1 00:00:18,208 --> 00:00:19,208 How are you? 2 00:00:21,375 --> 00:00:22,458 How am I? 3 00:00:26,750 --> 00:00:28,208 I'm a mess. 4 00:00:33,208 --> 00:00:35,000 But I say I'm fine when people ask. 5 00:00:38,791 --> 00:00:40,291 LEYLA'S LAST SUPPER 6 00:00:40,375 --> 00:00:46,291 Because I find it difficult even to give myself an answer to this question. 7 00:00:47,416 --> 00:00:51,041 I'm also overwhelmed by the search for the right thing. 8 00:00:51,125 --> 00:00:54,500 If the right thing even exists. I don't know. 9 00:00:56,916 --> 00:00:58,041 I couldn't find it. 10 00:01:06,416 --> 00:01:08,791 I just want to feel good. 11 00:01:11,250 --> 00:01:14,500 I want to be free of feeling stuck. 12 00:01:47,458 --> 00:01:49,625 That's why I run away from questions. 13 00:01:50,291 --> 00:01:52,916 Because I'm scared of what I'm going to answer. 14 00:01:56,458 --> 00:01:57,541 "How are you?" 15 00:01:59,875 --> 00:02:00,875 I'm running away. 16 00:02:01,750 --> 00:02:02,958 That's my answer. 17 00:02:05,625 --> 00:02:06,625 Leyla! 18 00:02:17,375 --> 00:02:20,458 THANK YOU, NEXT 19 00:02:30,958 --> 00:02:33,041 I'm always on edge. 20 00:02:35,250 --> 00:02:40,708 As if there is always a defeat waiting for me around the corner. 21 00:02:42,125 --> 00:02:42,958 A defeat? 22 00:02:45,416 --> 00:02:46,416 Yes. 23 00:02:48,916 --> 00:02:50,875 Like, there is this man. 24 00:02:55,666 --> 00:02:57,083 I mean… 25 00:02:57,666 --> 00:02:59,708 Not like that, but… 26 00:03:00,541 --> 00:03:02,666 I mean, nothing happened between us. 27 00:03:07,708 --> 00:03:08,541 Hello? 28 00:03:09,166 --> 00:03:11,125 Because I was scared. 29 00:03:11,208 --> 00:03:13,083 -Isn't she coming? -She's here. 30 00:03:13,583 --> 00:03:15,791 -Where were you, Leyloş? -I'm here now. 31 00:03:29,625 --> 00:03:33,166 And I was annoyed by him right from the beginning. 32 00:03:33,666 --> 00:03:35,500 For me, he is danger. 33 00:03:35,583 --> 00:03:38,666 Red flags hanging over him. 34 00:03:41,416 --> 00:03:46,000 He says, "I'll make you suffer," from a thousand feet away. 35 00:03:49,708 --> 00:03:51,166 He says, "I'm a narcissist." 36 00:03:51,791 --> 00:03:53,875 "My ego is sky-high." 37 00:03:53,958 --> 00:03:58,041 "I'm sly. I'm arrogant. I'm jealous." 38 00:03:59,125 --> 00:04:02,000 Those red flags say, "I'm used to getting what I want." 39 00:04:02,083 --> 00:04:03,166 But? 40 00:04:03,250 --> 00:04:08,166 No buts. It is-- It was a magnetic attraction. 41 00:04:08,250 --> 00:04:10,125 It wasn't something that couldn't be dealt with. 42 00:04:11,916 --> 00:04:14,333 I didn't even want to get to know him. 43 00:04:15,083 --> 00:04:19,125 These kinds of men aren't that likeable when you get to know them anyway. 44 00:04:20,875 --> 00:04:26,291 When you see his weaknesses and flaws, would you still desire him fiercely? 45 00:04:26,375 --> 00:04:27,583 I don't think so. 46 00:04:28,083 --> 00:04:30,041 A relationship should be consistent. 47 00:04:30,125 --> 00:04:33,166 That's the most important thing to me. 48 00:04:33,750 --> 00:04:37,083 You should have the same concerns as your partner. 49 00:04:37,166 --> 00:04:39,208 You should have the same dreams. 50 00:04:40,333 --> 00:04:43,666 I have nothing in common with him. 51 00:04:46,916 --> 00:04:51,541 I knew what he was on the very first day. 52 00:04:51,625 --> 00:04:53,291 He's problematic. 53 00:04:54,500 --> 00:04:57,000 He's been married and divorced three times! 54 00:04:57,791 --> 00:05:00,500 And those people are still in his life. 55 00:05:04,708 --> 00:05:07,833 His first wife, second wife, third wife… 56 00:05:07,916 --> 00:05:09,875 They're always around him. 57 00:05:10,541 --> 00:05:12,916 The man is a real collector. 58 00:05:26,875 --> 00:05:31,791 No, I don't want to be one of his women. 59 00:05:32,708 --> 00:05:35,875 I can't be, anyway. That's impossible. 60 00:05:35,958 --> 00:05:40,166 I would have to be insane to become his fourth victim. 61 00:05:40,666 --> 00:05:44,916 That's why I won't get close to him or be in a relationship with him. 62 00:05:46,750 --> 00:05:51,791 Narcissistic guys like him can easily convince their prey. 63 00:05:51,875 --> 00:05:53,250 You'd be wooed in no time. 64 00:05:54,291 --> 00:05:57,583 He'll captivate you in such a way 65 00:05:57,666 --> 00:06:02,125 that the next thing you know, you're sitting in front of the officiant. 66 00:06:02,208 --> 00:06:03,916 And then it's… 67 00:06:04,916 --> 00:06:06,041 Marriage. 68 00:06:06,541 --> 00:06:07,833 Defeat. 69 00:06:10,708 --> 00:06:12,958 I look at the relationships around me. 70 00:06:14,083 --> 00:06:16,250 They all start eagerly. 71 00:06:17,041 --> 00:06:21,250 Abundant promises, hasty vows. 72 00:06:21,333 --> 00:06:24,916 The less confident they are, the louder they are. 73 00:06:25,416 --> 00:06:29,833 "I do, till the end of time. I do, till death do us part." 74 00:06:29,916 --> 00:06:31,083 And then? 75 00:06:32,333 --> 00:06:36,041 Really, I wonder what exactly happens 76 00:06:36,125 --> 00:06:39,916 and we start getting annoyed by one another this much? 77 00:06:40,833 --> 00:06:43,208 Why do we start deceiving each other? 78 00:06:44,958 --> 00:06:48,500 You know the love stories that are embedded in our DNA? 79 00:06:48,583 --> 00:06:50,000 They don't really exist. 80 00:06:50,625 --> 00:06:54,041 Because none of them are remotely close to reality. 81 00:06:54,125 --> 00:06:55,583 You don't know how tiring it is… 82 00:06:55,666 --> 00:07:01,083 How can everyone fall into the same obvious trap? 83 00:07:01,166 --> 00:07:02,125 I don't know. 84 00:07:02,625 --> 00:07:04,791 You get married to be closer. 85 00:07:04,875 --> 00:07:05,875 Sure, go then! 86 00:07:06,500 --> 00:07:10,541 Then you start to grow apart as soon as you get married. 87 00:07:18,083 --> 00:07:20,708 No one is real. No one is sincere. 88 00:07:21,250 --> 00:07:25,708 It's like they've covered all the wrinkles with plastic surgery. 89 00:07:25,791 --> 00:07:29,041 We're surrounded by fake people who are all wrinkled up inside, 90 00:07:29,125 --> 00:07:30,958 but filled with Botox outside. 91 00:07:31,041 --> 00:07:34,791 Ugh! Maybe you should have picked a more cheerful costume. 92 00:07:34,875 --> 00:07:36,583 THERE IS NO PLANET B 93 00:07:36,666 --> 00:07:38,708 I'm looking at everyone here. 94 00:07:38,791 --> 00:07:41,958 If you add up all these guys, they're not worth one Ömer. 95 00:07:42,458 --> 00:07:45,166 I see it more and more every day. 96 00:07:45,250 --> 00:07:48,750 No, my love. Look, I'm serious. Your ex can't be your next. 97 00:07:48,833 --> 00:07:52,166 As famous thinkers say, "Thank you, next." 98 00:07:52,250 --> 00:07:53,333 Funda! 99 00:07:54,375 --> 00:07:55,541 My love! 100 00:08:00,166 --> 00:08:04,708 We're breathlessly pursuing an illusion just to avoid saying, "I was wrong." 101 00:08:05,250 --> 00:08:06,625 What about black? No. 102 00:08:06,708 --> 00:08:09,916 This satin ecru-ish nude is sexier, huh? 103 00:08:10,000 --> 00:08:14,083 Hmm. Can we see both the ecru and the black one please? 104 00:08:14,166 --> 00:08:17,500 We detach from our true selves to avoid being alone. 105 00:08:17,583 --> 00:08:19,708 Then we call it a long-term relationship. 106 00:08:19,791 --> 00:08:22,333 It's actually a long-term death, nothing else. 107 00:08:22,416 --> 00:08:24,750 Baby, what death are you talking about? 108 00:08:24,833 --> 00:08:26,791 You've only been seeing each other for two weeks. 109 00:08:26,875 --> 00:08:29,250 Is he coming to the party? Are we finally going to meet him? 110 00:08:29,333 --> 00:08:31,000 Of course not. I didn't invite him. 111 00:08:31,083 --> 00:08:33,583 It's only been two weeks. I wouldn't let him join us. 112 00:08:34,083 --> 00:08:35,625 I didn't get him a present either. 113 00:08:35,708 --> 00:08:39,625 Oh? Why didn't you buy a present? Buy something small, a book or something. 114 00:08:39,708 --> 00:08:40,791 What if he bought you… 115 00:08:40,875 --> 00:08:43,833 I'm afraid of settling for mediocrity. 116 00:08:44,791 --> 00:08:45,791 Yes. 117 00:08:46,833 --> 00:08:48,791 I'm afraid of looking in the mirror one day… 118 00:08:48,875 --> 00:08:50,000 Thank you. 119 00:08:50,083 --> 00:08:53,666 …and seeing that the light in my eyes has faded. 120 00:08:54,166 --> 00:08:59,708 I'm afraid that the choices I'm sure of will wreck me one day. 121 00:08:59,791 --> 00:09:01,291 I'm afraid of regretting. 122 00:09:03,125 --> 00:09:08,708 Ten! Nine! Eight! Seven! Six! Five… 123 00:09:08,791 --> 00:09:13,208 "I don't want to make promises. I don't want to take responsibility." 124 00:09:13,291 --> 00:09:16,458 "I want to sleep with everyone I meet. And then I want to disappear." 125 00:09:16,541 --> 00:09:18,583 That's the kind of relationships people have. 126 00:09:20,166 --> 00:09:25,083 You see, there are guys who disappear without even leaving a message. 127 00:09:25,625 --> 00:09:28,250 That's what I hear from my friends. 128 00:09:31,750 --> 00:09:34,375 And of course, women don't go after them. 129 00:09:36,166 --> 00:09:37,916 And then, loneliness… 130 00:09:41,375 --> 00:09:43,791 is the only right option left for me. 131 00:09:49,166 --> 00:09:51,083 What if I told you I missed the pandemic? 132 00:09:52,500 --> 00:09:54,083 The pandemic or Ömer? 133 00:09:56,500 --> 00:09:58,458 No, I don't think that's it. 134 00:09:59,333 --> 00:10:01,583 Everyone was so different during the pandemic. 135 00:10:03,083 --> 00:10:05,916 As if the end of the world was coming, 136 00:10:07,291 --> 00:10:09,458 everyone sought shelter in each other. 137 00:10:11,541 --> 00:10:13,916 Ömer moved in with you during the pandemic. 138 00:10:15,625 --> 00:10:16,625 Right? 139 00:10:21,333 --> 00:10:22,333 Not bad at all. 140 00:10:25,416 --> 00:10:27,000 Bravo! 141 00:10:29,458 --> 00:10:30,625 He's shocked. 142 00:10:31,500 --> 00:10:33,583 All right. What's for dinner tonight? 143 00:10:35,333 --> 00:10:40,041 A person's reality changes depending on the situation they are in. 144 00:10:40,583 --> 00:10:42,250 In those days, 145 00:10:42,333 --> 00:10:47,041 we feared our dreams would vanish and never come back. 146 00:10:52,958 --> 00:10:55,208 Everything was so different in the beginning. 147 00:10:55,291 --> 00:10:59,041 The whole world was focusing on a single problem, 148 00:10:59,125 --> 00:11:04,375 everyone was fearing the same thing, fighting against a common enemy. 149 00:11:04,458 --> 00:11:06,333 That was so encouraging. 150 00:11:20,041 --> 00:11:22,000 -Leyla. -My dear. 151 00:11:22,083 --> 00:11:24,250 -I love you so much. -Oh! 152 00:11:26,125 --> 00:11:30,083 -What did you dream about? -It wasn't like a dream. It felt so real. 153 00:11:31,083 --> 00:11:34,208 -Was I dead? -You were wearing a wedding dress. 154 00:11:34,958 --> 00:11:35,791 And? 155 00:11:36,666 --> 00:11:39,333 You were wearing your grandmother's wedding dress. 156 00:11:39,916 --> 00:11:43,208 -What about my hair? Was my hair loose? -You were so beautiful! 157 00:11:44,333 --> 00:11:45,666 But you were with Sarp. 158 00:11:46,416 --> 00:11:47,500 No! 159 00:11:48,333 --> 00:11:50,333 And you made me your wedding witness. 160 00:11:50,416 --> 00:11:51,625 I tried to talk but couldn't. 161 00:11:51,708 --> 00:11:53,791 When I opened my mouth, my lips disappeared. 162 00:11:54,291 --> 00:11:58,125 Looking into my eyes, you shouted, "I do, till the end of time!" 163 00:11:58,208 --> 00:11:59,208 No, Ömer. 164 00:11:59,291 --> 00:12:02,291 I don't want to get married to him. I want to get married to you. 165 00:12:02,375 --> 00:12:03,750 -You do? -Yes! 166 00:12:04,625 --> 00:12:05,500 And then? 167 00:12:08,625 --> 00:12:09,583 He kissed you. 168 00:12:10,333 --> 00:12:12,041 It was awful. I cried a lot. 169 00:12:13,166 --> 00:12:14,916 It was so frustrating. 170 00:12:15,458 --> 00:12:16,458 That asshole. 171 00:12:16,958 --> 00:12:18,958 Oh, Ömer! 172 00:12:19,041 --> 00:12:22,041 Aw, poor you! Please don't cry, my sweetheart. 173 00:12:22,125 --> 00:12:24,583 You lost me to that goof Sarp? 174 00:12:25,958 --> 00:12:29,666 I must have lost my memory. How would I leave you otherwise? 175 00:12:34,708 --> 00:12:35,708 Oh. 176 00:12:38,791 --> 00:12:40,541 -I'll tell you what. -Yeah? 177 00:12:45,833 --> 00:12:46,666 Shall we get married? 178 00:12:48,791 --> 00:12:49,708 Huh? 179 00:12:49,791 --> 00:12:53,500 -So Sarp won't steal me? -No, I'm serious. Shall we get married? 180 00:12:55,916 --> 00:12:56,750 Okay. 181 00:12:57,875 --> 00:12:58,708 Really? 182 00:12:59,708 --> 00:13:00,791 Hooray! Ouch! 183 00:13:02,666 --> 00:13:04,833 Are we engaged now? 184 00:13:04,916 --> 00:13:07,625 -I have to tell my parents right away. -Do it. 185 00:13:09,083 --> 00:13:11,625 The pandemic is over, and so is the dream. 186 00:13:12,791 --> 00:13:17,916 We made decisions that we wouldn't normally make, in an instant. 187 00:13:18,416 --> 00:13:23,541 I mean, I was still having second thoughts about living together. 188 00:13:23,625 --> 00:13:26,333 Then he suddenly moved in, and it was a done deal. 189 00:13:26,416 --> 00:13:29,000 But everyone has their own routine. 190 00:13:29,083 --> 00:13:34,833 You can tolerate things up to a point. After that, it starts to bother you. 191 00:13:35,416 --> 00:13:38,375 And when there is only one bathroom in the apartment, 192 00:13:38,458 --> 00:13:41,458 there isn't much romance left. 193 00:13:42,916 --> 00:13:45,083 Leyla, dear. A relationship is… 194 00:13:47,500 --> 00:13:50,541 embracing everything about your partner. 195 00:13:54,625 --> 00:13:57,166 Only you guys can do that. 196 00:13:58,375 --> 00:13:59,708 You and Mom. 197 00:14:10,125 --> 00:14:16,083 Unfortunately, my bar is set too high because of you two. 198 00:14:24,958 --> 00:14:27,375 You're still very much in love with her, aren't you? 199 00:14:29,458 --> 00:14:32,000 There aren't many words to describe what we have. 200 00:14:32,083 --> 00:14:34,291 Oh, Dad! You guys are the best! 201 00:14:36,500 --> 00:14:37,958 -You know what? -Yeah? 202 00:14:38,041 --> 00:14:40,666 I'm glad you can finally talk about Ömer. 203 00:14:42,958 --> 00:14:46,666 I got a bit too chatty lately. 204 00:14:47,375 --> 00:14:50,958 Too much talk, zero relationships. I'm doing a detox. 205 00:14:53,750 --> 00:14:55,500 Let's go to them. 206 00:14:56,375 --> 00:14:57,416 We're here. 207 00:14:57,500 --> 00:14:59,791 Buddy, dear! My love! 208 00:15:03,250 --> 00:15:05,750 You couldn't stop talking behind my back, right? 209 00:15:05,833 --> 00:15:07,708 No, we didn't even get started on you yet. 210 00:15:07,791 --> 00:15:09,583 -That much? -That much. 211 00:15:09,666 --> 00:15:11,583 Let's eat. The table's set. 212 00:15:11,666 --> 00:15:13,291 All right. We're coming. 213 00:15:16,125 --> 00:15:18,125 I heard we have a guest. 214 00:15:18,208 --> 00:15:20,250 Is that so? Who? 215 00:15:23,666 --> 00:15:24,666 Really? 216 00:15:24,750 --> 00:15:27,583 Really. Your uncle invited me. 217 00:15:29,333 --> 00:15:30,333 Okay, dear. 218 00:15:33,666 --> 00:15:35,041 -Hello, Mr. Cem. -Hello. 219 00:15:35,125 --> 00:15:35,958 Let me. 220 00:15:36,041 --> 00:15:38,416 -Cem, welcome. -Hello. I'm not late, am I? 221 00:15:38,500 --> 00:15:40,333 No, you're right on time as always. 222 00:15:40,416 --> 00:15:42,875 Is this the professional serial killer? 223 00:15:42,958 --> 00:15:44,500 Don't mention it. I'm glad you came. 224 00:15:44,583 --> 00:15:46,291 -Happy birthday. -Thank you very much. 225 00:15:46,375 --> 00:15:49,250 Reyhan, Mahir, let me introduce you to Cem Murathan. 226 00:15:49,333 --> 00:15:51,458 He's our neighbor and client. 227 00:15:51,541 --> 00:15:54,000 -My sister, Reyhan Taylan. -Nice to meet you. 228 00:15:54,083 --> 00:15:55,333 -Welcome. -Thank you. 229 00:15:55,416 --> 00:15:57,125 -My brother-in-law, Mahir Taylan. -Mr. Mahir. 230 00:15:57,208 --> 00:15:58,250 Nice to meet you. 231 00:15:58,875 --> 00:16:01,000 -We've actually met before. -Oh? 232 00:16:01,083 --> 00:16:04,500 I mean, I went out of my way trying to meet you. 233 00:16:04,583 --> 00:16:06,416 Why don't I know this? 234 00:16:08,083 --> 00:16:09,250 Well… 235 00:16:09,333 --> 00:16:10,958 -Yeah. -Please. 236 00:16:11,625 --> 00:16:14,083 Can, these are the wines from the auction. 237 00:16:14,166 --> 00:16:16,583 They're all from '72. You're the same age. 238 00:16:21,208 --> 00:16:24,458 It's an exquisite gift. Thank you very much. You didn't need to. 239 00:16:24,541 --> 00:16:26,958 You're welcome. Happy 50th. 240 00:16:28,333 --> 00:16:29,375 -Enjoy. -Enjoy. 241 00:16:29,458 --> 00:16:30,458 Enjoy. 242 00:16:34,333 --> 00:16:37,666 -The wine is splendid. -Why don't you take a sip, Mahir? 243 00:16:38,458 --> 00:16:42,500 Even a sip will hurt my stomach. I'm better off not drinking. 244 00:16:42,583 --> 00:16:44,333 I'll give my share to Reyhan. 245 00:16:44,416 --> 00:16:45,791 No objection at all. 246 00:16:47,041 --> 00:16:49,708 So, shall we pick up where we left off, Cem? 247 00:16:50,208 --> 00:16:54,291 I've been wondering about the rest of the story about you and my dad. 248 00:16:54,375 --> 00:16:57,541 Oh, yeah. You were telling us about how we met. 249 00:16:58,916 --> 00:17:01,083 I was studying architecture in Milan. 250 00:17:01,166 --> 00:17:03,000 And you were a panelist there. 251 00:17:03,500 --> 00:17:06,208 You were really excited about your new project. 252 00:17:07,875 --> 00:17:08,958 2009. 253 00:17:09,833 --> 00:17:11,875 Yes, 2009. 254 00:17:11,958 --> 00:17:14,666 You were talking about the psychology of buildings. 255 00:17:15,958 --> 00:17:20,250 You were talking about your new work with love, as if it were a woman. 256 00:17:21,083 --> 00:17:22,333 Yes, I remember that. 257 00:17:24,458 --> 00:17:25,833 I don't. 258 00:17:26,375 --> 00:17:29,458 Dear, you started living with your uncle that year. 259 00:17:29,541 --> 00:17:32,208 That takes me back. Yes, that was our first summer. 260 00:17:32,291 --> 00:17:34,541 I was running after you, having panic attacks. 261 00:17:34,625 --> 00:17:37,750 I really didn't know what to do with such a fiery girl running around. 262 00:17:37,833 --> 00:17:39,375 I was like your nanny. 263 00:17:42,750 --> 00:17:44,500 Which project was that, Dad? 264 00:17:45,833 --> 00:17:47,208 Well, it didn't materialize. 265 00:17:47,291 --> 00:17:50,166 So many things went wrong. We had to cancel it. 266 00:17:50,250 --> 00:17:52,041 I see. What a shame. 267 00:17:52,666 --> 00:17:53,791 Sorry to hear that. 268 00:17:54,583 --> 00:18:00,541 It was a rather hard project to conduct. 269 00:18:00,625 --> 00:18:02,708 It was more exciting on paper. 270 00:18:02,791 --> 00:18:06,708 Then Reyhan was assigned to Tokyo, and we moved there. 271 00:18:07,958 --> 00:18:12,083 But I let you decide, as always, my darling. 272 00:18:12,166 --> 00:18:13,708 You didn't have to come. 273 00:18:13,791 --> 00:18:17,250 But my home is always right beside you, my love. 274 00:18:19,958 --> 00:18:22,416 There is definitely a story here. 275 00:18:22,500 --> 00:18:24,333 Ah! A story, right. 276 00:18:24,416 --> 00:18:29,416 We have stories everywhere around us, right, darling? 277 00:18:30,708 --> 00:18:33,333 -To stories then. -Let's drink. 278 00:18:35,166 --> 00:18:36,750 -Cheers. -Cheers. 279 00:18:44,750 --> 00:18:47,666 Happy birthday, Uncly! 280 00:18:48,958 --> 00:18:52,333 Happy birthday to you! 281 00:18:57,958 --> 00:18:59,416 Come here. Come… 282 00:19:00,291 --> 00:19:03,083 How can he be 50? Explain it to me. 283 00:19:03,166 --> 00:19:05,958 Stop reminding everyone. Let me blow out these candles. 284 00:19:14,541 --> 00:19:16,666 Thank you very much for coming. 285 00:19:16,750 --> 00:19:18,500 -To you. -Cheers. 286 00:19:33,166 --> 00:19:34,458 You're quiet today. 287 00:19:35,583 --> 00:19:36,916 My mouth is full. 288 00:19:40,333 --> 00:19:42,625 Can we go for a walk? I want to talk. 289 00:19:43,583 --> 00:19:45,666 If it's about Ms. Tuba's book, 290 00:19:46,166 --> 00:19:49,791 it will be another project left on paper. 291 00:19:50,291 --> 00:19:52,708 We'll issue a legal notice to the publisher this week. 292 00:19:55,083 --> 00:19:58,125 It wasn't that, but I'm glad to hear it. 293 00:19:59,416 --> 00:20:02,583 Your secrets will stay with you. You can rest easy. 294 00:20:03,375 --> 00:20:05,708 Though another one was exposed tonight. 295 00:20:07,291 --> 00:20:09,916 Why didn't you tell me you knew my father? 296 00:20:11,625 --> 00:20:14,416 Right, we didn't have much opportunity to talk. 297 00:20:15,000 --> 00:20:16,125 You're right. 298 00:20:22,208 --> 00:20:23,291 You're angry with me. 299 00:20:24,750 --> 00:20:25,583 I get that. 300 00:20:26,208 --> 00:20:28,833 I'm not angry. I'm not angry with you. 301 00:20:28,916 --> 00:20:31,291 Being angry is an expression of emotion. 302 00:20:32,333 --> 00:20:36,166 I don't have any feelings about you. 303 00:20:37,208 --> 00:20:40,583 Your presence and absence don't really make a difference. 304 00:20:40,666 --> 00:20:44,541 That's why, on the contrary, it's good. 305 00:20:44,625 --> 00:20:46,666 I'm happy that we didn't waste any time. 306 00:20:47,250 --> 00:20:48,875 I'm even thankful. 307 00:20:49,416 --> 00:20:52,750 Yes, there was an attraction between us. We were curious. 308 00:20:54,208 --> 00:20:55,875 Now we won't wonder what if. 309 00:20:58,583 --> 00:20:59,708 So, it's over. 310 00:21:00,291 --> 00:21:03,250 It wasn't something unforgettable anyway. 311 00:21:04,208 --> 00:21:06,291 It was just a fling. 312 00:21:07,791 --> 00:21:10,791 So, you can relax. 313 00:21:11,833 --> 00:21:16,875 It really didn't leave a mark on me. 314 00:21:21,291 --> 00:21:24,000 I don't really want to talk about it, you know? 315 00:21:24,625 --> 00:21:25,625 I'll check on my parents. 316 00:21:57,916 --> 00:22:01,666 ÖMER CENKER AND THIS IS MY FAMILY ALBUM 317 00:22:15,708 --> 00:22:18,291 -Stop being a demagogue. -I'm not being a demagogue. 318 00:22:18,875 --> 00:22:21,041 That's your job, remember? You're the demagogue. 319 00:22:21,125 --> 00:22:24,125 You're so happy to play the hero to Leyla, 320 00:22:24,208 --> 00:22:25,958 you don't even realize the damage you've done. 321 00:22:26,041 --> 00:22:28,041 I'm only keeping quiet because that's what you want. 322 00:22:28,125 --> 00:22:30,250 It's fine by me. I can tell her everything. 323 00:22:30,333 --> 00:22:33,125 You can only tell her what a feminist you are. 324 00:22:33,208 --> 00:22:36,166 Go tell her you took my last name because of your father's debt. 325 00:22:36,750 --> 00:22:38,833 Do you think I can't tell her that? 326 00:22:38,916 --> 00:22:41,583 Tell her you can't drink because you're in alcoholism treatment. 327 00:22:41,666 --> 00:22:42,916 Why are you hiding these things? 328 00:22:43,000 --> 00:22:45,208 Tell her how you cheated on me with that scum. 329 00:22:45,291 --> 00:22:49,375 She keeps going on about setting the bar. Show her how low the bar is. 330 00:22:57,208 --> 00:22:58,458 Who the hell are you? 331 00:23:01,000 --> 00:23:03,583 Everything is out in the open now. 332 00:23:06,250 --> 00:23:08,541 Welcome to the real world, love. 333 00:23:08,625 --> 00:23:11,625 So, Leyloş, what about that thing in 2009? 334 00:23:12,916 --> 00:23:15,833 My father had an affair with a woman on the same project. 335 00:23:17,208 --> 00:23:20,291 -Oh, really? -Then he regretted it and told Mom. 336 00:23:20,375 --> 00:23:22,125 That's a big mistake. 337 00:23:22,833 --> 00:23:25,791 So, Mom went to Tokyo. Ran away, to be accurate. 338 00:23:26,375 --> 00:23:28,458 -Of course she did. She was right. -Yep. 339 00:23:29,125 --> 00:23:33,666 I swear I'd have torn his balls off before leaving. Properly. 340 00:23:35,125 --> 00:23:35,958 All right. 341 00:23:36,666 --> 00:23:37,833 Thank you. 342 00:23:37,916 --> 00:23:39,333 What did your father do? 343 00:23:40,041 --> 00:23:44,083 What could he do? He left the project and went after Mom. 344 00:23:44,166 --> 00:23:48,000 And they sent you away to your uncle to keep you out of the way, right? 345 00:23:50,583 --> 00:23:51,583 Exactly. 346 00:23:53,000 --> 00:23:53,875 I mean… 347 00:23:54,375 --> 00:23:56,500 I think the wound is still fresh. 348 00:23:56,583 --> 00:24:00,250 Dad still feels very guilty. Mom is still furious. 349 00:24:00,791 --> 00:24:03,750 The slightest stirring triggers an earthquake. 350 00:24:03,833 --> 00:24:06,166 But they've been together all these years. 351 00:24:06,250 --> 00:24:08,916 They could've broken up if they wanted to, right? 352 00:24:09,000 --> 00:24:09,958 Yeah. 353 00:24:10,541 --> 00:24:12,958 I think they didn't get a divorce because of me. 354 00:24:13,458 --> 00:24:15,208 There can be no other explanation. 355 00:24:15,291 --> 00:24:17,208 -I don't think so. -Neither do I. 356 00:24:19,541 --> 00:24:21,625 I think Dad… 357 00:24:23,458 --> 00:24:26,750 cowered down not to lose his place in my eyes. 358 00:24:26,833 --> 00:24:30,250 And as you know, Mom is allergic to failure. 359 00:24:30,833 --> 00:24:32,833 She was too proud to get divorced. 360 00:24:34,708 --> 00:24:37,416 -Right on time. -Is it your mom? 361 00:24:39,958 --> 00:24:43,083 "Leyla, dear, we're going back this Wednesday." 362 00:24:43,166 --> 00:24:45,333 "We'd love to see you before we go." 363 00:24:45,416 --> 00:24:48,166 "Please let us know when you're available." 364 00:24:48,250 --> 00:24:49,541 "We love you." 365 00:24:49,625 --> 00:24:51,875 We love you. We are going. 366 00:24:51,958 --> 00:24:54,041 We, we, we… 367 00:24:54,125 --> 00:24:56,333 As you see, they're still a team. 368 00:24:56,833 --> 00:24:59,666 They're still on their high horses. 369 00:24:59,750 --> 00:25:01,750 Stop picking at it, for God's sake. 370 00:25:01,833 --> 00:25:04,500 Even a dead body will fart if you poke it this much. 371 00:25:04,583 --> 00:25:06,500 Good God! 372 00:25:06,583 --> 00:25:07,833 Just don't drag it out. 373 00:25:07,916 --> 00:25:10,500 Let them do whatever they want. It's their lives. 374 00:25:10,583 --> 00:25:12,416 -Sarp, your mom's calling, dear. -Oh? 375 00:25:12,500 --> 00:25:15,375 -So, now it's my mom's turn. -Do you want some salad? 376 00:25:15,458 --> 00:25:16,458 Excuse me. 377 00:25:18,541 --> 00:25:19,833 Hello, Mom? 378 00:25:20,541 --> 00:25:21,541 Thanks, dear. 379 00:25:23,041 --> 00:25:24,041 What? 380 00:25:26,083 --> 00:25:28,541 -Which hospital? -What hospital? 381 00:25:29,291 --> 00:25:30,708 Okay, I'm coming. 382 00:25:31,708 --> 00:25:32,833 -What happened? -Sarp? 383 00:25:34,666 --> 00:25:37,291 My dad had a heart attack. He's in intensive care. 384 00:25:37,833 --> 00:25:38,916 -What? -Really? 385 00:25:40,416 --> 00:25:43,583 -Should I turn anything off? -I don't know. Wait. 386 00:25:43,666 --> 00:25:45,833 -Life is indeed a game. -I'll be back. 387 00:25:45,916 --> 00:25:49,833 You think you have multiple lives. And then you realize you have none. 388 00:25:50,333 --> 00:25:52,875 -Just when you think you've run out, ding! -Where are my keys? 389 00:25:52,958 --> 00:25:55,208 -See you, Buddy! -Here's another life for you. 390 00:25:57,875 --> 00:25:59,208 When you think you've had enough, 391 00:25:59,291 --> 00:26:03,000 life reminds you of the end you think will never come. 392 00:26:06,833 --> 00:26:09,833 Those endless struggles seem so childish then. 393 00:26:10,541 --> 00:26:14,291 You feel ashamed of the problems that seemed huge to you. 394 00:27:16,916 --> 00:27:21,666 When the heart runs out of oxygen, they say you feel a stinging pain. 395 00:27:21,750 --> 00:27:25,333 Apparently, the pain actually alerts you to the heart attack. 396 00:27:26,083 --> 00:27:30,291 Turns out, that pain is very important for your survival. 397 00:27:30,375 --> 00:27:31,541 Angina pectoris. 398 00:27:32,125 --> 00:27:34,583 They call that pain angina pectoris in medicine. 399 00:27:34,666 --> 00:27:37,166 -Did you know that? -Of course not. 400 00:27:37,250 --> 00:27:38,125 Shame on you. 401 00:27:39,750 --> 00:27:43,375 Not arteriosclerosis Nor nicotine, nor prison 402 00:27:43,458 --> 00:27:47,041 That's why, my dear Doctor That's why I have angina pectoris 403 00:27:49,416 --> 00:27:50,500 Nâzım Hikmet. 404 00:27:51,583 --> 00:27:56,000 This is how he got you, right? With poets and poems. 405 00:27:57,125 --> 00:28:00,375 We'd meet on this bench every Wednesday at 2:00 p.m. sharp. 406 00:28:01,583 --> 00:28:04,541 Mahir would come from his university, on the 1:15 bus. 407 00:28:04,625 --> 00:28:07,583 And my class would end at 1:30 p.m. 408 00:28:08,791 --> 00:28:13,125 And there he was, with sandwiches from Hisar Kiosk. 409 00:28:13,666 --> 00:28:14,958 We'd have a picnic. 410 00:28:15,041 --> 00:28:17,583 -Light on the chili. -Heavy on the pickles. 411 00:28:17,666 --> 00:28:20,041 -Hot dogs. -Hot dogs. 412 00:28:22,000 --> 00:28:24,666 -Always the same. -Then we would talk for hours. 413 00:28:24,750 --> 00:28:27,041 We would recite poems, read books. 414 00:28:28,500 --> 00:28:31,250 We would watch movies, sometimes argue. 415 00:28:32,875 --> 00:28:34,833 But we laughed a lot. 416 00:28:35,958 --> 00:28:37,750 That's how I always remember you. 417 00:28:37,833 --> 00:28:39,541 -I've always-- -Look. Hold on. 418 00:28:39,625 --> 00:28:41,291 I know where you're going with this. 419 00:28:41,375 --> 00:28:44,833 Don't bring up the "bar" again, okay? There's no bar in a relationship. 420 00:28:44,916 --> 00:28:47,791 A relationship is about understanding each other. 421 00:28:47,875 --> 00:28:48,875 It's about empathy. 422 00:28:49,541 --> 00:28:50,750 It's about patience. 423 00:28:51,750 --> 00:28:53,000 About forgiveness. 424 00:28:54,875 --> 00:28:57,625 It's about patience. About forgiveness. 425 00:28:59,041 --> 00:29:04,875 Leyloş, you may lose interest in your partner over time. It may happen. 426 00:29:05,791 --> 00:29:07,625 You may get distracted. 427 00:29:07,708 --> 00:29:11,208 You may feel lost in the relationship. 428 00:29:11,291 --> 00:29:13,708 Even a bit neglected. 429 00:29:15,291 --> 00:29:17,416 I mean, it's not easy to love someone. 430 00:29:17,916 --> 00:29:21,000 It's even harder to love someone despite their flaws. 431 00:29:21,083 --> 00:29:23,916 Is there anyone flawless in this world? Can you show me? 432 00:29:24,000 --> 00:29:25,458 Show me one. Come on. 433 00:29:28,416 --> 00:29:31,125 Everything we've been through these 40 years is real. 434 00:29:31,208 --> 00:29:34,458 It all belongs to us. We've accepted it. 435 00:29:35,916 --> 00:29:39,041 This is not a game. It's not to put on a show for you. 436 00:29:40,375 --> 00:29:41,833 But our love… 437 00:29:43,583 --> 00:29:47,916 is much bigger than our mistakes, and that's why we're still together. 438 00:29:49,333 --> 00:29:50,625 We are friends. 439 00:29:51,916 --> 00:29:53,833 -We are lovers. -We are lovers. 440 00:29:54,916 --> 00:29:56,666 -My love. -Darling. 441 00:29:58,333 --> 00:29:59,625 My baby. 442 00:30:01,333 --> 00:30:02,750 My dear girl. 443 00:31:15,833 --> 00:31:17,250 My dear Ömer. 444 00:31:17,333 --> 00:31:22,041 It breaks my heart that we haven't talked for the last couple of months. 445 00:31:22,125 --> 00:31:23,291 I understand you. 446 00:31:23,375 --> 00:31:25,041 You're trying to keep your distance 447 00:31:25,125 --> 00:31:27,125 out of respect for the person in your life. 448 00:31:27,208 --> 00:31:28,875 You're right. I accept it. 449 00:31:28,958 --> 00:31:33,208 But when I can't talk to you, words grow inside me. 450 00:31:33,291 --> 00:31:37,416 That's why I decided to write to you instead of waiting for the right time. 451 00:31:37,916 --> 00:31:40,458 So many things happened lately. 452 00:31:40,958 --> 00:31:43,791 For example, I got to know Mom and Dad all over again. 453 00:31:43,875 --> 00:31:47,625 Dad stood in front of me, took off the hero mask, and threw it away. 454 00:31:47,708 --> 00:31:50,083 Mom showed me her scars for the first time. 455 00:31:51,083 --> 00:31:54,041 Turns out they are real people, can you believe it? 456 00:31:54,708 --> 00:31:57,750 This brought me back to myself a bit. 457 00:31:57,833 --> 00:32:00,583 I started getting the Z-report of my recent years. 458 00:32:01,208 --> 00:32:05,708 I realized that I had made so many assumptions. 459 00:32:05,791 --> 00:32:07,333 -You want some? -I never questioned them. 460 00:32:07,416 --> 00:32:09,416 I simply took them for granted. 461 00:32:10,041 --> 00:32:13,458 I never listened. Only expressed what I, myself, felt. 462 00:32:15,291 --> 00:32:18,458 I didn't understand things fully. I was quick to judge. 463 00:32:19,041 --> 00:32:22,875 Worst of all, I never mended my broken pieces. 464 00:32:23,416 --> 00:32:26,958 I just left them lying there. And they cried after me. 465 00:32:29,958 --> 00:32:33,250 You see, I'm still at the scene of the incident, 466 00:32:33,333 --> 00:32:35,041 wandering through the wreckage. 467 00:32:35,125 --> 00:32:38,250 I realized I had a major part in the damage we left behind. 468 00:32:38,916 --> 00:32:40,416 Ömer left him downstairs. 469 00:32:41,916 --> 00:32:44,000 -Thank you, Mr. Dursun. -You're welcome. 470 00:32:48,125 --> 00:32:50,875 I understood that having the last word doesn't matter. 471 00:32:51,708 --> 00:32:56,083 That victories and defeats both poison a relationship. 472 00:33:27,083 --> 00:33:28,750 When you lose someone, 473 00:33:28,833 --> 00:33:31,041 at first you're numb with the pain. 474 00:33:31,541 --> 00:33:33,750 Then, gradually, it begins to sink in. 475 00:33:34,250 --> 00:33:37,916 Your anger turns into regret, into understanding, 476 00:33:38,666 --> 00:33:40,625 and then into longing. 477 00:33:42,708 --> 00:33:46,666 It turns out, nothing is worth knowingly losing someone you love. 478 00:33:46,750 --> 00:33:48,291 I know that very well now. 479 00:33:48,833 --> 00:33:52,333 My dear Ömer, you are my precious one. 480 00:33:58,875 --> 00:34:00,500 You're both my best friend 481 00:34:01,000 --> 00:34:04,291 and the person I have always loved and will always love. 482 00:34:05,666 --> 00:34:07,666 No matter what happens in our lives, 483 00:34:07,750 --> 00:34:09,791 no matter who we are with, 484 00:34:10,375 --> 00:34:12,666 I don't ever want to lose you. 485 00:34:13,583 --> 00:34:15,625 Never ever. 486 00:34:15,708 --> 00:34:17,541 I want you to know this. 487 00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:27,583 -Thanks. -Maybe I should take Buddy? 488 00:34:27,666 --> 00:34:31,333 You'll be visiting Sarp a lot. I'll keep him for a week, okay? 489 00:34:32,666 --> 00:34:33,833 -Okay, all right. -Okay. 490 00:34:48,541 --> 00:34:50,916 Buddy! Come on, boy. You're going. 491 00:34:53,041 --> 00:34:54,041 Here. 492 00:34:59,083 --> 00:35:01,958 -Do you want some coffee? -No, I'm fine. 493 00:35:02,500 --> 00:35:07,000 Look, I bought these yesterday. They smell nice, and they're cheaper too. 494 00:35:08,833 --> 00:35:09,875 Oh? 495 00:35:15,541 --> 00:35:17,125 Thank you for your letter. 496 00:35:19,041 --> 00:35:20,625 I read it over and over. 497 00:35:23,083 --> 00:35:25,958 You shouldn't have kept it. It may cause you trouble. 498 00:35:27,500 --> 00:35:29,791 No. I don't have anyone to answer to. 499 00:35:30,458 --> 00:35:31,666 What? Is it over? 500 00:35:33,458 --> 00:35:35,166 Yes, because… 501 00:35:36,708 --> 00:35:38,625 you are my precious one too. 502 00:35:39,666 --> 00:35:41,916 Very much so. You're the most precious one. 503 00:35:43,083 --> 00:35:45,208 Like a photo I hold the negative of. 504 00:35:46,250 --> 00:35:50,458 It can't be shared. Can't be copied. Can't be duplicated. 505 00:37:54,583 --> 00:37:56,833 Oh, my boy! 506 00:37:57,500 --> 00:37:58,750 -Oh, no! -Oh, my! 507 00:38:00,000 --> 00:38:02,125 Coming. I can't bear to see you like this. 508 00:38:06,083 --> 00:38:07,458 Okay, let's go. 509 00:38:14,208 --> 00:38:15,208 Leyla! 510 00:38:15,916 --> 00:38:16,958 Leyla! 511 00:38:18,250 --> 00:38:20,041 -Where is Leyla? -Calm down, man. 512 00:38:21,541 --> 00:38:23,125 -Ömer-- -Man! Ömer! 513 00:38:23,208 --> 00:38:24,083 Bastard! 514 00:38:24,166 --> 00:38:26,583 -I'll kill you! -Wait, what are you doing? Stop. 515 00:38:26,666 --> 00:38:28,125 -I'll murder you! -Look at me. 516 00:38:28,208 --> 00:38:30,208 -What are you doing, man? -I'll kill you! 517 00:38:30,291 --> 00:38:31,625 -Stop. -Easy. 518 00:38:51,208 --> 00:38:52,958 You'll never fool me again. 519 00:38:53,541 --> 00:38:55,000 I hate you. 520 00:38:57,375 --> 00:39:00,875 Ömer. Shall we play a game?