different struggles? 735 00:37:30,706 --> 00:37:32,917 It was a very lonely road at first. 736 00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:35,127 -I had to find myself very quickly. -Yeah. 737 00:37:35,211 --> 00:37:37,463 And, literally, I lost my shit doing it. 738 00:37:39,173 --> 00:37:40,675 I so get it. 739 00:37:40,758 --> 00:37:44,428 I'm sure I wouldn't be as scared if I was your ex. 740 00:37:44,512 --> 00:37:45,888 And you're with Marita. 741 00:37:45,972 --> 00:37:49,183 You are probably just going to be best friends and have a great time. 742 00:37:49,267 --> 00:37:50,977 Whereas, like, being Marie? 743 00:37:51,060 --> 00:37:54,188 Like I get it. There's more there to be threatened by. 744 00:37:54,772 --> 00:37:58,109 And that's so uncomfy and so, like, terrible of a feeling. 745 00:37:59,986 --> 00:38:04,448 Mel is truly amazing. I will never, ever not love that girl. 746 00:38:04,532 --> 00:38:07,368 I don't know how real any of your guys' experiences have been, 747 00:38:07,451 --> 00:38:09,370 but mine has been very real. 748 00:38:11,831 --> 00:38:13,874 But, like, that's the whole point. 749 00:38:13,958 --> 00:38:18,546 We're supposed to truly figure out if this is somebody we want to be with, 750 00:38:18,629 --> 00:38:20,673 -and do they want to be with us back? -Yeah. 751 00:38:20,756 --> 00:38:24,010 We're all in agreement on that for sure. That's the point of this process. 752 00:38:24,093 --> 00:38:26,595 We're all here because we issued an Ultimatum. 753 00:38:26,679 --> 00:38:30,099 And we all agreed to this. No one forced any of you guys to do this. 754 00:38:39,191 --> 00:38:41,902 I feel like I'm getting more and more ready. 755 00:38:41,986 --> 00:38:43,988 -Mm-hmm. -So almost yes. 756 00:38:44,071 --> 00:38:48,826 My biggest fear is that Haley realizes that, like, it's not us. 757 00:38:48,909 --> 00:38:52,163 I feel like I can really obsess with, like, what is my ex-partner doing? 758 00:38:52,246 --> 00:38:54,582 Is she falling in love? Did I wait too long? 759 00:38:54,665 --> 00:38:56,083 Yeah, it's hard. 760 00:38:56,167 --> 00:38:58,002 I want you to know that I respect you. 761 00:38:58,085 --> 00:39:00,046 I would never do anything to hurt you. 762 00:39:01,422 --> 00:39:03,507 It's hard not to spiral. 763 00:39:11,057 --> 00:39:15,394 What has everybody liked and disliked the most about their trial marriage? 764 00:39:15,478 --> 00:39:19,732 There was a time where Marie, she was having a really hard time, in… 765 00:39:20,775 --> 00:39:23,277 like, getting over… Mel. 766 00:39:23,361 --> 00:39:25,613 That was hard to watch her go through. 767 00:39:27,114 --> 00:39:29,867 I think it was just acknowledgement. 768 00:39:29,950 --> 00:39:32,286 What do you mean? Like, me not acknowledging her? 769 00:39:32,370 --> 00:39:34,080 -Mm-hmm. -Doing what I'm supposed to do? 770 00:39:34,163 --> 00:39:35,539 We saw you at the pool. 771 00:39:38,667 --> 00:39:41,045 If I see any one of y'all, I say… 772 00:39:41,128 --> 00:39:43,714 We don't need to have a five-minute conversation. 773 00:39:43,798 --> 00:39:46,175 -I had the same experience. -But yeah, just saying hi. 774 00:39:46,258 --> 00:39:47,426 That's hard. 775 00:39:47,510 --> 00:39:49,595 Especially for somebody you've known for ten years. 776 00:39:49,678 --> 00:39:51,388 Like, I could never imagine that. 777 00:39:51,472 --> 00:39:55,476 Because she went through two weeks of hell and could not focus on our relationship. 778 00:39:55,559 --> 00:39:58,604 It took her literally three days ago to turn shit around. 779 00:40:00,147 --> 00:40:03,984 For me, when I see Dayna, and she can't even, like, look at me… 780 00:40:06,028 --> 00:40:09,323 I didn't come here to run off in the sunset with anybody else. 781 00:40:09,406 --> 00:40:11,534 I came here to supplement my own relationship. 782 00:40:12,535 --> 00:40:15,204 Damn, I can't even get a hello. That really hurts. 783 00:40:15,788 --> 00:40:18,624 If my partner can't acknowledge me, I'm not going to sit there 784 00:40:18,707 --> 00:40:21,001 and run after this person like a puppy dog. 785 00:40:21,085 --> 00:40:23,295 I'm going to create space, because I can't rely on you. 786 00:40:23,379 --> 00:40:25,172 I have to learn how to rely on myself. 787 00:40:25,256 --> 00:40:27,258 I don't think you should continuously punish her. 788 00:40:27,341 --> 00:40:30,010 I'm not punishing her. I'm just creating my own space. 789 00:40:30,594 --> 00:40:33,139 -If she needs you, are you always there? -Yes. 790 00:40:33,681 --> 00:40:34,515 Every time? 791 00:40:35,307 --> 00:40:37,560 I mean, I don't think anyone's perfect. 792 00:40:39,270 --> 00:40:43,065 If my partner reaches out to me hysterically and needs me, I'm there. 793 00:40:44,108 --> 00:40:46,694 'If my partner says, "I need you, you're the only person I need, 794 00:40:46,777 --> 00:40:49,196 -this is what I want, nobody else…" -I'd be there in a second. 795 00:40:49,280 --> 00:40:51,949 …I'd be there in a second. I would answer every call. 796 00:40:52,032 --> 00:40:53,993 I wouldn't tell her not to call me again. 797 00:40:54,952 --> 00:40:58,330 Between yesterday, I think you guys have punished each other enough. 798 00:40:58,414 --> 00:41:00,708 What happened yesterday? 799 00:41:01,584 --> 00:41:03,711 -What… I… Never mind. -No, I mean… 800 00:41:03,794 --> 00:41:05,880 Yeah, I don't want to get into it a lot. 801 00:41:06,547 --> 00:41:09,842 I feel like I've been hurt a lot. 802 00:41:14,096 --> 00:41:15,598 Would you like to talk to me? 803 00:41:17,016 --> 00:41:19,059 Like, privately? I would like to talk to you. 804 00:41:20,019 --> 00:41:21,437 -Yeah. -Okay. Come on. 805 00:41:24,064 --> 00:41:25,316 That was intense. 806 00:41:25,900 --> 00:41:28,068 Broken 807 00:41:28,152 --> 00:41:30,946 That affects everyone here. 808 00:41:31,030 --> 00:41:33,032 You left me in the darkness 809 00:41:35,743 --> 00:41:36,911 How have you been? 810 00:41:36,994 --> 00:41:38,245 -It's been a lot. -Yeah? 811 00:41:38,329 --> 00:41:41,832 I didn't even realize how bad I am at talking about my own feelings. 812 00:41:42,416 --> 00:41:45,127 But what I've seen in Magan is that she's very open 813 00:41:45,211 --> 00:41:46,879 about talking about her feelings. 814 00:41:46,962 --> 00:41:50,382 And it does make me feel very comfortable to, like, share how I'm feeling. 815 00:41:51,258 --> 00:41:52,718 It has felt very intimate. 816 00:41:53,594 --> 00:41:56,680 Magan and I have been having an emotional experience. 817 00:41:57,389 --> 00:42:01,185 My hope is that me and Pilar, we can have our work 818 00:42:01,268 --> 00:42:04,313 that we've done on ourselves, come together and, like, mesh. 819 00:42:04,396 --> 00:42:06,815 But I recognize that the other option is that 820 00:42:06,899 --> 00:42:09,902 the work we've been doing on ourselves will push us apart. 821 00:42:12,988 --> 00:42:15,115 I think she's fully recognizing that and being like, 822 00:42:15,199 --> 00:42:16,700 "I have not been showing up for Haley." 823 00:42:16,784 --> 00:42:19,828 "I've been putting my needs first and fully neglecting her." 824 00:42:19,912 --> 00:42:22,081 That's something that she's realizing. 825 00:42:22,164 --> 00:42:25,709 So I'm just encouraging her to like… You guys will have your time together… 826 00:42:25,793 --> 00:42:28,254 It's terrifying. It's very scary. It's a risk. 827 00:42:29,630 --> 00:42:32,675 Now that I have decided to go all in, it is a big question mark 828 00:42:32,758 --> 00:42:34,885 because I'm not saying, like, I'm 100% confident 829 00:42:34,969 --> 00:42:36,887 where I'm coming out of this at the end. 830 00:42:37,972 --> 00:42:40,683 I think Magan will always be in my life just because she's had 831 00:42:40,766 --> 00:42:42,893 -such a profound impact on me. -Mm-hmm. 832 00:42:42,977 --> 00:42:44,395 I just never could have imagined 833 00:42:44,478 --> 00:42:46,855 that's what I was gonna get out of this experience. 834 00:42:46,939 --> 00:42:49,567 To be perfectly honest, as an Ultimatum giver, 835 00:42:49,650 --> 00:42:51,110 was not what I was expecting. 836 00:42:53,070 --> 00:42:54,154 Um… 837 00:42:55,698 --> 00:42:56,740 This shit is just so hard. 838 00:42:56,824 --> 00:43:00,786 I didn't expect any of the things that have happened to happen. 839 00:43:00,869 --> 00:43:02,079 I feel like I've just cracked. 840 00:43:02,162 --> 00:43:04,290 I almost left last night, to be honest. 841 00:43:06,292 --> 00:43:08,836 I don't know that I have a future with Magan. 842 00:43:08,919 --> 00:43:11,130 -Why do you say that? -Yeah, I was gonna say why? 843 00:43:11,213 --> 00:43:13,674 Um, well, we spoke. 844 00:43:14,174 --> 00:43:17,595 She actually just simply didn't give a fuck that I exist. 845 00:43:18,387 --> 00:43:21,890 Magan knows how much it takes for me to, like, ask for help… 846 00:43:23,017 --> 00:43:26,562 or, like, fall apart. I don't do that shit. Um… 847 00:43:27,479 --> 00:43:31,525 And, like, knowing that she is, like, who she is to me, 848 00:43:31,609 --> 00:43:34,778 to, like, tell me that she just doesn't care, 849 00:43:35,404 --> 00:43:37,823 I don't recognize the person I came here with. 850 00:43:39,158 --> 00:43:41,243 I feel like Pilar is feeling similarly. 851 00:43:44,038 --> 00:43:47,499 If Pilar is feeling some kind of way about the way that I'm acting, 852 00:43:48,417 --> 00:43:51,462 I have put my feelings aside for a long time. 853 00:43:51,545 --> 00:43:54,006 I don't want to be a tyrant to Pilar after this, 854 00:43:54,089 --> 00:43:56,508 but I just want to meet in the middle a bit more. 855 00:43:57,176 --> 00:44:00,471 But, Dayna, I think that this is just how Magan wants to deal with it. 856 00:44:00,554 --> 00:44:02,640 I know that you guys had a conversation. 857 00:44:02,723 --> 00:44:04,475 I was not present for it, I didn't hear. 858 00:44:04,558 --> 00:44:05,976 See, I don't believe that though. 859 00:44:06,810 --> 00:44:09,980 I am telling you, I have known this girl my whole life. 860 00:44:10,064 --> 00:44:11,940 I did not recognize this person. 861 00:44:12,024 --> 00:44:14,193 I literally was like, is this Magan? 862 00:44:14,276 --> 00:44:16,487 Like, I genuinely… I misread you, 863 00:44:16,570 --> 00:44:18,364 and I'm a little confused on your intentions. 864 00:44:18,447 --> 00:44:20,991 Why is Magan, like, fueled by anger? 865 00:44:21,075 --> 00:44:22,409 From what Magan's been hearing, 866 00:44:22,493 --> 00:44:25,120 you've been taking the experience very seriously. 867 00:44:25,204 --> 00:44:26,997 -Mm-hmm. -The fact you haven't been speaking, 868 00:44:27,081 --> 00:44:30,376 I think that neither of you were assuming good intent from the other. 869 00:44:30,459 --> 00:44:33,337 I'm sad that she's just going in an opposite direction. 870 00:44:33,420 --> 00:44:35,589 I don't think it's fair to say she's reverting. 871 00:44:35,673 --> 00:44:37,091 She's done so much work. 872 00:44:37,174 --> 00:44:39,802 She is resenting me and hating me. 873 00:44:39,885 --> 00:44:41,762 Is that your own brain playing tricks on you? 874 00:44:41,845 --> 00:44:44,598 No, I talked to her and then she confirmed everything I said. 875 00:44:44,682 --> 00:44:46,725 She was like, "Go home. Have a safe flight." 876 00:44:47,434 --> 00:44:49,144 I'm sorry, Haley, but what has she learned? 877 00:44:49,228 --> 00:44:51,689 Because she's actually, like, digressed, in my opinion. 878 00:44:52,272 --> 00:44:54,108 She's making a ton of growth. 879 00:44:54,191 --> 00:44:57,152 It just might not be the growth that you're expecting. 880 00:45:05,703 --> 00:45:07,079 Speaking as her trial wife, 881 00:45:07,162 --> 00:45:09,456 Dayna and I are very similar in a lot of things. 882 00:45:09,540 --> 00:45:10,999 And that's why we chose each other. 883 00:45:11,083 --> 00:45:14,378 What she explains to me is that she's there for you a lot, 884 00:45:14,461 --> 00:45:16,296 and you are always her person. 885 00:45:16,380 --> 00:45:18,799 She loves you, she relies on you, she needs you. 886 00:45:18,882 --> 00:45:20,801 And I know that she felt yesterday, 887 00:45:20,884 --> 00:45:23,721 she really needed you, and you didn't show up. 888 00:45:27,558 --> 00:45:30,978 But there's a difference, and I want you to understand what the difference is, 889 00:45:31,061 --> 00:45:32,396 because it's important. 890 00:45:32,479 --> 00:45:35,190 When I feel like I need help, I will ask for help. 891 00:45:35,274 --> 00:45:37,234 -You know she doesn't do that. -She doesn't. 892 00:45:37,317 --> 00:45:41,155 She didn't initiate a conversation saying, "I'm going through a really tough time, 893 00:45:41,238 --> 00:45:43,365 I need you to show up for me. I don't know what to do." 894 00:45:43,449 --> 00:45:45,325 It's, "I'm breaking up with you, 895 00:45:45,409 --> 00:45:48,537 I'm going home, this isn't for me, I don't want to marry you." 896 00:45:48,620 --> 00:45:51,373 It's like, why would I even think that you would need me in this time 897 00:45:51,457 --> 00:45:53,375 when you're just telling me this? 898 00:45:53,459 --> 00:45:55,377 Who in their right mind would think that? 899 00:45:55,461 --> 00:45:57,004 You know her though. 900 00:45:57,087 --> 00:45:58,422 Yeah, but here's the thing, 901 00:45:58,505 --> 00:46:01,175 just because I know, doesn't mean I'm going to enable it. 902 00:46:01,258 --> 00:46:02,634 -You're being extra. -No, I'm not. 903 00:46:02,718 --> 00:46:05,012 -Personally, that's how I feel. -But that's your opinion. 904 00:46:05,095 --> 00:46:07,389 -Do you show patience, understanding? -Yes. 905 00:46:07,473 --> 00:46:09,224 Are you sure? Because I don't think so. 906 00:46:10,851 --> 00:46:13,812 She's so scared that, like, well, something's going on with Haley. 907 00:46:13,896 --> 00:46:16,106 -She's freaking out. -Who wouldn't be scared? 908 00:46:19,401 --> 00:46:21,820 I'm doing my own thing with my trial partner. 909 00:46:22,321 --> 00:46:24,072 But are you willing to let it all go 910 00:46:24,156 --> 00:46:26,492 just because you can't communicate on the same level? 911 00:46:26,575 --> 00:46:28,744 Are you willing to work on that during your three weeks? 912 00:46:28,827 --> 00:46:30,579 It depends on Dayna's growth. 913 00:46:30,662 --> 00:46:33,165 I mean, honestly, from yesterday's conversation… 914 00:46:35,125 --> 00:46:36,877 It put a really bad taste in my mouth. 915 00:46:45,427 --> 00:46:49,056 …what she's saying, I'm trying to figure a way to meet in the middle or not. 916 00:46:49,139 --> 00:46:51,433 -Ah, God. -No, I know. 917 00:46:51,517 --> 00:46:54,061 -Do you want to talk? -Do you want to talk? 918 00:46:54,144 --> 00:46:56,355 -I think we should. Right? -Oh God. 919 00:46:57,272 --> 00:46:59,733 It's funny how much you feel like you know somebody 920 00:46:59,817 --> 00:47:01,610 from hearing about them from an ex. 921 00:47:01,693 --> 00:47:03,153 I want to make sure you're okay. 922 00:47:03,237 --> 00:47:06,740 The fact that you're asking me if I'm okay right now, that's crazy. 923 00:47:06,824 --> 00:47:10,035 There's obviously a lot of reservations that you and Mel ended up together. 924 00:47:10,118 --> 00:47:12,454 Surface level, like, you and Mel are hot. 925 00:47:12,538 --> 00:47:14,331 I don't know what the fuck you're doing. 926 00:47:15,749 --> 00:47:18,293 Me and Mel were transparent that we do have a connection, 927 00:47:18,377 --> 00:47:20,087 that, like, we do have an attraction. 928 00:47:20,170 --> 00:47:22,089 We were very transparent from day one about that. 929 00:47:22,172 --> 00:47:25,008 But I also, I feel like, expect you to, as our partners, 930 00:47:25,092 --> 00:47:26,426 to give us some, like… 931 00:47:27,052 --> 00:47:30,514 Give us a little bit of fucking trust or benefit of the doubt, goddamn. 932 00:47:30,597 --> 00:47:32,850 Is that what you're doing with Magan right now? 933 00:47:32,933 --> 00:47:34,726 Giving her the benefit of the doubt? 934 00:47:34,810 --> 00:47:36,812 I was this entire experience until I spoke to her. 935 00:47:36,895 --> 00:47:38,689 No benefit. I heard it from the horse's mouth. 936 00:47:38,772 --> 00:47:40,941 It, like, physically tears my life apart. 937 00:47:41,024 --> 00:47:43,777 Magan, she's my whole existence and, like, being. 938 00:47:45,070 --> 00:47:46,655 But I can't live without Mel either. 939 00:47:47,155 --> 00:47:49,783 So I don't really know what to do, and I know it sounds so selfish… 940 00:47:52,327 --> 00:47:53,620 Do you guys like each other? 941 00:47:57,291 --> 00:47:58,458 There's feelings there. 942 00:48:00,377 --> 00:48:02,754 Whatever capacity it is, I just need her in my life. 943 00:48:03,255 --> 00:48:04,798 -Um, I haven't had, like… -Really? 944 00:48:04,882 --> 00:48:09,386 …the safe space that she's given me in so long. 945 00:48:09,469 --> 00:48:11,888 She is just so there. 946 00:48:11,972 --> 00:48:14,308 I don't even know how to, like, ever repay her. 947 00:48:16,727 --> 00:48:19,229 If she comes back and says, "I'm in love with Dayna," 948 00:48:19,313 --> 00:48:21,481 okay. I can't do anything about that. 949 00:48:21,565 --> 00:48:24,359 Yeah, that hurts and stings. Maybe that isn't the case. I don't know. 950 00:48:24,443 --> 00:48:27,154 But that's not a conversation you and I are going to have. 951 00:48:33,452 --> 00:48:34,411 Oh… 952 00:48:34,494 --> 00:48:36,955 Okay, yeah, I mean, that makes sense, but… 953 00:48:37,039 --> 00:48:38,040 -Hi, pals. -Yeah. 954 00:48:38,123 --> 00:48:39,958 Hi. 955 00:48:42,586 --> 00:48:43,879 Do you want to talk? 956 00:48:46,340 --> 00:48:47,549 How are you? You okay? 957 00:48:47,633 --> 00:48:49,801 Yeah, actually, I would regret not saying this to you. 958 00:48:49,885 --> 00:48:51,720 I don't know if I'll have another opportunity. 959 00:48:51,803 --> 00:48:52,721 Jesus Christ. Okay. 960 00:48:52,804 --> 00:48:58,185 I'm just not trusting where Dayna and Mel are at. 961 00:48:58,268 --> 00:48:59,353 Why? 962 00:48:59,436 --> 00:49:01,897 I… have heard things. 963 00:49:01,980 --> 00:49:03,148 What have you heard? 964 00:49:03,690 --> 00:49:06,151 Just like… I don't know, it's hard because… 965 00:49:06,234 --> 00:49:08,278 -I feel like now we're… -Just say it. Just say it. 966 00:49:08,362 --> 00:49:11,239 I've heard that they've been much more romantically involved 967 00:49:11,323 --> 00:49:13,200 than they're, like, letting on. 968 00:49:17,996 --> 00:49:19,456 There's lots of receipts. 969 00:49:20,165 --> 00:49:20,999 Not from me. 970 00:49:21,083 --> 00:49:23,460 Anything that anybody does is going to come to light, 971 00:49:23,543 --> 00:49:25,087 no matter what it is. 972 00:49:26,630 --> 00:49:28,882 There's something in the darkness 973 00:49:30,092 --> 00:49:33,011 Hiding in the heartless now 974 00:49:33,095 --> 00:49:34,221 I'm, like, shaking. 975 00:49:34,304 --> 00:49:36,848 X is where we mark this 976 00:49:37,891 --> 00:49:39,768 Watch it while it all burns down 977 00:49:39,851 --> 00:49:43,313 I… I'm going to, like… Hm. 978 00:49:43,397 --> 00:49:45,315 I don't really know how to take that right now. 979 00:49:45,399 --> 00:49:47,109 -I'm sorry. -Don't be sorry. 980 00:49:47,651 --> 00:49:51,196 How do you sleep at night? 981 00:49:51,279 --> 00:49:54,074 I… genuinely, I think you deserve better. 982 00:49:54,157 --> 00:50:00,998 Secrets, secrets What have you done? 983 00:50:01,581 --> 00:50:08,547 Secrets, secrets Three, two, one 984 00:50:11,717 --> 00:50:13,301 -Hey. -Hi. 985 00:50:13,385 --> 00:50:14,261 How are you? 986 00:50:15,679 --> 00:50:16,805 Fucking peachy, darling. 987 00:50:19,057 --> 00:50:21,518 I can tell, you need a hug. You look… 988 00:50:21,601 --> 00:50:23,437 -Very angry. But… -Yeah. 989 00:50:26,857 --> 00:50:28,275 Um… 990 00:50:28,900 --> 00:50:30,193 Haley came up to me… 991 00:50:31,069 --> 00:50:34,823 And she basically told me that she has proof 992 00:50:34,906 --> 00:50:37,075 that Mel and Dayna are fucking. 993 00:50:38,660 --> 00:50:41,121 And this is, mind you, like, the last five minutes. 994 00:50:41,997 --> 00:50:44,040 And I'm really angry. 995 00:50:44,541 --> 00:50:45,625 Yeah. 996 00:50:45,709 --> 00:50:47,044 The fact that I can… 997 00:50:48,837 --> 00:50:50,505 feel the way that I felt… 998 00:50:52,215 --> 00:50:54,009 while she's playing house. 999 00:50:54,760 --> 00:50:55,719 Hm. 1000 00:50:58,388 --> 00:50:59,473 Fuck that. 1001 00:50:59,556 --> 00:51:02,267 On the edge of it all 1002 00:51:02,350 --> 00:51:06,897 And the fact that Dayna sat next to me… 1003 00:51:06,980 --> 00:51:10,567 On the edge of it all 1004 00:51:10,650 --> 00:51:11,902 Who will fall? 1005 00:51:12,486 --> 00:51:13,361 Am I an idiot? 1006 00:51:14,321 --> 00:51:15,739 How did I not, like… 1007 00:51:19,367 --> 00:51:21,453 Mm. Well, we're going to find out. 1008 00:51:21,536 --> 00:51:24,498 Because I'm literally not going to bed tonight without talking to Mel. 1009 00:51:25,290 --> 00:51:26,124 I'm not. 1010 00:51:26,917 --> 00:51:28,502 I'm not sitting on this. 1011 00:51:28,585 --> 00:51:30,796 I need to know. Like, immediately. 1012 00:51:32,172 --> 00:51:33,632 You have every right. 1013 00:51:33,715 --> 00:51:35,091 Go get your answers. 1014 00:51:36,343 --> 00:51:40,180 On the edge of it all 1015 00:51:40,263 --> 00:51:43,350 I will literally fucking go on every single floor screaming her name. 1016 00:51:45,602 --> 00:51:46,812 I will find her ass. 1017 00:51:47,896 --> 00:51:49,064 Because that's bullshit. 1018 00:51:50,690 --> 00:51:54,111 On the edge of it all 1019 00:51:54,194 --> 00:51:58,240 Who will fall? 1020 00:51:58,323 --> 00:52:01,618 Who will fall? 1021 00:52:09,459 --> 00:52:14,506 Go, go 1022 00:52:14,589 --> 00:52:17,008 Go 1023 00:52:17,092 --> 00:52:19,636 Is it everyone or just me? 1024 00:52:19,719 --> 00:52:24,850 Go, go 1025 00:52:24,933 --> 00:52:27,269 Go 1026 00:52:27,352 --> 00:52:29,646 Is it everyone or just me?