High up in the clouds
Watch the sky fall down
Flew too close to the sun
I see you post, like, stories of, like, "Sometimes you want to disappear,
but all you wanna do is be found."
You're gonna talk about stories when you posted Kyle with heart eyes,
and then you blocked me?
-I didn't know about that. -Just curious, is that the story?
I can post a quote, and that's the reaction,
but… I'm blocked.
And there's not something more to you guys?
Oh, I… We… We're very authentic.
We'll tell you everything you want to know.
I understand,
so much, the real human emotion,
and yes, you know what you signed up for,
but that doesn't take away from how emotional this is.
And I just want to say I really see that.
There is gonna be some questions to be answered.
Now where will we end up?
Okay. AJ and Marie,
share with the group your experience in your first trial marriage.
In that first week, I was in a very dark place.
Probably one of the darkest I've ever been.
I felt… very scared for my own future.
I felt very conflicted at who I was, and what my purpose was.
And, ultimately, you knew the moment to give me space.
You knew the moment when you could make a joke.
And it slowly became a safe space,
because we laid the groundwork for a friendship.
We completely removed the intimacy from it,
because you can only hide behind that shit.
And true growth comes from figuring your own stuff out.
I have grown so much as a person, and so have you,
and we should be very proud of ourselves for that.
-Very proud. -For sure.
You've taught me so much within this experience.
We could always adapt and change.
And something you've admitted to me is you don't do well with change.
But you did with me.
Another thing that I loved is you absolutely give, give, give,
and you're so selfless in that.
You'd wake me up and say, "Hey, it's time to go to work."
"Here's your coffee. It's ready. Duke's already been walked."
And that energy will attract the right person,
if this person's not in this room.
Anybody would be absolutely blessed to have you.
Thanks.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Magan and Hayley.
Our trial marriage has been really easy.
Not to say that there hasn't been a lot of really hard work.
We would get really serious. Sometimes we would cry.
But then we would pop back in with a joke,
and you're good at changing the mood like that,
but then also coming back and still checking in,
and, you know I've really appreciated that.
Absolutely.
You are so open and vulnerable with your feelings,
so I'm grateful that I was able to see that and to learn that from you.
You make me feel really safe, really protected.
I think for years I've had questions about why I do the things I do,
and why do I feel so lost?
I don't want to compare Haley and Dayna, but being with you,
I discovered how to push myself, and how to trust my instincts,
and believe that all the weird, quirky things about myself,
those are damn good qualities.
And I feel like I pushed them down for so long,
and just being around you,
I just feel so much more secure within myself.
-I just really appreciate that. -Of course.
That's really sweet.
I feel like I don't have to tell you a lot.
You know what to do, and you want to make me happy,
or you just find ways to make the situation better.
That's really important.
It's not something that bothers you. It's just something that completes you.
I'll definitely miss the laughs.
We've truly had the best time.
And we've been ridiculous at all times.
I love that you get all my references of my joking.
I'll start the joke off and, like, you know exactly where it comes from.
-You riff my bit. -One thing I'm gonna do is riff your bit.
You riff my bit.
This experience, I really feel like it has changed my life.
I'm happy with the relationship that I came in here with,
but I am so proud of the work that I've done on myself.
I can't tell you enough times, like,
how grateful I am that, like, we had this experience together.
I'm just gonna miss talking to you.
Something was there that I felt like I needed, your perspective.
It does make you a total catch.
It makes me want to really prioritize getting my family on board with my life.
It's just added memories to my life
that I'm gonna cherish for the rest of my life.
It's time to move on to Dayna and Mel.
-I can't speak right now. I need you to. -I know. I got you. I got you.
My trial marriage with Dayna
has been very… life-changing.
You are really, really special to me.
I think this is the first time that anybody's truly ever seen me fully,
and hasn't run away or gotten scared of those things.
Our communication is so easy, top tier.
And Marie and I struggle with that.
We have reached an extreme level of vulnerability and comfort
that I don't know that a lot of people can reach with somebody.
I think it's a very scary level.
We both are more controlled in our emotions,
and we're used to very emotional partners.
Sometimes, I don't always feel like there's space for me to be emotional,
or maybe I won't be as supported.
You've kind of helped me realize being vulnerable isn't, like, a weakness.
With Magan, I don't feel always, like, comfortable or safe
saying what I want to say, or being who I am.
I feel judged.
I struggle to communicate with Magan.
I think me and Mel just have it so easy because we get each other.
You don't think you deserve anything.
You deserve the best, even like marriage. It's not that you don't want it.
You're too scared to have amazing things 'cause you don't want to lose them.
I just wish you could see yourself the way that other people saw you.
Thank you.
The bond that we have created and that we have, it means so much to me.
I don't often let a lot of people in,
so for us to reach that level and just become so close
and just be there for each other,
that means everything to me.
Dayna, how does it feel hearing that?
-Makes me want to cry. -Mm.
It's so hard to get her to do this kind of stuff,
and, like, she's done it so much over the past few weeks.
But, in general, I know how much it makes her, like…
So I know when she does it,
I just appreciate it, because I know what it takes.
You've impacted my life immensely.
The way that you have just taken care of me,
I'll never forget it.
You just, like… made me see myself in a different light.
I can't imagine not knowing you now.
You get me. I know you'll always be there.
I know you'll never let me down. Yeah, and I can't thank you enough.
I wanted to bring up,
in the first week, when I had run into you,
you did not even acknowledge me.
You literally pretended like I wasn't even there,
and it's something that I didn't deserve.
I wanted to, like, let you… be on your own.
You couldn't even tell me hi?
We came in this together,
and I think a simple "Hi" would have sufficed.
I didn't understand it.
So, instead of taking the time to understand
why I'm not getting that reaction, like, out of my partner,
I just decided to create space.
All the sudden I get, "I'm breaking up with you."
"I don't wanna go home with you." "I can't marry you." "I'm leaving the show."
So you ignored that, and you said, "Go home. Have a safe flight."
You said, "Have a safe flight."
If your ex said they're going home, would you tell them to have a safe flight?
-Know why? -The confusion is
you came to the folks night, and you were acting like
Magan had done something crazy.
-She did! -You trash talked me.
Every time Magan came crying to me, I fucking was there.
-You were? When? -I've never let you down.
-When were you there? -What do you mean, Magan?
You came to my room before decision day.
When I need you, I tell you I need you.
When you need me, you break up with me. You tell me you're gonna go home.
You tell me you're gonna do all these things
except for tell me that you need me.
-How am I supposed to know… -I called you and told you--
-I'm not done talking. I'm not done. -Okay.
How can I understand that you need me?
Explain it. Make it make sense.
I don't understand how you can say you didn't know I needed you.
Have I ever called you crying hysterically like that?
Telling you I'm gonna lose my mind, I don't want to be here?
Have I ever said that to you ever?
Have you heard me cry like that before?
When do I ever, ever emotionally… and I told you.
I fucking need you if you, like…
You fucked around on this trip.
I cannot be there for you. I'm sorry.
Where's the proof? And then your little friend here rolled with that too.
-Little friend? Let me tell you… -Yes! Haley!
-First of all… -You went up to Marie and told Marie
that you have proof that me and Mel are fucking.
I did not say that.
-You didn't? You know what? I don't care. -Before we get there…
-So anyway. -Back to the receipts.
So, that's where I can definitely clarify,
and I think I left things too vague with you.
I heard out what Dayna was having to say about her experience,
and how it, you know, made her feel some kind of way.
I wanted to clarify with Marie that that seemed very suspicious to me.
That I was thinking that there is definitely something more
-to the story that I'm not understanding. -Oh. Okay! Hold on now.
Because I was told there are receipts.
Very strong proof that me and Mel had been fucking the entire time.
Ma'am, I was at the cocktail party the whole time.
Why didn't you come talk to me? I was right there.
I think exactly what happened is
I called your ass out at the cocktail party.
-What did you call me out for? -That shit made you feel some way.
Why did you call my ass out for?
And you liked some get-back on me.
-Just because it-- -Why did you tell Marie that?
She did not! She just said she didn't.
-She didn't. -I'm sorry. I'm not talking to you.
-Why did you tell Marie that? -Maybe that was her interpretation.
It sounded really rehearsed, the story that you came in to say.
-So why'd you hurt her? -I was not trying to.
-She was trying to make me aware. -Of a fake-ass story.
Regardless.
-Of a fake-ass story? -Why get so defensive?
You did that shit for your own benefit.
I'm sorry. I don't care.
Weren't we just talking about growth from everybody right now?
Look, on your behalf, if it's nothing, there's nothing to get defensive about.
Because don't ever fuck… For one, don't ever speak on me when you don't know shit.
Two, you should've fucking had my back.
-I should've? -Every rumor that came to me…
-Dayna! -I shut it down. Every rumor--
Dayna, your tone is ridiculous. Talk to people like they fucking matter.
Apparently, I don't matter.
But no one's saying that to you.
Cutting everybody off, not letting anybody talk.
-You need to calm down. -Be respectful.
No one's coming at you. We're trying to understand what the fuck's going on.
Relax.
I want to leave off with one thing. I don't know if this is a sign.
Haley and I were sitting in our bedroom,
and all of a sudden, the TV turns on.
It goes to Spotify.
It logs in on both of your accounts.
-And it's so strange. -It was the weirdest thing I've ever seen.
We try to connect our phones, and you needed an approval.
Both of your accounts opened up.
And all there's been was sex playlists.
You have one private playlist that you guys created together.
And on your account, you opened the album that you made for me.
And you took all of the songs that you created for me,
including our song together, and put that on your playlist together.
Okay.
And I don't appreciate that. At all.
-Heard. -Okay, babe.
Understood.
I know tonight has been incredibly emotional.
Thank you all so much for sharing and being so vulnerable.
What I also did see was this incredible amount of growth.
And hopefully you can take that growth with you and apply that,
and really get to a place
where you guys can actually have really productive conversations.
Yeah, this needs to be private between us. This doesn't need to be, like, everyone.
Okay.
You came here tonight with someone you chose,
but you'll leave here with the person that you brought to this experience.
Tonight you will begin the second vision of what married life could be.
Over the next three weeks,
you're going to hang out with family and friends,
and you're going to get a chance to dive into the same issues
that you did the first time around.
We want to encourage you to explore everything that you need to
before you make a decision on getting married.
Do not leave a stone unturned.
Do not hold back.
And at the end, each of you will have to make a decision,
the right decision, for yourself as individuals.
Take a look at the engagement ring that you have in front of you.
These rings symbolize the commitment that you may choose to make
when the Ultimatum comes to term.
And at the end of this experience, you will have to make a choice.
Will you leave engaged to the person that you came here with?
Will you leave with the person that you chose here?
Or will you walk away alone?
Now it's time to say goodbye to your first trial marriage partner,
and head into your second trial marriage with the person you arrived here with.
Dayna and Magan.
AJ and Britney.
Bridget and Kyle.
Marie and Mel.
Ashley and Marita.
Pilar and Haley.
Welcome to your potential future.
I wish you all the best.
Good luck.
I'm proud of you.
I'm definitely nervous for Magan to couple back up with Dayna.
Magan has had, like, a profound impact on me.
We told each other we love each other. So, it's definitely confusing
to come into this new trial marriage with Pilar.
She's been my person for ten years.
I've given Pilar an Ultimatum, but I've pictured marrying Magan.
That is crazy to think about.
Can you feel it?
What a feeling
Baby
We are just two souls
Definitely go out of control
-I missed you. -I missed you.
I'm so thankful we have a respectful relationship, honestly.
-What the hell was tonight? -Crazy.
A bunch of children screaming at each other
is what I was thinking.
-Loud people. -Two firecrackers that are together.
You can't even look at me?
No.
Haven't seen me in weeks and can't look at me?
You chose to go about your three weeks in the way you did.
So don't be mad when I feel the way that I feel about that.
Magan and Dayna's business is their own bone to pick,
but you know what the proof probably fucking was?
-That Spotify bullshit. -Mm-hmm.
A locked playlist, Mel? Really?
I just thought it was interesting also that Magan was pointing fingers at Dayna
when it's like… I don't know.
Are you guys doing anything?
We have, yeah.
We can talk about it.
Later.
Losing my grip Losing my control
Are you sad to leave Pilar?
-You're not looking at me. -Sorry.
-Makes me feel like something sketchy's… -No, I'm trying to, like, say it.
We did go out one night, and then there was, like, a kiss.
That happened.
How did it just happen? What do you mean?
I don't want this to, like…
be a block for us, so, I want to…
-You have to tell me. -I want to, like, work through it.
So down, down I go
The oxtail? That hurt! Bro, you could have made her jerk chicken.
Damn, you gonna cry about it.
Like all them fucking good-ass flavored oxtails in her stomach?
What the fuck? Did she even know how to eat it off the bone?
She was asking me how.
Oh my God! What a waste.
Have you ever had an oxtail?
No, what is an oxtail? What the hell is an oxtail?
It's literally… I think it's a cow.
What do you mean it's a cow?
I don't know… Like, I thought it was an ox.
We do have a connection that you've known,
and we've teetered the line of "Could it be? Could it not?"
We never went there because
we love our partners so much.
You've teetered the line?
Okay, as long as you know where I'm going with that.
We came here together in hopes to get engaged after all this.
I'm so sorry.
Yeah, I bet you fucking are sorry. You're not sorry for shit.
You're sorry because this is backfiring in your face.
You think that you can treat people however you want.
And then when you're not treated the way you want,
then you wanna play the sympathy card?
-That's what you think? -That's exactly what I think.
It's exactly what I know.
It's exactly what you've shown me this whole time we've been here.
Why are you staying, then?
I don't know.
So you're done? We don't have a future?
I really don't think so.
A four-leaf clover.
Are you matching?
Are you fucking kidding?
You got a matching tattoo?
I did. Yes.
My God, she's really gonna be a part of my life forever now, isn't she?
I'm not interested in settling
For the hell of it
All these people want convenience I want more
The wolf is howling at the door
I don't know what to do with myself right now.
-Why don't you sit with me? -Yeah.
It's weird having you on this couch.
Yeah?
Dayna and I have a very strong bond emotionally,
but I think, like, the best thing for me to do right now
is really try to give everything to Marie, who's been here for me for four years.
It's all about where we go from here. There's a lot on the line for everybody.
I'm happy you're here.
I didn't know if I would be.
Tonight was really hard. I'm very disappointed… in Haley.
I know that you and Dayna are not the bad guys,
and I believe you, and I trust you.
I'm excited to see how you've…
I want to say, grown in this experience.
We sometimes lack passion
because, you know, we're always working.
I did mean what I said about being seen and heard.
I think that is a non-negotiable for me.
Sometimes when I speak, I feel like you kind of… "Yeah, yeah, yeah."
You've said this before.
-Mm-hmm. -I didn't mean to disregard you.
So that's very important for me, for our trial marriage.
And I would like to see… you find your voice,
to be confident in whatever it is you do.
And I'd like to help you get there if I can.
When Dayna tonight was talking about your self-worth…
I see that. I get that.
You are worth so much.
You are worthy of all of the love
and all of the passion.
And it really kills me that we went four years
and you don't feel worthy.
It hurts me so deeply to my core that you say you have never felt seen.
You and Dayna.
I can see it.
Like, this connection that you guys have.
All I can do is… take it in now,
but I am very scared of what this looks like
tomorrow and the day after.
I need to go
I'll stay on the couch and you can sleep in the bedroom.
I, like, can't even believe who you are.
You didn't tell me it was a matching tattoo until I asked?
Magan, do you realize how much there is to unpack still?
Really? We said that if we made it out of here together,
we would get matching tattoos.
You go and get matching tattoos with Mel?
We always say we'll do something, then we don't.
I can't believe I wanted to marry you.
You are not who I thought you were.
And for a second, I was gonna open up and give you a fucking chance.
And you continuously break my heart. You break my fucking heart, Dayna!
Oh
In the heat of the battle Yeah, you know I'm not giving up
I just struggle when I don't understand you,
because I usually understand you so well.
I don't really know what to do about it.
I feel terrible that something physical happened.
I know that didn't need to happen, and I didn't want that to happen.
I feel awful, especially knowing for me,
like, it didn't mean anything.
But to me, it's like, if you loved me that much,
why did those things happen?
I, like, was…
thinking of you.
I was. I know that I was acting very selfishly. I think I--
-That's what I don't understand. -Yeah.
And that's what I can't explain.
Because there is no rational reason for it.
I think you need to figure out what the reason is.
I know the reason. It's me not standing up for myself,
not wanting to hurt someone.
'Cause I don't want to be in a marriage
where I feel like you're gonna just do whatever to be nice, like…
You… don't have to worry about that.
It's fine to not be liked by everybody.
I know. I realize that 1,000%.
I don't need the ego boost.
I don't need that, like… I wasn't asserting myself.
And I don't want you to have to worry about that.
Like, I don't have a wandering eye.
I don't need validation from other people.
Like, you're the only one that I want. I promise.
I'm very fragile right now.
I know. I'm sorry.
Come here.
I look at you as this perfect person…
Yeah, I don't want you to.
I forget that you can make mistakes too.
-I can't live up to that. -I know.
But I'm sorry.
But I'm, like, learning from my mistakes, and I just…
hope that you'll, like, be open to me.
I'm gonna try my best.
I just don't want you to, like, look at me differently.
You know me. You know I'm super empathetic,
and that the second you start crying, I'm gonna, like, fold.
I'm not trying… That makes it sound like it's manipulative or something.
That's not what I meant. I'm trying to say
I don't want you to think I'm being callous
for not, like, crumbling.
I'm just trying to, like…
also stand up for my own needs.
And be able to express myself.
I still love you.
You do?
You still want to be with me?
And I don't feel like I've ever looked at you differently.
Good, I want you to know that you do know me.
And I really don't want to talk about the past anymore.
Me neither.
I just want to focus on us.
Yeah.
That's all that matters.
You can wish on it.
I've tried and I've tried But I want more
I can't let you go
With us being so different,
I feel like Kyle is obviously very different from you.
She's a very watered-down version of you, I would say.
You know, sure she--
-She's the La Croix. -Yeah.
I'm the Four Loko, right?
She's so go-with-the-flow, and she's so agreeable.
It felt weird because I do take a passenger seat a lot.
It just made me realize, if this is how I feel, how did Haley feel?
I think it's been hard for us to change those roles
since we've been so stuck in them.
It was nice being paired up with Magan because we were able to get past
so many of the basic issues,
and build the safe space to talk about really deep things.
Both of us were not willing to go back to the way that we had been living before.
We recognized there was work to do on ourselves,
and… it was hard,
and so we really went through that.
And then, we agreed that…
Of course, we were attracted to each other, but we had--
Of course?
Didn't say that in your choice speech.
Should we have?
You and Kyle didn't have to say you were attracted to each other for us to know
that that special bond was attraction.
Jesus Christ. Did you guys cuddle?
We cuddled.
Night one?
Um…
We did cuddle night one.
Yeah.
I'm just curious.
We… decided that if you and Dayna were feeling
the way that Magan and I were feeling,
we felt you guys would have had regret coming out of it if you didn't explore…
whatever it was that you wanted to do in this experience.
And I thought that you could potentially be falling in love with Kyle.
And I was… I understand,
but I did feel like that,
and we did decide to…
To cross that… cross that line.
Was it one time?
It was not one time.
Can I ask how many?
Will that… Will that help the conversation?
I mean, I wasn't, like, counting every time.
Like, do you have an emotional connection with her?
What does that mean?
Do you love her?
Don't.
I don't know what to do with this information.
Please don't touch me.
I don't know what to say.
You don't have to say anything.
I feel I did this.
You did this?
Yeah. Like, what if I had
proposed to you,
and if I had
made you feel… seen and heard.
I kept saying my worst fear was that I would get to a point that I was ready
and you were falling in love with someone else.
And I said that.
Now it's happening.
Like, what the fuck?
I'm sorry.
Were you manifesting
We could find our way back to each other?
Maybe things were different
In another timeline We could be together
Guess I'm collateral damage
Loved you and you took me for granted
Since we came home, you haven't been able to keep your hands off me.
Fuck off outta here.
I'm gonna get up on this heating pad. This feels nice.
How was it being with Marita?
It was refreshing.
She was a really good listener.
Marie was eye-opener to all the things that I would like.
I ain't gonna lie, I really enjoyed
someone being home all the time.
I'd be working, and she'd make me breakfast.
Do you remember the woman I was to you before I started Vitaluxx?
Yes, I do.
What was she like?
You did everything.
Dinners, breakfast, lunch, laundry, cleaning, house was always tidy.
I know she's still in there.
I'm just saying what I recently discovered that I liked.
I mean, I like a boss woman. I like, you know, everything you've been doing.
I'm never gonna take that away from you,
because just as much as I know I'm your baby,
like, Vitaluxx is your baby too.
When we came in here, you said
you want to achieve certain things for yourself before marrying someone.
Mm-hmm.
I don't know, I feel like as time went on, you just started focusing,
you know, on less of how you're gonna be that so we can get married,
more so, like, Britney needs to give you more reassurance,
and Britney doesn't have time for you.
Like, that's what you bring up now as what holds you back.
Yes, I hear your concerns of reassurance and making time for you.
So is it really just that?
I think it's both.
You loving me is not the question, because I know that.
I'm scared that you go through highs and lows.
You might say, "Yes, I want marriage now," and then,
if I were to propose,
and we're engaged,
months down the line, if Vitaluxx isn't doing that well,
"Hey, we're gonna have to hold off on this engagement,
because there's things I need to take care of."
That's a scary thought.
You're putting us on pause by waiting for something that may or may not happen.
If you wanted to get to a certain point, there's no timeline on that either.
That could not happen, it can happen.
The thing with business, I mean, all of these things are a flow of life.
It's a risk you should be willing to take. I'm not asking to get married tomorrow.
Even though I gave you the Ultimatum, I'm not putting everything on you.
And you know, you respond to things for a reason,
and I'm trying to be reflective and accountable for
who I've also showed up as.
If at the end of this we don't agree, we don't agree,
but I'm, like, trying to really see it from your lens.
I appreciate that.
I love you.
Love you too.
You just need to hold on You just need to hold on
Hold on
Cheers.
To being happy.
Yeah.
Oh, she's delicious.
So is she. I'm, like, drinking a straight-up banana.
I love it.
-I love it. I love it. -Like baby food.
Baby, I feel like we really are, like, at a point where…
I love you enough to…
see… and hear things differently.
I'm talking about, like, kids,
and just how shit changes.
Having a family that's, like, a value.
That's a core value. That's something you've always wanted,
and I think that you shouldn't change your values for someone else.
You know, and I shouldn't rob you of that if that's what you need.
My perspective on family has changed drastically.
Family is a construct, and it's about, like, what you make of it.
We have a family already.
And it's not like I'm giving up something.
There are so many other things in me that feels like…
-That feels like I'm being filled. -Yeah.
There are so many other parts that I would much rather grow into.
Seeing everything for the first time
It makes me sad even hearing you say that,
it's always like you putting us before you.
Um…
It's almost like you're just willing to accept whatever,
when you should, like… I know you know your worth.
I know you know who you are, and, like, the things that you want.
I don't feel like I'm putting myself any less though.
-I really don't. -I trust you if that's what you're saying.
I'm like, yeah, I don't feel like I am at all.
I feel like I've really stepped up
in terms of, like, what I am comfortable with
and what I'm not comfortable with, and the boundaries I'm setting.
Roll out your love and wrap around me
-You want to go for a walk? -Yeah, cool.
That was a nice juice.
Roll out your love and follow your lead
If a time comes when I look at you and I say, "You know what, I want a kid,"
then that's a conversation that we can have then.
You know, I think eventually you will want that,
no matter when the time is.
I think that you need to leave space
for the fact you're not the same person that you were four years ago.
And honestly, neither was I.
-Neither am I. -Mm-hmm.
No matter what happens years from now,
I'm really hoping that you and I will have really good communication by then,
that it won't come to a surprise.
And that I won't have to walk on eggshells to talk about it.
That's the point of choosing each other every day.
It's really nice to hear.
I don't really think there's much more that Marie can do.
I think that she's doing everything that I've asked.
I think that she's putting in a lot of effort.
This definitely has me considering that marriage and kids
might not be the worst thing in the world, but baby steps.
Her opinions are a little bit malleable at this time.
Maybe mine are as well.
-You love me? -Mm-hmm.
A lot.
You could break my heart
Leave another scar
I know you won't And that's my favorite part
You're going down.
No, baby, you're gonna get crushed.
Hell yeah.
Baby.
Well, if that shows you anything how this is gonna go, that's it right there.
It sure does.
So what are good qualities that you think that you should have in a marriage?
I think that you should love each other every single day.
That you should want to share your lives together, every part of it.
What about loyalty, honesty, communication?
-Yeah, all of those too. -Any of those? Okay.
Do you see that in me?
Yes, honey.
Like all of them, or am I missing some?
You're missing some.
Like what?
Like showing up.
That's not true. I literally do show up.
I don't agree with you on that.
Just, like, today was silly. You were like, "I bought you flowers,"
but you know I don't like that type of stuff.
Do you think maybe I wanted you to buy me flowers?
Yeah.
Do you think it's hard?
I don't know, because Bridget didn't require all of that.
It's definitely way easier. I didn't have to think about that stuff.
She just appreciated when I would do small things.
I get what you're saying, but to me,
it's more like, why can't you do it?
With Britney, I didn't have to ask for it.
Like, she would just be caring,
and show up, and be attentive to me.
I feel like I'm trying and trying and it's, like, never good enough,
which is why I did this exact thing here,
and I was like, "This is it for me. Marry or move on."
Because how much more do I need to do to, like, show you that I love you?
Like, I've never wavered in my love for you. Not one time.
You haven't shown up in terms of the way that I receive love.
All because I didn't go buy you flowers or, like, a romantic gesture?
I've taken you out on dates.
You're sitting here making me out to be a fucking shit girlfriend,
and that's not true at all.
I'm just saying
-I don't feel completely secure. -How do you not?
All I do is love you. This entire time I've loved you.
Three and a half years.
I literally have fought for you time and time again,
and it's, like, never good enough.
Like, this is the biggest issue.
The biggest issue is, like, how I receive love?
-No, I did not just say that. -Is that our biggest issue?
You put words in my mouth over and over again.
Then what's our biggest issue?
-Our biggest issue-- -That I'm too much?
Seriously, are you gonna keep going?
Our biggest issue is this.
I think I'm doing one thing. You think you're doing another thing,
and, like, we're both just, like, not happy.
We're not aligning.
I don't think that's true at all.
I think that, like, you could put in more effort.
I think that you know that deep down…
it feels like we're roommates or friends.
It's because we're not doing the romantic stuff.
I don't know how to figure this out.
I am so rough around the edges
I just need a break for a minute.
Where are you going?
It's like so hard A mixed message
That I, in love for you I care not what I do
Wish I didn't have so many questions
Do I go back to another time Or ride my nothings left behind me?
I wasn't so confused
I'm in a lot of pain right now.
I feel very hurt.
I feel very betrayed.
We had something so good at one point.
I at least just want to try.
If it's not there, I'll let you go.
I'm willing to work on things with you.
What is important is
I want to know how your experience has been.
I don't know. Like, I think I have a bond with Mel.
This experience… how can you not be bonded to this person?
They literally walked through trauma with you.
To be honest, I don't know if I have feelings for Mel, like…
-I could. -But here's the thing, though.
You're off getting matching tattoos that we said we'd get together,
so it's like now we have no sacredness together.
Now I feel like anybody can have what I have with you.
-Really? -Yes. Absolutely, Dayna.
There's a level of consideration that you should have,
and you crossed the line, multiple times.
Do you want to tell me about your three weeks?
-Yeah. -Okay.
Haley and I hooked up.
What does hooked up mean?
Like… everything.
Are you serious?
Wow. Do you have some nerve.
I've never met somebody so similar to me, and it was different,
because I don't normally date people who are like that.
But I felt like there was just a really deep connection with Haley,
and to be honest, like, there was also an emotional connection too.
And I feel like I developed feelings for Haley too.
So it wasn't just… sex.
I'm in love with Haley.
Oh my God.
I can't, bro. I can't. Like… I literally can't with you right now.
How could you fucking do this to me?
Have you told her that?
-Yeah. -Has she told you that?
You really feel like that?
Like, truly in your heart, you feel like that?
The amount of judgment you passed on me?
No wonder you fucking hate me. You've been trying to hate me
so you feel better about your fucking self.
Because you did exactly what you thought I was gonna do, but you did it.
I thought I was the bad guy.
Oh my God, I'm such a fucking idiot.
You're in love with somebody else.
How can you be in love with somebody else?
After everything we've had.
You spent three weeks with this person. How does that compare?
Oh my God, this is not happening, this is not happening.
There must be something in the water
Okay.
Ah, breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
I need you to get on a flight right now and come down here.
Right now.
When your memories faltered
No, I can't call somebody. I need you.
Please, Mom. I can't breathe. I need you to come down here.
Please, I'm gonna lose my mind. I need you.
Now I have nothing to stay here for.
I lost my person. That's all I was here for.
That's all I care about.
There must be something in the water
My heart is shattered.
Something in the water
There must be something in the water
It began slow
-I fell in love with you, Magan. -I don't regret anything.
It feels like you're stuck between someone that you met in three weeks
versus someone you've known for ten years.
You opened your heart to someone. It was a test and you failed.
You know, I forgive you. But also, I don't want to leave this
and feel that I was a safe second option.
I don't know if it's something I can forgive.
The second you fully trust love, what does that set you up for?
Until you both get on the same page, it's just never gonna work.
I'm kind of confused.
You had sexual stuff with Mel.
You gave me the Ultimatum.
I want to answer that to the best of my abilities.
Are you prepared to lose me?
It begins now
Today is a huge, huge day.
At a crossroads
I'm putting my heart in someone else's hands.
Where do we go from here?
There's still the unknown, but I think holding this
makes me really excited.
Falling in love with someone else hurt Pilar so much,
but this is confusing for me to be in love with two people.
This decision will change the course of our lives forever.
You do deserve all the love in the world.
I'm going to have your back and love you forever.
You mean the world to me.
I'm scared of making the wrong decision.
Where do we go from here?
We all eat lies When our hearts are hungry
And we all drink shame When our souls break
I say lie lie lie one more time to me
You said I'll be here until the end e